My Hair and Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)

[@donnacalhoun724]

I don’t see a difference between wigs, fake nails, unnatural hair colors or makeup. They’re all things we do to build our confidence and make us happy. I bit my nails for over 50 years and always hid my hands. Nail polish finally helped me stop. I now have 250 bottles of nail polish. Every few months, I take them down to look at and rearrange. It’s a small expense that brings me great joy. I love watching and listening to you. That makes me happy too. Thank you for sharing, Juanita You are a beautiful woman and I love your personality and wish I were more bubbly and endearing.

[@CourtneyNVO]

I was diagnosed with excoriation (skin picking) disorder in 2015. Every time I hear a KZbinr has a BFRB too I feel a little less alone. Thank you for making this.

[@bonitajuanita]

You are so welcome Courtney! Stay strong and be kind to yourself, I am so thankful for you and your support. HUGGLES!!!

[@oliviafranklin5365]

It’s so sad that you know you are ruining yourself, but can’t stop. You think it would be easier to not do something, than to do something.

[@laurabailie4424]

wow! WOW!! I have hidden the results of my trich since I was 5 years old. I'm 40 now. And you have the guts to just come right out and say it and show it. I am in awe. I loved your video. thank you for being so real.

[@laurabigler6655]

The courage it took for you to go before the camera and show the world is astonding. You are such an amazing person. You are always smiling and bringing joy and smiles to anyone who watches your videos. Not just for the nail polish but for the wonderful person you are! I am so glad you found what you needed to restore your confidence but honestly...you are beautiful. Keep on being Juanita! NO ONE does it better than you!!!!!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much Laura! Your comment has broken the seam and I am officially crying at all the love and support you have shown me. This means the world to me and your support and compassion is the best encouragement. You are the bestest kindest buddy ever! HUGGLES!!!

[@laurabigler6655]

I sent you a message to the email address you had listed. Sure hope you get it.

[@gemini3074]

You're still super bonita, Juanita. Both outside and inside.

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank so much Raina! It really means a lot to me! HUGGLES!!!

[@ThePolishedPursuit]

I agree with Raina!! Bonita siempre!!

[@melynbiend760]

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you so much for your candid video. You helped me.

[@judym.1613]

With thick hair or thin hair, you're a beautiful young woman. I'm glad you found some hairpieces that make you happy.

[@bonitajuanita]

awwww thanks Judy! This really means a lot to me. HUGGLES!!!

[@emilyrosenzweig9946]

Huge huge kudos to you for being so open and honest here. Thank you. Thank you for using your platform to encourage everyone out there who struggles to feel safe putting their true selves out in the world!

[@bonitajuanita]

thank you so much Emily! But honestly knowing that you are standing beside me and digitally holding my hand make it easier for me to share. Thank you so much! HUGGLES!!!

[@erincostello7792]

You're so gorgeous and funny, thank you for being brave enough to share this advice that could help someone a lot. You're beautiful no matter what ❤

[@bonitajuanita]

Thanks you so much Erin! I was so nervous to share and really get personal but your love and compassion makes it all worth it. HUGGLES!!!

[@Iggystar71]

As a fellow Trickster this video is a model of bravery! You gave me my entire life! Hair is a big part of self esteem, it is neither vain or silly. You know in the African-American community wearing pieces, weaves and wigs is so common we have a saying when someone asks is that your hair, "It's on top of my head, it's MY hair." You started talking about lace fronts and I was like, "She's a sister girl now, WERK!" You did what to yourself, give yourself trich? Nope. So the state of your hair, the fact that you're wearing a wig now should hold no shame or be a source of blaming yourself. People wear these items for a variety of reasons, it doesn't matter...you are doing it because you want to no matter how you came to that choice and you love the results, it's all over your face. You also look good without your wig...if that's what you want to do. Have you tried Biotin for hair growth? I've been pull free for almost a year and while I've been able to calm the compulsion it never goes away. This video is so encouraging knowing I'm not alone.

[@kristensickles36]

It's not stupid! Don't think that at all! I am actually a nail biter. All my life, I've had little nubby nails. I'd bite them and pick at them so much that they'd bleed and it hurt. I never cared for polish because I never could make it look good and didn't have money to go to a salon. I realized about 10 years ago, in college, that there are actually techniques that help with painting and making it look professional. I also learned that if they're painted, I won't bite my nails because I don't want to mess it up. I am not girly, but I feel so much prettier with long nails. (Thyroid and anemia issues don't help either). Nail polish and wigs are so small in the grand scheme of things, but I get it. It means everything. I'm so glad you feel happy and pretty and that your insides match the bubbly and fun gal we see in your videos. You are 1,000,000% worth it. ❤

[@bonitajuanita]

Kristen, you know exactly what to say! I loved this comment and thank you so much for it. I am so comforted in knowing that you get it. Its been kind of hard explaining why I have started wearing wigs to people because I don't want the looks of confusion or follow up questions that are a little insensitive. So your compassion and sympathy is perfect! I am so happy that you have found a solution to your nail bitting and that you have found happiness, strength and fantastic polish! You are so right that is all small potatoes but at the end of the day if it helps spread happiness, kindness and love then its all worth it. You are so thoughtful and I so blessed to have you by my side. HUGGLES!!!

