NA Speaker Billy A. from Boston - Very Funny with a Great Recovery Message - Narcotics Anonymous

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[@marksimmons9389]

I'm 48 hours from beginning a severe opiate detox the withdrawals are going to be severe wish me luck everyone else suffering out there I love you and you're in my prayers don't give up

[@candacehoward6660]

How are you doing now?? Stay strong!!

[@marksimmons9389]

@@candacehoward6660 still going strong. Still sick tho

[@maxdelaney7944]

@@marksimmons9389 hope you’re doing ok, it gets better

[@marksimmons9389]

@@maxdelaney7944 thank u sir. I'm still strong 4 days of straight torture skin crawling laying in the bathtub only thing that gets rid of it. Let's this be a lesson to everyone out there don't pick up it's not worth the detox

[@aphysique]

@@marksimmons9389 how you doing?

[@johntorres5639]

I'm so blessed! By the grace of God I'm celebrating 15yrs of sobriety, April 11, truly saved my life & gave me a life! I'm now living the dream! God bless us all! :)

[@marcusb3785]

This is the first time I have giggled in weeks. This message made me sit up in the bed and turn on the lights. God Bless us All in and out of the rooms.

[@mattmason1986]

In & out is right

[@chadcaponetti5865]

Are you still happy?

[@YancyWalker-sb9ud]

Billy A., I thank you for your courage and testimonial. The humor that you have about our addiction to narcotics is inspirational. Yes, we are the ones 🎉 Celebrating our sobriety because WE HAVE LEARNED TO LUAGH AT OIRSELVES. The binges, the blackouts, the bunggles in our lives...; although tragic is something made up of drowning tears but somtimes we look back on those bitter tears, in our older days and we may be able to laugh as our collective simplicity. We are all flawed.😢😅😊

[@LL-tm4uz]

I've never been to a meeting so I searched on here and found this one I can't believe how alike all addicts are! I can't say how many times I laughed n nodded my head me too omg!!! Lol this was amazing! I quit the hard drugs (1 year 9 months ago) but I realized when I wanted to quit drinking to lose weight that I can't even go one day without drinking and idk how I'll ever stop or cut down but for the first time I want to live my life not just exist anymore. Thank you for this!

[@vickibrubaker3054]

12-25-06 it works keeps the insane, off me . tell them thank you

[@wheezt.v.1641]

Liz L Just break it down into one day like for the next hr I won’t drink and after that go another hr and so on and so forth and b4 u kno it you’ll have 1day without drinking and keep going until you can cope hopefully this helps your wonderful person worth living

[@piolin23iq]

Liz L ¿how is going!! I am at that same stage in my recovery exactly! 5 years so far, but drinking an daily basis. If anything works fore me I’ll let you know, and viceversa. listening to these speakers shine a light.😇😇😇

[@LL-tm4uz]

Gerarald Kings so far still hard drug free 3 yrs June 14th but still drinking everyday every night I’m like tomorrow yea tomorrow I’ll stop but so far no good it’s like being low on a pk of cigs saying ur quitting but panic n get more I can’t wrap my head around it n when I don’t feel like drinking one day I’ll still try scared I won’t like to drink n will have nothing but boredom pretty sure I’m a lost cause lol

[@MF-Productions]

How's the no alcohol going?

[@rachelcoley3526]

“What the high was..is I was smoking plastic..” I lost it right there. 😂 Absolutely hilarious speaker!

[@NOOKnookCROOK]

God bless you all who suffer from this disease. You're in my prayers.

[@roseangel6293]

Thank you for the encouragement to those that want it!

[@follc1991]

Thank you, I'm trying

[@nicoleking7208]

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[@ordinarydecentcriminal5449]

Recovering addict here in Ireland.🇮🇪 Love N.A.. because it does work if you work it. It wont if you dont so keep coming back because your worth it. ❤ we do recover 👌

[@anthonyharraden4709]

I’m from Brockton Massachusetts. Recoverinh heroin addict in SoCal now. I needed to hear this. Thank you. Beautiful and funny story. 👏

[@Jorge-xz7hu]

Billy T. a true N/A soldier powerful message...taking heed!!!

[@daniellenabors6774]

Absolutely beautiful thank you for aharing!!!

[@victoriastallard]

Thank you so much for sharing Billy A. I really needed this and you are hilarious and had me cracking up LMAO 😂😂😂

[@kellyservelloV5]

Loooove ❤ thank you!

