Navigating Love, S*x & Healing with

[@leahsfieldnotes]

A big thank you to Hitomi for being so supportive of my sleepover series idea! And thank you for spending time to watch this creation🤗 What topics or guests would you like to see in the future?

[@munchmunch7300]

Maybe some meal ideas? Love u:)

[@masterculturedunkerque7918]

Honesty the same guest. This is the perfect video genre and content we all need esp. this year

[@anais1310]

would be awesome to see cup of jasmien and you together !!

[@jeon_artemis]

Hiromi was wonderful and very insightful. I would love Rowena as a guest in the future too.

[@staceykeating775]

ashley aka bestdressed 👀

[@moyamawhinney]

yall don't understand how much we all needed this 😭 thank you leah & hitomiiiiii !!!

[@lancerave]

omg moya i love your videos too- what a crossover hahaha

[@lin-od2vp]

Riightt

[@SaraiPrayer]

Literally!! Im so thankful to be able to have found their videos

[@chubiin20s]

Omgggg gurl I love your videos too. I wish you were there in this video too

[@natedawg-s3y]

i love your vids moya! hopefully you and hitomi connect in paris xx

[@marianaruiz7639]

the longing for soft, intense and pure sisterhood is REAL ✨🥺

[@4ng3lbat]

Me too girl

[@naomit4954]

i feel you

[@jadeshinu]

Ditto

[@sophie600]

seriouslyy!! the LONGING

[@esmeraldapena6424]

Same

[@funerls]

this makes me have hope in finding like minded people, i crave having translucent conversations on degrees like this with someone who’s open and allows themselves to be vulnerable around me, it’s truly a form of intimacy, i love how both of you made it feel so safe to share anything and everything

[@nnnni880]

i feel you sm and i'm sure those people will come into our lives

[@nataliee5236]

You can really see how physically loving Hitomi is in this. She's constantly moving closer to you and trying to connect w you and exist in a space w you. So lovely!

[@juliaworksonstuff]

I love that about her too

[@amandarachlee]

this video is so beautiful & comforting 🥺 i can’t wait to see future guests in this series!!

[@leahsfieldnotes]

Well I do have this really cute n cool n smrt friend called Amanda 😩

[@amandarachlee]

@@leahsfieldnotes pls i would be honoured

[@ewaratasiewicz1916]

this aged like fine wine!!

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

I love you so much and I’m so happy we met Leah ♥️🥺✨🕊💭 You are truly such a pure reflection of tenderness and I can’t wait to c uuuu and squeeze uuu again in the future P.S. this editing is soooo goood

[@jordanmills4689]

I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH AND IM SO HAPPY YOU GUYS ARE FRIENDS

[@leahsfieldnotes]

So so grateful for you & the universe for bringing us together 😭💗🫂🌿✨

[@maiaglenney3562]

My favorite youtubers!!

[@katja8559]

i just flippin love you SO much, it's unreal!!!!!

[@sasha_bean]

Ur both such angels

[@katetheworld4053]

this video really made me reexamine how I approach relationships. If I ever had someone like Hitomi in my life, I would read her energy as more romantic than platonic. But having a platonic friend that treats you like that is so beautiful. I once had a friend tell me that I give myself to easily to other people and I think that's true. Boundaries are so important. Thank you Leah and Hitomi for helping me come to this conclusion. My love is sacred and I should see myself as such.

[@akechimimi]

do you mean ‘sacred’ ?? i don’t mean this in a spelling freak sort of way, but your comment is so nice and i just want you to get the message across to everyone :’)))

[@katetheworld4053]

ミア - m i a Yes! thank you so much

[@akechimimi]

@@katetheworld4053 no problem!

[@noemi9985]

i couldn't stop smiling TT also hitomi's answer about knowing when ur ready to be in a relationship is also a good way to understand if you should carry on in a relationship. i feel like once we start a relationship we just keep going because of inertia but dont stop to think would i choose to enter in the relationship again, does it continue to meet my initial criteria? does it continue to add to my life and make me feel more free and authentic?

