My Spiritual Journey Since Leaving the FLDS Church: And What We Believe Now

[@BenjaminRushton-hp5jl]

Thank you for your story!🙏 I left the LDS church as I started to study the Bible how we are saved. Ephesians 2: 8-10 and about marriage in heaven Matthew 22: 23-32 Jesus said there is no marriage in heaven. My Faith is in Christ Jesus and the word of God. Praying for you guys 🙏

[@rickyodom1201]

we go pardice or garden of eden what ever want call it first so marring must done before you get to heaven so 1000 year rein of jesus earth it will done to immortal children this managing other worlds you want be sitting on cload as ball of gas doing nothing and can't get saved sit on bench doing nothing it what jesus taught in the bible it just oppsent this payed precher won't tell that because money money

[@brendavacek7595]

Faith is a personal journey. I grew up Lutheran/chrisian. I believe God is a living being and showers us with his grace and love. We are to love and serve those in need. Religions are led by humans which in turn can create flaws. Do what is in your heart. God loves you unconditionally.

[@theresahikes1241]

I just found your channel through Peter’s video. I think your spiritual journey is so amazing! It’s a sign of intelligence to change your beliefs when presented with new information.

[@darren6202]

me too!

[@sharonnelson76]

Same here!

[@SherrylPurvis-ig9be]

I was raised in the Baptist church then in my 20’s I started going to the Full Gospel church then stopped going to church for different reasons I won’t go into. The big “BUT” is I’ve kept my faith in Jesus Christ. You both seem to be happy with your choices. I think from this video you have had the same end result as I have. I love that you are at peace with your choice as well and the way you accept your journey with no hate. So many out there that I have in the past I followed speak only negative (I am only presuming they have not come to terms with their past) but they also haven’t realized that they are hurting people around them with their negativity. That negativity to me spreads like wild fire and in a way creates a cult like atmosphere I do pray for their peace of mind heart and soul to make their own evaluation of their life.

[@BG-ig6fd]

Yes, you do have a bit of an accent still, Sam. It’s a very nice accent. Very clear pronunciation and you don’t say “like” every two seconds like so many Americans do now (I’m in Canada).

[@Daisyducker]

Oh! I do understand where you’re coming from. I loved being a member of the LDS church and the people. I did find out that they don’t love me so much after realizing it wasn’t what I believe. Not even Jesus didn’t like organized religion. I am a Christian. I found freedom in Christ and that’s all I need. He is my Savior. All I need is Him in my life.

[@lisaleedham4363]

"The more we learn, the less we know" ... I have gained so very much respect for you both with such a simple sentence. Just imagine what our world could be if more people understood this.....thank you.

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much!

[@sheilaewald4975]

On BBC poh

[@secondhandrooms507]

My husband and I left the LDS church in 2016. It was one of the most difficult things we have ever done. We feel for you. Sending you support and love.

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much! Support and love right back! No one can understand unless they've been through it themselves how hard it truly is.

[@FabioFinancial]

I was a Baptist missionary in Argentina for eight years. My eldest son was 9 months old when we arrived. My second son was born in Buenos Aires. We came back to the States. Got a divorce from my wife. A few years later my son joined the Mormon Church and did two years in Chille as a Mormon Missionary. Yo y mi mayor tenemos un acento Argentino, aunque el paso dos años en Chile. He’s about your age. He married a Mormon girl and he is has climbed up in the Mormon Church. Now he’s got onto Mormon Stories. Now he’s seeking truth. I love your stories. One of the things that I love about you guys is the way you look at one another.

[@debbieshrubb1222]

My husband and I left the LDS church. I left first and it was a big adjustment for us. Our marriage was survived because we are friends. Then my husband left too and I feel like we have a new, improved version of our marriage with a new, improved version of my husband. It has been an unexpected and wonderful part of our new post religion life

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Hi Debbie! We are so happy to hear that you and your husband are together and happy after such a big life change. We can relate to everything you said :)

[@pilarskifamily899]

I hope you don't abandon faith along with religion.

[@debbieshrubb1222]

@@pilarskifamily899 my journey out of LDS Mormonism and Christianity was through studying the historicity of the New Testament. Jesus as as a man god was a made up idea; just the ideas of men it turns out. I'm very happy to have reclaimed my personal autonomy and to base my life in the wonders of science and the importance of valuing the universe and all that is in it Post faith life is truly amazing.

[@debbieshrubb1222]

@@pilarskifamily899 we see little use for faith in our lives. We embrace the wonders of the universe and the uncertainty of life.

[@craigdymock2571]

What a honest straight forward video.. however I have to say it heart breaking as well. As I do when there is a loss of faith. I hope the day will come when your beautiful family returns. After all we are all family

[@lesliebrayton8016]

My life changed when I started reading and studying my bible. I am 61 and the journey continues!

