Nathan Wagner - Depression

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Song written by Nathan Wagner
All Instruments Performed and Programmed by Nathan Wagner
Mixed and Mastered by Nathan Wagner
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I remember what it's like to go years and years and years without feeling anything. Numb and jaded. Absolutely vacant. If that's where you are, I love you. And I'm sorry. It can feels so hopeless. But please keep fighting. I thought the best life experience I'd have was just making it through the day. I thought I'd never be able to genuinely "Enjoy" anything. But, it got better. It took years. But it got better. I love you all. Don't give up hope.

[@nathanwagner762]

I remember what it's like to go years and years and years without feeling anything. Numb and jaded. Absolutely vacant. If that's where you are, I love you. And I'm sorry. It can feels so hopeless. But please keep fighting. I thought the best life experience I'd have was just making it through the day. I thought I'd never be able to genuinely "Enjoy" anything. But, it got better. It took years. But it got better. I love you all. Don't give up hope.

[@amberfitz-randolph392]

Thank you for that I don't want to articulate how much I needed to read this right now! Yesterday was difficult woke up triggered by night terrors and immediately got into verbal blowout with roommate. Flipped out enough that I abruptly punched several walls and doorframe the way you might slam your fist down on the table when you're pissed. Your comment describes better than I could how I've felt in the weeks leading up to that. We absolutely can't give up it's just so damn impossible to believe and feel like anything will ever be okay again during those dark moments it's very difficult yes. Talked everything through and calmed down a bit slower than I've been able to before but yes calmed eventually. I'm not sure how I got this much swelling bruising and such yet I promise y'all I didn't feel a thing when I was swinging and punching. No medical attention needed nothing like that and definitely safe mental health wise but that left me rattled it's the first "self injury" incident in years. Same way you totally lose hope emotionally get numb apparently you can get numb enough to break your own self and not feel anything. Well over an hour and a half passed by before I realized that my hand wasn't feeling very normal lol.

[@hhswerewolf9628]

most of the time I feel that way, I used to have someone who made me not feel so alone but they passed away a few years ago now i feel alone even though I'm surrounded by people.

[@awardlosingmovies]

Really needed to hear that because i live my life numb and in constant pain of lonliness. ❤️‍🩹

[@neerajl.5945]

Song of the year

[@Lisa.359.]

Thank you!! This song is just amazing and it means so much. It's a great feeling to know that you are not alone and it means so much more if you get this feeling from your favorite artist. I don't know for how long I am listenig to your music but I know that I do it every day for some time now. Your Songs are a safeplace where I can go to when things get rough or even if I had a good day. All of your Songs make me feel good because I feel understand and safe. And listening to your beautiful voice and music makes me very happy. I'm so greatfull for every Song you write and for every Story you share with us. Thank you so much! I really hope that you are going to share your music with us for a long time and wish you and your loved ones only the best. I normaly don't coment on videos but I just needed to say this one time. Thanks!!!

[@katie.iv51]

Thank you so much for sharing this song with us. Lately, it's been feeling like I'm slipping back into that dark place, and so hearing this song was really something I needed. I've struggled with depression and self-harm for a while, and as of today, I am 8 months clean, going on to 9 in a few weeks. Your songs have provided me comfort and helped me through the worst times of my life, and I truly believe that's what helped me get this far. I remember hearing your cover of "Would Anyone Care" by Citizen Soldier, and I absolutely fell in love with your voice. Since then, I have been listening to your songs on repeat, especially when going to sleep. So, thank you, Nathan. You never fail to impress, and I look forward to hearing what else you have in store. ❤️❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love!

[@Ballistic_Blue_Hoss]

There's soo much power in the words of all your songs that your amazing vocals impact everything with such feeling. It helps me, I feel like I'm losing my heart and mind everyday, just wanting to fade away. My heart has been so jaded lately, but your songs remind me that things do not have to be so dark and cold. We are not doomed to be this way forever. So thank you for having such a impactful voice and music and being the person you are.

[@nathanwagner762]

🥹 Thank you so much. So sorry to hear about the struggle. Life can be so difficult. Im really glad the songs could shine a light. Sending all my love

[@enricomildenberger5690]

Damn.. I'm literally speechless. It's so rare to have such masterpieces in the musicindustry. So glad to have you!! Really.. rarely heard so deep and great song. Love it❤❤!!!

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh I'm so glad you liked it. You're so kind. Thank you thank you thank you for listening. So grateful

[@GamingWithEdou]

Again a masterpiece. Thank you so much Nathan for this beautiful music❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

I’m honored you enjoyed it! Thank you for listening!

[@fandujapon]

I'm saying it here because I feel like Nathan's comment section is the only place I can talk about what's going through my mind without feeling guilty, or worried about anything. Sometimes I feel like I need to always do my best to keep my relationships and if I just slow down a little, I'll be left alone. It feels like nobody I feel close with is feeling what I do. And they just like the me who's doing everything for them not the true me who's hiding behind a mask again. Even the people I trust the most, sometimes seems like they actually don't like the real me. Like there's no way they would. Then I hear Nathan' songs and remember to hang on a little more and try to fight this negativity

[@nathanwagner762]

I'm so sorry. Sending my love. I know I used to try so hard to earn love. Different things had happened in my past that made me feel so worthless and unworthy. It's no fun. Not at all. But you're wonderful. And worthy of love. And deserve to be seen and enjoyed. And if people make you feel like you're not I'm really sorry. God bless you

[@NWM-cv4zl]

I saw this on the spotify and immediately keep it on repeat on my drive back and forth hospital. Thank you always for the beautiful pieces. ❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course!