[@Jorge-xz7hu]

Billy A. a true N/A soldier and Brother!🙏

[@user-zt8py7po9d]

May god be with, proud of you and completely understand. Its 💯 % worth it.

[@angelapower4026]

Thanks for the word!

[@pranzalbaraily3237]

Bless those addicts & alcoholics who are in most need of recovery...🙏

[@tinabarber9221]

8/27/2023 Tina from Allentown Pennsylvania I have 7 months clean thank you for sharing.

[@300nj]

Thank for the message I can relate with the bathroom and everyone lookin at me

[@kool7862]

What a brilliant share👏 I was in stitches 🤣😂 ......I can relate 💯% to everything he talks about....I relapsed after 15 months and now I'm on day 3 clean from all substances and listening to this helps me so soon much.... getting clean it's not easy but it's possible... Plz God 🙏🏻🙏🏻 help me and help all my brother's & sisters who are struggling with this disease of alcaholism/addiction Ameeen🙏🏿🙏🙏🏻🙏🏿

[@vickibrubaker3054]

hang on to the end of the rope just hang on.it will get easyer i think i wore your shies once

[@robertwilson8850]

wish u the best in your recovery call me sometimes im living in baltimore city 443-506-3796 my name is robert w

[@piolin23iq]

I know exactly what you struggle with because I do too. May God help us all who have to go through this process.

[@lucilleplacencia1877]

I know what you mean

[@lucilleplacencia1877]

Bully from Boston, you got me LMAO!!! T.y.

[@victoriastallard]

Congratulations on being clean for 25 years 🎉 🎊🎈 👋👋👋

[@micheleashford7682]

My name is Michele A., born & raised in the Bay Area. Hearing a speaker from the East Coast is so enlightening. Thank you Billy A. for your message of recovery, as well as, keeping it real. 1 love

[@JessicaJohnson-ii6ou]

Good Clear message of Narcotics Anonymous...

[@cvf253]

Thank you "Anthony Travels" for all these speaker tapes! I'm grateful for you! ♡

[@edburris1696]

That's the only way we can keep what we have by giving it away!!!!!

[@francescoluigilocci4057]

No social skills but I can talk a cat off a tuna bowl 😂😂😂🙏

[@ludabanko4894]

tuna BOAT!!!

[@adamsmith9931]

Lol, I lmao at that part as well!!!

[@MF-Productions]

Tuna boat

[@boriqualatina8903]

Hi BILLY 👋 GBU 🧡&SOUL ! AS I STARTED TO LISTEN 2 U I felt and understood every single word and meanings of ur jokes all 2 well !!! I laughed so 🤣 hard 4 a couple of mins But then felt very sad 😥 rt afterwards because 2 hear you tell it and me vision it OML 😲 IT MADE ME COMPLETELY THINK OF MYSELF AND MYSELFISH WAYS AS A OBESSIVE ADDICT MIND OF MINES IS AWEFUL!!! I FEEL SHAMED 😪 BUT JUST FYI 2DAY WAS MY VERY 1ST DAY OF BEING SOBER IN 4YRS & 4YRS TO LONG !!!! THANK U 4 ALL UR HILARIOUS JOKES I NEEDED THIS NA AND I'M GLAD I CAME ACROSS THIS 1. !!! 1 DAY AT A TIME I WILL DO MY BEST 2 NOT USE ANYMORE !!! CONTIUE LISTENING 4 NOW DUE TO THE COVID-19 WE CAN NO LONGER GO TO AA/OR NA EVER AGAIN 😔 SO I WILL LISTEN AND LEARN !!!

[@ivisburris705]

40:49 I knew my H.P. had pointed me in the rite direction 2 listen 2 this video. This is a spiritual program w/ spiritual principles. The steps R tools 2 aid us on this journey. H: Honesty O: Open mindedness W: Willingness So I'm rite where I need to be & that's on Step 6 "Were entirely ready for God to remove all these defects of character " D.O.C. I'm getting prepared 4 surgery.

[@kool7862]

Well done 👏👏

[@kelsitourville2792]

I'm in. Halfway house in boston and due to the coronavirus we are on a quarantine no coming or going so we put some sun tan lotion on put this speaker on and LISTENED. It was fucking phenomenal thank you for your service. #sobahISbettah

[@nicolebrown5175]

Such a powerful speaker, I've been scared to start my step work but after hearing that message I have the courage to start. Thank you

[@attitudeadjusted9027]

Step work is the solution. It's the best guarantee against relapse. It says in the basic txt...we have NEVER seen an addict relapse who LIVES the na program. We live what we believe not what we know. The steps give us a new way to believe. I encourage you to give yourself a break and work the steps to get freedom from yourself. ☮️

[@endoholic48]

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[@superspark22]

Give me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference

[@aphysique]

God, give us the serenity to accept the thing's We cannot change, the courage to change the things we can, the wisdom to know the difference!

