My Quest to Find the Weirdest 90s Toy Ever

[@breenotcheese746]

the commitment to including the "No, THAT'S a chair" every time he calls it a chair, even through the last act, is commendable

[@anilaalbert7707]

Although i think he missed the one here lmao 15:54

[@DaMuhFuknBoio]

Commendable is a word for it. Annoying is another lol

[@ClassiqalOne]

Definitely a highlight for me !

[@CrêpesSuzette-u8b]

he missed one

[@therofllamma]

34:52 missed it here

[@prenzea]

my therapist says that grief never gets smaller, you just grow your life around it. and that also works for the video gear command center

[@MarekKafarek-o2p]

true... :D

[@HeyItsJayIRL]

Or you die inside and become inable to feel grief loll. tmi, tmi

[@RubenDuenas1]

+1000 aura for not saying it's a chair

[@gutgoisback]

Damn, what a cool therapist, even relating it to the video gear command center.

[@Noaartetc]

It really does not.

[@jessberch7041]

The fact that they replied to the email when the company doesn’t even exist anymore is impressive. I don’t even reply to emails and I currently exist.

[@BexMcInulty]

I mean I know what you mean but the implication that the people who responded don't exist is cracking me up.

[@SorrowAvenue]

@BexMcInulty Who the h**l responded?

[@AmyAberrant]

Lmao that’s so funny 😅

[@Hellens.melons]

That’s so real like at least 50% of my phone storage is taken up by unread emails

[@markipliertrash1562]

That's so true and relatable

[@fb39371]

My dad died last year too man, my mom commited the year before, its been....horrid, but i love you so much for sharing the hardcore human parts of you. I cry at the most strange times, i drive for a living and i saw a graffiti wall in boston and it somehow remided me of my mom and i spent the next 10 min sniffling and leaking. Love ya buddy best video ive seen in a while.

[@kdsuki2834]

My dad passed two years ago, he committed as well. I just wanted to say sorry and I hope you’re okay. Merry Christmas stranger and just know someone is praying for you.

[@fb39371]

@@kdsuki2834 I appreciate that, A lot. thank you for the kind words ❤️ I'm sorry to hear about your dad, it's a terrible thing. But he's with you guiding you and in your heart you'll always carry him.

[@judaspotato2527]

i hope ur always thriving and you’re such a strong individual. Wish you the best in life always, keep going dude 🙌

[@fb39371]

@@judaspotato2527 I appreciate that potato, genuinly ❤️

[@williamsencer2040]

hey, happy new years man. It's nice to see you're still around even after all of that, you're strong

[@Shaddowkhan]

Fuck me, a one hour video about a 90s video game chair ending with a unexpected reflection on grief is fucking wild.

[@da1zed]

And is one of my favourite videos ive seen ever, its so interesting, and refreshingly vulnerable

[@alephzero1984]

I wasn't expecting that part tho Side note: "Fuck me" aight oil up

[@slimygastrodon]

‘Fuck me’ Say less 🫦

[@shaun2463]

I started this video earlier and scrolled to this comment when I was halfway through. I read "...ending with an unexpected" and quickly scrolled up to avoid the spoiler. Now I've just finished the video and thought I'd come back to finish the comment. I 100% agree! We've been M. Night Shyamalan'ed.

[@XxtshirtgamerxX-fw7jl]

"No, that's a chair."

[@thenameslauren55]

i couldn't have expected so much humanity from a video about a 90s gaming chair. the joy, the pursuit, the grief, the 10% plastic and 90% attitude

[@w花b]

These kinds of videos like the McDonald's training game on the DS are amazing. It's always an adventure

[@dipbert]

@@w花b That video goes so hard.

[@ssfbob456]

​@@dipbertDid you see Defunctland's search for the creator of the Disney Channel theme?

[@SorrowAvenue]

If you don‘t know it, YOU DON‘T BELONG HERE!!!

[@DistantLoner]

​@@ssfbob456 There's also Jeffiot's video on finding who made the doot doot trumpet skull.

[@julietbeckton6501]

I love how during the interviews Kurtis pretended like he didn’t know the exact lines of the ad

[@_Kuma_]

They’re ingrained in the recesses of his memory for the rest of his life at this point.

[@iminyourwalls03]

“i think it said..” nah you got that ad memorized💀

[@Gubster_Animations]

Uh yeah I think it was at aboutttt… 36secs into the commercial whenn 5 yellow circles hilight parts of the chair while one of the kids says something about “it’s loaded with tons of cool stuff”

[@ORANOID]

It's like when you stalk someone and you know what they've done and when, but you pretend you hear the information the first time when they tell you (it's not from my experience, but from the book "Ready player one". The book is shit, but I've read it as a kid and remember for some reason)

[@wandawhale3568]

😮​@@_Kuma_😅😮😢

[@TheClassyZombie]

I lost my grandma this year. going from feeling really content to being emotionally devastated all over again can feel really frustrating. I really appreciate you actually leaving that in, it helped me feel less alone. I actually started to get big emotions myself in that segment because the fish light and lava lamp are the exact same ones i had in my childhood bedroom. i'm glad you found your chair

[@judaspotato2527]

Just wanna say that you’re not alone, and i’m sorry for your loss. I hope you take time to process your feelings, wishing you the best in life always ❤️

[@lilahmanzanares710]

during both interviews kurtis pretending he didn’t know the commercial by heart is such a funny underlying aspect

[@sheridanfrancis4814]

“I think it says ‘fully loaded with cool stuff’”

[@YoshimiMilk]

Saw a tiktok about a 90's chair, proceeded to make a 1 hr documentary about it... Now that is what we call 10% Plastic, 90% Attitude moment right there

[@That_droper]

Bro it’s not an hour what are you talking about it’s 58mins and 58seconds

[@fizzycoral]

no, that’s a chair➡️🪑

[@fortniteballls69420]

THAT'S NOT A CHAIR R U DUMB OR SMTH BRO

[@kingeryck1]

Now that's 90s X-TREME ATTITUDE

[@sillyman357]

Erm... its the command center, not a chair, doofus

[@davidholm4999]

Imagine making a commercial for some random toy in 1999 and then in 2024 some youtuber asks to interview you for a video about it. That would literally be the highlight of my life if it was me.

[@heywoodjablome5380]

Same vibes as the "Lostwave" artists who find out their song is being searched for after all the years

[@calmonnier2512]

Especially with how much she enjoys being on camera. The daughter too. Like it’s peak for them

[@justanothergamer64]

Imagine being the daughter and having that same youtuber say multiple times how he talked to your mother and you can't say anything about it because he's not lying

[@nexaentertainment2764]

Reminds me of the Defunctland Disney Channel Theme video, where he tries to find who created the famous jingle. Good video if you're into that stuff.

