Navigating Love, S*x & Healing with

[@leahsfieldnotes]

A big thank you to Hitomi for being so supportive of my sleepover series idea! And thank you for spending time to watch this creation🤗 What topics or guests would you like to see in the future?

[@munchmunch7300]

Maybe some meal ideas? Love u:)

[@masterculturedunkerque7918]

Honesty the same guest. This is the perfect video genre and content we all need esp. this year

[@anais1310]

would be awesome to see cup of jasmien and you together !!

[@jeon_artemis]

Hiromi was wonderful and very insightful. I would love Rowena as a guest in the future too.

[@staceykeating775]

ashley aka bestdressed 👀

[@moyamawhinney]

yall don't understand how much we all needed this 😭 thank you leah & hitomiiiiii !!!

[@lancerave]

omg moya i love your videos too- what a crossover hahaha

[@lin-od2vp]

Riightt

[@SaraiPrayer]

Literally!! Im so thankful to be able to have found their videos

[@chubiin20s36]

Omgggg gurl I love your videos too. I wish you were there in this video too

[@natedawg-s3y]

i love your vids moya! hopefully you and hitomi connect in paris xx

[@funerls]

this makes me have hope in finding like minded people, i crave having translucent conversations on degrees like this with someone who’s open and allows themselves to be vulnerable around me, it’s truly a form of intimacy, i love how both of you made it feel so safe to share anything and everything

[@nnnni880]

i feel you sm and i'm sure those people will come into our lives

[@marianaruiz7639]

the longing for soft, intense and pure sisterhood is REAL ✨🥺

[@4ng3lb4t]

Me too girl

[@naomit4954]

i feel you

[@jadeshinu]

Ditto

[@sophie600]

seriouslyy!! the LONGING

[@esmeraldapena6424]

Same

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

I love you so much and I’m so happy we met Leah ♥️🥺✨🕊💭 You are truly such a pure reflection of tenderness and I can’t wait to c uuuu and squeeze uuu again in the future P.S. this editing is soooo goood

[@jordanmills4689]

I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH AND IM SO HAPPY YOU GUYS ARE FRIENDS

[@leahsfieldnotes]

So so grateful for you & the universe for bringing us together 😭💗🫂🌿✨

[@maiaglenney3562]

My favorite youtubers!!

[@katja8559]

i just flippin love you SO much, it's unreal!!!!!

[@sasha_bean]

Ur both such angels

[@amandarachlee]

this video is so beautiful & comforting 🥺 i can’t wait to see future guests in this series!!

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Well I do have this really cute n cool n smrt friend called Amanda 😩

[@amandarachlee]

@@leahsfieldnotes pls i would be honoured

[@ewaratasiewicz1916]

this aged like fine wine!!

[@katetheworld4053]

this video really made me reexamine how I approach relationships. If I ever had someone like Hitomi in my life, I would read her energy as more romantic than platonic. But having a platonic friend that treats you like that is so beautiful. I once had a friend tell me that I give myself to easily to other people and I think that's true. Boundaries are so important. Thank you Leah and Hitomi for helping me come to this conclusion. My love is sacred and I should see myself as such.

[@akechimimi]

do you mean ‘sacred’ ?? i don’t mean this in a spelling freak sort of way, but your comment is so nice and i just want you to get the message across to everyone :’)))

[@katetheworld4053]

ミア - m i a Yes! thank you so much

[@akechimimi]

@@katetheworld4053 no problem!

[@psi_lucid]

I’ve had conversations about love and exchanging sexual energy with some of my partners before. The look of confusion on their faces.. I believe they saw it as some kinky thing I was into. In reality, I wanted it to be more sacred and feel in-tune with their soul/energy but they didn’t speak my language.

[@noname-dw9te]

A lot of people don't believe in these concepts or haven't even heared of them. Imo their reaction shouldn't be too surprising

[@steadyinlove]

I relate to this so much

[@xXWithoutMyHeroesXx]

people think you're so over-invested when you talk like this but it's just the most logical thing to me!

[@flamingaish]

you're very brave for doing that, truly hope you can bond with someone the way you wish to

[@noemi9985]

i couldn't stop smiling TT also hitomi's answer about knowing when ur ready to be in a relationship is also a good way to understand if you should carry on in a relationship. i feel like once we start a relationship we just keep going because of inertia but dont stop to think would i choose to enter in the relationship again, does it continue to meet my initial criteria? does it continue to add to my life and make me feel more free and authentic?

