My Spiritual Awakening & Dark Night Of the Soul Story - Tools that helped me - Part 1

[@Mr.Yang823]

Trusting this process is the hardest thing to do because it goes against what we were taught by family, friends and society. Letting go causes the ego to grab on even tighter and I believe tries to keep us in fear so it can control us. I'm going thru my second dark knight right now. And it is tough, especially trying you raise an 8 year old. Love and light to all you light workers.. 🙌🏼

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Oh I feel you, that must be tough, but be kond with yourself the same way you would be if it was your friend going through this. I used to overanalyze me so much I would always end up with anxiety till I started meditating daily and then I was fully detached. What do you do to ease it up?

[@Mr.Yang823]

@@ChristinaDRaju I try and go to my breath and try to remember I am not my thoughts. Fearful thoughts come in and it's so hard not to attach to them. This is my second dark knight of the soul. I'm going to start practicing the meditation you recommended every morning before work. So I am grateful I found you. 🙏🏼 Hand a great day today!!

[@IKARIANOFFICIAL]

You made a very good reminder about how many of our friendships can be built on low level commonalities such as gossip, complaining about things, and so on. And these friends often don't want to see us move upward because it would threaten their own way of thinking and behaving.

[@ChristinaDRaju]

indeed, and sometimes it is not even that they do it consciously, it's just that their level of consciousness is somewhere where we no longer want to be and it is not yet their time to evolve.. so we must let go, but sometimes we meet again! It happened to me a few times

[@IKARIANOFFICIAL]

@@ChristinaDRaju - Very true. Btw, even with the wind noise in the video it's enjoyable to see the beach and nature while listening to what you had to say here. If you don't mind me asking, what state is this? I'm thinking it looks like northern east coast beach, or possibly northern California.

[@ChristinaDRaju]

@@IKARIANOFFICIAL Yes, it is a beautiful beach, just like the rest of the country - it's in Portugal. We were just saying that some parts look like California, for example like the Coronado beach, and south in here looks like San Diego.

[@IKARIANOFFICIAL]

@@ChristinaDRaju - Wow, I was really way off target Lol......I guess because you speak such great english I assumed you lived in the US, plus those types of beaches look familiar to here as you mentioned. Portugal seems like a great place to live!

[@angelintuition1962]

Thank you. I am aligning with my true self. I know this because your video came up and we attract what we are! This is awesome. Subscribed! 🤗💜

[@ChristinaDRaju]

AH - We attract what we are - you said it! Welcome Angel and Light and Love to you!

[@Yonah_144]

Christina, I haven't been immersed in video games and movies for years. I also have read hundreds of books on spirituality. All I do is meditate and watch a little TV. I want my life to be more exciting, but not sure what to do.

[@ChristinaDRaju]

You are in absolute control, what else makes you excited? Any sport, or any other type of expression?

[@mayhorseradish]

So excited to find your channel! I'm going through this right now because of a similar experience to you, where my body/mind put me in no choice but to change. Love the wisdom you give in the video.

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Thank you Melaaa! Yes, when we don’t listen, sooner or later we find ourselves pushed in the corner with no other option but to rebuild everything from the base. I hope you are fine by now?

[@mayhorseradish]

@@ChristinaDRaju 100% agree with you, there is no other option! I'm still on my healing journey but getting better all the time, and so much better than I was before. At some points I'm even thankful for this journey although it's taken me to the darkest and back. Thank you for asking 😊

[@davef6739]

Hi Christina - as always - thanks for sharing your story and your perspective. I've found that in the phases of my spiritual growth there was a certain amount of pain involved. The darkness had to surface to healed by the light. I resonate with the idea of the fires of purification - the fires were burning away that which did not serve my highest self. And while they were burning, it was painful. But eventually that which does not serve my highest good is burned away and the fires don't have to burn it anymore. Afterwards, I have gotten even closer to that highest self - and any pain I went through was worth it.

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Hi Dave, I like what you said - the darkness had to surface to get healed by the light. One thing i realized when I went through it was that there was no escape. I had to look at my blocks and the way I lived and see how much it correlated and that it was time to unprison myself. Do you feel like you are NOW THE PERSON you were destined to be? (doesn't mean if fully developed yet, but on that path).

