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My last goodbye... a little story
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[@suzanne-chang]

Happy New Year Everyone! ♡

[@fhl60]

Happy new year!

[@aditya21221]

Happy Now Here

[@gregorycrump1317]

Thanks for your help

[@jameswalker2392]

Happy New Year 2023

[@mast3r346]

have fun baby , even its meaningless, just have fun .thats all there is flow of life even its fake .

[@WholyAlkhemy]

It's so funny the day you talk about why you do your videos in the cemetery for it being quieter and less crowded there, it's precisely when it gets louder than it's ever been, lol. I just love how amusingly this paradox seems to manifest! Spontaneous, unpredictable, amazingly spot-on humorous aliveness! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤

[@alxartzen]

The cemetery is the right place, it mirrors society.

[@ABetterEarthForOurChildren]

my "awakening" 1 week ago was pretty interesting, after a cold shower (may be important because i can think clearer afterwards) it was the first time i watched a video about duality and i read the "Tao te ching" so i had an idea what he's talking talking about. And the guy in the video said "there is nothing to wait for. It's already here. This is it. There is nothing to realize and there is no one that could realize something. There is nothing to gain, because nothing is real in this physical world, you look at a desk and think it's a desk but reality it is just an idea in your head you don't know what the desk really is, in his essence. You have no ego it's just a story of memories the ego is telling itself to seem real and it makes you believe that it's the real you, even if you think you live in the moment it could be that the story you tell yourself is just you in the last few minutes or what you did today" I don't know why but i realized that i just heard something incredibly profound so i stopped the video looked around the room, looked at every object that cause mind chatter, looked at everything that annoyed me in my room, looked at my dirty, messy desk, looked at my dirty floor, and even tho it annoyed me i tried to see it as perfect, i tried to see it as what it is, not the idea of it or interpreting it in my mind i just looked at it as it was and accepted it into my moment. I did that with a few things, meditated for maybe 5 minutes between that, and i don't know how but i felt something, something i've been holding on it felt like a rock in my mind but it felt protecting, (maybe i should mention that i was already very aware and most of the time lived in the moment) i don't remember exactly but i think i felt how it drained my mental energy and that it was the cause for some of my bad feelings, so i thought what if i just let it go, and i tried but it stuck so hard to me, it felt like i either have to force myself into the present moment and it felt like i had to give up and forget everything that i learned and experienced, like my past would be eradicated (funny enough that was pretty accurate, i didn't lose my memory but , and my mind told my ego (which i still believed, was me) "what are you doing, this is ridiculous, just stop it." (It felt like i would defend me against myself which made me very confused because why shouldn't i at least try, it wasn't like anything was gonna happen, i wasn't gonna die just by forcing myself into the present and in my heart I'm a little detective so I knew when someone is trying to defend something so hard without any reason there has to be something suspicious. So i tried to force myself into the present again or i forced my ego (which felt like a weird entity in my mind, it felt like it's protecting me but it also felt like it needed a lot of energy) out of my mind or shattered it into little pieces that now are wandering around my mind or maybe i just let go of it idk which one, i can't explain how i did that i really don't know, but again there was this resistance it just wouldnt let go it clung so hard to me. My ego told me, idk if it was with thoughts or with feelings: "don't do that, you need me, this is ridiculous, you will lose your past and how are you gonna think without me, will you even be able to think without me? Maybe you can't go back once you force yourself into the present, what if you're gonna die?" And i was little bit scared but i was even more curious why my ego (which i thought was my mind) would tell me these things, why would it block me so hard with some ridiculous hypothesis so i pushed my ego away, shattered it, pulled the present moment to me or something like that it's hard to remember and isn't really describable anyways. Suddenly i felt like all the sorrow and annoyment and sadness was slowly lifted of my shoulders and in that moment i could feel or i realized "i am not my ego, i am not even an I, I don't know what I am but I'm connected with EVERYTHING or maybe i was EVERYTHING and i felt this huge energy flowing into me or out of me i'm not sure but i felt this energy everywhere, the wall, the floor, myself just everywhere was this incredible feeling and my body was almost exploding from bliss and the first seconds I couldn't believe what was happening. It felt like my being was dissolving into everything i could see with my body but i wasn't just in my body, the body was just a small part of me, i was EVERYTHING. After that i went back into my body but my ego was kinda gone, i still have egoic reactions but i don't have this feeling of "I am I and I am my ego, my persona" anymore. Now i feel this peace even if it's just in my body but nothing really bothers me anymore. I still get upset or sad or happy but i can now choose to identify with it or not if my awareness is fast enough i can just go back to observing and the feeling will just subside. I don't know if this feeling of being one with everything will come back but i hope i can achieve that through meditating, deepening my understanding and believe in non duality and other spiritual teachings. Or maybe i should just go into the mountains and live in the nature until i feel one with the world again. If you read that far, thank you for that and maybe you have an idea how i should continous my practice to achieve that state of consciousness again, i would love to hear some ideas. Anyways, have a lovely day and a happy new year

