Three Signs Your Mania Is Coming (The Manic Prodrome)

[@DrTraceyMarks]

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[@kelimperialmangi5464]

How does menstrual cycles affect manic episodes?

[@mollycote1021]

Thank you I really needed this video!!!

[@USMC_BABE38]

I'm feeling manic right now I can't find anyway to copy with it

[@alexislane15]

Do you know how bipolar that’s been diagnosed but untreated for a few years could impact someone differently than if they had been treated?

[@Iceis_Phoenix]

Thank you for the rapid cycling vid

[@estherpoet8472]

I start have rapid thoughts, and can't stop obsessing. I research research and I feel more anxious and my points of view become VERY STRONG

[@pris6642]

Couldn’t relate more

[@asilhouetteinsplinters]

I’m the same way

[@jacobboskiii5198]

I feel exactly the same way dude I never would have considered bipolar even had those qualities. I always felt autistic or something but I get to where I can’t even speak because my brain just won’t slow down. I’ll just stutter until I give up and pace in circles mumbling to myself

[@kellegeez]

Same...I hate it

[@jacobboskiii5198]

@@union8200 I do everyday

[@Morena_LV]

Replaying a song 20x in a row before it even gets to the ending. Specifically listening to a certain verse that stimulates me.

[@jayblicky4143]

Wait I do this too… what does it mean?

[@KG88KiteGodMusic]

Whoa this… I make music and sort of use this same feeling in the production process.

[@angellisdaknyx3684]

Same

[@jayblicky4143]

What does it mean !!!

[@vanityRoomest23]

I do the same and doing it now omg

[@BowdowntoAnnaConda]

For me it’s dancing staying up for 3 days and listening to one song on repeat during those three days and thinking it’s speaking to me

[@killjoy.beauty]

Same

[@clairewillow6475]

Ohhhh the song one is me! But I have Borderline Personality and an addictive personality, not bipolar

[@zyprexamedssucks32]

I was up for 2 & half days couldn't sleep ran out of Zyprexa

[@shawnjohnson7246]

Same

[@_mhelaig_9577]

Is this a sign of BPD?

[@tl8117]

Being manic increases my emotional sensitivity , and I can feel energies strongly. Praying for all here who suffer with this because I felt alone and confused. I had no idea how many people have this condition. Thanks and please continue raising mental health awareness!

[@neerazsharma6]

I had one such episode during May 2019 .. Became normal by September . Am I bipolar or something ? Will this happen to me again ? On top of that I also have epilepsy . Are those two related ?

[@tl8117]

@@neerazsharma6 I suggest you see a doctor. As far as you gifts go to God in humble prayer and ask him to clarify your gift. God. BLESS

[@intelektshualday3496]

@@neerazsharma6 I take lamotrigine for my BPD. It is also used to treat epilepsy. Seems like they might be related. But you should see a doctor

[@IrinaLee29]

Praying for you 🙏

[@babyscarr3]

@@neerazsharma6 yes bro it's related I got diagnosed with epilepsy a few months ago 😞 after I died and came back 😔 from a brain 🧠 tumor removal surgery and my doctor 🏥👨🏻‍⚕️ diagnosed me with epilepsy sezuire a few months ago and my girlfriend and grandma and family notice I have got bipolar manic attitude now from my brain surgery 💯

[@rashifarsya]

For me it’s a constant irritability, and I feel like everyone conspires to hate me.

[@Drsydelicious]

I’m paranoid that everyone is lying to me and secretly hates me

[@lucyshaw-loan151]

Yeh omg it’s horrible, and i just feel so weird

[@youmissedjacket]

Here I thought I had severe trust issues

[@cominooculto]

Hahaha im sorry im laughing but it reminded me of 2 episodes i had were i thought my gf and my mom and everyone around me were spies that wanted to control me and eventually kill me or have me around them idk for what i got to a point to be so convinced by that idea i had a major crisis to the extent i threw myself in the floor like I'm not standing up cause ill kill myself imma go nuts no one touch me,then i got my meds and im like "dude you are so damn stupid when your manic" all of that for nothing.

[@Norahungary]

Oh my god, I'm so happy that I'm not the only one. For me, paranoia is the main sign that my mania is coming. I either think that one of my friends is gonna try to kill me, or people are out to get and harm me, and it makes me so anxious that I can't eat and can't sleep. 😥

[@superash4u578]

When I'm manic and someone is talking to me I get really irritated and want to only hear my own thoughts 💀 ugh it's so rude. But then I become really talkative. But only want to hear myself or if I get bored with the conversation I get frustrated. Edit : february 2022 thank you everyone who commented I'm doing a little better 🙌🏾 hope you are all well

[@mariechannel10]

//SuperAsh4U// wow i do that also

[@ashreactive]

Lmao. Same. Medication helps

[@superash4u578]

@@ashreactive I'm on lamictal sigh but every now and then I find myself talking over ppl😭and I'm like sorry I'm bipolar :D and they're like 0.0

[@ashreactive]

//SuperAsh4U// eeeevery single day I have to apologize for talking over people. I’m on lamotrigene, too. There are talks with my doctor that I may have ADHD. It’s difficult to tell because they overlap sometimes and mimic each other. And stimulant can trigger manic episode. It’s looking like I’ve always gravitated towards others that are also bipolar and now that I’ve separated myself (so I could successfully stop drinking and stop my beloved self destructive behaviors) interrupting is the biggest hang up. It’s like give me a god damn break.. lmao. 2 bipolars can talk over each other and hear each other simultaneously all day and don’t think about having to apologize. I’m always yelling to my boyfriend “WELL ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT YOU TALK SLOW” hahaha. My name is, Ashley too btw :P

[@ashreactive]

@@superash4u578 ooo gotchu. chauntiana is a much cooler name. haha. what games do you play? i'll add you for sure

[@cheesesnorter9293]

for me, it’s like everything is syncing up. i think of someone and they message me, it’s like i’m manifesting things into reality or like i’m really in tune with the universe

[@creepydoll2872]

Yeah! Tbh I’m convinced it does happen when manic, even when I’m depressed I believe it

[@SMARTIN85]

Ultimately it’s great when this happens all the time!

[@codey7701]

Frr

[@YesitisDex]

Same yet they say that we are "broken" and try to hold us down with drugs.

[@eligalloway9826]

I always notice synchronicity‘s so much more while manic. They are like extreme coincidences that have a deeper meaning and they happen ALL THE TIME while I’m manic.

[@robinviellieux6084]

In my own experience with bipolar disorder, I have found that sleep is the most important aspect. I definitely feel a lack of necessity for sleep, but I make myself do it anyway. I really have no problem actually getting to sleep... but if I stay up and let my mind race, then I put myself in danger of becoming delusional. In my particular case, simply regulating my sleep prevents a full onset, and consequently no depressive crash to follow.

[@datguy9408]

Better sleep patterns definitely helps and abstaining from alcohol .

[@LoveLeigh313]

Yessss! Sleep is #1 for me

[@lizmariequinn]

Sleep is major but even when I try to make myself, I can't fall asleep. I was up for abt 6 days my 1st manic episode ever and that's how I got diagnosed. How do u make urself go to sleep with ur mind racing like that?

[@itsyaboyskinnnypimp42069]

@@datguy9408 all drugs except the downers and nicotine

[@tamaralikecamera]

Thank you for this info. It makes sense. My husband is currently in the behavioral hospital for a manic episode that turned into the downward spiral of the depressive state. And I'm trying to make an action plan of how to prevent and/ or ease symptoms.

[@omegablack7135]

The 3 signs mania is oncoming (the prodrome): 1. Elevated mood 2. Decreased need for sleep 3. Increased activity

[@ZadenZane]

The problem is those ARE the symptoms of hypomania anyway!!

[@sandersa813]

Good info

[@babynaysc]

I don't sleep at all, man I'm in hyponania I've already taken 3 zolpidem and 20 drops of rivotril and nothing I think I'm going to spend the night in white anyway The doctor gave me Lamotrigine 2x a day at 25mg, increase it little by little, but this effect takes a while I think I'll spend sleepless nights or use Rohydorm, which is the most sedative there is

[@greenescraft]

I just pray for that part of the arc. It's when I get my shit done. The depressed part is horrible.

[@aiKid84]

The problem for me is that I seek those 3 and need them when Im down so its very difficult to keep it balanced

[@jakzembollier652]

This is one of the most comforting comment sections on KZbin. I love you all.

