My Schizophreniform and Hallucinations

[@ArizonaWillful]

I am truly impressed by how self-aware this young man is, that he can detach from his symptoms and evaluate them.

[@edelgardgoldmann4542]

What a terrible way to live. You seem to be very strong. All the best for you

[@jenniferhahn3106]

IN GERMAN WE SAY "SCHEIßE ZU GOLD MACHEN". MAKE SHIT TO GOLD......TJA.....DISGUSTING OIL BECOMES A DIAMOND.....THINK ABOUT IT. P.S. IN PROPER ENGLISH IT IS TURN SHIT INTO GOLD. BUT NEVER FORGET YOUR GERMAN HERITAGE. ALL LANGUAGES ARE SMART. SOMETIMES THINGS NEED TO BE TRANSLATED IN "THE WRONG WAY". WHATEVER THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE.

[@Laurasjm77]

Hi Alec. I commend you for your openness. Hang in there. You can do it.

[@lauranixon7639]

I found this fascinating as so much of what you mentioned sounds so incredibly similar to my hallucinations, which from what I can tell and have been told by psychiatrists is pretty rare. Seems like lots of people's main issue is auditory hallucinations, and yes I have auditory hallucinations too but not many people that I've come across talk about the other senses. I've had psychiatrists be sceptical of if I'm even telling the truth when I describe things such as seeing a decapitated head on a plate in my living room, a decomposing body beside a footpath, an armchair moving like it's breathing, distorted faces, a luminous swirling purple mist covering everything, etc etc - stuff like that all the time . And they only seem to ask about the voices, not sure why. Or when I tell people that I also never got my drivers license due to how disorienting the distortions in vision and space can be, well it's just no one seems to have a clue what I'm on about, until I just saw you explain it here. Again, im blown away by how similar your symptoms are to mine. I'm not glad you have to deal with this but I have to say it feels good to know it's not just me. Thanks for sharing I appreciate it. Hope you're doing well 😊 (Edit: paragraphs, didn't mean to write an essay lol)

[@barbie7125]

This was one of THE MOST relatable and helpful videos of my life. I mean I think you just described me- I mean this video...is about ME! Thanks.

[@unstoppable7092]

How is your health now barbie?

[@grace0336]

Hope you’re doing okay 💛

[@TheJennymugginsy]

I definitely can empathize with a lot of these symptoms. I guess the worst part is just the fact that you feel like you have no control of your own mind and even reality. I don't have schizophrenia but I did have postpartum psychosis. Never had visual but did have auditory hallucinations and just that short episode I feel had a lasting impact on my life. I don't have hallucinations but I still live with symptoms of social anxiety and paranoia and these are mostly triggered by stress or over stimulation so I'm easily overwhelmed by things that most people don't even think twice about. For example even grocery shopping is a struggle with bright lights, beeping, and crowds of people are the worst. If something triggers me I can start to think people can read my thoughts or that I'm going to lose control and do something that makes me look crazy. So everyday situations that I wouldn't have thought twice about can literally be terror. It makes me feel trapped by my own mind. Schizophrenia does run in my family but I am 29 now so hopefully I am past the age of onset. I guess if I were to get proper treatment for this like some kind of cognitive behavioral treatment I would be able to manage this a lot better but a good psychiatrist that is actually affordable is hard to come by. Well it is in TN anyways. I don't know about other places.

[@TheJennymugginsy]

And thank you for your openness. I know this is going to sound cliche but just knowing that I'm not alone and knowing there's some one out there that is struggling with some of the same issues makes me feel less like a freak. Because I can sit here and think o I know that there a lot of people out there struggling out there too but actually seeing a face to go with it gives me something I can actually relate to on a personal level. And for the longest time I felt completely like defective and useless and only focused on what I couldn't do bc of my disease. But I'm finally learning have pride in my strength that comes with having to overcome mental illness every day just to live my life. Just to freaking be a person basically. We are very strong people. I think that's the most important thing for us to always remember and truly believe to get through this. And prove the stigmitizing majority of the world that are so wrong about all of us.