[@bygrace24]

So much truth in there 😊

[@shannsimms9072]

I love this comment

[@annehoyle3581]

" faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God''. Romans 10:17

[@chuckeelhart1746]

Yes reading the bible caused me to make a change too. It made me realize what a man made ideology christianity is. I’m completely free of the delusion now.

[@rainesdream9134]

Me too. I am also 61. Brought up catholic and went to Bible school in 2000 to 2002. Changed my life. Also prepared for my mother's transition to heaven in Jan 2002 and a divorce in 2003. Belong to a non demonitaional on line in warrior alabama. Church international. Focuses completely on the word of God!!

[@derito5616]

The love between you two is amazing. You are a wonderful example of how Christ's love to the world.

[@PJV-rf4ng]

you can be good people without god or Jesus in your life. you can be kind and loving and honest. i love that your hearts opened enough to see that there are many forms of people, with and without faith, that can each teach us something valuable in our own personal journey. i love hearing your perspectives and your interviews. you are both always so respectful and kind, and find great guest and great topics to dive into.

[@ericaseveryday3636]

Oh no way! I totally thought you were still LDS based on how you talked about it in previous videos. Thats awesome that you're on this journey together - I went through something similar but at a much younger age.

[@jessicac6787]

It's not about Religion it's about being in a relationship with God just being a Christian and being Born Again 🙏🙌✝️

[@HelenClaireGregory]

I really enjoyed this episode. You give out such good vibes. What a different world it would be if we were all so accepting of each others beliefs. I have watched other episodes on your channel and you are also great at interviewing. Very gentle and kind and very uplifting.

[@cjshine7984]

Thank you so much! I know I'm really late - watching this a year later.....so if you ever read this, please know I appreciate your mature approach to this subject. I'm on a deconstruction journey and can identify with so much. Your positive and yet realistic view is so refreshing. "The more we learn, the less we know" yes!!!!

[@katieandmickknobel2739]

This video was so interesting! I grew up in the RLDS church-now known as Community of Christ, and there was definitely a time when we also felt we were the “one true church”. However as the years have gone one, we have come to understand that we don’t have a corner on truth. There is a lot of truth in this world. I wish people would give up the idea that just one church is “true” and start focusing on who God is, the example that Jesus set for us, and how we can use those to make the world we live in a better place. Thanks for sharing with us!

[@laurapionke8401]

Has the CoC stopped using the BOM?

[@jenmiller695]

@@laurapionke8401 CoC has a very open view of belief and scripture so thats a hard one to answer susinctly. Easiest answer (from my point of view) is there is a wide variety of beliefs within the CoC church about the Book of Mormon, and the CoC church is there to support an individual's spiritual journey not dictate belief. There's a great podcast called Project Zion that has a great episode on the BoM within CoC, which is worth checking out if you're interested in the topic.

[@christinepirir6759]

Oh my gosh you guys listening to this helped me so much 😭 My husband and I grew up in the AUB polygamist church. Very similar to the FLDS but we could wear more modern clothes, choose who we courted and married etc., also no child brides. Husband and I met at the LDS church years after leaving the church we were raised in and serving missions in the LDS church. After studying and preparing a lesson for the 5 year olds at church I came to my husband with questions. He usually always had answers or at least something along the lines of “God knows best”. But this time was different and resulted in the conversation that started our second great spiritual journey. Our story is different in that we were at different points in our journey for some of that time and it was very difficult. The feelings of uncertainty and insecurity are just unreal. I used to know everything and now I know nothing and it’s just so so terrifying. Thank you guys for sharing your story with me!!!!

[@Alexandra-dy7cj]

Wow, what an honest and impressive conversation about your internal growth. From being brainwashed (I‘d like to call it that way) during whole childhood to become spiritual tolerant and open minded as adults is more than impressive. Thank you both so much for this wonderful episode 🙏🥰❤

[@daveflanagan4213]

To me it’s faith in a person not in a system and biblically it’s in the man Christ Jesus. Being the best versions of ourselves happens when we give ourselves over in surrender to his Lordship. You guys are so together and it’s a beautiful thing. You are so genuinely so gracious and kind and a pleasure to engage with.

