what it feels like to forgive yourself (playlist)

[@LSTSOUNDS]

Listen on Spotify - spoti.fi/3l0BFgw 💙

[@ether370]

You will

[@LoveHue-x1t]

Thank you Im listing to this on my birthday as a took some shrooms... Universe brought me here thank you

[@siphiweledwaba726]

DG MC S🎉❤😢😅😊😮😂❤🎉ncdjgsadjfaah😢❤

[@luishumbertoriveraduran]

Me ayudaron cuando más lo necesite

[@Boti_Tektonik]

Apple Music please

[@Lollismeisterzone-eo9bz]

I want to forgive myself, I really do. I want to forgive myself for all the times I stayed up late because I was on KZbin, for all the times I didn't stick to my schedule, for all the times I've been on social media for too long, for every time I ever blamed myself for things others wouldn't dream to blame on themselves. I want to forgive myself for not forgiving myself. I want to forgive myself for being hard on myself, for making myself cry, for making myself feel like I'm not worth it. But I can't. You see, I have found that I'm no person of shallow emotions. When I try to feel happy about making pretty notes, eating healthy, aesthetic food, about just romanticizing life, I find myself exhausted after a couple of hours. I cannot feel that kind of ''shallow" happiness. My real nature of feelings is deep and calm and dramatic and sad and loving and true, but at the same time, I've never really loved myself. Silly innit? Even though I am the only person who I will always be with. My heartbeat is my home. But I cannot bring myself to forgive myself because it is not something I feel with all my heart, in my true nature of feeling. I will have to fight, though, because I ain't giving up. I really hope I can come back to this comment in a couple of years and be like ''Yes Darling. We made it.'' That would make me so crazily happy. Thankfully I'm still young. Wish me luck, thank you for reading this far, random stranger I'm never gonna meet :) Have a good life, bye bye Edit: I didn't want to edit this originally, but concluding from the replies to this some people think I'm suicidal. I just wanted to let you know that I'm not, that I never was, and that I'm doing better now. But I want to thank all of you who wrote supportive comments, they always made a bad day a little lighter :)

[@kazuha8737]

❤❤

[@MiKi-ox6zm]

dude the beautiful thing thing about life is that with enaugh work everythung can chang so stop this bullshit of forgiving yourself when you know you could do bettee go out there an get what you are worth

[@WJapan.]

I.. what do I say? This is just me. Except for one thing. That, I gave up. I'm not trying anymore. If my real self has no meaning. Well. What is, the point of life? I try to give up every single day. But, I continue to live some how. I can't forgive myself, because I Don't FUCKING WANT TO. why? I don't know. I don't want to waste time on something that I don't care about. And, that is myself. I might sound weird. Hate me, hurt me, do whatever you want to me. Just know, I'm mentally insane. And well, I have tried everything that would make me die. And it hasn't worked. So, do your best to hurt me.

[@cheralien0955]

you will. Even though life can seem meaningless at times, you are not meaningless, even if you hurt yourself, or make yourself cry it doesn't make you a bad person. You are someone, maybe not for the entire universe but who cares, you are someone for you and that's enough. I truly want you to succeed because you deserve it. Maybe you won't see this, maybe you will forget about this, maybe this message can seem meaningless but you know, the meaning of something is created by someone, and that someone is you, something becomes important the moment someone finds it that way. And you are important so do what makes you happy, not what others wants you to be happy about. As long as you're happy with it, you life is accomplished. and i'm sure you'll have a wonderful life, stranger :)

[@s2793]

fake it till you make it, my love 💖 Tell yourself that you love you and that you forgive yourself. Tell yourself that over and over again. When you pass a mirror, look yourself in the eye and tell yourself again. One day you will wake up and find that you *have* forgiven yourself after all! I wish that that day would come sooner rather than later for you 💌

[@Gyllenhaal-op5eq]

Sometimes you think that you want to disappear but all you really want is to be found.

[@sherrxoxoz]

I felt that hard…

[@alexisAesthetica]

this hits hard...

[@danam2805]

Very underrated comment...

[@Kitty-bwu]

Real….

[@akhileshanilkumar3633]

We all hide to be found 🤗

[@alamademexico]

It's interesting how 3am is the time where all the spooky stuff happens but 4am is the time of pure serenity

[@aastha001]

All spooky stuff starts from 2 am till 3 am, 3 am is considered the Brahm mahurat time (the divine time, the purest of all) when everybody and everything is in the same sync together. 3:30 am is considered as the most powerful time of the entire day because if you wake up at this time and meditate, your body your mind your soul will get in sync with the universe and right things will start to happen in your life.

[@redacted242]

It is also the time that the most natural sleep deaths occur.

[@AvitalR88]

333 likes as well, and im the 3rd comment

[@dariazavatska2767]

​@@redacted242fr? damn

[@redacted242]

@dariazavatska2767 Before the Industrial Revolution, people did multiphasic sleeping. Now, people typically are "dead asleep" by 3am based on the modern work schedule. I imagine it has to do with the heart rate being its lowest at that time, along with any pre-existing conditions they may have.

[@uneedsleep]

It’s your road, and yours alone, others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you

[@Hades.666]

I walk alone

[@Ninjateamahdi]

❤

[@uneedsleep]

@@Hades.666 HELP WHAT UR NAME

[@uneedsleep]

@@Ninjateamahdi ❤

[@Hades.666]

@@uneedsleep a fancy word for Hell

[@Ariulva_]

If it hurts.. Cry. Dont bury it. Cry for awhile. Cry the next day. And then next. However long it takes to get it out. But once its out, Theres that moment of silence. Where the darkness, saddness and loneliness is pouring through outside of you.... Thats when the acceptance comes... Accept this what has happened to you, has happened. And its over now. Accept that it is in the past. And then you now, have accepted that it hurt. But its time to keep pushing forward. Because, in the moment- you have to take care of yourself. You are there for you. Sometimes thats all you need. For now. :) HEAL.

[@BigSkinty91]

Got me tearing up 😢

[@brandonestebanrey9981]

Que lindas palabras bendiciones

[@GratefulForLifeAmen]

@@BigSkinty91me too

[@collinsmasai3892]

Thanks.. I needed that.

[@Skz_fan_341]

And what if I'm forced to do stuff and to go places, and if I don't I get yelled at, be choked, be abused in mental ways and sometimes even physical and stuff like that? and what if it became hard for me to cry probably because my body is used to being sad? And what if I have too much pressure from my parents so I never have time where I can 100% sit alone quietly in my room? They always barge in, call me acting like it's the end of the world even I'd it's just to bring them a glass of water? They shout calling me not even waiting for my answer, it's like this: "come here quick!!!! Come on, come on!!!!! *my name*!!!!! Come quicker!!!!!" And then they come barging into my room shouting about why do I ignore them even though it wasn't enough time to come to them even if I am not doing anything or not needing to make myself to look ok, I hate my parents, it feels like they don't care about my emotions at all

[@angelikacafaro6998]

I forgive myself for allowing the abuse to continue. I forgive myself for not packing up my stuff and walking away. I forgive myself for not being strong enough to leave after the first red flag. I forgive myself and I am letting myself free, because that's what we all deserve, right? A second chance to blossom again. Random stranger reading this, you are so so beautiful

[@j0hnryan31]

Stay strong and carry on

[@sistasamus9580]

I needed this

[@kritikapandey4726]

Stay blessed sister❤

[@DeeLoveBrand]

❤ thank you. You're beautiful and strong as well.

[@Yolibeth_12]

It’s 12:57am 😢and idk how I even ended up here.. but I fr needed this I just left a relationship that it’s exactly this nd while I was reading it I was crying 😭 this was literally me talking to myself nd I fr need to forgive myself nd carry on specially for my three beautiful daughters 😫😩. Wouldn’t want to set a bad example for them. I need to do better nd make them happy ❤they are my motivation. It’s crazy how loving someone so bad can be harmful at 28 I realized how valuable I am nd no body should do me or make me feel so low. I’m proud of this big step I’m proud of a new chapter 😊 EVERYTHING FOR MY GIRL..AMEN!!🥰🥰

[@dactutatna5501]

I forgive myself for being so emotional, for caring too much, for trusting too easily, for having too much hope, for loving too deeply, for overthinking too much. Yes I might have trouble controlling my emotions and always ending up embarrassing myself, but I forgive myself, because that’s the way I am, and I am thankful that I still have a brave heart that can experience these emotional turmoils, that still know how to love someone, that still be able to care and still be able to get hurt. I forgive myself!

