My Experience with Mania (Bipolar Disorder)

[@stevenmichaelhealey2877]

Thank you for the explanation of Mania. I feel the same way as you do. I do appreciate your honesty and your experience.

[@franciscanishagomes3944]

Very nice to listen to a person who has actually experienced mania.It helps a lot to understand the situation. Thanks bro for sharing your experience.

[@mae8861]

Thanks for your honesty. I have a 75 year old that cycles every 8 weeks manic, 5 weeks depressed. She will not admit she is bipolar. Wish I could get her on meds for all of our sakes. She drives us all nuts when manic. If she won’t admit it she won’t have to get on meds. Sucks

[@doubleds200]

Hey man, really glad you decided to share your story. I had a very similar experience with mania over a year ago (aside from the dick on table part) haha. But seriously, really courageous and inspiring to see this kind of honesty. -Dave

[@user-mp9xz8yg4j]

Brandon, may I suggest the book "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. It allowed me to get at the source of my mental illness. I was able to transform it completely. It has helped so many people.

[@GadgetJeffTV]

It was tragic watching my ex girlfriend of 3 years go manic. There was nothing I nor her family could do. She traveled the country on credit cards, slept with tons of different random men, got into car accidents, got arrested for breaking and entering etc. The rap sheet went on and on for about 3 months. It killed me to watch her go down this hard. What's stupid thing is was we could not have her committed and treated. We had to let her ride it out.

[@MsTiara123]

this helped me alot i have bipolar disorder too. thanks for sharing. i just posted my first video today. i havent left my house in a month im trying to make friends with making friends on here who have gone through similiar things as me :)

[@BrandonRohe]

I understand trying to find friends online. That's something that I do and it is a good idea, but I would try to get out of the house more if I were you. Just an idea.

[@darbirhian]

The great feeling you're talking about is euphoria. I'm fairly sure people without bipolar can experience euphoria. I'm bipolar type 1. Have had this disorder since my early 20s. Late 30s now. Suffice it to say I no longer love any aspect of this disorder! I had a psychotic episode in the Spring of 2018 and it landed me in the psychiatric ward for the first time in my life. Truly scary. I basically lived through a nightmare. I take 1.5mg of risperidone, very low dose but it stabilizes me. Hope to never go back!

[@HeyItsJDanni]

darbi rhian I’m simply messed up. In mania I’m irritated, satanic, quick tempered while still having grandiosity. Talking to myself is constant. Crazy

[@alexfearless79]

I've had really enjoyable manic episodes where I felt like I could do anything and I was full of energy and always on Tue go doing new exciting sometimes dangerous things, but also being very productive and creative. I felt on top of the world, confident, euphoric, I felt like the world was magical and I was invincible. But then I've also had terrible manic episodes where my anger and rage was so intense that I couldn't control it. I was like an exploding volcano. Incredibly destructive. Throwing things, breaking things, punching walls, burning rubber, slamming doors and yelling the most hurtful things at people. Sometimes the rage was aimed at myself and that's when I had a cutting problem or did dangerous drugs or slept around because I didn't care about STDs or being seen as a whore. Anything really to calm myself down or make myself feel better. Mania in its most intense stages can even involve hallucinations. I have never experienced this psychotic level of mania and hope I never do!

[@personalentertainment2168]

Thank you for sharing :)

[@michaelnewell3823]

Hi Brandon, I love in Niagara Falls, Ontario, Canada. I learned a year ago that my daughter that I have been away from since was a child. I found out that she was bipolar from her mother. She apparently had had this since she was in her teens. The thing about my daughter is that she says she has PTSD. I don't have a clue as to where this trauma for that is coming from. She doesn't act like you and talk normally. It's like she is either extremely depressed or in a manic state. I don't know if she has ever been professional ly diagnosed with bipolar all of these years. She never told me but she refuses now to talk with me for the last 8 months. The way she lives her life is terrible. I have spoken with several people on the net that say the depression and just living with all of the different feelings is hell. I am very sad about my daughter. She said in her teens to early 20's that she went to bars and slept with a least 100 men. I was greatly upset by the fact that my daughter was a slut but it was because of this mental illness bipolar and hypermania. She thinks she has PGAD which is a very rate condition but her hypersexuality is from the manic episodes that she goes through. I don't think she will ever speak to me again. It's all very sad that life between her and myself ended up this way. She has a 13 year old daughter that has probably paid the highest price living and growing up with a mother that is mentally sick. I know from experience. My own mother committed suicide when I was 12 years old from being bipolar in manic depression.

