my struggle with overthinking

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i've always been someone that tends to overthink. since my car accident 4 months ago, it's gotten a lot worse. most of you say i come off as really strong, but honestly it's really been a struggle to believe it and live it out. however, i think i'm in a much better mindset now and am ready to start talking more about my mental journey!
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i want to start this new series, probably titled "literally br(ok)en" or 'temporarily broken', comment any other ideas or if you like those! here's how i plan on doing it: tell my story in regards to the topic of the video, compare what i felt & how i reacted in the beginning, with how i feel about it now. and then try to outline why i think the changes happened, and point out anything important i’ve learned and now believe in. then acknowledge the areas that i still struggle with processing & dealing with. then hopefully people can feel comfortable to leave a comment about what they have to say about the topic. or everyone can respond to each other’s comments as well if there’s any confusion, or just to give affirmation. THE POINT IS: so when strangers who are looking for answers or looking for comfort, stumble upon my video, they’re met with a forum of people offering their take. and maybe it will help them or at least make them feel less alone!
if you know me in real life or you wish to contribute - PLEASE MESSAGE ME! I'd love to have discussions with you & learn from you before I film about a certain topic! also, it'd mean a lot if you could share this video with your friends 💛
thank you so much for your support!
love, rae.
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name: rachel nielsen | age: 19 | location: jakarta, indonesia | ethnicity: half indonesian half danish
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[@anonymousfox22]

This is one of the most emotional and serious video of Rachel I've seen omg. God bless you and stayyy strongg !! That quote where you said "life is fair because life is unfair to everyone" hit me deep. Overthinking honestly kills tbh, but sometimes you really just gotta fight those thoughts off and it may sound really hard, but it's possible. Sometimes I like to think to myself that everything happens for a reason and it moulds you into the person you are today and everyday is a challenge. There is always a negative side for everything, but sometimes you have to search for the positive side to see it. I also like to think that some things are the challenges that God has given us with to see which paths in life we are going to choose. Life can be so simple and beautiful, but also so complicated and painful. Yikes, it really be like that sometimes xD Keep it up Rachel !! 💙💙💙💙💙

[@RachelNielsen]

i know i'm super nervous being more serious in my vids now! but thank you for your support. 💛 i completely agree with what you're saying. God has a plan, we just have to learn to be patient and trust Him ! hahah yes it do be like that sometimes

[@TheDailyDanny]

uGH CANT WAIT FOR THE SERIES!!!!

[@TheDailyDanny]

damn rae this video was beautifully edited and so fckng emotional... i'm so proud of you for bouncing back up after the accident... i'm praying for you girl... 💛💛💛

[@RachelNielsen]

thank you so so sooooo much danny!

[@bustdowngachiana8201]

that lighting is giving me the billie eilish bad guy vibes. Im sorry for you Rachel. Remember, everything happens for a reason. If the car accident didn’t happen imagine what else could have happened? If you didn’t get in the car crash, something would still go wrong either if it was small or big. Cause sis my life is crippled! Love you Rachel!

[@kyravandermeijden2463]

Love this idea! 💛💛💛

[@bookishcallie]

UGH I CAN'T WAIT TILL THE REST OF THE SERIES :)

[@theeclecticgirl220]

Aw bby, this breaks my heart. But you’re a strong girly, don’t let these thoughts get to you! ❤️❤️

[@styledbysands]

all the yellow hearts for you ✨⚡️💛

[@eduardnababaneduard9060]

U are nice rachel!! Gbu,nice to know u!!

[@itsmumba]

This is so heartbreaking 💔

[@bobbmarkle5050]

💛 You are so strong! wow I LOVE your videossss :)

[@RachelNielsen]

thank you so much 💛

[@caitlinblue9061]

I relate to this video sooo much omg😭😭😭 thank you for making this you are soooo brave❤️

[@RachelNielsen]

we’re in this together 💛

[@MANARExplore]

I am so proud of you Rachel🌹

[@RachelNielsen]

thank u, Manar 💗

[@FitnesswithMeg]

You are so strong and I am so proud of you!

[@RachelNielsen]

thank you so much!

[@jemimatobing1416]

💛!!!! im truly inspired by you & i cant wait to see how far you've come!!!!! lots of love

[@RachelNielsen]

lots of love for uuuu 💛 thank u sm

[@everything.sapphire6313]

💛💛💛You’re amazing

[@RachelNielsen]

love u

[@constantgeeking]

oh man i love this

[@RachelNielsen]

oh man i love u

[@biancarell1364]

💛💛💛💛 Stay strong! Love youu!!

