My Secret Illness

[@sahara9310]

I got diagnosed at the age of 19... Today I'm a doctor! Not letting the disease define me. :) Thank you for sharing!!!

[@Peek-a-berries]

Sahar Ahmadi This makes me so happy! I was diagnosed when I was about 17 or so... my entire life I've wanted to be a doctor but my mental health (i.e. anxiety due to MS) has got the best of me. However, I'm taking a year off to focus on my health since all throughout university I haven't focused on improving my health . But I'd like to say that despite my diagnosis, I graduated university with honour roll in Health and Medical sciences! Wishing you the best! ❤️

[@amyeades9327]

peek-a- berries That's an extraordinary achievement. All the best to you & keep up the good work. 💕

[@amyeades9327]

Sahar Ahmadi Good for you! Be proud of your amazing achievement. 💕

[@alicelavender6761]

Sahar Ahmadi 👏🏻

[@Nicola.Chapman]

Congratulations on your amazing achievement.Xx

[@WayneGoss]

Darling, have you heard or read anything from Dr. Terry Wahls? She herself has MS and its a wonderful book ... she has lots of information on youtube with TED. Wishing you so much health and happiness darling, i really really do xxxx

[@GreenChapstick86]

Wayne Goss You are amazing. taking time out of your busy day and reaching out to a friend. very few KZbinr's do that. 💕

[@MsEclectic]

Wayne Goss I sent her a link about her too!!! You are reading the good stuff☺️😉😉

[@ShaniMelendez]

Wayne Goss ❤❤❤

[@gillianwills9049]

Wayne Goss ♡

[@Rascoundrel1]

I second this recommendation as Dr. Wahls lives here in my hometown of Iowa City, IA, USA and is highly regarded for her MS work. Please check out her website and consider attending her seminar in August. terrywahls.com/wahls-protocol-seminar-2017/

[@researchick3]

Speaking as a neurologist, please make sure you have been tested for a disease called neuromyelitis optica. This is a rare disease that is often mistaken for MS and has a different treatment approach, so it's an important distinction. It frequently presents with optic neuritis. I'm the type of viewer who never comments, but I would feel completely remiss if I didn't mention this. Best of luck in your journey. You should be applauded for your positive attitude!

[@lisave10]

researchick3 - can you have both at the same time? I only ask because Nic's tests came back positive for MS.

[@researchick3]

MsElle It would be incredibly rare (essentially impossible) to have these concurrently. While​ I don't know the specifics of her workup, the laboratory test most frequently performed to diagnose MS is nonspecific, meaning it can be positive in the setting of several related conditions. I have seen even neurologists forget to consider this alternative diagnosis. I make this suggestion so that Nic can discuss this possibility with her physician.

[@d.on.in.a]

researchick3 I'll like your comment so Nic can see it. Everyone should do that

[@uu7794]

not related to nic but glad u commented this. brings awareness to rare diseases. another often misdiagnosed or thought to be MS is myalgic encephalomyelitis (wrongly labeled chronic fatigue syndrome also). MS gets the most attention and resources from these and many rare conditions are left unnoticed. this brave video brings awareness to MS wonderfullly too and strenght to those who have it like her. Xx

[@evemescall20]

researchick3 I

[@gizem2424]

"He never gave me anything in my life...apart from MS" this really broke my heart, stay strong! 💕

[@soniasilva7079]

He gave her life, he gave her what he new or had, sometimes we ask from people things that we dont know that it actually their were also living with issues, basically they are victims of themselves I hope I made sense.

[@hollywolly1657]

Sonia Silva you don’t know what he has done. She’s not going to tell you everything that happened with her and her dad. He might of given her life, but did he give her love? Maybe not. He might of given her abuse (mentally or physically) You have no clue what their situation is and was.

[@hannah.cottrell5674]

'He gave me nothing my whole life, apart from MS' this is so sad, you strong beautiful talented woman xx

[@zumartin]

Hannah.Cottrell I started crying the moment she said that. ☹

[@christy6873]

It certainly was touching when you said this Nic xx

[@callyd69]

Hannah.Cottrell .It did make me titter that bit.😢

[@snowertalking]

Hannah.Cottrell I can totally relate to her when she said that, my dad never gave me anything except for genes for Type1 diabetes. Good for nothing men.

[@krismada]

Heartbreaking.

[@Nicola.Chapman]

Thank you so much to everyone for all your comment. I am reading them all. I'm not replying as there are so many and I'm. It sure I could do them all justice. Reading is good for the brain which is good as I have done a lot over the last few days with all the comments 😂Please continue to post and I will continue to read them all. It's amazing how many people have their own shit going on and I'm so pleased we are all sharing our stories. Xx

[@cherisenunez2530]

I know how it feels to have a diagnosis of something that is hereditary, chronic, progressive.... and untreatable. I watch my children and my grandson in every move they make watching for signs. The disease population I am in contains a LOT of MS and Rheumatoid Arthritis as well as Fibromyalgia. I get brain fog - I love your brain mush! - I get where I can't swallow properly, currently I've been awake for over 24 hrs with a headache from a related issue in my neck but a new part of it is my eyeBALL hurting... With a diagnosis like these you never know what's coming next, right?! At any point it feels like the body we've known for years suddenly has a new personality and it's very grumpy. I just wanted to pop on and reach my zebra hoof across the pasture (it's a saying related to my disease, I can explain if you wish) and let you know that you are completely not alone, even when alone is all you feel. Never give up, never surrender!! :-)

[@jadeclement739]

Cherise Nunez Ehlers Danlos? Zebra sister!

[@cherisenunez2530]

jade clement - YES!!!! Zebra sister!!!

