My Mormon Story-A Perspective Change

I wanted to share this story but with a twist… not actually mentioning the Mormon church at all. This is how it felt.
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[@sachamo100]

Lex, I just left the Church last year. I was converted 42 years ago, married in the temple, raised our kids in the church, paid hundreds of thousands of dollars in Tithing, and now I know it was a lie! I share your pain!❤️

[@caitlincoraz7935]

I also just left the church. I was converted at 19 and was a member for almost 17 years. I honestly never could have imagined ed feeling deceived on this level.

[@ricktompson9453]

Giving 10%. Was the most important part!

[@caitlincoraz7935]

@@ricktompson9453 yep! Remember, that’s the part they told you “ the windows of Heaven will open.” It’s the only thing in the church they said was GUARANTEED to bring blessings and that it was the one time you were allowed to “test” God to see if he would. I think that tells us everything we need to know about priorities in the church.

[@garyslabaugh1863]

I converted in 1980 and thankfully went “inactive” fifteen years later.

[@n5sdm]

Protect this woman and her family.

[@mylesmarkson1686]

Will do!

[@jasonshults368]

From whom?

[@stormthrush37]

"Why are you obsessed?" "Why did you take over my life down to the smallest of details, my family's life, my extended family's life, tell us we'd suffer in eternal torment and then get mad when I tried to talk about it???"

[@QuinnPrice]

It's nearly impossible for fish to understand the water they're swimming in until they jump out of the water. I was ina Bishopric when I started studying coercive influence. Yikes, I started to see so much manipulation in how we recruit, making kids "bear their testimony" when they don't have a clue what they're saying, etc... That opened me up to studying truth claims. Yikes. It was even more cult-like when they tried to retain me. Fear, accusation and attempts at guilt were plentiful. I haven't regretted the decision to leave in spite of so much mud-slinging. Applause for the work you do on KZbin.

[@catlovesthemoon]

Being “coerced” to bear my testimony at youth conference at age 14 is what made me rebel and quit the church. I got up and said, I don’t have a testimony, and I burst into tears and ran out of the room. I was shunned by the others. When I got back home I went to church one more time, and I walked out in the middle of sacrament meeting. I had to fight against my parents to be allowed to quit going. And I left home 2 years later. I’m still treated as less than by my parents in comparison to by siblings. They stopped buying my clothing. Refused to pay for my college. Etc… It’s sad for me to watch my parents in the trap of the cult, not fully living in my opinion. I like your point of a fish not understanding the water. Great analogy. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@kayw4bros]

This made me cry because it’s really all of our exmo stories in one way or another. Thank you for putting this out there. I really needed the hope that it brings

[@user-gu4jh9is4i]

The signs you mentioned in this short which are glaringly obvious from the view of someone looking in from the outside that the “church” is a very unhealthy, manipulative organization, is totally unnoticed by the people who have been raised being programmed to believe in its lies. I am certain so many have benefited from your willingness to share your story. And I am quite confident many more will be grateful for your honesty and compassion to help others who are desperately seeking others who are deconstructing their once held beliefs. Keep doing what you’re doing! You’re doing great!!

[@jenniferalvarez6658]

I agree by someone who grew up in Utah but not lds

[@bruscifer]

Well said Exmo! It's hard to believe that we believed this crap once. Isn't it? 😒 Don't worry, you have a lot of family here with you. Maybe not by blood, but by heart and experience.

[@momintheshoe4278]

This is one of your best videos

[@user-gu4jh9is4i]

I agree!

[@denisekeeran9883]

You are a treasure, Lex! So well expressed

[@ricktompson9453]

Mentioning 10% was the most important part.

