MY STORY | Anxiety, Emetophobia, Depression, Self-Harm

My Eating Disorder Story: • MY EATING DISORDER STO...
I know this video is long, but it would mean so much to me if you'd take 18 minutes to watch it xx
More about my phobia:
en.wikipedia.o...
www.emetophobia...
Where to Find Me
♡ EMAIL: [e-mail]
♡ INSTAGRAM: @Lydias.Fight ( / lydias.fight )
-feel free to email me or DM me on instagram if you have any questions, need advice, have video requests, or need someone to talk to (I will always respond, but sometimes it can't be extremely quickly).
Resources
→ Online Counselling and Support: www.7cups.com/
→ Recovery Warriors: www.recoverywa...
→ Let's Recover Tumblr (aboslutely love this blog): letsrecover.tum... and recommend reading this post → letsrecover.tum...
→ 101 self care ideas: anniewrightpsyc...
→ Mental health apps for your phone: fyoured.com/pos...
→ Online recovery support chat: chat.lookinggla...
→ GREAT recovery blog for when you're feeling down: fyoured.com/
→ How to Stop Bingeing (I have done this workbook and love it): brainoverbinge....
(let me know if you have any helpful websites or resources to add to this list. These are some of the ones I personally use.)
→ Adult ED website: www.youreatopia...
(this has a lot of the science behind EDs on it, if you're interested in that)
DISCLAIMER: I am not a psychologist and have no professional training. The advice and tips I give I have learned from personal experience and the experiences of those around me. Not everything will work, apply to, or be right for every one struggling, so make sure to critically think about whether what I suggest will further your recovery and be beneficial to your overall wellbeing.
If you are having suicidal thoughts or in an emergency or crisis, make sure you reach out IMMEDIATELY to your local support team and call 911, go to the nearest emergency room or follow the emergency instructions provided by your doctor, mental health professional or care team.

[@LeluDa11asMultipass]

it's crazy how much so many of us can relate to each other. my personal fear of getting sick/germs spreading from other people caused so many panic attacks & contributed to the development of my food fear. It just goes to show people that it's not all about looks. thank you for raising awareness💓

[@LydiasFight]

definitely, thankfully for me it never had an impact on food and didn't contribute to my ED, but I know it can for a lot of people! hope you're doing well xx

[@fluffybuns8705]

Omg same! I eat less too

[@julesmianadesannie]

I really feel bad I also have Ementophobia and we went to a restaurant and this little kid started puking everywhere and I just imediantly started crying. None of my friends understand. and i just feel bad for you because yours is way worse than mine. You are very strong and confident about it, thank you for making all of us who have Ementophobia feel better🙂🙂

[@JonnyQ408]

I always have the fear of vomiting, ever since I was a kid, but now that I have started having Anxiety for almost two years if I feel nausea my Anxiety will spike up, just like you I can't handle it when I hear someone coughing I feel sick to my stomach, no fault of the person getting sick, I haven't vomit for 4 years, even burping makes me anxious, but once I vomit the fear goes away, for awhile so strange.

[@kl_auth]

I think you're living my life 😂 I'm glad I found someone who also has Emetophobia as severe as me!

[@duerremueller3609]

I dealt with severe emetophobia 3 years ago to the point that I was completely unable to function and do even the smallest things without severe panic attacks. I just want everyone to know that it CAN get better. I can now be in the same room as someone being sick (whereas I would have literally killed myself 3 years ago) and despite some anxiety I am able to handle situations I never thought I could. I haven't had a panic attack related to my phobia in about 6 months. It's an awful thing to deal with but you CAN get to a point of really improving. Hang in there!!

[@reneelane4195]

Can completely relate. Emetophobia is horrible. Its kept me up at night before and the fear of falling asleep and waking up sick. I rarely get stomach sick which is weird. Night is worse. Anxiety often causes nausea too, which makes it worse. So sorry for what you've been through. I pray that you are doing better. I'm grateful for medication that helps to control and panic and God has strengthened me.

[@dailyeverything301]

Hi, I just found you on KZbin because I was searching to see if anyone did a story time about this. I struggle with this phobia as well, at times I think I am improving but then it gets worse and worse. I'm always scared to go to school camp because people may get bus sick, I'm scared of going on planes, boats, toilets, sometimes even school. Watching this video made me realise that I'm not alone even when I think I am. You are an amazing and strong person, thank you for sharing this video with us :) Love from Australia😊

[@charlottepark]

Hi I suffer from the exact same thing how do u deal with it ❤️

[@Caaraamiaa]

I would run out mid class because I was afraid of being sick, I hated school.