[@remonagrubbs9787]

Is mom or dad sick?

[@NWM-cv4zl]

@@remonagrubbs9787 haha no I’m a physician, this song keeps me going after tiring shifts.

[@CosmicZephyrus]

It's funny this came out exactly when I needed it. I mentioned on another song I think it was "stay with you" that someone close to me was going away and finally Wednesday of this week he did leave. We both spent almost 2 years together and in that two years we grew this bond from nothing to something that goes beyond my understanding. We both dreaded Wednesday and when it was time, I felt nothing but depression. I still do. I feel slightly guilty moving on and doing things without him when everyday I did something with him. This song and "Drown" actually go hand in hand for me. Who will fix me now? It's a climbing battle but eventually I will be ok. I will not give up hope. Thank you so so much for making this...easier. Music is in my soul I can't compose it for the life of me so I rely on talented artists like you to be that composer and create the emotional pieces a lot of people look for.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@JosephFigueroa3904]

I have been listening to you for more than 4 years and I have never felt so encouraged since I started listening to your music, you helped me with your voice on many occasions, what you do is beautiful, a dear fan from Venezuela, I love you Nathan

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love

[@gracemcomber6374]

This one hits a little too close to home.... Thank you so much for blessing us with your talent. It's truly a God-given gift, and I am inexpressibly grateful for the music you release. Again, thank you

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you!

[@sohaibanwar5552]

Another story wonderfully told. The dude will sing vocals for heavy instruments or something sweet but never losses the depth. Also this is the only artist that somehow avoids repetition in a song that's 3x the usual length. Waiting for a song about feeling like a lone wolf but social at the same time XD

[@nathanwagner762]

Haha thank you so much. Means the universe. really glad you liked it. I love that concept! I'm actually working on one called "Man vs. Animal" right now but that's more about the conscious/unconscious selves haha I ll have to think through the lone wolf concept!

[@sohaibanwar5552]

@@nathanwagner762 that's actually sick tho! Kinda reminds me of the song paranoia in some way.

[@mexiety]

as someone who's just come back from the psych ward about a month ago, i know. trust me i know. thank you for this song! it's so well done. you save lives with your music, nathan. love you

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love😊

[@simonpeters3362]

Nathan you sing/sound differently to others ... there is so much pain in your voice, its real and relatable ...

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@raghadgadri]

Been holding on for a while now but this song reminded me that’s it’s okay to cry or feel weak and depressed it’s a part of being a Life Thank u for an amazing song it will be my favorite from now on

[@nathanwagner762]

Honored!

[@BLACKGEAR026]

Holy shit you fid it again. How do you take such a viceral experience and articulate it something magical! God anxiety, paranoia and now this makes me feel seen thankyou.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love!

[@PurpleSnailShaman]

All I can say is well done. I don't often comment but that's spot on.

[@nathanwagner762]

Means everything. Thank you so so so much for taking the time to listen and comment. Could not be more grateful

[@Unknown-wb1bf]

Beautiful song! Describes me perfectly... I went through a breakup about 3 days ago, my first girlfriend, I'm 16, had a horrible childhood filled with abuse from my parents, home was not a safe place for me to confide in. I'm telling u that just to give u some context and understanding about how painful this has been to me. My girlfriend seemed like the one, attractive, kind, seemingly understanding, seemingly compassionate. It was all a lie. I showed her my dark side, which is actually my insecure and vulnerable side. And she said like as how nathan's put it, "It's gonna be okay" yet the problem persisted, meanwhile I'm "trying to keep the faith, but everything is passing by... seems nothing ever turned out right, it's hard to be alive" because i poured my heart and soul into her and in the end she betrayed me. Had me playing guessing games about what is happening, "Just guess" I asked her if she was angry, upset, gonna kill herself, had good news, had bad news, pregnant, etc. She still made me guess. Literally the night before, before she broke up with me, when I had a freakout, contemplating killing myself, she said she wouldn't leave me. And then the next morning when we were on a gmeet at school, we were texting each other, I said, "Up close your so cute" she replied "You too" but that couldn't of been true, because why would she be thinking the same thing as I am. Her face certainly didn't say so. After a sick game of 'guess what's happening sweetheart' she accused me of quote 'Completely controlling her' her proof? A picture of our text messages of me freaking out and her helping me snap out of it. I told her "How could u betray me like this, I was willing to spend the rest of my life with you, you didn't even have the common decency to talk to me about it so I could fix it." But that's assuming I was controlling to begin with. But then I realised there is nothing controlling about being clingy and getting upset about her not texting me quickly. I'm a emotional, worrisome person, so I'm gonna make sure u are ok and feel involved with ur life. I feel un-whole without her talking to me, I can feel mental state quickly decline from joyful and happy, to sorrowful and sad and un-whole. Somehow she called that controlling. She out right was a neglectful gf, because when I explained that to her, she didn't have the compassion to realise what i was saying was true, and that I wasn't trying to control her at all, this was not my intention. I can't help but resonate with "tell me what's the meaning of it all" and "tell me will u catch me if I fall" well she didn't, she did in the past, but I guess she got tired of loving me and abandoned me, now Im looking for a "hand to hold" to help stop my fragile mental state from killing me or something else. I found this girl on nathan wager's discord server, so far she's the beautiful hand I'm seeking to hold onto for my mental state. I'm trying to fix myself, if u have any tips, let me know. I need them. I'm so lost within the dark. I need a spark.