[@jamielynngallegos9196]

❤️🙏

[@AireeaFifty1]

💗💗💗

[@charmedprince]

💋😘

[@patobarajas7207]

Aw we love you Jacob. 💓

[@Kawaiidolfin]

I know!! So many other people feel my pain and it feels good to just not feel alone

[@jasonmclaren8752]

My manic episodes always end the same way...I cant handle all the extra tasks that I've taken on due to the elevated mood and energy at work so I have a psychotic break, sitting in my bosses office crying my eyes out and quitting. Every job I've ever had ends this way.

[@V.Hansen.]

Oh gosh. How discouraging. I hope you’ve found something that helps keep you more stable

[@terris3273]

Same here, I've actually in the past chosen for several (I am too embarrassed to state how long exactly) years ; to be homeless so that when I flip the script no one was effected by it. I live at home with my significant other and he's an absolute saint. He truly is like an angel for putting up with me, at first he just saw I needed help someway and was the only person around to be reasonable and actually help me, he let me borrow his second vehicle to get a job and snuck me in his house to smoke pot when my house mates were being evil and basically bullying me. To this day the longest I've had any job was about 3 months or less. Although several places I've walked out on have asked me to come back, they are all depressing and scary to think about because I'm 35 you'd think I'd move past burger joints and gas station attendants by now. Even (especially) factory worker jobs. I almost always end up feeling some evil vibe and thinking the people are trying to kill me or plotting my embarrassing public shaming of some sort and it's so bad that I can't wake up in the morning without sobbing and if by some act of God I go in to work I'm physically shaking and thinking of thousands of ways to fake my own death and go back to the bridge I used to live under. Which by the way has been torn down It's insanity and my boyfriend has put up with and seen just how ugly my mind can be. I've accused him almost daily for weeks on end of cheating on me and he is not that way AT ALL. We can laugh about it afterward but I've also learned to not act on EVERY ONE OF MY DAMN FEARS, I LEFT HIM 3 TIMES AND got pregnant 2xs and had to eventually get abortions because the men I chose were horrible and abusive as heck, and he has been standing by me and waiting patiently for me to go to the Dr and get meds. I got diagnosed during a therapy appointment discussing my recent loss of my parental rights, in the long run the best decision was made. If I can't take care of myself, how can I care for a tiny human? I'm selfish and I'm in my own world so much so that I don't realize what day it is when I'm in my manic moods, I always run away to help deal with my racing thoughts and so all my art projects and my beautiful home and even my puppy become an afterthought. My man just texts me after he gets off work and says honey it's time to come home now. Then he goes to bed. I am usually not that far gone to be gone when he wakes up but every so often I forget I even got that message or that I was somewhere I wasn't supposed to be for that long. My new boss is patient I haven't had this convo with her but it's coming. I've called in 4 times and only worked there 3 weeks. I need help but the meds are so scary! The commercials that advertise them list like 7 or 8 possible side effects, 3 or 4 of which ARE DEATH. I take vitamins and I do my best. Sorry for rambling. Jeez it's 6 a.M (do you know where your polars are?) Sorry bad joke

[@tempesttking5715]

@@terris3273 lol "do you know where your pilots are?" Hope things get better for you on a serious note. 😇

[@sw-hg8eq]

Wow, what a perfect summary of my life. I am laughing but I want to cry.

[@Goldun-nah]

This part right here

[@monicav1272]

When your manic and you're creating art you can't tell between greatness and The sensation of greatness

[@latinillusion00]

Omg this is soooo true!

[@Afternoondreamers]

It's hard to have routines and a regular sleep schedule when I'm feeling extremely bored with routines. At the same time, I get very stressed if anything or anyone other than me forces a change in my routines.

[@PatrickJB410]

Sounds like a problem I have also.. I want to live my life, but at the same time anything that even remotely changes my surroundings makes me freak out.

[@claudiopuglia265]

I LOVE routine. Wake up , have breakfast help my wife get.my children ready for school, gym dinner , nap, pick up children, help them with homeworks, a little nothing supper, children go to bed, , a little KZbin tv last snack and boom! Bedtime at 11.30 pm.

[@claudiopuglia265]

How long have you been on lithium? It normalizes you with time. But it takes years

[@nailakamana763]

Wow I relate to that SO MUCH

[@balbanes1]

This is why I can’t stand Daylight Savings time, the forced change in time really pisses me off and takes weeks to adjust to.

[@zaneybat]

I've only been diagnosed with anxiety and adhd. BUT, my therapist brought to my attention that I was mistaken "happiness" for a "manic episode". I have come to realize how right she is! I just went through a manic episode triggered by huge life events back to back, and I felt like superwoman! I was out-of-character confident, I was trying to juggle multiple jobs, 4 dogs AND school. Welp, I crashed. I crashed so hard, but I wasn't expecting the crash to be a panic attack that couch-locked me for over a week. I am currently trying to pick up the pieces from said crash 🙃 I just wanted to share. Thank you.

[@JourneewithMeKii]

Thank you for this

[@szymkowskadominika]

Thank you

[@tamiadixon8312]

I just realized my “positivity” & “confidence” are me just not accepting certain things in my life but I’m faking it just to seem okay in front of ppl. So i wonder if i been manic this whole time..

[@fooitsnansihdz]

I’m reading from my couch currently after my crash this morning

[@fooitsnansihdz]

Thank you I feel normal now.

[@samanthab9413]

When I'm becoming manic I start to shop. Like to the point that I don't pay bills so I can go buy anything else, also I start repainting and remodeling my house randomly but never finish the projects.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

I've heard that story many times Samantha. There's a lot of people out there painting...🙂

[@hollaatmsv]

Me too! I go on shopping sprees and spend the bill money but on clothes instead of home items. I shop to the point of exhaustion without stopping to eat or drink. Even if my feet hurt I can't stop. Like I'm driven. And I really don't need anymore clothes. I have so many I don't have enough space to put them. Many with tags still on them still and never worn. Now that I know this about myself I try to buy things at stores which have a lenient return policy so when I am no longer manic I can return items to pay bills or get food & gas. I am rapid cycling so I usually come to my senses quite quickly to return. That is if I haven't become too attached to the items or am not to depressed to get out again.

[@thorneytorkelson40]

I hear you, sister.

[@dream5142]

Yes same as me

[@stephsmanicshenanigans8017]

Yup, shopping was a huge one for me, as well as rearranging all of my furniture a million times and going to my families houses asking to do the same to theirs. I would also steal if I didn’t have money because I just HAD to shop. I’ve gotten that under control, now I just go straight to my phone and start looking up history because learning seems to calm and focus me the most. Along with a lot of weed.

[@StellaRickhards]

Recently diagnosed here :) I’m just starting to learn about my warning signs and understanding it all better. I feel superhuman during mania, like I can achieve anything. I feel uncontrollably compelled to use every second of every day to race around and do as much as I can. It never feels like I’ve reached my full potential for the day and that makes it so hard to stop. Truthfully I enjoy it so much, feeling that I can do anything and I’m amazing and special. I cook and clean literally until my hands bleed and have fainted multiple times during these activities. Just recently I made 5 cakes in a week and cleaned the entire house until I completely exhausted myself, everything hurt and my boyfriend stopped me as I looked white. When I’m cooking and cleaning I feel like a robot (in a good way) and like I’m the best in the world at it, like no other human could do it like me. I feel misunderstood by everyone during mania, like no one else sees how amazing my work is and how amazing I am in general. It’s always SO enlightening and fascinating to look back on once the episode has subsided.

[@alishanesbitt453]

Wow.. this comment is creepy.. it's like I wrote this about myself 😮...

[@misty3602]

Same.

[@caitlin3524]

I get addicted to the Euphoric high going into a manic episode. It’s like cocaine.

[@jims9168]

Thanks Dr. Marks for another excellent video. When my mood goes toward hypomania, I force myself to lie in bed even though I do not feel I sleep much. I figure that my body is getting rest, and my mind gets a bit of rest because I'm in a quiet, dark room. So far, I've lasted 40 years. I do not want to be locked up again and do not want to be drugged into a vegetative state again.

[@nicholeocornes543]

I glad I'm not the only one

[@THECaptain20l2]

Jim Sec have you tried meditation?

[@valentiam8857]

Euphoria. The only part of the manic episode that I love and enjoy the most as I'm able to appreciate the beauty of sunrise. Unlike when I just wake up past midday. I feel more happy during my manic.

[@mitchellmahurin3465]

Same here. It's like I'm an unstoppable force when im manic, I feel so free

[@SA69660]

I love my Manic episodes, I'll take them over the lows any day. I'm extremely happy, so much energy, and nice. And conscious of my health/weight.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Well as long as it is not destructive, then yes it can be very productive and feel very good.