[@RachelNielsen]

ily 💛💛

[@judiihu]

proud of u for sharing ur story ❤️

[@RachelNielsen]

thank you for listening 💛

[@nikigracevlogs]

I had to go back and watch this!! Looking forward to seeing more 💛

[@RachelNielsen]

💛💛💛

[@jeannejessicamcc5941]

Damn.. I REALLY LOVE U RAEEE💛💛💛

[@RachelNielsen]

ILY TOO

[@AnnisaAdelina]

💛super excited for it!!

[@RachelNielsen]

yay! 💛

[@namecozname9997]

im so proud of you rachel 💛 !! You are amazingg !!!

[@RachelNielsen]

thank you for believing in me 💛

[@namecozname9997]

@@RachelNielsen Rachel Nielsen got this !!! She's stronger than what's inside her head ! love you 💛

[@deniselizette8080]

The title is SO ME!! Just subbed :)

[@RachelNielsen]

yay!

[@fiza2149]

so so proud of you for being able to share this!! you're honestly one of the bravest girls I know and continue to inspire me. you got this!!

[@RachelNielsen]

thank u for always believing in me 😭💛

[@styledbysands]

you are so strong queen and to be keeping up with youtube proud of you Rachael

[@RachelNielsen]

thank you lovely 💙

[@genevievecai]

this is so powerful and emotional, I couldn't imagine what you were thinking when it happened but I'm glad you gave us a glimpse of it

[@RachelNielsen]

it was insane.. and to think some people have it worse!

[@nabilafauzisyafitri2946]

Cant wait to watch the series rae 💛

[@RachelNielsen]

yay!

[@FeelThatWayChannel]

💛 lowkey a big fan of your channel 🙈 and I’m so excited for this series. I seriously find everything you’re doing so inspiring; turning everything unfortunate that’s happened into an opportunity to not only inspire others but also yourself through this outlet. ❤️❤️❤️

[@RachelNielsen]

ah this means so much! 🙈 i love the way you worded that last sentence 💛

[@azyy6482]

You are so strong rachel. Everyone fights their battle. Me too. After rain there's rainbow right. Cheer up sis❤.

[@RachelNielsen]

so true, thank you ❤️

[@63_alyisavitriastriyanih71]

💛 always excited for u vid Rachel love u xoxo

[@RachelNielsen]

aw ily 💛

[@mynameisliana]

You were so brave to make this. Life is all about learning from experience and improving yourself!

[@RachelNielsen]

this relieves me so much 💕 thank u

[@komangarya7144]

yasss new vidio

[@areneifeynman3842]

omg u're the strongest gurl ive ever seen😢 and this video truly brought tears to my eyes😭. we love you!! 💛💛💛

[@RachelNielsen]

love YOU!! 💛

[@irenechung9918]

this literally brought tears to my eyes 😢😭 i rlly respect you for how honest and real you were in this video and that makes me love you even moree ❤️❤️ stay strongg rach!!

[@RachelNielsen]

I LOV YOU PRESIDENT 💗

[@theflyingcow98]

Ok WOWOWOW i had nooo idea how much overthinking actually handicapping but so so so good that you’re able to share your story, you’re amazing!! 💖💖💖

[@RachelNielsen]

thank u for encouragine me!! 💖💖

[@karoz7479]

I feel you. That’s all my fears to.❤️😞

[@RachelNielsen]

your story is so powerful. i hope one day i can use your story as an example for my videos 💗 if you’re comfortable ofcourse

[@karoz7479]

Rachel Nielsen of course you can use it!

[@Deerdeer77]

I understand your pain. If you ever want to talk I’m here❤️

[@RachelNielsen]

thank you 💛

[@jackdavide5742]

Hi Rachel, this is a very thoughtful, exceptional video. You are amazing. I think before a major trauma we think we know and can control our future. When something happens, we maybe see that isn't the case, start to feel alone, and think maybe no one can relate...Again, such a great video.

[@RachelNielsen]

this is so so so true! i've learned and experienced so many new things in this journey. thank u so much. x

[@jackdavide5742]

@@RachelNielsen And thank you so much for sharing, especially this part of the recovery. I am looking forward to more thoughtful videos. Staying strong is important, and I know people tend to say it a lot, but knowing that you are not experiencing something that is isolated or in isolation, I think, is so much more important. Maybe you can turn the videos into a book...that would be amazing, and even talk about goals. I don't think there's enough written, fiction or even creative writing, about recovering from traumas. And maybe off topic, but I think it is connected, is the issue of dreams. I remember I used to have what I call 'broken leg dreams'...I should have written down details... All the best, Rachel!

