My Full Miscarriage Story At 12 Weeks Pregnant

[@ErinRobinson]

I am thinking about doing a deep dive into Fibroids & Endometriosis (with questions about fertility as well) with my fibroids doctor for a video here on my channel. If you have any questions that you would like to get answered from an expert, please let me know here in the comments. If it's too sensitive to publicly ask, go to my Instagram and I have put up a question box and will 100% keep your identity private. I love you all so much. I've read every comment and have wanted to respond to each of them but just know it's hard for me to really emotionally come up with responses right now. Every single one of them have touched my heart. I've never felt more loved and supported by "strangers" in my life. Hopefully, videos like this can be helpful to other women going through this.

[@brieannatennant2234]

Is it possible to do a video about the after. Like physical and emotional wise if your up to it. I’ve had three miscarriages (thankful that it passed by itself) but afterwords I felt awful cramps for like a week or two. I didn’t havnt a lot of bleeding after and emotionally my doctor said I had the equivalent of post partum. But I know you mentioned having to wear diapers for awhile and if you could explain that I think thatd be super helpful. And just like everything that comes after it. But I truly(and I think I can speak for everyone when I say. This) we don’t want you to talk about anything that is going to make your mental health worse. Just know we all love you and we are all here for you and we truly love you more than you will ever know 🥰

[@bdemp001]

Can you please ask about multiple miscarriage and it’s relation to PCOS? I’ve had 4 miscarriages. This last one the hardest at about 11weeks this past May & I have PCOS. I just want to know what to ask at my doctor and if I should even keep trying at this point. I can’t hurt my heart anymore.

[@nadiashami7468]

Please do! Sending you love.

[@emilymaynard3419]

I’m very sorry for your loss and your suffering/pain and I hope you are physically feeling better I know that you will never be able to forget about this experience but I also hope you can emotionally heal

[@Manssiie]

Could you talk about PCOS too?

[@shiek64]

Two things I have to say: Whomever disliked this video; shame on you! This is a terrible topic to have to talk about, and Erin did such a wonderful job at being frank and open about her experience. Erin, you're amazing. I've been watching you for years now, so much so that I feel like we're friends. I am grieving with you and for you. I can't imagine how you are feeling, but you are so strong and brave to talk about this and try to help other women going through this. Much love to you and Matt.

[@minenoturs4271]

SAME

[@michelleroop1892]

Yes, Erin I'm so sorry for your loss and thank you for sharing this with us I couldn't imagine how difficult this was for you to talk about but hopefully it will help other women that are going through this

[@michelleroop1892]

Yes Jean Gosset, some people are just haters if you don't like a video just keep scrolling until you find a video that you want to watch instead of disliking someone else's video, I have been a fan of Erin's for a very long time and I will forever be a fan of hers

[@melissawest2971]

Sometimes I think some of the dislikes are because they disliked that she went through this and don’t realize what the dislike button is actually for. Also you will have those trolls who dislike videos to be rude.

[@Bixbystray]

bots are a thing too :)

[@jacquelinegranados3166]

Who ever disliked this was crying and clicked the wrong button

[@freyas2338]

I think your joking but I did that on the last video( I obviously realised and liked after)

[@7KatieBear11]

I have an additional tip I’d like to mention just as a medical person who has heard too many stories about water toxicity. Since you’re losing a lot of blood and trying to drink a lot of water, try to also drink little sips of something like Gatorade or Powerade. If you get the original kinds, you’ll get some electrolytes to help your body take in water and you’ll get some sugars to give you energy. Little sips or watering it down a bit helps make it easier to drink and will take away a little bit of the danger that could come with losing blood and tissues. My heart goes out to you, Erin, and all the women who have to go through this.

[@brittneylyntalks]

You are doing a major service to all women who will go through this. I’m so sorry for your loss again.

[@ffic4life]

I now finally understand why they say going through a miscarriage is one of the worst experiences a woman can go through. Why don’t we ever talk about this stuff? You’re so brave getting on here and telling this story for other women to hear and relate to. I’ve never personally experienced it, but if I ever do at least I’m more prepared of what can happen. Thank yiu

[@peachxtaehyung]

Even if you dont have this experience and the pain portion is "easy" the grief you go through loosing your child is horrible no matter how far along you are!