[@jellyfish_adventures9877]

Thanks for sharing Alec. I'm making a list to share with my psych tomorrow. Your descriptions helped jog my memory. Best wishes to you

[@nikoledidier1218]

You are so insightful about your symptoms. I have Bipolar I and I have experienced visual, audio, tactile, and olfactory hallucinations as well as delusions. I am able to articulate the symptoms too. It is so hard when they are actually happening to you. I am so proud of you for sharing this and it helps so much knowing that there are others out there who struggle. You seem to be doing really well. You are a strong man and I appreciate this video. Keep fighting!

[@salahuddinhaque3589]

Good thing is you are very aware of your symptoms which will help to nip the problem at the bud from getting worst during a relapse

[@captchar]

I have schizophreniform and really feel for this man, my hallucinations have never been as bad as his. Mine are mostly auditory

[@MyOddExperiences]

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[@Morenob1]

I too have smell hallucinations like burning candles, cigar smell or rubber. it's coming at you like a certain wind goes into your nose. Like you might be smelling your afterlife.

[@jimmyjennings4089]

most of us dont even realize how lucky we are just to not have what this guy gose through on a dayley basis, we really should be more thankfull that we are just normal, and it seem's amazing to me how people with things like this can even deal with it, i think i would have to be commited to someplace if i had to deal with even half of this.

[@Laurasjm77]

Alec. My Hallucinations were auditory. It was Hell on Earth. Thanks to the medication Risperdal I do not have to suffer any more.

[@tolisk1338]

yeah but it has developed akathesia to me.it really worked with the voices

[@kevinspaintings1876]

i recently had a week long episode with intense visual and auditory hallucinations. thank gods for Risperidone... haven't heard a peep of delusion since started taking it

[@sparklelight]

Thanks for the kind sharing 🙏🌷

[@shivakami9293]

Om NamaSivaya Hello beautiful soul💙 Have you ever heard about the hallucinations experienced by people who have consumed Datura? They sound very very similar (by my meager discernment) to the hallucinations you are describing. I had mentioned Lord Shiva to you before….consequently Datura is sacred to Lord Shiva. Please pardon me if this is offensive to you, I don’t want to offend but I feel you are so very special to Him. You are special to me too dear💙🙏 All the best to you💙🌙🐍🔱

[@lavelwise9509]

I have schizophreniform disorder...but the only thing is u can't get rid of it....smh it's always something

[@wintergoddess8210]

Thank you for this important information God bless

[@qexzy9803]

152 Subscribers? He should have more for his illness and I hope you get better

[@glass4breakfast]

This was also very helpful for my notes. Thank u! So many videos I've seen either don't give enough specific info, or the person just has trouble explaining n u can tell they have social anxiety n underdeveloped sense of communication, but u r very well spoken n intelligent. Also i found most of those "simulation" videos to be very annoying, not helpful at all, they just repeat the same things n copy off eachother n don't feel real n the voices always sound the same n say the same things. So i was like uh really? All ppl with schizophrenia hear Voldemorts voice from HP being mean n nasty to them? Lol come on. I mean i know it happens but the style n expression of those videos were terrible n felt fake. So again, thank u for your coherent, candid n open communication about it. I feel very sympathetic, even though I've never had any serious mental health issues besides anxiety n depression i know how important n powerful our minds r, n honestly its one of my biggest fears, so i appreciate your struggles n what u must face n i just wanna say i admire how u seem to handle it n wish u the best in life.

[@MyOddExperiences]

glass4breakfast I’m happy to help :) Information will be a lot more developed and I have a lot more experience than I do compared to that in this video once I start posting again. We can talk at [e-mail]

[@glass4breakfast]

My Odd Experiences cool thank u! I really appreciate it.

[@rarecockneyguvnor4945]

I wish you well and i hope one day they find a cure best wishes to you

[@BillyJoe316]

I have auditory hallucinations, but am not able to interact with the noises or voices.