[@MissDerrec]

You are so strong to post this. MS affects a lot of families and people. You speaking up can help raise awareness. Do not let it hold you back ever. My great aunt had MS and loved life and never seemed defeated. She was an inspiration to many by being an advocate and showing how you can live just as full of a life. Even when she was in a wheelchair it didn't hold her back. You have so much support and love coming towards you but you can help so many people with your platform! Just speaking will help people embrace it. Wear it with pride that you can speak about it and inspire people too. Show people it's not as scary as it seems everyday!! Keep going Norfolk air helps 💖💖💖

[@riokicks7733]

+jade clement I'm a zebra too! Sending spoons X

[@agracescarlet]

Nic, I have been watching you and Sam since 2010. I was diagnosed with MS after a bout of optic neuritis in my left eye (I went totally blind) in 2013, I was 23-years-old. I'm crying because I was so scared at first and I spent probably a solid month just watching you guys while I was getting diagnosed, (especially after getting a horrible lumbar puncture headache that I had to get a blood patch for) sitting in front of my mirror, with my laptop next to me, following along with your makeup tutorials, trying to figure out how to do my makeup half blind, in case I never got my sight back - I did get it back. You guys had so much to do with my recovery. I have been on three different meds - the first one was amazing but I can't take it anymore - and I have had one relapse - in the other eye - since my diagnosis. I don't know why this means so much to me, but I look up to you so much and I just wanted to say thank you for speaking out and showing people that MS is livable. Every word is EXACTLY how I feel and what I've thought and I can't stop crying! UGH, I love you so much for this (and for other things.) Here's to being positive, being sexy, having a real dumb immune system, and living the shit outta life. xoxoxo

[@alys4570]

Aislinn Gavin beautiful post❤️

[@dogcatmom1684]

Aislinn Gavin 💕💕💕

[@alanoudalk7941]

Such an amazing inspiration,, God bless you and wish you an amazing life and Enjoy the journey to the max 🙏🏼💙

[@AaronBosterMD]

Nicola, thank you for using your social media platform to reach millions of people impacted by Multiple Sclerosis. Your bravery in sharing will help others feel less alone. From one MS Neurologist to one person living with the condition, thank you!

[@thres34]

Aaron you are an angel on the earth ❤

[@stacymartinez1258]

My mother has MS since 1998. She is still walking, talking, and living a perfectly normal life. I an honored that she has made it this far and that she met my son because i remember there were nights after she would take her medication and react horribly to it and i would think she isnt gonna make it. But here she is 19 years later babysitting my son. Stay positive and hopeful keep smyelin.

[@mamaginagg2177]

You weren't crying because you felt sorry for yourself. You were crying because of the stress of telling the whole world. Thanks for sharing.. I'm sure you have been encouraging to many people,

[@zaimahbegum-diamond1660]

Mama Gina GG that is sweet. I've never thought of it like that.

[@mollie.28.15]

Mama Gina GG that's made me feel better about myself and my illness. I've always been so angry with myself for crying, I'm always like, man up! Stop feeling so sorry for yourself, there's people worse off then you. So thank you so much for your comment, I feel much better now.

[@JaniceSimpler]

I have MS too...going to be 59 this year and I wake every morning thankful I can get out of bed on my own. Everyday is a good day...keep paying attention to your triggers...maybe one day when your my age they will have found a cure!

[@MsFrogster1]

Simpler Time so beautiful said x

[@OhSoAdrianna]

I was diagnosed with MS last year so I know how you feel. You're an inspiration. ❤️

[@silviamarengo8367]

you closed your video saying that the next video will be much more positive, but, to me what you've just filmed is the most positive message ever. you show your strength no matter what, you show hope and an enormous positivity. you work your ass off, you grow your beautiful children and clearly deeply love your husband and your family. thank you for sharing this moment with us, it was very powerful and beautiful

[@Rowina18]

Silvia Marengo my thoughts exactly! This message here was as positive and as brave as it gets!

[@alexa-paigeparkins7120]

Silvia Marengo yes exactly , i didn't find this negative at all

[@angiemurillo02]

Silvia Marengo no truer words ever said.

[@ladygee1998]

My grandmother has MS and back in May we were celebrating her 80th birthday! You're so strong and inspirational to share your story with us!😘💗

[@vulgarbeauty2354]

georgia 123 my aunt lived with ms til 99 yrs of age and smoked like a chimney 😂 so who says when our expiration date

[@kat284]

Vulgar Beauty this is what make this disease so hard to cure, everyone has a different form. Some die quickly and others live a full life never deteriorating. What symptoms did your aunt have at the end?

[@emmyrose8261]

Hunny - thank you. I don't have MS but I have personally been bedridden the past couple of months after finding out about some medical issues of my own. Your strength gives me strength and made/makes me more motivated to get on with the good parts of life, instead of letting my mind roam to all of the dark thoughts of pity and worthlessness. Thank you.

[@marlenek3412]

Emily Neyman Praying for you.

[@HeyItsRho]

I am 22 and was diagnosed with relapsing remitting multiple schlerosis at 19. When I found out I really thought I was going to die from this. I thought I was going to be in a wheelchair and was never going to be able to walk or swim or do anything. I was so upset because I didnt know what it was. For a very common disease, a lot of people dont know what it is. Ive experienced MRI scans, lumber punctures, double vision, numbness and tingling from my chest down to the point where I could hardly walk. I was in and out of hospital for weeks and off work for months. I get clumsy with my hands and my brain get jumbly and I cant find the words for things but I manage. I take medication and I rest when my body tells me to and I try keep active and eat well. Sometimes I forget I have MS and then I do something and my body tells me that I need to slow down. I havent had a relapse in two years but I do experience a lot of fatique on a weekly basis. Despite all that you just have to live your life to the full

[@Channel24377]

Hi I have ms and I have ringing in my ears and havn't heard anyone say they have this symptom so I'm curious if you have had ringing in your ears and a bit of hearing loss?

[@JimChapmansplus]

Love you xx

[@Nicola.Chapman]

+Jim Chapman you too Jim xx

[@grandpasandwich]

hiya :)

[@demonthunderwolf116]

pixiwoo no matter what illness you live with if it's serious or not never ever go through it alone we're her for you 💛❤️💛❤️💛❤️💛💯😔

[@katelouiseloves]

Jim u are right

[@grandpasandwich]

Jim Chapman hiyaaa

[@cezza7595]

My dad has MS and so does my Nan I have cared for them both for as long as I can remember. I've watched their good and bad times. My dad recently completed a half marathon despite his pain. It can be so hard to watch them suffer sometimes, but it makes me so proud to see them in their good times

[@Ellcia91]

Never commented before. Just wanted to let you know I got MS to. Diagnosed at age 18 - my world crashed. But decided to grab myself all together. Graduated from university, got a job even though everyday I'm exhaused. A year ago my boyfried (who I was with for 8 years) broke up with me because he coudn't take it. Anyway what I wanted to tell is is that I always wanted to become a makeup artist but gave up on it because my hands are sometimes clumsy... Now I'm 26, today quited job. But you inspired me to try again. Tears fall down from my eyes but these are good ones.