[@maja5858]

❤

[@aldorosalesbarradas5781]

Hello. Thanks for your comment, I really need this. Love u human.

[@davidequagliarelli6267]

Beautiful words…I recognize myself in every single word you wrote. I am at the begining to forgive myself. It is a hard task, but than more I try, than more I feel peaceful. 😌😇

[@stunnagirl4ever_]

I relate 😞❤️‍🩹

[@jadeh5616]

Relate ❤😢❤

[@RaPrubas123]

After 3 years of alcoholism, selfishness and lack of self respect or to others, I'll be a year clean in a month and a half. I've done a lot of shitty things during that time. Both those that i remember and those that someone told me the day after. I betrayed trusts, lied, cursed, fought, insulted and cheated. Cheated the people that i loved the most in this world. I still hate myself some days, as many of those people that i wronged, I'll never have a chance to apologise to or get any type of closure. These scenarios repeat themselves over and over in my head when i try to sleep some days, memories that only live in my head and im too ashamed to speak about. But despite all of this, God still looked after me every now and then, enough to allow me to band together as much courage as i could, get up on my feet and climb out from rock bottom's basement. I doubt myself and my thoughts often, but the beast has been slain. It will never come back again to haunt me. I want to be better and i will be better. I owe it to every single one of you here and moreover, to everyone that i hurt. To all of you, im sorry i was like that. Taquito, im so fucking sorry i was the monster that i was. You were an absolute angel and i thanked God every day for allowing me to draw breath every second that i was blessed to look at those green eyes and pretty dimpled smile of yours. Your presence made me believe that there really is a God, and that i was blessed to be together with you. Kae, im sorry i said all those foul things to you. Im sorry we fought all those times because i wanted to keep on drinking. Man, you are my best friend. You truly are the most exceptional, loyal, loving, caring and inspiring friend one can hope to find in a lifetime. I owe it to myself and to them. I will never be able to go back there and fix it, but i won't fall down into those depths again. Today i lay my first stone and i say: You deserve forgiveness. Let it in. If you've read this all, wholeheartedly, thank you for coming with me down that dark path and not leaving me alone there. I felt it.

[@amycassidy4998]

I'm proud of you. It takes a lot to admit your mistakes, especially online. From one stranger to another, I hope you find peace. Don't hate yourself for the past, people change and from the sounds of it you've grown a long way from that person. I'll be rooting for you :)

[@alexandriahall2843]

I share very similar experiences. Thank you. You are not alone and I am so proud of how far you've come.

[@alexandriahall2843]

I have autism so text cannot convey the emotion i felt. um. i did cry reading this, and pretended i was delivering my own apologizes to my best friend as well. Thank you again internet stranger :)

[@rodrm1995]

When we wrong others, we wrong ourselves. We're not bad people, we just get caught up doing bad things. God bless and I hope you can find peace within, you deserve it.

[@philmartin4315]

Thanks, man. I saw my self in you.

[@dustparticlesX]

I pray you heal from the things you don't talk about. I love you.

[@andrewvazquez9557]

Same to You, I needed this Today, thank You.

[@Konnerleesir]

I'm stroking my cocktail rn

[@isGrayson]

Thank you... I pray the same to you. And I love you.

[@hadezues]

and the strength and conviction of a sound mind and will.

[@Medimedi782]

Thank you❤

[@Exlxtt]

you know it's a good playlist when it starts with snowfall.

[@jelloello9592]

Couldnt agree more

[@Betapvnk]

Amen

[@GameExplorer0115]

I am straight up addicted to Snowfall. I'm writing a book. And down the road. I thought about a scene that I'm writing, where the MC, would have to confront the loss of his lover. And during this segment he is forced to face the delema in his heart. How will he accept her death? Will he run away into a fantasy, or is he going to accept that she's gone, and move forward. I imagine that song would be playing. It sets the mood for it perfectly.

[@anna20812]

@@GameExplorer0115good luck on your book! I hope to reconnect with my love of writing this year as well.

[@AryaMaulana-gj1pe]

p

[@michaelsinclair8733]

We need to start listening to each other more than fighting each other.

[@ashleydavila6423]

Listening is love

[@dekoflores3637]

Preach brother

[@RalfMöller-d5r]

No War , Brother 👊

[@xixiii6]

Peace ✌️

[@SonOfIrak]

of course we all need peace for once

[@j0hnryan31]

The binge eating, man. The shame. The anger. The disappointment. The humiliation. I just want to stop and be healthy. I don't want to feel like a failure every day.

[@sarahcholeva5581]

Jiu jitsu is the answer. I overcame all bad emotions with it. Don’t be weak & lame. Period.

[@isurikauwshika1882]

Dont give up proud of u for holding 🥰🥰

[@thiagocorreia296]

Hang in there and take it one day at time. I'm on the same Journey.

[@dirtfireplow4248]

Stay strong my child.You are not a failure nor will ever be.

[@hartthecreator6841]

There are many more people to live and support you than usually appear. Find good people who will fight for you!! Stay strong! ❤

[@Taika-Yo]

My dad once told me, "Those who cry, ain't weak, they have just been strong for a very long time"

[@MrRavan218]

your dad is a wise man

[@Deathzmeasure]

It takes more strength to let yourself cry than holding it in.

[@jwilson2793]

Why did this choke me up?

[@DeepNight-m2p]

Good luck to those here who are currently working on assignments, dissertations, papers, studying for exams or just studying to make the world a better place for all of us. You rock!

[@louislover1634]

thnk you

[@jasondashney]

Funny you should say that. I came to KZbin to find music to calm me down because I'm so nervous about upcoming written and practical exams that really impact my life and I have a lot of external factors going against me. Failure is not an option but I give it a 50-50 at this point. I never want to have myself in this situation ever again.

[@rafaelhachez873]

thanks a lot, it's never easy but we'll make it through

[@Moonlighplaylist]

It's crazy how these songs aren't actually sad but in context it's heartbreaking.

[@TrangThuy-xc7iy]

Yah, but sometimes I feel so super chill with that melody ❤

[@Edmond23]

لاشيء اجمل من العزلة

[@Edmond23]

@@TrangThuy-xc7iy هل يمكنك الرد بالعربية وشكرا على الإنتباه غالباً لاينتبه أحد لي🖤⁦⁦☠️⁩

[@Edmond23]

ldont sbeak english🤗🤗😘

[@Idk1407-f4k]

So real music changed with how ur feeling

[@tatyanaangelitelove6076]

I forgive myself for not knowing myself. I forgive myself for not being true to myself. I forgive myself for not introspecting earlier. I forgive myself for not wanting to be myself. I forgive myself for hating myself. I forgive myself for not forgiving myself. I forgive myselffor not listening to myself when something or some one was wrong for me and i knew it before evidence happened. I forgive myself for giving up on myself, and my dreams. I forgive myselffor allowing others to cross boundaries and for being a people pleaser. I forgive myself for not honoring my body by foolish deeds and unhealthy living. I forgive myself for my mental illness. May love, joy, peace, and abundance follow each one of us that needs to and is forgiving ourselves. ❤

[@elviraw_888]

I cried reading this as I related to it - was like I wrote it myself - was a oh wow moment. Thank you and may love, joy, peace and abundance follow you too 😊❤

[@mariomunoz390]

I forgive myself for not forgiving myself :)

[@cookie87105]

Felt like reading my own list ❤

[@hazelnuts8428]

I love all the comments it make me feel free ,i feel like im not alone , im not the weird sad person come at nights and cry with this songs , i feel connected i feel pain is one part of human nature , i feel peaceful, i always say to people the best i always be positive..tell them how much things they can create they need to believe in their progress . I come back and crying couse i cannot say that to my self too i hope one day i can go back and hug me

[@ESlopsxplr]

You’ll never be alone, I will always be here to have you back

[@GoatAmv]