[@ffic4life]

Miranda Stephens absolutely. We should discuss this more in mainstream. I can’t even fathom the emotional pain that you feel. As a woman, my heart bleeds for them

[@laulutar]

@@peachxtaehyung also the shame that tries to creep into your internal monologue after you lose a pregnancy... "It's the most natural thing in the world, and you can't even do this right" or "If only I'd been more careful/a better potential parent/a better human, I could have done this and not cause this grief for my spouse/my friends/our families", just as a few examples. And I had an easier experience of it than Erin, as I was 10 weeks along, and had found out that the foetus had never developed properly, so the whole pregnancy had been doomed from soon after conception and nothing I did/didn't do could have affected that outcome.

[@alyseandrews1066]

Yes! We need to foster more conversations on women's health issues! Too many of us are completely caught off guard by circumstances we were never informed could happen

[@Fnukysknuk]

@@peachxtaehyung for me, the pain/ discomfort was worse than losing a pregnancy, but maybe it's because I didn't know until "it" happened. I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me still.

[@TJSPARKLE]

Haven't even watched it yet but just want to say I'm so sorry babe after everything you have gone through with your gynaecological problems your a beautiful strong woman with a wonderful husband and you will get through this and past this xxx

[@karinac4555]

Sending lots of love to you n every other woman who’s gone thru this experience ❤️

[@alyssaburns3241]

I'm sick to my stomach for the pain that you went through. It's been 4.5 years since my ectopic pregnancy and this was the first Mother's Day that I wasn't bitter about not being a mom yet. I will continue praying for you and Matt. Thank you for educating and preparing other women for this process.

[@Deadxfox]

I’m so sorry for your loss. This is the scariest thing ever to go through.

[@Haazziee]

I love you. You’re such a STRONG WOMAN. ... Jesus. I’m so incredibly sorry.

[@ExiledExia]

Very brave of you to share this

[@meaghanmcarthy7850]

I would love if Mama Dr. Jones could do a react video on this so we can get more questions answered. Thank you for uploading this video! I’m so sorry you went through this, your courage in posting this is amazing.

[@sarahbourne1872]

She just uploaded a video about miscarriages, very informative. She doesn't mention Erin though, she does mention how every woman's situation is different and experiences vary dramatically.

[@GuerraCat]

We love and support you.

[@carlikrell1482]

Erin your strength radiates just as much as your beauty does. You are loved so much.

[@jeaninebv7872]

I'll have to go through this tonight. We went to the doctor today after hearing last week that are baby had no heartbeat anymore. Our baby is dead for almost 4 weeks now, but my body wont let go. So because of that, I'll have to take cycotec tonight. I've so much mixed feeling about this, but I've no choice because I don't wanna have D&C. I really appreciate your honest story about using this medicine because there's so little information about it. Thanks a lot! Sending love from the Netherlands.

[@ErinRobinson]

Sending love your way. Make sure you have pads, diapers, and a heating pad handy. Know that you will get through it.

[@jessicadenson2117]

Praying for you ❤️

[@77devon]

Heel veel sterkte

[@BeccaReevesXX]

Sending love and prayers ❤🙏❤

[@jeaninebv7872]

@@ErinRobinson I've got everything, didn't even know that diapers voor adults exist...;) Thanks you!!

[@chapis832010]

Erin and Matt: I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. May every day becomes just a tiny better for you guys. Hugs. Thank You for sharing.

[@Overreactingwallflower]

So proud of you Erin for sharing your story. You're whole community loves and supports you through your journey. If you even need a break take it.

[@tanyadaniels7910]

I also went trough this process in 2007 and had nobody to help me. i was given a vit b tablet and aspirin for the pain. My situation was a bit different then yours but it ended the same. I never thought one person's body can take thar amount of pain and discomfort and then at the same time you have to make peace with the thought that a womans body is made to carry a child and how your body is fighting so hard and it is so uncomfortable. In 2013 i had become a mother to a beautiful daughter and my 47 hours of labour and no pain meds mentally as bad as what i had to go trough. I pray for you and your husband and hope that you have a lot of support. Lots of love from South Africa 🇿🇦💐

[@LaurenWithoutFear]

Thanks for being so honest. I had a similar experience with my 10 week missed miscarriage and it was so traumatic. The part I didn’t expect was how strong I felt afterwards. Like if I can get through this level of emotional and physical pain, I can get through anything. Items I found helpful... the heating pad. So necessary and used for weeks after. I also fluctuated between sweating and super cold so it was nice to have a box fan, plus towels on the bed so I could get under blankets. I think I started the process in leggings and as I continued I was just walking around in a t shirt and my underwear. I felt like animal instincts took over because the level of pain I experienced was so high. I took a sick day but looking back I wish my husband had too, we just had no idea how much I would need his support. Sending lots of love to anyone going through this. Shelly Mettlings Life After Miscarriage podcast and channel helped me recover emotionally as well.