[@AnaS-of8ri]

Same I was smiling the WHOLE time

[@psi_lucid]

I’ve had conversations about love and exchanging sexual energy with some of my partners before. The look of confusion on their faces.. I believe they saw it as some kinky thing I was into. In reality, I wanted it to be more sacred and feel in-tune with their soul/energy but they didn’t speak my language.

[@noname-dw9te]

A lot of people don't believe in these concepts or haven't even heared of them. Imo their reaction shouldn't be too surprising

[@steadyinlove]

I relate to this so much

[@xXWithoutMyHeroesXx]

people think you're so over-invested when you talk like this but it's just the most logical thing to me!

[@flamingaish]

you're very brave for doing that, truly hope you can bond with someone the way you wish to

[@paullrine]

leah is my safe space, i feel so much better just watching her videos, i love them sm😭

[@eri4481]

same!

[@lunarbeut]

YES

[@ellie6156]

как с тобой можно связаться?

[@itsnotkira]

your discussion was so nice to listen to, it felt like i was with friends tbh and reminded me a lot of conversations i would have with my own friends esp being queer. i found some of the convo about "being the man" when being with women to be too reliant on gender norms that can be a reductive way of viewing wlw relations as still heteronormative in a way, being forward and more dominant in a sexual relationship can be feminine energy too. i know you two were just speaking candidly and from experience, but i figured i wanted to contribute to this space too from my experiences! thank you for opening up this dialogue and being so open and vulnerable

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

Thank you so much for this reflection, I feel like there is so much heteronormativity as well as gender norms in our society and much as I try not to perpetuate those paradigms, they can still come out in internalized ways. I think I’m still learning new language to explain how it feels to be in my power when dating other femmes. Grateful to keep learning, I take full accountability that still I don’t get things 100% right all the time. Sending love to your sweet heart ♥️

[@benwrex6280]

@@HitomiMochizuki222 Love the original comment, and love your classy response! Thanks for being open to listening and learning.

[@oilnwater8355]

I am so glad you mentioned this. As a lesbian it made me uneasy hearing that framing of sapphic dynamics and hearing penetrative sex being called more intimate and vulnerable. But I appreciate the conversation and Hitomi's response :)

[@ald0671]

leah is such a good listener while hitomi is a wonderful storyteller/teacher and you can tell they have such a mature and powerful relationship :) when i saw that you two did a video I was so excited !!

[@gabrielleholt1863]

I had to stop watching this halfway through because of my longterm inability to make and maintain friendships of any kind, especially like this. I don't know why I constantly retreat into such chronic self-isolation and so it hurts so deeply seeing others build platonic connections so effortlessly. This sort of bond and conversation feels completely unattainable for me.

[@johnnib5373]

Thank you for sharing this. I relate so much. But I know it’s not unattainable for you or for me, because things change and our hearts can heal. Sending you so much tenderness and love 💓

[@dingindevin9074]

I too feel like you and honestly at this level I don't know what to do. I feel kind of lost

[@flamingaish]

this is so true

[@carlottau3802]

dear leah, i really appreciate the honesty and the pureness I can feel in this video. It made me really emotional and I am grateful for being part of your feelings. I would really appreciate a trigger warning next time, especially during parts regarding self-harm. It was a bit overwhelming, since I wasn’t really prepared. 💜🥺🍓

[@leahsfieldnotes]

ahhhh I’m sorry about that! I put one before we started reading the poem but I’ll work on making it more visible next time & audible! Thank you for letting me know 🙏

[@nananana10001]

at 4:30 i sobbed with you guys. i’ve been struggling with self harm and i’ve never really heard anyone talk about their self harming in any way before and this really hit deep for me. ❤️

[@dlnandy]

who wouldve thought that a 33-min video would still feel so short!! Gosh, never knew we needed this sleepover with you guys until you did it!! Hope to see more!! Love you leah and hitomi 💗✨

[@mariellenstathopoulos967]

Omg I didn’t even realize it was that long!!