[@ciscobriano]

i have only had one manic episode for the first time at 38. I hurt myself running through the desert. So im very scared as to what I willl do the next time. I take 900mg of lithium. thats it. im sad because if i ever feel happy again im scared that it is a sign of a manic episode. i also felt a lack of control. so is it possible to be in control? i feel I could be the next time since ive had lots of consoling therapy and lithium so i guess ill have to wait for my next one

[@mcpeepantz666]

funny i just wanna drink and do drugs.

[@justjessi5679]

@@mcpeepantz666 lets chill

[@mcpeepantz666]

@@justjessi5679 im back on my meds, much better.

[@Sarah8561]

When im manic I sleep very little, spend HOURS and houra googling health symptoms and checking my lymph nodes. I even cut off a mole once because I thought it was skin cancer. I eat healthier and care about how I look. I run up my credit cards on useless crap..I quit jobs, leave behind apartments full of my things - its horrible

[@ThanaAquilah12]

Same

[@MooCowPoopPoop]

OH MY GOD I do things like this! I feel like I have some other onset condition and I start getting very paranoid and I go to urgent care all the time for the smallest things.

[@summerbreeze553]

I'm really sorry to hear that.

[@Isa-qh3ue]

Sarah Wilkens it sounds like you may have hypochondria or “health anxiety” if this happens a lot where you think you have illnesses etc

[@jasmineo870]

Omg I have health anxiety too that’s comorbid with the bipolar

[@nicolechmeliar]

Your videos have been so helpful for me, as a mother of a teen who was recently diagnosed with bipolar 1. It’s something I never expected to experience and it’s been overwhelming at times. My eyes have been opened and I’m grateful for these clear, informative videos. Thank you so much.

[@sarahsmile2883]

"Board up the windows!" Is what I will now announce when I feel the mania coming.

[@hivibe8669]

The zombies are coming!

[@kendollarz7246]

This comment is literally me

[@princewellingham9182]

I just laughed out loud

[@SharlenesJourney]

😂😂😭

[@ELthatsLoreel]

Saaammeee

[@DaniellesBEAST]

At first I'm feeling great and I want to take on the world. I feel creative and productive. Then I'm so irritable that I just want to be left alone and not talk to anyone. I get so frustrated with all my half finished projects and it all comes falling down.. now I just tell my boyfriend when I'm irritated to just let me be its not your fault.. I'm glad he is patient with me

[@spotsandme1968]

This is definitely me. I take on a lot of projects that don't finish, and feeling very creative and productive. The euphoric high is amazing..the crash depression is debilitating.

[@makaylataylor30]

i’m in your same situation

[@r007-s7n]

For me, I can tell my mania is coming when I want to starve myself. I know how odd that sounds but when I starve myself I get this high, and I feel like I actually have something to strive for. I don’t really have much body image issues by the way. Or another way I can tell is if I convince myself I’m dying.

[@jone7079]

I get it - I'm the same too yet I'm glad I can now see it and know it's a thing to be more aware of in the future ♡ xoxo

[@r007-s7n]

@@jone7079 this means a lot to me. My whole life I’ve been called crazy, thank you.

[@aurorasmama697]

I cut back on food too

[@kkate4361]

I forget to eat too. The burning in my stomach almost feels good to me. Its like all the other erges take over instead.

[@ronniebattle1310]

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[@amiresrafili2839]

I feel like, especially these days, everybody is struggling with mental health and could benefit from careful/ intentional therapeutic use of substances like these.

[@YuvrajSingh-oh7fl]

Saw reviews about nhr_syndicatee, checked them out and be i must say they are very good at what they do and their products are pure

[@allinaday9882]

@@YuvrajSingh-oh7flWhat are you talking about please?

[@tmo.48]

Stay away from substances, they most likely messed with your mental.

[@JeffreyWilliams-dr7qe]

Everyone? I'm very jealous of this will not share it any further. Afterall it's fun sometimes .

[@carissab397]

@@allinaday9882it’s a scam bot. Scary.

[@WkUpPeople]

I know my mania is coming because I feel as though I'm moving quicker than normal and I'm highly irritable. At that heightened state, I can get so angry about almost anything that it's difficult to calm down. Thank goodness for my meds. Before I was diagnosed, I just rode the wave.

[@TheTurtleRage]

WkUpPeople Wow. This is so me. I also had so many tasks and got angry at whoever got in my way.

[@UNFUQWITABLEL33SKI]

This is so me, I’m not diagnosed but I am trying so hard to get in with a psychiatrist. Insurance is the problem. I remember when I first seen a psychiatrist I was 7 years old. She told my mom I have severe bi polar. My mother got upset, and took me out! I get agitated, irritated at everything. I also crave erotic behavior. People think I’m rude, an a hole etc. I lost the only friend I had because of it. My family says never tell people how you feel, especially at work. I also have lack of interest in my job. I just want to be happy.

[@succu666us]

Lol I'm still just riding the wave

[@00imz]

This is exactly how I am

[@KageumiUmikage]

You called em waves too, huh? That’s exactly what I used to call em before knowing what this was

[@et.5950]

I'm watching this video at night instead of sleeping.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Lol. So I guess watching KZbin should go on your list. 😊

[@ladybaabaa3294]

Me too. Every night. 3am. (But then I sleep until 1pm. And I take half an anti-histamine to sleep, and Zoloft as an anti-depressant...but I still have a lack of motivation, anhedonia and depression.)

[@thatonedoge6394]

Press Y to same

[@shawnjohnson7246]

Im manic right now and my grandma pass so I'm depressed but still manic hyper sexual and very impulsive

[@rhondalee133]

Me too , and every other bipolar video .

[@CoolMaisa]

My first symptom might be the need to start looking new apartments or houses where I want to move. Also changing furniture, shopping second hand, multiple carpentry or diy projects at the same time. Also irritability when someone asks about my projects. I'm a bit bitter of the fact that I'm usually angry and irritated when in mania, I get the occasional euphoria but mainly just everyone is in my way and I get paranoid that they all just try to stop me from living my life and doing my things. The good part is that I really get shit done then. Btw, what a comment section! So diverse and interesting symptoms you have!

[@freedomfitness8720]

You just described my life. Wow, I’m not alone. More importantly, I’ve never been diagnosed.

[@samdelatorre96]

I’m starting to think I have mania as well ima get checked out soon to see if I do but those comment section is really helpful and eases my mind cuz for a long time I thought I was alone

[@shinyxcrab6342]

Yes! The new hobbies and impulsive shopping lol

[@shinyxcrab6342]

@@freedomfitness8720 best I got was “unspecified mood disorder” but at least I still get the right meds.

[@danijohnnie]

I never thought about the urges I get for diy projects OMG I thought it was just inspiration. Then I watch 10 Ikea build outs back to back 😐

[@scottsNX]

Diagnosed with Bipolar two days ago. Still coming to terms with it. Looking back I’ve had this illness for over 30 of my 61 years. It has cost me two Marriages. I hate myself. Thank You for helping me understand. A week ago I had what I call an enlightenment and suddenly felt a need to help others who need it. I have planned my own demise twice in the last five years down to last detail. And at the 11th hour something happened and I did not carry out my meticulously arranged plans.

[@creallyreal]

I hope for increased health and wellness for you. Please take care.

[@nalliesidwell2244]

I'm on day 11 of being manic. I've been awake for 62 hours. Due to the holidays I can't get the help I need without going inpatient, which I REFUSE. This information, however, has been absolutely helpful! I'm hoping I can wait it out until the 4th when I get to see the psychiatrist. Happy New Year everyone!

[@adrivagardens6729]

62 HOURS?!

[@OnAllahwedependalways]

How long does the manic usually last?

[@baneverything5580]

Happens to me a lot. I might sleep 4 hours in four days.

[@NailsbyBunnyBear]

Bless your heart ❤️

[@meahunt5508]

Same here unfortunately I’m going though this

[@aniebodie]

"Your mania is coming" Well I hope it does I can't stand being depressed anymore I want my mania back even if it scares me I rather be maniac the depressed :(

[@lechatleblanc]

Not if it makes u do crazy things that almost kill u or others...... Trust me... Mania is not what u want....u want to not be bipolar or manage it to make u more stable

[@avizeetshrestha9184]

I understand your feeling, but someone closer to you who cares for you might be able to pull you out of this. Just remember, you will be easier to handle when you are depressed rather than being manic. I am not a bipolar patient but I am no less than being one, my wife is and I am in the situation where I almost completely feel that I am a person with bipolar disorder. We can share views if you would like. Take care

[@aaliyahrasheed9647]

I think that is toxic thinking because hopefully you can get some sort of stability with meds.