[@BrandonRohe]

I hope she gets treatment and is willing to have you in her life again. Support is very important for people with bipolar disorder. Try to be there for her even if she acts like she doesn’t want it for now,

[@michaelnewell3823]

@@BrandonRohe hi Brandon, your story has moved me greatly. I love my daughter even though I never allowed to be a part of her life growing up. I have educated my myself greatly for the past year. She said in a text several months ago she was scared and distraught and wanted no contact with me in the future. She makes up things that just ate not true. That I am toxic and ludicrous things that just simply aren't true. I don't whether to give up trying or not. It's been a year now. Last time we actually spoke on the phone was last summer. Then the last text was in November 2020. I am heartbroken over her.

[@mrbrightside3996]

Just subscribed to ur channel. U seem like such a chilled, nice guy and I have had alot of similar experiences u have had with my bipolar. Just learning to take everyday as it comes and change aspects of my life that were making me relapse. Keep going mate 👌🏻💪🏻

[@BrandonRohe]

It sounds like you have a good mindset for handling the disorder. If you aren't there already, I believe that there will come a day where no one will ever be able to tell that you have the disorder if you manage it properly. Of course this depends on the severity of your condition, but my mania was pretty severe according to what doctors have told me. Good luck on your journey man!

[@mrbrightside3996]

Brandon Rohe i still get episodes and I know will most likely suffer with them on and off continously but I know ways to keep them from gettin worse and lasting longer. My depression had always been alot more severe (suicidal thoughts have always been apart of my depression) and i only ever get hypomania, as I was diagnosed with type 2. Have just accepted it now instead of fighting it which made it alot worse

[@BrandonRohe]

Mr Brightside96 I can relate to that in a sense because my medication has been able to control my mania for a long time, but I can still become very depressed. Light therapy helps me when I start to feel depressed or lacking of energy for what seems like no reason. However, the worst depressions I've experienced have been brought about by my own behavior that has led me to feel something missing in life. Multiple times this had to do with procrastination and underperformance in college when I want to hold myself to the standard that I know I can achieve. Anyway, I think a combination of these things can greatly reduce depressive episodes based on my own experience: good routine (not having a sleep schedule that is too sporadic/making sure to eat enough to have the energy you need), medication, alternative treatments (light therapy is one I really think works), and simply working towards living life in a way that gives you some level of energy and purpose.

[@mrbrightside3996]

Brandon Rohe very true mate! Sleep is a big trigger for me as well as stress and they have always seemed to be since high school, where my first ever symptoms starting showing. Im on the same medication as u i think (carbamazepine) but have to take 600mg a day as I rapid cycle which is a motherfucker, but this seems to b the right one for me. Was on abilify before as I did get delusions and grandiosity but that medication really werent right for me (felt like zombie). Was thinking of light therapy as i get depressed alot more in the winter which I spoke about on my channel but anti depressants always send me into hypomania.

[@BrandonRohe]

Mr Brightside96 Yeah I would definitely get a light therapy device if I were you. If you notice more depression in the winter, that makes it pretty likely that the light therapy will work really well for you. I have been in some pretty bad states of depression or strong negative emotions, but when I use the light it feels like the emotions almost evaporate away after enough time. It's of course useful to address whatever lead to those emotions in the first place, but it's hard to do so when you're under the grip of their negativity. The way I see it, light therapy works wonders for your neurochemistry which then allows you to have the presence of mind to sort out your psychology. This is a link to the model I have www.amazon.com/NatureBright-SunTouch-Light-Therapy-package/dp/B000W8Y7FY , but a cheaper model might do just as well. This one has great reviews and was a best seller on Amazon, so it seemed like a good choice.

[@x_x_pops_x_x]

Thanks for sharing this video man. It really helped me see that I have never truly had a full blown manic episode. Even though my pdoc has said I'm bipolar 1 - I feel I'm more bipolar 2 with hypomania, if that. I'm beginning to question her diagnosis.

[@BrandonRohe]

Pops Xanax I'm glad that this helped you. I really appreciate the support that people have given this video. I hope everything works out for you with figuring out your diagnosis.