Forgiving yourself is a deeply personal and emotional experience that can vary from person to person, but it often involves a range of feelings and sensations:- Relief: Forgiving yourself can bring a sense of relief and release from the burden of guilt or self-blame. It's like lifting a heavy weight off your shoulders. Peace: Forgiveness can bring a sense of inner peace. You may find that the inner turmoil and emotional turmoil you've been experiencing start to subside. Self-Compassion: It often involves showing yourself the same compassion and understanding that you would offer to a friend or loved one in a similar situation. You become more accepting of your own imperfections and mistakes. Healing: Forgiveness can be a healing process. It can help you let go of the past and move forward with your life. Empowerment: Forgiving yourself can make you feel more in control of your emotions and your life. It allows you to take responsibility for your actions and make positive changes. Freedom: It can feel like breaking free from the chains of self-blame and shame, allowing you to experience life without constantly dwelling on past mistakes. Self-Growth: Forgiving yourself often comes with a commitment to personal growth and self-improvement. It's a recognition that you are a work in progress and that learning from your mistakes is part of the journey. Gratitude: Forgiveness may lead to a sense of gratitude for the lessons you've learned from your mistakes and for the opportunity to grow and evolve as a person. Reconciliation: In some cases, forgiving yourself can lead to reconciliation with others if your actions have harmed them. It can open the door to repairing relationships. Renewed Self-Esteem: As you forgive yourself, you may start to rebuild your self-esteem and self-worth. It's a reminder that you are deserving of love and acceptance. It's important to note that forgiving yourself is not always easy, and it may take time. It often involves self-reflection, self-awareness, and a willingness to let go of negative self-talk and beliefs. Seeking support from a therapist or counselor can be helpful in the forgiveness process, especially if you're struggling with self-forgiveness in the face of significant guilt or trauma. Ultimately, forgiving yourself can be a powerful act of self-compassion and a step toward emotional healing and growth.

[@scootersickles6389]

Thank you, I’ve been trying to and I still am trying ❤❤

[@faems]

Thank you for these words.

[@SirArtorias]

Nice text from ChatGPT, mate. ;)

[@ashleydavila6423]

This is THEE comment.

[@albrecht9539]

Thank you for this

[@mationetta]

just wanna say you guys can do it i‘ve struggled with an eating disorder for 5 years and i‘m finally back at peace with food and my body. there‘s always hope you just need to follow your path❤

[@kristinsande9378]

That is so very awesome @katharina4755!! I don't know you, but I am very proud of you!!

[@urmom-k7q]

i forgive myself for the same reason. i hope you'll do as well.

[@bullymaguire3614]

Ikr

[@sunnyholiday5711]

Tysm 4 making this comment! My brother is currently at a facility 4 their anorexia and other mental health struggles. Ik no one will read this comment, but i made it anyways.

[@AngelinaParker1]

I read it and I will pray for his healing mind body and soul​@@sunnyholiday5711

[@asholeander747]

I forgive myself for thinking negatively and putting myself down on days where grief wouldn't allow me to get out of bed, or stop crying, or even wake up. Healing isn't linear and I understand that. I'll be okay one day. I miss you, Mike. Every day. But, I'll heal, and I'll be okay, and I'll learn to love myself and smile again.

[@musicinthematrix]

There something very unique on KZbin where we can find each other in contents like these. I look at my apartment, only the street light coming through the window and this playlist making believe that breath and relax is the best thing to do. Nothing matters, and that can be peaceful.

[@Catalex111]

Yes rest is productive ❤

[@hadezues]

find peace and stillness in these moments, revel in every moment, the view out a window can sometimes be a painting reflecting the spirit of ones own life, an idea, or simply an emotional display of ambience. This is why kurosawa films are so special. Nature is a character, and they tell stories too. if you listen.

I’m in the process of forgiving myself, so many mistakes and missed opportunities. Cheers to the future!

[@AnaWall-ov4iw]

Just a mom rocking her baby to sleep to these songs while everyone else is asleep. sometimes I think I can't do this any longer.

[@indipetergobrait]

Hi, I am just like you. Be proud of you for every hard moments you have in life. You are a really brave and strong mama, i'm sure.

[@theresahart6997]

Me too. But i wont give up if you dont

[@nawhtetshwesinhlaing8653]

I’m not a mother and I have no clue how hard motherhood can be. But I do know it’s very hard and that ure a very brave and strong mama

[@jessicacerny3845]

I would LOVE nothing more rn than to go back to those days...rocking and singing my Sons to sleep...one day You will too! Cherish these now moments as best as You can...and also make time to do even one self care thing for yourself everyday❤❤❤

[@star30.12]

Motherhood it's really hard my mom was sick and in the hospital for 7 days I had to the whole house work amd look after my little brothers it was really hard for me.

[@isabellac.6667]

i love this comment section. i feel so safe here

[@1Unknown90]

Same..

[@sushirocks6684]

Yes feels Like ,Not alone .

[@hadezues]

and that you are, proof that desire for good is so much more powerful than a desire for bad. The diversity of thought and expression of compassion here cannot be touched by even the most vile hatred filled comments anywhere.

[@Tash1991]

I forgive myself for holding myself back for so many years when I knew I could do more. I forgive myself for not loving and taking better care of me. I know better now & I learning how to love myself ❤

[@MJIWANTUBACK]

I feel you so much and I'm proud of us ❤ I'm exploring my new mindset and every new feeling about myself! Let's celebrate our lifes together friends 🎉

[@hadezues]

you also have to let yourself do scary things that you know are good for you. And loving oneself is a two way street you have to accept the love and reciprocate by improving your life toward your dreams and goals. No excuses, now that you are open with yourself you cant hide.

[@jasondashney]

It's not selfish to want what's best for yourself.

[@lehellenart4112]

i wish i could properly forgive myself for my mistakes. for the people i hurt, for hurting myself, for ruining my own life for someone who stabbed me in the back, for ruining my sleep schedule just for youtube, for being overly aggressive, for not eating properly. its difficult, it really is. i can no longer decide wether im fine or not, i feel only a fraction of the things i used to. have i been hurt too much? its hard to decide, but for now all i can do is... continue trying.

[@antwnu2487]

I believe in you! Keep fighting!! :DD

[@ClairePalma-Valle]

Sometimes the subconscious is just a fear of the unknown - but this reality is but a fractaled mirror. Since reality is perspective… I choose to make mine a disco ball rather than a relic in my mental basement. Sometimes we are afraid that we are not good deep down- however the frequency of natural order suggests that you are in fact the product of time, effort, and that dark matter we call love which propels you forward, despite any misgivings. The answer is neither complete detachment nor becoming tangled in loops and intrusive thoughts. Mediation reveals your true frequency, that which you knew yourself to be as a child. Hope that helps.

[@ShunnD010]

I haven't cried like this in months... Thank you.

[@hadezues]

find good reasons to cry more, no matter what, you will improve each time.

[@jakobc.2558]

I have not cried for years now, even though there have been plenty of opportunitys where it would have been appropriate and I am pretty sure that it's because something broke in my brain.

[@djoj20]

Forgiving yourself is the bravest thing you can do ❤

[@comitvomit4371]

Putting the blame on those who are accountable and not your self. Letting the guilt of carrying it go. That's the bravest thing.

[@djoj20]

@@comitvomit4371 sometimes you're the one who's accountable. Still forgiving yourself is harder and braver.

[@padamshree8126]

I guess then i would never be brave. I had the chance to save my sister, my mother from the car accident,yet i was frozen there. I can never forget that scene in front of me. Even though i always come first in my college,yet i am not satisfied with myself. I am a coward. Every day I have to get up and put on a fake smile, many a times not just to convince others, but myself that I am fine. I just hope that one day , I will be proud to say that I am successfully a doctor and have forgiven my old younger self.

[@Idk1407-f4k]

@@padamshree8126omg I’m so sorry even though I’m wondering how that happened. I hope u forgive ur self too

[@stephendavanis7358]

Actually, asking for help is the bravest thing one can do 😊

[@ook23]

it's not the songs that make you cry it's your heartbreaking moment that breaks your hurt like a shattered glass.

[@susiefranchesca8046]

my chest feels heavy but warm. my toes and hands are cold but my face is flushed. i feel i am slowly breaking apart. i feel so lost and stuck. my heart hurts. i am past the point of crying. instead all i can do is stare into the sky, watch the beauty of whatever time of day. feel the wind and just feel my heart painfully squeeze and that sinking feeling all around me. while my heart hurts i still have that small feeling. i still have me, i’m still me. i’m a person too. i give off my own warmth. i am capable of doing what i wish. i may be alone but i do not feel lonely. i look at my life at 19 years old and wonder… is this normal? am i okay? i am so young but i have hurt so much. everyone has a story to tell and the more i feel the more i’ve realized it.