[@chimmychonga40420]

You can tell this meant alot to her.

[@lily8679]

Thank you for including the ending. What you said about finishing the task and then having to confront the emotions you were trying to put off was very relatable. And something about reliving our childhoods just takes us a pretty vulnerable place

[@Spritzzzie]

The way this went from “silly retro chair haha” to crying in the club 😭 great video kurtis and you keeping it so real means a lot

[@tk-ol6iv]

no, THATS a chair.

[@natas3301]

Scammed?

[@Lopholillie]

No, THAT'S a chair 💺🪑

[@gay.people.dont.exist.327]

No, THATS a chair.🪑

[@Enderl4ne]

No, THATS a chair 👉🪑

[@keithmichael112]

I love the 90s advertising tactic of vaguely insulting you

[@SparrowSprings_]

vaguely?

[@goldensloth7]

especially the Daikatana ones... JOHN ROMERO'S GONNA MAKE YOU HIS BITCH. chill...

[@goldensloth7]

and i remember other ads calling you gay if you didn't buy them, lol.

[@GeteMachine]

My house is full of stuff I was bullied into buying through the TV. 😥😥

[@Alucard-A-La-Carte]

People wonder why kids who grew up in the '90s got so tribalistic about the dumbest shit, and there it is. Everything, EVERYTHING was sold to us as "IT'S YOU VS THEM! BOYS VS GIRLS! NINTENDO VS SEGA! WCW VS WWF! WITH US OR AGAINST THEM!"

[@gabrielazarate7865]

Catherine: *talking about her success as a film maker* Kurtis: yeah super cool....sooooo about the VIDEOGEAR COMMAND CENTER

[@jacobfrias7478]

Lmao he looks stoned throughout the whole thing

[@craigchaytor9109]

I'm glad I'm not the only one that thought it felt weird. I really hope the interview focused longer on that so he's not being a dick to the nice lady.

[@MelissaLawrence2002]

​@VVilllewhat happens if my mom's been dead for years, bot?

[@dogexe]

@@craigchaytor9109 he asked to interview her specifically about the chair though lmao

[@nater4327]

@VVillle yo find a hobby and or get a job, this isn’t going to get you anywhere

[@b.w.22]

Dude, this entire video was amazing. Rad to find the Command Center (not chair) and I’m sorry to hear about your loss. I too found the process of grieving my mother to be a complete roller coaster, never knowing what might sneak up and crush me and often wrong about what I assumed would do so. Impressed you left those elements in this, as they really elevate this work into something truly meaningful.

[@trish6847]

Your ability to make an analogy between finding the Command Center and navigating grief is why you were probably your English teacher's favorite student lol

[@starophie]

it's not a chair, it's a fucking beautiful video about love and loss

[@islapurvis]

not a chair

[@senwest1995]

that part :'[

[@nevermind3013]

I ACTUALLY SCREAMED OUT LOUD WHEN IT ZOOMED OUT TO SHOW THE CHAIR I FELT ON TOP OF THE WORLD

[@fishixee]

I ACTUALLY GASPED

[@gracieguerrero9578]

SAME

[@Zoe-Jewel]

WHY DID I READ THE COMMENTS I SHOULD KNOW BETTER AUGH

[@ShallowVA]

I CLAPPED WHEN I SAW IT

[@bustin9549]

I fr cackled, I can't believe he found it lol

[@SailorGenesis.]

40:10 when I tell you I held my breath… I didn’t actually think you would find it

[@dekucake]

"KZbinr talks about an odd or obscure topic, only to dive into a wild and elaborate rabbit hole that leads to solid 90s treasure" is a genre of video I am so happy is becoming more common lmao

[@martinn.6082]

Are we still talking about the Roblox oof sound?

[@dingletun]

@@martinn.6082apparently its vintage now 😭

[@superhellcitizen]

oh? do share more🙏🙏

[@AutumnSun140]

Yes, it's like that guy who found a way to play the old McDonalds Nintendo ds game for training their employees

[@foxinabox5103]

​@@AutumnSun140whose video is this?

[@sophiem399]

grief is so strange. you started talking about your stepdad and the chair bringing up those memories, and it immediately brought up memories of playing video games with my dad as a kid and I started crying too. thank you for keeping it in the video, it’s always comforting to know you’re not alone in grief

[@ella.04]

So sorry for your loss.❤️

[@senwest1995]

just such a human video for real

[@cubisttubist]

Same, my dad bought me and my siblings our very first Wii and we used to all play Mariokart and Wii Sports Resort together, he died two months ago and that part in the video also just brought me to tears. 🩷

[@levelessa]

That sweet woman who sent you the chair and didn’t ask for anything broke my heart in a good way. That’s so kind.

[@maggiebottoms6526]

Fuckin spoiler alert man

[@nana_2354]

​@@maggiebottoms6526uuh ppl will ofc comment about what happens in the video, maybe don't come down to the comments if you don't want spoilers

[@mebrychi6504]

@@maggiebottoms6526if your worried about getting spoiled why’d you check the comments?

[@imdaisybtw]

​@maggiebottoms6526 lmao i know u joking but i spoiled a video to myself too many times. there's smth great about the delayed gratification of winning over my adhd and not looking at the comments before i finish it, recommend 10/10 it's worth it

[@SasukeUchihaOfTheSound]

​@@mebrychi6504 C'mon man they're obviously joking

[@jeffreyhughes7107]

I believe the back bottom thingy is like a kick stand to prevent the command center from rocking. That’s a guess from someone who was 28 in 1999…

[@__AbAbe]

footage of him crying with the abrupt cuts to "no, that's a chair!" had me dying bro

[@SilkyLew]

I felt so bad laughing my ass off during this man's grieving lol

[@Marzi29]

My favourite grief analogy is that grief doesn't go away, or change. It stays where it is, and you grow around it. It still hurts just like it did before, but you become a different person in response. Also that not-chair should for sure be in a museum or something lmao

[@deriendarling]

This is a very comforting way of putting it. Sometimes i feel like I shouldn't be this broken anymore, since it's been 5 years since I lost my mom. But it still feels the same, awful, all consuming way most of the time, and then I feel like I'm doing something wrong in the way I'm grieving. It's fuckin hard.

[@faesylara]

I like a line that says grief is love, adjusting

[@_honnehbee]

@@deriendarlingI think since it was your mother someone your close to the moment your born, it makes the grief a thousand times harder. But look at you, you’re still here living breathing and able to tell us your emotions. I find that beautiful

[@Enfjscrolling]

​@deriendarling five years is also pretty recent in my opinion. 2019 is like a flash, considering what happened with the pandemic. Regardless ... You're entitled to your emotions, and nobody has the right to rush your healing. Please be gentle with yourself.