[@unicornsareamazing8622]

elaerchard stay strong and bless you, i truly wish you the best of luck and happiness!

[@solvisionx9965]

I wish I could find words to express how much I admire you for being so strong! I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart.

[@debbienunya9397]

Good luck and stay strong! Live for you!

[@fotini777]

elaerchard you insire me. Thank you for sharing.

[@Jisforjen]

You are very brave, and strong. I just want you to know that I believe in you. My Mom has MS. She got diagnosed in her early 20s, and I've seen her go through the trails that it has caused her. She never gave up though, and is still fighting. She is in her 60s now and doing well. I just want you to know that you can get through this. You are beautiful, inspiring, and a fighter. ❤️ this is actually the first video of yours that I've seen, but you are already an inspiration. :) I believe in you❤️

[@JessRose96]

You are incredible!! This illness will not define you, Nicola Haste defines you, your personality, your children, husband, makeup days, nomakeup days, bad days, good days, holidays, parties, quiet nights in, movie days, days out, days in pjs, photos, memories, everything else makes your life, NOT your illness! We're all here to give you as much love and support you need X

[@bunnysofoxy6113]

Dear Nic, I am a silent viewer even though I have been watching your channel for a few years now. I want to tell you are a brave, strong and beautiful woman with a great sense of humour, a lovely personality and a big big heart. You inspire and cheer up thousands of people from all around the world every day and I want to thank you for all your brilliant work and I also want to thank you for sharing this very personal information with us. I think you must really feel it that after this video there is so much love going out to you and coming your way from all of us, your youtube family. I am very glad that you have found your way of living with this illness and I am especially glad that you have such a great family who always support you. You are amazing Nic and you will be fine, I am sure. Lots of love to you!!! xxx

[@carlywelsh7919]

I met you Nic a few weeks before Edie was born, you did my makeup for style me beautiful and I had just finished my cancer treatment. You were so kind and so supportive to me, I remember looking in your eyes (not as creepy as it sounds honestly 😂) and thinking how gorgeous and kind you are. You are really brave for sharing your story and your positivity will get you through. Your husband is just incredible too, what a good man. Xxxxx

[@savannahlthorne]

My mom has MS and is living a very happy, healthy life. She has bad days, but instead of calling them bad, we call them Plan B days. I know how difficult it can be to feel like you're a burden in some ways on your family or to feel like your not the mother you want to be. As someone who is the child of a beautiful woman who has MS, I just want you to know that you're incredible. And your strength is astounding. And so inspiring. And it's okay to be physically tired sometimes, that doesn't make you weak. Your grace is astounding to us. ❤️

[@dtomaxx3576]

savannah leigh Thorne love that "Plan B days"

[@sbh0007]

that's amazing to call it a plan B day. what a positive way of dealing with ur situation. shaping you to be more resilient daily. God bless you

[@Bianca-sq8ot]

savannah leigh Thorne god bless your mom and you

[@aliceh39]

"Plan B days" That's brilliant, I am going to use this from now on.

[@aiomah]

Love that Plan B ❤️

[@closcrazy]

You're not crying because you feel sorry for yourself but because you have been strong for so long & you are entitled to that. Sometimes it is good to have a release. It is important to let it out. Your strength and positivity is truly inspiring. God bless! Xo

[@vickyl5715]

It's always a strange situation to tell people something like that! I reacted the same when I was diagnosed with cancer 4 years ago. I cried for myself, I got it together, I started all the treatment - but when I had to tell people about that, I cried again even though I didn't feel sorry for myself, it was just so crazy to tell it to people I love. I saw how it made them feel. So all the best to you, I think you are brave and just a great woman!

[@Nicola.Chapman]

Thank you loads. Love to you too.x

[@GeekChicPolitiq]

I was diagnosed with MS last month. I'm having to be selective about who I tell so it doesn't affect my work. Thank you for this video, I feel less alone.

[@quadbox]

Talya, I don't know where you live, but I can assure you that you are not alone. Talk to your doctor and they can recommend a support group or what steps you can take in order to get the support you need. You don't have to feel like you do, you just have to muster up a teensy bit more courage and ask for help (I know asking for help is hard!).

[@danielleseetsen4540]

Sending you love Talya. I hope you find the support you need

[@marziadelevo]

Lots of love from Germany! I have a friend who has MS but it doesn't stop her from living life and following her career. I want that for you too. Stay strong!!! xxx

[@BlessedNikki]

For people who don't know what MS is. Basically, there is a fatty tissue called Myelin which protects and insulates the nerve cells and allows them to conduct impulses quickly to parts of the body. MS is when this myelin breaks down, therefore, nerve cells can't conduct impulses effectively meaning the nervous system can't communicate properly and function well. Hope that helped.

[@celinew.3710]

MS is not the only thing your Dad gave you. Because all the horrible memories you have of him made you the person you are today, made you stronger. And you are an incredible, beautiful, strong and amazing woman. The strongest believe that you can have in your life, is believing that everything happens the way it is supposed to happen. Life has got its own rules. ❤️

[@maryem802]

I have MS as well... I found this video to be very inspirational. I cried with you, and know how it feels to be completely helpless and at the mercy of your body. I was diagnosed in 2014. It's nice to feel like you aren't alone, so thank you for having the courage to make this video. MS does not define me, and I'm glad you feel that way too. I wish you the best, and know that 2.3 million of us are fighting this battle with you. XOXO

[@theosburns7794]

maryem802 I as well have ms some days are worse then others but I just push on bless you stay strong

[@alexissalazarr]

I'm 23 & have MS as well. This just made me love you so much more than I already did ... the respect I have for you is immense. My heart is with you, beautiful ❣️

[@lindsayjanelle16]

I was diagnosed when I was 20, now I'm in medical school, with hopes of being a doctor. This disease can be crazy, but it doesn't define me. Thank you for sharing your story! ❤❤❤

[@mollymakesvideos]

My Mam has MS, she's the strongest and most independent woman I know. When she first relapsed we had no idea what was happening to her, no doctors would hear her out and they kept dismissing her. It was heartbreaking to see her so debilitated, I then had to take care of a mother that always takes care of me. I was actually extremely relieved when we found out she had MS and I know it sounds bad because it's a horrible disease, but I was so terrified it would be brain cancer and that my Mam would be taken away from me. It's not a death sentence, but it is extremely hard. She worries that she will pass it on to me, but I'm not worried. I'll just be as strong as her and as strong as you, stay strong you sweet MS warrior💕

[@humairas4082]

Molly Doolan this was lovely to read, wishing u and your mum all the best x

[@mollymakesvideos]

Humaira S thank you so much, all my love xxx

[@nerdycode]

I cried watching this; not because I feel bad for you (you are NOT a victim, you *live* with MS, it doesn't own you), but because it is truly inspiring to see how strong and brave you are. I sympathize with you and truly wish you the best in your journey.