[@somethingslater7301]

It is normal. and you will be okay

[@liamfraser7041]

I'm 19 as well, and I am very familiar with that feeling. It's going to be okay. Take care of yourself and take it one day at a time 🫂

[@4lene]

real

[@MJIWANTUBACK]

Most of our feelings or not-feelings are a result of trauma. Please read John Bradshaws books about your inner child ❤ it will change your life if you try to change your mind!

[@gemmargaretisidoro6166]

This music is sad but not in a bad way, somehow it comforts me . I miss my old life , i miss my mother so much i wish i can meet her even just on my dream. I'm okay, we're all going to be.

[@TheneginV]

Peace out:)

[@catmaster1046]

These types of music actually brings back my old memories of when my actual mom was alive when I was younger I am 18 now and I still miss her so it literally makes me feel happy and remembering the memories listening to this song I appreciate the KZbinr that actually made this video you actually made my day

[@montero895]

How weird life is... I'm 18 too and lost my mom a few years ago when i was 6. I do still remember her, you know Sometimes just as crystal clear but most of the them just memories without faces. I wished I could know her, sit with her, talk... I want to know the way her mind used to work, her thoughts and her passions What she used to like or what was her favorite perfume I miss her so much, and I just feel so lonely. I wish I could hug her...one last time

[@catmaster1046]

@@montero895 same

[@andyfield7397]

Bless you Catmaster - that is young to lose a precious parent.

[@catmaster1046]

@@andyfield7397 at this day that I'm 19 now I still miss her

[@bapattack5706]

Whats up you youngins!!! Lol JK im 24 now BUT i also lost my mom when i was 17 and it was a rough couple of years. Im not gonna say the pain goes away, it doesn’t BUT it does get easier to deal with. My mom was everything to me, she was a superhero in my eyes. She was cool, confident, kind to everyone, loved me unconditionally. Losing her was the hardest thing that i had went through at the time. But as the years went by it started to fade. It still hurts the same but life goes on. Im not saying you wont have moments of deep grief and pain but it will be far less as time goes ever forward. Thats not a bad thing either, dont feel guilty about that cause your mom would want you to move forward and succeed and be happy. Grief is a natural part of loss and is the only clear evidence that she is dearly loved. Youll meet so many amazing people in your lives and experience all kinds of things that life has to offer. Im not even at the quarter of my life yet and i already feel better about it (some people are slower tho and thats okay). My whole point here is that you guys are young and i hope you can move past this. Live your life and find love wherever you go. Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all❤️. Always here to talk if ya need advice. Men love their mommas too. Lol Anyways love you guys ✌️.

[@addisonmcatee5624]

Reading these comments so late/early in the morning really hit different. It gives me a lot to think about but in the most beautiful and peaceful way possible. It makes me feel greatful for what i have but also what i could be doing better. I don't know how to describe it. This comment section just really hits close to home for me.

[@Uzi_Doorman2204]

I forgive myself for putting her before my own happiness. I forgive myself thinking I was not enough because in reality I was more than she could hope for. I forgive myself for hoping even when all reasons for hope were gone. I forgive myself for the time I lost trying to fight a battle I lost long before the battle even started. I forgive myself for overthinking and creating a world of hurt where I was the only one trapped in. I forgive myself for believing that my life was worthless just because I loved too deep. With forgiveness I wish myself self-love and healing.

[@joshuanavarro1645]

i forgive myself for not knowing how to handle my emotions and drinking too much back then. grateful to see how far ive come, a year and 6 months sober. I also forgive myself for being unexperienced in heartbreak. my ex cut me off a week before my birthday. We worked together and i quit just to heal. Thankful i don't drink anymore and amplify my pain, I'd rather heal and prioritize my peace instead. THANKFUL FOR HOW MUCH I'VE GROWN. 🙏

[@pasousam]

I want to forgive myslef. I feel like a terrible person. Im always ruining things for everyone else. I always feel like the problem. I always am the one who messes up, So I always rightfully get the blame. I always act without thinking. I say things that I dont mean, or I say something differently than I should. I always mess up. Im never good enough. I always make poeple upset. I always end up hurting somebody no matter what I do. I tell them how sorry I am, and they dont understand. Its all an accident. I dont want to hurt anyone, but I cannot help it. It feels like a disease, everything I do goes wrong. I ruin every friendship I start. I cry at night and hug my pillow because I cannot cry infront of someone else. I cannot be seen as weak. I want to forgive myself, But when I hurt others, I cannot.

[@k.l928]

I feel exactly like you TT

[@cindyngwenya5494]

It's okay just don't be hard on yourself. Now rewrite this and turn it into the opposite and start living it bit by bit. You'll surely see a difference xoxo

[@jxsmnn7228]

I can feel you as this is 1000% how I felt after every relationship I ruined (which are countless)

[@Wanderer5720]

I wish I could hear these songs in my head whenever I wanted. I wish I could feel the peace these songs bring at will. Such clarity, focus, and serenity. These videos help me think and feel things I normally wouldn't be able to.

[@NXT_GEN_LETSPLAY]

Almost 5 am in germany. I'm rly young but often I'm scared. When I'm scared I go to water. When I'm angry, I go to fire. When I'm happy, I go see my family. When I'm sad, I listen to this beautiful people feeling the same as me writing these lovefull comments. Amen ✝️

[@cortneybocook3151]

❤

[@hadezues]

I find it beautiful and utterly immobilizing to hear that you go to water when you are scared and fire when you are angry I would love to hear more. It is very abnormal to find water safe and I always have too, Ill share my fire story if you reply.

[@Shalalalala_666]

In an age of mass consumption and alienation, we ironically find ourselves in these comments and find friendship and comradery with people we’ll never meet. Yet we all have the same goal and that is inner peace. We’ll find it one day, we’ll always be alone but we’ll be stronger and it’s okay to move on. You’re safe and the journey is yours. 💗💚🖤❤️💙✨

[@zoe_alva86]

How we started when YT wasn't this big. The live journals, the ICQ, the MSN... ❤

[@hadezues]

we don't' have to never meet, someday perhaps soon there will be a call for like minded people like us to come together for a greater cause and I for one will always be ready.

[@jasondashney]

But then we meet in traffic during rush hour trying to get into the same lane at the same time and flip each other off IRL, haha.

[@Shalalalala_666]

@ ❤️❤️❤️

[@unwindcitysnow]

In the night's transition from 3am to 4am, mysteries give way to serenity, creating a captivating and peaceful ambiance. 🌌🕓✨

[@Idk1407-f4k]

Without the dark, you can’t find the light. That’s why it feels like that

[@SM2005_]

It’s fascinating that everyone longs to feel normal and everyone hurts. No one is sane. Sane isn’t normal. Just slow life down and love being alive.

[@Ylian-na]

this music perfectly describes my life. My parents are always busy, I don’t want to disturb them and share my problems. I hate talking to people and talking to thin air. He will not say “everything will pass, this is such a stage,” he will listen silently and reward you with silence. I'm not an outcast in the class, but I have no friends either. I'm just emptiness. I was often forgotten or not noticed, but I got used to it. My best friends are music, books and the silence of the night. I have enough, but sometimes I wish there was a person nearby...

[@kk65275]

I send you love, and I hope you find your person and your people in general ❤

[@Coral333]

God's always listening ask him for a friend it can't hurt and it'll work🙏❤️

[@Ylian-na]

@@Coral333 Thank you

[@MJIWANTUBACK]

I'm thinking of you❤ You matter so much! Tell your parents how much you love them and spending time together! Tell them you miss them! It will change things when they feel your lonelyness and love ❤

[@Ylian-na]

@@MJIWANTUBACK Thank you for your advice

[@philmartin4315]

Forgiveness was done long ago. Grieving is something I can't let go.

[@hadezues]

Give your grief a destination, a purpose, a task, something honorable, bigger than you, in the process you may heal. It will still take time. But you are obligated to use the memories of love and ensure that because of them there exists only more love in the world than before, not grief. Once you can outweigh your grief with the love you've created through using it as fuel, you will have earned whatever left you feel and it wont hurt nearly as bad to feel it.