[@AnaS-of8ri]

Same I was smiling the WHOLE time

[@nataliee5236]

You can really see how physically loving Hitomi is in this. She's constantly moving closer to you and trying to connect w you and exist in a space w you. So lovely!

[@juliaworksonstuff]

I love that about her too

[@paullrine]

leah is my safe space, i feel so much better just watching her videos, i love them sm😭

[@eri4481]

same!

[@lunarbeut]

YES

[@ellie6156]

как с тобой можно связаться?

[@gabrielleholt1863]

I had to stop watching this halfway through because of my longterm inability to make and maintain friendships of any kind, especially like this. I don't know why I constantly retreat into such chronic self-isolation and so it hurts so deeply seeing others build platonic connections so effortlessly. This sort of bond and conversation feels completely unattainable for me.

[@johnnib5373]

Thank you for sharing this. I relate so much. But I know it’s not unattainable for you or for me, because things change and our hearts can heal. Sending you so much tenderness and love 💓

[@dingindevin9074]

I too feel like you and honestly at this level I don't know what to do. I feel kind of lost

[@flamingaish]

this is so true

[@carlottau3802]

dear leah, i really appreciate the honesty and the pureness I can feel in this video. It made me really emotional and I am grateful for being part of your feelings. I would really appreciate a trigger warning next time, especially during parts regarding self-harm. It was a bit overwhelming, since I wasn’t really prepared. 💜🥺🍓

[@leahsfieldnotes]

ahhhh I’m sorry about that! I put one before we started reading the poem but I’ll work on making it more visible next time & audible! Thank you for letting me know 🙏

[@Coco-po1yo]

I feel you on the difficulty of knowing your sexuality with all the external influences and pressures. I was sure that I must be straight even though a lot of things didn’t add up and it took being in a relationship for a year and my boyfriend suggesting it for me to realise that I was asexual. Even though people are becoming more open, I think the world still doesn’t really consider the lack of sexual attraction to be a valid thing.

[@winterfall4028]

Same here! I never really understood why none of my relationships surpassed a few months (I’m almost 21), but it was because that is typically when sex is suggested in relationships. I finally found out that I am asexual once I was talking to one of my friends and said, “I’m not sure if I want to have sex because I genuinely want to, or if I feel like I want to because society wants me to.” Usually when I tell people I’m asexual, they look at me with pity or will hint at abuse because the concept of not wanting sex is so foreign, which I can understand but the questions asked are still highly inappropriate.

[@user-pe2yx9kt4e]

I always felt like there were more influences towards the opposite of heterosexuality, to be honest (more a marker of modern times imo). I also think there is a lot of pull towards things being more sexual in nature, when that is not always necessary or right. I am probably more asexual like you, but that doesn’t mean that that is wrong. It doesn’t mean you can’t or don’t want to have children or are avoidant of and not able to be attracted to other human beings, or that you will be less likely to seek out a relationship. I used to think asexual people were like that (maybe there are different types of asexual people... probably... but I guess I just don’t want to paint it or even those individuals I disagree with, with a bad brushstroke anymore... maybe that’s what their aim is, too). Companionship really is important, and I value hugs and snuggles. Just because I value that though, doesn’t mean that there isn’t a time and place for more sexual things. Eh, idk. We can say whatever we want, but it doesn’t necessarily mean we will go through life in that way. I prefer not to think so deeply about it. Just have to try your best to go through life and figure it out as you go. Both things that we want and things that we don’t want (doesn’t necessarily mean those things are even bad... and sometimes even if they are they can build character) will happen. That’s my philosophy I think.

[@user-pe2yx9kt4e]

Maybe I just don’t like painting things in a sexual or asexual light. I just don’t want to think about it that much. I just want to be left alone.

[@user-pe2yx9kt4e]

@@winterfall4028 I think it’s more because you feel pressure from the other person, and that it doesn’t necessarily boil down to society (at least not in full or even majority... I do think that individuals are more important in comparison). It is natural to feel those things and it isn’t necessarily wrong on their part, though I kinda wish waiting till marriage was more of a thing still myself. But it’s cool that you were able to navigate your relationships in that way if you didn’t feel comfortable doing that. A lot of people regret not opting out like that I think. I wish you the best of luck in your future. Just keep at it and eventually you should get closer to something that you want. :) I don’t think long, drawn out relationships are necessary most of the time, and that people tend to steer towards them more out of convenience. It’s better to meet more people. You have a greater chance of finding the right person that way. So yeah, keep at it! Sounds like you are doing the right thing (do what feels right to you though) :)

[@melancholy_joy]

