Neuroscientist's transformative ayahuasca experience | Dr. James Cooke

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We live in a world filled with suffering, where attempts to help have been split into largely separate scientific and spiritual communities. As a spiritually engaged neuroscientist I hope to communicate how these seemingly separate world views can be reconciled. I produce weekly videos on topics at the intersection of neuroscience and wellbeing, including consciousness, meditation and psychedelic science.
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[@DrJamesCooke]

Thank you all so much for your wonderfully supportive reactions. Sharing these parts of my story was always going to be a huge moment for me and the way you've all received it is everything I could have hoped for. I truly believe encouraging vulnerability and healing is the most powerful thing we can do to improve our situation as a species and you're giving a master class in how it's done. Thank you all again.

[@tatshine4205]

Bro thank you for sharing

[@ex-cursion]

Thank you again for sharing James. I hope it's as powerful for you as it is to watch. Very inspiring. So happy for you too, that you're healing. We all heal a little bit with you and the world becomes a better place. The antidote to the vicious circle of pain and suffering. 😁🙏👍🏽

[@AliMohebali.]

Hi James, you're doing a fantastic work here. Thanks for sharing. It is efforts of people like you and others that slightly moves everybody's attention towards putting themselves in a vulnerable context and look inside and unveil the truth about themselves with the hope of healing and staying away from undue suffering. I personally enjoyed this video for 2 reasons; First, because somehow I can relate to your experience in the past and seeing hope for healing in front of me. Second, because you have dedicated this video to explain the emotional and psychological aspects of the experience separate from the viduals of the experience. Again, thank you so much for sharing.

[@rightnow5839]

Dr. James Cooke Hi. You are SO incredibly inspiring to me.I have been considering going to a retreat to see if possible for me to fully heal. I haven’t picked a particular place. Do you have a recommendation?

[@donnamariefarrell533]

Thank you for sharing your experience brother !! Peace love and light !!!

[@mindgardenpsychology]

Hi Dr. Cooke. My name is Adrian Cuerva and I’m a psychologist from Australia. Your healing story was so powerful and I am honoured to have heard it. Thank you so much for sharing. You probably already know this, but the psychotherapeutic process you described is identical to imagery rescripting, an experiential technique used to confront trauma memories. Your story is a testament to how useful such techniques can be even during the maelstrom of a psychedelic journey. Thank you again and I look forward to watching more of your videos.

[@Milkshakman]

James, just want to say I have the utmost respect for the courage you have in doing this, not only as a neuroscientist speaking about topics that aren’t (yet) widely accepted in that domain, but also as a human being willing to put yourself and your history out there for the world. It’s all very timely and I hope it continues to catch on.

[@mltiago]

This is such an honest and well though accessment! I'm really touched by it and greatfull.

[@peterlanges3944]

Dear Dr.James Cooke ... Thank you so much for sharing your story. I cried and cried as I listened to your experience. For the first time, I felt that I was not alone. Your sharing brought about a much needed stream of tears. I am a 55 year old women and for the first time, I feel a sense of a great burden lifting off. I cannot express how much gratitude, I have in my heart for your sharing. Thank you, thank you ever so much. Maggie from Ont, Canada. May the *Universe hug and kiss you well.

[@DrJamesCooke]

That makes me so happy to hear and confirms to me that it was worth taking the risk to be open and vulnerable. There are so many of us who had to suffer alone, it means a huge amount to me to receive your comment and know I too am not alone in all this.

[@flyingrhinofilms]

Ive been lucky enough to have had a handful of experiences with Aya in ceremony. Found massively beneficial every time. It can be so insightful. Really loving your openness of the experience, very clear.

[@TheGrannyGirl1]

Thank you for sharing this. I was amazed to hear how on POINT you described the logic of being an overly empathetic person who can understand everyone but doesn't draw boundaries for one self. This condition is exactly the trap I am in. Hearing how you dealt with your abuser in your trip.. it was powerful to just hear that. You're an inspiration.