[@baronessunicorn8208]

I've heard it described like a ball in a room. At first the ball is really big and bumps on the walls constantly. As time goes on, the ball gets smaller and the moments of it bumping on the walls is less and less. The ball doesn't go away fully and you still have those moments when it hits you at random times, but it bounces away and you don't think of it for a long while. This has always felt so true for my grief journey.

[@whimzery]

Grief is weird, a year after I lost my Papa I thought of a dumb joke that I knew he would like and it made me break down crying. Thanks for keeping it real, Kurtis!

[@kyluvsgyu]

relatable

[@G00dTaste]

Help ur the 2nd person I’ve seen in this comment section randomly talking about a dead grandparent

[@PartyTimePPLZ]

@@G00dTaste I just went to my grandfather's funeral a few days ago. The part in the video where Kurtis talked about him dealing with the loss of a loved one really caught me off guard but it did make me feel less alone. My heart goes out to everyone else who just lost a grandparent.

[@G00dTaste]

@@PartyTimePPLZ omg ur the guy :O (also srry about ur grandma, ik I'm kinda being silly around a tough subject)

[@pvic6959]

man. the part in the video about his grief and your comment are making ME tear up. im so sorry for your loss

[@frankiem3926]

so this is like my third time watching this, but i just lost a relative last month, and goddamn. i really get it. i broke down after i won a game in apex and then i couldn't stop laughing at myself. when my brain has some quiet time, it drags everything back up. so thank you for not editing out your grieving process. it really means a lot. there's room for grief in kurtistown!

[@zikhg9777]

The ending reminded me of that story on reddit where the guy replayed an old racing video game that still had the ghost car that kept the record his dad's loop around the track. after his dad passed away the guy didn't play the game for ages. and upon replaying it years later he raced against his dad again and stopped right before the finish line so his dad's memory was stored in the game

[@koutsioj4762]

I actually think about that story from time to time... I think I teared up the first time I saw it

[@shivanihdesai]

Crying rn omg

[@picklebot7690]

as someone who's entire childhood was mariokart with my dad, this definitely made me shed a tear 🥲

[@AndrewJW]

That is a truely great story. It was some racing game for the Xbox that saves the fastest time trial as a ghost racer and the kid hasn't played the game for years. Then he popped it in and discovered his dad's ghost racer on the track and his dad was apparently really good because then he made it his mission to finally defeat him. And practiced over and over again to be able to win for a while. Then finally he was about to win and stopped right before the finish so his dad's ghost wouldn't be gone. Very cool

[@xaviercalvosalvador873]

Oh my God! Two years ago, I watched a short film submitted to a festival (it wasn't picked up at the end) about this same story! I didn't know it existed beforehand the short, and a real one nonetheless according to the comments here.

[@DoodleDemon69]

Went from ballin to bawlin real quick with that ending.

[@Shrubbery130]

Danny: haha, that thing is weird. Kurtis: I MUST FIND OUT EVERTHING ABOUT THIS command center AND ATTAIN IT FOR MYSELF

[@Me-vn3gz]

very autistic coded (im autistic)

[@Nandini_k03]

Bro and he also already posted a video on the chair like 4 years ago😂

[@Kellyeeeee]

THANK YOU I just spent like 5 minutes trying to remember who I had just seen talk about this thing.

[@redninjared]

And Drew just buys it because why not

[@kkatgurl]

@@Nandini_k03what video?

[@sseleneable]

Lost my father 6 years ago and the most random things still set me off. The knowledge that I'm living things I can't share with him, or just seeing a book he would like and knowing he won't read it. Time passes and the memories you have of that person hurt less and less, but it keeps on sucking everytime you remember they're gone and you can't share your life with them anymore.

[@viedal]

i love that you included the extra yapping about the neon green platform sketchers, it has nothing to do w the videogear command center but they're so hyper specific to the time and era that it just adds that little bit of extra 90s to the whole saga

[@GrayWoIf]

Seeing it I was like yep that's is pure millennium esthetic. That girl was probably the coolest in school when she walked in wearing those.

[@cecemimi101]

I was literally in tears laughing because when she said she had an extra bit of info Kurtis looked so exited and when she started talking about sketchers the happiness drained from his face and he looked so upset he just disassociated realizing the info would not help him at all 😂😂

[@viedal]

@@cecemimi101 okay! but he listened! as any man should!!

[@momerathsoutgabe-mt1gc]

Those Skechers are actually really cool. But, I was a 90s kid, and I do miss those vibes.

[@nhnnj]

i was wondering where she was gonna go with that bit of the story. and it was absolutely nowhere. she was just excited to share something nice that her mom got her. so sweet

[@Tronatello420]

Man I did not expect to cry while watching a video about a gaming chair from the 90s. Grief is weird, one minute you can feel awesome and the next it feels like your world's ending. I lost my mom almost 4 years ago and I'm still messed up, this made me think of her in the best way possible.

[@bicuriousdirtbikeboi2594]

I’m sorry dude. I hope you’re doing well ❤

[@curlycocoanut]

literally same. anytime anything happens to me that’s stressful, it makes it worse- i always keep thinking how “damn, I can’t even talk to my mom about this”… right now I was just possibly given news regarding my health and I genuinely don’t know who to talk about it with. I have a ton of friends and loved ones and I’m an oversharer, but for once, I really can’t find the right person to talk about it with. All I can think of is my mom. She was seriously everything to me. Over 3 years later, same thing you and Kurtis said: still getting those moments of just breaking down after a good period of time. I hope you’re doing okay, and like Kurtis said, we’re not alone 🤍

[@Qwertzuioyxcv]

Same with my dad

[@JackHoenshell]

Honestly, respect for allowing yourself to be vulnerable on camera. Its something a ton of people cant do, so I always appreciate it when people dont act perfect on camera

[@azazazz099]

this is wut i thought when i saw his posture fr edit from after watching the entire video, i saw this comment before he talked about his dads passing. i was not trying to be insensitive at all, i actually really appreciate him including that segment of the video. even more so because i relate heavy with the passing of my own mother

[@Bunny_Bill]

Fr. I noticed he dealt with the same initial downplaying of emotions that I do, but then to allow himself full vulnerability felt really eye opening to me.

[@he.said.teenjiejer]

@@azazazz099 it is honestly kinda funny to me that that’s what you thought they meant

[@azazazz099]

@@he.said.teenjiejer yea his posture made me feel better ab myself so i genuinely assumed that’s what the og commenter was also talking about 😭🤣

[@Z0mbiepawzzz]

@@he.said.teenjiejerhi

[@loserhat1]

"How do you process grief? By running from it until it finds me in the middle of a sunny street on a beautiful day." Great video. It hurts/feels great/is maddening that I am older than my sister ever will be. Much love.

