My Eating Disorder Story

[@kenzietries8799]

I'm 5'10" and I relate SO MUCH with the struggle of feeling isolated because of your height. Ever since I can remember I just felt too big and awkward and clumsy than everyone else around me. (I'm 20 now though so my height doesn't bother me as much anymore; it just affected me a lot as a child).

[@shannonrose2508]

thank you so much for sharing! I am glad to hear i am not alone in this

[@carolannefournier851]

Im 5 "10 too and i relate to that feeling too! From quebec, canada, we are all beautiful humans 💞

[@cw9452]

Im 5'10" too and can relate!!

[@orianaaguas2375]

Wow. I went to WCI around the same time and I would've never guessed, as an outsider to your friend group, all the struggles you were going through. I actually looked to you for the "perfect person" (body, personality, etc) because I thought you were really pretty and nice. Which goes to show how crazy our minds are as a result of the societal definitions of perfection. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. I'm glad you're working towards getting better. I personally think you're beautiful, super smart and admired you as a person in high school (but of course, I'm not minimizing your personal body image difficulties by saying: "but you're so pretty, how can you think blah blah blah" because I know that eating disorders don't work like that). I still admire you now for being able to share something so personal and choosing not only to recover (which I can't imagine how difficult it is) but to help others by becoming a dietitian. Anyways, I'm not very good at communicating feelings in written form but I hope that rambling made sense. In short: I wish you happiness onwards!

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you so much for the kind words Oriana! I'm so glad to hear from you and for the support. Wishing you happiness onwards as well!

[@fromsurvivingtothriving5922]

Recovery is so hard. I was in recovery for a while and actually managed to get better for almost a year before I started to relapse. At first it wasn't bad, I just restricted a "tiny" bit. Then it slowly got worse. I went to PHP for 10 weeks last fall and I currently see a therapist twice a week, dietitian once a week, and I have an eating disorder support group for 2 hours once a week. Recovery is so hard and I really really hope it's all worth it. Stay strong! We can both do this!

[@shannonrose2508]

I am so glad to hear you are partaking in groups and really taking advantage of the resources in the recovery community! Sending love and strength. We got this

[@weepingwillows21]

Every bite you take is healing you. Keep going. Just know that you can be your definition of perfect, not society's and you will be fine because every single day is a second chance. You're worth it. Sending hugs your way

[@avrohomfordonski346]

I know someone said that the strongest people are those who deal with these mental health challenges and open up when it is so hard to in the 1st place!! Great job, Shannon!!

[@ayaysyay]

im 5'11 too and i relate so much with all of this because when you are taller you always feel 'bigger' just because of your height. I would always get called 'big' because of my height but i would always feel like it was my weight even though it wasn't. obviously since ive had an ed my parents haven't called me that anymore. I'm currently in recovery and trying to not hate myself. im really sorry you had to go through this i know exactly how you feel/ felt. I currently have covid while im in recovery for my ed which is really hard because it gives me even more reason to not eat. you are gorgeous and im so proud of you

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you for the comment Ella! I'm not sure how I missed this comment back when you commented - I hope your recovery is still going well

[@abbylovessoup]

Shannon, you're so so strong. I can't express how proud I am. I really look up to you, sending so much love and support.

[@shannonrose2508]

Thanks Abby ❤️❤️

[@hannahjewell8363]

I’ve been watching a lot of anorexia videos and I never knew that you could eat a bit and have it. This is very eye opening. I think I need to get help

[@hannahjewell8363]

I have been diagnosed with atypical anorexia, and if it wasn’t for your video I wouldn’t be in recovery x

[@christinat1402]

our stories are so similar. i’ve been a pretty tall girl all of my life and i danced ballet for 9 years. i was always in the back of everything and obviously being a dancer you look in the mirror every day, so i compared my height and weight to all the other girls around me (mostly short or shorter than me). it was devastating and something i’m still dealing with today.

[@shannonrose2508]

Christina T thank you so much for sharing 💞 we got this !

[@littlegreengiants811]

Hey Shannon! Oh my gosh, I'm tall too and because of that had struggles with food myself. You're video almost made me cry cause of how related my feelings are to yours.

[@elaineflores2510]

You are so brave, strong and beautiful! I stumbled across your channel and I am so happy you have found your way through this. It’s people like you who give me hope and it’s really amazing that you have shared your story not for “clout” or a reward but to help others. And I’m sorry you had to go through that but I’m glad you’re in a better place and I wish you the best ❤️ You have a new subscriber!

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you so much !

[@ikhaatvanavond3388]

Omg i relate so much! Been struggling since kindergarten as well! I always was the tallest girl people never wanted to push me on a swing for example. Because I was “big”. (I’ve always been skinny) also my mom used to buy clothes in size large, because I am so tall. This made me feel big. Thank you for your story, now I know I’m not alone

[@shannonrose2508]

Ik haatvanavond the dreaded size large - I feel you there! It has made me feel very insecure too 😭😭. Thanks for the comment! Sending a big hug. ❤️

[@michaelheckman9162]

Wow. Mad proud of you! This was a huge step to make and you did it. Plus you never know if this video might help someone else out who's struggling. Keep up the great work Shannon!

[@shannonrose2508]

Thanks Michael😊😊😊I really appreciate the support!

