My Postpartum Depression Living Abroad in Germany

[@mahll222]

Hi Katie. Many many thanks for sharing this invaluable experience being a new mom. I totally felt how tough it was overcoming all the fear, insecurities and loneliness that was once felt by myself too. I pray for you always that you'll be fine soon. Have faith in God that all these will pass too. I strongly BELIEVE in you. You're such an amazing, caring and dedicated wife and mom. I have personally learnt so much from all 'the Wengers' videos. Those sweet smiling face of Linnea and Callum's face and yours too; really brighten a gloomy days. It was very much appreciated. Keep up the great work, Katie. Love you all. Cheers 😉💞

[@valaurica4590]

I'm so excited you started your own channel. I'm nowhere near ready to have children, but your story and the feelings that you described overwhelmed me so much with emotions. Thank you for sharing, because despite not everyone being or planning to be pregnant everyone can have a very low point in their life and your words inspire to keep going, so thank you. All the best for your new channel adventure!

[@fraukatiewenger7619]

This means so much to me. Truly. As with anything in life, you just have to keep going to get through it.

[@rachelhawkinsbaker1603]

Rights around minute 20 I really lost it. It was all do familiar and so painful. I remember looking at pictures I’d taken during the day and being so mad at myself for my inability to be emotionally present. I thought it was just me. I’m really grateful for you and really proud of this new channel.

[@fraukatiewenger7619]

It's such a dangerous cycle emotionally. You already feel low, and then you feel low for feeling low which perpetuates the feelings of not being "enough." You are definitely NOT alone. I am so proud of you. You are such an amazing mother!!!

[@joy927]

Thank you for sharing your Story. 2 years on and your video is encouraging so many other women. You are an incredibly strong Woman. Thank you🌸🌼🌹

[@AfroAmericaninAfrica]

Wow thank you so much for this. This was excellent and so well explained. I am American too and can relate to pretty much all of this as a first time mother living abroad in Namibia (which has a strong tie to Germany by the way). I went through post partum depression here and could identify with so much of what you said. From battling with doctors/nurses to the extreme loneliness and not feeling happy as a new mother abroad dealing with homesickness etc etc. My son is now four and while I want a second child I find I have anxiety about it because I don’t look forward to the idea of becoming a second time mother abroad. I only started seeing a therapist late last year and wish I had done it much earlier (For years I just assumed there wasn’t a good resource in the small Namibian town I live in.). I could go on and on forever about how much I relate to you but I’ll end by saying post partum depression and mother abroad can be such a difficult experience. I still find it extremely challenging... for example now that my son is four it’s challenges relating to my expectations of schools versus the reality of what’s available here and just the different culture toward children in school systems for example. It’s a lot. 🤦🏾‍♀️ Anyway, thanks so much for making this video. I also KZbin but have a hard time being this transparent as my followers may say I’m not appreciating my experience abroad in Africa. (I could also identify with you saying that editing videos was when you could be removed and appreciate everything more than when you were actually living it! So accurate!) It’s complicated. Alright I’m going to follow you on Instagram. It’s great to connect with another mother abroad who just gets it!

[@lissalack1490]

So, so sorry you went through this terrible time. I am sending you a big hug.

[@TheLadyChilli]

Well done for being so brave in sharing your story. I’ve watched your vlogs for a couple of years now and can honestly say you are an absolutely amazing mother and wife. I’m so sorry the system failed you when you needed them most and when you described vlogging for the first time and the connection you made watching the footage back, it really got me. I’m so proud of you Katie, you are so incredibly loved through the dark times and the good ❤️

[@tracymayertravel]

I am so happy that you made this video. I am very sorry you went through such a horrible time. I think making this is awesome and I hope it helps someone else. I am a long time sub as you know and I have wished we could meet for coffee or something similar and never more so than now. We have a lot in common. I also was very depressed after my 2nd adoption for reasons out of my control but I also internalized everything and blamed myself for things that I shouldn't have. I think living in a different culture is hard enough and then your first baby all the the differences well that is so hard. I am so glad you found You tube and were able to step back and see what a great Mom you are. All the best to you. Someday we will get that coffee. England, Germany in the US someplace. Much Love to you and yours Tracy Mayer on FB :)

[@fraukatiewenger7619]

To be honest, depression after adoption is something I hadn't thought of, but that makes total sense that it happens and deserves just as much attention! Life in a different culture escalates emotions in so many ways both good and bad. Everything feels like an extreme. I hope we can get coffee together someday! :)

[@tracymayertravel]

I hope we can too.

[@knotheadusc]

OMG... I so would have yelled back at that woman in the other bed. And at that doctor calling you fat and saying that was why you suffered from depression. That is just awful! Thank you for sharing your story. You are a brave and beautiful lady. I love watching your videos, especially since I live in Germany, too.

[@rhondamelancon1459]

I am so glad you have had this creative outlet to help you work through this tremendous struggle. So, so proud of all the work you've done to heal yourself, and truly proud of the young woman, wife and mom that you are. You're a GREAT daughter, too, and you really and truly mean the world to me. You're my heart.

[@rhondamelancon1459]

Oh, and while it was a few years ago and my memory is more foggy than it used to be, I remember that you were an awesome little girl, too.

[@fraukatiewenger7619]

Thanks, MAAAAAA!!!

[@Derokas]

Thank you ... thank you so much for this!

[@consciouscommunity3897]

Did a great job. I had PPD with both of my kids. Love to you xx