[@m.c8038]

I want to run by you some supplements that have helped me, that may make it possible for you to not need medicine. Diet can help change the chemistry in your brain. Try these and eat a balanced diet for a couple months. I’ll bet you start to feel better and the hallucinations diminish. 1. Vitamin D3 (Jarrow Brand 5,000IU - take two to four per day) - This is especially necessary if you live above the 37 degree parallel (latitude) in the Fall and Winter (typically from September to March). The sun only produces Vitamin D3 in our body when it is 50 degrees (altitude not temperature) above the horizon and even during the Spring and Summer, this only occurs from around 10AM in the morning to 2-3PM in the afternoon. So you have only a 4 to 5 hour window in the morning to afternoon when the sun is producing Vitamin D3, which most people aren't really out during those times, because of work schedule. This is why around 75 to 80% of the world population are D3 deficient! A good source of information on this is Dr. John Cannell. Go research how vital and important D3 is for us! You want your ng/ml (nano-grams per milliliter of blood) to be from 50 to 100 (or even slightly over 100 is fine too!). 2. Magnesium (CALM BRAND) - Magnesium is the driver for Vitamin D3. It’s very important and we don’t get enough of it in our diet on average. 3. Vitamin C (take around 2,000mg per day) - Look up Dr. Thomas Levy and Dr. Linus Pauling for good information on this. The Liposomal type of Vitamin C is the best kind! 4. Vitamin K2 (different from Vitamin K1 - Get the Jarrow Brand called Vitamin K-Right) - Millions of people take calcium supplements to maintain healthy bones. Yet few patients or physicians realize that optimizing bone integrity involves more than taking a single mineral supplement. A critical additional component for bone and cardiovascular health is vitamin K2. Recent research has revealed that, without vitamin K2, calcium regulation is disrupted. In fact, low levels of vitamin K2 are associated with an increased risk of heart disease and atherosclerosis. K2 is the gateway that allows calcium to get to your bones. When you take vitamin D3, your body creates more of these vitamin K2-dependent proteins, the proteins that will move the calcium around. They have a lot of potential health benefits. But until the K2 comes in to activate those proteins, those benefits aren't realized. So, really, if you're taking vitamin D, you're creating an increased demand for K2. And vitamin D and K2 work together to strengthen your bones and improve your heart health.For so long, we've been told to take calcium for osteoporosis... and vitamin D3, which we know is helpful. But then, more studies are coming out showing that increased calcium intake is causing more heart attacks and strokes. That created a lot of confusion around whether calcium is safe or not. But that's the wrong question to be asking, because we'll never properly understand the health benefits of calcium or vitamin D3, unless we take into consideration K2. That's what keeps the calcium in its right place. 5. Coenzyme Q10 (CoQ10) Ubiquinol - it’s a substance similar to a vitamin. It is found in every cell of the body. Your body makes CoQ10, and your cells use it to produce energy your body needs for cell growth and maintenance. It also functions as an antioxidant, which protects the body from damage caused by harmful molecules. (Get the Jarrow Brand - no I don’t work for them, but I’ve heard they are the best in all of these, and it’s what I take). 6. Vitamin B-Right (Jarrow) which has all of the B vitamins in it. Niacin (B3) has proven to be very helpful for those with Schizophrenia and Psychosis. Look up Dr. Abram Hoffer and his research on mental illness and Niacin. Careful with Niacin in huge quantities, as it will cause a 'flushing' effect, but you still want enough to get the benefits. 7. Oxylent (which is one of the best tasting and best multi-vitamins out there in my opinion). It’s got most of all you need in there when included with what I mentioned above. (Those are the main ones above, but here are a few other supplements I take. ChlorOxygen, Serrapeptase {SerraGold Brand}, mushroom supplement called 'Breathe' by New Chapter Life-shield, HealthForce Green Alchemy Protein Powder, HealthForce Vitamineral Green, Probiotics, MSM, Bragg's Apple Cider Vinegar, local honey, and avocados for potassium, along with getting at least a half gallon of water per day - which I drink at least 32 oz. to 50 oz. of water on an empty stomach every morning). And a big one, get a good sleep schedule! P.S. get off of Gluten and/or dairy (as well as chocolate which is a stimulant). People with food sensitivities (especially those with Celiac) are many times more likely to have a mental illness like Schizophrenia.

[@Jasmineflowerkisses]

I’ve unfortunately had taste “hallucinations” where food tastes and smells like rotten garbage.