[@alcorson]

What’s the lesser of 2 evils ae

[@addictedadder8201]

we all do man:o(

[@kenyadastar6032]

I have extremely rapid speech I jump from subject to subject and I feel like an advocate for world peace one minute then World War II the next. No sleep

[@jokesonyou222]

LITERALLY ME and I don’t even realize it I do get sleep though but the rapid speech is something I really relate to

[@jone7079]

This is all me but I now have sleep back and I'm happy with the now regularity of sleep I'm getting - which reminds me, I better get to bed because I have to get up early and don't want to miss my appointment because I'm too fixated on videos like this and reading comments helps me feel connected and okay with me and knowing I'm not alone on this journey - thankyou Anastasia for enlightening me ♡ xoxo

[@planetpanama6731]

I am so grateful to have found your videos. I have severe ADHD and I know that I suffer from being bipolar. I have had manic prodrome so many times it’s hard to count. However, I have taken steps and talked with my husband about these things and he recognizes it now. I will often take a non-addictive sleep aid during these periods and limit my screen time. Light sensitivity is lessened when I’m entering a manic prodrome and increases in the depressive episodes. I stop using any devices after 6 pm. I’ve also had some success with the impulsivity part of adhd and bipolar. Aftern watching your video on schema therapy and looking for the triggers that cause anxiety, depression, mood changes. I realized that my impulsivity with money caused me horrible distress and anxiety. So, I spoke with my husband and I decided to give him my debit cards. This was a game changer for me personally and a game changer for us financially. He pays me $75 on Fridays. I am able to spend this as I wish. If I run out of money, I just have to wait until Friday. However, this has changed my mood and my self esteem has been boosted. we are building a savings account which we never could do because I’d go on impulsive streaks and spend every last dime and then scheme and lie to avoid taking responsibility. Oftentimes, my manic periods are exactly like the musician you mention in this video. Without a debit card tho, I can’t deplete our savings account. I also limit alcohol and fatty foods because I binge during these times. Like I mentioned before, my husband is a good friend and advocate and helps me navigate through my mental hurricanes. Anyway, I just wanted to share some of the changes I’ve made and maybe someone will learn from my experience. Thank you so much.

[@garynoel4071]

Thanks for sharing!

[@IamSuperman618]

This is really great information. My therapist recently said she was concerned about me due to signs of mania. I have felt invincible, do not go to bed until 4 or 5am and just lay in bed tossing and turning. This has been going on since last December and I feel that dealing with a narcissistic individual made this spiral. Plus, I am moving to escape the abuse. Thanks for your time in explaining this. I will continue to research and practice more positive coping skills. I deserve happiness.

[@beatz9193]

Narc abuse sent me into a psychotic break, too 😖

[@CF-wn2ce]

Narc games make me wonder if I'm mentally ill or just surrounded by assholes

[@mariamatmos4506]

There are two things that I have learnt to identify as early signs of my manic phases: - I start to sleep less and less - I stop being afraid of heights. I am usually terrified of them, so when my knees don’t shake on the escalators, I become very attentive to myself in general.

[@BasedRaven96]

I remember when I had my first severe hypomanic episode, I slept 2 hours or so, a night and played guitar at least 16 hours a day with almost no break :P I'm glad that I am a bit more stable now.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Me too JP. Thanks for sharing.

[@tyreekmurillo4524]

JP shred on🤘🏾

[@whoswhoo]

Yes it seems so exciting wonderful in the early manic stage .I feel totally invincible but it's the crash afterwards depression that can last for up to two years .... I think it's the brains way of trying to recover from all that massive burst of energy. I literally feel like my brain is lit up and everything is super bright like I'm seeing things in a hyperreality . I've ideas of huge creativity but become totally disorganised after days without sleep .in truth its hell

[@BrittanySchank]

So glad you found stability. Mania can be so devastating on our lives.

[@BasedRaven96]

Thank you :) It sure can!@@BrittanySchank

[@kasondaleigh]

Thank you. 30+ years living with this diagnosis and no meds until 3 years ago and I could always FEEL the changes happening in my body. I thought I was imagining it, but years of it happening made me recognize the truth of it. It’s hard with mixed episodes, I’m still never sure what’s going on until other people start reacting differently towards me.

[@lolatJESS]

The more I watch these kinds of videos after getting my diagnosis, I think back on a lot of stuff I've done...and I keep going, "Oh, dear lord. How did it take so long to go undiagnosed??"

[@DrTraceyMarks]

I’m glad you’re past that point now. At least you can continue to gain insight for your current and future episodes.

[@brittaolson6550]

lolatJESS Exactly, exactly! I still, often, can’t believe it was me, who did the impulsive things I did. 🤦🏼‍♀️

[@afamefunamicheal6619]

Exactly

[@blacktransparency101]

Me right now after getting diagnosed this week.

[@nicolahacking2623]

@@blacktransparency101 Hi,Black Transparent,cool name by the way,get all the help you can,Dr Marks is amazing and Polar warriors is excellent. Good luck,and peace.

[@ynntari2775]

yes! it's exactly like that! after you start reasoning and noticing that you just came out of a mania/hypomania/manic-like epidode, you start thinking that everything you did was horrible and shameful. But when you're doing them, they feel so reasonable, so right and good. I can realte a lot to a lot of this things.

[@MuMu-fu7qe]

Elevated mood, shopping, planning creative projects (not actually following through)... but the main one is a surreal feeling together with coincidences becoming more frequent. I've learned to window shop in thrift stores instead of actually shopping at department stores. I've learned to ignore the kooky coincidences or synchronicities. I don't apply deeper meaning to things during that surreal period. And if I need to sleep but it's not coming naturally, I will take something low dose and non-habit forming to help put me down for the night. It's saved me from going off the deep end many a time :)

[@ElisabethMateas-nh8js]

The worst part of my manic episodes is compulsive talking. It’s been rough but my medication really helps me control my thoughts and words. It really calms me down

[@salmejalkanen2663]

Same! When I'm manic or hypomanic I speak too much, almost all the time. And last time when I was manic and visiting my parents, my dad got very nervous cause I coudn't stop speaking.

[@itsryderbabey8885]

Oh thank god, a mania episode is coming. I’m going to make it through finals week everybody

[@DrTraceyMarks]

😊

[@lambd01d]

I always found I had a low level hypomania in the summer when we had exams. I learnt to play the didgeridoo before my finals lol. Did really well. It wasn't true hypomania, just a bit more elevated than happy.

[@alejandras5586]

i had exams this week while having a manic episode, i thought i'd be able to study succesfully which kinda did because i didn't sleep almost 3-4 days and when i slept i did it for like 4-5 hours, but now that i have my grades i feel terrible wishing i could done it best and cant stop obsessing over it, i just want to stop those thoughts but i can't

[@bye3568]

U won't be thanking God when u won't be able to sleep hun

[@callum1651]

I look back on stuff I've said and think 'aw man why did I say that?' Haha

[@xfesto5734]

Callum story of my life

[@BeingBetter]

I do it too. It's so embarrassing 😖

[@BeingBetter]

@My Thought's Embarrassment is such a painful emotion for me.

[@Celtic-pp1yq]

Hail Hail brother! Here we go 10 in a row. Imagine our Mania when we win the 10. I will be manic for months! 🍀🍀🍀

[@kelleybright3113]

U2 ...geez my mouth is reckless when im manic

[@TripinHeidi]

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 in my mid 50’s. I’m now in my early 60’s I know that I’m going into an elevated mood when I stop sleeping, the worst episode being 6 nights without going to bed/sleep where I was gardening under torchlight, cleaning the car at 3am etc. A depressive episode then follows for about 2/3 weeks when the opposite happens & I can’t get out of bed & stop eating. Insomnia is the trigger for sure.

[@ericah6546]

I would have had a hard time going that long without knowing I had Bipolar 2. I was diagnosed at 17. I didn't trust psychiatrists after a bad stigmatizing experience and was later re-diagnosed at 28. My doctor explained my history of having both mania and depression at the same time and how my depressions were different from the norm during the times they were combined with mania. It helps me know I'm not crazy and actually have a biological reason in my brain for mania and depression. Sometimes I feel like a burden on my loved ones.

[@ericah6546]

Interesting though, usually mine are in reverse form: I'll go into a depression and then the mania, then normal again.

[@Keekonuts]

I was diagnosed bp1 1980…I’m 62!

[@AkathisiaWarrior]

Bipolar 2 doesn’t have mania.