[@janerainsford8996]

Yowza! You have beautiful hands! You have the hands of a surgeon or an artist. Has anyone mentioned that to you? Thank you for sharing you experience!

[@estherkimnz]

Thinking about ten different things is so true. I had to keep my notes app open constantly because I was having epiphanies every 5 minutes. I also overall enjoyed my manic episode because it was so euphoric except for the odd occasion when I snapped in rage/broke down lol

[@naimahpowell6201]

I love seeing guys talk bout this I am a female with bipolar and I mostly only talk to other females about it

[@logancranston1330]

Of all the manic episode experiences I’ve watched on KZbin I think that Todd’s experience is most similar to mine.

[@mae8861]

Why would anyone want to get on meds if it feels great? I get it. But it drives your friends and family nuts. Like 1 hour with her is like having my brain in a pin ball machine.

[@OrinBoborin]

"The part of your brain that controls how many thoughts you can have at once is turned off" -- based on my understanding of the mind and reality, I would question whether this interpretation makes any sense at all (and isn't, in fact, part of the problem).

[@roybelovoskey5895]

What do you mean?

[@noblepaxtonia7212]

Thank you so much for sharing, this is not only fascinating but I'm sure it has helped many others who have watched. How many full manic episodes have you had and do they stop completely on a mood stabilizer?

[@BrandonRohe]

Noble Paxtonia I have had a handful of full manic episodes early on in my diagnosis. 100 mg of the mood stabilizer carbamazepine has fully controlled the manic side of my Bipolar Disorder

[@garbagepailkiddo]

Thank you for sharing.

[@mae8861]

I recommend watching some people who have gone public starting with Patty Duke. This syndrome is hard on your family and friends

[@andrewbagshaw9687]

Hi Brandon my manic episode has just started as I have bi polar, the doctor came to visit me and gave me tablets to help me try and sleep, I'm super restless, irritable, need sex daily, major mood swings from happy to turning into the hulk. I want to go out and run around or squeeze cushions as I'm feeling something flowing through my body. My speech has deteriorated and I can't read fully now also I forget something I said 2 mins ago or something from yesterday. It's a hard thing to live with.

[@BrandonRohe]

The thing that has helped me most has been taking a mood stabilizer. Tegretol (generic carbamazepine) is what I take. Always talk to your doctor before trying a medication.

[@belochmek]

Hey :) Nice video! I just found out that I'm in the risk zone of bipolar. I'm going to doctor asap to have it checked. I have one question for you. Last week I had really bad sleep, maybe a few hours of sleep a few days in a row. Less for every day that went by. So i said to myself fuck this sleep issues I'm going to run for a few hours to make myself tired ready for bed. I ran 10 km at once. I have never done that in 10 years. After i felt great, went to local supermarket to by myself some nice food. I felt so good. Normally i have huge problems with social situations. I have collapsed a few times in social events or social discomfort (once they even took my driving license) However this time was different, girls were checking me out and i felt like a king. But.. now to the strange part. After this event i could't sleep for 3 days. I got some kind of energy rush in my brain. I got afraid thinking my head is going to explode. It was so bad my ears started to make strong noise, stronger sound for every hour that went past. I called the hospital service and they write me sleeping medicine. I went to the pharmacy and I got my pills but i chatted with those sweet girls for 5 minutes. I had nice self confidence. I'm going to doctor and hope the will diagnose me properly. Now to the question did you sleep always? have you ever experience this hype with no sleep?

[@BrandonRohe]

One of the key signs of a manic episode is suddenly sleeping less than normal. This usually lasts throughout the manic episode. It already sounds like you experienced a surge of confidence and sexual desire. These are also some of the most telling signs of a manic episode. I recommend that you see your doctor soon. For me personally, mania has always coincided with less sleep than usual. I have felt many of the same things in a manic state which you have described in your experience.

[@smartrecycler2250]

Do you think people in your situation can help with economical issues? What do you think of the economical issues today? I'm interested in your comments. Hope to hear from you, thank you.

[@BrandonRohe]

Can you elaborate on your question a bit? I'll get back to you soon.

