My Diagnosis Story | Borderline Personality Disorder

In today's video I talk about the main events that happened leading up until I was diagnosed with BPD at the age of 18. Borderline Personality Disorder is an illness that clinicians are reluctant to diagnose, and so can take many years of misdiagnosing and effort to be understood. I personally was very glad to finally find out what it was that had been troubling me for many years, and have since been able to work on myself and more importantly, work with my illness.
I hope everyone is well and safe, Mad x
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Music: Boba tea (Prod. by Lukrembo)

[@heatherjohnson333]

I was finally diagnosed with BPD two months ago, at age 50. Getting the proper diagnosis was like being handed my instruction manual. Thank you for sharing your experience.

[@ladonnaramirez1533]

I feel you. 🤗

[@21princemichael]

I went from suicidal and homeless & reckless to an MD degree and new life. Yes it was hard, defeating BPD was NOT easy and took time and learning BUT CAN BE DEFEATED. U can do it

[@daviedood2503]

U can't CURE a personality DISORDER. U can't take a pill and make it go away or just talk it away in therapy. A disorder doesn't work like that. Please get real and stop lying and misinforming people with staments like this. It can be "managed" to try their best to live as happy a life as they can.

[@emmacotterell]

Congratulations a big well done! X

[@kikiwang625]

I actually had the opposite experience. I was actually relatively new to services at that point, and was immediately diagnosed with BPD without an assessment. I was 18 as well. And now I have actually been properly diagnosed with bipolar and psychosis xx

[@ameliah1958]

Thank you for sharing your story. Its very similar to mine, so it was nice to hear that I’m not alone, but sucks to hear the mental health care system kept failing you and sending you back-and-forth aswell, it’s not helpful at all. Well done for getting here today, stay strong 👏💪

[@timpulver5932]

Thank you for sharing. It really helps others to not feel alone and to be open the seeking help - as hard as it can be.

[@natashaclark8008]

Aw you seem like an awesome gal!!. And take my hat off to you for putting all this out there to help others!!. Its great that you've had a diagnosis so young in life. I work for nhs 111 in London and speak to so many patients with similar problems that just aren't getting the help they need and really pulls on my heart strings!🤦🏻‍♀️... I'm 46 and wish I'd addressed things at your age as I'm kinda at the stage you are but double your age 🤣..denial is a horrid thing!... wishing you so much best and no doubt you've helped loads!! Xxx

[@madelinerose9161]

Thank you, I really appreciate your comment and the time you’ve taken to watch! Hats off to you too for the job you do and for addressing your own struggles. Age doesn’t matter, we all have our own personal journeys in life, and that includes our mental health/illnesses too. I really do hope the best for you - here if you ever need me x

[@justflufflez7582]

I had a really bad mental breakdown today enough for my parents to try and send me to the hospital. I tried to communicate how I was feeling mutilple times calmy and clearly. I increasingly got more upset and eventually I was told I was overreacting. I told my father to stop because I was becoming overwhelmed. He basically said I couldn't handle the truth while practically yelling at me. I left and went psycho. It got worse once they said they were taking me away. I begged them to stop and no one would look at me or listen to me. I felt so helpless.. I just don't know what to do. I'm terrified of getting therapy and not being understood. I don't know why I'm sharing this but I don't think it's ever been this bad before. I'm desperate to be understood..

[@madelinerose9161]

I'm so sorry you went through this and `i hope things have improved since? Sorry I didn't reply sooner, I rarely see my notifications as they come through. But I completely understand you and the situation you've described. I've experienced many like that myself. I hope you're getting the support you deserve now x

[@monicaglasgow1989]

I had a housemate who was studying psychology and I told him my psychologist was screening me for BPD and he said “that’s the worst thing you can have! It’s not treatable!” I got scared and stopped seeing my psychologist…I know my house mate meant well but I wish I had stuck with my doctors at the time. I imagine it would have meant the next few years were easier but I will never know that for sure. Stigma around mental health is really hard to break through.