[@melissaruiz9561]

I love listening to this. I laugh every time. My friend and I held our own meeting with this one once and I try to share it with as many as I can. I love this place (NA). Keep going!

[@leestiltner9292]

I had gotten clean for a few years back and, I caught a few na meetings in the beginning of my recovery journey, but mostly I worked another program. Even though inside me on a cellular level, I knew I was an addict, I identified as an Alcoholic. Now several years on down the road, some behaviors that I knew were addictive behavior presented themselves in my life. I decided to go back to a NA meeting. I shit you not, one of the shares I heard was my current situation to the letter all except for the relapse. About how they had misidentified for several years, built a life clean, got a family, job, housing, and trust, but ultimately they weren't in the right program and they went back out. I haven't went back out but the story I heard was familiar enough that I decided to switch to the program I belong in, Narcotics Anonymous. I'm in the literature now, hoping to start the steps and find out who I really am. I have hope again. God bless this program and the addicts who still suffer.

[@awf80]

Both fellowships are the same program. This is idiotic. The first one you tried didn't work for you because you didn't work it.

[@lilbitofsouthernspirit7788]

Laughter has a power. l love the humor.

[@codypulley7682]

One of the main reasons I got off of social media was because there was this religious group talking smack about 12 step recovery people. I personally have not been to the meeting in 13 years. Yeah. It was the greatest part of my life from 1986 until 13 years ago. I've been thinking about going back just for the camaraderie and to be somewhere where I actually fit in. But word to the wise never talk smack about 12 step recovery to me. Those people laid down their lives for me in a way the church will never do. it really breaks my heart when churches talked crap about recovery places because they have no idea the depths of the pain is those that finally show up in those rooms. All the things we had to endure from religious people. Turns Out I have the same God that drove me to using drugs. But just a different conception of who he is. But this recovery business it's not about salvation or eternity in heaven it's about saving your damn life and making it about face and beginning to live life to its fullest and no longer being scared of God and healing from all the wounds that religious people brought upon those that finally found recovery. I don't know any of y'all at this meeting or those that may be reading this comment. Yeah. I love you very much and I hope that you don't let the religious man keep you from recovery. And this own conception of God thing everybody has it even the religious people. So my prayer for all of you is that you find God now. those that maintain recovery and are happy joyous and free. It is because they turn their will and their life over to the care of God as they understood him. The smallest amount of faith it gets the ball rolling and then your conception of God will change as the days pass. God is not concerned about your interpretation of him he is only concerned about setting your feet on higher ground so that you can recover from a hopeless disease. Anyways I'm rambling at this point I just hope that if anybody is being affected by a religious person and some religious person is trying to make you feel bad for seeking recovery. Just tune them out because after all it's your ass you're trying to save.

[@ivisburris705]

14:18 "I don't want anymore u cn hv the rest of mines" I hv NEVER said that one. Lol

[@shanetobias2566]

Nope,I never ever even thought about giving mine up.im big hearted but not that big.

[@tammyquick8065]

What a great speaker i was laughing my head off and getting a great NA message at the same time!! Thank you for posting

[@ivisburris705]

LOVE it! "This 2 SHALL pass!"

[@maineeveryday3991]

Needed this..

[@williamaustin2615]

Awesome share

[@denvertvarley8440]

Brilliant share with seriousness intertwined with some humour that all addicts can relate to! Congratulations on your 25 years!!!

[@pygmygodeus9450]

Very cool! Thanks for sharing that with us.

[@michaelr.powersjr.1450]

Thanks for keeping it real.

[@meganwatt5796]

Absolutely Powerful !!! Thank you so much..... My name is Megan and I am an Addict....... without humor in this disease we would never be able to laugh at ourselves......again thank you so very much

[@lisafenzel394]

Love ❤

[@blaiznone2885]

You give me the strength bro thank you from the bottom of my heart

[@dwansmith6187]

Awesome Billy... I'm going to keep coming back!❤

[@Nick-po8cp]

So funny man. We can do this thanks NA

[@marion-brettjohnson7645]

great message .gave me hope

[@t0kigh02t7]

Play these while driving while cooking while cleaning or while laying in bed unable to do those things, just fill your head with these meetings until u can go to one them . U will recover .