[@johannacannella909]

rachel you've been so strong and positive through this all. i didn't realize these side effect. im glad you're ready to shear your internal, character growth which is usually harder to do. lots of love boo

[@RachelNielsen]

it really is 😫 thank you for the love! 💗

[@queenstephchavez4504]

Thanks for sharing this video Rachel! I appreciate you for being strong enough to share your mental health through this journey! I had a car accident in November and broke my right tibia and fibula and ever since I’ve been having the same thoughts as you... the what if’s, and why me? I fell into depression and have some ptsd and social anxiety but since I started watching your videos I feel less alone through this journey and have had a better head space about the whole situation. I am so excited for this type of videos!!! 💛💛💛 We are in this together, keep your head high and your crown higher 👑

[@RachelNielsen]

i’m so sorry that happened to you. we’re in this together. feel free to send me a dm anytime you wanna talk!! i’m glad my videos can comfort you 💛 stay strong

[@MellaCarli]

i cried at the beginning omg, really gotta meet when im in indo i want to give you a hug like a BIG hug😭❤️

[@RachelNielsen]

AW yes pls let’s meeeettt ❤️

[@j4c422]

Hey this was really great! It's strange how I can relate to your thoughts when over thinking even though nothing like this has happened to me. I just want to tell you to stay strong. And every time you have these kinds of nights, tell yourself that those are normal thoughts. They help you heal. That you should be okay with having those thoughts. (that helps me when I'm over thinking) I love you and your channel a lot a lot (it kind of makes me sad that you don't have more subscribers because of how aesthetic and amazing your videos are). But, I'm sure that one day all of a sudden your channel is gonna blow up, I have that feeling lol ❤💞💕

[@RachelNielsen]

you’re so sweet 😭 i hope people come across this comment and find comfort in it! thank you for your input 💗

[@GraceESutanto]

Thank you for opening up. Some of us have gone through the same struggle or have a different story. I’ve definitely gone through the same thing with bullying and suicide. And the question has always been “why me?”, Why was I born with a learning disability, what if I majored in economics? my parents would’ve been more proud of me. Why is it that no matter how hard I try, it doesn’t reflect on my grades? Life isnt perfect, bad things can happen very unexpectedly and only you have control of how you could react to this. You have the choice to go through it, or go around it and still have to deal with it later in life. Your actions can also be based on your beliefs, some people may have different ways to deal with this, some people discover things and it helped them cope with anxiety. Everyone has different ways to deal with this. I’ve dealt it through discovering ice hockey, and constantly drawing every single day, even if my teachers hated me for it. At the end, I turned my leisure into my career. Lesson for anyone is to know that YOU ARE LOVED and YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Talk to someone if you need help. If you need help adjusting, I’m here to help. Stay strong, you’ll get there and you’ll look back at how far you’ve gone.

[@RachelNielsen]

your story always inspires me. i’m sorry, this world can be so cruel sometimes. this is exactly the kind of input i hope to see as part of the discussion!! thank you so so much for sharing. i hope people come across this tweet and feel inspired 💗💗

[@rheacaparas5886]

This was super inspiring and so beautifully done 💛 am looking forward to more videos in this series! P.S. I vote “Br(ok)en” to be the series title🗳

[@RachelNielsen]

it was fun taking a different and more artistic approach! thanks for the support 💛

[@Lindsay1930]

This will be a great series and it will help so many people. It's ok to see a therapist to get you through this. My auntie children went therapy for their mother after she passed away from her accident like this. This help them so much because their grief had them spilling out of control. Your family can help but a mental therapy can help you with so much more. Love you girl and stay strong

[@RachelNielsen]

i’ve never seen a therapist but i agree it’s a great option! i’m so sorry about your aunti’s children’s loss 🙏🏻

[@sarfobismark3414]

I did the best thing here ... I watched all the ads fr u 😘😘

[@RachelNielsen]

THANK YOU YOU'RE A REAL ONE ILY

[@arnettaszefanya7470]

stay strongg rAEE💛💛

[@mctiz2736]

I see Peter Parker 😂

[@RachelNielsen]

thank u!! omg love ur picture

[@arnettaszefanya7470]

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[@mctiz2736]

@@arnettaszefanya7470 awokawok ,, Yeayy 🙌

[@tinkathomsen8053]

💛💛💛💛💛 you are beautiful and special, and this I’ve known since I met you😊. You have a unique perspective and the fact that you are sharing such personal stuff will make a difference❤️. You are not alone, and I’m not alone, and the two woman aren’t alone. We just need to be brave enough to speak up about it. Thank you Rachel, for being such an inspiration💛🧸

[@RachelNielsen]

your story inspires me too, georgina!! thank you for this 💛 hope i can come to you about certain topics x

[@tinkathomsen8053]

Rachel Nielsen you can come to me about anything big or small💛

[@73BeastBoy]

CHUBBY RAAEEEEEEE ❤️❤️❤️

[@RachelNielsen]

a;lskjfadkjfskdj lowkey insecure bout itttt 😭 but working on it 💛

[@mnn1083]

First uh, love you rae

[@RachelNielsen]

aw ily 2 💛

[@hlias1778]

💛 The discussion sounds beneficial 👍🏼👍🏼

[@RachelNielsen]

hope it will be!