[@pressaltf4forfreevbucks179]

I can't even imagine what you must be going through. Im 18 but ive never been in a relationship before. What that woman did was despicable, trust me that in some years you will look back at this experience and think to yourself "thank god we ended it so soon and i didnt waste my years with her". I know it, ive seen it. My older brother had a breakup of this kind a few years back and i remember when i was younger at night i would often hear him cry and ask "why did she leave me" and i couldnt do anything, i didnt know what i should do. That is part of the reason why i cant seem to find a pair, i am simply too afraid of finding the wrong partner and going through what he and you are going through. Even as i heard him cry out in thr night not even I, his brother knew what to do to help him. He carried that burden through the years and now his life is at a beautiful peak. He has been spending hours working out and doing calisthenics to cope with the breakup and he goes out, games, exercises, studies for uni and he has left behind that dark part of his past. You are a very young man and you definitely shouldn't take your life over her. You are worth much more than you believe, but it will take you time to realise that.

[@dr.hamzahazzam2340]

You are wonderful, and your songs are always able to touch and hug my heart in the hard times, I am a lyricist, and I dream to write songs, and be able to listen to them with your incredible voice, I wish this will happen one day, 🙏🙏🙏 thank you for all these masterpieces 🙏🙏

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Thank you!

[@savannahalbrecht8982]

Yes exactly the words I can’t get out and even if I did they don’t care to understand

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@unknownkiller8313]

This was INSANE! simple but deep

[@nathanwagner762]

[@kvt1842]

Astonishing as always!

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you!

[@stardapanda8916]

holy shit this song is amazing!!!! as soon as i saw the name i knew it was gonna be a good one. i love how it is very similar to your song "meaning" the way you named the song is a lot like "anxiety" and its kinda like a complimentary piece to that song. lemme tell you. this song made me cry so much. "tell me will you miss me when I'm gone. if i fall into the enemy will you keep me in your memory." damn... there's no words to describe how amazing this song is.

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhhh so glad you liked it. I gave it a whole month of effort. Thank you thank you thank you for listing and sticking around stardapanda. So thankful for you

[@migmig8520]

Your music is legendary- thank you!

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! 😭

[@migmig8520]

@@nathanwagner762 so awesome that you interact! I bet I’ll be in top 1% of your stuff on Spotify this year. You deserve so much more exposure! Hope you have a great summer man

[@kuronekoaoi-chan130]

Your songs always touch my heart so deeply Really love your songs ❤❤

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahh so glad! Thank you so much for checking them out. Means the freaking universe

[@Omnia_Mundum_1.2.4]

It's so amazing 😭😭😭💔

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you

[@bearhugzfam649]

I'm so mad it's taken me this long to find your music. This is incredible Also why do I want to see it to a tLOU:P2 fanvid? xD

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@BiBoFan]

Omg i can't wait 🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙌🙌

[@Zinferbuddy]

lovely

[@nathanwagner762]

Thanks so much :)

[@akire2119]

Español: ¡Esto es precioso! Reconócelo, no eres humano, ¿como es posible que expreses tanto en una canción, tu voz y tus melodías son hermosas y cada palabra te llega directa al alma, muchas gracias por existir y compartir tu arte con nosotros💖 English: This is beautiful! Admit it, you are not human, how is it possible that you express so much in a song, your voice and your melodies are beautiful and each word reaches your soul directly, thank you very much for existing and sharing your art with us (Sorry for the bad English😅)

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhhh thank you thank you thank you! I am very much human haha But I always pray God speaks through me. Appreciate you taking the time to listen. Thank you so much for your kind words!

[@akire2119]

Thank you very much for your music 💖

[@jherikodiaz7516]

Awesome

[@nathanwagner762]

😊🙌

[@Noah_playz99]

so good good job

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@johnathanbarclay-wn3ql]

your songs make me feel like im in a different dimension especially (hope and dont forget me)

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@biancat.1873]

💚💚💚

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️❤️

[@lilredhaze555]

don't know man... I'm tired...my body....my mind...my soul...my heart...time is fleeting... alone... always alone...gave love...empty... nobody gonna catch me when i fall...nobody... rather feel nothing than this sadness...pain... abandoned...staring at the walls...tears flow... drowning in emptiness... anxiety...fear...what happened to me? WTF is wrong with me? brain fogged...brain gone...short circuited...heart damaged...beyond repair...nothing left...no time to regain...no time to rebuild...i failed myself...i failed my children...i failed god...always just short of my goals...just wanna walk in the woods...NEVER RETURN...WHAT WAS THIS LIFE FOR BUT TO SUFFER IN LONELINESS...PAIN... SORROW... JUST CAN'T SEEM TO HIT THE MARK IN THIS LIFETIME... I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE... I JUST WANT TO GO AWAY

[@nathanwagner762]

Keep fighting, things will eventually get better🙏

[@maureenleinen5396]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🖤🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@nathanwagner762]

