My PTSD Story

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I'm Molly, a typical sushi, makeup, and fashion loving millennial girl who just so happens to be blind! I was diagnosed with Retinitis Pigmentosa at just 4 years old and began public speaking at age 5. I started just doing motivational speaking, but now I make videos and even model! Even though I can’t see, I know that there are bright spots in everything we face. Let’s find them together. 💕

[@MollyBurkeOfficial]

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[@alyssafortson]

How to mention it to people when you are recently diagnosed? Want to mention my anxiety diagnosis with close friends, but worried about response. I have anxiety with OCD tendencies. Primarily being unwanted thought about needing to urinate constantly.

[@shannonhensley2942]

@@alyssafortson the best thing to start with is understand what you are and aren't willing to talk about. Setting up those boundaries first before you start to talk to others about it. Then when you have enough time to have the conversation with them, sit them down and explain what it means for you. Good friends will listen and try their best to understand. I wish you the best of luck.

[@gemmaluescher-verseckas1243]

What are your skills you use to help with ptsd symptoms or anxiety episodes that work considering your blindness. Most skills are multi sensory, , like certain touch or smells.

[@katelynl6253]

I’m also a pile of mental illnesses. I’ve been diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder, PTSD, Chronic depression, Generalized anxiety with panic attacks and bipolar 2 disorder, and I suffer from dissociation, self harm and suicidal tendencies and have been hospitalized multiple times . I have a psychiatric service dog to help me manage the challenges of these illnesses. I got diagnosed at the age of 18-19.

[@naynerboppers5254]

Such a brave step to take on this topic again, esp considering your current struggles. I have had PTSD for a couple different reasons/events in my life. Therapy (both thru meds and working with a therapist/psychologist) has done wonders and is the biggest reason why I wish EVERYONE had access to get help at any given point in a person's life. I am blind in the center of one eye and recently started losing vision in my good eye. I've been very worried about my mental health and what that journey would be like if I'm no longer able to see to do some of the things that help me through the tough times. What types of activities/tricks/techniques have your therapists focused on or suggested that might be different from a sighted person? I know that I might not be wording it correctly so please forgive me....but is there a different approach for a blind person versus a sighted person? I know some of the things I currently do can be adapted but others can't be...or will take a lot of additional learning before I would then be able to try to adapt it. What challenges did/do you have or things that you find frustrating that were related to therapy and your blindness? I hope I am not coming across in an ableist way so I apologize if so.....but I am genuinely worried about it because we still can't even figure out the cause of my sudden, advanced uveitis....and I feel like I need to prepare for my vision to continually worsen.

[@shannonhensley2942]

It does not matter what caused the PTSD. If your brain can't handle it, you can't escape it. There is nothing wrong with needing help/treatment. Our lives are complicated and messy and there is no reason to have to go it alone. My friends have been the biggest help on my journey. Trauma does not care so having people that care is so amazing.

[@dont_harsh_my_mellow]

My friend was traumatized by that time when there were jumpscares plastered all over videos online. Remember that? Good times. Good times. Anyway she refuses to watch anything if someone she knows hasn’t watched it yet. And I think I saw a few times when people mocked her and said she’s a wuss. I’m like wtf. Like why? Be? Rude? lol

[@claireb6543]

I have dissociative identity disorder, which is generally regarded as the “most extreme” form of PTSD. A lot of the time I struggle with my trauma not being bad enough. But what helps me realize that trauma isn’t what the experience itself is - it’s how your brain processes it. So to my brain, it was “enough”. (I’m agreeing with you!)

[@jlopez665]

@@claireb6543 I hate when people do that. “It’s not that bad” really really? I have to do a million things to deal my mental health, but it’s not that bad.

[@jlopez665]

@@dont_harsh_my_mellow I didn’t know that PTSD could develop that way. I guess that most people dnt realize the different ways you can develop it.

[@Jelleybean18]

Sorry to ask here but I know you’ve watched it. I want to watch it but have PTSD and want to avoid triggers. Is this video only highlighting medical trauma or are there other traumas mentioned? Of course all trauma is valid but trauma concerning s * * u a l a * * u l t is something I cannot do.

[@SpecialBooksbySpecialKids]

Thanks for opening up Molly. You are not alone!

[@althyastar]

I love when you talk about mental health, it makes me feel more represented as someone who has sometimes debilitating anxiety.

[@rileyyy472]

I agree with every word, because I also sometimes have debilitating anxiety.

[@tarasmith4316]

Same, anxiety and ptsd

[@serefina7177]

I agree! I also struggle with anxiety and other mental disorders and I really feel not alone when I hear about other peoples journeys

[@user-gi2kq5iu5l]

I used to think what I felt was normal. But after all the mental, physical and emotional exhaustion and reading about anxiety I understood that this is a real thing and it’s not my fault.

[@jlopez665]

@@user-gi2kq5iu5l same when I started having anxiety issues. I didn’t know what was happening to me... Keep up the hard work

[@gracegardone350]

Yes! PTSD is not just caused by wars/bombs/terror, etc. It can be caused by family members, animals, really anything (trauma is when your brain cannot make sense of an event and keeps replaying it). Thanks for this!