[@HunterBidensHandgun]

​@@AkathisiaWarriorIt has hypomania

[@mgwarner1]

The crash for me is getting overwhelmed by all of the projects, relationships, perceived successes, and either I blow up on people due to not being able to tolerate how I feel anymore, say things I know I will regret later, I just want to blow everything up, get people away, isolate. Every time the phone pings I don’t even look. I just ignore people for a week or so. I think the world will end, that my kids will be hurt, and I want to not wake up. I feel that dying would be better because I’m such a terrible person. When I come out of it, it’s a burst of energy, unlimited optimism, I remember how great I am, becomes super parent and start a bunch of initiatives on how I’m going to fix everything, start a project or two or a hobby, get a bunch of ideas and start trying to become a great cook or learning new new musical instrument. Baseline for me is mild depression and a constant feeling of being tired. I wish baseline for me was more on the positive side and I’m told adjusting beds can get me there someday.

[@Terszel]

I know my hypomania is coming when I start reading research papers and think I can find breakthroughs to problems I know nothing about. At that moment, I grab a round ball and toss it around while pacing in order to gather my thoughts better. Fortunately I dont know any researchers' emails otherwise Im sure I'd be typing up a storm in their inboxes 😂

[@orianaterravecchia3333]

LMAOOOOO IF THIS ISNT ME RIHHT NOW 💀💀💀💀💀💀

[@c0m4w1]

Psychiatric, psychological, physiological, neurological, political, basically anything relevant to those and is almost always a cited study or paper; only on google scholar though lol because regular google is filled with bs. Not just when manic either, definitely 90% of the time though, and my wife isn't the biggest fan lol especially and particularly when it comes to anything politics. Did we just become bestfriends haha?

[@ladylukewarm9949]

Darkwing i loveeee you! Cause this is totally me.

[@jefframaki]

Oh yea.. I had a textbook pulled for wrong information... I did a whole r search project sent all the info in and they pulled the microbiology book. My 1 claim to fame thanks manic panic lol

[@Lucysays]

I watch psychology documentaries, When the mania is coming I become hyper graphic and take notes as if I’ll be tested. I study the material as if I can somehow find the breakthrough that modern science has missed. I’ve heard a lot of people say this. I find music so stimulating. I will write out lyrics ( not type or print, longhand cursive) and study them as I’m convinced the words are so profound. I start getting ideas about how to rearrange furniture or books … next thing I’m sweating buckets and organizing EVERYTHING

[@Zamiiz]

I just want to thank you so much. You don’t know how much you’ve helped me with understanding and controlling my illnesses. For the longest time I haven’t been able to see a therapist of my own, so I’d have to rely on videos like the ones you make.

[@anisa.martinez]

i just start cleaning . i start cleaning , and then i’ll get distracted so i’ll stop cleaning and then an hour later i just have so much mess.... it stays like that for so long

[@prolcat9046]

This has been me all day

[@februaryschild0216]

Before I became manic this time, I left my dishes in the sink for a month. It was disgusting. I just couldn't bring myself to finish washing them. I washed them yesterday finally. But, I also ordered $300 worth of dresses from Amazon at 2am. 😂 No worries, I returned them at 3 before they shipped. I hate it here.

[@fartunyep4501]

Excellent video!! My mania comes from insomnia and this great sense of self that comes out of nowhere. I start thinking the world revolves around me.

[@Bookjunkie407]

When I am manic i hate my husband i think he's the devil I constant think about getting a divorce when i am rational not manic i think he's sweet and enjoy his company and think he's an awesome father.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

It's good that he's so understanding and is able to deal with the things you say to him when you're manic. 🙂

[@Bookjunkie407]

@@DrTraceyMarks thank you, I never threaten him with divorce, or tell him I want one. I can just be cold and unattached at times. Sometimes in my head wonder how the heck I got in the relationship in the first place when I am manic. Now that I understand the illness better I tend to know the feelings may fade and I try my hardest not to say everything that's on my mind when manic because I could loose those who are dear to me I have in the past. My husband ignores most of what I says anyways...😑🙄.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Jesus First lol. In this case ignoring you is a good thing 😊

[@frankmurray5313]

Jesus First yep 👍 I can totally relate to that

[@ricktyricktywrecked5777]

I'm the same way with my wife. I love her to no end when I'm "stable". But when I'm manic I hate her, I find her annoying and I don't want her around me. I've done well to shield her from it. Thank God for medication

[@bouutiquems3578]

I read this as 3 signs yo mama is coming.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

LOL! I hope that's a good thing if she's coming 🙂

[@BrittanySchank]

Bahaha

[@lawrencesantiago901]

I was looking for this comment. 😂

[@igorsmail5417]

Hodgetwin, yes! 😁 haha 😂

[@cordeliaporell5055]

i laughed too hard at this

[@ciera5235]

I've been realizing that I'm having very Bipolar behavior, and it runs in my family. Watching videos lie this urge me to talk to my mom, who has Bipolar. Thank you for helping me!

[@sebastianem2405]

Hey I'm in this exact situation, could you help me think of something to say to break the ice?

[@PippaChapmanVideos]

I love the fact that you talk about depression leading to mania, as most professionals say its the other way round! My bipolar is seasonal. I have to look out for prodromes of mania after my winter low! I don't have highs every year. But I have to say, I do like them. Disruptive as they are.

[@shawnaoliver4538]

Your channel is one of the main reasons I finally accepted my diagnosis. Thank you.

[@hinata2578]

I love my manic episodes I just wish I could finish the things I start in them :)

[@DrTraceyMarks]

LOL! Yes if it could see you from the beginning all the way through to the end of a project at least you could walk away with something useful.

[@ashreactive]

Exactly

[@brittaolson6550]

hinata2578 I don’t anymore, because I had some in which I did very destructive (especially self-destructive) things. I don’t mean self harm, usually, but I mean I made very impulsive decisions, thought I was above the law, etc. None of those attitudes are anything like me. I can relate to not being able to finish good things I start also, though.

[@SariennMusic73]

Id be a trillionaire if all my plans went through and were actually finished.. I'm so mad at myself.

[@brittaolson6550]

Sarienn Music So true! Same here.

[@portiavenetia9052]

Excellent information for us with bipolar that are unaware of our symptoms & prior behavior before a change of mood into mania. Thank you!

[@Kr0n0s217]

I recently have been diagnosed adhd and bi polar and your channel has helped me see and understand so many things about my patterns. Thank you! It has really been a relief to hear what I thought was unexplainable put into words

[@sweetest-of-memes]

For me it's that I start obsessively writing, or talking, or thinking about "deep things" in my life. It's like I become completely transfixed on trying to solve my and the world's problems. Its very relatable to the guitarist for me because it's based in creativity. I love to read, write, and learn. It was one of the only things about me that held me together through my childhood. The problem is I get too overwhelmed by adult life to do much writing these days, but when I'm suddenly a mile deep in some weird poem on my phone that doesn't make sense that's my clue something is wrong. I'll stay up writing all night because I'm convinced I've struck gold. When I read it back it's humiliatingly dramatic and confusing. The solving the world's problems piece is also huge. I start obsessing over my life and the nature of the world to the point that the next thing I know I'm planning to move to Portugal, or convinced I must have DID secretly, or dissecting childhood trauma needlessly to try to "discover what's really wrong with me."

[@sweetest-of-memes]

@adrian sangster thank you! Keep strong as well, it’s a long journey and you got this 🖤

[@TheMsr47gaming]

I got words in my heads and they gonna bite

[@samjetson2971]

How about you are just a deep thinker?

[@mushroomsinmygarden6764]

THIS I’m crying I relate SO much to this !

[@laurenroberts4217]

My nurses actually thought I had DID because of my psychosis and manic behavior. I stayed up late into the night writing obsessively on any surface I could get my hands on while listening to “while my guitar gently weeps” and other Beatles songs. It felt like creative exploration.

[@carmilavillaseran5358]

never have I ever felt so called out by a video, I've been diagnosed with bipolar within the past year and I'm still in the process of learning and identifying the symptoms that affect me and indicate incoming depressive or manic episodes. I feel like this video is spot on with how im currently feeling and it really helped me recognize that this might be the start of a manic episode. I feel like its harder to recognize some symptoms now with the consequences of lockdowns especially since my interaction with my peers has been minimal and my household situation isnt the best in communicating. At least now I know that I should at least be stricter with my sleeping schedule even if I dont feel like it.