[@ramamirthalingam2529]

Pls suggest me no heartbeat at 10 week doctr said to abort, which one best tablt or dnn

[@laulutar]

I had to take Cytotec in February (to assist my body in completing the miscarriage that had started naturally) so I can really relate to your experience and commiserate with you. I flinched extra hard in compassion when you mentioned the bit of tissue being stuck in your cervix, because that really, really hurts. I was lucky that a) this happened before the pandemic hit my area so I was being treated in a local hospital clinic and b) they were able to give me an injection of pain meds to get me over the worst of it. As someone who went through an easier version of a similar experience, my heart aches for you and your much more traumatic experience ❤️

[@neilvarma]

So sorry for your loss 😢😢💔

[@11jucee]

I had a good cry seeing this - I lost one at 14 weeks and went through it alone at home - confused and scared - my heart went out to you, I felt your pain - my experience didn’t end there and I possibly have never felt so alone in my life as I did when this was happening - thank you for sharing your experience and that Matt was there for you 💜💜💜

[@drummssticks]

As a father and a husband who has suffered a loss, i am praying for you and Matt. For the partner out there who didnt carry the child be still feels the loss. Be patient and just be there for her. If you need to clean up after her, or cook for the family. Do it. I know my wife was so grateful to have me to help her through everything while she morned the baby we had lost.

[@lilyhasker4764]

I'm so sorry for your loss and all that you had to go through, I can't imagine how terrible that would be but thank you for coming out and sharing your story, I'm sure it has helped a lot of women feel less alone. I'm sending you and Matt so much love and prayers. xx

[@chemistryflavored]

I have no intention to have children of my own but my husband dealt with his own infertility and he did a lot of reading online and watching of videos. He found it comforting to know he wasn’t alone and also helpful to know options for us and so I have to thank you for being brave and posting your health struggles. I know I posted on your other video how sorry I was for your loss and also how brave you are for sharing. Sending prayers and love to your family.

[@Jalmeida101891]

It is amazing how you took something so heartbreaking and rather than just moving on from it, that you are being so brave and sharing this with other people! Representation matters!!! And the amount of human you are helping feel way more comfortable about sharing their on pain so they can cope with it, is just amazing ❤️♥️👑❤️♥️👑

[@kayleejacobi7635]

i’m so proud of you for sharing your story💞💞love you

[@sdiponioXx]

I’ve been through the exact same thing Erin, I took the medication at 10am and was in absolutely AGONY until 9pm the same day! Utter stabbing pains, clots and clots of blood coming out of me, I genuinely thought I needed an ambulance at one point. I was weak and shaky and faint, lying on the bathroom floor feeling too weak to move. It was a horrendous experience 😔 I pray to god that I never have to go through that again

[@annar220]

I hope you had lots of support❤

[@Hollypenopepper]

I had the exact same experience; I even blacked out at one point. It was terrible. Hands down the most painful thing I've ever gone through. 😑

[@siphokazimbandlwa8342]

I had a similar experience. I had the worst pain I’ve ever felt in my whole life, I couldn’t do anything (couldn’t sit down properly, walk around or sleep) luckily in my case this happened 4 hours into my first dose. Sitting in a hot bath relieved a pain a bit but it was still very bad. The pain only got better after gestational sac came out which by the way is very traumatic

[@amandageer6767]

First: Erin i want to say that you are just an amazingly strong person. You and Matt have suffered a lot with this, and the fact that you are being so open about this only makes me respect you more and more. At the beginning of my pregnancy i had what they called a "threatened miscarriage" with my twins. That was scary and heartbreaking on it's own. Not knowing what was happening until I saw them on the screen killed me. I cannot imagine the pain you have been feeling. Tonight I will hold my little ones a little tighter and cherish them more. And pray that you both get the miracle you two so rightly deserve. Don't ever give up, as hard as that may be. You are strong and courageous. I hope to one day be as strong as you are in the face of something so devastating. We all love you here! Again. My heart goes out to you both. Stay strong

[@Becca123b]

Grief is like the ocean; it comes on waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim.” You will survive and you will find purpose in the chaos. Moving on doesn't mean letting go. Sending so much love to you 💕💕💕

[@lucyjones1649]

I've been in your position and you're doing a wonderful job of explaining it. My doctor told me at the time that the pain can be worse than labour as there is nothing substantial for you body to push against. 2 children later and I can say this is so true especially emotionally, labour has a goal, the pain is for a purpose and completely forgotten once you hold your child, a miscarriage is pain for nothing and it is soul destroying. Erin you are amazing to talk about this, and it will help so many people.