[@SoulMaeven]

I’m so proud of you guys. I came from a reformed fundie background and raised my older children in it. The damage was heartbreaking - I too am free of organized religion and have been encouraged by your channel 🙏🏻

[@sarahhunter1114]

I just binge watched a bunch of your videos today, and this was my last one for the day. My husband came and watched with me and it was timely. We left the LDS church last year and your experience is so similar to ours. We love and respect those who have stayed, but we found a new path, and we are so much happier. Actually, it was the Book of Mormon that convinced us the church wasn't on the path God intended for his human family. It was such a crazy exploration to finally get to read things by excommunicated people, non LDS church historians, and most importantly, philosophy! I LOVE philosophy!!! We are happy for our friends and family who are happy in the church, but we have found so much fulfillment outside of it that it's almost...explosive! Like my heart will explode because I can see the love that God has for EVERYONE!!! We loved how respectful you were to the church. We don't feel like looking back and criticizing was helping us grow, so we have adopted an attitude similar to yours. Too bad you're just random KZbinrs because we would totally invite you to hang out with us;)

[@anastasiamyroshnikova9376]

I love how respectful you both are towards the LDS church, even though you aren't practicing it anymore.

[@marierilea2636]

As a Born Again Christian, it's about having an Intimate relationship with Jesus as my Lord and Savior!

[@dl7562]

Jesus said I am the way, the truth, and the light. Please continue to read just the Bible together and He will guide you into all truth. It was wonderful to hear what you said about the two of you reading the scriptures together, and I pray God will give you wisdom and understanding as He reveals himself to you and draws you into an even closer relationship with Him. Much love to you both.

[@miladylaughalot]

Former member of the LDS church. I left when I came out of the closet after 20 years of trying to hide it from society. Like your content. I'm hoping you find your true calling. You leaving your faith at 18 was inspiring. XOXO From Ohio.

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much for watching and sharing your journey with us as well!

[@aprilMichelleXJRL]

Awesome so awesome.

[@mariaaltuhov5090]

I escaped NER faith movement and I am so blessed to be reformed Christian now . I study Bible and it is helping me to grow spiritually and don't believe any cult's lie anymore .

[@juliagreen9121]

The love and respect the two of you have for each other is so beautiful, so happy that your channel came up in my feed

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much! We are so happy you found us. =)

[@ellenweber6925]

There is a wonderful core of God’s grace in your words and lives. Thanks for sharing! God’s love seems alive in you! What a wonderful grace mindset keeps you open and growing as God would have for all of us! My own central truth also evolved to the place where I see more of how God does not love us because we are good, but God helps us to be good because He loves us. As you say so well, we can learn from all humans, as all are created by a loving God - even as we differ in our evolutions of spiritual truths and life experiences. God bless us all as we grow and learn how to love as we are loved.

[@roseyfields2729]

This is really inspiring to me as someone who grew up in a church I no longer agree with. I have not always been so respectful when speaking of my past church, I really admire you two, and will try to follow this example moving forward.

[@pamelavargas6811]

I watched the interview where Y'all toured the FLDS Community Sam grew up in...I decided to go back to your utube beginning...Its nice to see couples speak of Truth not Religion...I have been on a Spiritual Journey of sorts...learning more about God's teachings instead of a Religions Beliefs...thank you ❤

[@kaylabrown8896]

So thankful for your openness and honesty and open-mindedness! So glad I came across your channel.

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

We are so glad you found us too!

[@JR-lw3ms]

Thanks for sharing your story! Your work is important and is helping so many people!

[@alisonarrowsmith2064]

I just asked many of these questions on an older video yesterday. I assume you dont want to go into detail about why you left LDS in order to try and maintain your relationship with Melissa's family and if so, I cant fault you for that. After all, Sam has already lost connection with his parents. I'm so proud of you for learning to use critical thinking skills to ask questions and refuse to accept answers that either dont make sense or are clearly flase. You are very brave. It is terrifying to walk away from your religious foundation and not quickly jump into another religion - on the basis of believing there must be a "one true religion" out there. Walking away and deciding its okay to NOT belong to a religion is brave. You will find that a lot of people start trying to convince you to join their religion now that you've told us you dont have a religion you subscribe to. Stay strong and keep learning, growing and using your critical thinking. I'm proud of you. You don't have to belong to a religion to be a good person....but you know that already 😉

[@marysteinmuller5952]

Yes this one needs to be pin it gives such good advice on how to stick to your ground after finding your own way out learning that your religion may not be the one for you sucks but that doesn’t mean you should jump in the bed with another one look at what you feel in your heart and actually learn what you are willing to believe just on a personal bases. Then if you find something that looks the same and really do your research that’s when you see what it’s about it may not be something you want in the end I still believe there is an after life but we are all flawed I don’t see why we have to “repent” for something that is literly human nature

[@alisonarrowsmith2064]

@@marysteinmuller5952 very good points made here.

[@16jcstratton]

I agreed!

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much for your love and support!

[@stefanieshanks7742]

agreed! Incredibly brave! It can be terrifying to leave a religion where you and your family grew up! Basically leaving everything you've ever known.