DEPRESSION Tell me will you miss me when I’m gone If I’ve fallen to the enemy Will you keep me in your memory Tell me will you save me from the dark If I let you see a little glimpse Of what living’s like inside my skin Oh I’m drowning and nobody knows Oh They never listen Don’t wanna let the light burn out But all I see are stormy clouds And They say it’s gonna be okay I’m trying to keep the faith But every thing keeps passing by Years’ll go still black and white Seems nothing ever turns out right It’s hard to be alive Tell me what’s the meaning of it all When the sunshine loses it’s coloring Seems like all I know is suffering Tell me will you catch me if I fall Even deeper in this underworld Will there ever be a hand to hold Oh I’m drowning and nobody knows Oh They never listen Don’t wanna let the light burn out But all I see are stormy clouds And They say it’s gonna be okay I’m trying to keep the faith But every thing keeps passing by Years’ll go still black and white Seems nothing ever turns out right It’s hard to be alive Tell me will you miss me when I’m gone If I’ve fallen to the enemy Will you keep me in your memory Tell me will you save me from the dark When the sun loses it’s coloring Seems like everything is suffering I’m so afraid I’m so afraid I’m so afraid I’m so afraid So lost within the dark Keep praying for a spark A guiding light to Rid me of this suffering Free me from these troubling Shadows shouting Oppressing my mind Craving their Bounty won’t Leave me behind Can you hear me? Can’t save myself Not from this hell Is no one listening? I might need help I see her trembling in the dark With the weight of the world in her scars I’d lend hand if there’s anything she’d need I know exactly what it’s like to feel so weak So I’ll run out with everything I have Pull her out up from that deadly sinking sand You’re not alone you’re not alone Don’t give up hope don’t give up home You’re not alone you’re not alone Don’t give up hope don’t give up hope You’re not alone you’re not alone Don’t give up hope don’t give up hope

[@haidirstephen5442]

Tell me will you save me from the dark.If I let you see a little glimpse of what living's like inside my skin.

[@flatdepth]

So much accurate mate

[@petersahyouni]

Dude...all your songs are good, many are great, but a few of them are literal masterpieces. This is one of them. So is anxiety, innocence, and when man meets God. Worth all 9 glorious minutes...amazing job

[@nathanwagner762]

Too kind! Thank you Peter🙏

[@LUFFP-om6zw]

Hatred is the best!

[@Anx10203]

4:51 - 5:21 THESE VOCALS. GOOSEBUMPS. This is absolutely insane!!

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh thank you! I wasnt sure if it was a bit too much but went for it anyways haha so glad you liked it!

[@tmoon9297]

Yeah it perfectly expresses the desperate cry of someone drowning in hopeless depression longing for rescue. Thank you as always Nathan! Your songs are lifelines for so many 🙌

[@ChntalX]

Absolutely insane part!! ❤❤

[@djillusioner]

So damn relatable. Got me teary. Absolutely haunting and beautiful ❤

[@waaaintresting913]

Just wanna say Nathan I think you have the best voice ❤ and wish you grasp your meaning in this world Thanks for everything

[@Sweetieallycat]

I don’t think it’s possible for you to put out a bad song. Every song you put out is amazing and powerful. Absolutely speechless.

[@nathanwagner762]

Means the world! Although I've definitely written plenty in my day haha Thank you so much for taking the time to listen.

[@JaronLindow]

Some people don't understand depression because they've never been there. They don't realize how fortunate they are.

[@Gamingfox543]

I have Depression and its really hard some time. 😢🥹

[@hihungryimcam]

Nathan, I've listened to your music since I discovered "Lonely" years ago. I'm a 21-year-old musician and composer. I have been analyzing music since late elementary school and playing instruments (piano, guitar, and drums) and singing most of my life. I also have struggled with severe and treatment-resistant depression and anxiety (starting around 13) and OCD (my whole life). I had to medically withdraw from college in 2022 for 8 months due to the severity of my depression, and I stayed in a psychiatric unit for a few weeks. I 100% mean it when I say that this is, truly, potentially the best song I've ever heard. It is so powerful. The lyricism captures the hopelessness and feeling of being ignored by those around me. It highlights how incredibly painful it has been living on this planet and trying to get through each day. Your voice is just...unbelievable. The distorted E5s around 4:50-5:50 are insane. The score is absolutely beautiful and so full and dynamic. You've been refining your craft for years, and it shows more than you know. I've also noticed how encouraging you are in comments on your videos. You are truly amazing. This is wild.

[@ItsmeYuuki]

I‘m in tears. I‘ve been struggling with depressions since my teenage years and this song just hit me. Thank you so much for this amazing piece of art!! I really needed that.

[@saraoverkamping8143]

I hope you are better now, I truelly do. Dealing with it at a young age can take you so many beautiful memories you could look back to when you have grown old. But perhaps this will only make us treasure each memory more in the long term.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course😊

[@Heisrisenindeed]

You are not alone, we all have our struggles, you're not the first person to feel this way. Know that God is always waiting for you with open arms. Jesus is always willing to take you in. If you turn from your sin, which kesds to death, to Him, He will save you. I hooe you read this message and take this good news to heart.

