my realistic morning routine with anxiety

[@kayliboyle]

hi friends. i’ve been going through the comments and i just want to send everyone a virtual hug. comforting to hear i’m not alone with my struggles. love you guys so so much🤍

[@lblugerman]

Hi! I have the exact same symptoms you do, same triggers same everything. I feel you ☁️ We are gonna be ok

[@erinmcqueen6018]

i have felt so alone my entire life about emetophobia and anxiety and this just made me love you and your channel even more ❤️ thank you

[@Jada_9021]

I love that she is actually real not like "I get up and go save the world"

[@the_realbrix]

Lmaooooooooooooooo

[@mo__1229]

😂😂😂😂😂

[@GenevieveMason]

I've had a similar experience with anxiety. I'd get so anxious at school, my stomach would hurt so bad, I'd also get so bloated. So I kept just leaving school early like multiple times a week (I think I missed like 82 classes/blocks in one semester.. it was bad). I went to the doctor, had blood tests, even had an ultrasound to see if I had something serious going on. turns out it was anxiety causing all of it... but because I knew people get frustrated with people that fake it, I just thought I didn't have it. I also had a friend that has been on anxiety meds for years that had expressed her frustration with people that fake it... so I pushed of getting diagnosed for like five years... just got diagnosed with severe anxiety like two months ago.

[@davie8497]

Wow I relate to this so much. I hope you are better my friend :).

[@nessandsophie]

This is what is happening to me right now and it’s been going on for 3 years

[@tyler_funk]

Another killer video, proud of you :)

[@amariekern3034]

wait what- my anxiety story is exactly like yours. I’ve had it my whole life, would constantly call my mom about my stomach hurting when I was little, and I literally have emetophobia too (the technical term for the fear of sickness and throwing up) I get bad anxiety attacks if I stay up too late. This is so weird to me that everything you’ve said so far is exactly what I’ve experienced. yoga and exercise is what I’ve found is the most beneficial to me. also anything that keeps my hands busy. this shit sucks man. also?? I’m about to start my period too 😭😭

[@amariekern3034]

5:04 THIS

[@vicdee9043]

Omg! THAAAANK UUUUU!! Kk love u! And the REAL REAL’!! I feel so guilty for doing all these same things ‘!!!!!!💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💫💫💫💫💫

[@larissafauland8085]

i just felt completely understood and safe, even comfortable watching this video. wow, thank u so much. that's why i love your channel! i have anxiety and depression, depression is diagnosed, anxiety not fully yet. but bc of my panic attacks i know i have it. and i perfectly get how it feels like people judging you. if you read this thank you sm and sending warm hugs back.

[@JuliMaria]

I'm very interested in your in depth anxiety story. I also suffer from anxiety since I was 5 years old (I'm 21 now). I feel you omg I have emetophobia my whole life and I can't remember a time where I had no anxiety throwing up. I never throw up and that doesn't make it easier because when I feel sick (and I do almost every day) I'm just so afraid that I cry for hours until I feel normal again...much love💕💕

[@asaveraj]

everything you said about your anxiety is literally what I feel. hope you are okay and everything is going well. x

[@tsanti6200]

as someone with a brain who also hates them, this was such a comforting video 🤍 so much love, a bajillion hugs, and positive energy for you and everyone else watching 🌻

[@shellykilgore9879]

I’m new to this channel but I thought I was the only one that overthinks everything and obsessive over it like honestly this helped me !! And now I’m thinking about going to therapy!just saying I appreciate your videos

[@chelseateoni2242]

Wow when you said you remember having anxiety from your first memories and don’t know life without it and how you’ve blocked out a lot of your childhood memories, I relate so much. I also refused to go to school when I was a kid because I got so much anxiety from school. Thank you so much for sharing with us although it’s horrible it’s nice to know I’m not alone.

[@leahshilling5884]

I’m just admiring how real kayli is and I just recently started watching her videos and I literally love her. She is such an inspiration and down to earth. Keep your head up kayli!