[@Chill_with_Ayu]

Tearing up, these music are helping to loosen up, to feel less terrible about myself, self realising and just tearing up out of pure relief. No pain, no regrets, no overthinking, this is just pure bliss. It's okay if you can't daily meditate, find such soothing content here, and feel rejuvenated. Feel blessed, you are not alone. You are here for a reason, your purpose is yet not served. You are worthy, you are capable of everything, you are not lazy, you are just a bit tired, but don't worry, bad times don't last a long time. There's always sunshine after a dark night. But there's always a dim yet beautiful moonlight, it's not completely dark. You are good at heart, don't let nobody say what you are. You know what you are. It's not late yet, I, me and all of you can change for the better, for ourselves. Just know you are loved, and I love you too. I didn't see you, but I can feel the energy that you're a good soul. Never ever put yourself down again. You are fine, pain might last for a long time, you might not do well physically, as I am not, suffering since years, but I guess I am still here for a reason, so make the best out what you have. Make those little changes in life, eat well today, sleep a little earlier, don't be like me, its 3.36 in India and I am still awake, but I am pouring my heart out. Being or feeling down doesn't mean u r suicidal or not mentally well. You are doing just fine and you will do much better. You are healthy, you are happy and you are immensely loved. Goodnight. Sleep tight :-)

[@doritogacha123]

I can finally breathe I can finally vocalize my sorrows silently to myself I can finally tell myself that’s it’s ok and that forgiving and forgetting yourself isn’t always bad because to forget, is to remember and to remember, is to reminisce I ask nothing of anyone reading my comment Except for you to find a moment Where you to, can forgive yourself for at least one thing Please remember that in the end of this reality, when everyone leaf has blown off its branch.. including yourself You have nobody but you So don’t hurt them Dont yell at them Don’t harm them Because they love you They will stick with you when everyone else is gone You need to be you, and care for you And if you can’t, let out a breath.. and forgive yourself for not being able to Tell yourself it’s ok to mess up and not be able to do things, because even forgiving yourself for dropping a pencil is recognizing that hey, you dropped this, that’s ok though.. just a minor set back in writing the rest of my feeling Writing out my future Writing out This message To a lovely reader Who’s too hard on themself sometimes I love you, and I hope you can love you to some day.. if even just for a moment❤️

[@liamfraser7041]

Thank you so much.. 🫂❤️

[@antoniodambray]

You're a good soul, I'm blessing you with the truth: love yourself and through yourself you will see the love in the universe. Only with love you can experience love, when you're with people that you love you are happy, so love yourself harder than everyone else, because the meaning of individual life is to love, we are part of the same thing, the universe is like a body and we are cells, only by loving every cell of the body you can be an happy cell. You can be happy, you can control your mind. This is signal of the universe.

[@position9925]

Completely touched by the words I this and grateful for the moment I have read this poem or message this is kind and understanding and I thankyou. From Portland oregon Peace and love And eat noodles and listen to the rain if you can and draw anything ❤❤❤❤❤sweetest dreams to everyone in the world 🌎

[@saramiaperez3018]

Thank you, every word I read hit my heart and soul. I really do need to forgive myself. They deserve it.

[@Coxxluna]

I have no words to thank you for this comment... ❤️‍🩹

[@SonOfIrak]

i'm strong i will support myself i will not care about others thoughts. i will develop myself i will be always positive about myself even when I'm in the most worst situation i will fight for myself, i am much stronger than i could think.

[@Bugsinc]

I forgive myself. I still hold on to my ego a little bit which is fighting to convince me that I’m only worth as much as I do.. as much as I accomplish. but this simply isn’t true. we all have one higher, truer purpose- To just BE. I am here. I am existing. my ego fights back, trying to convince me how stunted, lazy, and unintelligent I am compared to my peers. but I’m learning to not let it win. I’m here. you’re here. we are winning. we are fulfilling our highest purpose. the rest will follow, friend

[@ursonicexe]

To everyone who's studying with this music: Checklist: • A bottle of water, at least 1liter. Your brain works better if it has enough water and drinking helps you to concentrate • Your charger. You sometimes don't even notice that your device's battery is going down, so better have it plugged in all the time • Your headphones. You will be able to focus more with headphones, because it blocks background noises. Also, if it's a late night study session, you won't wake up anyone • a tea or coffee. Coffee keeps you awake, green or black tea can make you feel more awake as well. • Your study/work stuff: your laptop/tablet/phone , a few pens, paper or whatever you need. •Anything else you could need, what about a heat pad, a blanket, a good lamp, your pet so you have a study buddy Reminder: After an hour, you should stand up and walk a bit around. Better stop the music or put on different music for the break. Open your window, even if it's cold outside. Fresh air will make it better, trust me. You could also lay your head down on your desk for ten minutes and listen to a podcast. Or, if you have to read a book, listen to the audiobook of it. You can also listen to the audiobook while doing another thing, that's even better than listening to music while reading the book. I hope y'all had a good day, if not, that's okay too. Remember to take care of yourself and try to get some sleep tonight DISCLAMER: I did not create this, I found it on other playlists. I still wanna help people out and get them through any stress (:

[@krystylecollier]

When wanting to forgive yourself always remember... Forgiving yourself isn't about rewriting the past, but its reclaiming my power from it- finding grace in the fractures and allowing peace to fill the void where guilt once lingered, and understanding that true healing begins when i release the weight of what i cannot change, and embracing the hope that with each step forward, you are crafting a future no longer bound by yesterday' (s)

[@JH4RPlp]

I've always had this feeling like I had too much empathy for a man, so much so that I would conjur up violent thoughts in my head to suppress feelings of empathy. I was just doing what I thought was necessary to be a "real" man and try not to let my emotions take control of me. Little did I know that this coping mechanism only exacerbated my lack of control on my emotions, and thus I was forced to forgive myself and accept that I can't always remain stoic. It's OK to cry if you need to. It's OK to get angry when someone mistreats you. It's OK to prioritize your own wellbeing if someone trauma dumps you. You may not be able to save others, but you can save yourself and in doing that makes it easier to help others save themselves.

[@theresahart6997]

Thanks man. I needed this today. Been up since 3 and feeling really unworthy.

[@guilarbour9154]

The wisdom in your 1st sentence moved me deeply. it made me think that perhaps rage, anger, and violence ... especially when you aim it at yourself ... are indicative of a heart so big .. so large ... a heart opened with such vulnerability, a heart so willing to love and to be loved ... yet unable to move in that freedom ... locks itself out of it in frustration ... so the violent thoughts come .. the heavy feelings overtake you ... until you surrender to it in weeping. Your comment stirred me deeply to rethink empathy. How beautiful it really is. How complicated it really is. Perhaps the old Christian doctrine of being made "perfect through suffering" is actually not that incredible. Perhaps it has never been up to any of us to make it palatable. Your last sentence I think my friend is grace in motion. "make it easier to help others save themselves" .. in this context under the comment section of this video ... perhaps it means "make it easier to forgive ourselves". you give me permission to hold my anger and my disappointment and my pain close to me with as much love and tenderness as I know is in my heart. that "too much empathy" you wrote about ... and a single tear rolls down my cheek as I feel forgiveness for myself for the first time in such a long time. Aiming that love I know is in my heart but I cant seem to adequately express towards the reflection in the mirror. Thank you brother. "its OK .." indeed.

[@lau_5127]

This songs always makes me experience a life crisis I became sad at first, crying like a baby… then when I’m done crying I start to feel very very nostalgic, missing everything I once was and will be. Missing something that I don’t know. Missing past lifes. Missing home ( like if my home is somewhere distant in the universe). A feeling of not belonging here, not belonging to my body but to belong to something spiritual. The last stage it’s feeling calm and comprehensive. It almost feels like I’m calmer and my thoughts are silent and now I can see everything clearly. Like if my 3rd eye opens and I connect to the universe… I become to feel healed, and to let go the pain. I think I really need to cry sometimes and to let myself feel, kinda like a detox from bad feelings that were accumulated 😢 I’m terrible at regulating my emotions but this feels like a guided meditation ❤ Hope someone can relate to this…

[@juliesouza4619]

Yes actually, well said ❤

[@Lion06494]

Hi from Turkey 🙏

[@Vermouth-t5o]

i can relate 🥺

[@lau_5127]

Hey, I’m back again. Tough night, a lot of thoughts

[@hugedata3036]

​@@lau_5127 I understand your pain. keep your mindset fresh and create a goal of your life. And do hard work with it abide though discipline. Find purpose of your life. Why you came to this world? This answer of question will show you the way. And I believe this answer of question, you will only get from Quran. Have a good day. I appreciate your mindset. A lonely life is very important for make a mind stronger and knowing God.