[@properjammy]

There's also CPTSD which is common after an abusive relationship. Where as PTSD is common after a single traumatic event.

[@Lolilillisjdjdhddj]

What does cptsd stand for

[@ICatheraTashaI]

@@Lolilillisjdjdhddj complex post traumatic stress disorder.

[@ChickenOfAwesome]

@@properjammy To build on that (for anyone confused about the difference) Complex PTSD (CPTSD) is from _long term_ trauma or a series of trauma over time - its especially common in people who were abused as children and who's entire personality was formed in trauma, or in people with long term medical trauma (again, especially as children), but it can also occur in adults after, for example, abusive relationships or being stationed in a warzone long term. PTSD is from one off events or short term trauma - an assault, a car crash, a traumatic medical experience, a particular bad experience at war (eg: getting shot, or witnessing something traumatic).

[@cheekynandosss581]

@@properjammy if there’s many different traumas from different times in life or ongoing trauma in a relationship or abuse situation could also potentially be diagnosed as cptsd

[@DreamForHope7]

I'd just like to say that if you are someone who needs medication long-term, there's no shame in that. I don't think this is how Molly meant it, but the notion that you can learn to manage symptoms on your own "rather than have a chemical do it for you" isn't always possible for everyone. All treatment paths are valid :)

[@catloverKD]

Thank you, I was going to say the same.

[@jenniicaroline1218]

were all wired so differently ! I am a life long med person, I finally just had to tell a doctor, after decades, I know i do my best and live my best life on medication, and that I would rather be on a med the rest of my life, than spend every day wishing I could shut off my entire brain and hide. I couldnt keep living my life my life at 0 to 10% , when simple meds and therapy puts me at 99% !! No shame in meds, getting help, or therapy for sure. . sending good vibes to you all! :)

[@madelynrose2330]

Yes THIS!

[@karlahabbershaw1971]

Very true

[@marthaloven9385]

Thank you for the reminder. I recently started on my anti-depressant for the 3rd time in my life.

[@bonsoir5170]

20:35 I love how casually she says that like "yeah I did that thing with selena gomez, anyways... "

[@peightonsmith4224]

I searched for this comment

[@katherinedubroy4171]

"So many times I wonder, why is my brain like this, why can't I just let it go. But my mind is just like that." GIRL SAME!!! I relate to that so much, like Molly said, it's not something you can control, but you can manage it and heal from it. Even though it never leaves you, you can still grow and be out there living your best life!

[@emmapanzica8333]

God bless you!

[@ellentevault6244]

My psychiatrist says I have complex ptsd from my childhood and single ptsd from a couple of experiences as an adult because I’m a highly sensitive person. People are judgmental and narrow minded about it.

[@emmapanzica8333]

God bless you!

[@emilywood979]

I have a service dog for PTSD and I get told a lot that I either don’t have PTSD because I’m not a veteran or I’m not deserving of my service dog because “there are vets that need a dog more.” My dog is multipurpose that I only say he’s medical alert now.

[@gracegardone350]

I would love to learn more about this. One of my friends has a PTSD service dog and I’m too nervous to ask about what specific services her service dog provides. I’m curious to learn more like Molly has showed us about guide dogs!

[@emilywood979]

@@gracegardone350 everyone is different but my dog stops self harming behavior. Applies deep pressure therapy (like a weighted blanket) to my legs and body. He also guides me to safe places and or finds people I am with.

[@janalunadottir]

I didn't know they have service dogs for ptsd, but it totally makes sense in my opinion! So nice that you always have someone by your side! ❤️🐶

[@ellentevault6244]

That’s a shame. You deserve better

[@emilywood979]

@@ellentevault6244 thank you

[@inekogary8870]

I totally understand. Because I am totally deaf and totally blind. So when I go to my appointments to all my doctors. I have a certified sign language interpreter meet me there. And my interpreter will tell them that you had to explain everything you’re going to do because she cannot see you at all and she cannot hear you at all. So I totally understand. The only reason I know what’s going on in your video because I have my girlfriend here she knows sign language so she’s signing in my hand call tactile sign language so I know what you are saying. And she describes your background to me.

[@elliebartlett9064]

That is SO COOL!!! You rock!

[@sleepyote]

Did you use voice to text or did your girlfriend type for you, if it's okay to ask?

[@inekogary8870]

@@sleepyote Thank u for asking, I did myself my Beautiful love 🤟🤟🤟❤️❤️❤️❤️ U will see 3 I love u hand sings in sign language,

[@artglue2]

If you’re totally blind, how do you read sign language?

[@qkndc]

@@artglue2 as they said, tactile sign

[@karenthompson1677]

Thanks Molly for your brave sharing, I am 54 and suffer from PTSD, because I was undiagnosed autistic, which I was born with but because people did not recognise this was the case as female. I was eventually diagnosed as having autism age 38. I was bullied really badly and struggled to cope in school, and later on was bullied in some work places.