[@marla0412]

Thanks Kurtis. My dad passed away almost 3 years ago and the other day I was listening to one of my favorite bands from back when I was a teen for the first time in a while and suddenly felt like crying and really missing my dad out of nowhere. He drove me to my first ever concert (of that band) when I was 13 and it is one of my favorite memories. I hope you're doing well!

[@k.k.7797]

I received an old nightstand from my mamaw after she passed. Ive kept it in storage for the past year, and just recently found a place for it in my bedroom. I opened the nightstand’s drawer for the first time since the estate sale, and out came the smell of their old Kentucky home. It was the same smell I remember when I was a kid and spent my birthdays there, the same smell as when I hugged her. Made me start crying then & there. I’m sorry for your loss, hope I didn’t take away from your story by sharing my own, just wanted to share a similar anecdote! Grief is a strange thing, but it helps us remember how much we loved them & they loved us

[@catfreak613]

As someone who also lost their dad around that time (2020) I completely relate. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday that you were at the funeral or even the day it happened but then when you really think about it you realize how much has really happened during that time. I was a freshman in high school and it’s crazy to think It’s already been a year since I graduated. Time is so weird. Sorry if I overshared and wishing you the best! Grief is horrible but we learn to live with it over time so I hope things are better now. 💗

[@anjanaaaaaa]

the utter joy I had when the camera pointed towards him and the video gear command center 😭😭

[@LunaReina14]

i would never have felt complete again if he hadn't got one in the end

[@annabelleharrison5908]

The way I had to pause the video... I for real screamed

[@zcythegeist]

I for real thought it was edited till he picked it up.

[@ARareAndDifferentTune_13]

I’m punching the damn air over here

[@stormywaters]

I rewound twice I just couldn’t believe it 😂 I thought, had anyone told Jera’s mom?!😂😂

[@anasemelianova5759]

the ending being grieving a father while crying and sitting in an obscure 90s video game chair was too fucking relatable. this year will be the 10 year anniversary of my dads death and tbh that’s the vibe that’s the mood every year.

[@GoofyMcGooberton]

Yea man next year it will be the 10th anniversary of my grandfather passing but kurtis town is here with ypu man god bless you

[@GoofyMcGooberton]

Yea man next year it will be the 10th anniversary of my grandfather passing but kurtis town is here with ypu man god bless you

[@ccherry.berryy]

I’m so sorry for your loss, I hope this video brought you comfort💛

[@ccherry.berryy]

@@GoofyMcGoobertonI’m so sorry for your loss as well. But Kurtis Town has got your back💛💛💛

[@elleirenex3]

Thank you for keeping in your emotions and grief. My husband was a HUGE fan of your content and introduced me. Every time I watch a video, I'm reminded of how much he laughed. He died from suicide August '23. I've also since lost my grandma, my cat, and recently, my brother. I have a lot of memories around gaming with both my brother and husband too. They are special but you're right, grief is weird. I'm so sorry for the loss of your step-father 💜

[@jylssoup]

kurtis is so real for that ending though cuz there;s something so heartbreaking abt doing something when you were younger in your adult body, being fully into the nostalgia only to realize again how much times passed. its sad but also nice to think about

[@micholous]

Very true. Made me cry tho xD

[@morganl6249]

this video is officially kurtis's first detective movie. it had it all: a case, extensive research, interviews, dead ends, plot-twists, emotional turns, and 10% plastic & 90% attitude. genius idea kurt 👍🏼. don't think you could hide your plan from us.

[@StarZInSp_ce]

He would’ve liked this comment but it would give away his plans to agree

[@_ken0]

if he gives away his plans then someone could steal the vid idea and get a vgcc before kurtis does

[@natas3301]

He is training to this job 💀

[@fernpelt54]

thank you for including the grief segment. it takes guts to be vulnerable about that type of thing, and death manages to burn us all, but we aren’t alone. I’m surrounded by grief and death these days, so really, thank you Kurtis

[@edlike]

I hope it gets better for you ♥️

[@elegantdisarray]

💜

[@thedeepestofdives6207]

I wish this was a genre. I’ve only found a couple channels that like do mini documentaries on finding random obscure things like this. I looove the journey

[@Jupiter-T]

I saw one about the map from the old "I did not build this house" video in Minecraft. Very similar to what you're talking about. Have you seen that one?

[@aubrey3040]

I love how kurtis casually started the video by dissing the whole commercial and then started talking to the director of the commercial

[@MasterGeTrecked]

Omori pfp spotted

[@kimberlyblackwell3324]

When you said NINE people lied about having one just to get you to respond, I lost more faith in humanity, but the woman you got it from helped restore it. She's amazing. I'm so happy you got it!

[@FlyingManBaby]

@VVillle you made it worse 💀

[@astrobookwormsinger]

​@VVillle screw you for posting this in a video that talks about grief and losing loved ones

[@harlomints7727]

@@astrobookwormsingerits a bot bruh dont respond

[@iclynnx]

But hey, at least it's only nine out of all the Kurtistown citizens =)

[@karkatavantas]

wait where does he say that I missed it sorry

[@jjuIiana]

49:26 “Call me a dog in a car on a hot day.. cause I’m LOCKED in” *bark* *bark* “let me out..“

[@juzs8238]

he's a genius.

[@kyreekai7805]

I'm re-watching this video and I'm very thankful that you've kept in such a vulnerable moment. My father passed away when I was a child and with his birthday coming up, I've been so hectic trying to find a distraction. Your moment of grief reminded me that its healthy and safe to express my own emotions and my own grief. Thank you for that moment Kurtis, we all appreciate you ❤

[@janderbiorjille1400]

I don't expect Kurtis to read this but I really appreciate that he left in the last part. I lost my dad last month and the message about grief and needing to feel it hit home. It was very big of him to show that side of himself and it's important for men to know that we're supposed to feel the full range of our emotions. Thank you little guy stuck in my phone.

[@MariaAlex2018]

i’m really sorry to hear about your father, however i’m also glad you were also able to get some sort of enjoyment or general advice from this video. please know that you can AND WILL get through this, to lean on your support system, and to give yourself grace. 🤍 from, someone who lost their mother a few years ago

[@ryanrosevest2006]

i’m so sorry about your dad. i lost my mom a few years ago and it’s the hardest thing to get through without wanting to give up. you got this ❤️

[@emilyables5608]

🩵

[@divinestxr_]

I’m so sorry to hear about your loss I’m glad you can find a way too relate to him

[@colepearson4389]

I had to pause to reply to this, I lost my Dad a year ago in April, and what I can say from personal experience, and it may not be the best thing to hear but it will help prepare you, The pain never TRULY goes away, It gets easier to deal with as time goes on and those moments of extreme grief will fade, The thing that helped me the most was knowing that he wasnt going through the pain he was when he was here anymore, Keep your head up and know your Dad was proud of you! Hope you are able to get through this.