[@kateluongo974]

I'm not sure how I found this video-but I'm really glad that I did! Hi, my name is Kate and I relate to so much of your story. Rather than be very tall, I have always been really short (I'm 4"11) and dealt with getting made fun of and standing out. I always struggled so much with my body especially my short ("fat") legs. Similar to you-I had one moment at a New Years Eve Party when a nasty girl made a comment about my weight, even though I was completely healthy. It was that night that I decided I was going to change everything. I began running obsessively and felt that since I wasn't tall I didn't deserve to eat as much as other people, which lead me down a dangerous spiral that I am still (5 years later) climbing my way out of. Actually-my doctor also did not respond well when I was suffering from ED. She literally told my mom that it was fine for me to weigh less because of my height and she told me "I would love to have your stomach!" (great thing to say to someone with an eating disorder lol). Eating disorders are so serious and have so so many negative effects and I get so frustrated sometimes that some people still don't understand. Thank you for putting your story out there! I haven't been brave enough to do the same, and I really admire you for being so open! Anyways just wanted to say thanks and I hope you are doing ok. We are so so strong! Wish you all the joy and happiness

[@shannonrose2508]

Kate Luongo thank you so much for sharing! I am so glad you felt comfortable to do so. The comment your medical professional made has me SHOOK! I am so sorry you had that experience. I wish you the best in your ongoing recovery journey and appreciate you taking the time to share. Sending good and healing vibes ❤️

[@SC-ff9ib]

Amazing path you have chosen. Takes a strong, kind person. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you continue on this positive journey.

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you so much

[@feduprecovery446]

Thank you for sharing your Story, Recovery is a journey

[@bethanygrimes8337]

Congratulations and all good things for you! Thanks for the story. It was very relatable and I’m sure will be helpful for someone else who is suffering. Be well!

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you so much!

[@markmcardle96]

I’m so proud of you! Sending a huge hug!

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you Mark! 😊😊

[@mikismith]

im trying so hard to take the first step into recovery. i relate to so much of what you said. you inspire me.

[@shannonrose2508]

You got this! It is so worth it. Thank you so much for the comment and I wish you well

[@kieranh3144]

I think I speak for Michael and Abby as well when I say all of us loved having you on the ESQ manager squad, and we're all proud of you. In short: We stan the Shan

[@abbylovessoup]

we👏🏻stan👏🏻shan👏🏻 SO PROUD ❤❤❤

[@shannonrose2508]

This is so incredibly thoughtful! Thanks Kieran 😊😊😊I really appreciate it

[@michaelheckman9162]

@@shannonrose2508 might be time to retire the Sr. Squad and become Shan Stans

[@kieranh3144]

@@michaelheckman9162 I vote Yea on this motion

[@shannonrose2508]

Thanks Abby ❤️❤️❤️

[@Stillpsycho]

No one body shames me like my mom and my little brother...😭

[@emilyeggler4181]

so proud of u for sharing your so strong ily

[@antieverything]

Going through this currently. Thanks for sharing your story

[@loganthorpe92]

this is amazing how you have articulated all of this. i can completely and totally relate to your story

[@shannonrose2508]

thank you so much for the kindness and comment!

[@thepeacechannel7083]

This is an excellent video. Well done! I think your channel will do well, you are very personable and honest and real:)

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you so much!

[@caraelaines]

you’re so strong, thank you so much for sharing your journey!

[@shannonrose2508]

Thank you so much!

[@HeyImCaraX]

New subscriber here- Thankyou so much for speaking out and making this video!!! 💕💕💕

[@shannonrose2508]

HeyImCara X welcome and thank you so much for the support ❤️❤️❤️

[@ljmoore511]

I feel heartbroken ... you continue to amaze me everyday ... love you “Elle” ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@shannonrose2508]

Love you Aunt Lisa ❤️❤️❤️

[@ainsleymoore3490]

I love the strength that you have 💕💕💕

[@shannonrose2508]

Love you Ainsley

[@claudiavalentinausechevalo5909]

You are amazing and strong thanks for share your journey❤❤❤✨

[@AnitaVargas]

Thank you for sharing ❤️

[@PaulHosey-u3l]

I'm 6'3 but being a guy I like that lol but I started having body image issues in second grade so I hear you there. And yeah I still struggle with anorexia.

[@clarkeblair1734]

YOU ARE SO POWERFUL!!!

[@shannonrose2508]

YOU ARE SO SWEET

[@avrohomfordonski346]

How are things doing now as of 2022?

[@eslena9426]

Waiting for a new video 🧡🧡🧡

[@izzieskaa]

This is irrelevant but ur skin is flawlesss

[@shannonrose2508]

thats so sweet! thank you

[@MsGiuliasp]

Hey girl, I always wanted to be tall :/ I'm short

[@shannonrose2508]

You’re great just the way you are 🥰

[@MsGiuliasp]

@@shannonrose2508 Thanks, only if I would see it :/

[@goodra999]

only medical professionals that are your doctor and dieticians have the right to talk about weight not someone from high school when they mentioned your weight, same for family

[@cassie05]

I’m 5 feet. No. You don’t want to be short. It’s not that great down here either. Even at age 37 I STILL have short comments every single day. I have people run into me because I am not on their radar. And when you’re short? Muscle and fat has no where to go…so you’re essentially a potato with arms and legs. But everything you labeled I’ve basically done in terms of Ed. Struggled for 20+ years and I still have my days.