[@davef6739]

Hi Christina - I like the way you phrased your question. I am definitely on the path of being the person I'm destined to be. I'm still cleaning up some of my self-imposed blocks, but in a way that IS part of the person I'm destined to be - I'm doing the work I need to do to free myself. I have been blessed with many times where I am living from that highest self, and the pure joy of those times is just motivation to keep doing the work. I agree with you - there is no escape. That is one of the reasons I like your videos so much - you keep it real - we do have to do the work and go through some of those not-so-pleasant times so we can heal our wounds and live more and more from the highest self. The progress can seem slow at times, but it is working. Sometimes I will feel like I'm not making progress, but I'll reflect back and it's like - wow, look how far I've come compared to 5 years ago. A perfect example for me was when Covid first hit. The media hit us with so much fear-based information, and almost made it sound like the human population was going to be wiped of the face of the planet. But I had almost zero stress over it. I knew I'd be okay. I remember thinking at the time that if it had happened 5 years earlier I would have been freaked out and caught up in fear. When I really reflect back, all the has unfolded on the path of my life has been perfect for what I needed to learn.

[@VAANYA9]

Namaste beautiful soul. My experience was very similar with yours in terms of moving away from people and depressing moments. There were days I didn't even want to talk to anyone. Sounds of nature was comforting, people not at all. If happiness is our only pursuit, the soul doesn't evolve. Defeats the whole purpose of rebirth.

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Namaskar Vaanya. It sounds very similar to me, yes. Nothing makes me happier than to be left alone in a forest. My family thinks it sounds like a horror movie plot, haha, I know it is the only place where my soul genuinely cheers. And indeed, there is no escape in the realm of duality but to find beauty and contentment in both sides of life. Then, we will be truly liberated and then there is no point in rebirth.

[@outcastd12]

Thank you! Appreciate the time taken and confidence generated progressively to share this.

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Thank you for watching!

[@a.k7839]

Many blessings and love to you. May God bless you my dear🤲🙏❤️

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Light and Love to you too!

[@kaustubhmore2654]

Good to see you christina😍😍😍♥️♥️♥️

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Thank you Kaustubh, have a lovely week!

[@notathletic4171]

Dear Christina I had a question. I'm at the phase where I feel extremely content it's almost idyllic. I don't feel the need to be on the phone to keep myself entertained. I could look outside my window for hours and write poems. I don't feel the need to talk with people at all like I couldn't care less although my ego sometimes tells me I'm a loser I quell it and I just celebrate my wholeness. Can you give me any advise on this, mostly with the conversing with people part?

[@IKARIANOFFICIAL]

I realize your question is for Christina and not me, but if you don't mind, I would like to share a few thoughts with you. It could be that you need some time alone in this present moment to focus on your inner world for however long that may be. As an introvert (I'm one as well), we can easily spend much of our time alone and feel good, so there's nothing wrong with that. The one caution I might give, is to be aware if you might be avoiding people out of fear of being emotionally hurt in some way. It can feel safer to avoid people and be left alone, as then there is no one to hurt us. So I would say feel free to enjoy your alone time, and when ready, be open to being vulnerable to other people as well. Yes, other people will always hurt us in some way big or small, but it's part of the process of growing beyond the ego as well. We all have an ego, and it does serve some important purposes, so what we want is to be in control over it rather than it controlling us, as it does for most people. Ego has strong attachments to fear, pride, being a victim, or victimizing others. And we all struggle to some degree with one or more of those. And it's other people who are most likely to trigger it within us which is needed for growth if we are able to observe when it happens within us.

[@Rooster1976_1]

How do I know the signs that I’m having a spiritual awakening? I’m feeling sad. I’m likening being alone. My old friend I can’t connect with. But I’m trying to let go of my past. Am I heading in the right direction

[@SoulLegacyTV]

Hey Christina, I would love to speak to you and hear more about your Spiritual Awakening story. I found your email, hope it's ok, I am about to send an email reaching out to you about featuring your story in interview series

[@ChristinaDRaju]

Sure I'd be happy to ✨ I don't think I received your email though

[@nishawaskle4934]

love from india 💖

[@puneetvatish4992]

❤️❤️❤️

[@jimboyla911]

🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️🤟