[@cstillings]

I've been able to stop while awake but unfortunately I am still pulling out hair while asleep! It's very frustrating! Thank you for sharing your story with us 💕

[@muggle394]

I have trich and you are such an inspiration, thank you so much for making this video ❤️

[@bonitajuanita]

you are so welcome! Its not easy just its just nice knowing we aren't alone. HUGGLES!!!

[@pinkpolly88]

Thank you for posting this brave video. Whilst I don't suffer from trichotillomania, I do suffer dermotillomania (skin picking). My main areas are my face and my scalp. I've noticed my hair is thinning, either from damage I've done to my scalp, or from illness (I'm bedbound with ME and fibro). Nothing you said in your video sounded stupid or vain - it's such a hard thing to explain to someone without the compulsion. They usually say "well, just stop then", or "just don't do it". Now why didn't we think of that, eh? You are so brave, and your wig looks incredible xxxxxxx

[@bonitajuanita]

Lara thank you so much! you completely understand and I am so thankful that you are willing to share with me. It can feel so lonely sometimes and I love the reminders that I am not alone. Its hard and its a struggle but stay strong and remember that you are worth it. Your compassion and courage is beautiful. Thank you so much! HUGGLES!!

[@sneezersmom]

Thank you. I have had it since I was in the 2nd grade. Due to traumatic experiences.

[@bonitajuanita]

Mary I am so sorry. But you aren't alone and I get it. I TOTALLY get it. Keep your head and know that I am rooting for you! HUGGLES!!!

[@ilzedempsey-ilzesmeltedpla8631]

Thank you so much for sharing this. In dealing with PTSD, I started compulsively tweezing my leg hair in my teens. I have spots where it just won't grow anymore. It's incredibly difficult when you don't even realize you do it! You're very inspiring ❤️

[@bonitajuanita]

I am so sorry that you had trauma in your past. It means the world to me that you shared your difficulty and frustration with trich. Sometimes it feels like you are alone and it is such a comfort to know that you are here with me and that we can help each other. HUGGLES!!!

[@ilzedempsey-ilzesmeltedpla8631]

bonitajuanita when I first realized it was an issue for me, I googled it and found that some celebrities (namely Johnny Depp) suffer as well. That "not alone" feeling is extremely powerful! ❤️

[@apopofjess9931]

I want to start by saying this isn't something that I suffer from. This was a learning video for me because this isn't something that I knew about. I am not sure how to put my thoughts into words, but I am going to try. First, I want to thank you for being so brave and courageous for sharing this with others. I can imagine that this was not only a hard journey but very difficult to put out there for the world. I have loved your nail polish videos, but this has truly made me look up to you even more. Please never think you are being vain for looking beyond things and wanting to find a solution that makes you feel better. It isn't vain or self-centered to want to be your best self, to want to have that to feel confident enough to share with others and the world. You are a beautiful and stunning light in this world, inside and out, and I know this video will help others. It has truly blessed me to be a part of your journey here on KZbin. I may not know you personally, but thank you for creating and being yourself. Keep shining darling.

[@bonitajuanita]

Jessica you are the best. This is such thoughtful and compassion response and it is greatly appreciated. Your kindness has impacted me today and I am so thankful that you are here supporting me. I have lots of issues with shame and guilt and you have helped me so much. You are a life saver and important to me. Thank you so much. HUGGLES!!!

[@dzgrl227]

This is such an awesome video. Thank you. I'm sure you will help a lot of people with your issues. I myself am a nail biter. I have bitten them since I was a small girl. I have damaged the nail beds on 3 of the 5 fingers on each hand. I can TOTALLY understand how a wig or a hair piece can make you feel so happy. My nail polish obsession is to me what your wig is to you. When I have a beautiful polish on my nails I don't want to bite them and my self esteem is so much higher than when I just have ugly little nail bitten fingers. I had acrylics to help me get to the point where my nails are to the ends of my fingers but I found that i was starting to pick and chew at them when I needed a fill... so I soaked them off and I just keep them polished and filed short and its just been so wonderful!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much!!! This really means a lot to me to hear that you know how feels and that you too are finding things that work for you. I am so proud of you for finding what you needed and to be willing to work at it. Habits are hard to break and your story is proof that you can be strong and that change is possible. You are an inspiration and I am so happy that you are happy. HUGGLES!!!