[@briankelly8848]

Wow very powerful, I spent the first twenty seven years of my life in the church, I am now seventy years old , the last ten years I was in the church, I saw more corruption , in church than I did in the rest of the world. I was depressed and had suicidal thoughts for last twelve years in the church. When my wife and I married, in the temple, the members said, wouldn’t it be nice if you died in a car accident coming home, you’d go straight to heaven!! I never returned to church, but it haunted me for another fourty three years, life improved and we really started to enjoy life , but the church still haunted us. I now sit and watch you videos and realize that our decisions to leave this cult was in fact the right thing to do. You add clarity and meaning to our decisions. My wife and I both love your brave efforts to help those of us who bear this burden of nagging guilt. Over the years the church has only showed up to tell us than we can continue to pay money and thereby be eligible for heaven. All I can say is What a shitty way to live life in this cult and again thankyou for your heart felt efforts.

[@renaissanceofreason385]

Holy sh@$, that was amazing. You put into words so much of what I’ve felt and continue to feel, over the past 5 years. What kills me is how sincerely devastated my mother continues to be over my apostasy.

[@mylesmarkson1686]

Yeah, its like after all of the hard work that our parents did in raising us, and we still picked Satan's side. Now what? How do you salvage a relationship after that? I get so tired of Mormons saying "I don't see anything wrong The Church". Well, put yourself in the shoes of those of us who have left for once, and maybe you'll finally see the light. The Church isn't all rainbows and sunshine. That's just the fake persona that they put out there for everyone to see.

[@spoetrydude]

It isn't all rainbows and sunshine, and some of us HAVE looked at the Church in all its imperfection and still found cause to stay.

[@mylesmarkson1686]

@@spoetrydude Oh yeah, any church founded by one of the biggest con-men in history should make ANYONE find cause to stay. And polygamy? Sign me up!

[@GuyRegular]

@@renaissanceofreason385 maybe instead of apostasy you should call where you are enlightenment

[@hellonewman5855]

As someone who escaped the Baptist cult, I am whole heartedly with you. Please continue your excellent work.

[@paulbrungardt9823]

Baptist is not a cult---Mormonism is.

[@hellonewman5855]

@@paulbrungardt9823 As a pejorative expression for an authoritarian sect that eschews reason and science, as they tell children that they are in danger of being tortured for an eternity, "cult" is an appropriate term.

[@paulbrungardt9823]

@@hellonewman5855 I have been to Baptists churches--Never heard this--specifically black Baptist churches are about joy, redemption and good over evil.

[@daxleone]

Well done Lex!!! So very true!!! I WANT MY TITHING BACK!!!

[@MooseCracker]

This channel helps all of us who feel like we were raised backwards as some kind of joke, those of us who were raised in families that were hardcore, driven by both mormonism and narcissism to make it the perfect brainwashing trap... It helps us because when we see other mormons or exmos, who just didn't really take it that seriously and didn't understand that or why we took it to heart , trying so hard to be "perfect", or when we encounter others who assure us it's just a normal church , or worse people who try and friendship us back in from "inactivity" (self assured that we would only be non-mormon to drink, drug, smoke, and commit adultery... , even if we do none of those things)... we need to know that we aren't crazy and that others really have had the same types of experiences.

[@GuyRegular]

And all of this began because a New York con man claimed he was visited by an Angel

[@Sotelurian]

This made me tear up unexpectedly. I was not raised in the church, so I can't fathom the sense of betrayal you felt, but I can understand a part of your experience. I grew up around the church and often wished I could be a member and have the community and set boundaries and a clear path laid out. But as much as I long for the coziness that I see that members can feel, I cannot claim to believe in something that I don't, so I am on the outside with you.

[@carrot-cat1746]

Sums up the experience of losing your faith very well. It's a tumultuous time, but it's so nice to know both from you and from personal experience that things settle down eventually. Life goes on, and often it's better. Now if only I could beam my lived experience straight to my believeing family so that they could understand a little better. But they can't know what they don't know.

[@BrianWaller-qe7gr]

Well as a convert that was mid 40’s with no kids, very few dating prospects, and a shitty childhood. Threatening me with no eternal family isn’t a flex. The main reason why I left was I realized I wouldn’t get married in the temple, then getting the endowment was pointless, then what’s the point of being temple “worthy”, then realized no point on sitting in the pew by myself every Sunday with no hope of fitting in.