[@vivine3824]

My spouse goes through moments of depression and despite my omnipresence, I remain powerless. I share your beautiful song with him so he knows he is not alone. Thank you Nathan, we feel a little less helpless

[@nathanwagner762]

Im really sorry to hear that. I hope it blesses him 🙏 Sending all my love. Thank you so much for taking the time to listen. Means the world

[@thegregitto]

I'm sure there are many songs under the same title but this song *deserves* to be the musical emblem of depression.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙏🙌🙏

[@kozak1993lk]

if all i did today was breathe, that is enough

[@facubraxxd6506]

I expected a song of hope, after so much suffering, so much sadness, so much loneliness, this song is a true musical, literary and emotional masterpiece. It is simply a song for me and for many of us it reaches our souls, it gives us that breath we need from the constant struggles with ourselves, with our internal darkness, with our emptiness... Thank you nathan for doing more than just music and giving us that break, you went too far, you reached more than just our ears, you managed to reach our soul. Thank you again

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@pressaltf4forfreevbucks179]

beautiful comment

[@DarlingMythos]

I have dealt with depression for a long time and I often find comfort in your songs, Nathan. This song is so beautiful and meaningful to me. This song, to me, feels like a sad embrace on a lonely night. Like someone who knows how your suffering feels and is there with you to deal with it. Thank you for bringing me and all other listeners comfort with your songs. They mean so much to me and I'm not quite sure how to fully express it. I love this song so much. Excellent job

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love

[@SurviveUntilSunrise]

Some of your songs just go so beyond “striking a chord” with the soul that it’s hard to describe it in a phrase that exists, it’s like it deserves its own new word.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙏🙌🙏🙌

[@risingphoenixalichiaburns6942]

Not. Only playing this music for my husband but also read this comment. I just want everyone who's finding these comments to know. Whether it's you or your partner or a family member, you're not alone. They are not alone. We will all get through this with patience and kindness and never giving up all I can suggest is cradle his heart as I do mine. Even if he was never able to get over the pain, the extreme fear or the paranoid thoughts of being abandoned and betrayed mostly I will never give up on him. I hope the same goes for everyone. Listening and those who are not yet.❤😢❤

[@TherealSakuraKei]

❤ Ever a more perfect healing song... like magic

[@Chaos_Drifter]

Nathan, to be honest, i'm getting back to listen to all your songs and it's... just what helps me all the time... Every single time it's like "Oh, my man released a new song! it deffinetly makes the whole day or week much better and calm for me, thank you..." A few sleepless years (3 hours of sleep per night and then i was listening for your songs on repeat) Sometimes then you think that you're just a freak with the broken soul full of scars from the ones you love most, with tormented thoughts, but no one knws it, cuz you don't wanna cause them any pain and you dan't wanna be the reason of their tears, anger, shame, all that stuff, i think you can understand me somehow, and after all things said... just big thankses from my heart to you, you're some kind of a hero, it's complicated for me to say any of this... to put it into words... but i think you can understand what it's like to feel that way, i'm good at holding on for the right amount of time without showing anything, but your tracks... your soul that you put in it, helps me in the hardest times.... I would like to talk about it with anyone to be honest...

[@Da_868]

Wow, that hits hard. And nine minutes too? You're spoiling us! I wanted to pick it some vocal highlights, but I can't, I love how you sing the whole thing! The vocals, the cadence, the arrangement of the music, the whole things just flows so brilliantly. That's not even mentioning how you have once again nailed the emotional expression! I really love how your longer songs take you through a whole experience or thought process. A lot of it is so relatable that it can hurt, but by the end I'm full of hope and feel really good! Towards the end reminds me of a time when the only time I believed I'd be okay is when I was convincing others that they'd be okay. The entire song is really powerful, but there's a special kind of power from 7:51 onward. Thank you Nathan, your songs are a blessing. ❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Thank you

[@Da_868]

@@nathanwagner762 You're very welcome Nathan. Can't let you forget that we appreciate you. 😊

[@TenheadLife]

This song… no this symphony of sadness is your best work man! It screams out loud everything I feel when I get in this place. I’m better most the time now but still look forward to the end of it all. No one has ever made a perfect masterpiece of pure emotion in my opinion.

[@Vioduss]

All these years I've been listening to your music, I've not felt a level of understanding that comes close to what your lyrics echo to me. Thank you Mr Wagner, from myself, my best friend, and everyone else who listens to your music... your impact is more than words can express. Keep on walking this artistic journey, as you keep giving us all the push we need to reach the next day

[@nathanwagner762]

I appreciate it! Thank you so much Vioduss

[@MettlingMiles-ps9pc]

“I’m drowning and nobody knows” gets me everytime😢

[@nathanwagner762]

🙏🙌🙏🙌

[@corrinabrown7611]

Im feeling exactly this way right now. I feel so heavy. Demons surround me and oppress me each day. I feel like my broken heart is killing me inside. If it wasn't for Jesus being my Rock, my refuge in time of trouble i would drown. This is a beautiful song. I been playing it over and over.

[@pressaltf4forfreevbucks179]

Stay strong. We're with you

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love

[@corrinabrown7611]

@@nathanwagner762 God bless you and your family ❤️

[@bobbistarklauf5]

Wow ..i relate to these lyrics ..thx u so much.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course😊🙌

[@imgabrielzinho]

4:50 WHAT WAS THAT NATHAN???????????????? JESUS!!!!!

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@randifaye]

Wow… 💖 This song explains what I’ve been going through my whole life but especially the last few years and even few months. All of life was compiling and it got to a point where I was about to take my own life. Luckily I had intervention and ended up in the hospital for a month. Now I’m relearning how to live in the way that I can and hopefully enjoy life.