[@martastreet9146]

I so appreciate your honesty. I have learned a lot about this religion you come from. What I most appreciated is that you’re willingness to be open? If so, great. Thank you for being so open with all of us for as long as you have been.

[@veronicacarballo5911]

It is truly a personal journey and I applaud you for seeking that truth. I truly believe that relying on the Bible as the primary source of truth is most important. I’m part of an organized church and even within my church there are different views, but we all agree that the Bible is our point of reference! So, whoever reads this comment, I encourage you to seek the truth in the Bible, and with God’s guidance you’ll find that truth and perhaps the church that practices that truth! God bless you!

[@corinnekenny8401]

Amazing couple. I appreciate your kindness and grace. I think we’re to teach and learn in this life, everyone has something to learn and everyone has something to teach. Thank you

[@katharinemichie2178]

I watched this video first about a year ago. Since then, I’ve watched many of your presentations, and was moved today to hear this part of your story again. I’m a semi retired Presbyterian minister, so I think about theology and the faith lifestyle a lot. I’m very impressed with you two. You’ve both come from very “prescriptive “ church backgrounds, where grace ( God’s free love for us, even when we fall short of pleasing Him) sounds like it was in short supply. Your honest questioning and struggle to know God’s truth is admirable. I feel you are living out a calling to demonstrate God’s love as you explain a religious practice that is unfamiliar to many of us, and especially as you show compassion for those who were so badly hurt by the worst excesses of Warren Jess and other corrupt religious leaders.

[@Jenniferalvarez19818]

I’m so happy when I see that you guys have posted a new video. I even go and watch older videos that you guys have made because I’m so fascinated by Sam and how much you share with us. You both are so kind and I wish the best for you and your children.

[@raeperonneau4941]

What a lovely conversation. Thank you for being so honest and forthcoming. “I don’t know” is one of the most powerful sentences one can say.

[@sanddollarcottage57]

I came to the realization one day that I don’t believe in what I call “organized religion”. My beliefs are doing the right thing and treat everyone with respect. I don’t need religion to tell me that. I’m not saying that I’m correct. But it is your journey to find what fits with you and your family.

[@jennslifeinhuntingtonwv2678]

😁 me too. I come from a fundamentalist Baptist family. Now I just try being a good person because I want to be. Not because I'm afraid of Hell.

[@abigailsoto9600]

🙋🏻‍♀️

[@gracehaven5459]

@@jennslifeinhuntingtonwv2678 me as well Jennifer! How ya doing fam?

[@Volleyball_Chess_and_Geoguessr]

Christianity isn't about being a good person. It's about your eternal life and who you believe. Did life evolve randomly from nothingness or do we have a creator?

[@donnabull2398]

John 14:6 Jesus answered “I Am the Way and the Truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

[@jlynnaz]

Wow, you two! Good for you. My husband and I both believe as long as you have faith in yourselves, you’ll both be fine. There is no perfect path. ❤

[@milliemitchell58]

I love what you said here - as a lifelong Catholic who is more in your shoes, open to many beliefs, I appreciate your refreshing views. I especially enjoyed your interview on the FLDS experience and appreciate that you are so loving to all❤️❤️and carry positive memories of your upbringing.

[@franbeck1466]

You are such a beautiful couple! I see Christ love shining through you both! I admire and respect you for your transparency and honesty! God has a perfect plan for our lives and I believe you have opened your hearts and are allowing Him to guide and lead you to the place that He has for you and your family to continue to grow and shine in His love!

[@OnTheSamePageTogether]

Wow this is not where I expected it to go, but you guys presented it and handled it so well. I appreciate your respect for the whole journey and people along the way who are still there.

[@sandrabrown14]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey! What a beautiful couple! Your light shines bright!!!

[@gloriaverhoeven]

Truth was so blurry for me for many years as a young person. I admire your humility SO much! I still say this all the time to my kids, that the more I learn, the more I realize I don’t know. God is so patient with us and what a comfort that truly is. Blessings to you two and your family!

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much!

[@angellarmynarzy5023]

I couldn’t agree more!

[@judithclark3961]

Thanks!

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much!

[@heatherwatson1021]

Often times when people leave a certain religion they think they need to bash the religion so negatively and it’s sad to hear it that way. However, you two made me feel peace and love and that brought me comfort that what I’m going through with my own spiritual battle that it’s ok to search and not feel guilty. I too am from the LDS church but in recent months have been conflicted. So thank you for explaining with such love, kindness and understanding that we all of different beliefs and that it’s ok!!