[@waltersobchak7275]

Awesome share. Could relate 100%

[@memourrea2382]

this is a life or death matter thank you for giving anthony

[@billbollinger2508]

Billy TY for your message

[@josephkelley9070]

3 years 2 months 4 days and 23 hours....relapse! I'm tired of hearing that's what we do!! I'm truly an addict! I will overcome 🙏 1 of these fucking runs!! God bless this group!

[@randylkinzey1817]

How are you doing now brother?

[@randylkinzey1817]

HRU today brother?

[@vernonmanto7939]

What a Great Share!! Thanks Billy!

[@jayelee2468]

I've come a long way, staying clean 1 year 3 months

[@josephkelley9070]

awesome buddy! it's truly a struggle...daily aye!

[@chadcaponetti5865]

Are you still clean?

[@jayelee2468]

@@chadcaponetti5865 yes I am 2 years and 4 months one day at a time stay safe ....

[@jayelee2468]

@@josephkelley9070 thanks you this means lots to me

[@colesschmidt1682]

Thank you

[@crazycracker1]

11 months clean on Nov 3 2022 greatful and blessed

[@olafulonska1479]

Beautiful and powerful message

[@ryanparteer0415]

It's your cousin from boooooosstoonn!!

[@karlc3960]

I still steer with my knee at times !

[@cherylcooperr.7353]

Encouraging message. Thank you..

[@KingDingus92]

Wonderful message!

[@kimberlymatthews7351]

Hi this is Kimberly Matthew a lot of people don't like that I say that I rather sit back and listen to y'all at least conventions talk to me so I can hear about your stories want me to keep going to meetings and all that but this is how I like to do it because I'm going through my own problems I'm trying to get back into reality I'm trying to get back to dealing with people and stuff like that let me do this at my Pace I love to hear about cha when y'all talk about your stories cuz it's helping me get through my and my stuff I'd like to listen to the conventions I like to hear everybody around the world come up my serenity prayer I do everyday God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change the courage to change the things I can and the will to do it all and I will one day at a time I'm having bad anxiety attacks and I'm just going to let God have it all so thank you so much for your response to my things that I say

[@bernadettedunmore7213]

Zac Hes

[@jennifers4528]

@@kimberlymatthews7351 Hi Kimberly. I hope you're doing well in recovery. God bless! 💜

[@kenmacpherson4405]

1 week clean today

[@jennifers4528]

Congratulations! You're doing great! 😊💜

[@jessicariley4689]

I really enjoyed listening to you thanks for the laughs. 😂😂

[@chadcaponetti5865]

Wanna attend a meeting together? I’m Bae nice to meet u

[@marymajors6145]

So funny I had the same classic car LOL

[@deanelliscurtis]

Best share I have EVER heard in my life!!! It’s after blowing me away!!!! Na fucking rocks!!!!

[@ivisburris705]

Yup, we don't hv patience. Ain't that a Blip! U r funny! We R very creative.

[@ghostpepper9415]

Good talk

[@kimberlymatthews7351]

I just want to say thank you because both my parents and my brother and my stepfather going and all I kept doing was constantly getting high do you realize that it wasn't going to bring none of them back I do miss them so much but right now my life is about to change like I said I don't have a sponsor you all my sponsors because as long as I listen to y'all and do what I told me to do and read my book and ask questions on here to get advice and get what I need answered imma do great because God is on my side and he's never letting me go

[@kool7862]

Well done Kimberly....plz go to meetings and find a sponsor...just watch your whole life take a turn for the best...a life full of Hope,faith & courage 🙏🙏🏻🙏

[@adamsmith9931]

EXTREMELY HAPPY AND PROUD of you, Kimberly!!!! HOWEVER..... (Yes, there's a "however" in there, lol) PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HIT UP A MEETING!!!!! Its VERY POSSIBLE that you get the same thing out of a meeting that you get from what it is you're doing now BUT the socialism and simply just sitting in that room with other addicts is a whole new level of help that YOU ALSO DESERVE!!!! TRY IT JUST OCE then let me know how much more positive and encouraged you feel from there on out ;) NOT every meeting is a homerun either.... some will be better than others but they're all meant to achieve the same goal and that is to STAY SOBER just for today!!!!! MUCH LOVE FOR YA!!!!