[@eunicepepple1071]

Thought I was the only one feeling this way … it really felt short lol

[@leelsbless]

What a refreshing collab! I literally felt like I was listening to you gals in the room. Female friendships are so powerful

[@aminaminaXD]

this video came to me at the perfect time. cherishing female friendships above all right now when i’m 20 has proved to me to be the next step in my life. i am claiming this video as a sign to follow that calling. I LOVE FRIENDSHIPS! WOW! THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTIFUL DEPICTION!!!!

[@wntprtnd]

the ending scene of you two brushing your teeth together made me feel so nostalgic and safe for some reason. I have an identical twin sister and we always brush our teeth together/sing together and Banana Pancakes is one of the songs we have sung. your friendship is so authentic and pure. i love you both so much❤🥺

[@khalilahd.]

You had me at “I thought my tongue was going to fall off” 😂😂The duo I didn’t know I needed. You guys are so funny 😂❤️

[@shriya5618]

I'm not even halfway through this and it's just so comforting and soothing. 💗😤✨

[@lifeof_anya1952]

the vulnerability and candidness and love and space being held in this is a work of art, you're both poetry in motion and i thank you for sharing this with us

[@beetlerent5147]

It's so hard to find people who truly understand you and who can really be a safe place. To feel comfortable enough and trust someone enough to be able to be your most authentic self is a blessing. I feel gratitude for my relationships but I also tend to feel a longing for deep love, compassion, growth and sisterhood.

[@SamFournier]

Ughhh, this video brought me so much joy. My husband walked in and asked me why I’m smiling so much. It brought tears to my eyes because I could feel the love through the screen. I hope to find a connection with friends like this one day💕

[@Cajafee]

What a synergy of female energy, loved this 💛

[@Cooqquu]

I truly wish my late teen-early/twenty year old self had more opportunities to have time like this with people who listen & share ideas.

[@adyasingh8269]

Both of you are my comfort space on the internet. Thank you for sharing your lives and energies with us. So grateful. Sending love and light!

[@randomgurrrl441]

i haven't finished the vid yet but i just want to say thank you so much for putting this out for us! the editing in this is amazing, it really feels like a close and personal sleepover which is super comforting and much needed right now 🥺 thank you for this and for everything you do, you continue to inspire me everyday

[@imogengreenwood6214]

it's the first day of my cycle and this was the most beautiful thing to witness on this day of all days to deeper connect myself with the divine feminine energies of this world

[@selenathompson9329]

Literally my two faveourite people coming together to open their hearts to one another is the most beautiful thing. The willingness you both have to listen to one another, actively support and lift each other up is so inspiring. It reminds me how lucky I am to have female friendships and also how I want to be more open about sexuality and liberate myself and others. Thank you both for bringing such wholesome safe content to the internet, fricken lurve u guys

[@claire4654]

i just can't believe my 2 favorite women in yt where i find comfort in their videos are united and having such a great conversation. i also want to be surrounded with people who are just so open and supportive to each other. i love you both so much 😭

[@currentmood__]

felt a bit like I was an actual part of this sleepover! So amazing how honest and deep you talked and let us be a part of it!

[@estybesty]

are you kidding me?! i love and found you both seperately, so to see you have found your way to each other is beautiful.

[@nataliefields9009]

wow. the importance of feeling SAFE. for creativity, for intimacy, for not feeling shame because I honored my body.

[@__PLUMFAIRY]

that's soooo sweet i've never gone to a sleepover, thank you for invating all of us!! it surely thought me a lot and made my heart warm

[@alexhackett8023]

When Leah spoke about the thought of kissing girls being really nerve racking and not initiating things, I could totally relate! I think it's more intimidating because girls are so soft and pretty and usually men in general from my experience are more bold about initiating and whether or not they are into you. I remember knowing my fiancee was going to kiss me for the first time and I was so, so nervous. When we actually kissed it was one of the best kisses, if not the best kiss of my life. I only used to be able to hook up with girls when I was drunk because of this but now I've been with a woman for a long time, it's the most natural and just amazing thing in the world, I still get butterflies and nerves all the time but more in an excited way. I also agree with what Hitomi was saying about being more in touch with her masculine side when with a woman. I think I also take on a way more caring role like I wanna run my girl a bath and spoil her rotten whereas with guys I never felt like that