[@annabanana9961]

You are one of the strongest people that I have seen on this platform. You will get through this! I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@cady9710]

Thank you for breaking the stigma and talking about this publicly. I cannot imagine how hard it has been for you to sit down in front of a camera and talk about what happened to you knowing that thousands of people would see it. But I hope you know the difference you are making and the women who will benefit from this.

[@mommybee1505]

I’m sorry you went through this. My first pregnancy I had an ectopic and did the medication, worst pain ever, so I can totally understand. My 2nd pregnancy was a missed miscarriage and I opted for the surgery. After this I had a healthy baby girl, and then another miscarriage. 5 years later I had an uncomplicated pregnancy and had another healthy baby girl. You got this! I hope your journey to becoming a mother is as smooth as it can be from this point on.

[@taylorlynds6591]

I went through the exact same thing in March. The worst thing I’ve ever gone through. I ended up having an emergency D&C. Keeping you in my prayers as you mentally heal from this. 💕

[@IonIsFalling7217]

This is so physically horrifying beyond even the horrific emotional pain. I am so sorry. Thank you for telling us your story. This advice will save someone some day. ❤️

[@meljstephan]

I shared this video with a friend who experienced a late miscarriage and she said she was just crying from the relief of hearing a shared experience that wasn't sugar coated or censored. She didn't want to put her name out, but I think she'd definitely send thanks to you for being so open. Feeling alone on top of the trauma of losing a baby makes it so much harder. But you are never alone and there is love and support and empathy to be found. Praying for anybody experiencing this. ❤❤❤

[@mackenziewiegers7519]

Erin you did a wonderful job. I admire you so much for making this video for any other MOMS going throug the same experience. You, as a MOM had to experience something no one should have to but you are helping others by sharing your story. Much love to you and yours.

[@ultravioletskye]

I love you Erin. I'm truly sorry. I've been there and its horrific. Thank you for stepping up and spreading awareness. Right now you are a hero to all those suffering with loss, for letting them know they aren't alone.

[@tklassen15]

So sorry for your loss Erin, but thank you for sharing your experience and providing awareness. My first pregnancy in 2017 ended in miscarriage at 6 weeks, and I had no idea what to expect either. I found that the hot packs you can get that wrap around your back were the best, because you could move around with them on. Sending you love and prayers as you continue to recover from this emotionally and mentally.

[@midnightsnack4148]

I just lost my first baby....This past Thursday. I was 10 weeks pregnant. I never knew, in my 28 years of life-such sadness. Sending you lots of strength, light and love. I pray that we can get through this. Please have faith that someday we will know happiness again. And our babies will always be our babies.

[@Owlwoods]

I send you and your family a big hug and a lot of love. And you are right, your baby will always be yours and a big part of you. God bless you and gives you more strength.

[@sweetbaby83765]

I just lost mine this month at 9.5 weeks. Due date 1/2/20 😓 the winter time will be tough

[@chris7534]

Praying for you ❤️

[@ramamirthalingam2529]

Did u tuk tablet to abort or did dnc can u pls suggest am in 10 week there is no heartbeat, pls help

[@evesunshine4556]

Erin is a absolute angel. She goes through some of the most traumatic things I’ve ever heard of, then goes into very fine detail to educate other people. She sees that other women may not be able find information to match her experience and relives her trauma. I am in aw of you. I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you.

[@angelicacontreras7073]

sending you both lots and lots prayers and positive energy!

[@Spotski_]

Sending both you and Matt love 💕 don’t rush back into “normal” content if you are not ready we’ll be waiting. Love you

[@TessMac]

Erin. (& Matt) Sending you prayers of continued strength & healing. I Thank You for this video..I suffered from Endometriosis for 15 years until my hysterectomy at 29. Thankfully I was blessed with my son although I did have at least 2 miscarriages prior. I also had several D&C’s, HSG’s & 5 pelvic laparoscopies..Also tried clomid, artificial insemination & IVF to no avail prior to my eventual hysterectomy. So I know firsthand it is INCREDIBLY important that woman have somewhere they can get compassionate & accurate information. Your kindness is truly appreciated & courage to share inspiring.🤍