[@laurad7228]

That must be so horrible. Here have a hug from a fellow autistic person: *insert digital hug *

[@kthx_bai]

I was diagnosed with autism at 26

[@sunnyday9026]

It makes me sooo mad every time I hear about someone being bullied!! You're human beings like any other person in this world. My daughter has cerebral palsy and one time when I picked her up at school, walking back to my car this kid started walking like my daughter! I told him you better not be making fun of my daughter because you're going to be in big trouble!!! I never saw him again, my daughter was about 7 years old. I step up for people I don't even know!!

[@jordanmahonytheblindworld8483]

Well I am an artistic person I’m able bodied but you would know if I was autistic if you met me and that’s a stereotype wedding wedding itself but what I’m trying to say is I was diagnosed at the age of 5/6 with autism visual impairment blindness and Barbados syndrome by the Beatles syndrome is the cause of it but what I’m trying to say is I am a fellow autistic person I Mail and I know that I’m probably not the best person in this decision but I’m going to say to hell with it I have autism you have autism as far as I can tell from reading the comment and just I know that if I was in your position I would want to give you a hug I think you’ve been bullied in school and the workplace is disgusting I would fight for you right now my friend and it’s just it’s not acceptable we live in a world discrimination editing needs to be talked about and just wanna let you know that you’re not alone and you deafly get hugs from me and I’m showing compassion when I say that

[@dont_harsh_my_mellow]

I was bullied from elementary school to end of high school. Not autistic. But ADHD. And there’s a LOT of overlap. In college the bullying stopped. I’m fine. But I have PTSD too. Emotionally scarred. Scared. Idk. It never leaves. Wow.

[@broughtontaylor8142]

molly, i have suffered from generalized anxiety for about a year now. i am also neurodiverse. i live with adhd. your channel has really helped me cope with these conditions. thanks for spreading awareness for the neurodiverse and disabled community. we really need voices.

[@missyc13]

If you ever need someone to talk to, go to reddit ADHDwomen, it's a place full of people like us who understand and can share experiences and tips. You are not alone, even though sometimes it truly feels like it

[@SuperKellie77]

I have suffered from generalized anxiety disorder for 26 years now!

[@jvrock7]

B Girl, if you haven't already, check out How To ADHD. hehe when I discovered her channel a few years ago, I binged every video she'd done within like 2 weeks. It's awesome! She has adhd and does a ton of research and makes videos on different topics pertaining to adhd.

[@jvrock7]

@@rosacruz6274 if you haven't already, check out Yo Samdy Sam, Stephanie Bethanny, Autism From the Inside, Carol Bird. All their channels helped me realize my own autism last year at 33. Between those and joining late diagnosis autism fb groups, I've learned so much about myself and found community with them. It's so amazing to not feel alone ❤

[@baffledmouse]

I also have generalised anxiety and panic disorder and I am on a waiting list to be assessed for potential Autism.

[@caitlynungrin1394]

I just wanted to say, as a 16-year-old with PTSD who is often undermined by others, it was really nice to have someone talk about their experiences and validate that I don't have to be exposed to war to develop PTSD. It takes a lot of courage to be vulnerable, especially with such a large audience. Thank you for sharing!

[@LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt]

Some people witness a genozide and shrug it off, some get their ass grabbed in a club and end up severely traumatised. Might be an extreme example but in the end everybody is different and just because someone else has it worse, doesn't mean you're "not allowed" to feel bad.

[@caitlynungrin1394]

@@LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt Absolutely! People often don't believe me as well, because I witnessed an attempted murder where the guy who did it only got charged with aggravated assault and because I'm a minor, the police can't disclose my identity to the public...most of my own family don't even know what I saw that day, and it's hard to explain what it's like. Anyone's trauma is valid, and it's nice to hear others who agree.

[@LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt]

@@caitlynungrin1394 I'm incredibly sorry that you have to suffer through this :( Stay strong! Asking your parents if you could go see a therapist might also help.

[@caitlynungrin1394]

@@LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt Thank you for your support! I've gone to therapy in the past and the lady actually made my issues worse, and my parents still go to her, so I don't really have that option right now, however, I'm going into psychology at university starting the fall of 2022, and hopefully, I'll be able to sort myself out and help others who are struggling.

[@LadyPandaGoddessOfTheCakeHunt]

@@caitlynungrin1394 had such a therapist too 😔 that's why I'm now sticking with psychiatrists... in my experience they are "better". Starting psychology might help :) but if possible you should definitly try therapy again at some point (imo).

[@kellykeaney9909]

Can we just pause for a gosh darn second and talk about how flawless Molly looks in this 😻

[@amandaradvinskaite815]

Yaas! I absolutely love her hair like this

[@FootlessJo]

💜💜💜💜💜 Sending so much love & light your way!

[@claireisacamel]

I’d love to hear how mama Bee recounts all of this. Sometimes it can be hard to know how best to support someone going through something like this, and it sounds like she has some really good experience and probably some good tips!

[@annikazehm6589]

I made it almost nine minutes before I had to quit, but I wanted to say that it feels good to know that I'm not alone. I also totally get what you mean when you talk about people saying "Just get over it." Today, I ran into an abuser at the store. She didn't see me, but I saw her and I knew it was her. I nearly had an anxiety attack over it, and I nearly left the store over it. I don't think I'm gonna tell anyone because they've just gonna say I need to get over it. You don't get over it. That's why it's called a mental illness. I hate running into people also with trauma because how well I respond is a complete gamble and I hate having something that feels so piddly control me. It's not like I'm asking for it, like I said, that's why it's called an illness.