[@Imxone]

Beautiful playlist, nice work🖤

[@P9u9r6p2l4e]

Over these past months, I’ve been beginning to realize just how much damage I’m actually doing to myself by blaming myself for so many things that were completely outside of my control, and it breaks my heart to see myself being beaten down so severely. I’ve been able to forgive myself for smaller things, but I don’t know if I’ll ever truly forgive myself for having to leave the love of my life and not being by her side through her most difficult moments

[@kaivalenzuela8895]

Thank you for sharing. I relate to this so much. 😢

[@Alexis-vr3km]

This video made me stop and think about how I’m spending my time right now falling back into an unnecessary habit - scrolling through KZbin. I really never get anything out of it. The title of forgiveness causes me to think of how I can have empathy and forgive myself for falling short by going back on my phone when I have better things to do. So, I once again forgive myself for turning to my phone even after the realization that my old attachment to it does nothing productive for me, but only leads me away from completing tasks. I forgive myself for wasting my free time by spending too much time on social media talking to people years ago. I forgive myself for being irritated and impatient. I forgive myself for lacking patience with myself and with others. But I don’t stop at forgiveness - and my forgiveness doesn’t mean acceptance, allowing myself to repeat the same patterns. Forgiveness means having empathy for myself, and understanding that the past was different than it is now. I had these coping mechanisms for mental survival, but I’m not simply surviving anymore. Tactics for survival are no longer relevant to my life. I relish in building real friendships and using my alone time to either create or give my mind a rest - real rest, not by sinking into the internet. I accept that I will need self control and to step away from my phone again - by putting it in a separate space, whether it be a desk or drawer - and taking a breath. I have been told that this is an act of limiting and having the mindset of limiting any action isn’t really beneficial. However, I willingly accept that moderation is key to maintaining balance. Sometimes limits can be good. What if there were no limits to eating or drinking? An overindulgent gluttonous person, for instance, should be forced away from their vice of overeating. By putting away my phone I am not simply limiting myself because I acknowledge that I’m replacing it with what will better me; hobbies, chores, and tasks. Really what I’m limiting here is dopamine consumption - it’s what makes getting off of social media difficult because you feel hooked in. I won’t always be the most jolly completely detoxing from the dopamine I get from playing games, texting, or watching KZbin, but in the long run I will be better for it. The long term outcome of balancing my time to relax and assignments is what I would like to repeatedly remind myself whenever I fall short. For I can always get back up again. Here’s a few important questions I’ve asked myself: Why argue with reality? Why defy my own reality by escaping to a platform like KZbin? There is no reason. It’s not needed. When has this ever gotten me far? When has procrastination helped? When has worrying helped me? The answer is never.

[@juniorclaw_]

Found this at 3:35am and reading the comments... I too need to forgive myself. I am in a crossroad of decisions... It's hard to pick for reality, dreams, goals, achievements, the man that I am... It hurts.

[@mikhelber]

the fact that you still feel guilty for what you've done in the past and cant undo it make it even worse

[@tearsofanangel.]

To forgiving myself for allowing someone other than myself degrade, pity, water me down as a human is all I wanted. All those nights i spent crying myself to sleep, those days i would spend on end hiding the pain they’ve inflicted upon me.. the way i stood by this person for most of my teenage years (34 months) blinded by what i thought was love, finding out why he stayed.. i was the only one who dealt with the trauma, who excused it as their own wounds which was partly the case for awhile turned out to be hatred and fear. He hated how i wanted to express myself, how i wanted him to express himself, how i wanted to feel free and how i wanted to feel at peace with him not only him but with everyone around us. He feared that i would leave but reality is that i genuinely loved & wanted to continue loving him until that was not enough. i would have had to give up my dignity for it to last longer, its time for me to heal what he caused. It’s time to love me too. 🥀🌧️

[@siwaaintsavvy]

One day I will come back to this comment from the comfort of my own house with a beautiful sanctuary I can pray in at 03:00 with no fear of judgement from roommates or family. Life is beautiful and I am grateful for these channels that give me freewill to make mt heart my sanctuary ♥️

[@tanjiro2873]

I forgive myself for being so insecure even when I know that I should not feel like that, I understand that it takes time for me to actually heal and become a better version of myself , I forgive myself for not investing in my study and dreams lately....

[@jiyong_nara8378]

it's our journey, our fall, our blood, our pain. No one will heal it for you. It will hurt, sometimes too much. But we will learn to heal ourselves, learn to wait and see, learn to love the scars, and learn to forgive. It’s dark and scary, I know. It’s heavy and exhausting, I know. If pain is proof of life, let’s live it to the fullest.

[@Ekica666]

I want to forgive myself for not listening to myself, i want to forgive myself for not forgivin myself, i want to forgive myself for not trusting me, i want to forgive myself for always blaming me, i want to forgive myself because i putted myself into traumas,phobias,problems, i want to forgive myself because i blamed me, i want to forgive myself for cutting my hair off, i want to forgive myself for not trusting people, i want to forgive myself for not listening to myself, i want to forgive myself for cutting me, i want to forgive myself for causing fights with everyone, i want to forgive myself for not believing in love or loving others, i want to forgive myself for making my moms day the worst day ever, i want to forgive myself for being the bad child..(people call me that) , i want to forgive myself for believing everyone, i want to forgive myself for doing everything anybody had told me, i want to forgive myself for hatting myself, i want to forgive myself for making my dads day the worst day ever, i wanf to forgive myself for shouting at my grandma...I want to forgive myself for a lot of stuff. I tried tried tried. I lost again and again and again my hearts betting so fast and my brain is telling me to die. Im only 15 and i wish i can become a kid again..have great frends..no familly issues..no fights..no traumas,probias..not being hated..not being picked at..I wana have a normal life again. Thank you for you time! Have a good night/evening/afternoon! Love yall so much wish you the best ❤

[@askin34]

Hepimiz bir tür savaş veriyoruz, bence zaman pes etmediğimiz takdirde bu savaşta bizden yana. İyi anılar ve kötü anılar biriktiririz, hepsi zaman alır, bir anıyı unutmak yıllar alırken birini hatırlamak bir andır. Ama her şeyden önce bir mücadele vardır, her şeyin daha güzel olması için verilen bir mücadele. Unutma, seni güçlü kılacak olan pes etmemektir.❤

[@desolated99]

You know it's a good Playlist when it comes streaming down.

[@unnatural6edq]

I'm using this as the soundtrack when I work in my shadow journal and it's helping me a lot ❤

[@monikakappelin8807]

I like the word shadow journal....❤

[@Grumble-bl2sg]

I have bared more of my soul to these people in these comments. Telling a friend would only make them concerned and want to help. Telling a parent would do much more and a therapist would do a version of the two. It's just, I want somewhere I can forgive people and ask for forgiveness myself. Where I can bare my soul and where I can vent. These are my haven. These are the places I love. I also want to forgive myself. I want to repent and sometimes I want to rip myself apart for the chance of their forgiveness. I feel as though I cannot be forgiven without baring my heart to another close. I want my heart to be close to my chest and I want to wear it on my sleeve. I want both and nothing. Sometimes I feel such anxiety about the world and that we ourselves cannot fix it and be better. My heart clogs up my thoat and I have to not cry. I can't cry to other's, I have to be strong for others and I feel guilt that sometimes I need to cry, but my body and mind won't let me as my heart screams out. I feel like I'm walking towards a destination with others, but are shrouded in fog, ultimately walking alone. I want feel loved, but others need it more, they need more love and I've had enough time to get mine. But I can't help but feel left out, my chest wrenching randomly when I want that love. I am still young, I still have my Grandparents and my parents. I have my siblings who are barely in the middle of high school. They are younger and need the love an attention more than I do. I'm looking at the second oldest child, they're infront of me in my messy room. While I'm sitting here, watching and silently loving. I want forgiveness and I want to forgive. I want love and I want to love. I know I am loved, but other times, I feel like I'm not loved enough. Now I just have to put everything down and just breathe. Do the same with me.