[@jasminelawson3067]

I didn't even know this was a possibility. I hope you recognize just how incredible, and brave you are to be sharing your story to help other women. I have a son, and I've fortunately never had a miscarriage, so I'm not going to say I understand what you're going through. I couldn't begin to imagine. But, thank you for being so upfront and honest about your experience. It's going to help so many women. You, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

[@LittleSunsetGirl]

Thank you for sharing these two videos. I went through a very similar experience in February and while I've been through a lot of surgeries and medical procedures in my life, this was worse than most of them. Especially since the emotional part just wrecks you. My pregnancy was a result of IVF and because my health has always been everybody's business growing up, I've chosen to keep it secret from friends and family. I feel this was the right decision for me, but an experience like this comes with such an immense feeling of sorrow and loneliness. So, thank you for talking about this. Your courage and willingness to share has contributed to at least one person's healing (probably many more to come), as I no longer feel so desperately alone in this experience. But I am SO sorry for your loss...heartbreakingly, beyond words kind of sorry 💜

[@katrinstephens1562]

I've never watched you before but your 'losing my baby' came up on my recommended page. I shed tears for you and your family and I can't imagine your hurt. Your time will come and I'm rooting for you! Thank you for being open, honest and informative. I truly wish you all the strength and happiness.

[@jackietyce]

You are so strong. I had two miscarriages between my two daughters. It's a loss you can't put into words. Thus video will help many. Thank you for your strength to make it

[@catelisahill1283]

I am so so sorry that you had to experience this, but want to say thank you for your bravery and honesty. Like you said, people don't talk about this much at all but it is something all women should be aware of just in case. I pray that you and Matt will one day have your rainbow baby. Lots of love xx

[@amandawoodward2944]

Im so sorry you had to go through this. I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks also, found out just like you did, had my ultrasound the same day to make sure everything was on track and the nurse just walked out on us, then after an hour the Dr can in and told me and my husband that we lost the baby. I didn't get a choice they decided to do the surgery, but I couldn't get it done for three weeks, so I had a dead baby in me that had died at 10 in a half weeks. I was so depressed and I went through all emotions that you could think of. I can say time heals but it does take time. Hang in there and you will get to yourself again.

[@sarahrodriguez5975]

Please don't feel rushed or pressured to return to "normal" content. This entire experience I'm sure was the farthest thing from normal and I imagine it was traumatic. We'll survive without "normal" content, don't worry. Take all the time that you need. Thank you for making this video and sharing something so vulnerable and traumatic so that others can feel less alone. You are so strong. My mom had two miscarriages but then guess what...after those two she had twins (me and my sister)! Those two little babies that she lost came back in the form of me and my sister! I hope that gave you a little hope. I seriously wish you two the best❤

[@Owlwoods]

Love for every single person who has gone through the loss of a child. I know there are no words I could say to make you feel better, but I want you to know that I'm with you. If you feel like crying, cry. If you feel like screaming, let it out. If you feel like laughing, it's OK.

[@witchcitycoven]

I am so sorry you went through this and I just wanted to comment and say thank you for being brave enough to put this information out there for other women going through it. You are brave and strong and I am sure there are others (unfortunately) who will need this information and be so grateful for it. Best of luck to you in recovering, sending you tons of love and healing energies.

[@isabellenaiser11]

I’m so sorry Erin. No woman should ever have to go through this. I hope you never have to go through this again. I am so sorry

[@briannamckinney3727]

Thankyou so much for sharing this . I had a miscarriage in February and felt so alone through the whole process and still do . Not many people around me has went through that and didn’t know how to support me . That is definitely the worst thing I’ve ever been through and my heart goes out to you and things do get better every day . ❤️❤️

[@amyallen7072]

Having been through very similar miscarriages 3 times, I send you so much love. Take your time to recover, it is a traumatic experience, be kind to yourself. Seek help if you need it, don’t be afraid to talk about what you have been through. It is important. I now have a fantastic, beautiful, wild 8yr old; don’t give up hope.

[@mollybaber5930]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I found out I was pregnant 4 months ago and I watched your first video about losing the baby pretty early on in my pregnancy. Today I am back from the hospital after having a miscarriage at 16 weeks pregnant. You are incredibly strong for sharing your story and I hope to be able to do that when I am ready as well. I wish I watched this video before I went through the process but I am thankful I am able to watch this after and know I am not alone. Thank you for being so strong and sharing your story and I hope women can make miscarriage less taboo and be more open about their experiences since it is one of the worst things anyone can ever go through.