@@winterfall4028 I feel the same way! But if it's any consolation, I've read some reddit posts and comments where people stated they believed they were fully asexual for years....until one person changed their concept of "love" and "attraction". For some people, it just takes the right person to be sexually (or physically) attracted to; the right person to click with. And it doesn't mean that it's only narrowed down to one person. Call it connecting of souls, mind, energy- whatever you would like to call it. I think sexual attraction and the reasons behind one's desire to have sex differs for everyone. You just may discover yours :)) (And if not then that's okay too! Just saying this because I know plenty of people who kept their sexualities open/open for interpretation. We're here to explore, might as well make the most of it ^~^)

[@ald0671]

leah is such a good listener while hitomi is a wonderful storyteller/teacher and you can tell they have such a mature and powerful relationship :) when i saw that you two did a video I was so excited !!

[@dlnandy]

who wouldve thought that a 33-min video would still feel so short!! Gosh, never knew we needed this sleepover with you guys until you did it!! Hope to see more!! Love you leah and hitomi 💗✨

[@mariellenstathopoulos967]

Omg I didn’t even realize it was that long!!

[@eunicepepple1071]

Thought I was the only one feeling this way … it really felt short lol

[@khalilahd.]

You had me at “I thought my tongue was going to fall off” 😂😂The duo I didn’t know I needed. You guys are so funny 😂❤️

[@itsnotkira]

your discussion was so nice to listen to, it felt like i was with friends tbh and reminded me a lot of conversations i would have with my own friends esp being queer. i found some of the convo about "being the man" when being with women to be too reliant on gender norms that can be a reductive way of viewing wlw relations as still heteronormative in a way, being forward and more dominant in a sexual relationship can be feminine energy too. i know you two were just speaking candidly and from experience, but i figured i wanted to contribute to this space too from my experiences! thank you for opening up this dialogue and being so open and vulnerable

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

Thank you so much for this reflection, I feel like there is so much heteronormativity as well as gender norms in our society and much as I try not to perpetuate those paradigms, they can still come out in internalized ways. I think I’m still learning new language to explain how it feels to be in my power when dating other femmes. Grateful to keep learning, I take full accountability that still I don’t get things 100% right all the time. Sending love to your sweet heart ♥️

[@benwrex6280]

@@HitomiMochizuki222 Love the original comment, and love your classy response! Thanks for being open to listening and learning.

[@oilnwater8355]

I am so glad you mentioned this. As a lesbian it made me uneasy hearing that framing of sapphic dynamics and hearing penetrative sex being called more intimate and vulnerable. But I appreciate the conversation and Hitomi's response :)

[@ytuseracct]

In my opinion though if you're straight and don't feel sexually attracted to women then you don't NEED to try to change that. I definitely feel close to women and find women attractive but I don't feel having intimate relationships with them. I think people confuse this admiration and wanting to being friends with sexual attraction these days. If you're straight, there's nothing wrong with that. You were not indoctrinated or anything. Probably a controversial opinion in this channel and target demographic

[@hken423]

I agree, if you have a strong desire to pursue it then by all means ! But not everyone does, they are happy admiring from afar and that’s fine too

[@mbrunnen04]

Yeah I agree, I've had a few "crushes" on girls because I found them pretty and I loved their vibe, but I never really wanted to do anything with them other than just being friends and admiring them (😂), so I consider myself straight

[@luvvreni]

so what if a straight female wants to try or experiment something sexual with another female but wants to date men? does that make them bisexual or are they still straight?

[@ytuseracct]

@@luvvreni there's nothing wrong with that but if you find yourself experimenting because you see other people do it and wonder why you're so vanilla or plain then that's sad because you're thinking something is wrong with you or you're boring when you're not. you just haven't seen the right people yet.

[@luvvreni]

@@ytuseracct thank you for your reply!

[@shriya5618]

I'm not even halfway through this and it's just so comforting and soothing. 💗😤✨

[@leelsbless]

What a refreshing collab! I literally felt like I was listening to you gals in the room. Female friendships are so powerful

[@nananana10001]

at 4:30 i sobbed with you guys. i’ve been struggling with self harm and i’ve never really heard anyone talk about their self harming in any way before and this really hit deep for me. ❤️

[@rafzzuo]

i love how we women have such a big potential of sisterhood i could sit with my girlfriends and talk with hours like this i hope i can experience more of this kind of thing trough my life!!!!