[@oatbeverage]

i feel like a lot of people forget that diagnosis and therapy aren’t always accessible for everyone. it can be hard for someone to receive the proper diagnosis and help they need if they don’t have insurance or all the money lying around that it would cost. i’m 26 and i didn’t get diagnosed by a doctor until last year for my anxiety, depression, and adhd, but i’ve known almost my entire life that i struggled with all of those things. i live in canada where healthcare is basically free, but my anxiety and fear of doctors is what stopped me from getting help, which is also totally valid. it’s not wrong to self-diagnose, it’s not attention-seeking, and as far as i’m concerned, it’s ableist to think otherwise. thank you for sharing your experiences with us, it’s really admirable and i wish you all the best, kayli

[@faithhoover7084]

It’s so weird how much I relate to your anxiety testimony, I remember when I was younger I would panic every time I thought I was getting sick, feeling nauseous etc., I honestly feel like my anxiety stemmed from that too. I’ve never been diagnosed but I know that I know that I have anxiety, it’s something that I’ve dealt with ever since I was younger and I never knew what it was when I experienced it when I was younger, I also think I might have some sort of minor depression bc of my anxiety.

[@PinkJG619]

I love that you’re sharing this!! I drink this tea called anxiety free tea from cerebral tea and it helps so much. I get a lot of panic attacks before my period. It’s hormonal. I also have emetaphobia I’m sure I’m butchered that! Throwing up is no fun at all it’s hard to do so it’s painful. I’m tearing up though watching your video cuz it’s nice knowing you aren’t alone!!

[@carlaz9368]

I,ve been in KZbin for years and I never ever commented on a single video. I just wanted to say that I relate so much to your situation and how you feel dealing with anxiety every day. Keep going, you are not alone in this ❤️

[@lilybadessa]

i love how real this video is. there was something super comforting about this video. i’m so proud of you and you’re so strong. 💕💕

[@makaylao7991]

This is why I watch your channel. I'm 25 and have had anxiety since I could remember. Mine is mostly social anxiety so anytime I had to be around people( like starting school and dance) I would panic. Anxiety wasn't really a thing people talked about when I was a kid so I could never relate to anyone and thought something was wrong with me. I'm glad you're talking about it! Thank you for posting this video ❤

[@ericalynn6881]

I’ve always wondered why I was such and emotional person and lately I’ve been so worried about things where I cry and I end up ranting and looking at my past experiences and recent ones I’ve related to so much of what you said, thank you for showing who you are and the things you deal with, Jesus loves you 💗

[@Sometimesijust993]

GIIRRRLLL I HAVE THE SAME THROW UP THING!!!! That’s what started my anxiety!! I’ve never seen anyone else with the same thing before! I always thought I was so stupid for it, thank you for letting me know I’m not alone ❤️

[@mrsclessons7780]

I also had the same thing. I worked hard on it, and now only when I'm anxious does it affect me. But it was bad...

[@Sometimesijust993]

@@mrsclessons7780 I used to get it every night till the point where I expected it to come every night. I succumbed to it. And it’s sad cause I was only 11 and I know there are many young people who go through the same thing. I started to HATE nighttime and as it got dark I would feel my anxiety coming on. It would make me believe I was actually sick and about to throw up, and me believing it was it’s fuel. Eventually I realized it wasn’t gonna go away by itself so I had to do something about it. I started trying to learn how to fight it and little by little I stopped having those bad nights but they would still come often. Eventually they only came 4 nights a year. And that’s where I am now. Except when I do get them it’s no where near as bad as before. Now my anxiety pretty much just lingers on all day every day and it’s nothing I can fix now, I just hope it will fade away with time.

[@laurabonengel2369]

It’s called emetophobia! There’s a subreddit called r/emetophobia on Reddit with over 12,500 members, so you are not alone ❤️

[@gigil8528]

I just watched this but this helped me so much becuase you remind me so much of me and i am 15 and it sucks because i feel like i have had to mature a lot faster than my other friends but i learned not to keep wishing for something that you aren't because thats going to get u no where, so i just learn to deal with my anxiety and depression and learn tips and tricks to help it. thank u for making this video. we need more youtubers like u.

[@funkyoreos9862]

i've just started college and i'm really struggling adjusting. i don't like change as it is and my anxiety doesn't help at all. seeing these type of videos are nice because it shows me that there are other ppl that struggle the same way i do with anxiety, it kinda eases you so thanks for doing this! i wish more youtubers did this (:

[@laurencalleia7500]

I’ve been struggling to get out of bed for days, and this video actually motivated me to get up and be productive

[@kelseyhastings3357]

Btw if you have anxiety, YOU WILL KNOW. I don’t care if people say you need a diagnosis. I’m lucky to be diagnosed, but not everyone is fortunate. I didn’t get diagnosed until 17 even though I know I’ve had it since I was 3.