[@fromsarah]

The energy you guys are radiating is just so wholesome, healing, loving, supporting and I just LOVE it! Definitely going to be my go to comfort video,, also I love how you guys are open to discovering different sexualities and exploring these topics with your friends!! Keep up the good work on your videos and sending hugs, kisses and love to u

[@annagtt3197]

i'm crying and so happy, their energy and conversations are literally healing me on so many ways. thank you thank you thank you. lots and lots of love for you two

[@karlababy]

I love you so much, Leah. You've been in my mind lately and praying that the next coming days will feel better and lighter for you. You inspire me a lot to heal and be a better person. ❤️

[@eileenbnguyen]

this is the series we needed!! Feels like a whole girl talk session so comforting

[@sarah24888]

This video got me on such a more positive and healthier way of looking at my break up that happened 5 days ago. I’ve been in such a depressive slump since but today’s the first time I left the house so thank you x

[@geaninette5592]

I just love this woman energy and the sisterhood! So beautiful!

[@ceydamoco3932]

I really liked this. It feels very unfiltered and genuine--no music, no random cuts or transitions. It felt as if i was really there.

[@belladonnabelle]

seeing how connected these two are makes me think of some people that randomly came into my life recently...and they were sorta ppl u meet for the first time and it feels like ur energies were already connected. gosh I love seeing that on here! thank you for this lovely video

[@lydiaalacio1239]

I’ve been struggling lately with opening up to my friends just like you both do in this video but it felt so good watching you discuss all these interesting topics that I now feel more encouraged to reach out and trust the people I love. I adore you two really

[@velyvely6479]

it's been so long since i've been able to have a heart to hear / deep convo with my girlfriends and this was such a nice reminder and at the same time made me miss my besties! thank you for being open and allowing us to watch! what a great idea :)

[@jordynpinochi1394]

can y’all start a podcast this was so healing and full of love ❤️

[@ivanas442]

This was such a lovely video, as someone who is in their late 20's w/ no experience It was nice to hear your perspective on relationships, sexuality & sharing your sexual energy w/ partners.

[@deirdre4357]

I love how vulnerable you two are in this video. I have an unfortunate experience of an abusive relationship with a man much older than me when I was freshly an adult. He used to sexualize me in ways I didn't even think of before. I still struggle with sexual identity and feeling constantly like I am under "the male gaze." It's feels so comforting and safe to hear women, and especially queer women, share their history with their identity because it is so unmatched to the heterosexual relationships we see in media. Thank you for sharing this, as it's opened me up to a personal conversation on how I view and love myself and others.

[@munchmunch7300]

Living for these consistent videos! Leah i can tell you’re putting so much effort into these, and I appreciate it❤️

[@kalliniki_]

i love how you are sharing your experiences and trauma and sharing this with us.. all throughout the video i felt like i was there with you..

[@littlelizzzard]

Seeing you two find each other has made me sooo happy 🥰 I really feel like I'm growing with you guys, I've recently really gone through some low moments and feeling so lost, and I cannot express how grateful I am for having you two as a sort of guidance (no pressure) but also just as a sort of comfort. I really love your energy and maybe feel like if we'd be in another timeline and I didn't live in Belgium we'd maybe could've been friends. I am also doing a lot better now and am really looking forward to grow and learn and be happy and really learn to put up boundaries. Sorry if this was lengthy, I know you get a lot of these. But thank you both for being here for all of us and for spreading the good vibes! much love ♥♥

[@emilymagda8718]

literally such a healing experience this video was !! ✨🌷💌 im having a sleepover with my best friend tomorrow night, and i know it's going to be just as vulnerable and sacred and divine as this

[@leventseleve8365]

Okay my two favorites KZbinrs in one video of thirty minutes I’m gonna cry. This Is already Christmas. I had a really shitty day yesterday so thank you for that

[@laiainautumn-1252]

Hope today is nice, sorry yesterday wasn’t ❤️

[@iamtetemusic]

This is so good. I watch you and Hitomi individually and seeing you both grow your friendship together is so healing and such a beautiful thing to watch! Also this feels like a podcast and I love it.