[@Cajafee]

What a synergy of female energy, loved this 💛

[@lifeof_anya1952]

the vulnerability and candidness and love and space being held in this is a work of art, you're both poetry in motion and i thank you for sharing this with us

[@aminaminaXD]

this video came to me at the perfect time. cherishing female friendships above all right now when i’m 20 has proved to me to be the next step in my life. i am claiming this video as a sign to follow that calling. I LOVE FRIENDSHIPS! WOW! THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTIFUL DEPICTION!!!!

[@randomgurrrl441]

i haven't finished the vid yet but i just want to say thank you so much for putting this out for us! the editing in this is amazing, it really feels like a close and personal sleepover which is super comforting and much needed right now 🥺 thank you for this and for everything you do, you continue to inspire me everyday

[@wntprtnd]

the ending scene of you two brushing your teeth together made me feel so nostalgic and safe for some reason. I have an identical twin sister and we always brush our teeth together/sing together and Banana Pancakes is one of the songs we have sung. your friendship is so authentic and pure. i love you both so much❤🥺

[@karlababy]

I love you so much, Leah. You've been in my mind lately and praying that the next coming days will feel better and lighter for you. You inspire me a lot to heal and be a better person. ❤️

[@adyasingh8269]

Both of you are my comfort space on the internet. Thank you for sharing your lives and energies with us. So grateful. Sending love and light!

[@Cooqquu]

I truly wish my late teen-early/twenty year old self had more opportunities to have time like this with people who listen & share ideas.

[@fromsarah]

The energy you guys are radiating is just so wholesome, healing, loving, supporting and I just LOVE it! Definitely going to be my go to comfort video,, also I love how you guys are open to discovering different sexualities and exploring these topics with your friends!! Keep up the good work on your videos and sending hugs, kisses and love to u

[@SamFournier]

Ughhh, this video brought me so much joy. My husband walked in and asked me why I’m smiling so much. It brought tears to my eyes because I could feel the love through the screen. I hope to find a connection with friends like this one day💕

[@munchmunch7300]

Living for these consistent videos! Leah i can tell you’re putting so much effort into these, and I appreciate it❤️

[@lithiumapple]

i understand the idea of social pressures being put in place to make it hard for you to see yourself with women, but also for a lot of people, if you don't see yourself with a woman it probably means you don't want it. obviously women's perceptions of their own sexualities can be very warped, especially when considering the male gaze and compulsory heterosexuality, but if you have to think really hard about letting yourself be with women, maybe it's not what's best for you. i'm not saying it has to feel 100% natural to be real, but also don't try to force yourself to be more "open" than you want to be. truly being "open" is more about doing what your heart desires rather than doing what you think is adventurous or new. coming from a lesbian, being straight (or mostly straight) is totally fine and identifying as such certainly is too (not saying you are!!!!!!! its just that a lot of people think that IDing as straight means they are not "open")

[@steadyinlove]

I was thinking this. I’m a lesbian and I find it hard to relate to certain bisexuals that I hear speak that way. while I do have my own internalized homophobia I can clearly picture myself with a woman in the long term.

[@Elsabet]

@@steadyinlove Thank you for this comment! I absolutely loved this video and follow Hitomi's content (big love!) but it made me feel uneasy hearing her say this about long-term relationships with females. Especially as she is someone who often validates and speaks on queer experiences. I completely understand she is speaking from her own perspective but as the LGBTQIA+ experience is often already overly sexualised by our heteronormative society, it felt demeaning to hear her make this comment so sparingly.

[@krisjoy5069]

holyyyy im sorry im sure this is a sweet video but the beginning was a little too triggering for me to continue. a tw would be much appreciated next time! anyone have a timestamp where they stop talking about self harm and r*pe?

[@AnaS-of8ri]

I literally was smiling everytime and whenever i caught myself smiling it grew bigger lmao I love you guys. You're such an inspiration and I call these type of female friendships into my life! Also, I have a gemini sun in my growing friendgroup and she's the best. I love geminis (I'm a libra sun and scorpio moon

[@__PLUMFAIRY]

that's soooo sweet i've never gone to a sleepover, thank you for invating all of us!! it surely thought me a lot and made my heart warm

[@jordynpinochi1394]

can y’all start a podcast this was so healing and full of love ❤️

[@claire4654]

i just can't believe my 2 favorite women in yt where i find comfort in their videos are united and having such a great conversation. i also want to be surrounded with people who are just so open and supportive to each other. i love you both so much 😭

[@selenathompson9329]

Literally my two faveourite people coming together to open their hearts to one another is the most beautiful thing. The willingness you both have to listen to one another, actively support and lift each other up is so inspiring. It reminds me how lucky I am to have female friendships and also how I want to be more open about sexuality and liberate myself and others. Thank you both for bringing such wholesome safe content to the internet, fricken lurve u guys

[@annagtt3197]

i'm crying and so happy, their energy and conversations are literally healing me on so many ways. thank you thank you thank you. lots and lots of love for you two

[@currentmood__]

felt a bit like I was an actual part of this sleepover! So amazing how honest and deep you talked and let us be a part of it!