[@bronwynlunn2712]

I have a hard time seeing my abusers or people associated with my trauma in public too. Anyone who says "get over it," truly cant imagine. How you feel is always valid and I'm proud of you

[@emmapanzica8333]

God bless you!

[@emmapanzica8333]

@@samanthakennedy8761 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

[@emmapanzica8333]

@@bronwynlunn2712 God bless you!

[@mjay6317]

“I’m aware that it doesn’t make sense. But that doesn’t stop me from feeling these things, or doing these things.” I’m getting this printed on a shirt and wearing it.

[@jessiereacts3145]

I also have PTSD with OCD. Thank you so much for talking about this. It's wonderful to feel less alone.

[@bbghoul_x]

I do too. Sending hugs 💖

[@FoxGlove8]

So do I. Although my OCD isn't trauma related Sending love from Europe

[@akylah3768]

Molly: My hands are baby carrots. Me: Imagine carrots with blue nail polish

[@Upper_echelon_exotics]

I don't think they look very orange...maybe it's the lighting but they don't look that bad to me...

[@clarahamilton9494]

@@Upper_echelon_exotics I agree

[@adri9974]

I have PTSD and I have never been in the military. I feel as though many people invalidate it for people who haven't served.

[@ellie_michelle6987]

I work on ambulances and I just had my second ever blind patient... he also just so happened to have a form of RP, he was really open about talking to me about it and answered all of my agonising questions! He was thrilled to talk to somebody other than a doctor about it as most haven’t a clue what he is talking about! Thank you Molly, you have certainly brought awareness out there and definitely to me to spread the love xx

[@teafisher]

Oh boy I hate the "just get over it" comments! Edit:So many similarities between our symptoms and after a PTSD diagnosis too I was relieved

[@jordanmahonytheblindworld8483]

I hate it as well my friend because when people say oh it’s fine get over it they will also say that about facial impairment/blindness oh it’s all in your head to get over this is never been said to me but the narrative has been there and I say screw these people they don’t know different I live with the condition they do not and then I won’t be able to help people are going through blindness/visual impairment and where I can make this world a better place

[@tlt935]

I have PTSD triggered by hospitals and doctors offices. When I was 5 or 6, I had to go to the ER. I can't remember why but I had to have an IV. Instead of being understanding that this small child is absolutely terrified, this nurse literally held me down and screamed at me while she tried inserting the IV. With me kicking and screaming, she eventually gave up and had someone else do it. Luckily the new nurse was an absolute angel but the damage was already done. My PTSD was only made worse by needing several blood tests a few times a year for several years (thank God I don't need them anymore) and the nurses never believing me or my mom that needles are a huge no-no. It didn't help that my mom is a nurse so all the other nurses assumed her child would be cool with medical things and were never gentle about anything they did. Luckily she isn't afraid to stick up for me and knows how to handle situations like that since she's been a nurse since the 80s. I had so many nurses basically make fun of me for having a panic attack saying it's just a little blood, just wait til you get your period, hahahaha... I've literally had only one medical doctor in my entire life treat me as a human with PTSD. It's incredibly sad because medical stuff fascinates me from hearing all the cool (sometimes really gross) stories my mom would come home with. It's almost a morbid fascination hearing stories from doctors and nurses but anything having to do with me and doctors is NOT okay. I drive for UberEats and one day I realized I can't even take food INTO a hospital without getting the starting signs of a panic attack. Btw, it was my cousin who took me to the ER that day and had no idea how to handle the situation. She was only like 17 at the time so I don't blame her ONE bit for more or less allowing that evil nurse to do that to me. She's dealt with things too so she completely understands and we're actually really close because of it.

[@raven-moon77]

i have been dealing with ptsd because of repressed memories that i recently regained and this video came at the perfect time, thank you❤

[@caleighrussell2700]

that must be so frustrating and scary 🥺💗 sending good thoughts you way

[@raven-moon77]

@@caleighrussell2700 thank you so much, this really made my day because it was so validating and honestly made me tear up. thank you so much and sending love to you🥺❤🤗

[@Tina-zz5kt]

sending love

[@sngray11]

I went through the exact same thing a few years ago. And what helped me the most was doing EMDR sessions on the memories that came back that caused my PTSD, work with a therapist and a psychiatrist, and completing the Survivors Workshop at The Meadows in Arizona really helped me get my life back. I am sending prayers and positive thoughts your way. 💕🙏🏼😘

[@ICatheraTashaI]

Virtual hugs to you dear. I have often wondered if I have repressed memories since I can't remember most of my childhood and my father has been an active pedophile since I was around 3 years old I think. I wish people didn't try to repress people who open up about PTSD or abuse and trauma or depression, anxiety, whatever other mental issues or emotional issues. I was told by a counselor after my dad was sent to prison that me and all my siblings and my mom all had PTSD from mental and emotional abuse and neglect. For about 5 years after my dad was removed from my life and I was healing I would still start crying any time someone was angry and yelling, even if it wasn't directed at me.