[@jellybayb6072]

Rachel Yordán It was the part where she said "this is the card I was dealt"... 11:14 . A reminder that everyone has something they need to live with. This really was beautiful and inspiring!

[@jellybayb6072]

ok

[@englishrose8350]

My dad is a shit. My dad also has MS. We don't speak because he is an awful human being. But I am so frightened of being diagnosed after watching him deteriorate. You stopped me from feeling so afraid. Thank you, thank you. You are so empowering. Such an incredible person. The MS does not define you in any way. ❤️

[@__Wanderer]

Thank you for sharing - MS needs so much more awareness. I hope it can be stopped someday soon.

[@traceypark3212]

I just want you to know that my Mom had MS from when I was a baby...she was an awesome, brilliant and kind woman who rarely told anyone because she had decided that it would not rule her life and giving it words gave it power (not sure if I agreed with her but it was her choice). Symptoms came and went and came and went for more than 50 years. but she just kept on. She was active and vibrant until she died last year, one month before her 90th birthday. I can only say that I hope you live as long (or longer) and as well. All good things to you,

[@Meemzz15]

As a person who has been recently diagnosed this makes me feel better :) thank you for sharing.

[@donnalady1982]

Meemzz15 here's to you and your journey. As sometime once said "I have MS, but MS doesn't have me.... Good luck xx

[@microsprig]

This is my mum aswell, every last bit, but thankfully she's still here. I'm so sorry for your loss but by the sounds of it she lived a long good life x

[@shaskhaliq7584]

donnalady1982 mdsl00.

[@annacourt7649]

Tracey Park my dad had MS and died from it but he had a great 57 years, and some of the best were in the 8 he had MS

[@johannal5458]

My Husband has MS and I know the support system is a blessing. Be strong 💪 be positive and keep your beautiful smile

[@mgparis]

Best wishes to your husband, Johanna. Stay strong! :)

[@ebitogubonnie5701]

This took courage. I know with invisible illnesses it's tough to open up about your struggles. I know what you are going through, i have me and it's really tough. Pace yourself, do not give up.

[@gamertarantula0615]

Thank you for sharing this. I know how hard it is to do. l was diagnosed with cancer while pregnant 5 years ago. Went through some horrific body surgery. Had zero confidence. While recuperating, I discovered Pixiwoo. You have been a life-line to me when I was very ill. I have been in remission for a couple of years but Pixiwoo has helped give me my confidence back. I'll never wear a bikini again but I'll have stunning make-up thanks to ye! Look after yourself. xx

[@ecopotterscience]

❤️That must have been VERY hard to go through. I have a 2 month old and I can't imagine taking care of him and also knowing I had cancer. You are a very strong woman. I'm glad you found this community and that you are in remission. Sending you loads of love and good vibes.

[@theeliteforce6406]

Powerful video. Thanks for being brave and sharing. My mom has had MS for 25 years. She's a beautiful strong woman like you. Every day is different but she lives a wonderful life at age 67. God bless you!

[@TheBeautyRouge]

So brave for sharing.... your dad may passed down the Gene but your mums strength will see you through 💖

[@rawkin58]

^^^ I love this!!!!!

[@Justyna_N]

Being vulnerable is so hard. Which is why most people attempt to completely shy away from it, or run away from others, who are okay with embracing vulnerability. It's not " sensitivity" it's strength. Keep on being strong.

[@alleycats1274]

You are one brave lady Nic. Thank you for sharing your story. Sending you my love.

[@Munstergal82]

alleycats no words can help nic just huge love and respect to you. keep fighting ❤❤❤❤

[@josiemcghee2285]

So brave to share your story. Keep well Nic !

[@wandamclaughlin8405]

I somehow stumbled on your channel and I have been binge watching. I came across this video. Thank you for sharing your story. You are so right we all have struggles or a struggle. You are one very special lady. I totally enjoy watching your podcasts. Many blessings to you!

[@Jess140594]

Thank you for this video, Nic. You've given me some realisation. I'm only 23, I often lose vision in my left eye, one time I went blind for about ten minutes, I quite often lose strength in my legs and sometimes I stumble or my legs give way. When I'm tired, my speech slurs. My biological Auntie has MS and now I've listened to your story, I'm going to book an appointment at the Drs. Thank you for sharing your experience, and for potentially helping many people in your audience. I hope you're well and that you continue to stay healthy. All the best, Jess.

[@toeders1]

Hi please let me know how it goes, as I have Ms and had a similar story to you. I'd love to talk if you are comfortable to do so. God bless

[@Jess140594]

Emma of course, thank you for your comment. I'll be sure to message you soon

[@toeders1]

Hi thanks for getting back to me, if you want to talk my email address is [e-mail] and I've had Ms for 10 years. X

[@Jess140594]

Emma thank you!

[@anneynonomous]

Please see a sleep specialist! I have narcolepsy and your symptoms sound very similar. I wish you well!

[@sjh112775]

Crying is not weakness. It takes a strong person to cry publicly and an even stronger person to share their lives with a bunch of strangers. Also, you only cried when talking about your family which to me means you're more concerned about how this will effect them rather than feeling sorry for yourself! Also, even if you were to be a single women without a partner or children it's okay to cry when talking about it... after all you are allowed to mourn the life you thought you were going to have.

[@LabNYorkie]

SJ Harden Absolutely beautifully stated. Perfectly stated.