[@ceejaybeard9121]

I just love you guys so much. Such beautiful, loving, kind souls. Y’all’s story have moved me so much. So brave and honest. My husband and I are just Christians. We believe in God and have bible studies in our home with friends who want to come. We talk and support each other. We just want to love and support everyone. It’s just too much pressure belonging to a certain church. So glad y’all are just following your hearts. Be well friends. I will continue to follow your journey. ♥️

[@diamondgirllisa]

It’s so refreshing seeing your journey of seeking truth and freedom. Makes my heart happy. You both are a beautiful couple and your goodness shines through.

[@AshleeKnowsNot]

"(You're) not having doubts, you're on your own faith Journey." That is a beautiful line.

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much.

[@ashleyfoster9804]

I love the honesty in this. I love the inquisitiveness that led to deeper thought and study. I believe that God has us all on a journey, and He has taken y'all step by step on this journey to truth. He is leading you to His truth and that is beautiful. It is soooo hard to admit that we don't know everything, but there is IMMENSE comfort in knowing that the Almighty does....and He reveals all that you need to know in this life. We aren't meant to be as wise as Him. We are meant to follow His lead of loving others and letting the story unfold however it may. Wishing y'all a Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year ❤

[@elainebryant1124]

I so appreciate you two! What a wonderful episode. Your humility and openness is so heartwarming.

[@becs7715]

Thank you Sam for positively sharing the good and negative side of polygamy... You could very easy have shared your story with anger, yet you don't. What a human.

[@naminea2480]

You are both so soft and kind humans ! It’s very brave to follow your own way and I believe the voice in your heart is the real connection to god and it’s the best way to evolve, following that voice. I myself have more questions, than answers for life and that makes life such a wonderful experience. Open minded and open hearted like kids exploring life is an adventure! I wish the best for you and hope that you will meet many good things and good people on your own personal journey on this beautiful planet we call earth. Lots of love from Germany. Sharing your experiences is very much appreciated 🫶🫶🫶🫶

[@marthasalter405]

I’m glad you are open to this kind of growth. For me, I kept progressing and got to the point where I knew what my moral and ethical center was, and realized that I didn’t need superstition and supernatural beliefs in order to be good and do good.

[@Volleyball_Chess_and_Geoguessr]

It's not about being good or bad, it's about what the truth is. It's a belief that life came from nothing and magically turned into you by the god of millions of years. How can you be so sure that the supernatural doesn't exist?

[@KR-ev5lj]

I've just found your channel via Peter's video. Your spiritual journey has been amazing and love your positivity.👏 I'm not sure whether one particular religion has the answers, a great believer that we need to respect each other's believes & that the more we learn, the less we know. Good luck with everything.🍀

[@beckyb3705]

It is wonderful and heartwarming to see a young couple tackling the big things in life and figuring it out for themselves and together. You are lovely and inspiring. Enjoy the journey.

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much!

[@cindyshilanskis8503]

Wonderful to watch. I grew up in another religion but have never found one that suited me. I have really fascinating spiritual experiences on my own and I don't feel the need to be confined to one religion. I appreciate your openness and your relationship with each other. Thank you so much for sharing your journey.

[@lisatheis3380]

I think you're on a great journey! Asking questions, being honest with yourself, one another and to be honest in prayer to God with the questions and doubts is so good! And coming so far to say "I don't have an answer for that" is such a big and good step. Keep searching, asking questions and praying about it :) Thanks for being so brave and sharing your personal journey! I really like watching your videos. God bless you and your family! Greetings from Germany! :)

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much for your love and support in our journey! We'd love for our physical journeys to take us to Germany someday! =)

[@chloebenson8849]

I appreciate you both sharing your journey so openly and honestly! I've enjoyed many of your videos so far. Also, I couldnt help but notice -- the way Melissa looks at Sam throughout the video is so genuinely loving. You can just see it on her face, which is really sweet. I'm glad to hear your relationship has only grown stronger over time.

[@beefrick9957]

When I was young, around 8 I started questioning everything I was taught in Sunday school. I decided a while later that I didn’t believe in it. It was a big uproar in my house that I didn’t want to go to church. As a teen I tried all the different youth groups in my town. Went to all my friends churches to try them out. Nothing ever felt right to me. I’m now 32 and have identified as atheist for some time. However, if there is a god, I believe he’s the same for everyone of all religions. Even though I’m not a believer, some of my closest friends are. And I love learning about other religions. I’m really glad you and Sam are sharing your journeys. You both seem like such kind, generous people.

[@LenaLindroth-g1v]

I do belive that you found the key-point about beliving. Live and let live. Accept, search and let others do the same. My husband worships the old viking Gods (like giving back every 7:th fish back into the sea) my son is an atethist, my daughter is a buddis, for my I go to church twice a year and talk to Jesus once in awhile and we accept and love each other. Safe in our family. I do belive that religon is moore a way to keep and remain our values and moral thoughts true to our self and how we treat others (Sorry for the spelling, Old swedish lady) Best regards and all the best for you and your family.

