My fiancé died... Now what? // Sharing my grief experience, how I'm healing, and honoring him

[@arnellehardy1091]

I’m sorry for your loss, I was feeling so low about my fiancé death when I found this video. Tomo makes 9 months since his death. He died in a car accident 1 month before our wedding. This hurts so much ! I lost my mom a day before my 21 bday and I lost my only pregnancy so when I meet this awesome man who was brought so much happiness, and killed I just feel cursed smh I’m so so sad just praying I make it thru this year. My prayers are for you also it’s very painful to lose someone you planned on starting a new life of marriage with. God bless you! ❤️‍🩹 Psalms 147:3

[@truetaylee]

Thank you so much for your video. I recently just lost my fiancée on July 29th 2024. It has been extremely difficult. I feel at times like my heart is going to give out from the pain. He was my soulmate and i really believe the connection we had withstand the test of time.

[@LebovicComms]

I lost my daughter to cancer four years ago. She was in Tyler's high school graduating class. You might have known her. I'm pretty sure he did. The process of treating Alex's cancer was overwhelming at times. Every morning when I woke up, the first things that went through my mind were, "What day is it?" and "What to I have to do today?" I needed to get my bearings first thing every morning because there was no routine anymore. That same process continued through the early stages of grief. "What day is it?" What do I have to do today?" I focused only on the things that absolutely needed to be done and allowed myself the time and space to process Alex's death so things didn't build up and become overwhelming. It wasn't a conscious decision. It's just what felt right at the time. During that first year after her death, I spent a lot of time learning about the grieving process. I was fortunate to live the first 56 years of my life without experiencing that kind of loss. I read books, scoured the Internet, talked to friends and mentors and attended grief counseling sessions -- all in hopes of finding an epiphany that would make me feel whole again. I learned a couple things: 1. Grief is different for everyone. There is no formula or timetable for going through the grieving process. If what you're doing helps you, you're doing the right thing. 2. Grief doesn't go away. You don't get over it. I didn't know that. Instead, that grief becomes a part of who you are. That doesn't mean you can never find joy again, just that you are changed by the experience. The closest thing to an epiphany for me came when I watched an interview with a man who lost his wife and two children in two separate incidents. He said, "The best way to navigate grief is with purpose. Find a purpose that moves you forward and honors the person you lost." That resonated with me. I now focus on moving forward and keeping Alex's memory alive by supporting things that were important to her. Again, everyone's path is different, so I can only tell you what works for me. It seems, though, that you are on a similar path advocating for issues important to Tyler. I hope it brings you peace and you can make a difference in his name.

[@griefglory]

Mr. Lebovic, I can't thank you enough for sharing these words with me. I knew and loved Alex. Some of my fondest classroom memories involved giggles with her. 😊 She was such a beaming light! I have definitely begun to learn that grief is a part of me now, like you said. And how blessed are we to be forever changed by such beautiful souls, right? I have been so inspired by how you've honored her, and am trying to find my purpose in honoring Tyler with this project. Thanks for being here and sharing this space with me. Would you like for Alex's name to be in the memory page of future videos? I'd love to add her if you're comfortable with that.

[@LebovicComms]

@@griefglory I would love for Alex's name to be included. Thank you!

[@krystalramirez5691]

I just today lost the love of my life. I love you, Timothy Stewart Sanders, you're always going to be my one and only. I hate that I have to live life without you, my rock

[@gaiacerrai9367]

"to feel less alonne" I hear you. same shit, same pain and I totally get you (unfortunately for the both of us)

[@nicolekraus9648]

Thank you for this. It made me feel less alone. In loving memory of my partner, Dustin Bow.

[@griefglory]

Praying for your peace and for Dustin's. ❤️

[@marsiaurdaneta3982]

In loving memory of Harry Martin. My soulmate, love and best friend!

[@hothaze1493]

6 months ❤ wishing you all the love and peace in the world. My Jamal has passed away 7,5 moths ago. I am still stuck in my bed. Going through memories that are so real, I feel i am going crazy sometimes. I wish you all the best ❤

[@anguishbeauty]

I just lost the love of my life October 6th 😞 I found him lifeless .. in front of me … he had just given me a ring too.. I’m so lost :( I’m so stuck in my head .. we had a bad fight and then this happens 😔😔 we were so connected and so bonded

[@emilymathews4117]

This is so important. I will be following along your journey. ❤

[@JuliesGuitar]

Thank you for putting this out there... It's been less than a month since the love of my life passed away 😭💔 The last thing on my very sad to-do list was to cancel our wedding in June. Sending you a hug 🫂

[@karigibson5801]

Syd .. I just cannot express my pride enough. You are an amazing light . Could you please add my very good friend’s Brother to the “ In Memory “ list - Rob Yoos . Love you sunshine 🌞!

[@griefglory]

Thank you Ms. Kari ❤️ Love you! And Rob Yoos is added in!

[@cat_lady_lexi]

I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my soulmate to addiction 2 months ago. He was only 30 and had a young son. It completely shattered my life and all the plans we had for it. I don't wish this on anyone. Thank you for sharing your story, helps me feel less alone.