[@imogengreenwood6214]

it's the first day of my cycle and this was the most beautiful thing to witness on this day of all days to deeper connect myself with the divine feminine energies of this world

[@morgan3804]

Hi Leah! I love this video dearly BUT i do feel like there needs to be trigger warnings for some of the things you guys talk about cuz they are SUPER HEAVY and some people might not be prepared for how in detail you guys talk about these things So much love to you both and thank you so much for sharing your journeys 🥰

[@phosphenevision]

Yea I was a bit taken back because by the title I didn't expect so much trauma right at the start of the video 🙃 specially since leah's videos never really go there (not that I'm judging them but as someone w similar experiences its jarring )

[@dianalove539]

There's been studies showing how TW are actually harmful. With PTSD therapy the main thing people DO is confront triggers, you shouldn't hide behind your triggers, and try to challenge yourself. You are not your trauma either.

[@phosphenevision]

@@dianalove539 trigger warnings aren't just for avoiding triggers but preparing for them, people trying to relax or have a bad day are not ready to confront their trauma, doesn't mean they never do

[@dianalove539]

@@phosphenevision Regardless of that, being told you might be triggered is triggering in itself. Like you say, it is preparing you TO BE TRIGGERED when you see a trigger warning! And that can be worse than just having an unexpected "trigger" because you then (w/o the tw) you wouldn't have that high mode response on, until after watching it, and by then, you've already conquered your trigger which aids in your growth. But I guess I get what you mean. Sometimes you just dont want to hear or see shit, and with a tw it gives you a better opportunity to click out and leave.

[@phosphenevision]

@@dianalove539 IMO it really doesn’t make me triggered to see a trigger warning it’s not how that works, it just takes the surprise factor if it, being surprised with potentially triggering content for me it’s what spikes my adrenaline and anxiety, if I have a warning it’s gonna be there I can pause, breathe, and decide if I’m in the mood to watch the content still. Idk if you know what’s it’s like to wanna chill and have a panic attack, have multiple panic attacks a week, it’s not fun, you don’t have the energy to do daily life things, of course it’s important to face your trauma but everything has it’s time, you don’t face your trauma when it’s fresh… some % definitely have very fresh trauma and just want a comfortable space to forget it, they’re definitely not like going into true crime shows expecting not to see traumatic stuff, but when it’s in places you don’t expect it can make stuff worse for someone that’s in a bad place.

[@velyvely6479]

it's been so long since i've been able to have a heart to hear / deep convo with my girlfriends and this was such a nice reminder and at the same time made me miss my besties! thank you for being open and allowing us to watch! what a great idea :)

[@sarah24888]

This video got me on such a more positive and healthier way of looking at my break up that happened 5 days ago. I’ve been in such a depressive slump since but today’s the first time I left the house so thank you x

[@beetlerent5147]

It's so hard to find people who truly understand you and who can really be a safe place. To feel comfortable enough and trust someone enough to be able to be your most authentic self is a blessing. I feel gratitude for my relationships but I also tend to feel a longing for deep love, compassion, growth and sisterhood.

[@kalliniki_]

i love how you are sharing your experiences and trauma and sharing this with us.. all throughout the video i felt like i was there with you..

[@babyfrog1596]

i'm sorry but all the talk about feminine energy, masculine energy, the divine penetration etc. felt super cisheteronotmative and sexist spiritualism shouldn't be the rebranded bigotry

[@alexhackett8023]

When Leah spoke about the thought of kissing girls being really nerve racking and not initiating things, I could totally relate! I think it's more intimidating because girls are so soft and pretty and usually men in general from my experience are more bold about initiating and whether or not they are into you. I remember knowing my fiancee was going to kiss me for the first time and I was so, so nervous. When we actually kissed it was one of the best kisses, if not the best kiss of my life. I only used to be able to hook up with girls when I was drunk because of this but now I've been with a woman for a long time, it's the most natural and just amazing thing in the world, I still get butterflies and nerves all the time but more in an excited way. I also agree with what Hitomi was saying about being more in touch with her masculine side when with a woman. I think I also take on a way more caring role like I wanna run my girl a bath and spoil her rotten whereas with guys I never felt like that

[@kloodledoodle]

definitely enjoyed every second of this and i was really laughing through and learning as well. didn't even realize it was 33 minutes long!