[@chrissydee5820]

This video is incredibly helpful-thank you for making these, Dr. Marks. I watch this when I’m concerned I may be on the way, and it reassures me and/or gets me to call my doctor. Your videos address everything! Bipolar and anxiety (check), bipolar and ADHD (check), marriage and ADHD (check)! If I were manic I would think they’re just for me LOL! And they help me explain my bipolar disorder to my loved ones, which is so great. Thank you!

[@Hairbytyra.s]

Had an episode 3 times in one month which landed me in the psych back to back to back and they tried to diagnose me with schizophrenia 💀 but ended up calling it just a psychosis. Terrible staff in those wards may I add. Put me through through a lot of emotional abuse. Even I can say that to this day. Anyways, the REAL problem was pcos symptoms were triggering adrenal fatigue which in turn took a toll on my mental health and physical health because I did not know better and thought I was just going crazy. My period went away for an entire year after that last trip and all those pills they pushed on me. That experience really did a number on my spirit. Thank heavens I know now what is going on and not a clueless teenager anymore.

[@christopherwalters3320]

Yea I read that bipolar one and mild schizophrenia are very close. I get psychosis to sometimes. Like I’ll hear voices but can’t make out what it’s saying or laughing and yelling. I’ll see shadow people in the corner of my eyes or this last one I could see a guy with brown pants stand behind me and I could look back and see his legs but when I would turn around no one was there. Only difference is I don’t think there is hidden messages in everything or something like that. But idk when I did go to the doctors I went threw being accused of health problems (checked out fine), anxiety, depression, adhd, for some reason doctors couldn’t figure out why my emotions made no sense till I seen a psych doctor and she could clearly tell I was bipolar. She thought I was type 2 but I later found out all the symptoms I was afraid to tell her about make me type one. Idk I’ve been like this since I can remember, guess I’m just used to it now. I just avoid society as much as possible.

[@CocoaCookies_]

How did you get your adrenal fatigue diagnosed? I have pcos too and struggle with maintaining balance with my hormones. But it’s so difficult getting doctors to listen and help me get tests to figure out what’s causing my issues. It’s like they want to wait until after something bad happens.

[@rolandomatheusgutierrezcou1393]

Its not supposed to be a nice place, its supposed to be hard just like in reality life and know how to manage the condition, believe me i have that too

[@ericah6546]

Psychiatric mistreatment is the worst! I ended up moving to a state where bipolar is much better understood on the west coast. I will never live in a Commonwealth again unless it's for a dream job because those states stigmatize bipolar so badly!

[@ericah6546]

@@rolandomatheusgutierrezcou1393 I wouldn't say psych wards are supposed to be hard. They just are what they are. But malpractice and mistreatment is what the op was talking about. That's a different thing than in your word "hard." Sure most are not posh, but that is a different topic altogether that what op said.

[@wewuzwolves4428]

I actually look forward to the (hypo)mania since I've learned how to manage and take advantage of it (e.g. re-directing that energy into hobbies, cardio and strength training, work related tasks, things to clean up around the house, learning new skills). I'm currently working on ways to manage and exploit the depressive episodes (which I'm having now).

[@oceanicsun6]

Same!

[@TheCharmedRose]

this could not possibly explain exactly what i’m trying to do now. i see you posted this 2months ago. please please share anything you’ve found helpful if you’ve found anything!!!

[@wewuzwolves4428]

@@TheCharmedRose I made it through the depressive phase. I just had to endure it. I would "cheat" every now and them with some Cannabis (I have a medical card) edibles. Just as I was coming out of the depression and feeling better (it doesn't take much to feel better when the only way to go is up), I got Covid (mild symptoms, thankfully). I got over it last week and now I'm noticeably elevated but not quite hypo-manic. Thankfully. Imagine the depressive and manic cycles represented by a sine wave. Lowest part of the wave is the depressive, highest part is the hypomania. I'm currently at the midpoint between the extremes, but on the way up the sine wave. Once I peak, then it's slowly downhill. Cycle repeats.

[@candiceisrandom4692]

Same and agreed

[@daniellea42]

Managing I would say make sure to keep doing self care, brush teeth, shower or just wash up in the sink even if you don’t have it. I am not diagnosed with bipolar I am just curious about it and learning about it because I do also struggle with other diagnosed mental health disorders and because I like learning so anyway I hope I’m not over stepping or making a false assumption but maybe when in a depressive state where you feel you cannot get up out of bed or your chair imagine your body is a rocket and give yourself a count down then imagine once you reach one that you are a rocket taking off and try to create the action in your mind. Idk if that would work but I suppose it’s something to try. I think it’s amazing you’ve learned to harness parts of the bipolar and truly inspiring 🤗 I wish you all the luck in finding ways to manage the lows and wish you all the happiness life can give ❤️

[@josiesaenz294]

When i start to become manic I start over organizing everything. All my paperwork, my planner, my kitchen pantry, my drawers, book cases, etc. I won’t realize it though until I start heading down hill

[@ccdenice]

💯% me

[@adagioborntrager4456]

Me. Too. Just declutter and hyper cleaned my whole bathroom. At least it’s something we won’t regret after our episode 🤷‍♀️

[@jadeauburn9220]

Thanks for this! My husband has bipolar 2 and I'm the one keeping up with his behaviour, and I'm responsible to keeping our life in a healthy schedule. I really recommend routine for anyone with bipolar because it has helped immensely!

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Oh that's so good to hear Jade. It seems like such a basic thing, but it really does make a difference. thanks for sharing this.

[@mohammedmifras7704]

HI jade . Pls can u share what's the routine is?

[@patricia2990]

Does he take medication?

[@rhondalee133]

I have bipolar 2 and it is hard to have routine when you are up all night doing things , for me it is cleaning and more cleaning and then you have to sleep all day .

[@thisischris5351]

I was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. My mania leading up to this incidental diagnosis was so bad that I was having severe hallucinations. Friends and family were worried I was schizophrenic because of the hallucinations. I am happy to be on the mend! Watching this video helped me to understand my disorder a little better so I can watch out for signs of mania 👍🏼 thanks, Doc!

[@marshm3llow467]

Hey man, I am also happy to hear you're feeling better after an episode. I've got bipolar as well, and unrelated psychosis, and both can be pretty scary. But there's no better feeling than recovering from the symptoms :) I hope you continue to have stable mood, and that you know that even if a mood episode happens, you can get through it. Take it from me, I've known I had bipolar since I was 14 and it gets much easier to deal with as time goes on.

[@msisms57]

I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 after flying too high after my first prescription of an SSRI antidepressant. I have never had hallucinations as part of hypomania. I think that was aa defining difference between type A & type B.

[@rebeccalynnnovy]

i just got diagnosed with bipolar mania and i'm SO grateful for your videos they have helped me SO much

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Excellent I’m so glad to hear this. Keep watching I’ll continue to add more information on bipolar disorder.

[@brightpage1020]

Has anyone ever started a business in mania? Like - oops - there goes my mental illness, deluding me into believing I could be successful again. How do I get out of this LLC issue before I have to pay taxes on it? That sort of thing?

[@_francis4596]

MDKDKFKFKGKF THATS HORRIBLE IM SO SORRY ... no but ive had horrible business ideas that i was absolutely convinced were GENIUS while in the manic episode and then when i was normal i was like damn... i really sounded crazy like that, huh..

[@AshleySimoneau]

Not quite that bad, but multiple times now I've paid for the domain name of a website for an entire year at a time both times, for a blog I HAVE YET TO BEGIN. Or signed up for memberships to shit that I can't get out of, or in my excitement of decluttering my home I get rid of stuff and then seriously regret it later

[@December_baby04]

Yikes this was me a few weeks ago

[@ashleytucker5548]

Me!!!!! Yes!!!!

[@clairewillow6475]

My grandfather’s manic episodes used to involve business ideas or ways to make money that used to end up costing him money.

[@stormjett2608]

I never knew i was manic until i was diagnosed by a doctor and had a follow up with a therapist about it.. I hate existing one week, I love myself the next week. People who have mania are strong, but we are tired from having to maintain such strength.

[@allan.johnson.]

I love watching your videos because they help me to better understand my friend who lives with bipolar disorder and he's currently off his meds and I'm not having him in my life at the moment because his behaviour can be destructive and even dangerous,but yet I miss the friend I have when he takes his meds.