[@BrianWaller-qe7gr]

@@michaelnicholas5587 because nobody wanted me. Guess I wasn’t worthy even. Who knows but 9 different dating apps and two single wards I only managed 7 dates in 3 years being in Utah. 3 were non lds 4 were lds. Only one led to a second date.

[@BrianWaller-qe7gr]

@@michaelnicholas5587 but the church is pretty much centered around getting married and most events are catered to married couples. In fact you can’t even get into the bishopric unless you’re married. It was so bad for me my own missionary ghosted me once I got home. How Christ like of them. Whole thing was a bad experience. I became a nobody but a body in pew on sundays

[@BrianWaller-qe7gr]

@@michaelnicholas5587 I’ve always been physically undesirable to women. I’m liked by all the guys but it never translates to dating prospects. I’ve been rejected by overweight single mom sisters a ton. At this point I really don’t have any desire to continue the never ending dating cycle for me. I’ve just doing my own thing if I’m alone rest of my life that’s fine but if something happens somewhere along the line that’s fine too. Last lds women I dealt with never accepted my date then gave up then she texts me few months later only to stop talking to me again. Seriously wth is wrong with women. They act interested then reject you for the fun of it. Sorry I gave up on dating done with the nonsense. It’s a clown show in and outside the church.

[@krakenfan6818]

My thoughts... out of your mouth, ExmoLex. 😢 I do feel I obsessed. And hurt, and betrayed, and VERY angry that the church and its core is dishonest, manipulative, coercive, and definitely, not holy. The people are amazing and I am just brokenhearted that people are so blinded and they don't even WANT to see. So sad. Thank you for sharing your heart. It is my heart too, and I cry along with you.

[@chgeertsen]

@@michaelnicholas5587regardless in this life or “The Next” The teachings of the LDS church makes anyone who is not married feel incomplete where as in Christianity the person is complete in Christ alone. Marriage is definitely a blessing for many but it’s not the end all an be all like it is in Mormonism.

[@derekkerr6158]

Being able to strip guilt and shame out of my life has brought me happiness. Knowing that I was lied to my whole life by people I trusted hurt at first. But they were just as blind and conditioned as I was. Your videos have helped me personally to make sense of my life. I am so glad that there are people like you who are willing to share truths. We need more of it.

[@iheartcello0]

That was fucking amazing, thank you

[@vikkiledgard8483]

Yeah. I saw how much some of that hurt. 😢 I'm sorry you had to go through all that. But you're SO far from evil. You're one in a million. And most certainly one of the best good ones!! 👍🏻👏🏻♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@pneuma_23-rb4dx]

this sounds like a nightmare.....oh wait I've lived it ☹. I'm only just now deconstructing, thanks to people like you who bravely spread truth about this. It's hard to see outside of the world you grew up in. It's totally like the movie the matrix.

[@robynryan7473]

So much depth and truth and sincerity exmo. I came to your page early on to learn more about the beliefs of my uncle and cousins and now I am wholeheartedly dealing with my own trauma surrounding my experiences with a strict evangelical fundamental church. People say I was weak for staying so long or why did I allow myself to go through their rigors. They ultimately shut down the church sent church members away and I'm left with the mental, emotional, and spiritual scars in their wake. Exmo I literally can't thank you enough for enlightening me through your background. I am stronger now for leaving them and though it hurts with what they put me through I like you will be better in the end. You are amazing exmo!

[@mtbikingaddict]

Thank you Lexi for being our spokesperson for all us exmos who took the council of Russell and did not become a lazy learner

[@timnewman1172]

Bless you @Exmo Lex !!! You are truly living your best life, do not let ANYONE take that from you!

[@sethjarvis2604]

Beautifully said. Thank you.

[@BramptonAnglican]

Great channel. New subscriber here.