[@hansk.5909]

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[@kawaiimarshmallow1831]

I over think waaaaay too much aswell

[@loiscalita9424]

💛💛 I really do hope everything goes well, stay strong and patient!! xx

[@RachelNielsen]

thank u sm! 💛

[@dandraeg3679]

I broke my leg in a car accident a week ago and I'm feeling everything you are in this video but you're able to get over it I am not can you help me? Every time I stand up walk just bit it's excruciating pain and deters me from ever trying again.

[@InspiringVanessa]

hello Rachel, new subscribe here, i will watch your other videos, but just wanted to say hello and stay strong ;-)

[@j4c422]

💛💛💛

[@bobbmarkle5050]

Talk about, what others thought throughout your experience. And what you KNOW is going through people's minds when you tell them your story.

[@RachelNielsen]

great idea! i’ll definitely note this 👌🏻

[@bobbmarkle5050]

@@RachelNielsen yay, thank you!

[@ayae316]

i love u

[@RachelNielsen]

love u 2

[@xiilemonsiix4268]

💛😊

[@liamroday6465]

I would leave a yellow emoji hart if I could, however this phone will not let me... Great Video!! I can't wait to see what you start off with. How goes the walking??

[@RachelNielsen]

aww hahha thank you! walking is going okay.. i'm still reliant on crutches, but i've started learning to go up the stairs!

[@johannacannella909]

choice changes everything

[@RachelNielsen]

very true

[@Saritabbe]

So this is the story of my brothers accident *if you don't wanna read keep scrolling* 😁😁 My brother use to be a really calm person. He was about 5 when this accident happened and I was a year older than him. We were outside in front of my neighbors next door playing with a girl. My brother decided to come play with us. He had an idea of making kites. YES I REMEMBER THT. After a while of making kites. (That didn't work at all, they were paper and string btw) My friend's dad finally arrived. He was with he's car like always outside waiting for us to move out of the way to put his car in the garage. After he put his car in the garage we went to our spot right where we where before. (In front of the garage) I heard a voice from my house saying move. I look back to where the garage is and I see my friend's dad's car moving towards us. I quickly reflected and so did my friend but my brother just stood there. It all happend so quickly I didn't even know what to do but I soon realize that my brother was under the car. My grandfather and my stepfather help moved the car. Everyone was really shocked that day. He is alive now thanks to God. I'm grateful for how we have him in our meals every day alive. He is now 11 years old and he still has scars from the accident. I like telling this story to people so that they know that miracles do happend. It happend to you to my brothers and to me. Also thank you so so so much for reading 🙂 P.S. share this message if you feel like it

[@nobell2468]

Everything that happen to us, there is some reason and we will blame ourselves. Actually God remind us to learn from everything happened not by blaming but being grateful to God for all blessings. Get well really soon Rachel and hope you can walk and run normally!!

[@RachelNielsen]

very true 💛 thank u so much

[@fiza2149]

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[@drkapilsaraswat]

We both have same story .

[@bacharuddinafif]

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[@vhristie]

💛 :)

[@RachelNielsen]

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[@REPUBLIKAPENDIDIKANINDONESIA]

Nice 👍👍👍❤️❤️💙💙💞💞💞💞🔔🔔🔔

[@kraybay1341]

Awh im so sorry this happened to you. Must have a lot of PTSD 😭 Love your channel though. Subbed youuuu! Hope we can support each other 💕💕🔔🔔

[@RachelNielsen]

i wouldn't call it PTSD, but there is trauma. thank you! i'd love to support each other 💕

[@TopCat10]

Amazing video Rach! You are strong in every way. Soon you can stop wearing diapers and all will be good.

[@056_daivanadinepratiwi7]

lol sorry but im a fan of your eye brows

[@RachelNielsen]

omG they’re so berantakan tho 😂💗

[@hannahg6434]

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[@kawaiimarshmallow1831]

I over think waaaaay too much aswell

[@RachelNielsen]

read some of the comments on here! they’re very helpful 💛

[@zanubary]

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[@mollyperolapelle4577]

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[@RachelNielsen]

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[@056_daivanadinepratiwi7]

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