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love🙏

[@JhadeSagrav]

This is not a song. This is a journey. 💖💖💖

[@nathanwagner762]

Thanks a ton. Means everything. Thank you so much for listening :)

[@BellaJeanette24]

BRAVO 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 This is a “Masterpiece” ❤ Love the lyrics “Your Not Alone” There is Hope, Don’t give up 🤗 Thank you Nathan, for sharing this Heartfelt song ❤️🙌❤️ You inspire everyone “You Are Loved” ❤️💕❤️💕❤️ All my Love to everyone ❤ so happy you are here 🥰 🥰🥰🥰🥰 Much love Nathan 🙌❤️

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh thank you Bella! Appreciate you listening! So glad you liked it! What a blessing :)

[@BellaJeanette24]

@@nathanwagner762 ❤️

[@Emanuel-hh4uu]

Wait, I never posted here? Seems not, but I love this song. As someone who has been struggling with depression the past recent years, this is such a perfect description. I get goosebumps at the "I'm so afraid" part, especially how it repeats as if to point out how afraid one can be when depressed of everything and of oneself. I love this song and how it touches my heart. I love you Nathan and all your songs. When I feel like nothing is left for me to fight your music heals me and gives me hope. ❤

[@nathanwagner762]

Much love🙏 I’m glad my music has been able to help😊 keep staying strong

[@infingirl8488]

Not even a minute in, I burst into tears. Not because I have felt this, but because of the empathy I have for the people who live and breathe these lyrics. I want to help them... I want to see that they are not alone. I have to remind myself that empathy is so very important, that even the glimpses of encounters with depression, either firsthand or secondhand, are immensely valuable to the people who you are trying to reach... but it's all so hard, for both the depressed and the one who loves them, to see someone and know they might be feeling these things. It's so very hard... thank you, Nathan. I don't even know what to say, but I needed to be woken up again to those around me. Thank you.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course! Much love! Thank you for listening!

[@KatWarhound]

People like you are so valuable to those of us going through depression. When we're going through it, it feels like everyone in the world must being going through the same thing b/c everything feels so hopeless and like there's no joy or strength left in the world. So it makes it seem like it's not ok to ask for help b/c you can't ask another broken person for help and put more weight on them. But when people like you speak up and say they are not going through that, it's such a source of hope because it makes us realize that not everything is basically dead; that there are still people who feel joy and hope and are happy to share it. Thank you!

[@infingirl8488]

@@KatWarhound Thank you for sharing, friend! It warms my heart. As a chronic empath and someone who knows people who struggle with depression, it can be a challenge sometimes to continue being there for them when I know there is little I can do to fix the matter. But that is not my job to fix things, is it? I can't fix everything wrong in this messed-up world. I instead try regardless to still be there for the people who need me, even if at times I wonder if I should give up. I haven't yet, and it has been an uphill climb, eventually. There is always hope and a way out of the darkness, no matter the struggle. Keep clinging to that truth!

[@KatWarhound]

It's so interesting to hear your perspective! My husband is also an empath and although he still struggles to keep giving into situations that seem to have no fix, he's found the best solution is to never expect anything in return. He just does everything b/c it feels good to give and remembers that the people he's giving to are broken and can't give him anything back and that's why they need help in the first place. I guess real love doesn't expect you to pay it back, right? He's become a much happier person b/c of it. So, keep being a hero! People desperately need a true kindness and love, even if they're too broken to say so. Your kindness makes a huge difference! @@infingirl8488

[@infingirl8488]

@@KatWarhound "Greater love has no one than this, that one would lay down his life for his friends." Much love to you, Kat!

[@_-NatureMations-_]

Wake up at 11:00 Stay in bed until 1:00 Skip all my live lessons Get shouted at by my parents because the government might take me away if I fail at life Get cyberbullied and start comment wars About to message a friend / delete the message and give up Pet regress / get bullied for it Go to bed Cut my legs Stay up on my phone Pass out from exhaustion at 4:00 AM Repeat

[@samwagner762]

"Worth all 9 glorious minutes" What a perfect comment. Incredibly well said Peter.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@BiBoFan]

Wow this song left me Speechless 😭😭😭😭🤧 Everything I feel deep inside 😢 Thank you for writing this beautiful masterpiece Nathan❤️❤️My Birthday is July 1st so it's an early Birthday present🫶🥰

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh happy birthday!!! Thanks so much for checking out the track :)

[@BiBoFan]

@@nathanwagner762 Thank you Nathan😎 Of course. Your music always brings me joy 😊

[@fane6154]

A new song from you is exactly what I needed after a hard week

[@nathanwagner762]

Hope you have a great day as well!

[@SizzlingSolaris]

Cant wait to hear another masterpiece of yours, Nathan! 👍😁❤️ Always love and enjoy hearing new stuff from ya!

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you🙌

[@jessicabeca1234]

Other thing I love about your songs is that they are long (which nowadays they don’t make anymore) and with amazing transitions.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️

[@berserkingtheburgerking9805]

You put so much emotion and power into your songs, and each one is just beautiful in their own right.

[@nathanwagner762]

So glad you like them! Thank you so much for listening!

[@misawar1335]

Another song that blessed my day. Every song you make is filled with so much emotion, and I love it. I wrote so many scenes of my book on your music, and it always helped me be a better writer in terms of transposing the feelings across. Thank you for all the work you are doing and for the art you are sharing with us. I do believe God gifted you with a special power: to be a comforting shoulder for those in need of support through your music. Maybe not everything makes sense in the present, but at the end of the story, everything makes sense, and everything is worth it. It is a fight after all. Fight on beautiful people. Thank you for your music, Nathan :) Please stay healthy and safe, both you and your wife ( and family). You are lovely people, and I pray for both your happiness and passion for your music.

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you! Keep up with the writing!