[@AlaineUnderhill]

I come from a pretty dysfunctional family so the idea of being stuck with these people for eternity was actually a nightmare. I lost all belief as a teenager, and stopped going to church as soon as I got out of my mother's house. A lot of my family want nothing to do with me. My brother told his kids I'm evil. His loss. I'm doing great. I suspect all the BS I was taught about Joseph Smith and then discovering that it was BS was a factor in getting my BA in history. It's just wild the lies and omissions of truth about this man that I was raised with!

[@mckhendry]

Great summation, thank you for giving a voice to and painting a picture of what has been so many of our shared experiences. The fact that we can all stand and say "yes, me too". Thank you for this! ❤️

[@GrizBear63]

I have never been a member. I live in a large Mormon community. My wife was a returned missionary. I find it very sad that when I would dare say most exmo's leave the church they have been so deceived that they stop believing in God at all. I have studied the LDS religion for 30 years. Now with the Chad, and Lori Dabell trials going on we can see the great harm that the Churches belief system can create. I understand why Lexi and so many others feel the way they do. I will pray for you all.

[@grantbeck9228]

I stopped believing in the church after listening to an interview with Grant Palmer. I started to do some reading and allowing myself to decide what I really think and it became so obvious the church was a fraud from the beginning and we have all been lied to. Then within about 2 hours of deep meditation I realized I have no reason to believe in god or Jesus or anything else. There might be a god but it certainly is nothing like the god I was taught in the church. That god doesn’t exist. I don’t think anybody knows the truth about god. I think it is dangerous to say you do and have anyone believe what you say. That’s crazy. So it leaves me Buddhism or atheism. Buddhists don’t care what you believe about god. It’s all about how you think and how you act. I have no belief in any holy book because I’ve had first hand experience with how easy it is to create a holy book and an entire religion based on devotion to the lies of one charismatic charlatan. Millions of people believe this garbage including my entire family on both sides and all but one of my siblings. It has impacted my life in a million awful ways, continues to this day, and always will. I am very skeptical of any new belief system that relies on the words of any person that says they know the truth. It’s unknowable. Anybody that says otherwise is selling you something

[@fal8712]

You perfectly capture what it feels when you know this isn't true

[@desiadaven]

Being lied to your whole life (which, to be clear, I don't think my parents/extended family/local members were lying...they were also deceived) and then coming to and literally having to reexamine yoir reality piece by piece is something you will never forget. And then you will want to help any others shake loose who can do so.

[@selforestgrove]

*slow clap* This is amazing poem and exactly the way I've felt for the past 12 years. Thank you

[@I_am_Irisarc]

I'm sorry you had to experience all those bad things. However, I am so, so happy that you got out. I'm so glad that you are working your way to a happy life despite what you've been through. Good luck, Lexi. May you continue to have good things come your way as you leave behind all the bad ones.

[@jod4771]

I felt so alone until I watched your video. Thank you from my tears to yours. I still don’t have the courage to tell anyone in the church though. But I’m beginning to feel less alone when I read these comments.

[@Toothnut_Hamsterfolder]

Thank you Lexi! This was great!! ❤

[@makesen]

Lex, thank you for this creative and powerful way of telling your story. Your story is my story, too. Just this week watching Mormonish, I marveled at the deception the church practices in several of the new temple projects paying bribes to officials through their lawyers; manipulating laws through unethical means, etc. It made me so disappointed once again how un-Christ-like the church and its leaders operate. So glad at 68 that I discovered these things and pierced the bubble more than a decade ago. Wish my lovely wife will join me some day …..

[@daemon9737]

This is fantastic Lex!!! Over 50 years living the lie you described perfectly. Hmmmm, can't understand why I am so ticked!! Keep up the great work!!!!!!!!!!

[@lynnettebird1600]

Thank you for talking about this type of thing. I'm not exmo. I was raised in an agnostic, incredibly open-minded family that let me choose to believe what I wanted and would debate the existence of deities in a very logical way. My husband, however, is currently on his exmo path of discovery and he has shared a number of your videos with me to try to help me understand what's going on in his head. I appreciate your candidness. He doesn't know anyone else personally in our area that is going through this or has gone through it, so your videos help him feel less alone. ❤

[@elizabethhill7901]

Ugh this is so real.