[@justthemessengers]

꧁ayahuasca꧂ is not a Psychedelic. ayahuasca is a muddy slurry of many compounds, some of them being hallucinogens. Sadly, most humans confuse the hallucinations they experience from poisonous drugs with the Visions and Revelations they receive from the Psychedelics. The Psychedelics DMT and sometimes 5-MeO-DMT are the Psychedelic found in that “witches brew” of a tourist trap sensation known as an ayahuasca ceremony. It would be much better for a human to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecules, always. ayahuasca is the quintessential act of “drinking from the Cup of the Lord and from the cup of demons”. Of course the human body recognizes ayahuasca for what it is, poison, and the human body in harm reduction mode causes most humans to reject and eject it. Not before enough has been absorbed to cause hallucinations and very distorted and corrupted communication with God (the DMT and/or 5-MeO-DMT). The sham man explains the vomiting as purging your poisons/toxins, bad spirits, etc. The truth is that your body just rejected and vomited that concoction you were given. We have been shown that it is always better to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecule. The Psychedelics have clearly shown that the humans on the earth right now referring to themselves as a shaman do not know Who God is and is not teaching the Psychedelic’s ways and Laws, but rather, a combination of their own mind’s folly coupled with the ridiculous teachings of the other humans who still belong to the world of darkness. False prophets of jerusalem = all the humans who purport to teach about the Psychedelics but don’t even know who the Psychedelics are. At least the sham men use the proper noun to name themselves: sham /SHam/ noun 1. 1. 
a thing that is not what it is purported to be."the alleged teacher of God is a farce and a sham"

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the genuine article About all of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven Who are all True Psychedelics: “Horrible things have I seen in the prophets of Jerusalem They follow false gods, they lie, they abet evil doers Till not a soul will repent For the prophets of Jerusalem have spread profanity Over the whole land This is the warning of the Lord of Hosts Never listen to what the false prophets say They fill you up with idle hopes and tell you fancies of their own Not anything the Lord says All will be well they repeat to people who scorn what the Lord says No harm will come to you they tell the folk who follow their own stubborn minds Which of these prophets ever saw the council of the Lord? Which of them ever heard or grasped a word of the Creator? I never sent the prophets yet they ran I never spoke to them and yet they prophecy If they had ever stood within my council - and heard a word of mine They would have made my people turn from evil ways and evil deeds Am I a God at hand and not a God far off? Can anyone conceal themselves out of my sight? Do not I fill Heaven and earth? the Lord asks Will they never give over these prophets of falsehood? Who preach their own illusions - and would make my folk forget my name? By the dreams they tell each other as once their parents forgot me for baal” (Jeremiah 23:15) kzbin.info/www/bejne/m3nXZZWpq7KcosU [e-mail]

[@lesliedelacruz5335]

Your story sounds much like my own. Thank you for sharing this. I’m so glad you exist!

[@MintyLoveDMT]

Congratulations and maximum respect for sharing such intimate details - these endow the story with the full punch it deserves. Can't wait to hear the San Pedro follow-up.

[@luckydave328]

That was amazing. I could really relate to a lot of your story. Before I saw this video I had you in a little box. I thought you must be a privileged upper middle class person who had had a pretty easy life. How wrong was that ? It was great that you came to terms with childhood trauma and felt confident to share it with us. Thank you so much !

[@NoxiousRex]

You have the key in sharing this kind of information that most dont and that is articulating your experience well. Coupled with your knowledge of science and own self experience. Subscribed after hearing you for the very first time. Much love for you.

[@tulinbeyduz920]

I was raised by a sociopathic, narcissistic mother and a schizophrenic father . And then ten years of foster care and my foster mother was a narcissist too . I don’t feel I could of gone through this emotional abuse again . Me and my twin sister have been through so much . We are planning on doing ayahuasca as boy of us suffer from anxiety and also panic attacks . Amazingly my life has turned out well but I still struggle with the trauma and pain I went through . Ayahuasca and San Pedro looks to be the go . Thank you .

[@tessjones5987]

Such a great discussion. Bless you. Thank you for telling us . So relatable.

[@lynettelarson9625]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It resonates with me so much.

[@baptizeus]

WOW. Blessings. Mother Earth has the healing

[@AutumnMycelium]

Excellent, Thank you for sharing 🍄👑🍄

[@antoniosandoval4014]

Nice! I booked with ayahuasca spirit Europe this October, hope I can go as well and get my much needed healing and work to do.