[@_kellyfurman]

i love that whenever kurtis interviews someone about his hyper fixation he pretends like he's chill about it.... "i think it said something like * quotes commercial perfectly *"

[@ComicDrake]

Hey there, former member of ScrewAttack here. Slight correction on that. We were bought by Fullscreen and then later that year, Fullscreen bought Rooster Teeth. When Rooster Teeth got shut down, a lot of old ScrewAttack videos were lost for good including a couple that I don't have backups for. :/

[@Zaxlz]

No way it's ComicDrake

[@BESTdonglewenis7254]

Holy crap Lois it’s ComicDrake

[@randomtinypotatocried]

I forgot you were part of ScrewAttack

[@richiekirsch4885]

COMIC DRAKE!

[@antheeia3944]

When is this in the video? Thx

[@IttyBitty412]

OH MY GOD HER PLATFORM SKETCHERS ARE ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE!

[@wayamy27narf]

11:57 THAT WAS MY CHAIR!!!!!!!! The built in speakers were great because you could plug it into the auxiliary port of your gameboy! Plus, the bottom folded out so you lounge like the above picture or fold it in and use as a rocker. I got it for Christmas in 2000, it was the last present from my dad. He died earlier that December, so it very jarring to his scrawl on the gift tags. I thought about him pretty much every time i sat in that chair. It's gone now, but I've never forgotten it, just like how I'll never forget my father.

[@RadioactiveSludge]

RIP

[@TemuPerc]

W father, may he rest in peace 🙏

[@awholelotofdoubting4880]

This chair continues to help people who have lost father figures grieve. Nice feature! In all seriousness, glad to read it brought you good memories

[@LucidNitemare22]

Awh my heart is with you, it seems like your dad loved you very much and wants you to be happy.

[@Riley_Says]

As someone who lost their father 18 years ago, grief still rears its ugly head at the most seemingly random times. I really appreciate you sharing that moment with us.

[@Megan-ef1ml]

I lost my mom nearly ten years ago now, and it’s still shocking how it can hit so hard all at once. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@UnicornsPoopRainbows]

I lost my mom 12 years ago now and it randomly hits me with a bag of bricks. She passed before I had kids and there are so many things I wish I could talk to her about her grandkids. I can imagine her goofy amused face too, my youngest has all over her silliness ❤

[@monikabeachy778]

Same here; my dad has been dead about 16 years now and he died pretty young, and realizing that he will be forever 35 and I’ll one day be older than him is just… yeah. I’m going to get to a point in life he never got to experience and it hurts to think about sometimes lol

[@itsLaura896]

This was an emotional rollercoaster, who would've thought that the search for a 25 year old Chair (yes, I said Chair) would become such a journey of ups and downs, wins and losses and the realisation of how your own mind processes grief.

[@FantasticAlbum77]

No! THAT'S a chair

[@itsLaura896]

@@FantasticAlbum77 👉🪑

[@petra._]

no silly this is a chair 🪑

[@arik.3745]

I’m still young, none of my closest family are dead but this is making me cry because i love them so much and i know I’ll have to let them go one day. Maybe i should also try to get this control deck in case i need to confront my emotions as well lol

[@Arkyn.h]

😡 No, that’s not a chair. THIS 🪑 is a chair! Smh this is obviously a command centre.

[@officialblimp]

53:46 kurtis you showing yourself in this vulnerable light is so great. it is so healthy to have a cry sometimes, and you’re proving how it’s okay during the grieving process

[@michellesaavedra1092]

a year after my grandma died, I made enchiladas...I broke down. something so simple and I was immediately teleported to her and tbh that's beautiful. how awesome that a simple dish can remind me of someone so great who made me feel so much love. I was so lucky to experience that type of love. I'm glad you got to feel like a kid and address some pushed away feelings

[@8ismyluckynumber]

this comment is beautiful. I’m so sorry for your loss ❤

[@michellesaavedra1092]

@@8ismyluckynumber Thank you, I appreciate it🤍 Its been 3 years now but the grief journey is long, as Kurtis talked about in the video. But man, how lucky we are to grieve, it’s just a reminder of how amazing that person was, whoever they might be🤍

[@Tuttifrutti1134]

❤❤❤❤

[@donkbonkbing]

38:31 A message on halloween from a company that no longer exists lamenting on the past? I think that was a ghost... I think Kurtis made contact with spirits from another realm

[@lillyhaun4959]

no literally exactly what I was thinking why else would a dead company respond

[@jasminesanchez414]

The end made me cry I’m not gonna lie. I lost my little sister 4 years ago and the random bouts of crying is so real and happens to me so often. I appreciate Kurtis being so open about his own grief, it truly did help me to see someone who is so consistently positive and lighthearted go through the same emotions I do. My condolences on the loss of your stepfather, and thank you.

[@themorrigan7224]

I lost my Mom 8 years ago now, and will still have crying bouts that just hit me like a truck when I least expect them. It can be hard to remember that we’re not alone, and it was nice to see such a positive and strong ending to this video.

[@ulraiz]

memento mori

[@CaseyCollins92]

You just might be the most relatable KZbinr ever. Thank you for being transparent, it's very respectable. I'm so sorry for your loss, you're doing a great job!

[@TeeklGrey]

I liked the part about grief, it just makes the video more human. Plus I feel like grief and nostalgia are very closely intertwined. Whether you're grieving the loss of your childhood or the loss of a loved one or both.

[@GloballyAware2]

Such a great point

[@jamesclawson9243]

Recently broke down to my therapist about losing my friend, not to death, but distance. Then it brought up "losing" my brother when I got married. Again not really losing but the end of an era. A permanent change in the day to day reality of our relationship. Not sure why I felt like sharing other than yeah grief is weird. And it's absolutely possible to grieve a loss of how things were, happier times, closer connections.