[@kipkipful]

Litty LeRouge wow thats awful

[@lauranixon7639]

I've had this but food tastes like it's got soap mixed into it. Thought it must be on the plates at first but whatever I did and wherever I ate it wouldn't go away

[@codergames]

Taste hallucination is a real thing, check out Jacob at kzbin.infovideos I don't recall which video it is where he's saying he was tasting olive oil all the time, a taste he hates the most, but it's there somewhere. I personally love olive oil it's healthy, but wouldn't want to have such taste in my mouth all day.

[@MyOddExperiences]

This guy is a fantastic KZbinr. That sounds awful, considering how much he hates the taste. I really couldn't imagine experiencing that regularly. Since this video I've only had one taste hallucination, I tasted copper for a couple hours. It was only annoying though, thankfully copper isn't very gross.

[@codergames]

I taste iron sometimes, even if my gums or teeth are not bleeding or I didn't accidentally pinched or cut my lip while chewing. It's odd, because it's not really a hallucination, it could be anything, maybe even craving for iron, since I'm vegan. I don't know how copper tastes, I never ate copper alone. I heard you saying you hate the smell of b12 in the pee, not sure which video of yours is it in, it has been quite some time since my last visit, says 2 months ago in my previous comment, phew, but that's why I'm wondering how do you know how b12 smells. I'm taking b12 supplements sometimes and these are the supplements that taste of strawberries, so I wouldn't know how it tastes or smell, it's a vitamin that is present in a very small quantities in all supplements. Could it be that you're getting thoughts and that your brain is actually fabricating the information that is missing, for example, you're thinking about how something tastes or smells and then your brain is fabricating that for you, the information you're looking for?

[@ulitmatedakotafan]

Ive had every sense hallucination too but i have had taste. i will taste food that i havent eaten in a while randomly but mostly i will taste alcohol when i havent drank in a while and i can tell what kind, usually coconut rum or spiced rum or different vodkas. it happens every few weeks so not often

[@WWS322]

Are you into the macabre? Horror movies or horror novels? I have been so horrified with my schizo affected disorder that I didn't think I'd enjoy macabre things again. But I guess I'm a stubborn soul and I enjoy the genre. I could read books on nature I really do enjoy that but...I have not had a taste hallucination but smell is associated with taste and I have had good and bad scent hallucinations. I believe anybody can have those scent hallucinations by meditating. Funny thing about getting drunk. While I don't drink today when I did drink and get very drunk I didn't experience spinning sensation but a falling sensation. I'd fall then rise and then fall over and over. I have time distortion big-time I may not need to have an afterlife because of my extended lifespan. Ha, ha , sounds funny I know. One day I had time constriction and I didn't really care for it. I just took things easy that day and stayed relatively busy.

[@nancymedlin3112]

I hear doorbells, and one time I heard a really loud noise, these wakeme up. I see demons in wood grains. Since I’ve been on a good meds things are much better but still have some. My son always said his bones in his toes itch. He has bipolar nos , anxiety, torettes, I think he might have scitzoaffective as well but he’s not dxd. He has psychosis as early as 4 yrs old, he’s almost 18 now. My daughter has major depression and that skin picking disorder and anxiety. We just fixed her meds cause she wasn’t functional and sleeping a lot. Mental illness sux so bad.

[@SavingSoulsMinistries]

i hear door bells all the time, probably spawning back to when i had a traumatic stretch of my life where whenever the door bell rang i was subjected to mental torture

[@grace0336]

I always wake up just before I’m about to doze off because I hear a man yelling

[@idontlikeoutside]

I have a family history with schizophrenia (both parents schizophrenic) and recently there’s been a lot of stress going on in my life. Just this week I started feeling like bugs were on my body and my room has bugs in it often but this time there is just hallucinations. Is this a warning sign or just anxiety?

[@duckydarkstar38]

I used to believe i had bugs inside my body which led me to work out alot because i thought they couldn't survive in dense muscle only in fatty tissue. I worry im being poisoned or bugs in my food so sometimes only eat certain foods ,alot of protein shakes and juicing . Im on meds now it helps with delusions and insomnia but ruins my creativity and i cant make any art lately. No audio hallucinations at the moment tho so thats good.

[@RaysDad]

I once felt termites in my spine, gnawing away at the bone. When I stopped a medication I was taking the termites went away.

[@ryansoulcraft2339]

What do you mean by see, do they look like holograms or like fully physical beings?