[@rohitRraina]

Hi antonio, it would be awesome if you can tell me how do I find legit centers for Ayahuasca, I feel like my mind is completely blocked, I'm always in stress, no matter how had I try to be happy, I m never. Really really want to do an Ayahuasca session. Thank you in advance. :)

[@h3xag0nal]

Amazing. Thanks James.

[@henryb1555]

Some wonderful expression there James.

[@bubskisound]

I can relate to this very much and it touched me deeply. Thank you for sharing your insights

[@dwaynereuter9629]

Purged like the lion i love it.

[@oknotyet9630]

Ahh so confusing to try and be ok with everything and try to look at things from different perspectives through different lenses while at the same time wanting boundaries and what's best for you .... Confusing because it contradicting.... Being ok and zen with every experience that happens to you is great but unrealistic because eventually your emotions bubble up as natural response real response to something happening to you it can't always be predicted and controlled you need to be accepting of those emotions also and translate those feelings draw your lines in the stand...Your experience had a ripple effect that helped me understand a bit more crazy.....and thanks of course!

[@glassbackdiy3949]

Wow powerful insights, your story resonated so much, I am also stuck in a freeze type respose with uncanny similarities, thank you for sharing! I would love to have the ayauasca experience, however all options in Europe seem to cost £1k or more so financially inaccessible for me for the forseeable future. I wonder if you had similar experiences with Psilocybes?

[@quadq6598]

Smoked DMT is better, far less hassle, no sickness. NO INSECT BITES. Man I got the crap bitten out of me in Peru - lol. Seriously if you tried Ayahuasca you will really appreciate the instantaneousness & convenience of smoking, very easily fit it into a lunchtime. Thanks.

[@allensmith3353]

James if you do bufo 5 meo dmt you will see what is going on in a different way.

[@trippedout3384]

Deep trip

[@secretplans]

When you said “when it comes to protecting the vulnerable, there will be a zero tolerance policy,” I got chills! I’m so glad that you got such powerful insights into healing your psyche. Ayahuasca has given me a number of visions and insights into the root causes of my emotional struggles as well. Thank you for sharing your story!!

[@olvegg]

Loved that as well

[@insanebrain213]

Go vegan.

[@miket1591]

@@insanebrain213 why?

[@insanebrain213]

@@miket1591 I can't remember why I said that. But I think it's the next step in human evolution. We can't call ourselves spiritual or evolved or civilised when we rape and murder and torture innocent beings on such a massive scale for zero reason other than ignorance or the weakness of mind to see it for what it is.

[@apexnine]

There is so much I want to say while it's in my mind, but don't have the time. Thank you for being beyond courageous to share these deep parts of you with us. Your story hits at the core of me. Again, thank you. Your healing is reaching out and helping others to heal, too.

[@DrJamesCooke]

Thank you for being similarly open on these topics, you really inspired me to feel it was safe to own my own story in this way. You came to mind during the retreat as the embodiment of exactly how I hoped this would be received and knowing you and others like you are out there made it possible for me to share this.

[@apexnine]

@@DrJamesCooke , really? Wow! I am very honored, humbled, and appreciative to be among others that have helped you on your journey. I am glad that my attempt at being open to the many eyes that know or do not know me has helped you, or any other for that matter, to move forward. At the risk of sounding cliche, I feel that we both have been helping each other and, in turn, are also helping many more that are near to us in life or connected to us through the Internet.

[@DrJamesCooke]

@@apexnine Really :)

[@celestebateman01]

I wish every African-American could experience this kind of purging. We carry 400 years of trauma in the bones and in the blood. Many times, the violence within some (not all) of our communities is the merging of pain, passion, trauma and anger. Thanks for sharing your experience. I would love to experience this ceremony, but honestly I’m afraid of what would come up and come out!