[@misslindsayyy9870]

I absolutely love all of this. I have had quite the journey. I grew up non denominational Christian in Gilbert AZ (large LDS community), in high school and around 20, I started exploring the LDS religion and community and I have so much respect for that community but it was not for me with the truth portion. So I am right there with you. Now I am back to non denominational Christian so I have faith and spirituality but not confined to an organized single denomination. If that makes sense. Loved hearing your story. Best wishes.

[@memine5024]

Danke!

[@sandramary4]

You two are so brave. I was raised firmly clutched to the bosom of the Catholic church and although I left it many years ago, the roots go deep and it is not always easy. I love the way you are so tolerant of all beliefs and i wish more people did that. Far too often, from atheists to evangelicals, people are certain theirs is the only way. Your children are very fortunate to be growing up in such a thinking and accepting home. I wish you all the best.

[@evelyncaruso4441]

I saw the episode of santangello it was very good. Thank you for bringing insight to flds and lds.

[@beautifulrecovery2337]

I read the comments while watching the video... Not only are you guys SOOOO sweet you have helped created such a Beautiful amazing community on youtube. Everyone is so kind deep thinking and respectful!!! You guys are helping alot of people just by living your truth and honoring God openly 💚

[@lizcarin1622]

Just discovered your channel through Peter’s latest video, you both seem like lovely people and make a beautiful couple! l enjoyed learning about your spiritual journey, both as individuals and as a couple, from Sam being an ex-FLDS member to both of you ultimately deciding to not be LDS members anymore as a family. That is so awesome that you ended up sharing similar values and are so accepting and loving to other beliefs. Thank you for sharing your story, it makes me feel like I’m not so alone in how I feel these days about religion, as I am more agnostic and find that I can find spiritual experiences in many different settings and not just in a church. I was raised in a very strict Pentecostal, evangelical church and experienced spiritual abuse and religious trauma that reminded me a lot of some of the experiences that ex-FLDS and other ex-cult members experienced, so I find topics like these so fascinating. Cheers to searching for our truths!

[@lilacgirl867]

Thank you for being so vulnerable with this video ❤️ spent the last week binging all of your videos and love this longer, more in-depth video. Melissa- you do such a great job of asking the questions I am thinking!

[@dorothykrzyzak1180]

Just joined your channel YOU ARE BOTH BRILLIANT INTELLIGENT AND KIND I’ve been raised Catholic and all my young years had unanswered questions about my religion about 10 years ago at the age of 47 finally said enough as I believe it was more of an controlling institution then anything else my Dad was and still is upset about it but IM NOT I still believe in God or hire powers whatever people want to call it And I tried every day to be the BEST VERSION OF ME and respectful to others as long as they are GOOD PEOPLE MY HAT GOES OUT TO YOU BOTH 😊 ALL THE BEST IN YOUR JURNY ❤

[@NancyB35]

I would love a video on how Melissa’s family reacted to you guys leaving the LDS

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

That's a great video idea =)

[@alisonbell4055]

This was a great series! Sam’s life really unfolded well in these videos. My partner and I are atheist, but have had some meaningful friendships with LDS members and it’s always been very apparent that the religion has brought positive impact to their lives, even if we can’t wrap our minds around believing the religion is true. We’ve been watching this series from our little NYC apartment while it’s cold out and I kept wondering what you currently believe. When my phone suggested this video I looked to my partner like “Tom, this is it!” haha

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Awww thank you so much for watching!

[@LauraBlack-cp2il]

But they never say WHAT THEY DO ACTUALLY BELIEVE ABOUT GOD, JESUS, THE BIBLE, etc!!! Just that they left the LDS church due to discovering so many false and contradictory teachings and understandably don’t want to get entangled in another complex organized religious group. But what Do you believe IS true? Is there a God? A creator? Who is Jesus? How does one become forgiven of sin? Is there a heaven and/or a hell? Do you have or desire to have a relationship with God &/or with Jesus? Is Jesus God? …. WHAT DO YOU BELIEVE AFTER ALL OF YOUR SEARCHING so far?

[@charlesmendeley9823]

​@@LauraBlack-cp2ilThey gave the answer: they don't know. And they feel comfortable with not having the answers, but figuring out their personal answers together.

[@chrislayton2025]

Good job. You held my interest all the way to the end of video Thanks for your time on air.

[@thesauces04]

Can I just say, both of you guys have very beautiful teeth. Thank you for sharing your spiritual journey.

[@paularoberts866]

I know they are both so beautiful ❤️

[@BD-eu1id]

I was thinking the same thing!