[@hi-vq9cq]

I still come back to this video whenever I feel like I need it, thank you for talking about mental health on your channel

[@Amelia-wt3xt]

thank you so much for posting this. its so hard to be so vulnerable on the internet especially when you're in the midst of dealing with it. I've been subscribed for a long time now and you're literally my favourite youtuber, your videos always make me smile and its so comforting for me to watch. just because you aren't officially diagnosed with a specific anxiety disorder, doesn't mean you don't struggle with anxiety. there's a difference between sharing your raw experiences and the things you deal with, and just saying you have anxiety because its "trendy". while watching your videos its clear that you really do struggle with your mental health. you are so brave for posting this and it really helped me feel less alone. please don't listen to any of the hate comments, all they are doing is trying to get a rise out of you. you are valid. your experiences and mental health struggles are valid. i would love to see a video of you talking about your anxiety experiences throughout your life. please don't ever forget how amazingly powerful, courageous and beautiful you are. some days, if all you can do is get by and survive, that's okay. but just remember, the storm can't last forever. this pain will pass. pick yourself up and try again tomorrow. please take care of yourself xx

[@kellyrodriguez6160]

The things you do are relatively common because forms of anxiety are very common, I’m confident I have some but mines not life crippling so I just do my best to keep to do healthy things to not make it worse

[@ameliee289]

no because i literally relate to you so much. i have a phobia of being sick and throwing up so whenever i get anxious over something and my stomach hurts i get even more anxious and it’s just an ongoing cycle tbh

[@maadscab4577]

It's real good to know that we're not alone like, I often think that I am the only one that does that / thinks like that / overthinks everything etc, and just listening to you talking about your everyday life and thoughts is very soothing Virtual hug

[@priscillaantonino715]

I don’t think you understand how much of an impact this video has had on me just in the first 3 minutes of you talking about anxiety.. I go 3-4 days without eating because I have no type of hunger no type of feeling to eat.. I remember going to my therapist and asking if everyone wakes up feeling like they hate themselves and life and everything that comes with it and she told me no, the craziest shock of my life.

[@RK-df4dk]

GREAT VIDEO, I also have had anxiety since young. I also have ADHD that was what made me anxious and my abusive parents with each other and us. anxiety groups and adhd groups help as well as therapy. Anyway you must be the first utuber that doesnt wanna show that crying, some actually use the crying, take care of yourself as much as possible bevause now I have severe IBS from my constant diarrhea actually. You are truthful and original and ethical.

[@nyabelle]

The things you just explained in the beginning of the vid described exactly how I feel with wanting to go home stomachs aches at school and hating throw up it just made me feel less alone

[@laurenbennett2426]

You’re my comfort youtuber and I really appreciate you. After bad long shifts as a nurse you refresh me 💕

[@sophiacarbone6652]

I love her so much. She is so strong and honestly really relatable. Love you Kayi

[@cassi7043]

literally everything you explained about your mental health and how your brain comes up with situations and obsess over it i relate to and you have no idea how much this video made me not feel as alone, especially cause i'm battling with my brain every day lately. thank you so much for this video and the awareness you brought. just gained another subscriber ❤️

[@laurenadent4062]

I completely understand about the diagnosis. I believe we know ourselves better than anyone else, especially doctors. We have lived with ourselves our whole lives, and we do our own research to better understand ourselves. I have had anxiety since I can remember, and is been so hard to deal with, and it was not difficult for me to research and understand within seconds that I’ve been suffering from anxiety. Doctors do not know what we have gone through, only we do, so I strongly believe self diagnosis is extremely important. I also however do believe getting diagnosed by a doctor does help validate our beliefs and opinions about ourselves. So proud of you for speaking on this, it’s extremely important ❤️

[@KP-62]

I have anxiety for a long time. I’m on meds and still it feels like that don’t help all the time. I’m with ya girl!!! I know how it feels and what you go through love ya :)