[@lilyannajoy4942]

Kurtis talking about avoiding confronting his grief, and distracting himself, until he could no longer outrun it and it caught up to him when he was no longer overwhelmed with tasks reminded me of this quote: How do you process grief? "By running from it until it finds me in the middle of a sunny street on a beautiful day." I lost my dad 3 years ago, and I related to him crying while playing a video game. I find myself crying while doing simple things that remind me of being young and happy, and having my dad around. I love and admire you more and more every time you post Kurtis. Never stop being real 💚

[@ehkbv]

i cried reading your comment. thank you for being a kind person

[@blackberryink4962]

I had lost my dad about 11 years ago now, and when I say grief never goes away but it does get easier I mean that. I was talking to my boyfriend last night about fond childhood memories and then I just stopped because I still miss my father so much

[@TessaNabby]

Beautifully put.. My condolenes Lily

[@emma-pd8ce]

dude the grief hitting you SO randomly is so real. my dad died last year so I’m in the early stages of lifelong grief too. It sucks so so so unbelievably bad, and the most random things will make the grief take over my whole body for a bit even if I’ve been doing pretty much fine for weeks. Burying yourself in tasks and then the grief catching up to you when you have a break is very real. This video was such a wonderful hyperfixation journey, and I aporeciate you sharing the FULL experience you had. Grief is so weird and truly truly horrible, but it makes it just slightly easier when others are open about their experiences too.

[@niki9185]

So so sorry for your loss. ❤

[@queenedsheeran581]

Your so right I lost my dad aswell a year ago and I had so many breakdowns in school bc there would be a word or a song that would take over body in grief too just everything you said is so true

[@atmywhitson]

*Lifelong* is so true. The thing is, you learn to live with it, and then one da,y, you're crying over photos. Miss my dad.❤️‍🩹💔❤️‍🩹💔

[@potatoman7028]

My dad died a year ago but i for some reason aren't feeling that crazy sad he was a good person and all too i just think it is what it is and don't think about it somehow

[@sinkandbath]

@@potatoman7028Grief is very complicated and different for everyone. Grieving doesnt really have a set form it should look like. For me I didn’t really grieve the loss of someone I cared deeply about for almost half a decade; it may just take some time for your heart and mind to catch up. Maybe you could look into ”absent grief”. But if you are happy with not grieving then that is perfectly fine, I’m happy for you

[@rosexknight]

I lost my dad in 2022 and I completely understand what you mean about the grief process. It never gets easier, but you get better at coping. We all still have the days where we break down randomly. Knowing you're not alone helps incredibly. I hope you have more good days than bad, and thanks for the awesome video

[@josielake9906]

I loved this. The twists. The turns. The heartfelt emotion. The wide shot to reveal the chair? Cinematic. Bravo Kurtis.

[@rubies3071]

no THAT'S a chair

[@carpathianspaceprincess]

My grandpa was born in the 1930's and I was the one who introduced him to KZbin because he didn't know what it was. He was so excited that you could search up any song and he spent hours showing his favourite ones to me. When he died I was devastated. I started using Twitch because I cried every time I opened KZbin. It's been 5 years, and it doesn't go away, but every now and then something on here will remind me of him - like he's still here watching KZbin with me. Today it was your video. Thank you and may your stepdad's memory be a blessing to you, as my grandfather's is to me. Love never dies, and in that way, i think no one is ever really gone.

[@OnceMoreWithLove777]

i am so sorry for your loss. my grandfather passed away a few years ago. i was never too close to him but he was still a strange old man that i really loved. his last words were to my mother: "don't let (my name) go out of her weight class" because he was convinced i should be a wrestler. about a week after he passed away, i was talking to online friends about something unrelated, they didn't even know that my grandfather had died and much less so about what his last words were. someone made a joke about me fighting them, and then said "but with that diet, i guess you won't be in my weight class". in retrospect, it was a really silly thing. but i cried for a long time after that and told them about my grandfather and his last words. to make a long story short, i very much agree with you, love never dies. may both of our grandpas, and anyone else's loved ones, be resting in peace.

[@angryviolentwitchqueen6633]

I’m in the gym tearing up y’all 🥺😭

[@RibsIsTouchin]

How dare you make me try these tears from my own eyes all over my own phone! Jk... rip your gramps and rip Kurtis's stepdad! 😭

[@mustangnawt1]

I liked your post so much, had to share. Miss my Papa terribly too. He was & is my fave person always. Taught me so much, even saved me, drowning in family lake. I used to ask him his faves & burn them from Napster. These songs were probably 55+ yrs old in 2000ish. Some had no lyrics, just music. He was just amazed & tickled pink. Papa passed of Alzheimer’s in Dec of 2020. He was & will always be my favorite person. Helps that my belief is someday I will spend all the time I want with him again one day

[@carpathianspaceprincess]

@@mustangnawt1 me too ❤️ I tell myself that he’ll be waiting for me when it’s my turn. I honestly couldn’t go on in a world where I never got to see him again 🥲

[@Koijn2K]

Appreciate the vulnerability dude, putting yourself out there like that to so many people is hard AF. Bet your step dad would be hella proud.

[@charlesbradshaw5183]

1:38 this is actually exactly what I use. I just game in a recliner. I don’t know why more people don’t just do that.

[@Rafviel]

10:51 that’s my husband, Nervous Nick, in the Video Game Command Center video! He started with Screw Attack in the early days and was there when Rooster Teeth acquired them. It doesn’t happen a lot, but he’ll still get recognized sometimes by a fan when we go out either from Screw Attack or Rooster Teeth. I like to think I’m his biggest fan now :)

[@Edgardx]

NO WAY, Nervous Nick? He was my favorite from Screwattack back in the day, the sketches he was in were the best ones! Cheers for both of you, tell him he has at least one fan in Brazil!

[@Rafviel]

@@Edgardx I will absolutely tell him! He is always so touched to hear from people who supported Screw Attack and him. Thank you so much for your support and be well in everything you do!

[@jonnnnniej]

This is so wholesome ❤ thanks for making me smile!

[@WhatsBliss]

Dude I’m 2 years out from the death of my parents and I’ll be walking through the grocery store and just get randomly sad about cereal or something. It’s bizarre what triggers grief… but it’s part of healing

[@cowboy_like_sophia]

i am so so sorry for what you have been through.

[@blacksabbitha]

this might be my favorite video kurtis has ever made. the storytelling is immaculate and i loved watching this journey of not just finding a video gear command center but coming to terms with the death of a loved one as well. this felt like a movie and i hope to see more long form stuff like this from kurtis in the future!

[@Audrey_1110]

Same!! I love his other videos too but this is by far the best one ever. I hope he makes more like this occasionally!

[@jihyosspicytoenail9921]

@@Audrey_1110 I hope so too! Hopefully without losing another loved one 😅 I loved everything about this video and really appreciated how Kurtis was comfortable enough to show us his vulnerability, but it genuinely hurt to see him cry. I seriously wish nothing but the best for him.

[@davidalvarado9957]

This one and the speedrunning video are some of my favorites on the platform.

[@RH-uc4sd]

I appreciate your vulnerability in discussing grief and I think it was good to leave it in the video. Grief does really weird stuff to a person and has a way of creeping up as soon as you’re not occupied with something. Much love, Kurtis, and please take care of yourself. Loved this video!