[@sjh112775]

aww shucks... thx xo

[@sarahwithstars]

optic neuritis is a clear precursor MS. if nothing else, you have raised awareness of reporting ANY visual acuity changes. and you have done so much more than that Nic. post lumbar spinal headache is one of the single worse conditions in terms of measurable physiological effects of pain. heart rate, BP etc. the key factor with MS is variability in prognosis. no one knows their timeline. it's a seize the day mentality to push forward not knowing how long remission periods last or time. you are incredible.

[@Carla_1234]

My uncle had MS. He had the worst kind of it and everything happened so quickly. He was in the music business and such an amazing, funny, kind person. I totally feel for you and appreciate you telling us your story. Stay strong xx

[@AdventuresWithALS]

Brilliant video! I was diagnosed with ALS (MND, a progressive neuromuscular degenerative disease) at 28 and when I first found out everything I looked up was so scary. It's terrifying, the hands we were dealt, but you have got to live everyday! Try everything. If I spent time feeling sorry for myself I would miss many wonderful things and that I think could be worse than the actual diagnosis. Thank you for sharing

[@enidanetje]

Thanks for sharing. My auntie was diagnosed with ALS in late 2016 so it touches my heart to hear your positive words. Sending positive energy

[@AdventuresWithALS]

Ofcourse! :) I will keep her in my thoughts

[@Daselyn]

This made me cry and this is the first time I'm ever commenting on a video. I was diagnosed with MS three weeks ago, two weeks before my 21st birthday and I understand how hard it is. I have been crying for a month straight and grieving and i am just starting to digest this new part of my life. I now know that I need to focus on myself and listen to my body when it tells me to slow down. Thank you for this honest video, I see your heart through the screen and your light shines brighter than ever. You are so strong and you will do amazing through all of this, the ups and the downs. ❤️❤️❤️

[@gwenbaby6293]

Dilem Sallabas ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@gwenbaby6293]

I cried with you- thank you it's incredibly brave of you to share I live with chronic pain for twenty years which hasn't been diagnosed but it's comforting to you that there's so many beautiful women out there like you living with illness and yet smiling through it and getting on with lives. Love you and your sister so much. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@joellenaude729]

Sending you lots of love

[@michaelahauser7179]

Dilem Sallabas i just wanna leave a heart for you... ❤️ would be so nice, if a tiny heart could heal those unnecessary sicknesses ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@antolalau]

My sister has MS, she has been diagnosed 4 years ago, shes under a treatment by Dr Coimbra, its the most effective treatment currently, please search about coimbras protocol!

[@libraryfine3109]

I get teary when I talk about my health condition even though I am completely fine with it. I think you've been so amazingly brave to talk to so many people about it. Sending you lots of love.

[@Casertana86]

This is very helpful for all the people that have this ill. You are a great woman, Nic. Keep on doing what you do! Wish you all the best. xxx

[@charityariverpixie998]

It's perfectly ok to cry and I wanted you to know that it's not because you "feel sorry " for yourself , it's because you made yourself vulnerable by exposing something deeply personal to so many people . That is vulnerability , which is honest and authentic, you shared your story from a place of kindness and support So that other people don't feel so lonely or isolated. You did a beautiful thing ! ☀️

[@chantellejefferies1357]

had a lump in my throat and watery eyes watching this, brave woman I understand your reasons for being upset and not being sad 10000 million percent xx

[@erlasigthorsdottir7856]

I was diagnosed with MS at 21, I am 28 now and I do the same as you do. Listen to my body and keep living :) Sending my love💖

[@blushedpinup]

You are a Warrior!!! Blessings to you...you are a Gift!

[@chloea7136]

In all of my four or so years of watching youtube videos I have never felt the need to leave a comment until now. I think you're incredibly brave for sharing your story and I did cry along with you! Not out of pity, but for the admirable way you have picked yourself up and continued to live your life rather than let an illness define you. Your positivity is inspirational and i'm sure you will be helping a lot of people by posting this video! Sending lots of love x

[@KRMariana]

You're a wonderful human being! So proud of you!

[@AuntieFa]

I feel so much closer to you now, I don't have MS, but I have another debilitating chronic illness so, I "get it". You are brave and beautiful, and blessed with a wonderful husband and family. I love you.

[@greenspark101]

Muse You guys are both so strong 💪🏻

[@AuntieFa]

Amy Thanks sweetheart.

[@catalinamaes]

Ditto Muse...about every single thing you said.🙄❤️😘

[@sam11771177]

Your story has brought me to tears. My mother has MS (she was diagnosed 20 years ago) and is able to live a full and happy and healthy life. I know that everyone's disease is different, but I want you to know that it is possible, and I hope nothing but the same for you. Neither my sister or I has MS and hopefully we never will, but from the child of someone who has MS I do urge you to educate your children about your disease. I know your children are young but be open with them about it (in an age appropriate way) and share with them how you are feeling and it will help to take away a lot of their fear. I promise that they will be understanding and supportive and will do what they can to help (in an age appropriate way lol). Seeing my mother going through some of the rougher times scared me as a child, I was afraid that I would lose my mother and afraid that one day I would have it too. The more I was educated and talked to my mother about the better I felt. You are loved and supported not just by your family and friends but by the whole MS community. Love from Texas! xoxo

[@sharonwelch9533]

I'm devastated to hear this. I too have been experiencing problems and have an MRI (of my brain) scheduled this Friday, which will likely lead to more testing. I fear it is MS. This may seem odd given I've never met you or Sam, but you both are amazing people. I follow Pixiwoo and support Real Techniques not only because of your vast knowledge and adept skill, but because you are both genuine and kind...authentic. I love the video of you and your Mom (Mum)...and know where you both get your wonderful personality. My hats off to her for raising not only bright and well adjusted children, but also kind and compassionate. I too am a single mom and have a deep appreciation for the sacrifices she made to keep you safe, healthy and happy. I will keep you and Sam, brothers, Mom and children in my prayers. Stay strong and brave and I will try to do the same.

[@tara26777]

Sharon Welch How are you doing?

[@526mum]

I so hear you. I have lupus and fibromyalgia - diagnosed when I was 13. I didn't even get to finish high school because I almost died. It really is hard to tell people, I think some of it is that in confessing it to others we are forced to fully accept and admit it to ourselves. This was really brave of you...you are such an inspiration to me. All my love from Chicago!