[@MyOddExperiences]

They look mostly like holograms except without any pixelation. They are usually mostly transparent but still easy to see. You could also say they look like ghostly versions of beings or objects because they are transparent and not as real as everything else. At my worst, like before I was medicated they might look like solid objects and I might think they were completely real.

[@rileswain]

I know this video is a little old, but I appreciate you sharing your experience. I am currently learning about schizophrenia, schizophreniform, and schizoaffective disorders in my psychology class. I am curious as to the followup. Did your schizophreniform eventually turn into schizophrenia? Did you have to take antispychotics? If so, did you experience any side effects from them? Best of luck to you, my friend. I hope all is well.

[@OS-bs9ky]

I've noticed that all types of antidepressants increase an intensity and frequency of hallucinations and cause you to lose a critic to your symptoms. Did you try some of AD's ?

[@thomasgary1219]

A close childhood friend of mine who was very smart had everything going for him he was well liked by everyone especially women started using meth alot in his early 20s would stay up for days at a time then take a powerful sedative to sleep in the process he lost everything and eventually became completely out of touch with reality. He spent some time in a hospital and has lived in his sisters basement for almost 20 years now i go by there sometimes although he seems coherent amd remembers who i am he just acts like he wants to be left alone. Ive asked his sister if he is schitzophrenic and she said no he's just differen i dont buy it. What happened to him is very sad and i wonder if the drugs drove him crazy or would this have happened to him anyway

[@crispouk3070]

Thomas Gary meth psychosis is different. It’s a result of sleep deprivation

[@chloex4190]

Kinda reminds me of being high all the time ... seems very kinda scary knowingly I hate being high unless I smoke weed.

[@lisam6727]

do you ever see flashing lights? or visual snow?

[@MyOddExperiences]

All the time

[@PoeLemic]

Would the hallucinations of stuff on your floor (2:20) stay put as you walked around? Was it just a flicker of an image? Or, did it have real substance and long-term permeability to you? I'm curious.

[@MyOddExperiences]

Poe Lemic Most hallucinations come and go very quickly or if they do persist they change or transform quickly. When I was really bad and having the hallucinations mentioned at 2:20 though, idk what made them so different but when they got bad they stayed there. They often happened worst in the dark and regular objects would be replaced by horrible things. In the light it’s more subtle and horrid things didn’t often stay in one state for a long time.

[@7MonarC]

Before your diagnosis, did you think that your hallucinations were paranormal?

[@MyOddExperiences]

I thought some were paranormal. I had mild hallucinations for a long time before diagnosis and they were clearly not real (like distortions). Later on when things were at their worst I thought the demons and supernatural things I experienced were real. I quickly became more lucid after being medicated.

[@7MonarC]

@@MyOddExperiences thanks for replying back man 😊

[@KFrost-fx7dt]

Time dilation. Oh fuck that shit!

[@MyOddExperiences]

To be clear to anyone who misunderstood, this is not time dilation like in action movies where everything is slowed down. Everything seems to move at normal speeds, even a stopwatch, but if I were to guess the length of a minute, it would only be several seconds. Same applies to larger scales of time. Looking back, it's hard to say if I experienced actual time dilation. Periods of time could definitely feel very long, but after a while it became difficult to correlate my perception of time with other incorrect perceptions. I think my perceived changes in the flow of time might just be how normal people experience it. With a lot of stimulation at once (or very little), where focus isn't on anything specific, time seems very slow. When focussing on something intensely, time goes faster. I think this is how most people perceive time, but it's possible that schizophrenia distorts my perception of time or that symptoms of schizophrenia effect my focus which effects my perception of time.

[@Mf7d89]

My friends brother has something similar. He will brush his teeth for hours until his gum bleeds because he has no concept of time. Will also shower for hours until someone takes him out.

[@EijaBerg5362]

I think your third eye is open...

[@jskullheisenberg5227]

Possibly, and maybe it's too much for humans to always be open

[@EijaBerg5362]

@@jskullheisenberg5227 yes. Some people see dead people and spirits and hears them aswell. And I tell to say them that they can be if they arent making stupid things or something Else.

[@malikbronson2910]

How Old is this Kid?