[@emilysoares8696]

honestly this video helped me a lot i've been diagnosed with anxiety a little while ago but i'm pretty sure i've had it since i was little because of certain things that i remember doing or ways i felt that i still do to this day an watching this video made me realize and tell myself that i do have anxiety it might not be a bad as some people i know but i do have its there and i need to do something about it thank you for making this video and putting it out there its helped me a lot i love your videos so much

[@vanessafletcher4620]

I'm in the same situation and it's really is so much harder when people come at u ,thank u so much for sharing ur experience, knowing that someone I look up to understands what it's like to have anxiety, makes me feel a lot more secure, u are so real and so comforting 😻

[@tynajarzabek6999]

this made me feel so much less alone, thank you. sending you all of the positive vibes

[@diyabhaktaaa]

I suffer from anxiety too and your video always make my day :)

[@savysav6930]

I love love how you are so real with us. You're one of the very few KZbinrs that are actually real and don't put this persona up and be someone who you're not. I absolutely adore you 💗

[@skydeharty3142]

Thank u really. I have watch this video 3 times. It really help knowing that im not the only one that get like that at times

[@loulou8018]

please please please do a video on anxietydepression !! i feel so alone in this and ur my comfort youtuber 🤍 ily kayli

[@sadiet8105]

thank you so much for an actual realistic representation of anxiety when i was in middle school my anxiety would get so bad that i would become very nauseous and would end up missing like 2 out of the 5 days of the school week so i love that now there are amazing videos like this for tweens/teens to watch

[@JuliaValentina96]

Honestly I really needed this❤️ thank you for being so honest and real with your anxiety it really helps me feel not so alone😭

[@laceycarroll6525]

one of your hair videos popped up on my fyp so I came to your KZbin, and this is the first video I watched of yours and I love you already!! You are so genuine and real- and thank you for speaking on emetophobia, not many people take it seriously or believe in it

[@BreezyLavender]

The fear of nausea/v-ting is unreal for me. I feel so much better knowing someone else in this world shares that with me (it makes it feel more “normal”). I hope one day we both overcome it, but thank you for sharing this. It means a lot to me.

[@peacelovejess.9015]

I think it’s very brave for anyone to share these thoughts and feelings. Sending you all the best vibes as you work through those things🤎 (FYI - I struggle with the same things and those memory loss/memory issues are often directly related to anxiety and depression. I’ve struggled with it forever and am also someone who needs to make lists and feels calmer when I do.) People are quick to react negatively to stuff like this but don’t stop to think about how hard it is sometimes for people with anxiety and depression to talk about it. It’s often very invalidating to voice it, especially to a camera where you’re not sure how people with respond once you post.. I’d really encourage everyone to keep it simple and if you don’t have anything nice to say, just don’t say anything.

[@jazminee3601]

I agree I don’t think there’s always a need to diagnose some things. Like with anxiety or OCD there’s some people who are so dramatic and claim they have it when they don’t, but when you truly have it you know!

[@alexahume6493]

I’ve been struggling so much lately and this makes me feel so much less alone. We got this ❤️

[@faithalbert-hm7ud]

omgg girl. samess i would make lies to stay home or get picked up from school. My friends would be quite mean because i was staying home and they thought i was lying or just wagging school but i really wasnt. i would even fake my smile, laugh and how i talked t everyone. i love how i have the same connection with you and your anxiety. i even went to doctors about home schooling and other stuff about my deppression. this stuff aint funny to play with or act like you have it because it really does hurt having these problems solving with anxiety. ive gotten in bad moods aswell because how fastrating overthinking was with the anxiety problem. everything you said was basically something I'm still dealing with.

[@ihjathlaka]

I feel so anxious in the las few days.. I’m not kidding these days i wacthed your videos and it helped me. Thank you for this. Luv u❤️

[@mackensiedawn]

i am the exact same way when i am sad, i don’t eat i’m not sure why i’m like that either but ya my body just doesn’t tell me, hope we all can get better and achieve our goals 🤍🎀🍄

[@beberuby2798]

i relate to this sm i’m currently not able to leave the house and haven’t for months bc my anxiety and emetophobia flare up it’s very difficult and this made me feel like i’m not alone

[@staceyleonard3903]

Anxiety is 💯 real. Continue to pray for you sweetie 🙏🏼 Be safe and have a wonderful week love you 💕