[@BrianBreakingZero]

I have recently completed a 4 night ayahuasca retreat. I am very similar to you, trauma-wise. The caretaking, "overly empathizing," lack of boundaries, bending over, lack of connection to emotions (especially anger). The way you described your childhood self, just like me. "Well behaved" but in reality, traumatized. Raised by a narcissist as well. Always justifying and overly seeing other people's side while not giving myself the love I need. I've done a lot of hard work to try to heal myself, ayahuasca being the most profound and powerful mindblowing experience. While it was a super powerful experience, I mostly experienced crazy galactic, aliens, god connection, multiple dimensions type of experience. I didn't get a chance to go back into my childhood past which was my intention. Maybe the next ceremony or 2, I'll get there. Thank you for sharing, it was great hearing this experience from someone so similar to me in psychology.

[@DrJamesCooke]

Wow, that's amazingly similar, thank you for sharing. The reason i didn't focus on the visions in this video because they were also of aliens, space ships and other dimensions that didn't seem to relate to the emotional breakthroughs. I'll cover that in next week's video though.

[@BrianBreakingZero]

@@DrJamesCooke I'm in a place of transitioning out of my current low vibration business. I might start a brand around self development/consciousness/relationships which could involve mind expanding interviews. I'm going to keep you in mind, I love your content and respect your background as a neuroscientist. I'll ping you if/when the time comes brother! In the meantime, I'm a subscriber and look forward to your future content.

[@DrJamesCooke]

@@BrianBreakingZero please do, looking forward to it, if/when as you say.

[@tulinbeyduz920]

I was raised by a narcissist mother and also my foster mother who showed no love . I really want to do ayahuasca. I’ve had terrible anxiety , binge eating issues . I’m scared but I want to release the trauma

[@navfurgator]

It's his interesting to see how many people have had similar trauma, I know only to well what it feels like to grow up under a narcissistic abusive person, though each story is individualized, the trauma is similar for sensitive empathetic children. And it's not an easy pain to transmute it's evasive and deep. I have not done ayahuasca but I can see how it goes into those layers that we generally can't access easily. When the time is right I may give it a try, even though I think I've done a lot of the work to clear it. There may still be some of the weight in the background. So thanks for sharing this it gives insight, all of us deserve to be free of trauma.

[@christonewmanful]

Thanks for sharing this opening of vulnerability and the process of transmuting karma. Truly beautiful. Deepest bow brother 🙏

[@DrJamesCooke]

Thank you. Bow returned 🙏

[@jurand2012]

Thank You for sharing. It moved me deeply. Regards from Poland :)

[@paulinatomczak8874]

Toronto Ontario, Canada )

[@mike569112]

Own it dude... you killed that piece of shit. (Abuser)

[@mudskippa8958]

My god, I can relate to you so much. I am incredibly glad you started to get the healing you deserve. I desperately want to do aya to unfreeze myself. I am stuck in subconscious self sabotage. I can't feel anger at all. It's all repressed and turned in on myself. There is only so much talk therapy can do. Thank you for sharing.

[@ifuknowwhatimean7083]

So cool, happy for your trip James! Impressed by your openness and courage, no jokes. Would be interesting to hear more, like for example if there was some spiritual bypassing happening before with this trauma, in your opinion. Or how this good healthy anger feels in nondual state.

[@mltiago]

And thought well out!

[@holsonbake]

Thank you Dr James, your story has touched my heart, for I also have experienced childhood trouble. As an adult I would always speak to people as children acknowledge adults (yes sir, no sir, never speak unless spoken too). It took me many years to finally accept the person I am before seeing others as my peers. Now I make an effort to engage others using their name instead of a respectable child like version of myself. I am curious if some of the depression and anxiety I still experience can be explored through this drink you are describing. Thanks and have a great day. 👍

[@Goddessattractor]

When the student is ready the teacher shows up. Gratefulness to you for such an eloquently told experience. I was listening and realized how much of what you said began to ring true. I got to the part when you were an infant and that you were sorry for your existence and tears began to flow freely. As a grown woman, this is the first time I've been aware of any such feelings. Those tears came from a deep place. Im the first adopted of 23 siblings. Growing up I chose to "be good, keep quiet and keep moving" vs the alternative. I do appreciate my upbringing and the family I was raised in. My birth mom has lived a very difficult life and she made the right choice. Your video showed me that I have been carrying so much of her pain and indecision of giving me up as well as feelings of guilt and shame that I'm still "not good enough" or worthy because I've not done enough in my life to repay her for the gift of life that she gave me. Clearly these are some disempowering beliefs! I learned more about myself in 21:11 minutes, then I ever did in therapy. Thank you for the insight. Time to process it and let it go. Maybe plant medicine is in my future 😉. Thank you again, I wasn't expecting so much insight from a KZbin video? It's a cool world we live in that we are able to learn, share and connect in this way from anywhere in the world. Much love and peace to you. 🙏🦋🙏