[@kloodledoodle]

definitely enjoyed every second of this and i was really laughing through and learning as well. didn't even realize it was 33 minutes long!

[@jeon_artemis]

Thank you both to Leah and Hiromi. It felt like I was a part of the sleepover too. And all the discussion were so enlightening. It helped me learn a bit about myself as well. All the best to both of you for your future life journey.

[@KatinkaWallner]

Honestly, this video was Soo healing to me! I realise now that it is because no ego was involved. No one trying to overtalk the other, no one trying to cut off the other one as you were speaking. Both listening deeply to the other one, sharing hearts and being totally open and vulnerable with each other. Wow! That is what friendship should look like. Thank you for showing the way and for the deep healing. I can feel it in my chest!!💕💕💕

[@VictoriaSajland]

this sleepover series idea is the best!! cant wait to see more!

[@sippycuppe]

Honestly the self harm and the virginity portion really hit close to home. I lost my virginity at a very young age, basically on the cusp of 13 years old and it was with a guy who completely destroyed who I was. I was self harming in the 4th grade before that because I was already struggling with self worth and identity (I wanted to be a boy) and after that experience, I just kept tumbling downward from there on. And to this day, I’m now 17 (almost 18) and I’m still fluctuating and confused about who I am, desperately trying to heal and feel better. But I’m so happy that I found this video, I feel like more people need to be open about these experiences because for so long, I felt completely alone and like nobody understood what I was going through. So this definitely helps a lot.

[@mdsn729]

related so much to Hitomi's perspective on masculine energy, hearing you both talk about this was so eye opening to my own feelings that i didn't really understand.

[@stephh2903]

my HEARTT aahhh this video is everything i needed and more, like hanging out with my 2 big sisters, been watching hitomi for years and you guys together are so comforting! i adore you both

[@mariellenstathopoulos967]

I am so into intense female friendship like there is nothing more powerful than that bond

[@AnaS-of8ri]

I literally was smiling everytime and whenever i caught myself smiling it grew bigger lmao I love you guys. You're such an inspiration and I call these type of female friendships into my life! Also, I have a gemini sun in my growing friendgroup and she's the best. I love geminis (I'm a libra sun and scorpio moon

[@Plasma1iTV]

I am so happy you guys finally met and had the chance to have these wonderful talks

[@andeestrella]

I want friends like you both. It almost feels like I am there with you--it means so much to me to watch such real conversations on camera. I realized that these are conversations I long to have but have yet to find people I can talk to about love, sex, and healing--I have yet to find a queer community for myself. I don't feel like these moments are often caught on camera and listening and watching the two of you talk about your lives so openly encourages me to feel okay to take up space in the same way and really validated me as someone who WANTS to talk about these things. I always felt a little crazy wanting or needing to say things like this out loud, or even seeing how you react to each other when creating space for each other. It opens my eyes to my own reactions and thoughts and actions when taking up space and creating space for others and it just really really reassured me to know that I am on the right track when it comes to the relationships that I want for myself. I'm excited to start attracting women like the two of you in my life and bask in feminine energy and safeness

[@still5853]

the feminine energy we all severely needed

[@nataliebellamy3595]

This one had me bawling!!! I relate to the self harm healing journey, and to see you embody love rather than continue the cycle of cutting is really powerful. 😭 thank you for being so vulnerable🙏🏼

[@killerteddy100]

Watching these videos of you and Hitomi hangout and support one another really makes me wish I had a friend group or support system like this. It would be so amazing to have a friend I could share thoughts and feelings with and just, talk. These types of videos warm my heart and put a smile on my face. I struggle with vulnerability and trust so much, that I just love seeing these videos where two people can be so vulnerable with each other. It's quite beautiful and I hope to find a friend that I can feel this comfortable with so I can start practicing my own vulnerability.

