I haven't wanted to restrict for a long time, but I binged last night and started feeling like my body was too much & that I didn't deserve to eat. Even through most of the video I was so mean to myself, I just couldn't believe the truth. I wanted to let the disordered thoughts win. You reminded me that I do deserve more than this and I deserve to be happy. I broke down crying and apologised to my body for being so cruel to it, because I know my body is trying it’s best to heal. I'm trying my best to heal. So I'm gonna choose to be kind to myself today. Hugs to anyone going through this bumpy time. I know you got this! 🫂❤️

I am 14 and 5’2, I had a huge scare at 13 because i was 82 pounds and practically dying. I gained a lot of weight recently, bumping me up to 110. I’m scared for school and I find myself today falling into some habits i haven’t had within a year. I have been counting, cutting myself in the areas I didnt like, and restricted. And i still intend on doing it tomorrow. Does anyone have any advice?

You’re the angel on my right shoulder. I was gonna restrict today to lose more weight but instead I’m eating. I feel a lil guilty but I’ll keep your voice in my mind!

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Food groups and macros mean nothing in recovery. Eat as much as you want of anything and everything you want. This is just another form of restriction

SUPER HELPFUL! THANK YOU SO MUCH! I am trying to help my daughter with her eating disorder. The journey just started. Lots of challenges and you video was just what I needed. One of the main obstacles is sugar. She refuses to eat any cookies, muffins, etc; as it contains sugar. She's convinced it causes her skin to break out. I don't know how to help her understand that the most important thing is to be able to gain energy, and achieve a healthy weight, and normal body functions (such as her period). She also has cold, red fingers. Is this related to the eating disorder? Thank you again!

Thank u so mucj for this video>333💕

Man, you do not know how many times I play this so I can eat.

Thank you so much I’m a male that is 28 and I suffer from a eating disorder building my relationship back with food is probably the hardest thing I’ve have done but I’m doing this for my wife most of all for me

even though this video is 7 years old, i love you so much. thank you.

losing weight is making me happy, but why i cannot meet my friends and laugh in front my parents anymore 😢

Thank you. I needed this tonight

i just have to say thank you SO much

Thank you for uploading this and being willing to be vulnerable so others can heal using your words. I have watched so many videos with Doctors, but none of them talked about the grind of the daily mental battle and all the lies you hear. Someone I love is battling this right now and I think it would help her to hear your words.

This is exactly what I needed, thank you so much🫶❤️‍🩹

i feel so so so guilty every time i eat and i hate it so much. i hate my body, im fat (i am, big thighs, big tummy, chubby cheeks..) and it always always triggers my gender dysphoria. im working so hard to keep eating and consuming actual meals because i know its better that way, but god i hate it.

big big thank you for making this video. i’m trying incredibly hard to resist the urge to relapse right now and while it’s difficult, i feel much less alone after watching this. you should know that your words are still making a positive impact 7 years later <3

This was so helpful for me

This didn't help...

I hate it when i eat thinks that doesnt even tate good, just lost calories

I really appreciate this advice

You haven’t posted in 6 years, but I wanted to say thank you for these videos hope you’re doing well❤

I'm now restricting fluids after discovering I was retaining abnormal weight I have to monitor weight daily from health reasons. I'm now quite upset. I drink a litre of water and did limit food with watter

Hlo I have some sensation in my mouth and in my nose just like vomit and when I burp feel like vomit but I think it is not vomit and i do this it is vomit sensation or emetophobia

I’ve been traumatized early and recently and I don’t want to eat but I don’t like the pain of starving. It feels like you’re not supposed to admit that you need a friend these days. Being alone can be horrifying even if you like your own company. Being human is challenging. I love the comfort of another truly good human. I wish the right eyes would see this

I needed this video today I really appreciate you thank you

Thank you... that really hit hard.

This is awful

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Thank you this video it was helpful

Thank you for this video ☺

Praying for you

I dont eat a lot because i have a phagophobia and it so hard but iam trying to...

Rationally I know I am worthy of food but also I know that I’m not at a healthy weight and I should be trying to gain or get sharper :(( …I am worthy of food

I needed this so much I’ve felt so disgusted by just everything about my body for the past 2-3 months and just overall wishing that I could just eat normally again and not look in the mirror and want to just not have to so me in a mirror and not be so restricted I’ve been trying to turn around this past week and I really really needed this I had a breakdown and a snap last night and having this pop up on KZbin I needed this so so much thank you ❤

I don't care about my body. I've always been underweight, but now I'm in a stable and healthy weight. Thing is, some times I don't want to eat. Two days or so I stop eating and I just don't want to do anything. It stresses me over a lot, how the hours I should be spending eating or so I stop eating. I feel lazy, I don't know.

thank u

I wanted to eat a super low cal dinner bc I ate too much for lunch and my mom brought ice cream in the house and I ate a bit. I will try to eat a better meal for dinner today rather than an unfufilling low cal one. I’m a bit overweight and want to lose 25ibs so I eat in a calorie deficit but its been so hard lately not to overeat and binge

Idk I have not eaten literally anything for 2 days because of my mental statue I don't know if I can call it disorder or not

Thank you

That's EXACTLY what I needed...it's been months since I started restricting and now I'm trying to get out of this cycle... and you just seemed to speak directly to my heart💜 thank you so much

i started to cry when she started to say all those sweet things. that’s not what my brain tells me and it’s really hard not to listen to it.

You've saved me tonight

I could NEVER do this. So, I guess the key word is want. Been anamia for 50 of my 60 yrs. No one - & I mean NO ONE - can force me to eat breakfast or any 'treat' at any time. Unimaginable! Good luck to you all though.

I really needed this. I am so grateful for your video! Thank you so so much. Sending love!

i don't have a job right now (which in turn makes paying bills impossible). my family makes it clear that hanging out with them in the living room, laughing/joking, having opinions, etc--ate not welcome from me. since i don't contribute to the household, then i don't get to participate. i can't buy food, so i deserve to eat. and yes, i have been looking for a job.

Hello

it does ruin your life, im so glad you recovered

This was a really helpful video!! Saving it for later, becuase I know I will need it in the future. Thank you for sharing this video.

Not sure whether I can keep going with recovery and if it's what I really want... This video speaks to me (like so many others who are also going through it), reminding myself that I'm worthy of recovery, but once I "fall off the wagon" and binge/relapse because my body is enjoying the extra nutrients and food, it's so hard... It's a never ending cycle and I'm so exhausted!