[@cookie_n00b00dy]

I love your songs and I'm in love with your voice, it's amazing... It's sad how I and many others here can relate to your lyrics so much. I'm proud of everyone here, for being so brave for so long, it must have been exhausting. Y'all are enough and what's most important is, is that your hearts are still beating after all this hell...I love everyone here, you are not alone..

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@jessecas]

Thank you for this. It's really and truly appreciated. 😢

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️❤️

[@HeathenSWolf]

Perfectly captures the essence. Thank you for that. I clawed myself back from depression and it took ~15 years. 15 years just lost to nothingness and void. Last voices in my head that kept telling me that I'm nothing and there is no reason to do anything went silent 7 years ago and I'm still on guard, because I know that they are there, just silent now and forbidden to ever see the light of day again. Depression is cunning and it takes a LOT to win yourself back from it, while it takes little for it to settle in. Still remember how proud I was to feel anger for the first time - first pure emotion after years of nothingness. Made me understand that there are no negative emotions - the only negative thing is lacking any emotion. That little angry light from within helped me to finally push things the right way. Then came sadness, regret, envy - I welcomed everything with open arms, cause all of it made me feel after long years of bleakness. Was almost overwhelemed by all of it, since nobody was there to tell me how to deal with this much. And now I know happiness, love, even that little feeling when you are pleased that you ate some tasty food. I had nothing. But fought a long war within and took it all back. I won. And songs like these were the thing that helped me continue at that time, without forcing me to do anything but telling me that I'm not alone. It does get better, people. It just takes time. Sometimes a long time.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️❤️

[@J_BiggityBar]

Sometimes it seems like the only way I can feel seen is through media and songs like this.

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️❤️❤️

[@samwagner762]

Gosh. Guys, get this one to a million please

[@nathanwagner762]

❤️

[@wildfang2384]

This isn't just a song it's an experience! It is now a new favorite of mine!

[@nathanwagner762]

Honored!

[@nateheskett333]

So crazy I’ve been around since lonely your whole 9 yards from vocal to production has grown so much

[@nathanwagner762]

Been such a blessing to have you. Really do appreciate you. I remember you back on the first premiers I did. What a blessing

[@josephd4391]

I remember you too! You're awesome, Nate! God bless. :)

[@FluffinWolffox105]

I've been in the absolute worst place of my life the last few weeks. It's been nothing but confusion and anxiety, an existential hell. I'm at a point where I don't feel like figuring anything out, I don't know who to listen to or go to for help, and I don't know what to believe. I just feel so burnt out. Each time I feel anything good, it just collapses, and everything I believe just turns to doubt. I'm just so tired because it's either anxiety, or worry or something else, and trying not to sink or crumble to it is exhausting. And I'd love to figure things out, move on, feel good again, but I'm just not near that point. This song just embodies that entire feeling and strikes that indescribable feeling inside. I can tell you know the feeling by experience because it's something you only can understand or feel from going through it. I'm hoping that I can get to the other side as well. I want to thank you sincerely for the song though, I haven't been able to get out how I feel in a while, but I legitimately cried this time. One of those torrential vile feeling ones that just washes out all those unspoken things. It really made the weight fall away. Keep doing what you're doing

[@walkingalone365]

Not sure you believe in Jesus Christ but i hope you do not take offence to this but he loves you. He will give you peace if you ask. Just call on him he is waiting for you to ask. Hugs to you. Hang in there.

[@Mefarious]

"I might need help" is hitting hard..

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙏🙌🙏

[@nihanshuverma]

I wish i never born

[@FlorianZevedei]

Naaaaaathhhhaaaaaannnn!!!!! You nailed it agaaaaaiiiin ! This thing is so nuuuuuts! Love it ! Thank you ! Love you mate! Thank you for your human beeing ! Love you ! Take care ! PS: an acoustic version would be interesting I think, ... (wishful thinking) 🙂

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙌🙌

[@nvm2.13.4]

Uzun zamandır boğulu bir ruh halindeyim. Bana o kadar iyi geldiniz ki. Size minnettarım. Yalnız olmadığımı bilmek iyi geliyor. Umarım bu günleri atlatıp eski pozitif günlerimize dönebiliriz.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙏🙌🙏

[@mischasteen8262]

Dear Nathan, I don't comment much, but I listen to your every song and am following your journey since the beginning, when I came across your song Lonely. I appreciate your songs so much. The music, lyrics, emotions. Everything. It makes me feel things and most of them are very relatable to me. This one especially, because I've been dealing with depressions basically since I was a kid. I just want to tell you how much you've grown since then and that I'm proud of you. You deserve many more listeners and views, but at the same time I have a feeling that living in a spotlight as a big star might destroy this honest, sensitive and artistic side of you, because that kind of world is too cruel. I'm looking forward to your other songs and when you finally release the album you spoke about in some comments. I wish you only the best and I will keep supporting you. Lots of love from Czech republic.

[@nathanwagner762]

Hey! Thank you so much for your kind words. So grateful you took the time. Sorry to hear you've struggled with depression. It can be so unbearable. Sending all my love. To know you've stuck around since lonely means everything. Bless you

[@mischasteen8262]

@@nathanwagner762 I even made my mom your fan too during those years haha. She says hi lol. We both love your music :)

[@liorhassin6014]

Hey Nathan, Love the song. I was wondering if it’s okay that I will use it in a video I am making as a memory for a friend I lost in the war. We used to hear this song together all the time.

[@nathanwagner762]

Of course!

[@codyjones746]

This is honestly a little different than how I would write about depression but it is so much better! These lyrics makes me feel like you understand and you want to inspire us to be better.