[@userhaslearned]

Omg I already love this video!! It's so soothing thank you so much for such heartfelt content Leah! I feel like I've learned so much listening to you two ! I hope you have a nice day 💕 big hugs 😘

[@eileenbnguyen]

this is the series we needed!! Feels like a whole girl talk session so comforting

[@lydiaalacio1239]

I’ve been struggling lately with opening up to my friends just like you both do in this video but it felt so good watching you discuss all these interesting topics that I now feel more encouraged to reach out and trust the people I love. I adore you two really

[@geaninette5592]

I just love this woman energy and the sisterhood! So beautiful!

[@estybesty]

are you kidding me?! i love and found you both seperately, so to see you have found your way to each other is beautiful.

[@VictoriaSajland]

this sleepover series idea is the best!! cant wait to see more!

[@loliklola157]

I love this please keep making more vids together

[@rebeluluhipe]

omg there's so many people I would love to see you make these videos with, Amy Lee from amyvagabond, madelynn de la rosa, her bff christinnne, and if you ever go to australia lol my fav Nina Montagne. and obvi Radhi Devlukia. I love this series though and am so excited to see what wonders you continue to enchant into! I hope one day to meet your soul!

[@34riyarose67]

Am I the only one who enjoys watching content on slow living, spiritual journeys and people enjoying yoga, meditation and journaling but when I go to try it myself I just can't get into it or even understand the importance nor do I feel anything. I've tried to settle down and try what people are doing but it just doesn't do anything to me. Am I like dead from inside or something

[@sewingscissors1625]

Nothing wrong at all. I’m more practical with stuff like this too. Might just be your personality. There are so many ways we can enrich our lives

[@arelysjournal]

recognizing your own comphet is such an enlightening experience :))

[@allegorybyvuyo]

This is what I imagine Princess Bubblegum and Marcelene's friendship looks like.

[@KelsieRose.]

I feel like I’m having a conversation with my best friends I never knew I had.

[@ivanas442]

This was such a lovely video, as someone who is in their late 20's w/ no experience It was nice to hear your perspective on relationships, sexuality & sharing your sexual energy w/ partners.

[@crisstinaw]

“your spirit knows that sharing you energy like that is way to secret” OMG

[@Kiyoooooo]

I love hitomi 😂 “have you hooked up w any girls?👁👁”

[@iamtetemusic]

This is so good. I watch you and Hitomi individually and seeing you both grow your friendship together is so healing and such a beautiful thing to watch! Also this feels like a podcast and I love it.

[@still5853]

the feminine energy we all severely needed

[@jackieeg]

Hitomi has ignored all of my comments about her cuba videos. She needs to educate herself on the reality lived by cubans in cuba and not promote an idealized tourist attraction. Do you know that cuban sex workers are known as the cheapest in the world?! Thats why you need to private those videos and educate yourself on the real cuba lived by cubans.

[@buzzfeedhater]

I don't know Hitomi, what did she do wrong!

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

Hey I’m just seeing this now. I probably wasn’t seeing those comments since those videos are few years old and my app wasn’t showing any new comments for them. Will happily private the!

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

Just privated all them. Thank you for bringing this to my attention. If the video had some education on their actual lived reality it would have been one thing, but I see how the glorified travel vlogs could be dangerous

[@jackieeg]

@@HitomiMochizuki222 thank you. Castro was famously anti homosexuality and literally placed anyone suspected into prison/work camps for being gay in Cuba. Really felt a pang when you told your story about finding acceptance there. Read Reinaldo Arenas he was an openly gay cuban poet who died in NYC and wrote about his exile. 💚

[@aob6033]

This is such a sweet video. But I am so looking forward to a day when we can move away from these ideas of "masculine/feminine" energy. They just reinforce harmful gender stereotypes. It's frustrating to see people with wonderfully open and expansive minds reverting to these types of binaries. It's so limiting to us all.

[@bangersareforever480]

I disagree that being forward is a masculine trait

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

Same here 😩 I definitely misspoke for lack of better words

[@bangersareforever480]

@@HitomiMochizuki222 i get it, no worries. As a "man" I find it hard myself to think of masculine traits that aren't just some old toxic/patriarchal stuff

[@jeon_artemis]

Thank you both to Leah and Hiromi. It felt like I was a part of the sleepover too. And all the discussion were so enlightening. It helped me learn a bit about myself as well. All the best to both of you for your future life journey.