[@zd3101]

thanks for sharing your experience, i'm currently going through this too and it happened with similar events. i honestly can't share much that i think would help cause i'm also seeking insights. but if you would like to talk sometime, let me know and we can share some things on the process.

[@kimberlytrent5245]

Daniel, Thank you for sharing that experience. Fucking profound 🤯... I had something similar happen through intense suffering, the experience faded quickly and Ive been in the aftermath for several years, childhood trauma and false ideas/ wounds/ fears/ have manifested repeatedly in my reality in order to integrate, it's been extremely challenging.. again, appreciate hearing about your experience🙏

[@bollvigblack]

thanks for telling this 🙏 i really like when people try to explain experiences even though everyone says you shouldn't explain because it's individual. i really appreciate your efforts

[@daytonthodos9915]

I had a similar experience! Would also like to learn to live closer to that truth

[@vincentf.2317]

Your comments remind me of the story where someone asked asked the Zen master T. D. Suzuki if a person of satori experiences suffering. To this, Suzuki replied: "'When my wife died, I shed bitter tears.'" They retorted by asking what was the use then of being enlightened, to which Suzuki replied: "'My tears had no roots.'"

[@sanjayjattan9547]

Goodbye to the 2022 version of Suzanne! Can't wait to hear from the 2023 version.

[@540Splice]

Beautifully said. There are so many who do not see, and they need guidance from the truth seeing souls such as yourself. Never stop giving to this world, because to escape this samsara is for the whole goal not only individually, but for everyone. Love these vids, you’re very gifted 🙏🏼

[@toyfoxythemangletangle6306]

I love listening to you so much. You are so wise, and your words truly resonate with me. Thank you for your gift of wisdom.

[@Sashas-mom]

I hope you don’t mind this intrusion but I barely came across her channel and i hardly know her content much less her BUT I’ve been listening to this topic for a while and she is incredible. For some reason I don’t hear gibberish. She seems to speak to my heart enough that my mind is not protesting.

[@ibnenkigalileo9256]

This testimony is the closest to the Heart Sutra I’ve ever heard. Amazing.

[@indef93]

This is it. After a life of seeking and a moment of being terrified by such transmission... it happened. And it's this. The domino effect is just the most baffling part. ❤

[@morrowcosom]

That must be a CIA helicopter hovering over Suzanne. The CIA is going to capture her and turn her into an NPC once she leaves the cemetery.

[@gunayohare2846]

Just sooo beatiful, sobbed throughout💞💞 didn't even mind the apparent sound of the helicopter, life was just having a fun with it 🤗💞

[@krobbins8395]

I was the one who had made the comment about the graveyard. Thanks for sharing your story I can only say that I found something different. The misery was there but its like the energy of love became one with me and love rainbows poured from my heart and there was bliss...everything was love and quite funny. I didn't die but felt light as a feather and only felt joy. Like a gift of love that Rumi speaks of...in that love there is no flawed self just understanding and the love of grace. Peace to you on your journey.