[@joeyosborne3982]

"Be still, and know that I am God..." Psalm 46:10 (KJV)

[@savannahlynn9864]

i know this is old but i totally relate to everything in this video and it was so refreshing to hear someone with the same experiences. it would be super cool to talk sometime:)

[@LydiasFight]

(for more information on my phobia and what is it, check out some of the links in the description!) "Emetophobia is an intense phobia that causes overwhelming, intense anxiety pertaining to vomiting. This specific phobia can also include subcategories of what causes the anxiety, including a fear of vomiting in public, a fear of seeing vomit, a fear of watching the action of vomiting or fear of being nauseated.[1] Even the thought of someone possibly vomiting can cause the phobic person to engage in extreme behaviors to escape the perceived (and sometimes very real) threat of that particular situation, in which the phobic person will go through great lengths to avoid even potential situations that could even be perceived as "threatening."" - Wikipedia

[@bbqskyes]

Lydia's Fight i understand I have had anxiety basically my whole life I don't really remember where it started but whenever my sister and I got sick it was always harder for me to just be sick like I have emetophobia too and it has made my life so hard I just don't know what to do sorry for talking but I understand how you feel

[@garylynch1039]

you are a strong young woman who has delt with mental health issues and reached out for help not easy. I feel with more people like you coming out and telling there story with them struggling with mental health problems and getting help and inproveing it's going to help people alot. Thanks for being such a strong beautiful young woman.

[@barbarahall2135]

I have an awful needle phobia!!! Since I was a kid I would never tell my parents when I was sick because the fear of needles just got generalized to doctors and medical professionals as a whole and I'd literally just have ear infections and things for months because I wouldn't go to the doctor and I still really struggle with it and like I wouldn't let my parents take me to the hospital when I was self harming because I knew they would draw blood and when I was in residential I had to refuse blood work and anytime the nurses came for someone else's blood work I'd have panic attacks and just be hysterical and crying until I knew they were gone! It was awful and I know I need to go work on exposures for it but like ahhhh it's so scary and I hate it so so so much

[@456Nelllys]

I have the same I have diabetic symptoms and would avoid docotr and blood test

[@MichelleParsick]

You are honestly sosososo brave to share this!! I've gone through a lot, but I don't think I would post my story. You are so amazing, and such a brave girl! Ilysm.

[@LydiasFight]

Thank you so much!

[@katiehowes2273]

honestly know one really gets my sick phobia and listening to your story, it’s the exact same to you and i’m honestly just so glad it’s not just me, thank you for sharing your story x

[@Agpals]

This had to be so hard for you to share. You are SO strong, I can't believe you fought so hard through this ALL and lived to tell it! I had no idea you went through so much in your life. I am so happy you've found a better place in your life now and have created this channel to share it with everyone who is struggling. Seriously you are so wonderful, and beautiful, and strong, and athletic, and talented, and so so much!!! You are gorgeous inside and out!

[@LydiasFight]

aw thank you SO much Jenn! This literally made my day, so much love to you

[@alijnr123]

I connect to you so so much. I also have emetophobia and I completely understand the feeling of waking up in the middle of the night and just thinking you’re going to get sick for no reason. I used to have to go to my parents’ room every time as they tried to calm me down and tell me the same old things about how I was fine and I wasn’t going to be sick. Right now I’m recovering from an eating disorder too so we have a lot in common. Your videos have been helping me a huge amount since I decided to finally get help and try to recover a few days ago. So far I’m one week clean and starting my meal plan tomorrow 💗

[@Miminic1-i3g]

Your story sounds exactly like mine :( hope things are better for you now.

[@blackeyedbutterfly]

hugs, I am so glad things are getting better for you! you have worked so hard to get where you are! i have a very similar story to yours and I feel the emetophobia which has controlled my life over the past 20 yrs is the root cause of my anxiety, depression and eating disorder. you are so brave to be tackling your phobia! i know it is what I need to do as well however my brain is so resistant!

[@lizforassiepi6323]

I experienced pretty much the same thing. It feels so good to know I'm not the only one who's gone through this. Thank you for sharing your experience.

[@clarielysmarie2527]

I have anxiety for one year i was so sad and no eating nothing like pizza or other food but now i feel better and battle this mental health so hard and i feel so happy to myself and not feel alone.

[@reignorohsan4692]

It's very hard to live everyday. When I'm just playing games or partying and suddeny felt nervous or overwhelmed I felt like throwing up. I had anxiety and i cant speak in public.. Every time I had to speak or report on class I always vomit... Even when I am doing nothing its just suddenly come and make me vomit. Im normal, I dont have physical sickness that made me throw up. Sometimes i dont eat before going or doing something cause I think I'll throw up. I think what I had is uncurable... I tried my best to handle it and think of a better way to deal with it but nothing works.