[@aphysique]

Kimberly how are you doing? 1 yr later

[@jennifers4528]

@@adamsmith9931 Hi. I'm an addict. I'm not being critical but perhaps, Kimberly isn't comfortable at meetings. First let me say that I'm 8 years clean. If it wasn't for my sister and my best friend, I couldn't of done this and have gotten this far. I've went to many, many NA meetings and each time ive left there, I've found the whole experience a huge trigger for me. Although I completely understand the whole concept of those meetings, I've never pushed another person to attend them. Each individuals road to recovery is unique and just because an NA meeting worked for you, doesn't mean NA is the answer for the next person. However, I do agree that having someone to be raw with is crucial in recovery. Everyone needs a trusted shoulder during "down" times. I ask you to keep this in mind next time you hand out advice. I'd hate to think that someone relapsed because they took someone's advice about NA meetings. I know I'm not alone about them not being what's best. God bless you and your recovery. 💜

[@ivisburris705]

Happy 65th Billy

[@aprilmitchell3044]

LMBO!!! No FRONT BRAKES CAR..LOL😆😆😆

[@samirpatel7242]

I am reseting my self today. I am an mmj patient. I went and put all else down and don't pick up but today when I run out of mmj I won't visit the mmj doctor or a dispensary any more.

[@user-pz2bp4ex6w]

If nothing changes, nothing changes

[@isaiahcoacher3992]

I have two weeks sober today and I'm so scared I'm gonna drink again

[@alexandergerent5653]

You can do this I'm 5 1/2 months sober from alcohol just take it 1 day at a time it gets easier as time goes on I beleive in you

[@sweety0931]

Yes yes

[@godrulesjesuschristsaves2067]

15 years back off heroin and Colt

[@hestonhughes8307]

I can totally relate I won the lottery too blessed and cursed names heston Hughes California lottery

[@ronmexico79]

Hey Heston, think I can get a loan brother?

[@aphysique]

Heston, hope your doing well, thank's for sharing

[@whosbio]

dude i absolutely love the recovery community in southern utah :-) it’s absolutely amazing, but wtf where is this meeting at? lol , is it boston? i have never been to a meeting outside of southern utah :-) i would say we average like 25-45 people in our smaller meetings and in our bigger they’ll get as much as 120, but that’s the most :o but the crowd on this video and in a lot of videos on here, when they laugh it sounds like a george carlin show lol xD how many people are in those meetings? :o it must be amazing :-)

[@lorismia]

How do I contact this guy?

[@williamconaty19]

Billy C I too got high on ping pong balls Thanks for the message

[@mcrecite14]

Hello to my all my fellow NA family 🙏💙

[@edburris1696]

YEAH

[@randycruey6310]

I am a addict and I am trying to get clean but it seems like the drug is calling to me I am trying to fight it it's all I can do is stay away from it I want to live a life of being sober any advice to help

[@rocknrollrecovery7402]

My love to you all

[@300nj]

If Peter griffin was an addict

[@edburris1696]

LOL

[@morganconway1342]

i am addicted to psychedelics and im trying to overcome it how do i stop the voice in my head that just wants to use all the time can i join a group online theres no groups near me due to corona virus

[@PipinhoSnow]

+24H :)

[@lishaharris7319]

Go To A Meeting Kimberly

[@jrmyhill2001]

Is Billy for hire to speak at rehab NA meetings?

[@johnnytucker3137]

I can still remember my QVC addiction period' buy watches' TG I finally lost interest in buying watches, because I was controlling time' when we get clean, the fear of having money still scares us, but some of still do not use' but we do buy shit" atleast I didn't give my money to the dope dealer'over time we grow,we grow from these fears we still have,

[@odetobaltimore]

Anybody know if Anthony t is still around

[@mohammadalimaleki737]

Hi, good morning. Is there anyone in the city of Barzin to help me?