[@sadieann1036]

I resonate so much with your story. I was diagnosed at the age of 11 with severe PTSD, Major Depression, and Anxiety. I was only diagnosed because it was a requirement of court during my parents divorce and domestic violence case. We were raised mormon, so we weren't allowed to take "mind alerting medication". I dealt with flash backs and PTSD meltdowns my whole life because of it. At 22, I finally got on medication and was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease (depression is a symptom). Then, a bunch more chronic pain illnesses and autoimmune diseases. At 24, I got a confirmation diagnosis of Medical PTSD from being a chronic illness patient and having major things go wrong during medical procedures. The most severe incident related to my medical PTSD was waking up during major surgery. The specialist and constant hospital visits is so hard. Now, I'm pregnant and I was still having PTSD/Anxiety attacks before every OB appointment. I ended up switching my OB and it has improved, but I'm terrified of delivering due to everything that has went wrong during procedures. I've fallen in the 33% of asthma patients who have their asthma get progressively worse though out the pregnancy. I have new heart issues and fainting issues, which my neurologist thinks is residual from having Covid 19 in April 2020. I really hate that people associate PTSD with Military Service. I think some of that is a hard spot for me, personally. I was in the process of enlisting when I got the Hashimotos diagnosis which instantly disqualified me. It can exist from any traumatic experience and more men tend to be in the military than women, so I think that's it's more associated with men isn't a helpful stigma either. My husband had friends who came out of military service with PTSD, but we had a lot of issues with understanding my PTSD because of the stigmas around it.

[@sallyjsmith15]

When you're talking about "not living" that really resonates with me, my partner suffered a mental breakdown during his autism diagnosis and that's exactly how he felt. Waking up, waiting for that next anxiety attack and then taking a tablet to go to sleep. It took two weeks to get him back to a more "normal" level of eating and many more for life in general but he got there!

[@turtlette]

Thank you so much for talking about the guilt involved in having a trauma or trauma related disorder - not very many do.

[@ilovemybigbro]

PTSD anxiety and depression all at once is absolutely horrible

[@mercymonroe83]

So many of your symptoms match my own! I have Complex-PTSD and the not being able to eat, 🤢, loss of cognitive processes, fears you know are irrational, etc. I just wish I had been diagnosed younger than 33. Now I am doing trauma-based EMDR therapy to get my 🧠 to actually process my traumas and deal with them.

[@elizabethcarroll3978]

Molly, I really related to when you said that you were relieved when you got your diagnosis. I felt the same way when my son was diagnosed with ADHD, Autism, and Anxiety. I felt that he could finally get the services that he needed in school with this diagnosis.

[@gayjesus999]

this was hard to watch as a unmedicated person with ptsd it gave me some anxiety and physical stress but it was so worth it! to understand not only from another person’s perspective their view on ptsd and experiences but a blind person’s experience with ptsd! i’m being honest i’ve never seen a blind person talk about ptsd before. some are probably out there but she is definitely one of the biggest blind creators to speak about this. i’m beyond proud of her ability to be mindful and address her trauma with such grace even on the worst days! thank you for talking about ptsd and it’s affects on ALL PEOPLE!! bringing awareness to this disorder will help diminish the stereotypes of ptsd and who it affects, as-well as helping more people realize their symptoms and speak to their therapist to get the help they deserve! i hope everyone is having an amazing day! you are all lovely 🖤

[@kaylathurston3828]

As someone who’s been watching you for awhile now and just got diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and PTSD, this video means a lot to me. Thank you for putting this out there.

[@summergleason8989]

The childhood medical experience is so complicated. I have found some doctors expect that as someone who has been in a lot of medical care from a very young age that I'll be some kind of pro and like it's no big deal for me, but yeah the medical trauma is very very real. The minute scheduling doctors appointments was my responsibility instead of my parents, there were no more being scheduled and my mental and physical health has suffered a lot for it. I am slowly improving and getting back on track but it was been such a difficult journey. Just to say i see you. You're story is really powerful, thank you for sharing.

[@sarvedha1117]

I know you always spread awareness about the disabled community and that’s amazing but I am really glad that you’re doing more and more mental health videos. People tend to overlook mental health and consider physical health more important, so thanks for taking mental health into account in addition to physical health.

[@Kaythought]

Your story has always resonated with me. I have a lot of issues with mental and chronic illness and you inspire me and so many others. Thank you so much.

[@dmp1177]

You’re so brave for sharing this with us, Molly! Thank you for sharing💕

[@conniepowell1596]

Thank you for always being so brave and so vulnerable - we love you so much Molly ✨🥰

[@kerigirl711]

I am always looking to connect with people who struggle with anxiety, OCD tendencies and other mental health diagnosis’. It is so refreshing to hear you speak on this and see the comments from people who can relate. Makes us all feel less alone and isolated. I especially needed this today as I was suffering from some severe anxiety before clicking on your video. So thank you Molly💜you’re so well spoken and calming to listen to also.

[@robinhahnsopran]

This video is so beautiful and important. Thank you for sharing your truth.