[@griefglory]

Oh my gosh, Lexi. I'm so sorry for your loss too. And I'm beyond touched that this video was helpful to you. You are not alone! Your soulmate will always be with you. Allow yourself to be wrapped up in his love. It's completely disorienting to lose a partner and then have to reimagine your life. Everything you are feeling is valid. Sending you love and hugs as you grieve ❤

[@daviddunn2730]

Sydney - you have such a strong and open heart, continue to share while it helps you as it also helps many others.

[@griefglory]

Thank you so much Uncle Dave Dunn ❤️

[@jerichopowell3644]

So sorry for your loss. My fiance Cait passed away 8 months ago from an overdose, and I still feel disoriented and confused. I keep looking at my phone for her to text me.

[@MegDizzle77]

What a beautiful soul you are Sydney and such a brave young woman to share this journey with us all. In loving memory of Tom Schoff.

[@krismills4393]

I just lost my husband of 38 years to an accidental overdose! He struggled with chronic pain caused by a condition called CMT. It' s a generative nerve disease that cause neurapathy and nerve pain that never goes away. The treatment is pain killers but be cause he could get no help from doctors due to TBE stigma of addiction he turned to the streets to Medicate himself and it killed him.

[@rachelloucas8538]

You are so strong ❤

[@mylezdanielz]

We all went to highschool together Tyler and I played football. He always had good energy. I remember us always listenin to lil Wayne pregame (random memory) I just wanted to say I’m praying for you and his family / close friends ❤

[@pattydawson1917]

You are incredibly strong, brave, and compassionate. Thank you for your vulnerability and desire to help others.

[@Lauren-z9g]

In Loving memory of my husband Pete

[@MrChrissy0928]

In Loving Memory of my Mom, Kim Lewandowski. She struggled with addiction and that led her down a dangerous path. I lost her on NYE 2020 to domestic violence. I remember talking to Tyler about the struggles with my parents and he always had such kind words. He was always up for a chat outside our homes, talking about work and telling me I needed to sell him my Toyota that would last forever. Sending you love and light! I think this is a great outlet for you and everyone else going through this trauma and grief.

[@griefglory]

Thank you so much Chrissy, and for sharing about your mom. I'm so sorry. I remember the conversations you and Tyler shared and feeling so proud of how supportive he was. He was ALWAYS up for a chat, especially about cars he had no business asking to buy LOL You were always so kind to us both, and I'm so grateful for that. Your mom's name has been added to the memory page, and I will continue to pray for peace for you both and your family ❤️❤️

[@scotmorrell5637]

Thank you, Sydney. I’m sure that while Tyler was in recovery, he said something, did something, shared something that helped a person who was struggling make it through the day and ease their pain. You will likely never know their names, but that doesn’t diminish his legacy. You’re doing the same now and it’s a beautiful act of kindness. All the best, Scot (Anna, Rebecca and Caitlin’s dad)

[@griefglory]

Thank you so much Mr. Scott ❤️

[@jessicaschultz3783]

In loving memory of the love of my life I lost as well to addiction Bill Clark ❤️. Days, Months, Years will go by and you some how learn to move forward. The pain will always be there unfortunately. The questions, the what if’s are still hard and oh yeah the yearly Anniversaries are really really hard for me still to this day. I felt the same way as you , what other people thought. It was pretty hush hush when he passed. No one ever talked about it. It was actually pretty sad. I still can’t figure out not even today how I survived the pain I felt. I believe Bill was my angel and even though he wasn’t physically here he still had a way to get me through it.I love that you are doing this for Tyler. Tyler and his family are very special to me. And I wish I was as brave as you to tell my story. Sorry for the long post. So many feelings emerge when I think about you and Tyler and see the pictures of how much you guys loved each other. I’m so sorry you are going through this. No one should have to.

[@griefglory]

Thanks for sharing, Jessica. It is so validating to hear that you felt the same way. And I also completely believe that Tyler is my angel and is somehow guiding me through it all. It feels like that's the only way it's possible to survive for me. It's comforting to feel like they are always with us. This can all just be so isolating, so I appreciate feeling seen and understood by you, though I'm so sorry we share this pain. I will continue making these videos and talking about Tyler and our experience if it means other people won't suffer in silence or go through this feeling so alone. Bill Clark has been added to the memory page and you both will remain in my prayers. ❤️

[@anguishbeauty]

My partner also passed away from addiction 😞 but at first it was alcohol… and he was also struggling in secret to… so I think it was other things that he didn’t want to tell me about and I keep thinking if I had known what other things he dealt with that I could of saved him 😞😞

[@JuliesGuitar]

In loving memory of Stan the Man Whitlow ❤

[@marissafalkiewicz890]

I love that you are honoring tyler in this way and know you will be helping many others with your vulnerability. I appreciate that you’ll be honoring others that have been lost at the end of each video and would love if you could include a close family friend we lost years ago- Joe Piezzo. Sending you so much love and light syd.

[@griefglory]

Thank you so much Marissa! I will absolutely include Joe Piezzo in our memory log ❤️

[@brendanegan7005]

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[@Rence38]

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