[@cherylmason8177]

Very informative thank you! I have never been diagnosed as being bipolar. My drs always said or wrote “chronic depression”. However, when I watched and advertisement for the new medication, Vraylar, (with the woman on the house of cards), I was like, “OMG that’s me!”. Now I know I need to go back to the Dr with this info, but I rarely leave the house, ESPECIALLY if the sun is not shining. Thank God spring is around the corner and I’ll be making an appointment soon. Thank you again for sharing all of your videos they are very much appreciated. 😊

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You’re welcome Cheryl. I haven’t seen that commercial for Vraylar. now you have me curious I’ll have to look it up. I hope your doctors appointment goes well. Depending on where you live maybe you only have to wait a couple more months. 😎☀️

[@cherylmason8177]

Dr. Tracey Marks yes that commercial certainly seemed like to was made just for me lol. My big thing is starting MANY projects and not being able to finish ONE lol. And I’m on my Ol Kentucky Home 😊. Just heard that on this Secretariat movie haha. So I’m in a pretty decent mood at the moment. Thanks again I truly appreciate your videos and always find them enlightening.

[@jennyedwards4873]

With my bipolarity I will always take on too many projects so that nothing ever gets completed properly. Most of my life happens like that. It is very chaotic...

[@stephaniepoleson8891]

Irritability, racing thoughts, agitation, dancing. All early signs for me

[@jesperfrederiksen687]

I just happend to me. Im really pissed about My neighbour she fucks the ability up to sleep. She's a sociopath and she is fucking up My sleeping pattern every night. 1 hour of sleep the last 2 months. She knows i have bipolar then she is feeding of the energy that i dont have the ability to sleep.

[@melodywilliams9124]

The dancing thing.... I don't actually dance or go dancing but seemingly out of nowhere I begin to believe that going out dancing and clubbing and being surrounded by a lot of people is a really good idea..... I'm 43 and typically dislike being around a lot of people... lol

[@natalieg1332]

Your disclaimer is really great, thoughtful, and needed.

[@tangomango2459]

You’re one of the few Doctors who makes me feel safe and at ease. I really appreciate you Dr. Tracy 🤗

[@jerryrobinson2348]

I try to reframe from having too many people in my life. Keeps the mania down. Words of advice.

[@leadondarrion6572]

We all need friends, it's an important part of mental health

[@Find-Your-Bliss-]

I became aware that people would feed off of my energy and creativity- and leave me exhausted. I had to relinquish my need to be validated in my art, and focus on the work. I have a handful of people who I support and who support me. The rest of the people who are always quick to latch on to someone who has something they think they want, then drop them when they’re disappointed because you did not somehow change their life or make them feel better- avoid that crowd. They’re always in the shadows like jackals waiting to feed! Take care of you, and focus on your life. What you do with your world is your business. Don’t let the yammering voices of others keep you from your focus and desires.

[@amixedgoddess]

Yes and plus I never had a lot of friends to begin with. I became a mother at sixteen and lost a lot of friends then. Now at 37 I have 2 friends who text or call maybe twice a year. I have 4 children and they keep me company and my love when he is home. I hope your feeling better Jerry your not alone in this.

[@Spamismorethanfood]

I can't feel anything anymore. I can't even move sometimes, legit paralyzed for hours. but your videos are informing me about things I never knew existed, I always knew of anxiety, depression, etc but I always felt like it was so much more. thank you ive felt very lost.

[@allanfajardo2507]

The girl I fell in love with has bipolar. We met about 2 years ago. I knew from the beginning about her condition so I learned about it what I could throughout it. It never made me change my feelings towards her. I have helped her and been through so much with her. I seriously haven’t loved anyone as much as I have loved her. With manic episodes and all I never once thought about leaving her. So I have 2 young children 5 and 10 from my past relationship. They are well behave and amazing kids and she loved how good of a dad I am and my kids love her so much at times I felt like she gave them more love and attention then their actual mom. She also says loves me but recently she said she hates me because I’m so perfect but can’t be with me anymore because I have kids and doesn’t want to be a step mother ever. We were about to celebrate our 11 month together and the last month it has been a constant battle of me trying to be there for her and her just pushing me away. It’s been about a week since I last saw her. I was about to propose to her in 2 weeks everything was planned out so this really took me by surprise and I just don’t know what to do. She says she only wants to be friends. What should I do? I love her too much to just be friends it would kill me to see her fall for someone else. But I also tend to think there could be hope if I do stay close to her and be a good friend in hard times. I’m having a really hard time right now not talking to her I feel so depressed cause I feel like it is all over. I am giving her the space she asked for so I am being respectful and waiting it out. The more time passes the more I feel like I definitely lost her. I felt like she was my soulmate so I’m just so devastated right now.

[@Kay.4892]

Friends is best. My ex husband was the same way it went off and on until I just let him out of the marriage. He still regrets it. He wanted what we had but it also was too much for him. It's so weird because it gave him a relief in many ways but sadness as well. We had a child together by the way. So I had to also for our kid.

[@Bri-cm7wg]

I love being around my people😌Hearing about similar things were all going through. I use music as my therapy through singing or listening to it. Good luck to everyone I'm no longer embarrassed after finding my community

[@Tmcsinger91]

I know my mania is coming especially when I have this strong urge to watch the sun rise. I can relate to the elevated mood and poor quality of sleep

[@tashavance4964]

Wow! I have the same about the Sunrise. I hadn't associated it Mania. Thank you for sharing!

[@watershan_11]

same i always picture the sunrise and post them and i lack sleep

[@PretiumLibertatisEstVigilantia]

As BP 1, I can relate. Sometimes I feel that I'm on top of the world and my life has just begun....lol Then.....whaaam! 😖

[@monsteri4]

it’s great what you’re doing on youtube. It’s so helpful to have this information.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thank you Madeline!

[@jennyedwards4873]

There should be more items like this on KZbin for everyone to share. Brilliant...

[@rez4998]

As a musician I really felt that part haha. when I'm in euphoric mania I write and create a whole lot of nothing and end up embarrassingly deleting it after. Whereas outside of mania I am indeed a good songwriter. The worst songs I've ever written were during mania. During depression and mixed mania, however, i typically write some of my best songs But I can still write good on medication

[@JazzyTheGreat123]

I feel this too much. Stopped taking my meds and I’m becoming manic and writing really bad music lol. Just super cynical and all over the place

[@Huskerguy316]

I am a drummer and I’m decent but I feel like the greatest drummer in the world when manic when in reality I’m just ignoring all the mistakes I’m making

[@dawsoncarpenter2244]

I only have had euphoric mania and it only happened in school. I would talk about sex and get in trouble, become fully convinced that I’m a future superstar and that I’m going to win the lottery. I’m known for always smiling and laughing because one episode lasted 2 years. I thought I was popular when in reality I would have made the same friends if I was stable, the only difference is I was toxic so they all left and I used that to boost my ego. I don’t even know how my brain had enough supply to keep me that way for so long.

[@kingskid5130]

Its not nothing. I want to read it

[@MentalPistol]

itd be funny if you call it "a lot of nothing" but in a paralell universe you put that music out and became the next Bob marley

[@richinfaith808]

Back in 2014 I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I experienced psychosis, auditory and visual hallucinations. It was very weird. I got hospitalized twice. I roamed the streets listening to Angels and seeing them.. i was super stressed out following my breakdown so I think that is what triggered it.. but just recently I did have a manic episode. I gotta admit although it's an illness it had to be the greatest feeling I've ever had in my entire life. I felt like I was on top of the world like I could process so much in my head. I felt like the so called happiness and positivity that I had was released to other people who were feeling down or had anxiety and they felt great.. I would binge eat and spend all my money on bullshit..forget about my appointments.. I always wanted to be at work.. i was off one day and i actually called my boss to come in! Wtf! Lol who does that??

[@NikiDeaf]

I was diagnosed as having bipolar type II in 1998. It runs in the family as well and even a DNA test showed an increased likelihood of having this mental illness, so I feel fairly confident I have it. The main thing that has allowed me to become as stable as possible is keeping to a routine. I still take medication and see a therapist, but nothing in the world can take the place of a stable weekly routine! If I know in advance I will be breaking with the routine, I have to prepare myself for any ping-ponging emotions and have a plan to soften their impact.

[@ES-qu1jd]

What DNA test showed it?

[@calloyd1471]

very good characterisation. I've had 5 episodes in the last 6 years or so, and this hits the nail on the head. Wish I had you for my psychiatrist!

[@nottodaysatan101]

My manic episodes involve dancing.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Like at the club dancing or prancing around your house dancing? 🙂

[@nottodaysatan101]

Dr. Tracey Marks house hahag

[@austinsvans]

Same!!