[@lauraandrews9143]

I am so happy you’re sharing your experience with us 💕 also I know this is totally NOT the point, but I really love that light sage green color on you, it compliments you so nicely

[@cyberpotayto]

I’m dealing with PTSD from a recent car accident. I feel you Molly, this couldn’t have come out at a better time! It helps hearing you talk about your story, thank you for sharing

[@caleighrussell2700]

you’re not alone .. it will get better with time

[@cyberpotayto]

@@caleighrussell2700 you are so sweet!!! thank you so much, wishing you well also💗

[@ericasotto4595]

I have generalized anxiety disorder and functional neurological disorder because of it. I have psychogenic seizures instead of panic attacks. I’m in the first year of my diagnoses, and I hope I’m in a better place in 7 years like you Molly ❤️

[@frostyskeletons8950]

I just want to say thank you because I also have generalized anxiety disorder and your comment made me curious about FND. I resonate with A LOT of the symptoms and am going to bring it up with my therapist this week. Thank you for the awareness!

[@ericasotto4595]

@@frostyskeletons8950 I’m glad I could help someone else 😀

[@niamh3225]

Thank you for sharing I have a friend with FND stay strong.

[@niamh3225]

I’m not sure if you’re aware but there is a good organisation called FND hope with lots of resources

[@ericasotto4595]

@@niamh3225 thank you! 😁

[@iona9227]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. As soon as I saw the title I knew it would resonate with me, so I know some of how hard it is and I'm sending all the support and strength to you. ❤️ Thank you for taking the time to be so vulnerable - you're so right that PTSD and trauma in all forms is very stigmatised and misunderstood and people don't realise it can affect them for all sorts of reasons. Hopefully the more awareness we can create, the more people can receive support to deal with their trauma and we can break cycles together.

[@eva.grace.]

Thank you for making this video! It is so important that people hear your story.

[@darthmaule]

I was in the mental hospital as a teenager, the doctor told my mom he wanted to try Lithium (this was at about noon). 3 hours later she came to visit and I was up and moving and talking. Not cured but strides above where I was. Medication saved me. Thank you for sharing your medication journey and destigmatizing it. I meet people who know nothing about me but want to tell me how my medications are destroying my body and life. Medication does not make you weak

[@mygirldarby]

Lithium takes several weeks before it starts working. It takes a minimum of five days for it to reach therapeutic levels in your blood. Our minds are very powerful and if we are convinced that something works, our minds will follow along and produce a placebo effect. The way I see it, it doesn't really matter if it's a placebo effect though because you're still getting relief. It isn't possible for lithium to create an affect in three hours. But your mind sure can, especially an impressionable teenager's mind. I agree that medicine shouldn't be stigmatized just because it is for a psychiatric condition. To me, it's the same as needing a blood pressure medicine or a cholesterol lowering drug.

[@Ehlair]

I really appreciate when you open up about this. I also struggle to eat w/anxiety and have similar "safe foods." I've never heard someone talk about that before and seem to experience it in the same way I do. So thank you for making me feel understood and valid.

[@christinadoherty3212]

Thank you so much for talking about this! I am also a vlogger and in the disabled community and so many of us struggle with PTSD because of medical experiences. I have definitely been afraid to make a video explaining my diagnosis out of fear. But you have inspired me! ❤️

[@vassilikistamatopoulou8481]

I know how hard it is dealing with mental health and I really want to tank you for taking about it and breaking the stigma around it

[@ellebelle1996]

I have ptsd as well. Not a veteran, but the trauma is real. I really appreciate you being so honest about this. You are such an inspiration, thank you

[@meganpeoro3454]

Thank you for being open about this subject. I have ptsd due to recurrent pregnancy losses and I think it’s difficult for people to understand that one moment you can be ok and one moment you are not ok.

[@markpetrov9476]

This video is definitely important and meaningful. Thank you ,Molly, for making it! Also those fake plants definitely match that bottle thingy and I love it!!

[@fictional-girl_05]

I always admire people who do things like this. Opening up is scary and a hard decision to make. It takes a lot of bravery to be able to share things like this publicly.

[@julierocketqueen6257]

I appreciate you more than I can say for opening up and being honest about your experiences and helping make this topic more and more of a normal conversation 💜🐝

[@sageashley]

The color and style of your jacket looks amazing on you!! 💕

[@kboerde]

Thank you so much for talking about this! You are such a strong person for talking about this. I just recently started opening up about my PTSD as well and I noticed that it made me feel so much better. I still am not fully able to talk about the cause of my PTSD. Thank you for sharing your story🥰

[@malina9070]

We support you no matter what! You are a queen through it all. ❤️💁🏼‍♀️👸🏼👑✨

[@xaimara13]

I remember the first video you made about this, you explained the fall in more detail. I’m proud of how far you’ve come. 💜

[@sadienewell619]

so sorry you had to go through this! no one deserves this.

[@samanthadelic]

So so proud of you for working to get off of medication & for taking it when you did as well. Proud of you simply for taking care of yourself and doing what's best for your mental health and I hope you are continuously healing and growing in each passing moment

[@Truffles-fk3du]

You are so right. PTSD is a very real thing that so very many people live with, many suffering in silence. Veterans just happen to be the largest single category of people living with this disability, and most certainly the most well known by the public at large. There are SOOO MANY more people living with PTSD than just veterans. And thank you for this. Highly helpful in so very many ways. Helpful to understand other symptoms some people have living with PTSD, and beneficial for so many to recognize there is more to one diagnosis than just one category of people. You are one seriously AMAZING person Molly. You deserve EVERY good thing in life. Hoping Adrian is able to join you in Canada soon.