[@reneeeshel924]

I can't believe how similar our stories are ! Thanks so much for this video, I can relate to this so much, thank you for raising awareness of emetophobia aswell, as a lot of people don't realise the extent or severity that it can get to. thank you so much again 💖

[@LydiasFight]

of course

[@reneeeshel924]

+Lydia's Fight yeah of course! I didn't mean for it to sound condescending btw ! Thanks so much, you too ! 💖

[@LydiasFight]

+Renee Eshel oh of course, I didn't think you were at all

[@taliarebecca6330]

Thank you so much for making this video. This made me feel like i wasn't alone and i now know that i can get through my phobia one way or another. i really appreciate you sharing your story. A million thank yous

[@joiascotland7656]

Lydia you are so brave for sharing your story! Thank you for giving an experience that others can relate to. It really helps.

[@LydiasFight]

Thank you

[@elevenbyfive]

You have so much courage to get through all of that. I hate how you were treated at camp. I have emetophobia too and i relate so much. I would love to see a video about that because i've never had any therapy for that, so it would be good to hear anything that you have to share.

[@LydiasFight]

I will definitely work on one! thank you so much xx

[@piasispela472]

It's amazing that youre so honest 💕

[@oliviavanslyck]

omg it’s crazy how much of this i relate to

[@jayviensam]

Im not diagnosed but... Its like evryrime i wanna eat something after i feel like im gonna be sick or like my heart be jump like scared. And then i repeatedly check expiration date before and after.

[@jessx306]

You're so strong, such an inspiration, & such a fighter ❤️

[@LydiasFight]

thank you so much

[@oliviabaganz]

I’m a huge worrior and I always will be. I have separation anxiety and Ementaphobia. Ementaphobia effects me sooo much. It’s really bad.

[@Torniization]

Thank you for sharing your story Lydia

[@LydiasFight]

aw thank you so so much! this means so much xx

[@jackiecasiano5253]

Wow it sounds like you were describing my life 😭 it’s crazy how much I can relate to you I can’t be long from my parents as well and I only do half school days too my emetophobia ruined my life and it has made me develop other mental illnesses like GAD, separation anxiety and social anxiety. I went from being popular with a lot of friends to complete loneliness.. I’d do anything to have my old life back

[@jessicapalmer346]

THIS IS BEAUTIFUL!

[@alexanicole8096]

love this video so much. you're so incredible for sharing your story!

[@fluffybuns8705]

Wow, you're describing my life! 😭 I have so much anxiety and depression, and I also have emetophobia and I plugged my ears too when I heard someone get sick in public school or heard someone burp or even cough. Now I'm home-schooled. 😂 I'm not gonna tell anything about my anxiety or depression tho.

[@marta4480]

On a plane I saw a flight attendant with a sick bag and giving to a passenger and I grabbed my phone and blared my music and I wasn't supposed to and I had a full on panic attack and I will be seeing a counsellor this year, I can't go into public bathrooms without someone and I still can't focus when I almost fainted but I will ask for help

[@taradewet9206]

I relate so much to your emetophobia story

[@apurbodey640]

Hlo I have some sensation in my mouth and in my nose just like vomit and when I burp feel like vomit but I think it is not vomit and i do this it is vomit sensation or emetophobia

[@Amoneyvids]

Going through the same thing atm haven’t been too school in 3 weeks and I’m trying too get better very behind on school work

[@rebekahjohnson329]

Thank you so much for sharing your story ❤️

[@LydiasFight]

[@emmacomethrivewithemma2061]

Hey Lydia. I came across your videos as i am doing a similar youtube channel. I had emetophobia, but i have over come it. I am trying to create a channel to encourage people that it is possible. To tell my story and To talk openly about it, i suffered for 20 years. But i want to share that you can beat it. Well done, your doing so well already, and your videos are brilliantly done, great confidence about talking openly. Well done. If you want any help with beating this nasty phobia, i would love to try help you. But even if not, i would love your help and advice on how to get this channel going. Thanks Chica. Emma x

[@sophiaroselle]

emma comethrivewithemma what did you do to get over it?

[@456Nelllys]

The worst phobia I suffering too...

[@mayeverett9333]

Feeling confidence when you just have to go somewhere, and being able to relax your body and mind, no matter how bad your fear of vomiting is. Well, it just feels great..., you might even boost your confidence so much that you become a whole other person lol. With a particular approach, like the one found in Gunther Streplock's website, it's not hard to make it happen.

[@nickhighway4731]

Hi Lydia, I founded that you've been through a lot and I have a question for you to help me, I have a friend that has the same lifestyle, and he's is better now comparing two years ago as he tould me, but I want to ask what can I do for help him, I don't wanna play as the therapist and I know that is something that he's gonna control by himself, but I just want to know what can I do for not making feel worse, also to don't interrupt on his progress, he already told me a little but I just want to be more informed by the people who had emetophobia, thanks for this video.

[@acsentu8]

Check your thyroid 👍👍👍😊

[@sharon_w6045]

Do you know what caused the anxiety??

[@LydiasFight]

no idea- I had the stomach flu when I was 3, but other then that I'm not sure!

[@miharurokujo7376]

you're a nice girl