My Pride - ANYA (Original Song)

Lyrics:
I’m grateful that it went this way
Because you wouldn’t have left me, and I wouldn’t have tried
All my life would’ve kept on making excuses
You wouldn’t have spared me when you fell, and neither would my pride
Got no choice but to laugh at it from a distance
Can’t for the life of me find a crack to climb down that would make it make sense
Can only preempt apologies to future love interests
I don’t think I’ll ever again be a full person
Should’ve believed your own descriptions
Of your cowardly prescriptions
Make room for the next instalment
Of the girl you plan to torture me with
You didn’t fall for me you fell for my pride
And now to let go of you I have to let it slide
Did she know she was just a cheap thrill
For your sado-masochistic bullshit?
Why pick me, to be your black pill?
I was just a girl in love now I’m a killer in a white dress
Got no choice but to laugh at me from a distance
I fought for the misery in you I got my feelings so twisted
Which part of me is you, me is me, how do I split the difference?
Will you ever leave the home you’ve made for yourself in my head?
Should’ve believed your own descriptions
Of your cowardly prescriptions
Make room for the next instalment
Of the girl you plan to torture me with
Baby you are so beautiful
All your lies to me only seem sensible
Your heart is still pulling me down like an anchor
And I’m still holding on to it with its rancour
You didn’t fall for me you fell for my pride
And now to let go of you I have to let it slide