[@xmetalgamerx]

I have friendships like this but I feel like I don’t appreciate our connections enough or seek them out very often. This was a necessary reminder of how important and special they are to me ✨

[@dmshsty.0]

Honestly I’d love to see you do more of these videos, they feel so genuine and relatable. I felt like I was just hanging out with some friends and having good conversations about life :) I kinda want to see you and jasmine in the future. I’ve been watching her videos for so long and she became one of my favourite KZbinr (with you of course heheh)

[@edencassidymcpherson2861]

leah, the way you listen to people is beautiful.

[@crisstinaw]

“your spirit knows that sharing you energy like that is way to secret” OMG

[@franziskaihling9864]

Thank you so much for letting me be a part of this! It’s like I’m sitting with you guys and chatting! Your videos mean a lot to me 🙏🏼😊

[@carinaaulis4118]

I can't remember the last time I felt close and safe to someone, especially a sacred sister. Over the years everyone in my life seems to consistently get farther and farther away. Leaving me feeling unimportant and alone in this world (especially with covid) Thank you both for being my safe space and giving me the illusion of have sacred friendships ❤️

[@TaneeshaMonique]

You don't know you need to hear something until it's said. Feeling all sorts of ways after this, this is already such a beautiful series ❤

[@corapandoraa1040]

hi leah i just recently went through a breakup after a two year relationship. he was my first love and it was and still is really hard for me to accept that he didn't feel the same way about me as i felt about him anymore. i am still in the process of healing and your video on your breakup with andrew was really nice to watch since i am going through the same thing right now. i am trying to see the breakup as an opportunity for me to grow and to start a new chapter in life since i also just recently moved away from my home country for a gap year. i really hope you are doing okay and starting a new wonderful chapter in life. i wish you all the best and i am sending you lots of love xxxx

[@christinaflutter5411]

Wow. I'm only halfway through but appreciate this video format! Nice to have a more continuous conversation between two people. Also think your relationship with Hitomi seems so cute. I've watched her for sooooo many years and you for a while, and it was sweet to see you come together. You and Hitomi really feel like sisters, sharing your experiences, knowings and joy. So sweet, really made me happy. Can't wait for more of this series

[@ivalinhartova2452]

I am mindblown... I've never thought s*x was a topic people openly talk about... Maybe I'm just too young (18-20) or my friend group is not a place for that (since there's only one other sexually active girl there)... I've always felt as though sexuality is something to be ashamed for and to be hidden away (felt so ashamed fo loosing my virginity...) It's honestly a new thing to see women ebrace that sort of thing (especially Hitomi). Never thought you were so open (tho from some of your other videos I could have figured haha) Very nice and cozy video :3

[@the_modern_witch]

It was such a beautiful experience watching you two, two of my favorite KZbinrs, having a sleepover; I was in bed while watching this, and it felt like I joined in on the sleepover. Thank you for such a warm, cozy experience!

[@blue______]

I'm so in love with your friendship, I felt like I was with you at the sleepover and I wanted to limit my things hahaha. I love to see how not only in conversation they get deeper and get to know each other more, but they also physically approach and hug or hold hands. I love that energy and that affection that they transmit to each other. I aspire to have what you have with another woman. I don't have female friends and it is very difficult for me to socialize but in the past I had them and I know they are of the best energies

[@susanwright6168]

I really appreciate you guys talking about topics that most people don't talk about!

[@radredcherry9013]

Wow seriously thank you for this . As a woman in her early 20s I am constantly trying to figure out myself and my relationships and all the topics you touched in this video were so valid and relatable. And the advises you and Hitomi gave , were all so nice even though it didn't felt like advise it was like listening to friends talking about their experiences and learning from them . So thank you so much ❤❤

[@khelvegen]

THANK YOU SO MUCHHHH! I'm crying so much just because I'm so happy to live on this earth while you two also exist there. Two beautiful gentle and powerful souls

[@beedlejuice]

Hitomi burrowing during the compliments & validation is the real mood 🤩 just completed grad school and got awards and I've never been more awkward in my life

[@morganam4099]

The collab we didnt know we needed 💞💖

[@morganam4099]

@@レナチャン-q3g wtf

[@allynicolehernandez968]

wow! i'm listening to this while i'm working bcos leah's vlogs calms me but then i'm on the part where hitomi's sharing her relationship experiences and i'm crying because i relate to her sm 😭☹

[@leah6700]

When i was reaally questioning my sexuality for the first time, Hitomi was one of the women i had a crush on and i was so confused if i just admired her or if i was attracted to her lol

[@JustNicole6400]

My heart feels so full, this is divine femininity 🥺✨

[@lilgator_a]

Oh my!!!! This hit so hard! I want to share this with every female in my life. Thank you for sharing! This means so much!