[@AmyBaby12291]

Your happiness at the end of this video made me want to happy dance with you and happy cry at the same time. I may not have a BFRB, but thank you for being so vulnerable and having the courage to put this out there and educating people like me about this topic. I know that this video will help others with a BFRB. I am sorry you have had to go through this lifelong struggle but I am so happy you have found your confidence again. You are an amazing, great, bubbly, fun, beautiful woman - wig or no wig! Thank you for radiating hope and love and happiness out into this world.

[@missys.7282]

You are Beautiful no matter with the wig or not!! You should know that your followers love you no matter what!!! I understand the insecurity part. We all have them, but for a women especially to have thinning hair is very upsetting. I never knew about this condition till I saw your 1st video on it. Thank You, for enlightening me & for being so STRONG to let us into your private life. YOU ROCK GIRL!!!!! HUGGS!!

[@FlorySparks]

First off Juanita...You're Beautiful!!! I see how much you have struggled. Let me just say, it brings me great joy to see that you have found your smile again!!! Thank you for sharing your story and I know you are going to inspire someone and they will find their smile again because of you!! You're amazing!! Lots of love 💕💕💕

[@bonitajuanita]

Flory you always blow me away with your kindness and sensitivity. You are just so sweet and authentic, I am so blessed to call you me friend. You are amazing and inspiring too! HUGGLES!!!

[@ginny9577]

You are an awesome human,realizing that you matter & are important isn't selfish.. it's necessary. thank you for sharing something that a lot of people would've shied away from- hugs, trying to reform nail-biter of many decades

[@bonitajuanita]

Ginger this is so sweet of you to say. I grew up in a house where shame and guilt was the special of the day (everyday) so this really means a lot to me. HUGGLES!!!

[@ILovePrettyNails]

I can see a difference in your energy when you have the wig on and when you don’t. I’m glad you found some happiness with your appearance. You always look great and are a ray of sunshine no matter what. Thank you for sharing.

[@trysarahtopps]

I worked with a lady for 6 years and only the last year of working with her did I find out she wore a wig. I also thought that was your real hair! Looks great. And I understand the freeing feeling, I had horrible acne until about 26 years old and then I figured out what worked for my skin and now that I can go without heavy makeup I feel so much better about myself. I'm glad you found that thing that works best for you! With your personality I say you just rock the wigs hardcore. I can just see you wearing a different color wig for every video 😊 September sapphire wig! Bubblegum pink wig!

[@crystalbleau2611]

I'm so proud of you! It takes a lot of courage to share ur deepest insecurities. I'm sure it will be so helpful to lots of people.

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you Crystal! It makes it easier to share knowing that you are there supporting me. HUGGLES!!!

[@Crystal-pc5wm]

So real and genuine and brave! You're BEAUTIFUL!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you Crystal!! Your sensitivity and kindness makes it all worth it! HUGGLES!!!

[@dawna4185]

WOW!! you are so brave to put this out there!!! hopefully, this will help to end stigma towards anxiety disorders of ALL types....the worry and shame associated with anxiety just perpetuates our misery....my hope is we can all train ourselves to just accept ourselves however we are and not give a crap what anybody thinks or says...screw them...lol...good for you for using your platform to help effect change in this world tfs xoxo

[@bonitajuanita]

I really hope it does help someone I feel the more people see others talking the more willing they will be to share and connect. Its so easy to feel alone with anxiety disorders when in reality everybody deals with it in one way or another and in different degrees. I really appreciate that you see and understand what I am trying to do and that you get it. Thank you so much! HUGGLES!!!

[@susanm9824]

You're not vain.... you've found something that makes you look and feel great...and you DO!!! SO happy for you!...You deserve it!❤️❤️

[@JennyStone]

You are totally worth it. Thanks for sharing so much with us! ♥ Jenny

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much Jenny! I can always count on your kindness and support. You are just the greatest! HUGGLES!!!

[@JennyStone]

♥

[@QueenChaslee]

Girl ur absolutely gorgeous... Hair or no hair, fat or skinny, teeth or no teeth! Ur beautiful.

[@bonitajuanita]

LoL. I love this!!! Thank you so much for making me smile and making me feel so loved at the same time. You are just the sweetest!! HUGGLES!!!

[@PeachManifestoJessie]

I've lost a lot of hair after both my kids and I know how devastated I was and depressed I was. I felt like I lost my femininity so I can totally relate! If wigs make you happy that's all that matters. It's crazy no one talks about female hair loss it's a shame ❤️ thanks for talking about it❤️❤️

[@gail4077]

You are gorgeous inside and out! And you are definitely worth taking care of...I'm so glad you found something to make you feel pretty...because you already were!

[@bonitajuanita]

Than you so much Gail!!! This means so much to me and I am so blessed to call you a friend. HUGGLES!!!

[@Oliveea]

I’ve definitely learned something new here today! It’s so wonderful that you can use your platform to bring us knowledge and inspiration about acceptance about insecurities of such a personal experience. I love to share knowledge about a heredity disease I have called Charcot Marie tooth because it’s the most common disease no one’s ever heard!