[@steadyinlove]

I lost my virginity at the age of 13 from someone who was very emotionally dangerous and looking back I never realized that that was around the time I started self harming. thank you for helping me put those pieces together💗

[@leventseleve8365]

Okay my two favorites KZbinrs in one video of thirty minutes I’m gonna cry. This Is already Christmas. I had a really shitty day yesterday so thank you for that

[@laiainautumn-1252]

Hope today is nice, sorry yesterday wasn’t ❤️

[@stephh2903]

my HEARTT aahhh this video is everything i needed and more, like hanging out with my 2 big sisters, been watching hitomi for years and you guys together are so comforting! i adore you both

[@auridenna]

Hey, there should be a trigger warning in this video that goes beyond “trauma” and says physical abuse and self harm 😔 tws are really important

[@littlelizzzard]

Seeing you two find each other has made me sooo happy 🥰 I really feel like I'm growing with you guys, I've recently really gone through some low moments and feeling so lost, and I cannot express how grateful I am for having you two as a sort of guidance (no pressure) but also just as a sort of comfort. I really love your energy and maybe feel like if we'd be in another timeline and I didn't live in Belgium we'd maybe could've been friends. I am also doing a lot better now and am really looking forward to grow and learn and be happy and really learn to put up boundaries. Sorry if this was lengthy, I know you get a lot of these. But thank you both for being here for all of us and for spreading the good vibes! much love ♥♥

[@pixiee3131]

Whatever your condition is, I hope you always stay happy and healthy... Loads of love Leah (●´з`)♡

[@emilymagda8718]

literally such a healing experience this video was !! ✨🌷💌 im having a sleepover with my best friend tomorrow night, and i know it's going to be just as vulnerable and sacred and divine as this

[@PsycheAi]

I wish I can have that mindset like Hitomi did when all her “friends” left her life after she told them she was celibate. When I came out as asexual to one of my friends (well-ex who was hoping we would get back together), they just left and I felt like a failure because I couldn’t keep them.

[@suekam785]

is it ok that I’m shipping Leah and Hitomi now 😳👁👄👁

[@honeyalba880]

Guys, I love this sleepover talk, but it really gets me thinking about my own sexuality...like I'm hardly ever horny. I don't know what that feels like. I was wondering whether I was asexual for my entire life, yet, I don't want to be asexual. I would love to have a real romantic relationship with intimacy. I'm usually very anxious and tense and I'm disassociating a lot while engaging in sexual intimacy, or while kissing sometimes. I feel disconnected from my female energy. I'm currently working on that stuff, trying to build up confidence and trust in myself. Thanks for introducing Hitomi to us here.

[@luvkav9559]

hey Leah love you girl, I just wanted to ask if before the video... you could put a bit of a trigger warning just for topics like self harm depression etc...

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Yes definitely!! Really appreciate you for pointing it out bc I added one before we started talking about it but I now realize that’s it’s not prominent enough so I’ll move it to the very very beginning of the video next time and make it audible too. Apologies to everyone for my shortcoming on this one 😭

[@sippycuppe]

Honestly the self harm and the virginity portion really hit close to home. I lost my virginity at a very young age, basically on the cusp of 13 years old and it was with a guy who completely destroyed who I was. I was self harming in the 4th grade before that because I was already struggling with self worth and identity (I wanted to be a boy) and after that experience, I just kept tumbling downward from there on. And to this day, I’m now 17 (almost 18) and I’m still fluctuating and confused about who I am, desperately trying to heal and feel better. But I’m so happy that I found this video, I feel like more people need to be open about these experiences because for so long, I felt completely alone and like nobody understood what I was going through. So this definitely helps a lot.

[@TaneeshaMonique]

You don't know you need to hear something until it's said. Feeling all sorts of ways after this, this is already such a beautiful series ❤

[@infjuicy7347]

god this was so nice to witness, there are so many things I relate to regarding relationships and sexuality which I was feeling kinda guilty for, but knowing that other people experience the same things makes me feel so safe

[@Plasma1iTV]

I am so happy you guys finally met and had the chance to have these wonderful talks

[@YazzyPazzyJazzy]

Hey i hate to do this but you NEED to put a trigger warning on videos like this esp if youre going into such intimate details, i had to stop watching/listening bc im a ca surviver and have c-ptsd and this was too much for me i feel so anxious and unsettled, i had no idea this video would be going into such details. You have a right to upload what you want but you absolutely must warn people of what is coming ahead, and be specific about it instead of simply writing "trigger warning" as if youre covering a basis by doing the bare minimum. edit: also, it was very troubling to hear hitomi refering to herself as the "man", seems she has a rather limited viewpoint.