[@Ron-rk6iz]

Your body and mind are realities in this physical Life, a crucial part of your identity in this physical Life as a Human being. We are "beings....." so dare to be......!😊 That the building blocks are made of ( clustered ) energy does not make it less real, energy is real . ( but invisible ) Our body and mind are our vehicles to manifest our souls, therefor ; dare to live, enjoy, take risks in order to grow spiritually.

[@pussi]

youre cool! What do you think about spirits? 😮❤

[@colejackson_music]

mmm well said

[@kathelapointe]

The word Soul use to be such an important word for me but now I just find it strange how we use it like we know what it is ...What is A Soul? Not even sure I trust it either.

[@nyx5623]

Hi, I'm currently dealing with very difficult things including the loss of my dad to cancer and health related problems myself. I've become aware recently that there is a "normal everything is fine" pattern to everyday life, but when when I face the prospect of me dying one day and that everything I've grown attached to would dissipate into nothing, it's just terrifying to be honest. Very difficult to deal with and I'm not sure exactly how to do that yet, or if it's even if it's even possible that is. Anyway I just want to thank you for what you're doing, you seem like a genuinely good person and I appreciate you. Much love.

[@sunlovinsnowflake]

🙏🏼✨💛🌊🌈🌌

[@life13525]

you and your videos are so precious to me....much love and gratitude for all you share with us, thank you Suzanne 💗

[@saralamuni]

Happy new year my dear Suzanne, all the best!

[@electricsnut]

Thank you for this video, I’m on the verge of something, immense loneliness and sadness and eternal feeling stuck but in a spiritual form and a longing for what I was before even though this seems to have been my path all along. I hope one day it works out.

[@Marcel-Kueng]

Danke!

[@suzanne-chang]

Danke! ♡♡♡

[@keepgoinzeus]

:) just tuned in

[@nileg123]

Thank you and Happy New year from Japan!

[@asaltuc]

Thank you for this story 🙏

[@monikasitarz2543]

Beautiful, thank you 😌

[@Loriddian]

Thanks for your wisdom

[@skyolson3905]

Thank you! Thank you Suzanne. Thank you

[@EricOwensFlute]

You’re awesome!

[@jackabbott2523]

Thank you for another great video Suzanne

[@DONTHAWONN]

U GOT THIS

[@sergioisbananas]

its really beutiful how you talk about the quietness in the park (lack of people) then a helicopter comes and stays for the duration of the video

[@uk1simon1]

Thanks Suzanne, I've got a feeling this chopper is going to follow you for the whole 2023 😀, you look lovely, a cute female animal, thank you 😊.

[@theNuclearNixons]

Just this morning, I woke up after a vivid dream of chasing these little mischievous elves. They like to play around with you and are tricksters, but try to teach you something. Basically, don't take life so serious. They appear across many cultures. In Cambodia, they are called "Mrenh Gongveal" or "Mrenh Kongveal."

[@GooglePlusPages]

Dating Dimitri, eh?

[@janhokke413]

Thanks for sharing Suzanne, and happy new year too. love you take care 🙏🥰

[@DO-NOT-WATCH]

Interesting...

[@BenjyO238]

So beautiful Suzanne! Such clarity and love being expressed.

[@jameswalker2392]

Thank you for sharing.

[@randallscott8117]

An interesting bit of theater Suzanne

[@wjbkjay23464]

Sorry to hear it's your last. Love your talks on non duality. Sounds as though it transcends death in a way I have only heard about from lsd experiences, among other things. It's OK to feel these things. 😊

[@vicvic2081]

Happy new years my friend

[@FRED-gx2qk]

Bless you Lady 🙌

[@alxartzen]

Consciousness as it is, is the experience, confusion is ignited when one begins searching for a particular kind of experience, that is handed down from generation to generation commonly known as social, family, ancestral, religious programming and many other such programming It is these programs that many seek to find a way out of, simply to see the self in the raw unconditioned pure space of being