[@brooketurney5391]

Oh Erin! A miscarriage is just so physically and emotionally trying. I am so sorry you went through this. I had a miscarriage in 2008 and it was excruciating. The sadness of losing a baby. The physical pain. I just remember sitting on the toilet, crying. It hurt in every possible way. But thank you for talking about this. I wish I had even a tiny glimpse of what I was about to face when I was going through it all.

[@rosemarie8309]

Thank you for sharing your experience As someone who suffers from severe endometriosis luckily I've been blessed with my daughter but ive had several miscarriages and it never gets easier and I relate to your story so much mine was so painful and so is the endo love yall so much so sorry you're going through this too much love from this small town iowa lady

[@madebynat]

Thank you for sharing your story! People going through hard experiences need to know they’re not alone and you’re so wonderful for helping women through this 💕

[@staysta13]

Oh honey. I’m so sorry that you had to go through all that. I think it is so courageous that you spoke of your experience to help others in the same boat. I wish for you all the wonderful things in life...and that someday you will be able to have a healthy baby...you both deserve that. Stay well. Know that this is an amazing thing that you did for others.

[@alyssamiller3536]

I am so sorry for your loss. I myself went through a similar loss over quarantine with my first pregnancy. I had an ectopic pregnancy. I was in pain for 3 days with bleeding before being diagnosed. I was 5 weeks pregnant when I found out the worst news of my life. In return after having an ultrasound that confirmed my worst nightmare, I was rushed into emergency surgery. My left fallopian tube had ruptured completely. There was a lot of internal bleeding. I ultimately lost my left fallopian tube. My (now) OB was shocked and said that I am one tough cookie to not have been crawling on the floor with how bad I looked on the inside. I agree with you that I would not wish this on anyone or my worst enemy. I pray for your recovery mentally and physically. I know it has taken me some time to get back to normal.

[@DISCL0SE]

I had a miscarriage seven years ago. I was / am still pretty bitter about it to this day. Not that this video brought me ANY joy because it hurts so much seeing you go through this, but it does make me feel grateful that I did not have to go through the medical experience of it all. Sending you so much love during all of this. It’s going to take a while to heal, emotionally, and that’s okay. 💖

[@jordan31]

I have loved Erin since I discovered Clevver. She is so strong and I hate that she had to go through this. Sending you love to you and your family, Erin 🤍

[@cyna1103]

I don’t have a question but sending you love from a stranger. Who knew our bodies and heart could suffer so much. I hope both take the time they need to heal 💕.

[@MissChuffer93]

Having Endo I find makes this process harder living with the daily pain of endo I thought my body could handle this process ..... I was wrong ! I myself have been through this trauma 3 times and each time I feel just as scared & traumatised as the first. The 4th time I opted for the surgery because I knew what was ahead and honestly I knew I could not do it again. I respect you for being brutally honest about the experience because it’s more than just a few cramps and done deal which is what it’s made out to be. I’m glad you talked about the amount of blood loss and the clumps nobody prepared you for the unforgiving headache and the vomiting like your in the exorcist. It’s not only physically hard but mentally it takes it’s toll. I’m proud of you for being able to talk about this as I think women need to know what’s really going to happen and as horrific as it is we need to be prepared. Sending Hugs xx

[@baileyboehme]

I am so sorry! Losing a baby is the worst feeling in the world, and my heart is with you and Matt! You’re so strong and without a doubt one day, you are gonna make an amazing mother to a beautiful little baby!! Sending you lots of love!!

[@chelseateoni2242]

I feel like this is something that should happen in a hospital not by yourself at home 😢 you are so strong to have been able to get through this. Sending lots of love ❤️

[@justinvarnet5461]

Erin, I just wanted to send my deepest condolences, and if and when you are up for trying again I hope you're nothing but success and happiness.

[@amberwebster83]

Oh Erin I am so sorry you went through this. If anybody is reading this comment that is going to go through this my heart is with you.

[@Shelbyisbored]

I went through the same thing six months ago, it was one of the worst things I've ever gone through and I will never be over it. Thanks for talking about it because I feel like people never talk about it or shun those who do.

[@NiomieUchiha]

I am so sorry you went through this Erin. I can't believe the pain you've been though.