[@nathanwagner762]

I appreciate it

[@THEEGUARDIANANGEL]

Nathan, How could you possibly ever be depressed with a Beautiful Voice, Looks, and Amazing Smile, ❤!! My Husband has just left me After 45YR together , my first since i was 14 yrs old now 58 as of OCT.26, he left me for a girl in another country and she 30YR OLD, im such a FAILURE, UGLY, LOSER, OLD,UNLOVED, UNWANTED AND NOW DYING ALONE, 😢😢😢💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭!!!! GOD BLESS YOU YOUR MUSIC IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!!! THANK YOU CAN I HAVE THIS PLAYED AT MY FUNERAL 🙏 PLEASE 🙏 😢 😢😢💔💔💔💔❣️❣️

[@nathanwagner762]

I’m sorry to hear. Hope you stay strong through it all🙏 you are never alone

[@THEEGUARDIANANGEL]

@nathanwagner762 Nathan, Thank You for Taking Time to read My Life story and Truly Caring, I'm in Northern, Ky if your Ever Close and I'm still here I'd Love To See You Play🤗❤️😘😇🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🫶🫶❣️God Bless You Sweetheart ❤️ 🙏

[@actuallydemo]

This hits home for me so much. I suffered from depression some years ago, trying to make it through the day while forced to sit at home each and every week. I self harmed, locked myself in my room and denied all the symptoms I had. It was finally that I had the courage to tell my mother what had been happening to me that I finally was able to seek help. This song brings back so much of those memories, but in a good way. It reminds me how I was able to overcome my fear of death and that I always will have friends surrounding me that will support me. Thank you for your music Nathan, it has saved me.

[@nathanwagner762]

So sorry you had to go through that, but honestly, stories like that are honestly inspiring and liberating. I remember I thought I was the only one. Was so afraid to tell anyone. Thanks so much for taking the time to write and taking the time to listen. Sending all my love.

[@eiderj975]

Viejo, tu música salva vidas ❤❤ gracias

[@nathanwagner762]

Ah, te amo. Gracias por tus amables palabras ❤

[@Val-uu9rf]

Concuerdo

[@fabriciobazarelli4691]

I really like your songs, even though I'm Brazilian and don't know much English.

[@nathanwagner762]

I appreciate it!

[@djillusioner]

I can't even begin to find words to express how deeply i relate to this right now. Ifeel hopeless yet, i don't want to lose hope. Hanging by a thread... This ws too good...❤

[@nathanwagner762]

🙌🙏🙌🙏

[@joshuaadkins9820]

This is a masterpiece Literally pulled the tears right out of me. but hear my out, 3:30 Im so afraid, the music starts to shift. I'm so afraid, The music is becoming much Louder/Darker. I'm so afraid, The voice starts to crack almost becoming shrill and Deep base/Electric guitar comes in. The final Im so afraid, Is screamed and Heavy drums enter. The Entire song does a complete Genre swap to Alt rock/Metal. The first half encapsulates Sadness while the second half Encapsulates Anger. I really want to see someone do this. Could also have the first half sung by a woman and the second half by a man then the finale would result in a duet. Would do a really good job of encapsulating the duality of Depression and how it effects different people. Talking about that reminds me of Papa Roach's Last resort and Falling in reverse's Reimagine of the song. Jacoby's version was all about anger and desperation while Ronnies made you feel the sadness and loneliness.

[@fandujapon]

Your voice could heal anything. It sends us high in a sky full of colors and birds flying around ☁️🪽

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhh I'm so glad you like it! Thank you so much for your kind words. So grateful for you

[@Mefarious]

I promised myself i wont cry..

[@nathanwagner762]

🥺🥺🥺

[@eliferguson3422]

You deserve millions of followers!!! Your lyrics are so powerful, and your voice. ❤

[@nathanwagner762]

😊

[@teaganlangston2012]

I don't think I've ever found any song that has truly made me feel like I've been heard. this is truly a masterpiece

[@dragonwithsocks5112]

Holy crap! The emotions hit me hard with this one. The instruments mixed with the vocals are so powerful. I'm so glad I found your music

[@nathanwagner762]

Ahhhh thank you! I gave this one all my effort! So glad you liked it!

[@JackersEdit]

Heart warming and very meaningful! Your songs are always inspiring to listen to Nathan! 👏

[@nathanwagner762]

Thank you so much!

[@malissahyatt2425]

I'm so sad and lonely. My friends, my life I had are just gone. My family has no real interest in me. I'm alone everyday mostly. This wasn't how this was supposed to go. I hate the holidays. I want to fast forward to January. Or hibernate til they're over. I love Christmas shopping. Now, I have no one to shop for except my kitty. She's worth it but, yeah. 😒 Please don't say I'm not alone. I hate that cliche. I am. I'm so alone. I feel so alone.

[@nathanwagner762]

🙏🙏🙏

[@briarrr__]

Hi there. I hope you're doing alright. You might feel alone, and you might be alone, but there are so many people out there who feel exactly the same way. If for nothing else, live for the life that you want to have. If you don't know what you want, that's okay too. It can take a long time to figure it out. I haven't figured it out yet, but I know that one day I'll make it to where I want to be. Stay safe, and don't forget that people are here for you.

[@DeafMarsh]

For years, I tried to find a song that "brings me out" of my depression. And this is the only song that's been able to do that.

[@triplea657aaa]

Wow