[@fiona6848]

this was so incredibly beautiful. female friendships are so sacred

[@el-ee8yk]

this type of friendship is all i want in life😭

[@Todeslolli]

Throughout the video I was laughing so much sometimes, because it felt like the exact same talks and jokes and things me and my best friends do. Then I went to read the comments to see if someone already said that and it occurred to me that it's not like this for everybody and how grateful I can be to have found people in my life with whom I share this intimacy. So to everybody not having found someone to feel this way with: It will likely take time and it will not be planned, and even more will also cost afford to keep this relationship, but it will be worth it and you will get there. Love from Germany to wherever you are

[@MOONBATHING98]

Coming back to this beautiful video again today because I wanted to share something with those in the comments who are yearning for a connection like this: I feel like for ages I saw myself as someone who wasn’t capable of this kind of vulnerability/platonic intimacy/sisterhood. I loved my friends of course but would always yearn for the kind of deep unconditional love between friends that appeared in Hitomi’s films in particular, that mode of being together. For years and particularly during lockdown (obviously) I was very much in a space of growing, feeling the gap between my current state of being and where I wanted to be mentally and existentially. I was doing the work and growing but there was a level on which it hadn’t quite fully clicked- idk maybe some of you relate. Last summer I met this friend who has completely transformed me. When I watched this video I had to send it to her because of how much it reminds me of us- and we both cried and had the loveliest conversation about our connection and how much it has changed our understanding of how humans can relate to one another. We both felt for so long that nobody would ever truly understand us, that relationships were always somewhat unequal. I also was really struck by the scene in the beginning when Hitomi is discussing her history of self harm- Leah is crying with empathy and yet instead of it being an incredibly dark conversation it feels warm, because even though it is a very serious and sad topic, the air is so filled with love that there is a presence of joy there too- joy at their friendship, connection, safety. I know this is a potentially problematic thing to say (in that it might be disheartening as it seems out of our control) but there’s a limit to how much we can grow in our own. I put in the work for years but it wasn’t until I experienced the unconditional love and understanding and sisterhood from both friends and my partner that it all began to click into place. I know it might sound corny but I’ve learned that There is nothing so transformative as love, true and selfless and boundless love- that changes the entire paradigm of how you think it is possible to live and exist and be tender in the world. I really truly used to watch videos like this and think it may not happen for me but it did, when I least expected it, at the exact right moment, when i was ready. I’m not as spiritually articulate as Leah or Hitomi But it is one of those things that makes you believe the universe has a plan, that there truly is magic in the world. For anyone reading this- i really believe you will find community you can share your whole entire soul with, With whom you can exist without shame, as long as you keep showing up authentically and keep trying to live in a way that is truthful and whole hearted, even if it all feels clunky and messy at first. Wishing you all the love and safety and intimacy in the world 💕💕💕

[@nicole-ee7ec]

my god im literally crying i swear HITOMI AND LEAH I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.

[@LucyGem98]

I absolutely LOVE seeing women love and empower each other, it's so refreshing. Growing up all I saw in the media was women pitted against each other and fighting and arguing. I've never been like that with my friends. Sisterhood is the best

[@sierrajuciani]

i’ve watched you and hitomi separately for years. both of you guys really helped me navigate growing up and healing and seeing u guys together literally brings tears to my eyes. forever inspired by you both🖤

[@katillack]

Thank you Leah. I find myself listening along to both of you, completely understanding your stories and enjoying the lovely moments that you two have shared here. I find myself falling in love with the two of you, you’re both too sweet. :’)

[@luciacuevas611]

the tenderness in this video is outstanding