[@gabrielaa0006]

Honestly hearing you say that you have been dealing with anxiety since you were young made me feel so much less alone because literally same! I really encourage you to go and talk to someone I know it’s hard the first time when you have to confide in someone but even if you fail, try again. My social anxiety which I had since forever got worse when I moved countries 4 years ago and since then I have also had depression and now besides social anxiety, generalised anxiety as well… I am the same age as you and now I am currently trying to figure it all out for the second time because I have gone to the doctor before and tried medications and therapy and that wasn’t very successful. Now a year later I am trying again. Don’t give up! one thing I try to do now is stay in a present moment because recently I have also been thinking about my future and literally panicking about it. I try to remember that what happens is out of my control so there’s no point thinking about it so far ahead. I would like to hear your full story, I think it would be very helpful. Take care and I know it’s hard to realise it sometimes but you aren’t alone and your feelings are valid x

[@kellyohara7128]

When I was younger through until high school I would never eat breakfast because I would get nausea! & I also never can eat when I’m sad & also love a shower when I’m depressed! Ty for talking about this topic, it’s nice to have someone to relate to (:

[@jessicaminch8139]

thank you for posting this. i have anxiety too, this helps me feel less alone

[@violetaviana1888]

hi kayli. i just found your channel via your hair dying videos (so much fun). i been going thru so much since i can remember. i kept hiding it till i was 20 and i told myself i cant keep going like this, i deserve to be happy. its been a tough road but it has for sure helped me understand the reasons behind all of my mental instability. also, its good that you noticed the mood swings during the month and were able to tell its cause of pms. besides of my meds and therapy, i also take birth control pills that help my hormonal imbalances which of course help me emotionally. im in argentina and my insurance covers literally none of my medical bills, but id rather save up and use that money to help myself. first time i saw you i was like jesus shes beautiful! but after this video i find you ten times more beautiful. thanks for the realness. we need more people like you.

[@shenandoahshelton8115]

I have severe anxiety,ptsd,and depression and believe it or not if I’m spiraling I’ve started picking up a book I know I’ll enjoy to stay away from the phone. It has helped me so much! I’ve had anxiety since I was a child,especially since school. My separation anxiety has been terrible since I was very young and reading,singing,and playing guitar keep my brain busy and it really helps.

[@kristenbalkenhol7884]

You remind me so much of myself!! I relate to you so much. My anxiety has been bad since I was little. It’s been rough 🥲 thanks for opening up!

[@mickthealcoholicbear8311]

i have anxiety, depression, phobias and i am doing much better since i began lifting weights ! it helps me sleep, eat and think better!

[@ryleigh6850]

I love morning routines.

[@rebeccareardon3775]

We are literally the same person. I have been following you on Instagram, but this is the first video I’ve seen of yours. It’s really cool to see your personality especially in such a raw way! I’m glad this was my first impression of you. Everything you talked about is so relatable for me.

[@butterflygirl3812]

I love your video bc when I’m sad u make me happy and I love your video sm keep it up girl

[@paigeleckie97]

my new comfort video, thank you 🤍✨

[@madelinerose8729]

i loved this video so much, i really appreciate how honest and real you are about mental health topics - thank you :)

[@juliemartin7447]

That sounds exactly like me, I’ve always had anxiety as a child but I had a cruel cruel nun In fourth grade that belittled me every day and I’ve suffered ever since.

[@katerinalifevlog]

Hope you will have more and more happy moments and enjoy every day) I do t know what is better dont have appetite or opposite.....i cant stop myself when im sad or nervous, i just eating everything what i literally see, amd that not cool, but it also helps me to control myself, when i see that something goes wrong i just do something new, go to the mountains, seaside, just read in the park, go to the cinema to the new movie etc.!!! Bring more happy emotions to my life

[@christiner8611]

wow thank you for posting such raw and real content I can’t imagine that it was easy. proud of you

[@triscia333]

Wow I can’t believe you’re not a massive creator I really love ur channel

[@yajairaclassproject]

you got this , keep pushing, you are doing amazing .I'm sooo proud of you.