[@ivisburris705]

Congrats Billy Kcb

[@annieposley7863]

Awesome

[@lindasands1433]

Shit, you must have been in a lot of pain. I've experienced kidney stones

[@edmundoorozco3676]

Mi nombre es Edmundo soy adicto estoy limpio hace 23 años solo por hoy

[@victoriastallard]

Hope you had a great 65th birthday 🎂🎉🎊🎈 Billy A. 😊

[@victoriastallard]

Congratulations on your clean time @edmundoorozco3676 🎉🎊🎈👏👏👏

[@edmundoorozco3676]

@@victoriastallard yo no sé inglés

[@johnnytucker3137]

Recovery BD-

[@kimberlymatthews7351]

My name is Kimberly Matthews and I'm an addict I've been at this since I was 18 and now I'm 50 years old and I'm trying to stop all this trying to enjoy my life I'm having problems I just need to talk to people what I want to do is just beautiful kids in jail two grandsons and I just want to do the right thing so can someone help me

[@trevorwilkins7668]

Get to a meeting near you

[@kimberlymatthews7351]

@@trevorwilkins7668 I go to meetings I listen I do what everybody saying I still get high so you know what I'm tired of trying to get a sponsor I'm tired of trying to do what everybody doing so imma let God handle me and listen to you on the convention stuff because I can't deal with being up outside around people right now cuz I'm going through a whole lot of other stuff that's bothering me I'm tired of me is I've been going to meetings since I was what 17 and it still hasn't helped me yet

[@kimberlymatthews7351]

No offense things may work for you but things don't work for everybody else I didn't been doing this for so long and go for my I'm talking about my meetings not to get high but I can't handle it no more I can't so if you can't not give me no better advice to go to a meeting. I can't hear nothing right now I'm just going to keep listening to everybody until I get clean

[@doboloax]

Eckhart Tolle helps me on youtube. All the loud addicts with their chatter are but little help. I agree with you that TRYING to enjoy life is a trap. The enjoyment bubbles up and bursts away. Apparently, God is nothing to do with whatever anyone has ever said. One day I realized that there were 2 things: 1. the pain in my back and 2. The talk in my mind condemning it. Only one was actually there.

[@ivisburris705]

Hi, Kimberly my name is Ivis & I'm an ADDICT I'm about 2 turn 50 yrs old I'm excited & scared @ the same time bc my mom & grandmother passed @ 50. Anyway I hv 2 handsome adult sons & 2 Beautiful grandkids. I've been off of methadone for 9 yrs. I never thought it would ever be possible to do without illicit drugs & methadone. I'm living proof, "That no ADDICT seeking RECOVERY need ever die bc my GRATITUDE speaks when I care & when I share with others the NA way." B4 getting a sponsor, b4 going 2 meetings, b4 getting a hm gr, b4 getting a network & b4 doing step work even b4 doing service. I prayed God don't let me die on the program. Well God answered my plea, God came to my rescue. My Higher Power sent ppl like me 2 me. I AM U & U ARE ME! If u ever need 2 tlk let me kno

[@williamlane8880]

A comedian...f out of here.

[@rootstriker1618]

I wish i can find someone i can relate with im yet to find or hear of an addict like me. I’ve been using pretty much every day for 15 years with only 2.5 years clean time but i only snort. Most of my addiction was to perc 30s an i only would do 4 a day. I would have hundreds at my disposal but still only do 4 a day. That alone I’ve never met another addict who could do that. Recently when i started pickin up dope again for almost 2 years straight i only would snort 3-4 bags a day regardless how many bundles i have at my disposal i allways just Maintence. I never been the type to wana get comepletly fucked up i just wana feel good. Some days I’ll say I’m not gona do anything today and I’ll have a shit load of drugs an i won’t do anything for that day. So i listen to other addicts in these meetings an i feel alone i can’t relate to that level. In all my years of using I’ve never hit the so called “rock bottom “ I’ve never stole, I’ve never burned any bridges, ruined any relationships, went broke, nothing. I’m the poster child for the functional addict. And my gift has been my curse because when u live ur life normally using its hard to convince yourself u need to stop lol. I go the gym ,eat healthy , by all accounts I’m a normal healthy young man who has a secret double life as an addict. Idk would just be nice to have someone to relate to Maby get a better understanding of what i am.

[@angelapower4026]

Sweetie, My name is Angela and I am a grateful recovering addict. I had so many double lives going on I forgot which hat I was wearing sometimes. I was real similar to your story. My advice is Just for today, truly 1. Don't use 2. Seek a truly joyful day. 3. Remember how it feels to be happy. 4. GET HAPPY, By whatever means necessary for you. Not your family, not your friends. You. Your best version of you. When you find that, hang on to it for dear life. Do the work, I promise if it is God's will for your life,ain't no man gonna snatch it from you. You're in my prayers tonight. Be safe, be happy, and rejoice!

[@angelapower4026]

And very often , we're the only person who truly knows the gut wrenching despair/ disappointment we deal with. You reached out, and that is a big step .In God's time, not man's.