[@samanthareid4887]

Thank you for posting this video. I am a labor and delivery nurse and miscarriages and fetal loss are areas of women’s health that are often not spoken about. I’m so very sorry for your loss but I do applaud your openness and willingness to share this experience. Every woman has a slightly different experience with those medications and it is good to see the perspective of someone who did have a very hard experience. My thoughts are with you and your husband during this time but thank you so much for sharing.

[@priscillafox5184]

Thank you much for doing this video you are so brave. My husband and I have had 5 miscarriages each one heartbreaking. Thank you for being so brave. So very truly sorry for your loss 💔

[@nickky1111]

sending you lots of love❤

[@WhiteRaven696]

I’m so sorry you had to go through this. We’re here for you, Erin. 💜

[@aubreyfindley2912]

I want to say first and foremost, I am so so sorry for your loss. You are so brave to share this and it takes a very strong individual to go through something like this and still come out on the other side. Everything you talked about was very informative and I appreciate you putting the information out there. You are wonderful and I am praying for you and your family to get through this as wholly as you can. I hope you continue to keep your head up and your pain, whether it be just mental or physical goes away as soon as possible. Love you! ❤

[@clonianguyen2285]

You are one of the strongest person i've ever known. The fact that you've gone through some of the most traumatizing experiences that a woman or a person could go through with their bodies is heart-breaking but also inspiring at the same time. I love you and i'm here for you, Erin.

[@nikkikrishka-lamb7950]

You are a champ! This is literally what my labour felt like. I am so so sorry you had to go through this. I'm am very proud of you for sharing about this. Not enough women talk about things like this and you did amazing! ❤❤❤

[@lynniev]

Oh Erin. What a horrific experience. I'm so sorry you had to endure all of this. I felt your pain when you described having to administer the medication yourself.

[@MiSsMiNiVaN23]

I am so sorry for you loss. I also had a missed miscarriage and even though I use a period cup I also had a pretty hard time inserting the pills. I thought that it would be easier but knowing what would happen I laid there for like 20 minutes before I could like actually do it. I passed out a few times and had to spend a night in the hospital and get fluids and get blood because of how much blood I lost. I appreciate you sharing your story because people need to hear everyone point of view.

[@coffeymaker9]

I just went through this last weekend. My experience wasn’t exactly the same as yours, but it was also awful. Thanks for sharing, it’s nice to hear that I’m not alone from someone who’s actually been through it.

[@kerbyreed7148]

I am so sorry you had to go through this. So many things you said made me think of my experience during childbirth and I couldn’t imagine doing this for a miscarriage. During my labor my placenta abrupted and I almost lost my baby due to so much bleeding and his heart rate dropping extremely low. I have tried to block out so much of this traumatic experience but some things I do remember is all the pain in my back and having to be in complete darkness. A top to anyone dealing with the back pain during contractions, have some tennis balls to massage into your lower back to press against the pain. I didn’t have that and I used my fists which worked as well. Praying for your mental and physical strength to get through this traumatic experience Erin! You are so brave and strong to share this with us and I know you are helping so many women by sharing this.

[@madisonburke3588]

I was scarred to watch this video, but I felt I owed it to all the mothers who had gone through this terrible experience because the stigma about miscarriage and infant loss is so horrible. At a time where women are their most vulnerable and need support the most, you feel like you cant reach out. I see you, I hear you, and every other woman out there who has had to go through this trauma and heartbreak. You are not alone! Erin you are very brave sharing your story and I know its going to help somebody out there.

[@avast47]

Thank you for making this video. I'm a teenager who's never experienced anything to do with being pregnant or having a miscarriage or giving birth firsthand (except when I was born) and I think this should be talked about more often. I know you said you wish people had prepared you for what this feels like. I feel like the internet has raised me more than my parents and teachers. Or more specifically, clevver has. Maybe it's because it's seen as an uncomfortable topic so it isn't talked about in person, and maybe it's easier to talk about online. I don't really know what the reason is but thank you for teaching me and so many other people so much about life. You were so strong when you had your fibroids and the It Got Real series, and you are so strong now with a miscarriage. I'll be sending lots of love and prayers your way!

[@TheRealMrsSnodgrass]

I have suffered through two miscarriages, they are absolutely brutal, mentally and physically. I don’t think that you can ever 100% recover from them. I’m so sorry for your loss!