[@janesmith9024]

Possibly in part because the FLDS rather sensibly had a no sugar rule at one point.

[@kmackblack]

Also, they had a dentist in the flds. He was told to go to school and become a dentist by the prophet I believe. He is credited with creating a lot of different dental inventions in the (I think) 70s and 80s.

[@queenalicia711]

Haha I had the same thought

[@MichelleLeeB73]

Love you both and your channel! I am just starting to dive into your stories through your videos and I can say that this particular video has brought me so much peace about where I am in my spiritual journey. My mother is a wonderful woman but so focused on the teachings of the church (Not Mormon) that it makes our relationship difficult sometimes and I get so frustrated with her insistence to discuss it at every visit. But I feel like your point of view on respecting and loving people no matter their beliefs brings me more patience. I struggle constantly with wanting my mother to respect my beliefs but maybe I need to turn inward and find the patience and understanding that I am looking for as well. Thank you for sharing your lives with all of us. You both are amazing human beings!

[@zeroeffect9557]

Wow. I'm so happy I found your channel! I'm from Wales, so I'm so far removed from American cultures etc, but over the last year or so, I've been really interested in the polygamist communities across Utah, and I've read so many books (particularly from women) who are ex flds members, so it's lovely to hear from a males perspective. Thank you for talking about this, it must be very difficult to do, but I appreciate your honesty and openness. I can't wait to hear more from you guys! All the best (Pob hwyl) xxx

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much! We are so glad you found us!

[@tracytaylor1893]

How could anyone looking at the genuine love you have for each other and just the way you explain the situation is amazing love watching you guys

[@Live-life-to-the-fullest]

I grew up in a very Christian environment (church, home, school) and had an overall good experience. But from a young age had doubt and questions and have come to realize I am a very spiritual agnostic. And like your I can say “I don’t know”. Since I have been honest, I feel free! It is refreshing.

[@annagil4213]

Sam and Melissa Thank you love you your Podcast information I met you in John Delin Show

[@gailcombs7748]

Its not about religion or denominations, it's about your personal relationship with Jesus.

[@marinae1495]

Amen! 🙏🙏

[@OklahomaGirl]

The issue is several of the religions/denominations actually do not agree on who Jesus is or what He accomplished by His crucifixion. Each person needs to read the Bible for himself/herself.

[@swampophelia2098]

Amen to that

[@mienafriggstad3360]

AMEN 🙏

[@Rigpixie]

I just found you through Cults to Consciousness and I’m so glad that I did. Your stories as individuals and as a team are really fascinating and it’s amazing to see folks deciding to continue their own education. I grew up areligious and converted to Judaism as a young adult (very liberal Judaism) and we definitely have the same outlook on religion and spirituality. “Whatever makes you the best version of yourself.” Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing. If you’re ever near Gettysburg, I’ll treat you to an ice cream.

[@oliviaa5559]

Don't know if you have done this already. But during my spiritual journey I read the Gospel of Mark in the Holy Bible. Also Case for Christ. These were turning points for me. I hope they will help you and bring you to truth. Thank you for sharing your journey. God bless you and your family !

[@MsCassieCrowe]

I found y'alls channel through Peter and have enjoyed everything I've watched so far!

[@Mariel_Moon]

Wow, you two sending out so much awesome energy! Im not religious at all but I have study religions. I really like you a lot! I think we all have to learn to believe in our self and not lay that on others. This world lacks many things. Respect for each other and as I allways says.....Love is the key! ❤🙏🏻

[@johntucker562]

Sam and Melissa, you guys are so kind and honest. I had a very similar experience as you had, growing up in a fundamentalist polygamist group and then seeing some problems, and stepping away, and then having the Lord bring me and my family into the LDS church for almost ten years before we saw some things that caused us to step back from the LDS church like you guys did. I would love to sit down and talk with you guys sometime and see what you went through and what things you found as foundational beliefs. If you are interested, please reach out and let me know if you are open to visiting for a while. Thanks for sharing your experiences together!

[@tzipporah7635]

Thank you both for being so brave and sharing your experiences with us! Im a Jewish woman of colour with a background in sociology and anthropology, so people, cultures and faith have always been sooo very interesting to me! Im absolutely loving hearing about your experiences:) I truly believe if people would have more sharing, dialogue, and build relationships with people who have different beliefs and backgrounds, we would have a more loving and peaceful world😊💓Yes! Continue to evolve...Much love to you!🤗

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much! Your kind words mean so much to us!

[@jeni688]

Following truth wherever it may lead you is a lovely way to live life. I wish more people would do that.