[@paulflint6254]

I used to do that too

[@tiffylovelove288]

You'd think I was a ballerina 😂😂

[@heavenisaheartbeataway9575]

Doctor, I just want to thank you for the work you are doing. Our 20 year old son is going through his first episode of mania after having gone through depression... The doctors belueve it is bipolar 1 truggered by antidepressant and ADHD meds (methylphenidate and Strattera). We got him medical help but it is overwhelming, both for him and for us as his parents. I just wanted you to know your work is appreciated. Wishing you the best.

[@isabellalove725]

Wish I could see you . Thank you for this. I needed to hear this. I've been running from it forever but I keep sabotaging my relationships,All of them . My sister passed away and it made everything unbearable to something that was already difficult. I just dont have the courage to face reality. It hurts every inch of my soul only the thought of seating down to talk to someone about it 😭I'm not ready yet but I'm closer now that I can understand I was maniac not getting happier. I was suspicious of a fake happiness and now I know it is and I'm ready to accept that.

[@denniswondrak5772]

Thanks for the “keep a routine/regular schedule” information. That is very helpful and proven from my observations.

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Oh that’s great to hear. Thanks for contributing. It sounds so simple but it is hard maintain the discipline to keep the routine.

[@joannekerr3]

My husband makes fun of me a bit about my routine but it is one of the most helpful things to stay on track

[@jennyedwards4873]

I dislike obeying rules and regulations to much. It would cramp my style to live a routine life. I want to rebel against the system to much. It is in my blood, my DNA, it is who I am...

[@maxxx429]

I too have a strict routine and schedule and I really like following my routine, I think this is the only thing that's keeping me sane

[@dogmonday]

Dear Dr Marks, thank you so much for posting these videos. They've helped me so much! Plus you whole affect is calming and therapeutic. Your lucky patients . If you ever have the inclination could you please discuss early childhood trauma and the correlation to bipolar disorder. Also, have you ever heard of "atypical depression"? I've been reading about that and how that is a symptom exclusive to bipolar disorder. I remember feeling this way after severe childhood abuse and after the perpetrators suicide (which I always felt I caused, since I wished it). I was only 10 at the time and that's where I had the beginning of what I now recognize as episodes of hypomania and depression, and suicidality. It saddens me to think other children may go through this. Thanks in advance. Susan

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Hi Susan. I have heard of atypical depression. I haven't use that term in a number of years though, I'll have to see what the association is with bipolar disorder. that's not how we use the term years ago. As for childhood abuse, it doesn't have a special connection to bipolar disorder. It's more associated with C PTSD and borderline personality disorder. I have a video on C PTSD that may interest you. kzbin.info/www/bejne/bXrWaIhshrxro8U Here's the one for bipolar disorder versus borderline personality disorder kzbin.info/www/bejne/g33PZZVvbJdpraM

[@jennyedwards4873]

I have bipolar disorder, I also suffered childhood abuse badly. Just to let you know. I tried to get diagnosed with PTSD because of childhood abuse. But I was denied that diagnosis by consultant psychiatrist, for no reason. He must have been in denial, himself... Either that or he was guilty of some sick stuff himself... Typical, just my luck...

[@TheColtonDougherty]

i relate so much to the musician anecdote! when i’m trending toward mania i always make ridiculous excel sheets and muse about crazy ways i could potentially analyze the data. when i go back and look at these spreadsheets after they’re always useless nonsense! great video!

[@amymyers1461]

Anyone else want the mania a little ? It’s like the only time the depression lifts snd I can feel happy in the mix and get things done ✔️

[@whitneyallman8365]

I’m so sorry sweetheart.

[@AttiMatter]

I'm waiting so long for it

[@PBunyanOx]

Yes

[@mairajamil001]

Yes. I'm so depressed that my manic states is where i do all my everyday stuff

[@calimango7926]

Nah. Manic states terrify me. I feel completely out of control, and when I come out of it I usually regret all the things that I did during the episode.

[@gigidayz6936]

Your channel is the best thing on You Tube! SO much sound advice and wisdom. I am bipolar 2 and it is so helpful to recognize the prodromes...

[@DrTraceyMarks]

Thanks so much GIgi. Bipolar disorder is so misunderstood by people and the term often just loosely thrown around. Tomorrow I have a breakdown video getting into the nitty-gritty of what mania and hypomania look like.

[@gigidayz6936]

@@DrTraceyMarks thanks for replying! Yes , bipolar is massively misunderstood and it's very frustrating. For the longest time before getting dx'd , my depressive episodes were treated with SSRI's. Bad move. It wasnt until getting on Lamictal that I evened out. I hate that people equate bipolar with mere "moodiness".

[@leslymontero2233]

I literally pull all-nighters every week bc I get hyper and boy that come down is HUMBLING

[@averyhouston8149]

My mania starts with the increase of speed. Walking around my kitchen between 3:30 - 5:00am wide awake pacing. It feels like my old me who became my defense mechanism wants to find expression in my reality. So I self medicate (drink alcohol) which is the worst thing I can do cause the real me goes to sleep and super Avery is out about. It's like the hyped up me is a narcotic that can't be stopped. Then real Avery wakes up and has to piece life back together while you have deep depression. It's devastating.

[@cat4331]

Thank you, Dr. Tracey Marks! I appreciate you!

[@DrTraceyMarks]

You're welcome cat!

[@Sixpoint7five]

It's incredible how routine change affects me, and even worse, how long it can take to stabilize again. Has anyone else noticed with bipolar, that routine triggers depressive episodes? I found myself in a "rut" so many times that I eventually became completely avoident of routine. On sleeping more than 6 hours and regularly however, the content seems contradictory because you say bipolar simply has episodes that markedly disrupt sleep wake cycle, but then suggests "changing" an irregular sleep wake cycle. That isn't even a thing. It's TERRIBLE laying awake all night for no reason, with zero motivation to utilize the awake time. Nothing gets accomplished except over thinking and fear of having to get up for work without rest. Still, I really liked this video so thank you for clarifying some things ☺

[@melodywilliams9124]

Whenever I'm reading about others' experience with the crash following a manic or hypomanic episode it's usually about an awful depression where they feel so low, hopeless without energy or motivation. For me, I don't experience the sadness or hopelessness. I just get extremely exhausted, sleep constantly and have zero motivation for doing anything other than what is necessary. I'm not sad, I'm exhausted. Does anyone else relate to that?

[@Lucysays]

I sometimes feel sad but mostly, I am just wiped. I’ve been known to sleep 14 hours, wake for one, then back down for 12-18. I basically sleep for 3-4 days.

[@spotsandme1968]

YES!!! Definitely. I'm not sad, nothing to be sad about. My life is great, but total exhaustion, apathy (not wanting to do anything - no interest) and always wanting to sleep. Mind you, I also have Parkinsons Disease - so it's a double-whammy when it comes to exhaustion and apathy.

[@aiyanatab4068]

I dont get sad or hopeless anymore or recently anyway just feel numb and incapable of having any type of feeling or emotions to the point of taking on an acting career of mimicking common reactions to common things so people don't think i am just a cold heartless bitch. Does that make sense? I am currently in a manic episode so bare with me and my jumbled approach at verbalizing my thoughts.

[@melodywilliams9124]

@@aiyanatab4068 It makes complete sense. When I was younger I did feel sad and hopeless while in a depressive mode but that's changed over the years. I like how you used apathy to describe your state of mind because that is exactly it.

[@thatsdope9571]

THANK YOU. It took me so long to realize I have bipolar because Ive always heared that depression is basically crying and feeling sad all the time, but for me I just feel completely numb as if my soul got sucked out of my body and and nothing makes me sad nor happy. For about four years I just thought that I lack motivation and tried so hard to gain it but failed until finally considered therapy

[@megroll7793]

I don’t always have a decreased need for sleep when an episode is coming/during an episode. I did with my most recent episode, though. I forced myself to sleep in spite of not wanting to. I increased my melatonin dosage, stopped looking at my phone before bed, and began reading until I felt a little tired. Once I started doing that I was able to pull myself out of it a lot easier than I have been able to in the past.

[@aaronsc1936]

I start drinking more and spending more, I feel like a god... and run more too

[@garcellebeauvais]

Oh man! You said it all. I remember telling people I'm God. I run faster than usain Bolt when that shit hits me!

[@rinse3x]

Yup

[@kalypso9457]

I'm glad I found this. I was recently diagnosed and thought the diagnosis would allow me to be in control. Now I get frustrated with both manic and depressive symptoms because I still lack control.

[@mollyjane4280]

Ugh! This is so helpful! I need a routine. Thank you for showing examples so I can be in the lookout and make adjustments. I just found your channel and now I’m going to watch all your vids. You don’t know how much I needed this at this exact moment.