[@bradysbeautyblogSarah]

Rikki's Reviews I have fibro to and arthritis plus skin disorders and allergies.we really do just learn to deal with it and it's so hard mine started in early twenties. Missed out on so much but lots to be grateful for to. Sending gentle hugs xxx

[@jennyreddiough2755]

Rarely ever comment on videos and like to just watch away in peace, but just wanted to say how brave you are and what a great video to raise awareness of MS: no doubt you will help a lot of people by doing this! Thank you for sharing your story and still looking impossibly pretty through tears!! Wishing you all the good health in the world x

[@stephyclaws]

Jenny Reddiough Same, I never comment and she does look stunning. I'm an ugly cow when I cry 😂 xx

[@aparekh6518]

Jenny Reddiough Thank you for saying everything I am thinking

[@leannephoenixbeautyy8144]

Absolutely crying my eyes out for you sweetie as a parent too I can imagine how heartbreaking this is for you. You are such a brave strong lady and you are so utterly inspiring bad days will come and go but all the good days will outweigh all of them and it sounds like you've got this under the thumb so well done you. Sending you all the love in the world xxxxxxxxxx

[@22misx]

I completely understand you. Maybe I don't have the MS, but at my 23rd bday I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Luckily (however it sounds...) it's not dangerous, but, unluckily it very possible to develop into maligant/dangerous cancer. Another minus - it is so deep in my breast that removing this can damage my breast, so, when I decide to have a child, I might not be able to breastfed. What is more - I am in a group of huge risk of cervical cancer. I am just 23... Similarly to you - my breast is sometimes in such a big pain..But this pain reminds me to be happy, to enjoy every moment. I know that the only thing I can do is to eat healthy, workout, have a good sleep and avoid stress. I wish everybody who is sick to be happy and to believe in our future. I know that listening to out body, keeping a balance in our lives will save us. Bless you and your family!

[@jelibeanncoffee2577]

I wish I could give you a hug. Crying is the best way to cleanse your soul and it shows that you are genuinely a caring person and it washes away the negative to make room for the positive. I have many auto immune issues and it's hard because every day is a struggle. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us.

[@michellegruba9208]

God bless you, you're an amazing and inspiring woman. I'm only 40 and have had cancer and was just diagnosed with fibromyalgia, I've no support system or family or significant other, so I'm doing this on my own. Never stop being the strong beautiful woman you are, we are all stronger than we think xoxo 😘❤️💜❤️

[@amymitchell8877]

This past April was the 10th anniversary of being diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.

[@amymitchell8877]

I have myofascial pain syndrome too. I think it's worse than fibro.

[@stormlecat6421]

Michelle Gruba hi dunno if I can help but my husband died in Feb of lung cancer and you don't really get help unless u ask for it, which I didn't I wanted to do it all myself, I was with him when he died at home in his bed and then I slept next to him one last night. I myself am a loner type and don't like reaching out maybe ur similar,I hate asking for help and I also didn't want anyone else to care for him. It was my job. now I'm a frigging widow at 32, if u need to talk I'm here

[@hj6507]

Michelle Gruba we love you and support you, you are not alone ♡ keep fighting! we need you here

[@michellegruba9208]

Thank you everyone for all the love and support, you are all amazing souls, and it really means a lot to me for all your kind words xoxo 😘

[@jessy1088]

This was so touching. I cried with you because it just makes me think of all the battles each person has going on in their life that we may have no idea about. Thank you for opening up and sharing your story

[@melrs7672]

took the words right out of my mouth. My great-aunt had it and she was a spit-fire till the end. You have a tough spirit. Much love, keep on keeping on.

[@zeewong8089]

Thank you for being so brave, and sharing your story with us. It's so important to be vulnerable (in the moment of sharing) and share our stories. But I know you are extremely strong in how you cope, survive and THRIVE every day while dealing with the illness. I personally have chronic eczema on my body that is a daily challenge to manage, it doesn't sound like much but imagine constant nagging itch that you can't scratch, in the most inconvenient places (back of thighs, your elbows, your back, areas you need to sit or put in contact with other things at some point). But anyway. We all find ways to cope. So thank you and I stand with you in sharing stories xx

[@rockstarnurse2693]

Nick you're so strong! I'm so sorry to hear about this, I know you'll handle it like you do everything else; LIKE A FUCKING BOSS!!! I'm a nurse, and have worked with MS patients, and I truly understand your challenges. How awesome is it to have such a loving husband and family to rally around you. Prayers going up.🙏🏼

[@jenGeeJushawshee]

Nic, I have MS among many numerous other serious autoimmune diseases and chronic illnesses. You're doing what everyone who lives with chronic illness has to do for themselves....live life the best they can! Share what/when you are comfortable with, take care of yourself and always try to educate others. You are a wonderful person and everyone has their own struggles. Take care, xx 😘

[@sarahcaplan8350]

(Jen) me too... to everything u said xxx

[@TheCharliet43]

It's taken me 4 sittings to get through this video! Not sure if you remember me Nic but we had our little boys within hours of each other! Last June my husband was diagnosed with terminal cancer, we have 4 kids! To say it's soul destroying is an understatement but we are fighting on, living and eating super clean and fighting with all our strength! So so much love to you Ian and the kids xxx

[@amyeades9327]

Charlie Taylor Charlie, I wish you all the best & will pray for you. I hate to point this out because I'm sure it's just a slip, but you wrote "Sam" instead of "Nic" in your comment. As someone with a few "hidden" illnesses, I have sincere empathy for your struggles. I am so glad you're doing all you can to take proper care of yourself. Bless you, Charlie. 💕

[@CaroLaPrincesse]

I did meet you on the IMATS in London about 2009 and never forgot how kind and lovely you were that day and how you took so much time talking to me and my friends. You are such a beautiful and powerful woman and I wish you all the best for your health and your life. Keep listening to your body very careful and take a rest if you feel like it, that is the most important thing to do: listening to what your body needs. The whole video I felt like giving you a hug 'cause it feels like I've been knowing you for such a long time.