[@Itsme60804]

It’s so cool to watch you guys in your self discovery. I feel like it’s really relatable to all people in all walks of life. I come from a Christian household (Baptist/Catholic) that didn’t practice often, and I think it definitely influenced my experiences as a child, but also really left the door open to other beliefs. Without that door being left open, I might not have developed the relationships I did as a child. It taught me what respect meant and how to respect others’ beliefs. Also, the important aspects of relationships with others like morals and likes/dislikes don’t have to come from religion. Though I’ve lost contact with a lot of my friends from school (except for 1 😂), I’m so grateful that I went to such diverse schools and got to befriend a couple of Mormons, some Hindu, and some who were Muslim. We’re all human and that’s all that matters. Thanks again for the great content and insight!

[@debbies.faceyoga]

Beautiful, I do not know and do not need to know now...take time and live life :) I was not raised religious (although I was raised in a very religious village), other than my parents always telling me 'believe in yourself'. I am very happy for that as it keeps me open to be curious to what other people where taught, believe and makes them happy. To let everyone be. Love these videos and your openess: it is the only way to learn from each other and stay open. Love from Amsterdam, NL.

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

Thank you so much!

[@sheribarnett3180]

I so strongly relate to the power of “I don’t know,” coming out of a faith that said it had all the answers.

[@andrealowe1083]

I know this an older video and as I watch today you both still seem very solid as a family. I am happy that you have been able to preserve that and explore that as a couple. So many times this journey can split a family. You are both lovely and it is a beautiful thing to continue to observe.

[@susanhowell5257]

Religion can sometimes get in the way of worshipping God. We need to constantly seek God and his truth. I go to a church that is as close to what I believe but not completely. I need to have an organized church to help me worship. I am similar to you in that I believe we should respect others’ beliefs and not be judgmental. I love that you are growing and evolving in your search for truth! 🙏🏼

[@christinabond9928]

I'm going back and watching some of your earlier videos because I really enjoy your videos now. I just wanted to point out how much I notice the love in Melissa's eyes as she looks at you, Sam. I love the connection you have and the journey you continue to share with us!

[@addisonthompson3886]

Thank you SO much for sharing! I also grew up in a polygamists family! My parents part of the AUB here in Utah. I related to this video so much ❤️ I’m super proud of you both! I’m not sure if Sam feels this way too but for a long time now it’s been super hard for me to not have hard feelings towards my parents religion and the people in it. It’s so hard seeing people you love be hurt! And that’s caused me to have a lot of the same feelings towards the LDS church. But the people truly believe they are doing what’s best for them! Thank you for the reminder to put all the things aside and love them first! Anyway lots more to that ...😂 i feel the same way in the sense of not knowing exactly what you believe! I’m not religious now and I’m still pretty close with my family but i think they have a hard time believing that I’m happy because when you grow up in a religion like that you’re taught that these people are the only happy people. It’s so hard having so much freedom and feeling so happy but knowing they just think you’re “lost” or “struggling” One of my favorite things of leaving organized religion is realizing that it’s ok to love everyone! Just because they believe definitely or love differently that you that’s ok! Again thank you for sharing your story ❤️

[@GrowingUpinPolygamy]

So interesting!! Thank you so much for your comment. It sounds like we have had similar experiences. I agree with you, it is hard to see those we love hurt. I wish there was a way to show our families how happy we are now.

[@kevinogle2166]

Y’all are so cute together! You’re such an inspiration to find the truth.

[@erinrobinson6436]

I grew up hardcore, orthodox Mormon, too. I ended up outgrowing it in my early 20's when I realized it was really my parents' thing more than mine. There were things about the Church culture and prescribed life path that I just couldn't be okay with. I'm not a hater or anything, but I have never looked back or doubted myself and am truly am happy in my life without religion. Love and respect for you both for having open, curious, accepting minds.

[@aspenenglish4976]

What in the heck is hardcore Orthodox Mormon?

[@erinrobinson6436]

@@aspenenglish4976 Following all the rules even if they don't make sense or cause you to overextend yourself, hitting all the church milestones even if they're not desirable or meaningful to you personally, following the prescribed life path even if you're not suited to that kind of life, etc. That's the kind of home I grew up in. A lot of forced/blind obedience.

[@aspenenglish4976]

@@erinrobinson6436 wow. Sorry to hear that. I live in the south and it’s pretty relaxed here. Your life is always a choice and you need to live it how you see fit.

[@erinrobinson6436]

@@aspenenglish4976 Thank you, that's kind of you. And I agree.

[@aspenenglish4976]

@@erinrobinson6436 😊

[@sarahirvin5406]

Thanks for sharing!! We are going through the same thing! God is calling us out into the wilderness to head to Zion with Jesus as our guide, not a church. ❤️