[@sams_adventure1]

I’m so thankful you’ve made this video for others in this situation. I had a scarily similar experience in 2017, my foetus stopped developing at 8w and it was caught just before 12w, I was sent home to ‘see if it would pass naturally’ and was just told to come back in a week if it hadn’t, two days later I had(what I now know from having a child since then) labour pains and got myself to a hospital where I had the biggest bleed of my life in the middle of the waiting room, locked myself in a public hospital room and cried looking at the tissue in my underwear. No one ever prepares you for seeing it. I’m thankful they gave me the surgery in hindsight, this medication sounds absolutely terrible, and I’m so sorry you had to endure this. But nothing about any way you go through or expel or anything you do to cope makes this experience any better, or less painful emotionally. I’m beyond lucky to now have a beautiful 2 year old, but not a single day goes by I don’t think about who that other one would have been. My heart feels for anyone in any pregnancy loss or infertility situation, I know I’m one of the lucky ones. ❤️

[@angelacarini95carini93]

Im 24 and had NO IDEA about any of this! Shocking to say the least. Thanks for the insight.

[@elodiecoulsonprice2601]

The fact that you could film this video without crying shows that you are amazing and sooo strong.

[@jennacsargo2986]

Erin, my heart 100% goes out to you and your husband. I went through the same type of miscarriage, albeit, my end result was not as painful as yours. The experience changed the way I thought starting a family would be. Definately more nerves involved in subsequent pregnancies. I would like to give you some hope. I had two healthy pregnancies following my horrible first experience. I have two happy, healthy boys now. I wish you the best in your journey.

[@makhaliacharles58]

I was just scrolling through KZbin one day when I saw your previous video about your miscarriage and I'm so sorry that happened to you..my mom was pregnant with twins and she miscarried. This is never easy but I believe that God has something in-store for you and he will bless you in due time 🙏

[@Mamabearof216]

Thank you for sharing. You are so strong and brave. I’ve never been through this exact situation so I can’t relate to your emotional pain but I have taken cytotec to induce labor. It is legit the WORST physical pain I’ve ever been through. I can’t even imagine taking this medication for a missed miscarriage because like you described it would be torture. This is so traumatizing for you I’m sorry you are going through this. 💔

[@Luthian2112]

I’m so sorry for what you went through... but you’re so amazing for doing this video. You’re helping so many women.

[@Emma-uu6mb]

So sorry again Erin! Your very brave to talk about your experience. Its a soul destroying experience to go through and i will be sending wee prayers for you. Shame of those that disliked this video! Erin has been a very brave courageous woman, to share this and give others who are going though the same thing a little information and compassion,

[@MidnightRose]

I’m so sorry for you loss, it’s such a hard thing to go through. I lost my baby back in November at 7 weeks to a missed miscarriage, I didn’t have a choice on how they went forward and was scheduled a d&c. It was very emotional and hard and I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. You got this though, you are still a momma and your husband is still a father. You just have a angel baby who watches over y’all. ❤️🥺

[@ChelseaNae]

Erin I am so unbelievably sorry you had to experience this horror. I learned of my missed miscarriage at what would've been my 8wk ultrasound August 15th 2019. I ended up miscarrying naturally at home August 30th 2019. I had been getting blood work done and had been monitored by my Dr. in hopes to naturally pass it. My experience is very similar to yours. It was so traumatic and painful I would never wish that torture on anyone. So glad you are sharing your story because it is so important! KZbin was the place I went to to find stories like mine and not feel so alone! Thank you, I know its hard but talking about it with my close friends and family really helped me heal and you are helping so many women by publicly sharing your story! Thank you!

[@amayasummers8303]

I’m so sorry this happened. I know a few people who have had miscarriages and I can barely imagine how that must feel. Praying for you and your family and wish y’all nothing but happiness in the future❤️

[@bspeaks5148]

Erin, your one tough woman, without any doubt whatsoever. You going through what you have with the struggles of fibroids and the really heartbreaking loss of your child, its all the life altering events the only a few really experience. The positive in this is that you've taken these tough challenges and stood above, and been a figure of strength for other women going through this. I have no doubt, as much as its hard to see at times, that God has his hand with yourself And Matt, And Im praying that the gifts of his glory flourish to you guys, Much love, B

[@ashitarathod1685]

Omg thank you so much for this video as nobody talks about the pain they face and the entire process.. I had a miscarriage last week at 6 weeks.. The pain suddenly started at night.. heavy cramping couldn’t sleep and the pain was so excruciating tht I felt I would pass out.. then at 4 am decided to go to the ER .. got dressed and went to the washroom and felt like pushing.. So I listened to my body.. held my legs up and push.. I pooped and passed tissues at the same time.. the pain instantly felt relieved..