My life is falling apart and I don't see the point anymore

[@sher0712]

You don’t need to “snap” out of anything, when you go through a kundalini awakening it will push everything repressed up to the surface that is NOT in alignment with who you truly are in order to completely remove it out of your life. It’s overwhelming, be gentle with yourself and with your body. And most importantly be in the right environment where you feel heard and supported. As you have a lot of energy going through your body it’s important to take some time everyday to isolate for a bit and sit out in nature, vent to the trees. Nature truly heals. There is nothing wrong with you, you are going through a huge shift on a mind, body and soul level. As an empath myself and being surrounded by narcissistic family members that are out of alignment with who I am… they made me question myself every single day, I realized that I’m not the problem but by accepting this treatment for myself I am allowing the problem to persist in my life. It’s important to know when to let go. Everything that you’re feeling it’s literally being purged so even though it doesn’t feel like you’re progressing, you’re doing AMAZING. This stage does not last forever, I promise. When you go through this awakening you are literally morphing from a caterpillar to a butterfly, which means this transitional period is extremely vulnerable for you and needs to be nurtured accordingly in the right environment. It’s time to re-evaluate your environment if it’s not supportive and peaceful it needs to go. The moment you take accountability for your life and start to choose yourself (this means letting go what no longer serves you) you will feel and see the changes. In regard to money, I completely understand feeling the helplessness. This is a program taught in our childhood from seeing our parent struggle and having that scarcity mindset regurgitated to us. Be aware of that, heal that inner child wound and reprogram your belief systems (Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself by Dr Joe Dispenza is an amazing book to do this, you can also listen to the audiobook if that’s better for you). And find a community where you feel align to in person and/or online (or create one). Look on FB, TikTok, other KZbinrs sharing their kundalini stories and see who makes you feel empowered, expansive and at peace (that is in indication that what they are saying and embodying aligns with you on a soul level) and reach out to them or join their community. One lady on TikTok who is a guide that I resonate the most with is “TheYeshuani” her videos bring me such a peace of mind, self-empowerment, and a feeling of “I’m not alone”. She doesn’t have to resonate for you as each person is uniquely different, you can keep looking for other people that resonate more with you but overall, I hope this gives you some direction and clarity. Think about what excites you without money in the picture, if your heart calls you to it WRITE THAT BOOK, START THAT PODCAST. Use ChatGPT and ask it to help you on writing a book and starting a podcast, it is THE biggest helper. I hope this helps. Trust in yourself, I know you got this. 🤍

[@Authentic_Courtney]

I'm crying as I read this. Thank you so much for sending me this message and energy. I'm still processing it. I'll have more to say later ❤ But wanted to let you know it's exactly what I needed. Thank you.

[@HearGear]

First of all, there is quite a lot of emotions here, feelings, thoughts, which is a good thing because its a living truth that you are alive, in my belief if you take your self out, you will be in an even worse place as a dead person compared to what you are right now, so please, don't do that. Focus on being by your self only, and try to find tools to manage every day, write down all your thoughts, I know you said that you recorded your whole life the past 2.5 years, but you need another form than videos if you want to write a book, so write on a computer is the best. You are on a mission here on earth just like me and everyone else. You have a quite a story to tell, you just need the tools to get it started. You can write a book in any way you want, as long as you get what you want to write about down and ready for printing. Everything cost money, it seems like you almost could just rent a house for that kinda money you have to pay now for everything, you would get more space and a *better* long term home. Podcast is also something that many people do nowadays, you can also do it, as long as you have topics that is interesting and get the episodes out on the platforms. Please, try to focus now, if you choose to leave this life behind and go to the other side, it's going to be a living hell, well, a living dead hell that you can never escape from. Please.. choose life, the living life.. I´ll check up on you in the next video... :D

[@Authentic_Courtney]

@@HearGear thank you for the love. I'm going to reread this several times. I appreciate it ♥️

[@martymeyer9688]

I have thought about this video often over the last week or so. I really hope you are feeling better and hope you are back on a road to happiness. I'm sure I'm not the only one.

[@Authentic_Courtney]

Thanks for reaching out. I'm doing better. It's hard to explain, but I think everything I'm going through is supposed to happen. It's all lessons I get to grow from. At least that's what I tell myself. i appreciate you. ❤

[@martymeyer9688]

Same here. I'm very happy to hear you are doing better.

[@iamjacque254]

May God see you through Keep the faith Wish you well mama 🫂❤❤ New subscriber 🎉 Stay connected 😊

[@Authentic_Courtney]

Thank you so much. I'm shifting my perspective ❤

[@cemanuelhead]

Choose life … There are a host of people on TikTok growing a following and monetizing their content. And some of those people are seriously scatter brained. There’s always someone who knows what’s best for you. Call home, talk to your mom; Call your stepdad … just to talk. They know you better than any of us out here. Don’t look back because you’re not going that way. Autumn is here, the bugs will die off … sit outside and tell your daily story into the phone and hit the post button. It doesn’t have to be perfect. 60seconds at a time and put it into the universe. Your audience will find you. 🖕🏼Steve and people like him. If I had anything to say that would help I’d do it. I’m not even sure I’m running my own life. So I know I’m not qualified to run anyone else’s. Try hard not to beat yourself up.

[@HearGear]

Hi, are you ok ?

[@BeastiezCyZ]

While the other comment is taking a more sentimental and emotional approach, which I agree with. I would like to say something a little more realistic and truthful. A book and podcast are things that will have to put on the shelf as you are not in the position to write or speak about anything. You're broke, homeless, and heartbroken. The first thing you will need (keyword: need not want) is to find a stable income like a minimum wage job to give yourself that kickstart you've been asking for. This means working a low-collar job like a cashier, waiter, or anything similar until you create that foundation. Also to tell you the truth which even the other commenter mentioned, "Everyone has a podcast" and EVERYONE has a story. You do have a story, but what makes it so different than all the other stories out there? This is what makes a book/podcast unstable/uncertain. There's countless of ex-escorts that have the same story as you, why would anyone listen to yours? So while it's nice that is your dream/purpose, you need to have the means to make that purpose reality or its all fantasy.

[@Authentic_Courtney]

lol. I'm a whole lot more than just an ex escort. that's not my story, it was just a chapter. I'm not like everyone. I had a spontaneous Kundalini Awakening and recorded all of it. I know that means nothing to you, but you aren't my audience if you think I'm just an ex escort.