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

Hey there, Making a point to address this as I literally rolled my eyes hearing myself say that. I loathe how heteronormativity and gender norms are internalized within me and I definitely need to spend more time actively undoing these paradigms. What I meant was that I feel empowered in an unspoken way that I don’t feel when under the male gaze or in male relations. It just came out in a very brash way Also totally hear you on the trigger warning, we both forgot the camera was rolling so many times. I’m proud of you for everything you’ve lived through ♥️ thank you for your strength

[@YazzyPazzyJazzy]

@@HitomiMochizuki222 Hi Hitomi, thank you for replying I really appreciate you taking the time to address the issues i brought up, and for you kind words. I apologise for being a bit harsh, was a bit worked up while writing my comment and have since calmed down so I can actually think rationally lol so I definitely understand how you can say something in the moment and it doesnt necessarily reflect your thoughts and values, esp when you hear or see what you said later (if that makes sense?). I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions about your mindset, that was pretty small-minded of me tbh. And yep its totally fine to talk about whatever you want in the video, just as long as theres some warning beforehand. I think you and Leah are very brave for being so open, I hope one day I can heal enough to be more like that too.

[@SimplySami13]

i totally agree w hitomi about penetrative sex w a man i feel so vulnerable and it hurts even with my bf of 5 years i miss being with women so much because of the intimacy and feeling more like myself and with guys it’s the opposite lol

[@ceydamoco3932]

I really liked this. It feels very unfiltered and genuine--no music, no random cuts or transitions. It felt as if i was really there.

[@nataliefields9009]

wow. the importance of feeling SAFE. for creativity, for intimacy, for not feeling shame because I honored my body.

[@uhzel]

i just started watching and i already love this series >.

[@morganam4099]

The collab we didnt know we needed 💞💖

[@morganam4099]

@@レナチャン-q3g wtf

[@heatherlatina]

it feels like i’m chatting with 2 of my best girlfriends PLS

[@mdsn729]

related so much to Hitomi's perspective on masculine energy, hearing you both talk about this was so eye opening to my own feelings that i didn't really understand.

[@Mkayscales]

I miss having a in person friend

[@boy_topics]

I loooOOOvveeeee these queer explorations. my own queer journey is similar to yours, Leah. It was often about the attention from boys, the game of it all, more than actually being attracted to them. Then I has 1 crush on a girl and was awakened.

[@blue______]

I'm so in love with your friendship, I felt like I was with you at the sleepover and I wanted to limit my things hahaha. I love to see how not only in conversation they get deeper and get to know each other more, but they also physically approach and hug or hold hands. I love that energy and that affection that they transmit to each other. I aspire to have what you have with another woman. I don't have female friends and it is very difficult for me to socialize but in the past I had them and I know they are of the best energies

[@777q]

i want to have this with my friends. just to let all your feelings out. for the 5 part(?) i figured out my sexuality during covid. i was first came out as bisexual in late 2020 and i was 11. i’m almost 13(i feel like i just exposed my whole life right here) and i came out as lesbian at 12. people sometimes say your to young and shit but i really could care less. i am who i am, i don’t care about what people really think of my sexuality cause they suck. and it’s almost my birthday and now i’m a lesbian enby who is proud of who i am :] (i go by he/she/they)

[@777q]

@Kerttu honestly when i first came out i didn’t really think about it but when i came out as lesbian people started to say “you’re to young” and shit like that. i hate those types of people cause that just gonna make people feel even worse about being who they are. i know that some of my younger cousins 10 or so have also came out as bisexual and other sexuality’s. i’m proud of them for not be discourage by these homophobic people who put the LGBTQ+ down. you don’t don’t have to come out right now, you can do it whenever you want and if people in your life judge you ignore them. You are who you are and no one can stop you. I hope you feel more confident soon :] come out whenever you feel comfortable! no need to rush

[@laiainautumn-1252]

Felt thisss. I’m a bit older than you but ppl told me the same thing or thought I was doing it as a trend lol

[@kaihatcher2032]

Well I just want to add that you’re not too young at all. If people would like to actually think about things, you hit puberty around this age which is the time when you start to develop attraction. It’s natural for straight young teens to start developing an interest in each other and parents think it’s cute but they don’t keep the same energy or logic that attraction is anything and it precisely starts at around this age. So really you’re right in time :)

[@pagethreemodel]

How are you a lesbian and nb at the same time? This is so sad. Please stay off the internet.

[@kiarabraum341]

You are very young, you are learning how to live. I believe in you, don't be too stressed about it all. Everything will be okay