[@bonitajuanita]

I learned something too! as you might have guessed I have never heard of Charcot Marie Tooth. I hope you are managing it as best you can. Just know that I appreciate your support and know that you have mine as well. HUGGLES!!!

[@KatarinaSophia0795]

So happy for you 💕

[@bonitajuanita]

Thanks Karen. HUGGLES!!!

[@violetvidaurri6571]

Thank you for sharing this video.

[@bonitajuanita]

You are so welcome Violet! I'm glad you liked it and that you took time to watch. It really means a lot. HUGGLES!!

[@shannon7206]

Girl ur so brave. Now I have to research this cuz I pick and pluck my hair and pick on my skin. I never knew this until I watched your video. So thank you so much!!!💕😒

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you Shannon! I really hope you find some answers and that its helpful. HUGGLES!!!

[@sarah13sj]

Bravo for you. It takes guts to talk about your biggest insecurity. A past co-worker of mine has a 4 year old daughter dealing with this.

[@DiscombobulatedSquid]

I know exactly what you mean by your hair being your biggest insecurity. I have alopecia and my hair falls out when I get stressed. I had a friend in high school with trich and we bonded over our bald spots and helped each other out when people noticed and we came up with hairstyles that would hide our spots and stuff. Kudos to you for this video. ❤ Thanks so much for being brave. You're gorgeous girl!

[@pishnguyen5329]

You are so brave and beautiful -- on the inside and the outside. I feel like your beautiful and caring personality shines through in every video you do. I can only imagine how hard and scary this video was for you to make. I have PCOS, coupled with fine hair, so I feel some of your pain regarding hair loss and just the insecurity of not-enough-hair. Before I was diagnosed, I had no idea why my hair seemed so thin. I was so insecure that I avoided having my hair done for months. Finally, I worked up the courage to get something done with it, and the stylist told me the reason my hair was thin was because I was too fat. So there wasn't enough hair to cover my head (you know, because my head was getting so fat ... :/). I managed to hold it together long enough to pay, and then I sat in my car and cried for half an hour. Your real hair is beautiful. It's such a pretty color, and the texture is super pretty. Thank you so much for your courage and your beautiful outlook on life. And thank you for sharing this. I had commented on one of your previous BFRB videos about my daughter, who constantly picks at her skin on her fingers. We got her a few of those fidget spinners. She keeps them in her jacket pocket, and she told me they help her pick less. That felt like a huge victory to me. (Also, maybe I'm a doofus, but I totally thought it was your real hair. *cyberhugs*)

[@ashleyj0]

you know when you face your insecurities and share them openly, it helps you to overcome them. you are shaking, nervous... and we are all watching this and thinking you are beautiful! we all know how you feel, trust me. i can really relate to the hair loss myself. it's a normal thing tons of women deal with and we love you for being open and brave enough to share. please believe me when i say this.. you are beautiful with or without the wig. but i'm so happy you found a wig that makes u feel like a diva

[@tiffying2205]

You're very brave for sharing your story! Thank you for that. Hair or no hair you're beautiful inside and out. You are funny and seem to be an amazing person. Anyone who thinks any less because of your lack of hair doesn't deserve to be part of your life. 😍 stay strong and remember your worth!!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much Tiffany! I feel like I need to print off your comment and put on my mirror so I can read it everyday. You are so thoughtful and encouraging and I am so grateful that you are here. HUGGLES!!!

[@tiffying2205]

bonitajuanita.... Aww, you should totally do it! I would be honored if you did!! Hugs right back to you love!!

[@springgates7854]

Hey you!! First, I will echo others here and tell you that you are wonderful. Negate the guilt!!! You have nothing to be guilty about!!! That being said, I have issues as well. I cannot say that I have a similar disorder but, for me my teeth has always made me self conscious as well. I have a very narrow mouth and as such, over crowding leading to severe gum recession and tooth damage. I need about 15-20k in dental work that I cannot afford and have always had issues with pictures and my smile. I am glad that you have found things that have helped you and have regained some of your confidence. LOVE your videos, with or without your hair accessories but you are so awesome and reach out if you ever need a friend.

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much! It is not easy sharing personal things about ourselves to others. But I feel so blessed to call you a friend and I feel even more blessed to know that you are here. I have always had issues with guilt and shame so your kind words really are encouraging for me and I appreciate it. I am here for you too! HUGGLES!!!

[@carlajones9589]

Girl you are great and beautiful. It so nice to see someone on KZbin that is real and is going through real issues in life and everything is not perfect. Be yourself we all love you. Doing whatever you need to do to help yourself feel better don’t worry about what people think. As long as you feel great that’s all it’s about.

[@bonitajuanita]

Carla this is just the sweetest thing you could possibly say. I love your compassion and acceptance. Its so rare to find and I value your so much! Thank you! HUGGLES!!!