[@angelamartinez6191]

Nic, my mom has MS for 20 years and she is my hero.. she is always with a smile and trying to laugh about all the problems. You can do it too, and live a life full of love, peace, positivity and faith.. I don't feel sorry for you, I admire you and I know you're going to help a lot of people with your attitude and your strength! Xoxoxoxo

[@sarahcaplan8350]

Angela Martinez so great to hear how much love and respect you have for your mothers. As someone who's had MS since I was 18 I'm now 30 along with other illnesses I always wondered if wanting children was selfish. Then I looked at what I have to offer and I realised they will never ever be without love and support and I think that's what children need the most xx

[@johannafr6251]

I'm not one for commenting on videos however this really struck a chord with me. I was diagnosed with MS in December 2016 at the age of 32. My first symptom was also my vision (double vision), followed by numbness from my hip to my toe in my left side. I was diagnosed after having 2 MRI scans which I really had to push for as my DR thought I had sciatica and an inner ear infection. Although I had researched my symptoms online and had read about MS, being formally diagnosed was a shock and I cried every day for a couple of weeks. I was, and still am, terrified of ending up disabled however I'm not going to let MS define me or get me down. I'm now on medication and generally feel ok most of the time. Like you, I haven't told many people about my diagnosis as I don't want people to look at me differently or feel sorry for me. I firmly believe that positivity and determination will mean MS won't get me down! Thank you so much for making this video and raising awareness of this horrible disease. It's so reassuring for me to see someone who has MS and is living a normal, successful and happy life. It's all too easy to read stories online of negative experiences so to see you speak so eloquently and emotively and with such a good outlook on life is really inspiring. Thank you.xx

[@alisonhorton6163]

You are strong, brave, beautiful, and an inspiration to those around you. I am a nurse who sees a great deal of illness, disease and heartache, it is difficult but as you say, it is life. Your Video with help others and you as well. Wishing you much strength and many many beautiful days ahead.

[@heatherhoward7794]

I've followed you guys for years, and never really commented until now. I'm not really a huge makeup wearer, or buyer, but your videos have always been a source of comfort for me, in dealing with depression and anxiety. That's probably really weird, and I can't explain it, but I find you both to be a very calming presence. I'm so proud of you, Nicola, for sharing this with all of us, and for your positive outlook on your diagnosis. I know you will continue to do great things, and walk in strength. I wish you the very best. ❤

[@Dragonflyathena]

Thank you sharing. Sending you much love. So many of us and our loved ones struggle with heavy things like this- it helps to know we are not alone. And it's a good reminder to have extra compassion and understanding for those around us because we don't know what they are walking with. ❤️

[@Peek-a-berries]

I have MS as well... diagnosed when I was in high school. Wishing you the best❤️

[@Nicola.Chapman]

Wishing you all the best too.XX

[@l4ym3n8]

Who on earth are the 67 dislikes on this raw, genuine, honest video? As someone who's spent their life with chronic illness and had to learn to adapt and live with the effects, I can't appreciate this enough. You didn't sugar coat it and come on here all smiley pelting us with fake-youtuber-positivity but also didn't woe-is-me wallow despite all the pain I know with every molecule of my being that you're in. No one's journey is perfect, it's always rocky at the beginning when you find out, nobody ever wants to find out they have a serious chronic illness, and I think you're amazing, amazing, amazing. Thank you a thousand times over for this.

[@sarahcaplan8350]

Leah F I thought that, maybe they were disliking the MS xxx

[@cadence70]

Leah F .... I know right . Probably young girls wanting make up videos . Not fans of Sam and Nic for years . Not knowing anything about them really . Definitely people who are not true fans or have the ability for kindness for that matter .

[@sarahcaplan8350]

Victoria Elizabeth People may have been disliking it because they're upset to hear about her diagnosis xx

[@lorievem]

guys I think they're disliking it meaning dislike she HAS MS. Not like "shut up we want make up". No way people are that evil. MAYBE some dislikes don't feel like you should share personal stuff on social media? Personally I think the more people talk about their problems, illnesses...etc, the more it helps others. God bless her.

[@l4ym3n8]

The thing is, I don't think this sort of content should be discouraged with dislikes. Nobody *likes* MS, and nobody *likes* the news that someone has been suffering, or seeing them in pain. But this video was brave and raw, and heartfelt, and *genuine*, which so often is lost by so many content creators in the effort to please their viewers and keep them happy. You see youtubers post videos about how they feel the need to constantly act happy and positive so that their subscribers are happy, but nobody is happy all the time, why should they have to put up a front, or only share positive news all the time? I think this sort of honesty and rawness and forthright content should be rewarded, even if it is upsetting to hear when your empathy kicks in for the person that is suffering, because as she said in the video, there are ups with the downs too, the strength it takes to deal with this stuff and talk about it should be commended. Nothing is all good or all bad, and she is so brave.

[@vyvii3293]

Aww Nic, I had a wee cry with you actually. This was so moving and I completely understand your tears, you're incredibly strong. It's so amazing that your husband has this level of support for you - what a gem of a person! It takes a lot to speak about these things. Life does indeed go on........ stay strong. xx

[@jadebroadnax3352]

After watching this I realize how true of a person you are. Your story inspires and I'm so happy you have a strong family to rely on, regardless of your past. I had seen one of your videos before, and although it doesn't mean much I'm subscribing to you (and praying, which DOES mean much) because you are clearly a genuine soul.

[@Jenny_bell_key]

Chronic illness is no joke. Sometimes people don't understand that there are days when it just isn't possible to be 100%. I cried right along with you. ❤️❤️❤️

[@jennyyang513]

I appreciate you telling us. My heart is rooting for you. You are not alone.

[@TheEDNC]

So wonderfully touching, uplifting and freighting at the same time. My heart goes out to you for being so real & honest about your plight ... I was diagnosed with advanced MS just yesterday and I too am falling apart inside trying desperately to get a grip on it all. My symptoms are severe and I too am struggling to understand how this may have happened since there are no other cases in my family tree. As a patient advocate working here in Washington DC on behalf of those suffering from another horrific neurological disorder called Arachnoiditis, I've come to realize how important it is to show comfort, love and compassion to those where none exists. Therefore I wish to thank you for reaching out as you have now brought me the comfort, love & compassion where none currently exists.... With running tears... Dennis

[@mikaelaqueen5188]

Girls the more I watch you the more I appreciate you.. so real, so honest, so into life, so NOT afraid of speaking openly. You are really admirable!