[@Futka23]

trust me guys, it's magic! only a magician can create music that unlocks the hearts and memories of a few million people. 💚💚💚

[@lukebuster8711]

Gods always with you

[@nightmarestudios.4833]

​@@lukebuster8711and were always there with him

[@jennabariou9947]

I cried about 3 times while listening to this. I want to forgive myself but I feel unworthy of it. I want a relationship and to give and receive love and affection but every time since "him" I get so physically sick at my happiness and how I act. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin but its hard when you constantly feel like a hollow shell of who I once was. I go to therapy but i'm afraid to tell them that I feel this way. I'm terrified to tell anyone that I feel this way. Everything that I see in my hometown brings back memories. Memories I wish I could just erase or at lease forgive and forget. How will I ever be well enough to let myself feel? To allow myself to forgive what I've done and just learn? The mention of people from my past who I have cut off and experiences I had with them make me anxious. I can't tell who is lying or telling the truth. Who actually wants to be friends or who just wants to use me and get information out of me? My anxiety makes me throw up. every attack I have ever had has ended in what feels like my guts being emptied completely. When will I ever be able to realize if I'm valued or not? Who can I trust? Can I even trust myself?

[@emilyholmes9628]

What does a caged bird do even when the doors are open? A bird in a cage, been caged for one third of its life but by who, is it the owner of the bird who fed and took care of it for years? Is it the cat who told terrifying tales of the life outside of the cage? Is it the nightmares from when the owner would get mad? What exactly cage the bird? Honestly, the bird does not have an answer. There seems to be not a reason for it to remain caged anymore. The owner occasionally would try to take the bird out of the cage now. The owner is no longer angry. The cat is no longer there. Time has come for the bird to fly. To feel the wind between its feathers. However, the bird did not leave the cage for it was comfortable inside the cage. The cage, the darkness felt familiar to the bird. The bird is now afraid of the freedom and the choices it gets. The bird is now afraid of the wind and the rain. Afraid of going starved when it leaves the cage, its owner, home. It is now afraid to be outside for it never learned how to fly. The bird now is afraid of the heights. Nothing is to be trusted except pain. It never failed to deliver its claim. It believed that in pain, there is no lie. Pain never lies, every time it touches, the bird would have butterflies in its gut ravaging its insides. The little bird, tiny soft creature, believes in pain but not love. The bird says to itself, love is the prettiest form of lie. Therefore, I shall never touch or let it touch me. It did not believe in love nor happiness… despite the attempts of those who wish to free the bird, the bird shall never attain such bliss. Because it was the bird, who caged itself.

[@alsocrazyboutferrets]

it was the bird who caged itself

[@Helena.-]

I forgive myself because I wasn't guilty of my circumstances neither my problems or family issues. I was just me.

[@guilarbour9154]

How does one forgive years of shame? Years of guilt. Years of anger and rage. How can you move towards forgiveness while feeling utterly worthless and inadequate? To have empathy they say is to have deep feeling for others. How is my anger, my rage, my disappointment … my feelings of self-loathing … my deep feelings of pain really… not empathy gone wrong in my heart? Perhaps the magnitude of these feelings... all demanding to be heard … are indicative of a heart so big ... so large ... a heart opened with such vulnerability, a heart so willing to love and to be loved ... yet unable to move in that freedom ... shutting down in frustration ... And so the dark thoughts come. The heavy feelings overtake me... Recently I cried for 3 days... Weeping really. So bitterly... unable to name that thing that hurt. Yet feeling it so profoundly. I fully surrendered to it. In private. Alone. As a man, it’s all I feel I am allowed to do. I don’t want to be afraid anymore. Empathy gone rogue. Yet … I can’t help but think how beautiful empathy really is. How complicated it really is. Perhaps the old Christian doctrine of being made "perfect through suffering" is actually not that incredible. Perhaps it has never been up to any of us to make it intellectually palatable. Why? Why? Why? Indeed. I gave myself permission to just FEEL... Isn’t that one of the most beautiful aspect of being alive? To just be and feel. I dismissed all notions to DO or FIX or RESOLVE as interruptions and just wept. Ssshhhh I heard my heart say. It’s ok. I bitterly criticized and judged my “manly weakness” while the tears flowed and finally dismissed the self-imposed judgments that were screaming at me in my head. And cried some more. Ssshhhh I heard my heart say. It’s ok. That love and tenderness I KNOW are in my heart but could never summon in an act of will or that I never allowed myself to feel … was able to call in that empathy gone rogue in my heart … Ssshhhh I heard my heart say. It’s ok. Finally … a single tear rolls down my cheek as I felt forgiveness for myself for the first time in such a long time. Aiming that love I know is in my heart but couldn’t seem to adequately express towards the reflection in the mirror. Now I think … I realize … forgiveness is a journey. Not just one single step. And it’s hard. And difficult. It’s ok to be patient with yourself as you travel that lonely road. Give yourself permission to feel … and gently softly whisper to yourself as you cry ... Ssshhhh … its ok. Isn’t that what it means to be there for yourself? I don’t know. But I’m learning. Slowly. It’s soothing somehow. I feel peace is possible. I like that hope.

[@lordthern5691]

I lost my dog four weeks ago. This kind of music helps me to sleep when all feelings and pain are in my heart. Miss you, the only thing in my life that was pure and beautiful. Hope to see you soon, love you Sasha. Forgive me if I did something wrong.

[@supravietuitoriblog547]

Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?

[@Scoobysue1977]

I lost one of my dogs in November. There's no pain, quite like it. Your heart shatters! So, I'm sending you a hug and ❤❤❤

[@KatherineTremell]

I forgive myself for not having the courage to walk away from things situations knowing there were not good for me and I just stayed. I forgive myself for being afraid to love again; myself, family, friends etc… I forgive myself for procrastinating I forgive myself for loosing hope… I forgive myself for letting others manipulate me and affect me for all my mistakes and wrong choices I made I forgive myself 47:13 While in retrospective realize that I am writing myself my new story my new self has arisen. Ty 😊

[@aishaexo-l611]

This song give me a nostalgia that I can't even described in words 😭 is like that moment in life when you wher young and thrives in happiness and joy but you longer forgot and then suddenly you just remembered and it hits you hard but then you realize the time have passed...

[@kongomitsuba9218]

I forgive myself... I don't know if i should, for everything i did to people for hurting those that i love i regret it so much and badly... i just never forgave myself for being hateful about myself

[@Myla-zl4jv]

I had decided to forgive myself about two years ago. I think about it often and reason to myself about why i need to forgive myself, and i give myself reason after reason as to why i should forgive myself. I never disagree with the reasons that not only i, but everyone i know have said to me. I hadn't even noticed until tonight that I've failed to forgive myself. I've managed to calm down my hatred of myself but I've never been able to move on to the next step. Not really.

[@Random-d1-o4d]

So many of us are here, trying to forgive ourselves. For different reasons and incidents that occured in our lives. There are peoole out there struggling to forgive themselves for the bad they had done and there are others who want to forgive themselves for allowing the bad to happen. I'm styck between both. Its not easy, its tough, its complicated but its life. You make life beautiful, trust me you do. I read your comments and think, "Wow, these people are beautiful." The fact that you feel the remorse shows you are developing for good. Forgive yourself, be free from the burden and make peace within your broken pieces. I belive in you! And I love you !

[@jeb711]

I wish that I had my true love ❤️ in my life. Unfortunately, I ended it with deep regret. He was so kind, loving ❤️ and caring. My husband of 21 yrs had an emotional affair. My heart is completely broken 💔 l don't love, like, or respect him at all. Praying 🙏

[@muh88]

has anyone struggled with dissociation that he couldn't feel anything yet tried to but no result. they wait for a sign for a hope that things will be better. they are lost and afraid if they are not doing what they should but they trust time to fix everything. they are kind to everyone but not themselves but why? they don't believe that they are worthy and deserve to be loved. the past has shown to them that no one is wanting to hear them with their heart, they are feeling like they don't deserve anyone's love and attention. you know it's sad that the only thing you crave for is just acceptance.