[@gray_7]

Also it is not vain, stupid or dramatic. Like you said, you are worth it and there is nothing wrong with feeling good about yourself! If there’s something you can do to improve how you feel about something you’re insecure about, I think that’s great. Self-care is so important 💗💗💗 Brava :)

[@mama_loves_nails5669]

I have a friend who suffers with hair pulling too you have such courage to put yourself out there and bing awareness to these issues. Your and amazing spirt filled with bravery and kindness. Love you girl. ❤️👍

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much! Your support and love makes it so much easier to share. HUGGLES!!!

[@angiesphalanges1960]

I don't even know where to begin. You are an amazing person, so brave, so honest, so beautiful inside and out....and I MEAN inside and out. You would be stunning wearing a bald cap girl. More importantly, this type of video will help so many who have body confidence issues to know they are not alone and to get some practical tips to help. Above all, you are teaching your son to be kind and accepting of people by living the truth that all people are valuable and have worth. God bless you Sweetie.

[@ellenmilnamow1686]

Hugs to you for being so brave and vulnerable to the world! Honestly, I thought your new hair style (full wig) was your own hair plus extentions and it looked great. I am sure your openness in this platform will help others struggling with these issues.

[@bonitajuanita]

Ellen thank you so much! I am so blessed to know that you are here supporting me. Your compassion and kindness means so much to me. HUGGLES!!!

[@laughingalltheway8399]

First off-Your hair looks amazing, hair pieces or not. I’ve always thought your hair was adorable, and I am super happy that you have found a solution that brings you so much confidence! :) We all have things that we focus on for vanity purposes, and frankly, anything that you can do to help yourself overcome things that you are self conscious about is a good thing. :) I have never been diagnosed with anything about it short of anxiety, etc….but I pick at my face like crazy and I used to chew my nails to the point that they would bleed, which is actually how I got into nail polish. I was getting acrylics in order to keep from chewing my nails, and I just got tired of it. I found that when my nails looked nice that I didn’t *want* to chew them, so I have made the conscious effort to keep them polished for the last 3 years and it has worked as long as I keep them polished (if I let them go bare, I will totally chew them all back down to nubs within a day...sigh). It’s amazing how much happiness can come from finding a way to overcome something we are so hung up on. I am so happy for you!!!!

[@bonitajuanita]

Bobby I am always blown away at your compassion and love! It is so hard to share our faults with others but for me that is one of the most intimate ways to connect with someone. Thank you so much for sharing your struggles with nail bitting. You were strong enough to find a solution and that is amazing! You are such and inspiration not only in overcoming struggles but in being confident enough to share it will others. You are incredible and I am so blessed to call you a friend. HUGGLES!!!

[@francesdenison5666]

You are so brave to share your story. You are awesome! You have such a beautiful face and such beautiful eyes, I really just thought the hair was another perfect part of the picture. I didn't know it was a wig. I just thought you liked full glam hair!!!! We'll go figure! It certainly works for you. You are very beautiful. Go girl!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much Frances! Your kindness and support help me keeping going! HUGGLES!!!

[@elizabethcaudill3886]

Aw Sweetie this is such a strong thing to come out and show! I do not suffer from Trichotillomania or anything similar, but I do have two large strips of 'bald" spots of either side of my head. It can be very hard to deal with and definitely hurts my self esteem and confidence. I try to explain my situation by saying my hair grows like Barbie's, because if you look at the head of a Barbie you can see that the hair was placed in lines not random and that leaves entire 'rows' without hair.

[@thebet816]

You are beautiful, hair or no hair. I finished chemo in April so I've been wearing wigs. We have our stories and you are right we are worth loving. I still wear wigs. Look into the hair band wig grip. I love it!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much. I hope things are getting better for you after chemo that must have been so hard to experience. Thank you so much for the wig trip tip, I'm gonna have to look into that! You are beautiful too, your support and compassion has made my day so much better. HUGGLES!!!

[@vallove4life]

You are a super brave and super strong woman! I am so humbled and proud to be one of your subbies! 😘

[@bonitajuanita]

awww Valerie! I am humbled and blessed you call you a friend. To know that you are supporting me and holding my hand when I need it, mean the world to me! HUGGLES!!!!

[@Anjie77]

Juanita, you are such a brave and beautiful woman! I do not suffer from BFRB but I do suffer from hair loss. In my photo I had a lot more hair than I do now. So I can completely relate to that part and I do suffer from insecurities about my hair loss too. You sharing your journey was very awe inspiring! You are beautiful inside and out. Don't ever change and continue to take care of you and do what makes you happy. Don't ever think you're being silly or even vain. It's about your self confidence and no one else's. Do what makes you happy. I love your videos and I simply adore you! Once again thank you for sharing this with us and know that you have helped me, I've been wanting to try hair pieces but I was scared how it would look. Or invest money and it come out bad. Now I know there is some good products or there for me to try out. 😄😊💜💜

[@bonitajuanita]

Anjie, you are why I wanted to share this video. I am so touched that you are willing to share your story with me. Know that I am here for you. This is such a delicate subject and its such a hard thing to talk about if you are dealing with hair loss, its so comforting to know that we aren't alone. It may not be easy but the more we are willing to talk about and share we can help each other find solutions. Let me know if you find anything that you really like. Thank you so much for you kind words and sympathy. You are so sweet and thoughtful! HUGGLES!!!