[@tiffanyg3]

I love that you made a video about this ♡ Thank you for feeling comfortable enough so share this story with us. You are amazing and we truly appreciate your vulnerability. I just finished your audiobook for my culture class and am so excited to use it to write about accessibility, mental health in the disability community and intersectionality!

[@mymyriadthoughts2220]

I have generalised anxiety disorder and DID and made a video the other day about it. I'm so glad mental health is a much more spoken about topic, thank you Molly. I love the empathy over judgement thing too xxx

[@iSuperLuv]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I haven’t been formally diagnosed but my therapist has mentioned it, and it makes sense to me. I appreciate your vulnerability and grace Molly. Thank you

[@las5510]

Sending you so much love 💖 Thank you for making this video. I was diagnosed with P TSD in my late teens and just recently my diagnosis was changed to complex PTSD. For some reason mental health carries a stigma around it and that always bothers me because it's a very real & very common thing to deal with. I'll never understand why it is taboo. I always admire your bravery in talking about topics & sharing your personal experiences with things our society is still trying to catch up to understanding. I know it's hard to put yourself so vulnerably out there . Please know you're helping people like me when you talk about these things. It could be so isolating & hearing people who are public figures talking about their own struggles makes me feel like I am not alone.

[@strawbemmy]

im so happy to hear people talking about the obsessive side of what comes after trauma and mental illness. thank you molly. as someone else with ptsd and obsessive thoughts that stem from that, this video felt like a warm hug. thank you for speaking on this

[@victoriasterling6719]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have not been formally diagnosed with PTSD, but I have many of the symptoms and I am pretty sure that I have it. I have struggled a lot with it and there have been many times that I have felt that my brain is broken. Your story helps me remember that I am not alone and things can and will get better. Also, you helped me learn that my extreme nausea when anxious and stressed could be from my PTSD. I've had so many texts and everything has always come back normal. It's nice to finally have a possible answer. Thank you so much again.

[@teddygrahamm]

Wow thank you Molly for talking about this out loud. Especially hearing that PTSD can come from any trauma experienced, not just what we tend to hear like war and assaults. It seems like OCD and ptsd definitely can go hand in hand, and it makes sense that someone might have issues like that after going thru traumatic events. Thank you Molly again, my dad is in the hospital and isn't doing too well right now, but you talking about this brightens my day a bit :)

[@ameliuhm]

It is so inspiring how much you have opened up to us. Thank you so much. 😭

[@jennkreg387]

I have suffered since age 15. Thank you for all you do.

[@JuMixBoox]

I have been watching you since spring 2017. At the beginning, I binged all of your videos on this channel. And watching this, I can't believe that I only watched your first video about your PTSD once. I felt like I could have told the story myself. I remember thinking about it when listening to your book, or whenever you mentioned your mental health. I think your words from back then just really stuck with me. When you talked about obsessively researching your guide dog, I realised that that was a symptom I knew very well. So I took a lot of your thoughts to heart already. And it still hit me strongly to watch this. Because when you talk about a downward spiral, about stopping to function, song to really live, I just hear a description of my everyday life. When you talk about the speech you couldn't write, about voicing your feelings to your parents, I realise that both of these happened to me today and I didn't think much of it because to me, it's normal. I might need to take those six weeks. Contact those professionals. Get that therapy and maybe medication. But that's just me. I also want to thank you. That was my original intention. Telling you how much of an impact even the smallest mention or video can have and how powerful and brave it was to share your story line this. Thank you. It opened my eyes a bit.

[@teafisher]

I struggle with many mental health issues upon mental health issues (ASD,PTSD,Panic disorder ect ect ect? so I find this very interesting to watch. It makes me feel less alone and more normalised and it makes me happy(well not happy that you have to live with them too but the normalisation)

[@janalunadottir]

Since I was diagnosed with PTSD and worked as an occupational therapist, I met (and re-met with a different awareness) so many people with mental health problems (patients, colleagues, friends, family) that I actually wonder, if there really are people you would call "normal". 🤔😂

[@katelynnwalker2568]

Oh Molly, you are NEVER a burden. You are so loved-thank you for your vulnerability and for sharing this so courageously. Prayers are coming for you.

[@ellad7315]

Thank you. Just, thank you. You've managed to do so much good in 30 minutes and I can't thank you enough.

[@JeanetteQuist]

I have social anxiety disorder, clinical depression and ptsd from being raped in 03. Its been a long road and I'm some better now but i go with what i can deal with

[@Jamesyouknowit]

I know you posted this almost a year ago, but at the time I was deeply suffering from what I think might be ptsd, and going back and watching this video now is very helpful. Thank you for always being so open and honest in what you share. Lots of love

[@sarvedha1117]

Anxiety is just so relatable to me so it’s really nice that you touch on these things. It’s hard during COVID especially as someone who has to attend online school and whatnot, I mean, middle school was hard enough as it was lol

[@philopharynx7910]

Thank you for this. I know several people with PTSD and know how hard it can be when "small things" become huge triggers. I wish you the best in adapting and recovering, and I hope you always find kind and empathetic people in your life.