[@YannahYahyel]

God loves you. Please seek him. When I felt that way and had absolutely no one God was there and welcomed me with open arms. He loves you as you are and will never leave you. You can call out to him. I pray to him in my mind and he hears me and answers me. You aren’t alone and you are loved. 🕊️

[@sitevirus1]

😢

[@richardsimone2798]

I forgive myself for the years i wasted in rage. I needed this tonight.

[@wyd814]

Yo, check it, I forgive myself for keepin’ it real, for feelin’ too deep, for showin' too much love, and lettin’ the trust flow easy. Yeah, I might get caught up in my emotions sometimes, overthinkin', trippin', but it's all good. That's just how I roll. I’m thankful for this heart that stays solid, still ridin' through the highs and lows, still knowin' how to love hard, still knowin’ how to care, and yeah, still gettin’ hurt, but stayin' true. So you know what? I forgive myself, ‘cause that’s me, and I’m proud of it. Keep it cool, keep it pushin', and keep that heart brave. Peace.

[@amadeodgiorgio]

👊

[@Heartbridger]

💛

[@fatematujzohorasayma6245]

I haven't cried like this in months, thank you ❤

[@emilysr441]

He is near to the broken hearted

[@Kistina-ThunderRainSound-iw8qk]

Beautiful and peaceful ambiance....no annoying solfeggio chords. Help me cope with my migraines. Thank you for sharing

[@amadeodgiorgio]

A quick fix what helps me with my migraines.. A coffee right when the symptoms start & then they all fade in less than 20 minutes. Life changer.

[@NestoOwlz]

Sometimes i think why me.. somtimes i think about other things... But mostly i think about how it ended up like this.😢

[@janin.2331]

While listening to this I try to forgive myself that I didn't want my pregnancy 5 years ago due to problematic life circumstances and already being a mom to another child and didn't take care of that pregnancy because of that and than miscarried. 🖤 I still regret it so much even though I'm very thankful for having another child that was born after my loss. 🌈

[@heatherlash5304]

No more "trying", my sweet sister - let go of the regret. Circumstances were as they were... not so much "problematic" as just... what was necessary/possible for you at that time. Souls choose when and to whom they come down. Love is the only guiding principle, and I guess maybe Faith? That Creator's got it all written down... hey! Just got an amazing music idea for your mood:kzbin.info/www/bejne/ranWoXV5eNSUn7c

[@kitsune_reyna]

i wish i could relate to this. no one gave me an apology, not even myself. even though i know that it wasn't my fault at all.

[@kitsune_reyna]

@Dannydolan88 I don’t know, maybe I could’ve been stronger at the moment, maybe I could’ve asked for help, maybe I could’ve done something to prevent it. I hurt myself afterwards and it felt deserved, but I just know that it wasn’t. My feelings and my mind are still in conflict.

[@yavuzselimgozel5048]

hope you heal your wounds brother

[@natural997]

​@@kitsune_reynafive stages of grief Denial > Anger > Bargaining > Depression > Acceptance IDK if this helps, but learning about this process helped me get through a tough time.

[@Ivy-Florence17]

I want to forgive myself. For everything. For being so scared of life, for losing my sanity when i needed it the most, for falling in love with the wrong guy, for not being a good sister and daughter, for dropping out of my dream university, for not letting myself eat food, for not being brave. But I can't. Forgiveness doesn't come to me. I'm sorry to myself because I don't know why I only ever learnt how to apologise but never how to forgive.

[@TheSneezingBison]

Sometimes...you just gotta learn to let go....the pain will sting...everything hurts...but..your choices have already been set...you could turn back but that only offers more pain and suffering...

[@TheKaneChroniclesVA]

I am trying to forgive myself and it’s been a very slow going journey. There’s a lot in my life I have been hard on myself for. I try to remind myself, “Hey yes, this happened but beating yourself up over it will not help” there’s plenty of regrets I have that eat away at me every day. It’s hard to forgive oneself when you look back and can only see the imperfections, the mistakes, and the faults. Everyday I wrestle with staying in the here and the now. It’s a struggle and a fight to stay one step ahead of my own mind and I know that the person I am now is different to who I was then. Every time I look in the mirror I try to see the same person my loved ones do. Sometimes I fall short sometimes not at all, but I am trying. So I try to take each day one step at a time, and to take it as it comes. Life will always have its ups and downs, and there’s always gonna be times we will need to take a step back. Yet I know well enough that we’re all on a journey. Separate ones perhaps but we all struggle and we all fall. It’s just a matter of reminding ourselves that we’re all finding our process or forgiving ourselves and loving who we are now.

[@himani5357]

I forgive myself for not being able to make any friends even when i try my best, eating a little bit much, staying in my bed hopelessly for all day, having shivering in all my body when i have to speak up and many more forget it ur good

[@Alieriskitti]

today I did shadow work and wrote a letter to myself. I released all ties to negativity and what no longer serves me prosperity, growth, and love. Last year so many things weighted me down and I was left draining and feeling alone. I was used and felt like I lost control. But towards the end I felt new hope..I enter this year feeling light as a feather. The sun is brighter, my heart feels softer, and I am radiating with serenity. I welcome the euphoria as I embrace a new chapter. Shedding my old self and molting into the new world. I love you, and I’m here growing with you too. Be kind and remind yourself we are just children in aging bodies. Inside our spirit is still that little being, and it needs to be felt and nourished too. Protect yourself and inspire yourself as if you’re mentoring your younger self. What would they do? How would they feel? What do they need?

[@giuliafalce7862]

only I see forgetting oneself as a loss. I miss the person I was before, I miss feeling the same as before, I was fine even if in reality I wasn't fine.... but in a certain sense I miss it. Anyway, great playlist 🥺🖤

[@sol_solyonaya]

любила подобные плейлисты лет так с 13. сейчас мне почти 16, мои музыкальные вкусы кардинально изменились, но такую музыку я никогда не разлюблю)

[@iGame4Funn]

A letter to myself ~ Hey dude, don't be too hard on yourself. There is a lot going on in life and you're only a single person. Tasks, thoughts, emotions... can only be handled one at a time. Do your best, take some deep breaths, and keep fighting. You know that life gets hard but all you can do is continue to push through and let time pass. Try smoking less, being more in the moment, and more importantly, try to see that moment in front of you, and enjoy it. If you don't slow down and take a look around, you'll be more miserable than you have been in the past. Good times come and go, just like the bad times; try to enjoy the neutral time you have aswell, rather than stressing yourself out. Life's not that serious. You know how stressed you've felt, that tightness in your chest, the pain in your stomach, & the exhaustion; however if you keep overwhelming yourself to this point you won't be around much longer. Just please man try to relax; you're doing great, you're doing your best at work, you're doing your best with your girlfriend, you're doing great handling and planning tasks. Just keep trying to do better each day with one small step. Please man do not give up on yourself, the future you is depending on the current you to keep the promises you made to yourself yesterday. Keep your head up bud, keep grinding, greatness is just around the corner. If anyone has decided to read my letter, just know things will get better for you too. You're not alone. As long as you are fighting for you, your happiness, whatever it may be... time will pass, and so will your problems. -Much love from someone struggling but never giving up. We've got this!

[@HollywoodingNews]

God has forgiven all your sins in the cross ✝️ it’s time to move on and forgive yourself. I forgive myself for all the wrong doings I did to others and I also forgive myself to all the bad things I did to myself. Let go~ welcome your new life, a new you. Good luck guys in this journey that is life.

[@LiveFreeDieaG]

Struggling with myself, so many emotions I don't even have a word for what I feel...Just..tired...

[@Spakester]

I know to you that I am just a stranger on the internet, but I am here if you need to vent or want advice. Perhaps we can be tired together.

[@syediftesam9622]

Permentantly falling asleep sounds nice...

[@ObsyratelYeblanov]

Ikr

[@brooklynbella520]

Forgiving myself involves accepting all the trauma I've faced and mistakes I made along that way. That is the hardest part.

[@Isabella-wi5ch]

I forgive myself for hurting myself when others hurt me.

[@OrenSprunkiboi]

forgiving feels like a burden lifted off your shoulders and that always feels good

[@Uzidoorman639]

Crys. I miss my great grandma and grandpa....😢😢😢😢

[@liamfraser7041]

🫂❤️

[@4lene]

🫂

[@Litgotti8]

😢😢💔🙏🏻