[@Cor6196]

The most powerful video I think you've ever made. Every word is a pearl, including "a" and "the" - the REAL Pearls of Great Price, each one gleaming with Truth. You are worthy of such thanks! ❤😊🎉

[@kentjohnson9195]

Excellent presentation! My wife and I are deconstructing. Your vidios are a great help in our journey. Keep up the good work. We love you and your family.

[@user-zu8vu1gl6f]

HOLY SPIT WADS!!!! This is sooooooooo true! 💯

[@kamisakura568]

Thanks for sharing your story Lex. I have a religion, but I can understand how harmful your experience was. So I can just wish for your healing and happiness without judgement. May you be well and happy, may all beings be well and happy.

[@EAdano77]

Your bravery and perspective are deeply appreciated. I hope one day I can express these kinds of feelings openly to my JW parents. I'm lucky to still have them in my life, but we just avoid talking about religion and especially about the psychological impact wrought by how they raised my sister and me.

[@allreddesign]

53 years in the church....you just describe my hell (in the church). I have never felt so much peace since I left. Thank you for your content...it's what helped me process the trauma...and yes there is trauma going through this. And the pain we feel knowing what those that stay think about us is sometimes unbearable.

[@knparker8]

It is painful but I am glad to know the truth and it has been worth it. I feel more connected to other people than ever before. I wish I had never joined but I cannot change that. I really hope my family that still believes will come to know the truth and be free. Thanks for your thoughts.

[@annehersey9895]

Lexi, I must h😢missed this a month ago! You look absolutely lovely with straight hair and just minimal eye make-up. I love your videos and especially because you don’t preach but make your points only from personal experiences and the words directly from the church itself! Way to go girl!

[@emilysnow6757]

Wow. Powerful.

[@user-hs7np1ob6u]

Wow, so on point! I cried with you. Only people who have truly believed then left will understand how hard and painful it is to learn the truth.

[@RogerGarvin]

❤ 👏👏👏 Well said! Congratulations.

[@FATMEESTER]

I wish I could share this with people without ruining my relationships

[@egernyr]

You described it so incredibly well. I'll need to save this for when I just don't have the words to say what it was like for me, because it describes my experience almost perfectly. Thank you.

[@carmenc6534]

You understand me so clearly. Thank you for making me feel understood in a way that no one around me does.

[@user-mh3tt1nn8c]

It took me 67 years to have my questions open up a Big Rabbit Hole and doing my research and watching Mormon Stories and getting truth from Church History !!! I left and had my B name removed at B the age of 84 years old ❤

[@noahchow223]

A real ❤ appreciation for your content🎉

[@emilysnow6757]

I just listened to this for a second time. It was even more beautiful the second time.

[@mylesmarkson1686]

It needs to be broadcast on the next General Conference.

[@Kalli769]

So beautifully said! ❤.

[@ninaschust3694]

Thank you for this perspective. It's awful 😢.

[@dhwantsyou]

You are very expressive and well-spoken. I spent about 20 years in the church, served most of a mission (health issues forced me to voluntarily leave), and even spent a year at BYU (before my mission - had to be 19 way back then). It was the experience on my mission, and how I was treated upon returning ("dishonorably") that pushed me away (this was 30+ years ago). BYU didn't want me back because I "left my mission early" and basically, I became a bit of an outcast. My family moved to a different state shortly after that and not going to church was easy. My parents did eventually go back, but I moved on. Looking back, many of my friends of that age have also left. I definitely get the sorrow of leaving friends behind because of the stigma that goes with leaving. I know one of my old friends, no matter how much I've pleaded with both his mom and his sister, just won't get in touch with me, and I really think it's because he feels shame from leaving (and not following the ridiculous rules). Now that I'm in my mid-50s, I'm happier than I've ever been (and yes, I am very active in a different church, and even help with teaching those who are coming into that church). Thanks for having a voice of reason for what Mormonism actually is (I don't like to call it a church anymore).