[@lyka4332]

I love your openness. No matter what you go through. We will always be here for you.

[@kyokowithbrave4888]

Whenever you are, up or down, you always deserve the best and to smile when the warm rays of sun touch your skin

[@bethanytaylor1704]

I deal daily with depression, anxiety, and PTSD from personal events. Thanks for being so brave!

[@Kaye09MNchick]

I also have been diagnosed with PTSD, OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, depression, dissociation, dermatillomania, and trichotillomania. I understand the way it feels to know it doesn't make sense. OCD often doesn't make sense so to me it might make sense, but I know it doesn't to other people. Thank you for making this video. It really helps the mental illness community for people to speak about their own experiences with it. Thank you!

[@gitabhattacharya2459]

Molly, thank you for sharing your story and helping so many people feel less alone in their journeys. Also (unrelated) I love your top! Super formfitting and flattering.

[@paigemagee1030]

Wow Molly, I'm so happy that you made this video. I've always been curious about this, as I love to educate myself on the lives of others. You're so beautiful and brave!💕

[@gracebyrne2026]

I love ur whole vibe today! The grey/green jumper and the blonde ponytail, it’s so nice

[@anny7197]

I'm really sorry you had to deal with all those emotions, i'm also almost 6 months on medication because of my anxiety and depression, at the beginning I felt like everybody is gonna judge me because of that, but mentally I feel so much better now! Sending a lots of love to you Molly and to everyone who is dealing with mental health problems, things do get better! :)

[@jordanc186]

Thank your for opening up about your mental health journey. As someone recently diagnosed with generalized anxiety and OCD I resonated with your story in many ways. I have often felt alone and guilty about my thoughts and actions and how they affect those around me, even though I know it is something I do not have control over, something that escalated when I reached my lowest point during the pandemic. Since mental health is something that is not focused on nearly as much as physical health, seeing someone who I have followed for many years open up about their own journey touched my heart and made me feel less alone in my own mental health journey. Thank you💕

[@diazgirl100]

Molly, I totally understand what PTSD feels like, considering that I also have it. Mine was caused by a car accident from which I was in as a passenger where the motorcyclist we were hit by was killed. I appreciate you talking about how many others beside veterans can experience PTSD.

[@ellieketcham9088]

Thank you so much for sharing Molly! I have recently been medicated for anxiety, and I found your video so comforting! It can definitely be frustrating.

[@jasmineleopard7593]

This hair style suits you so well!!! The waves in your hair contrast against your more square shaped face and it’s lovely!

[@suzannelafontaine2801]

Thank you for sharing your story Molly. ❤ Also this loose pony updo suits you SO well!!

[@anna_R90]

I’m at the point that I’m about to meet a doctor for an official diagnosis of PTSD. I’ve been going to psychologist for a year now and she told me I need more help so seeing psychiatrist would be the best thing for me. I had a childhood where I was neglected emotionally by my parents, later I was abused physically and mentally by my ex boyfriend. I still feel like it’s not a big deal but everything around me was trying to scream at me that wtf this wasn’t normal. 😅 this is how I lived for 10 years until now when I couldn’t handle it anymore. This was mostly reflected on my relationship. Now I’m feeling odd that I’m actually putting myself first and getting some help, crying of having a relief because of blaming myself for years of my behavior. Having this diagnosis will be a huge thing for me; I feel like it will be a turn in my life to a better. Hearing people’s experiences who have to deal with mental illness had given me so much more perspective and the feeling that I’m not alone.

[@erika9629]

Love this molly vibe, the background, hair, makeup, clothes, all the tones match and look so healthy and flattering for you. Beautiful as always

[@anunez3450]

From the bottom of my heart thank you for being open about this. Not only does mental health have bad stigma. But at times can open doors to people with bad intentions using this as a way to cause more harm. Which is one of many reasons some folks don't come forward for help.

[@annalisalaphen3585]

Thank you for telling your story Molly! You are really amazing. Have a great day you deserve it!!

[@alexjackson860]

Thank you for sharing your story. I know this had to be difficult to do, but I know it will help many people struggling with the same issues. I know we all appreciate the vulnerability that came with this.

[@claratotman6212]

This is an incredible video that I relate so INTENSELY TO. I got triggered 3 days ago and have only recovered today. PTSD/CPTSD really is a draining and misunderstood disorder that I wouldnt wish on my worst enemy. I had been experiencing symptoms from age 4-17 completly undiagnosed/incorrectly diagnosed. Finally last year I got an official diagnosis and its been so freeing. Truly thank you for speaking on this 💞 Edit: i got to the end and turns out we have alot of similar triggers, medical is 100% my biggest trigger.

[@DivineDianne]

I have struggled all my life with anxiety and depression. Its nice reading the comments on here and knowing I am not alone. Thank you Molly for sharing your story.

[@spoidabetch]

i struggle with anxiety too