[@SueNoel]

You rock! So brave of you to share your story. That was as real as it gets. Kudos to you. PS... The dick on the table, lol... That had me rolling. So refreshing to see you've kept your sense of humor throughout all your struggles. I wish you nothing but the best. :)

[@NOETICBLOOM]

Ive noticed that many people who have bipolar disorder sometimes withdraw themselves from loved ones... does that usually happen during a manic episode or during the depression?

[@alexfearless79]

In my experience it can happen during either episode. When I'm really depressed I have a hard enough time getting myself out of bed and doing the things that are necessary, let alone be social. I already feel completely drained and being around people can sometimes drain me further. Sometimes when I'm manic I get very angry. So angry that is nearly impossible to control, so at that time I've learned to stay away from people because I don't want to hurt them. When I'm experiencing such bad mood swings I just feel like I won't be the best company anyways and I just want to be left alone and work on myself. Other times my mania makes me very energetic and euphoric and talkative and that's when I will be out and about spending time w everyone and can be the life of the party. And then I do still have stable times where I am just normal and OK w company. But yeah I do tend to withdraw a lot. I call it falling off the face of the earth. I will have so many voicemails and texts that I don't answer (which I feel bad about) And then when I do come around again people will be like well we were wondering what happened to you. Oh you know just going a little crazy again and trying to ride out the storm with as few casualties as possible haha. But how can you really explain? I usually just tell them I've been swamped w work and busy w family issues.

[@alexfearless79]

In my experience it can happen during either episode. When I'm really depressed I have a hard enough time getting myself out of bed and doing the things that are necessary, let alone be social. I already feel completely drained and being around people can sometimes drain me further. Sometimes when I'm manic I get very angry. So angry that is nearly impossible to control, so at that time I've learned to stay away from people because I don't want to hurt them. When I'm experiencing such bad mood swings I just feel like I won't be the best company anyways and I just want to be left alone and work on myself. Other times my mania makes me very energetic and euphoric and talkative and that's when I will be out and about spending time w everyone and can be the life of the party. And then I do still have stable times where I am just normal and OK w company. But yeah I do tend to withdraw a lot. I call it falling off the face of the earth. I will have so many voicemails and texts that I don't answer (which I feel bad about) And then when I do come around again people will be like well we were wondering what happened to you. Oh you know just going a little crazy again and trying to ride out the storm with as few casualties as possible haha. But how can you really explain? I usually just tell them I've been swamped w work and busy w family issues.

[@rosebelike9722]

thanks 4 sharing

[@y04a]

Did you have any psychotic features, such as false beliefs, during your episode?

[@BrandonRohe]

Yeah. I thought I was Jesus. Lol

[@MrOsmalogue]

+Brandon Rohe The same Happened to me. I also believed I could control the time and walk on the water and some other powers

[@Abdulmalik773]

For me i thought i was President of my country

[@valeriebus9185]

. . . 0101O

[@mae8861]

I like “supposedly”. I’ve been working on my friend for 2 years. She is in total denial. Calls her manic “the happy day”, calls her depression “the blues”. I watched 20 hours of KZbin on manic/depression aka bipolar. Finally after 2 years she admitted she was. Has an appt with a shrink next week. I hate big pharma but she is getting worse and worse cycles. Sad really . Your friends and family know if you are bipolar. Hey I get it. I’d love to have her “happy days” but it is not reality.

[@johannamcc96]

good video

[@johannamcc96]

when i was little i saw things n thought i was a child of jesus 😂😂

[@tinajaneharris2867]

I sound like me, I'm bout to go for my assessment as I lied tru the first but my probation officer reckonises it in me x

[@tinajaneharris2867]

N I no I'm bipolar but I had an episode that got me in big trouble n nearly put back in prison

[@dennisrifenberrick6823]

Did you have the lithium shakes while filming?

[@BrandonRohe]

No, I've never taken lithium.

[@alexfearless79]

+Brandon Rohe are you on any medication?

[@BrandonRohe]

Alisha Harcourt I've been on many different medications throughout the first couple years, but now I only take 100mg of carbamazepine once a day in the morning. It keeps me as stable as I have ever been since my episode which is pretty stable considering the severity of my episodes before.

[@Sameoldfitup]

lithium damaged ny partners kidneys

[@mae8861]

Now what... you getting on meds?

[@alexfearless79]

its like being high on stimulants lol

[@roybelovoskey5895]

Actually mania is way more intense!