[@josephmcc2409]

Thanks for sharing lex. I think it's important to note that while it may have started out as a lie (intentional deception) that many people now are just misinformed (unintentional deception). I like how you used the word "fake" because it brings into perspective the realization from a place of sincerity.

[@vokkera6995]

I remember when I became an atheist. I was a Protestant, and was in a relationship with another, and she slowly slid into Baptist zealotry, while I slowly pulled my beliefs apart, getting tired of believing in evidence and reason for forming the basis of a claim while constantly making exceptions for my religion. While I was deployed in the Middle East, that person I was in a relationship with met someone else and confided in him, and he persuaded her that I don’t have a soul, since I had become an atheist (seriously), and that the right thing to do would be to start a relationship with him. Suffering that abuse, justified with Christianity, tore me to shreds and it took years to find myself, having lost love, community, friends, and family all in one hit. Hearing other people that grew from similar experiences is soothing, even after 10 years.

[@trilithon108]

You ran down the whole process down, from start to finish. 😢 😊

[@marthell6159]

It’s odd that a cult that dominates the lives of its victims calls those who are brave enough to talk about breaking free “obsessed.” The truth is that your coming out stories scares them because it validates others who are having a faith crisis. You’re doing good work!

[@CHEVYedsf]

Thank you, Lex. Thank you for this SO much. 🥺😔🥹

[@stephenbethell9176]

Lexi I love you( in a non sexual way , of course)

[@China-Clay]

Of course 😂😂

[@paulbrungardt9823]

Lex, I also love you--But in a sexual way---

[@lauraa7387]

Beautifully said. Every word. ❤

[@alphanumericskeptic]

Be strong Lex. You're a brave woman, mother, and wife. And you ARE doing REAL good in the world.

[@chrisannear9579]

A clear and concise description of the church. Your video's are excellent.

[@sarahpinho1114]

This was very powerful

[@jurekz]

Escaping a cult is never easy, especially when your family and friends are a part of it. But we have to be true to what we know. Hugs to you! And thank you fotr your content!

[@kirkoman7242]

It's all a false teaching. Live your life. The joke is on the mormons. They just don't know.

[@drclarkelkins]

Yes, it's difficult to leave the church! But, I never said it would be easy. I only said it would be worth it to leave the church!

[@mtbikingaddict]

You my darlin have alot of courage to put up with all the sheep out there they blindly follow something they never even stop and think about the validity of what they are being fed. You're a strong lady who can put up with them

[@SJ-um2ym]

I have so much empathy for you girl. I was raised JW and we were taught the same thing. I was taught my curiosity and intelligence were Satan making me question the faith. Heck, I was taught that the freaking Smurfs were demons. Thanks for the nightmares at 5 of Smurfs eating me! When I was in elementary school and not allowed to be friends with “worldly” kids, my secret friend was an adorable Mormon girl !named Rachel. We both were taught such similar bs that we bonded. We both didn’t understand why and how the other could be evil. Her friendship helped me see the first lie. I hope mine did the same for her. I hope she’s thriving right now, as you are. Much love!

[@IGaveUpEternalLifeForCoffee]

Thank you. ❤

[@adiospobreza]