[@BaliandbeyondCa]

Thank you. ❤

[@trentdoyle8752]

Thank you Suzanne. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your videos. They have been a great source of inspiration and support for me during the roller coaster of whatever this is. Love you you’re awesome ❤️😊

[@59Monik]

Happy New Year Suzanne, thank you for such sincere and precious sharing ❤

[@yasminel-hakim4348]

this is the most beautiful message I’ve ever heard/read/seen. Thank you so so much 🙏❤️

[@onenessornoneness9692]

Happy New year I love youuuu

[@grahammilne3029]

Thank you 😃 Happy new year of unconditional love.

[@ubuntuber1619]

🙋🏻‍♀️➰🩲👃🏽💕 umm Suzanne keep them coming.

[@Lola-Yo]

The incredible loudness of the physical World in the background. I’m not sure what it means, but I live by a beautiful churchyard and there’s often a helicopter going over, or in summer, the sound of the grass trimmer.

[@speciallion1135]

Beautiful, soul. Love is our natural state of being, with the interactions with others, that feeling of love, is the recognition or yourself, within that other.

[@alisonwalker7372]

The Unborn I identity seems to have the greatest potential for peace in ways, I love your videos, My Mind feels supported by the shares to lean into less control and leading, and your videos nourish my body and heart too, so glad to have randomly found your page, half way through, I really hope the videos don’t stop b/c of some conditioning that connects to family reactions, the family expectations are why so many won’t allow mind to take a back seat

[@alisonwalker7372]

And I can 1 hundred percent can see that my comment in my focus are a slight projection that connect to my own reality as I am wondering if the goodbye in the title means these videos are gonna stop

[@mehrdadsagheb6894]

Hi Suzanne, You’re beautiful in & out. Thanks for your sharing/ videos.

[@darren65ish]

Suzanne,you are a sweet young lady thank you for sharing your videos with us much love and light too yourself and everyone else watching your videos namaste 💕🌹😇🙏 Xx

[@stefaniestrauss1182]

❤

[@user-xw9ro6ge1m]

Go, go, go beyond, go utterly beyond, to enlightenment. ❤

[@zlyascope]

When you talk it's so dreamy, I think I've never talked to someone like you. I hope in a past or future life we meet.

[@unmovingthusness]

Namaste! You're beautiful!

[@Jack-xc2ys]

Very good. Your process is very endearing, so thank you for sharing. Hearing a voice is reassuring, what of me is mammal is comforted. Hearing a voice is what my ears are for, I am content hearing your voice. So thank you.

[@danathrower2680]

The copter is so poignantly , appreciate. I am so grateful that I love you.

[@chrisoglesby9071]

I have caught a few posts so far and enjoy them. It is an unfamiliar philosophy to me, but it is refreshing to hear the description and expression.

[@pasang876]

I just love to listen your penetrating experiential talks. ❤ How about the idea of “emptiness is womb of compassion” ?

[@slicktrickyes]

Cheer up.

[@anglikai9517]

Have it ever come to your mind that, your parents, your sister, and your friends are also the impersonal you ? nobody is gone. nothing was there in the beginning.

[@mobiustrip1400]

Yes. Yes it has. It could have been anyone, and indeed it was any one of them and at first it felt like it was "me" separate, with a name. But it is not "me" with a name, it is anyone of them.

[@whatareyoudoing7158]

I KNOW THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME I HAVE BEEN HERE. I AM MY FATHER WHO ALREADY PASSED IN THIS EXISTENCE, I AM HIS FATHER WHO ALREADY PASSED FROM THIS EXISTENCE. AND NOW I AM THEIR GREAT GRAND DAUGHTER IN THIS EXISTENCE . 😍 I CAN REMEMBER ALL MY PASS LIVES. I HAVE BEEN A MAN, A WOMAN. A CHILD, A OLD MAN, A OLD LADY AND NOW I AM IN THIS 30 SOMETHING BODY WOMAN , GIVING BIRTH TO OURSELVES AGAIN... HAHAHA 😆 😆 😆 I HAVE TRY MANY TIMES TO FIND SOMEONE WHO HAVE EXPERIENCE THIS BEFORE, AND THIS COMMENT IS THE CLOSEST I HAVE EVER COME AROUND. YUP.