[@rachelcorinne3131]

It is amazing to hear your story! I didn't even think you were wearing hair toppers and wigs. I am a huge supporter of doing whatever makes you happiest and you have seemed more confident in your last few videos. :)

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much Rachel! I am so thankful knowing that you are supporting and accepting. It makes me all warm and fuzzy! You are too sweet!! HUGGLES!!!

[@JuMaRi615]

I use to pull out my leg hair. So it doesn't grow in spots and is sparser than other people's. not as bad as head hair. You are really brave! My hair changed too after kids. I use to have a real pretty med auburn color and now it's just ugly dirty mousie beige brown. Stay strong!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much for sharing this Julia! I am amazed at the changes that can happen after kids but its so wonderful and empowering to know that I am not alone. This is completely encouraging to me! HUGGLES!!!

[@upward_falling]

You are absolutely lovely with all the hair pieces, your smile just radiates! But I want you to know that you're equally as gorgeous without them, and I mean that whole heartedly! I TOTALLY understand the struggle with the confidence, and honestly, when we feel self conscious with ourselves, it doesn't always matter what anyone has to say, no matter how nice it is. Our inner voice is so much stronger when it comes to self criticism. This goes for hair, weight, skin, stretch marks... Whatever the case may be. I adore you. Always have, always will!

[@likemeordont5951]

You Are My Hero. I Will Remember You From This Day Until My Last Day. Your Courage is Inspiring. Thank You.

[@patronsaintoffashion2722]

I have dermatillomania (skin picking) which is focused on my face. i had gotten it completely under control and was doing absolutely NO picking. but selfish people in my mans family have forced me into turning my life upside down and the stress is causing me to pick again ): this grocery store I go to I always see this really nice lady there, and this morning she told me she was so so worried about me when she saw my face and she's so glad to see it healing up so well and it honestly touched my heart so much. it made my whole day. because that lady had never seen me like that and cared about me. usually when someone mentions it I feel like they are crossing obvious boundaries but she actually cared about me and I could tell. so I guess that's why it was different. up until about two years ago I had bitten my nails since preschool but I've gotten that under control now (: really feel all my people who have to deal with these types of issues.

[@bonitajuanita]

I am so sorry. There is nothing more discouraging than a relapse but I have faith in you. You are strong and knowing that people care is some of the best encouragements. I am so touched that you shared your story with me and I am right there with you. We may not ever meet in person but know that you are my friend and I am here for you. HUGGLES!!!

[@Gotaluvpolish]

Thank you for sharing this with us! Your videos always make me smile and brighten up my day. I'm so happy for you and the joy that this gives you.

[@bonitajuanita]

Thanks buddy!! Knowing that you enjoy the videos makes my day! Your kindness is just the thing I need and you are just the best!!! HUGGLES!!!

[@Cherrylimeade0235]

I swear I love you for this! You are honestly one of the most amazing people online. You're always very honest and open and for those out there who are struggling with anything ... and I mean any insecurity ... I am sure that you have help someone very much by putting yourself out there. Love you Juanita!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much! You are so kind and supportive and its because of this trust and love that I am willing to share. and I love you too! HUGGLES!!!

[@StormySooner]

You are so brave to share this! This video will help others who are struggling. ❤️

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you Natalie. You are just too sweet and I really appreciate your support. HUGGLES!!!

[@theredpilladdict.936]

don't feel bad stress gets to us all one way or another even our pets get stress. it helps all to share. your beautiful. b vitamins are good for stress and hair.

[@randomchickrobin]

I used to have that with my eyelashes and hair and now it's with body hair (namely hair on my fingers and legs). It's nice to know other people struggle with this

[@Helluvanails]

So sorry you're going through this. You are gorgeous and so funny and uplifting. You're helping a lot of people by just talking about it. You ROCK!!!!

[@louiealbrecht1088]

This is the best, most honest, most heartwarming video I have seen since Cassie from Thrift Thick first shared her story. You are wonderful and beautiful, with or without any any hair pieces. Sincerely, thank you!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much Louie! This is so kind of you to say and I appreciate it so much! HUGGLES!!!

[@BrooklynneMichelle]

You are so brave for sharing your story! I have a BFRB disorder too, I obsessively chew and pick at my bottom lip, which is why I always wear lipstick. You are not alone!

[@robinpinkham9398]

You go girl! You should be proud!!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thanks Robin! You are just so sweet! HUGGLES!!!