[@madelinerose9161]

Oh no that's so awful...the stigma is honestly so damaging. People with BPD deserve to feel validated by being diagnosed (if they want one) and shouldn't be a thing to be scared of. Being diagnosed was the most reassuring thing for me - everything in my life suddenly clicked and made sense. I hope you're doing okay now x

[@donnablack6280]

You explained all that really well. I was diagnosed with BPD and adhd about twenty years ago. But when my husband began working with autistic adults he said one day "not being funny, but you're kind of like these guys." Long story short, I'm on the Autism Spectrum and have been told that Personality disorders are really a sort of symptom of that. So I just wondered if it's something you ever considered? 🙂

[@madelinerose9161]

Thank you. Funnily enough it is something that has crossed my mind before, but I don’t think I am. My mum works with autistic children and hasn’t felt I am, although she does always reiterate that we all fall somewhere on the autistic spectrum. Interesting though, I hope you’re doing well yourself x

[@daveslittlebeasties]

Your so brave to tell your Story and open your heart to all you have my upmost respect Madeline this will help more people than you can ever imagine ❤❤❤

[@madelinerose9161]

Thank you Dave! I really appreciate that, and thank you for taking the time to watch x

[@daveslittlebeasties]

@@madelinerose9161 ❤❤❤

[@ganeshapsychedelicrock4027]

I find that Weed helps, seriously... I was never a "Pot" smoker or any other type of smoker, other than the stuff that can kill and is perfectly legal. In the past, when I smoked it I would become paranoid, however... In 2017 I started having problems with my lower bk, disc prolapse, failed surgeries, loads of Prescription pills for chronic pain, mentally and Physically then late last year fearing the worst I tried canabis and after getting through that first Paranoia part (which by the way never happens now?!) I found a tiny piece of heaven.

[@cjwade]

This inspired me to make my own content on my own experience... thank you

[@madelinerose9161]

That's amazing, I just watched your video and I'm so glad you felt comfortable enough to share your story and contribute to de-stigmatising our illness. I wish you all the best x

[@jessroutley1248]

i had a completely different experience with being diagnosed with bpd! i was diagnosed over a 20 min phone convo (no assessment) and i was very new to services at the time and was only 18. since then ive gotten a second & third opinion and was diagnosed with anxiety, depression & ocd x

[@melissaharvey9387]

phone convo with who?

[@RaysDad]

The health system maze, implausible diagnoses, hospital rules & procedures, drug side-effects . . . Luckily most people aren't faced with these horrors.

[@_lilalex_x6369]

Proud of you ❤️ thank you for sharing your story ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@madelinerose9161]

❤️

[@ladonnaramirez1533]

I just turned 39 two days ago & I started DBT 4 weeks ago...I hope & pray I'm as strong as you one day to share my story.

[@madelinerose9161]

Happy Birthday for 2 days ago! I hope DBT is going well. Keep at it, it’s a long process and it’s never linear. But you’ll never regret getting better x

[@ladonnaramirez1533]

@@madelinerose9161 i newd your words! TY! Tough day!

[@williamchin5904]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@panospap5867]

Honey I'm male borderline I diagnosed 2 years ago and I'm recovering it's hard you have to find a good psychotherapist first take your meds and cry a lot with the battles with that monster have in mind there is a last battle and a last cry and then you win it it's the only battle the looser win in the end but you have to leave this canser to punish on you and make you cry this is the solution but with the rules of a good psychotherapist take care 🧡

[@PD-ss6qb]

Oh my goodness the mental health system took you for a ride! That sounds SO frustrating! I would’ve given up!!!

[@jasmineandrews5327]

Yes that’s what happens to me I have ptsd and BPD and I got passed around to loads of mental health teams x

[@madelinerose9161]

Unfortunately, it seems this is most people's experience. Big changes are needed to stop so many of us from being let down. I hope you're doing okay now x

[@Rachel_2112]

Thank u for sharing💚💚💚

[@emilyann8581]

Sounds similar to my story it’s a long process no one believed me and I hid it from my mom because she’s abusive emotionally.

[@madelinerose9161]

It's such an exhausting process. I hope you're doing okay though x

[@Natalaie]

U r similar to Hania Es, she was talking about bpd in Poland 😂😅❤😊

[@raginald7mars408]

This is about a 5 Year old refusing to grow up and mature. When such Infants meet - Chaos rules