You shared a very good point: how passive abusive is the church with little children! Then they have songs and hymns: Teach me all that I MUST DO to be with him some day. Little children! And, the Tabernacle choir!!!! You inspired me to share my testimony in one of the MoTab videos. Here it is, sharing it with you: We listen to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir, and so many times we are brought to tears! We are moved by the beauty of their voices and organs and solemn assembiles. Do you experience the same? Now then, Can you imagine how glorious it would be IF every believer out there: 1. surrendered their desire for worldly possessions and positions of posture and of power and titles and accolades? 2. Then, begin at every corner of their very neighborhoods, turn each of their abodes, yes, each of their houses from: A. NO TRESSPASSING B. BATHROOM ACCESS DENIED. C. CELL PHONE CHARGING ACCESS DENIED D. SLEEPING IN MY STREET, OR MY PARK, OR MY YARD ABSOLUTELY DENIED to: 1. Homeless? Poor? How dare I, a Christian, fail to see you as my personal DNA family as you truly, TRULY are, and fail and deny you my sharing of blessings with you, even until end of days? HOW DARE YOU, hypocrites, sing praises to God, with much effort, only to pedestalize yourself above others, even in your heart, while denying the Christ and his APOCALYPSE warning to you, as expressly given by the Savior himself, not by some apostle, neither prophet nor any flesh and blood, but by JESUS himself in: MATTHEW 25: verses 31 to 46? All your tithes, and temple recommends and worthiness interviews and rites and obedience to the fallen church, IT IS FALLEN!, none of that will matter, not even one tiny amount, for you have denied the Christ, as the ZORAMITES, building yourselves temples and precious buildings WHILE GRINDING THE FACE OF THE POOR! How dare you allow a man to deceive you, even Brigham Young, unto the twisting of the words of Joseph Smith to his liking, and all prophets and leaders since, following suit, whom not one of them saw nor was set apart, ever, by Heavenly Father, neither by Jesus Christ? You may continue to wear the emblems of your priesthoods, and you are certainly selling religion for money, so that not one soul shall be lost, placing heavy yokes on the poor and the needy and the true saints that blindly follow you, believing you are the 'restored' church, which you have not been since the murder of Joseph Smith and Hyrum Smith. Priesthoods which ye have none, and the Lord made it so you would lose it in 1887 through the dissolution of the church by the United States Government in 1887, via the Edmunds-Tucker Act, which you hide from your members, and since over 95 percent of the members, even then, were illiterate, knew NOT the church ceased to exist, hence AMEN to the priesthoods altogether. You also fail to inform YOUR members that the TRUE founder of your 1923 church is none other than Heber J Grant, whom you call prophet, seer, and revelator, who not once saw God the Father, neither Jesus Christ, but it was through the add-on of the word of wisdom as a requirement to possess a temple recommend that gained favors with the United States to allow the church to RE-INCORPORATE, yes, these ARE the secret combinations the Book of Mormon condemns, which you have become masters of, even through all your meetings in secret, to punish or pedestalize others, even unto positions of power and favors, all which is contrary to the words and teachings of Christ. Your 'restored' church is fallen, and fell since the murder of Jesus Christ. You sell the Book of Mormon, which you use as a bait and switch to trick others unto believing that the 'church' is also true today, it is NOT. You even TEACH YOUR YOUNGEST to bear false witness, each and every single fast and testimony meeting Sunday worldwide, enabling parents to whisper to these poor innocent children, to repeat the words of their parents, thus causing the youth to bear false witness, which sin is grievous to the Lord, yet he suffereth this to continue to be, unto your condemnation. Fallen, fallen indeed, enriching yourselves and electing your leaders because they have positions of success, after the manner of the world. I wish it wasn't so, but let those who have ears to hear, and eyes to see, so they may study the Book of Mormon independent from your controls, so that they may see your darkness, and call you to repentance. The Lord will continue to allow you to swell yourselves in the pride and ego that is set in your hearts, pretending to be blessed above others on earth, when these blessings actually came from the opponent, from the one that deceives, even the very elect, how? "What is it you want?" "You want religion, do you? I sell religion for money!" Zero transparency with the moneys that are given to you by those who sincerely seek the Lord, who know nothing of your secret combinations. I testify of the truthfulness of the above, in the sacred name of the resurrected Savior, even Jesus Christ, Amen!