[@Derailian]

Grief is like a ball bouncing around a box with a button that makes you sad. Its a big ball at first that gets smaller with time. It can still hit the button at anytime; but its a beautiful thing to remember the good times.

[@laurencollins29]

I just found out about my friend’s death a couple days ago. I needed to hear this. Thank you

[@ashanddoodles13]

it'll be a year since a friend of mine died in a few days so this helped. thanks random internet person, i hope you're doing well

[@gracewalter6766]

Watched this vid the day after my grandmas funeral for some light curtis content. Hit so hard but so good.

[@BrianStorm742]

That's such a beautiful analogy!

[@markipliertrash1562]

@@laurencollins29Sorry for your loss :(

[@almostkristi]

i like how kurtis left in the clips about him being so candid about the loss of his stepdad. when i lost my father, i turned to Kurtis’ videos as a form of escape and comedic relief so Kurtis, if you see this, I’m sorry for your loss, but thank you for continuing to make content and bring positivity to the lives of so many people

[@mebactually]

Thank you for keeping in your moments of grief. As someone who has dealt with a lot of loss in their life (and is also 30, lol), I think it's so important to be honest about the grieving process, especially when you have a way of reaching a lot of people at once. I hope you're doing well, Kurtis.

[@WatermelonWatermilon]

Late but I hope you are doing well too ♥️

[@isabelleassaf589]

I really appreciated your vulnerability here Kurtis, I lost my dad a few years back and I still struggle with it every day, so seeing one of my favorite youtubers be so open about the grieving process really means a lot

[@EliseBrayA]

Ok I didn’t think a goofy ass video about a gaming not a chair would make me cry, but I lost my dad a year ago on July 9th and your grieving process section got me so hard. My dad is who got me into video games, I played them with him all the time. Our weekends usually consisted of going to Blockbuster and picking out a movie and a game to play all weekend, ordering a Pizza Hut pizza and a Mountain Dew, and just hanging out. Any time I do any of those things now I think of dad. Thanks for the big laughs, all the effort you put into this, and your heartfelt message, it helps to know I’m not alone in my feelings.

[@chenobujr]

Yep I know that feeling... It was just hit after hit after hit for my family. Lost my grandpa last September (30th). Five days later, my childhood dog passed away (same day as grandpa's funeral) at the age of 16. If that wasn't enough, my uncle, grandpa's son, was suddenly hit by a car and killed about 2 weeks later. That may be TMI to share, but Kurtis was able to be vulnerable so I thought I could be too lol. I noticed you said you lost your dad on July 9th and realized that was the day my niece was born! Except she was just born, so she's 2 weeks old now! I remember last Christmas Eve, when my brother and his wife announced they were having a baby and after having such an awful October, it was so relieving to finally have some good news. I'm so sorry about your dad, but you're exactly right, you aren't alone in those feelings!

[@marmarmar316]

holy crap, i relate to this almost exactly except my dad passed away on june 21st of last year and instead of blockbuster and pizza hut, we would get nachos and a red box from the gas station. my brother and i have decided that every year on his birthday, we’re going to get 7-11 nachos and a redbox to celebrate the memories that he left us with.

[@rashelly_v]

“miss you a lot…clearly” had me weak 💀 but in all seriousness it means a lot that you included your grieving process in this video. i’m no stranger to grief and i agree that it’s not an easy thing to experience. i, too, will just have moments of remembering and confronting those feelings during odd times. it really sneaks up on ya. don’t apologize for talking about your grief 🫶🏼 love ya kurt

[@anncrim7852]

Not me LITERALLY SOBBING when Kurtis cried. I’m also still dealing with a few people’s deaths and it means a lot that you can show your grieving process and show that it’s normal. (Also it’s totally not weird to cry over a “chair”…because it’s not really a chair. It’s a Control Center.)❤️❤️❤️

[@project_letters]

*command centre 😒 No but seriously, it was heart warming and important that he was brave enough to show a vulnerable moment like that. Massive props to him

[@CzarSanders]

Same. But it 100% is weird to cry over a chair, not a command center that’s 10% plastic and 90% attitude, but a chair? Lame. Kurtis is really uniting a community of us dealing with loss in the best possible way.

[@emmevalentine]

Curtis grief is hard & takes time & the fact you have enough insight to look within yourself and recognise the emotions you’re feeling and why you’re feeling them and I think that’s really cool. And being open about it and crying and shit other dudes would never have the ball to do that.

[@animepenguin7254]

Love the idea of taking to someone who is highly qualified, very professional and does serious work just for Kurtis to talk to her about a 1999 gaming chair commercial lmao

[@anonymixx8106]

I'm really glad he made sure to include basically a micro portfolio of hers before it 😂❤️

[@he.said.teenjiejer]

@@animepenguin7254 i can’t believe you actually just called the command center a chair

[@riseagainphoenix]

I know everyone is commenting about the emotional part but this was the part of the video that really got me. I think taking really silly things incredibly seriously is my favourite type of humour, and also at the heart of it she DID do something cool---the decision to include representation of girls in gaming, the total confidence and command she had of her craft, her willingness to play along and do this interview. She's a cool-ass lady and Kurtis really made that part work.

[@estebanluvs]

@@riseagainphoenixfax

[@skrounst]

43:43 THATS WHAT THEY CIRCLED BACK THERE IN THE AD! You couldnt figure out why the rear was circled, it was OBVIOUSLY specifically designed to lean a chip bag against it. They really did think of everything!

[@bazahaza]

He didn't show us what that back part of the chair does. Looks like the purple wheels bring down feet to stop it rocking?

[@OrigamiMiku]

​@@bazahaza definitely looks like a stopper

[@lizzie.4k]

i was actually gonna comment this loll

[@rizgriz3956]

​@@bazahaza it's probably "wheels" so you could tip it back and move it without having to drag the rocking part

[@ClownCarCore]

Kurtis being vulnerable on camera is very commendable, it’s normalizing and encouraging confronting grief.

[@ryanihm2051]

Awesome video. 10/10. Really cool process and determination in finding one of these things. Sorry for your loss.

[@mtchellie]

THE DEDICATION OF THIS MAN IS UNBELIEVABLE 😭😭

[@lostcatz5482]

hi Kurtis, i know the chance of you seeing this comment is slim to none, but i wanted to thank you for including that segment at the end of the video about loss. i lost my mom almost a year ago now and it still feels like it was yesterday. i am seventeen and about to start my senior year of highschool. all the work i have done to get to that point feels like a distraction from grieving, too. having someone i greatly admire mention the ups and downs of death makes me feel seen in the loss of my mom. you’re amazing Kurtis!! Thank you so much!!