[@keinfinitenature]

Something, Nothing, Everything - same same not different…

[@raygman899]

Your last goodbye? But I just GOT here!! I have loved what you have to share here, and I get it. More to follow...

[@hempfu]

before the video started I was going to write that the grave yard background is interesting to remind the seeking body minds about their mortality and so eventually make a selection about what questions are significant on their traveling journey , like some monks meditate in front of death bodies ( by the way , coincidences doesn't really exist ) .

[@david.s.5336]

I really like how you gave the answer right at the beginning...why you are at the cemetery...because then people don't ask themselves that anymore...and if the question that doesn't busy them, doesn't busy them anymore, they can they might better listen to it...

[@Emmiiii267]

Idk why but your videos bring me both peace but sometimes they also cause Me anxiety and make me dissociate 😅 idk why

[@0000song0000]

Nothing is created nor distroyed, just transformed.

[@DjNude2010]

It's like I'm psychic because I just started watching your videos , from the algorithm, they just popped up on my page. And right before I clicked on this one I thought "why does she record these in a cemetery". And then you answered that exact question that I had in mind. How does that happen? It's like I can foretell what's going o to happen next. hahaha.

[@skyolson3905]

Yes, there really is no edge. Ego: expand and diffuse

[@hickoryklabautermann3376]

Please write a book about your insights, you could reach so many more people 🙏 Anyway, thanks for your great videos; you were such a big help for me in the past week alone

[@apl0782]

Yes, I was listening to the helicopter too, hehe So much for the quiet cemetary

[@highlanderes]

Yes. Nothing is actually dying. Nothing of value is lost. Is what I experience.

[@premganga8822]

🌷

[@superlightninX]

🕉️💜 SUZANNE 💜🕉️ I think you should be writing a series of books ☯️ Even though I only comprehend half of what you always say!😁...but still I'm always left pondering with your added knowledge. 💜 Much Love 💜 🧿 ☯️ Christopher ☯️

[@bw5970]

The cemetery explanation reminds me of the movie Amadeus when Mozart explains why Figaro is kneeling in the opening of the opera. Also, someone wrote on a forum 'I pitied myself for having no shoes until i met someone with no feet.' And the next person replied 'because he gave you his shoes?" lol Presumed 'spiritual' meaning supplanted by pragmatic.

[@rosa-boom-nonduality]

💗

[@fashionvision6644]

Same here, consciousness is the projector of all the realms(realities) as an individual in order to see experience itself throught itself, and when the ego or the mind(ego-mind-person-individual) through self knowledge(enquiry) get exposed that is thought-based concept and it was just and identification with the senses the mind was playing a game on your consciousness. After the real realization to this (Note: this is not a thing to be taken or placed nor anything just to be readen and gained it is just to be realized on all levels of being!) then the consciousness shifts on another perspective or say it realm(way of seeing things) it starts vibrating at higher frequency and then voala Who You Are Now!?

[@callileighkramer]

🙏🙏🙏

[@DONTHAWONN]

💛💛💛

[@zResetify]

A cemetery even though it does reference death which is what alot of people first reference(which is not a bad thing) does show how our minds find foucs on some form of negative connotations, I try to think of it as a place with history like as similar to any war memorial, there are hidden stories that have passed on as they will live with some of the living but some will be lost to time, so out of respect I prefer to see it as a book unreadable or or unknowable even if you wanted to know. When I started to think of it this way I have never seen a cemetery the same. And every time it reminds me to constantly try to be aware of how I think.

[@brandontalks]

I have a strong feeling you've definitely spent some time listening to or reading Mooji or his teacher Papaji.

[@Inquiring_Together]

Whats left is everything.