[@TallKulWmn1]

❤️‍🩹 Lex, my heart breaks for you. I’m an exjw. It is exactly as you described. I hope your journey gets easier as more & more escape the evils of the cult world. I pray your friends & family wake up 🫶

[@wolkewolke7704]

I was born as LDS in Austria, had to leave after 63 years ... just couldn´t stay any longer. I feel sorry for all the good people there beeing deceived

[@alphanumericskeptic]

And as the lyrics in DIO's song titled: All the Fools Sailed Away - "I never fail to be astounded by the things we'll do for promises and a song"

[@paulbrungardt9823]

Glad I am a Christian. Christ paid the price for my sins; Now I am free to enjoy life and do charitable acts out of love for my fellow man.

[@paulbrungardt9823]

@@saintnash1 You aren't a Saint-- You don't need to be a servant to this cult for salvation.

[@johnnolen8338]

There's a quote from Thomas Paine that I love: If I do not believe as you believe then that means you do not believe as I believe, and that is all that it means.

[@deedeearias9906]

YET ANOTHER STELLAR SPOT ON COMMENTARY!!! U LOOK so pretty and Angelic, btw. Stay strong, darling🙏💐🌠✌️💯

[@annaenglish3269]

Was anyone else out there taught that if you went to the Celestial kingdom, you would be able to visit the "lower" kingdoms, but that you wouldn't want to because the Celestial kingdom was so wonderful you'd never want to leave? As a child raised in a mixed faith home, that used to really bother me, that you would achieve this thing so glorious you wouldn't want to leave to visit people who you love who were in the "lower" kingdoms. There are 5 kids in my family. Four of us have left. And I know that breaks my mom's heart, and I know it must be heartbreaking also to believe that she will spend eternity without my dad because according to the church, if you have the chance to join the church in this life and you don't, you won't accept it in the next life. It makes me so angry that a church that claims to be all about the importance of family has these really divisive doctrines that do nothing but hurt people.

[@codeman966]

That's Christianity in general.

[@minaguta4147]

Just because the Bible implies incest is okay doesn't mean you should keep sleeping with your mom.

[@alfredoalvarez1510]

I am so very sorry! I can feel how that hurts. I am very very sorry! You are a wonderful human being! I instead, I am full of rage and feel tricked to believe all that bullshit!

[@boysrus61]

That was really well said.

[@karlelston8499]

Well said Lex, spot on

[@katem6673]

Very well done.

[@hilandmalt]

I tried voicing my opinions about the church to my Mormon mom, and she says so what would me like to do? Just stop believing? Just change my beliefs? That is literally the job of missionaries. Lol.

[@trsnomis6471]

She states it pretty well. People who are self critical live in a state of constant condemnation and the church has successfully imprisoned your mind your heart your life.

[@48dirtfarmer]

I never read the Book of Mormon...because I didn't want to. And I never paid a cent in tithing either...because I never thought the church was worthy of getting my money....I never had a second of guilt either. I played the game until I was 21....

[@48dirtfarmer]

Thankfully my parents...dad on high council and mom, ward RSP respected my decisions

[@georgewoodland1766]

This was a great perspective on just how the Mormon doctrine keeps their followers in place by promising better things to come.

[@timothymulholland7905]

Keep the faith! You're doing great!

[@jackieburelison5546]

Well said.

[@caseyjude5472]

❤

[@aBrewster29]

Man, as an active believer (very nuanced) I tend to take for granted my scientific upbringing. Studying physics, biology, calculus, etc was such a mitigating force against religious extremism. I needed a video like this to remind me of a different experience. The betrayal affects everyone but some were set up to fall further. :( Edit to added: I don’t see you as evil, Lex! I’m sorry for those who do. Truth is multifaceted and worth every word of well-intentioned disagreement. It’s sad that those whose heart is in the right place can end up on opposite sides of a divide while being grouped with those whose intentions are not good. I’ve seen it on both sides.

[@ricktompson9453]

Titling 10% comment. That really hurt the church the most!

[@thethirtythree482]

Amazing video

[@thepiratemongoose8965]

"It's a gift, but if you don't give it back I'm going to punish you forever." Then it's not a gift.