[@joannemcneill156]

Thank-you for this video. I don't suffer from BFRB but I do have low confidence so I'm all about watching videos of people talking about how they boost their confidence up. So, now that we know your secret, I'd love to see you experiment with different lengths and colours of wigs! Imagine how fun it would be if you came at us with a short pink bob one video and long green locks in another! And you can match your nails. Endless possibilities!

[@bonitajuanita]

Joanne I am one step ahead of you. Right now I got my eyes on a golden tan wig that is giving some serious J.Lo vibes! but I hadn't even considered FUN colors. You have inspired me! HUGGLES!!!

[@megablessedgram]

You are so sweet! Thank you for sharing!

[@bonitajuanita]

Thanks Dianne! You are just the best. HUGGLES!!!

[@conyeah]

God bless you for being so brave and help spread awareness! I don't have a condition, but have baby fine hair and have always been able to see my scalp. It DOES make you very self conscious. Again, go girl!!! Connie

[@StephiRaye]

So brave of you. Thanks for sharing! 💖

[@ThePolishedPursuit]

Juanita!! You are such a beautiful woman and sooo brave for posting this. Hair, thinning hair, or no hair you are a beauty. Huggles!!! Xo

[@jpeterson2150]

Goodness! And here I've been coveting your hair all this time! What a wonderful thing to share and reminds me of just how little we really know of anyone else's struggles. I dropped you a note just yesterday about how gorgeous you looked and today you're even more beautiful. Huggles right back at ya. 😙

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much Jenna! This is so sweet for you to notice and compliment and I really appreciate it! You are the best! HUG-HUGGLES!!

[@joannamccloud]

Both look beautiful to me and you're an undercover hottie meaning you're one of those beautiful women who doesn't act like she think she knows she's beautiful and I found you through your channel and your lovely bubbly personality and I've been hooked ever since you're a great lady.

[@bonitajuanita]

LOL I love that! Undercover Hottie!! LOL You crack me up! thank you so much for the support and love. HUGGLES!!!

[@moniquegroom2353]

I've been watching your VERY delightful videos for a few weeks now. You are a joy to watch. Came across this video by accident. Now I love you even more....you've very brave. On a lighter note.....I've just gotten back into polishes...and OMG you are such an enabler. Sadly, being in Canada the Indies are far too spendy for me at present. But I LOVE watching your swatches and enthusiasm. Again....SO BRAVE!!

[@heatherbrown5463]

These videos about TTM are excellent! Thank you for sharing about your journey with TTM.

[@laurenlolo8857]

Yes I love wigs too! You look so good! I also suffer with trich but only in specific spots and have since my teenage years(I'm 19 lol). You can also make fake baby hairs on a wig by using scissors and cutting around the front part of the lace front and also pluck the side part with some tweezers to make it more noticeable or put some makeup of your skin complexion in the part to make it distinguishable, there are plenty of KZbin videos that can explain it better than I can . I bought a Brazilian human hair wig for $150 dollars on AliExpress that I was able to bleach and dye from black to light auburn and is still in good condition! good luck I love your channel and all your nail polish!!❤️❤️❤️😍😍

[@crizzyjj]

I just wanted to say you are very brave and strong. That makes you beautiful. I'm glad you've found a fix that makes you happy.

[@ms_polished26]

You're beautiful! thank you for your bravery for sharing this sensitive topic with us all. ❤️❤️

[@bonitajuanita]

Thank you so much! I am amazed at all the love and support. HUGGLES!!!

[@jeannehaile8465]

I only just found your videos recently; and of course, subscribed immediately. YOU make me so happy! You're a ray of sunshine and a dose of Happy when I need it. I love your hair! I was always intrigued to see what cute style you'd be sporting in your new video. Now I know why and it doesn't minimize the fun for me one little bit. Honestly, it makes me love you and your videos even more. Thank you so much for sharing. Laying bare your deepest insecurities is excrutiatingly difficult for anyone; but you managed to reach out with your usual flare and wonderful sense of humor to not only inform and educate, but to help others with your honesty. Thank you so much! XO

[@LaurenInesRuiz]

I truly love your salt and pepper hair. Good luck on your journey. You foreal look so beautiful even with your natural hair. BUT I get it. When you're insecure about something, it really doesn't matter too much if others like that thing.

[@margaretyoder3007]

We love and adore you and your strength to share your story!!!

[@DuckieM]

Thank you for sharing your personal story with us. I hoped it has helped you because I am sure your story will have helped a lot of other ppl who have BFRB as well. It definitely does NOT sound stupid if your wig make you happy. Afterall, it is the little things that count, and if they makes you happy, that's wonderful! :D

[@Neri7s]

Thank you for sharing your story again. I remember you mentioning it and watching your past BFRB videos.