[@lilymu9513]

youre not alone youre amazing youre doin good sisterr

[@annabelleharden]

can you make a video about how you navigate relationships such as your boyfriend etc with anxiety? i’ve found pretty hard myself and would like to see how you do it

[@emilycole6727]

Dude!!! I’ve had vomit phobia my entire life. EMDR is the only thing that has really helped 🖤

[@mzpurple111]

thank you for sharing! I love watching your videos and I relate to a lot of what you’ve shared. You’re doing awesome and you should be proud of yourself 💕

[@mauraa3507]

I have anxiety as well, especially social anxiety. I also have stomach issues that i have different medications for, so stomach aches get heavier than my period cramps sometimes. I went to a psychologist for it, but they never did anything for me, now 2 years later i've decided to go again because i was to scared to even go outside. It can be really tough sometimes especially when your family just doesn't get why you're not going to school and all those things even after explaining several times.

[@kacimasters7534]

Thankyou for posting this, you’ve made me feel so much better

[@heidi1903]

Thank you , love that I've found you, brilliant blog on anxiety, ur so real kayli x

[@geenagreen4321]

i love this sm kayli. keep being you

[@cali-raetennant1392]

I CANT WAIT TO WATCH THIS I LOVE UR CHANNEL !!!

[@bridgetshawphotography]

I felt like I was listening to myself talk. That was really wild. Thank you for sharing with us 🥲🖤 also, that red blotch on your chest was probably just a stress rash. I’ve gotten them after having a lot of intense anxiety.

[@Stephanie-ob8nt]

You are such an inspiration! Keep doing what your doing! You are amazing!

[@Mina-oe2md]

It makes me feel I'm not the only one...Thank you

[@kate_rae_porteous]

Literally the throw up thing I hate the physical symptoms

[@EmilyBeltz]

i we’re explaining ur anxiety and ur fear of vomit and how young u were and omg our minds are exactly the same

[@vanessafletcher4620]

please do coffee talk😻 u make my day so much better, ilysm!!!

[@jamesoniannotti9011]

Girl your story is similar to mine sadly i had to drop out of highschool bc of how bad it got but also they put me on addictive meds starting at 12 wich was not cool but i needed them I built such a dependency on my medication bc they really do take your anxiety away idk its a battle i completely understand you istill struggle til this day but were strong ass ppl you got this i promise ❤

[@jennasasthetics1135]

You might have OCD. I have an extreme case of it and it I struggle to deal with it every single day of my life. I fight it everyday and whatever is going on you can do it too I promise. ❤️

[@NikkiFiles]

❤️ I know exactly how you feel. I made an appointment tomorrow for help because I just cant get past the depression lately

[@ameliee289]

i used to always have ticks like clearing my throat, blinking rlly hard, swallowing, and just randomly doing things. i used to just think it was a habit and i didn’t know why i was doing it. it’s not as bad now but occasionally i will pick it up again and i never knew why

[@Kacey420]

Thank you !! Like so much!! This is just so awesome that you’re making awareness! This helped me and will help so many people you are not alone !! Xo Thank you 🙏🏼

[@vedaszegi1795]

I am so proud of you. Also thank you this really really helped me like atcually!! I love you!❤️❤️

[@savysav6930]

I'm going to say something I haven't said out loud to anybody other than my best friend.( A little backstory) my family has been going through so major problems and it's very scary situations. Like people coming to our house in the middle of the night snooping around, asking where someone is. I was so scared to even GO OUTSIDE OF MY OWN HOUSE. 😭 I'm terrified of leaving the house without my parents because I'm scared of what I'm going to see when I get back like they're not going to be here anymore... I've had panic attacks in public, in the car, and I'll wake up in the middle of the night and start freaking out. I also have weird thoughts of horrible things like it's just random. I feel like there's something wrong with me. But I'm scared to go to the doctor because I'm scared they're going to tell me something bad like I'm sick or something.

[@arammini7120]

this literally help me with my anxiety

[@zalilulu2658]

Thanks for sharing ☺️ Your videos are always so comforting to watch 💕

[@opzuniga6037]

I'm bipolar and I have depression and have anxiety so I know what you're going through Girly Girl. #MentalHealth

[@yahairasishaw]

u should make more videos like this I struggle with anxiety too and I loved this video

[@heatherslove]

I hope you're feeling better! Amethist and jasper helped me so much about my anxiety lately, you might wanna carry around some crystals if you feel like it