[@anndresvyankina]

I’m so sorry for your loss, darling ❤️😢 good luck with high school, you got this!

[@ruthannnembhard8355]

Womp

[@amateurdechats]

@@ruthannnembhard8355get out

[@carolinacamposp_]

literally cried my eyes out with the ending, i could tell you tried to keep it fun and light but grief is just a sneaky little bitch like that. being vulnerable is scary and doing so on the internet in front of millions is incredibly brave. thank you for keeping it real and for showing this side of you, kurtis. this video was really great, i loved it and im really sorry for your loss 🥺💜

[@TimberedFir2048]

Hey Kurtis, it’s the one year anniversary of the first loss in my life that truly affected me, my childhood dog named Heyboy. I know in terms of loss it’s only gonna get worse from here, but I want to thank you for including the whole last section of this video, because it certainly helps to know that grief is an Everyone thing and we all have to deal with it at some point. That chair fuckin rips btw

[@Usernamesweresrsbsns]

dude, i love you for posting your vulnerable self grieving when those nostalgic thoughts opened up those feelings. people focus so much about hiding all these raw moments we go through. it was important to leave in your video, thank you.

[@sadpatheticbardboy]

exactly. i feel kurtis and i appreciate him so much for this. i never ever before saw a man cry genuinely and talk about emotional stuff. I want to be like him.

[@christinaskittle]

I admire him so much as a person fr

[@peach6200]

as someone who lost their dad nearly 3 years ago I just wanna thank you for keeping in the bit of you grieving the loss of your stepdad, it really hit home when you explained what life is like after losing a loved one and also when you said "it never gets easier". It still hurts me to go past where my dad used to live and i just wanna thank you for talking about it and im sorry for your loss

[@mothmansuperfan7513]

Hell, I'm coming up on 10 years and I still have my moments. Appreciate the vulnerability

[@lucyfer6g6]

Yup, my coming up on 4 years (2020 ..) My brother in 2012 Grandparents... I cry and am reminded so randomly of my childhood and them everyday ... You just have to start living your life in a way that you know they would be proud ... For me , that's the only way to stay sane Well, and medication & therapy..lol I hope for the path of grieving to be as smooth as possible ...and lives of happiness and peace, still holding your lost loved ones hand along the way 🖤

[@beatokach1573]

i hope you’re doing well, losing someone close hurts so bad for so long

[@peach6200]

@@beatokach1573 thank you, I’m currently doing well currently but ofc it comes and goes, my relationship with my dad was a bit complicated due to him struggling with addiction ever since I was born so I feel that has added a lot of complicated feelings to my grief but I’m just kinda allowing myself to feel those feelings rather than trying to ignore them

[@mycazglinski2302]

It's been over a decade since my dad passed, and I still get those moments where the grief hits. Just remember the fact that you feel grief means your step dad had a major positive impact on your life, and you essentially immortalized him in this video.

[@j.t.6456]

The end part about grieving a loved one was very meaningful to me. I still grieve every year the loss of a grandmother figure that passed when i was in middle school. Due to life circumstances, she died alone in a psychiatric hospital pretty much at the same time i was moving away permanently to a different country as a child. Its always left me devastated and she was such a beautiful woman to know and cherish growing up. Its important to always keep the memories alive

[@lillagourd]

this might be lost to the internet void, but hearing you talk about grief and how the smallest things can suddenly thrust you back to those simple moments with those loved ones you miss so much just… hurt, but was comforting. I lost my grandma in September and I think about her every single day. she was the only family member that ever really loved me and was there for me my entire childhood and throughout so much hardship. I miss you so much. I hope there’s KZbin in heaven too so you’re able to watch compilations of silly animals.

[@justagirl4828]

Me too

[@jonnnnniej]

She sounds amazing ❤ wishing you much strength and love! Big internet hug from the Netherlands

[@CurlyWeiner]

My mom and I were literally just discussing grief and she told me this analogy of how grief is like a stone you carry with you. Sometimes it hurts you, some days you can’t stop touching it, sometimes you forget it’s there, but it’s always with you. Even in happy times (when we finally sit in our VGCC) we might brush against the stone and be reminded of our grief and it suddenly feels wrong to be smiling. It’s difficult and painful and complicated.

[@whatwhale5888]

I love that analogy. I'm just now learning to live with my stone, but I'm worried I'll soon have more stones to carry....

[@clivebixby206]

this is beautiful

[@tricia7261]

Very well said! My father’s 6th death anniversary is in a few weeks and this resonates with my journey of grief so deeply.

[@UnicornsPoopRainbows]

This is so accurate. Your mom is a smart lady ❤

[@Staggs2200]

​@@tricia7261 same. My dad died when I was 19 and it'll be 7 years next month. I still think about him pretty much every day. It does get easier but it never goes away.

[@乂]

Kurtis is the only guy who could post an hour long video that feels like 30 minutes 😂

[@Ghostfoxkori]

No

[@DoloresBTW]

​@@Ghostfoxkori Yes

[@Mika_Kagehira.]

​@@GhostfoxkoriYes

[@yaku63]

theres plenty of other youtubers that also do that tho

[@KingOfGaymes]

I didn’t even realize this video was almost an hour-

[@kaibaiarrio1299]

I actually really appreciate the fact that you included the portion related to grief, it still hurts sometimes seeing videos of weird skinny cats doing things my best friend did. I had dj for over a decade, right from the day he was born all the way to his final moments. Im so thankful i got to comfort my favorite orange guy before he passed away, and as much as it hurt the fact that he crawled towards ME to comfort him while he was in so much pain reminded me of how much he loved me. Hes been gone for less than 2 months now, and i miss him so much

[@sarahks02]

the chair starting as a funny thing you wanted to find that you think you would have enjoyed as a child, and then it becoming a way for you to process feelings that childhood you could have never imagined felt like a full circle moment. and it being a metaphor for grief only to then end on a poem about death and grief felt very touching. 10/10 video, will be watching again

[@frogg_tv4774]

using the video gear command center as a metaphor for grief has actually helped me understand my own emotions and grief a lot better. thanks kurtis 🙏

[@jckasz]

grief is one of the most random emotions ever after losing a loved one. some days everything feels fine but some days all it takes to trigger it again is a 58 minute video about a non-chair

[@Megan-ef1ml]

Truly. My moms been dead nearly ten years and everything he said is still true. It’ll never go away, sometimes it feels like I just lost her yesterday, and sometimes it doesn’t… but it’ll always sting.

[@kelseymariexoxoxoxo]

my mom passed a little over ten years ago and it never gets better, just a little easier to handle

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as someone who lost two close relative this year, your grief is not weird!! it was so moving to hear you acknowledge how lonely it can be. thank you, Kurtis, for being so real