[@joannamccloud]

Sprayology Hair Skin and nail tonic is pretty good I learned about it from Erica Wyatts Channel I will say that you need to go through at least three bottles before you notice a difference once you get past that second one and you get maybe a week into that third when you will see a difference is pretty good stuff I've been trying to get it and keep it every month you put two sprays under the tongue three times a day and the bottles last for about a month so it's pretty good stuff I haven't noticed much in the way of my nails but my hair is definitely healthier in the new growth

[@bonitajuanita]

This sounds interesting!! I willing to give it a go. Especially since you had a good experience with it. Thanks buddy. Off to amazon...

[@joannamccloud]

bonitajuanita sprayology has their own site it is sprayology.com it may be cheaper on their site than Amazon it was like 27 when I first got it now it's 29 I know that whenever I order two bottles at a time is 58 and some change and because I have PayPal I can have the option of paying 10 days later but it is a really good spray and is homeopathic it's not chemically or anything like that

[@MoreThanNailVarnish]

I admire you so much for talking about this like that on the internet! If I may say, your hair looks fabulous to me! 😉 I've had problems with my hair for a couple of years now too... Hair around where my forehead is had become so thin that you could actually see my scalp... Seen the doctors, I've used all kinds of different products but nothing happened. But then I started to take mM KOLLAGEN and within a month I have tiny new hair growing and I can't be more happy about it 😄 It is, however, a product that is sold in Europe, they make it in Norway.... I'm sure you will find something that will help, even if it takes a little time to find the right thing for you! Regardless, your hair is still fabulous and you as a person are even more fabulous! 💖

[@taraszekely6962]

Brave & Beautiful..... that is what I see. Plus a fantastic personality.

[@isabellebergevin]

I just joined your channel a few days ago and I've been looking through your older videos. I love that you did this! We all have insecurities but the really strong ones among us are the ones who are willing to talk about them to help others deal with their own. You are beautiful and wonderful, with or without a wig! p.s. I had to walk around bald for an entire year in 2013-2014 when I lost my hair because of chemotherapy. I also have very thin hair to begin with, so I kinda feel your pain...

[@GosiaPio]

I think that is very brave from your side to talk about this topic and your insecurity. Although i dont have that problem i find that video very inspiring:)

[@robinhanff4248]

You are a beautiful person from what I can see and as a hairdresser your hair isn't that bad....but I have anxiety so I know how you feel..Just know that you make my day when I watch your videos you are so cute and funny!!

[@bonitajuanita]

Robin you are amazing! I wish I had you as my hairdresser. I have had some really insensitive ones in the past and it probably contributed to my sensitivity because even a professional didn't know what to do with my hair. Your support and compassion means a lot to me and I am so thankful that you left a comment. HUGGLES!!!

[@melissaludwig3314]

Thanks for sharing your story. I learned a lot. And the joy on your face with your new wig is the best!! So glad it makes you happy and gives you confidence again with your hair. You look beautiful!!!! And it's definitely not stupid to feel excited about loving your new hair. You deserve to be happy!!! Enjoy it!!

[@angelaread4462]

I know im late in saying this but what an amazing lady you are. I've only just subscribed in the last couple of days after finding you through the other nail girls you mention but oh my goodness.....what an inspiration you are. I don't suffer your condition but used to be a serious nail biter until about 10 years ago and now have fairly good nails. However, I do suffer a huge lack of confidence in myself.....always have and always will but today....after watching this...I realise that I ought to be more grateful and should feel better about myself. That's down to you and your courage and positivity so THANK YOU ❤

[@Nailpolishbabyy90]

You are so beautiful and brave to share this with everyone! X

[@sarahchavez0601ss]

You are beautiful! You make me smile! Im so happy you are happy! Im going to share your story with my bff. Thank you for sharing Xo

[@bonitajuanita]

Sarah that would mean the world to me. You are so thoughtful and supportive we are all lucky to call you a friend. HUGGLES!!!

[@sneezersmom]

Look for beautiful vintage ladies hats for church. You would look beautiful in them.

[@bonitajuanita]

MARY!!! Thats a great IDEA!!!

[@Pink-mandarina]

how honest you are and how generosity you have! thank you for sharing your struggle.

[@bonitajuanita]

you are welcome! Its nice and comforting to know that you are here to support me and give digital hugs. HUGGLES!!!

[@LaTrebbin]

Thank you so much for your courage! I don't have a BFRB, but your video spoke to me about the issues I have, I'm sure it will have that effect on everyone who watches it.

[@bonitajuanita]

You are so welcome!!! I am so glad it helped! HUGGLES!!!

[@kdillion874]

thank you for sharing your story. you are so brave for putting your self out there like that. please know that you are beautiful!!

[@laurieblum9389]

You look great! You are worth it! I don't think it is all the wig. I think the confidence and happiness that it gives you shines threw. I am soo happy for you!

[@karengarnett623]

Thank you for sharing your story and journey! I suffer from pulling out my eyelashes. I was totally excited when I discovered false eyelashes!