[@hempfu]

the parents are closer than close .

[@UNKUHNOODLES]

For a moment I thought you were gonna play " last goodbye" by Jeff Buckley!!!😜😜😜🍯

[@robertlittleford4617]

💫💙💫

[@alisonwalker7372]

And thank you for the little giggle, and I kind of sad way I’m like the helicopter overwhelming peoples nervous system’s because I’m pretty excitable, And thanks for the reminder with all these videos the way the million helicopters in my head keeps me disconnected from a deeper intelligence of life flowing through me. Make that helicopter soup with some lemonade 😂🎉❤❤❤❤

[@relaxtoclassics5630]

😂

[@skyolson3905]

Near the end, you said something really intriguing: "to a large extent, they (other ppl) are allowed to be as they are." I'd like to know more about that extent; where are the pragmatic limits for yourself as a pure engine of awareness, temporarily ensconced in the physical realm? How much free will do you ascribe to others, and how much is of their behavior is essentially automated, from your vantage? I understand actions are different now vs. the 'Suzanne' of old. I would love to know how you manage your potential for actions of love. In other words, what's it like having truly free free-will? Thank you!

[@WinstonSmithsBrain]

"I film here because it's quiet" Send in the chopper!

[@alxartzen]

The social structure is like a prison system, with painted steps to follow, a programming to follow, that structure is the one size fits all model Now look at the word depression it mirrors the social structure everywhere you turn you run into the structure or it simply presses down on your humanity

[@macaroon147]

I've been feeling thus mourning starting ever so slightly for my relationship with my wife. It has me hesitant because if awaking means causing pain to her or our relationship I would rather not.

[@Ryan_Powers25]

Happy New Year. All of us have these deep philosophical thoughts. We all try to work through our issues. At the end of the day, finding some deeper purpose is the only cure. Having some close friends you can trust can help. Travel to some exotic places, do Ayahuasca, anything that lets you be free. Don't harm yourself. Just enjoy your time here because it's precious.

[@Katakagara]

Helikopter…Helikopter 🎶 Reminds me of that song.

[@Katakagara]

May your new year be nothing! ❤

[@Katakagara]

I recently found your videos and well, I listened. ❤

[@67NewEngland]

As the video started and I waited for you to talk I was literally thinking, why does she always film in a cemetery. 😁

[@LukasFliper]

om mani padme hum

[@Genjiislive]

I feel like i would talk to you for years also remain quiet for the eternity. Strange

[@w0rloko]

lol yes

[@pingas469]

Okay, i was really dumb with my earlier comments. I finally emotionally processed the messages in these videos, whereas previously i was trying to cognitively process them. I think this is just one of many ways of coping with trauma. There may be a material reality beyond this, but this framework sadly makes too much sense. The true uncanny nature of trauma is that of moral abstraction; a grey area. When there is truly no distinction between good and bad, it can drive one to insanity. If a person experiences this, they will unknowingly repeat the pattern until they become aware of the pattern, or go insane/kill themselves. (That's just my interpretation)

[@justgivemeanumber8215]

There is the reality. It's not that there's no self... since something is experiencing reality. The reality is experiencing reality, whole as part. There is free will, because you are reality -- not a part, not nothing -- so there is nothing external to constrain your will. I.e. as reality, you are not conditioned, because anything that could condition reality would be larger than reality... and nothing can be larger than reality. That's my take.

[@NormanBateson]

Thank you for apparently exist.

[@shawn6306]

The only thing i do agree you said these words we speak that we made up i also think it's made up too and i also resonate most that say death is an illusion we can't not actually die that we are not actually the body and i do agree this was always compete that love just is that we never really die that born and die is an illusion i do resonate that it just is that we are allow to be as we are i also think that's freedom to me too

[@rationalmystic5]

The helicopter pilots heard you say that it's quieter in the cemetery than the park. Yay it's all one .

[@david.s.5336]

That moment when the helicopter comes.. and she went to a quiet, beautiful place hehe...because it's quiet hehe...