[@TanzaniteHayley]

You don't feel sorry for yourself, you know that. Your tears are relief that it isn't something more serious (like you said). Really great video, brave, inspiring. You have dealt with it, that comes across and there is nothing wrong with being emotional. You are probably healthier than the majority of the population! You got this!

[@mspamaloo]

Dear Nic, Now that we are all properly a puddle of tears on the floor, I want to let u know we are all very appreciative of this video. Your strength and passion for life is empowering and quite uplifting. We know how hard it was for you to make this video, but please know you might have helped many people by sharing the symptoms. Many of the things you described are things I've been dealing with for a few years, which makes me think I should get to my doctor to be checked for MS. You are loved by so many people, you have a great support system with your sister, brothers, mom, husband, kids, friends, fans, etc... you'll always be loved. Thank you. You're a gem.

[@jen6185]

Having a mother who also has MS, which has unfortunately degenerated a lot, I am so thankful for you making this video to spread awareness and to also show me that it is possible to be a strong woman coping with this illness. You've put my mind at a little more rest knowing if this is how my life also pans out, I can find ways to still live a happy life. Thanks for sharing lovely

[@sarahcaplan8350]

Jen I am so sorry your mums MS has progressed so much...unfortunately it can happen ... I've had it 12 years and I've noticed the past 4 years or so mine has gradually gone worse... it challenging to say the least and the way we handle it is so different, sometimes it's ok not to be ok but we must try and carry on the best way we know how to. Hope you're ok I know it must be so hard to see someone u love suffer and I see it with my parents and husband... xxx

[@mgparis]

sorry about your mum Jen, hang in there

[@vegangogreengabby5902]

Im crying watching this. I have watched you for years. You made me fall in love with makeup. God bless you. You inspire so many. Im a mom of 4 so I know that feeling (orly a mom knows) when you can even afford to get sick because your kid need you. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@xmollybeansx]

Even if you've accepted your circumstances and you're grateful for your life, it's ok to to feel badly about it sometimes. "Feeling sorry for yourself" is another way of saying you're feeling the full gravity of the situation. That's ok. It isn't self-indulgent, it's real. I have so much admiration for your bravery and your willingness to share what you've been soldiering through. You and your sister are amazing. Lots of love to you.

[@sandyleegarcia8695]

Molly S wow well said. Powerful words to ponder on

[@367Play]

I think I understand your tears. I too was diagnosed with MS 10 years ago. My Father had a terrible progressive course with MS that took his life after a 10 year struggle. The day I was diagnosed I thought my life was over. I cried watching your video because while my disease is generally quiet in comparison to my Dads,I am reminded of the enormous loss I felt/feel with the disease. The mostly subtle physical effects are a daily reminder that I'm not in control of everything after all 😏 But-as you said,,life goes on,,,and it's a good life. We cry maybe for the loss of a free spirit that was taken with a diagnosis of something our firsthand experience with was pretty dreadful. And maybe we cry because we are thankful yet tentative that we won't repeat the course of our Fathers. I believe our lives are full of hope, love, and laughs. My tears sometimes surprise me, but overall,,,I'm not so afraid anymore about MS. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@artist45]

I have M.S. I was diagnosed approximately 13 years ago. I went through a period of mourning and still have days when I have a bit of a pity party. And that's okay. The disease is different for everyone and I've been lucky to still have somewhat maintained my mobility. (I use a cane and a scooter for long distances). My main presenting symptom is pain. Severe nerve pain. Accepting the disease is a part of me but NOT who I am took a while but I survive with a sense of humor and great doctors who take wonderful care of me. While I don't like to give advice to people I don't know, I will share these bits of wisdom that have helped me. Avoid stress if you can. Stress will exacerbate the symptoms. Don't be afraid to accept help. Get someone to come and do your cleaning and laundry if you can. Those chores sap energy you can use doing more fun and important things. Nap, nap, nap. And finally...laugh and live life. Life is a beautiful journey. We don't know what tomorrow holds but we have today and hopefully it's lovely. Sending you a gentle, warm hug.

[@fannyavril4463]

Wow, what a strong, well spoken and wise woman you are. This gave me a lot of strength to battle my own health-demons. Thank you

[@lisasmith3850]

Wow, what a strong woman you are. You will never see the impact of your words on the lives of others. Don't apologize for tears. They are a language of there own and it's good to cry and not hold it in. We, your subscribers, admire you for making this video. We will encourage and support you! And I will be praying for continued health and strength! You are amazing and we love you!

[@alannananaa]

I am speechless. Please know, I don't feel sorry for you because you are a warrior and an incredibly strong woman who is capable of anything and you have proved this in 16 minutes and 54 seconds. I admire you even more ❤❤

[@Tanya-eq3fy]

Oh, girl... I am so sorry. ❤️ it's okay to cry. This makes you human. Thank you for sharing. ❤️ I am hoping you have better days ahead, along with strength, love and support from friends and family. I understand. My grandma had MS.

[@chloemcgregor1911]

You're such a strong and inspirational woman nic! My Nan has had MS for as long as I can remember and although it's slowed her down over the years she lives life to the full and doesn't let it get her down ☺️ she goes to a local MS therapy centre weekly and sits in an oxygen tank which really helps with her energy levels and general well being. Maybe if you haven't already it's worth seeing if there's a place like it near you xxx

[@carolsmith5845]

I have never felt moved to leave a message before but I wanted to say thank you for your courage. Love and strength to you and your beautiful family. xx

[@yonaglass]

Thank you for sharing! It is so important for people with chronic illness to hear from others with chronic illness, especially ones looking and doing so well!

[@emmaphoenixkelly1733]

I hardly ever comment on videos but this was so truthful and important that I just had to. I've had some ups and downs in my family this last 6 months and seeing you speak so eloquently about your illness has reminded me that we all have our struggles and need to focus on the positives in life. I know what you're going through is deeply personal but it has struck a chord with where I am in my life and I know it is the same for the thousands of other people who watched this video. xx

[@anaumzahid5053]

Emma Phoenix Kelly same! such a strong and anazing woman. So inspirational!

[@biorebeca]

Thanks for sharing. Nothing is more important than sharing your problems to know you are not alone & of course you are helping people that has the same problem or similar ones. Huge hugs dear.