[@minigrande1939]

Hi as someone who works full time with DMT(ayawausca). I Thankyou for sharing your experience. Its is a beautiful medicine that taken with courage can really help heal and revive you to live a fantastic life

[@johnsurma1085]

Hi James thanks for this amazing video I know you posted it a while ago for yourself but its relevant for me at the moment. Im a similar age from a similar area in Essex, and relate to basically everything you said as a child and also have this deep kind of damage inside of me that is always there that various counselling and therapy doesn't help with. Im off to Brazil in a week and am doing my first ever Ayahuasca experience in around 2 weeks i really hope it will give me some understanding and some internal peace which im lacking. Thanks again for the video 🙏

[@martianmoongdds]

"When it comes to protecting the vulnerable, there needs to be a zero tolerance policy." "You can simultaneously have compassion and be firm and draw borders." Yes 🤍⚖️🖤 Thank you so much wonderful being. I have a question, your camera and microphone seems great. Will you please share which one you’re using?

[@DrJamesCooke]

Thank you for the kind words 😊 the camera is a Logitech C920 and the mic is a Blue Yeti, I've been very happy with both.

[@martianmoongdds]

Dr. James Cooke oh wow, Logitech C920 is actually what I’ve been looking at, and I already have a Blue Yeti! 😀 thank you!

[@wildmagicwiththedude1915]

Wow man... Ayahuasca has been a draw for me for some time, but this cements it for me. Thank you for your vulnerability and grace.

[@ivyleivine2908]

We have DID from severe and constant childhood trauma and could relate very much with a lot of the feelings relating to your abuse. Really glad this was cathartic for you🤗

[@jyothikiran4777]

What if a person with schizophrenia and bipolar use this healing medicines that u r talking about

[@TheKeystoneChannel]

Whoa, profound! The apologizing for existing . We all struggle with these belief systems that are so toxic. Happy you got through it. Thank you for sharing! The way you tell the story is amazing . The detachment due to trauma, is very recognisable

[@LinguisticLifeform]

This is so very moving. In sharing your experience you validate mine. I wasn't expecting that. Thank you so much.

[@Goddessattractor]

I was just reading comments and see many others also felt your words in a very transformative way. Your courage to be real and open is forging the way for others to do the same. Keep doing you, it's beautiful, it's needed and you're a positive beacon of light that's helping lead the way. You rock! 🙏

[@prdeacon974]

I bet he would love to prescribe this now. It sucks having such a great experience to only get back home and see all doctors giving pills for all issues.

[@SobeCrunkMonster]

you can put ayahuasca in two pills, its called pharmahuasca. now we can have our pills and eat them too.

[@leozepeda4339]

Thank you very much for sharing your experience with Ayahuasca. I’m connected with you and sending you harmonious/healing energies. You’re not alone in this game of life. BALANCE with that which we reject (because we judge it as negative) is the key to peace, wisdom & understanding. I’m so glad you found a way to balance yourself. Keep growing dear brother. Namaste 🙏

[@Illumignostic]

Interesting video, but I’d like to hear how this impacted your perception of your field. Also, I am a KZbinr and ayahuasca facilitator. Would love to collab.

[@xtalll6297]

Thank you for being so open and sharing your experience. The part where you described the Shaman singing on the first night was really beautiful given the context of where you grew up. Would you say that you experienced an "ego death" while on the dosages of Ayahuasca that you took? Have you ever tried the synthesized version of DMT and if so how does it compare to Ayahuasca? I'm also curious if your perspective on spirituality / nondualism has changed in any way after the Ayahuasca experience?

[@DrJamesCooke]

Excellent questions. No ego death at all. The next video is going to be in how my experinces relate to the pure DMT experience as they are very similar and, as I think you might suspect, showed me a whole range of phenomena that do not easily fit with non-duality. I'll be doing a video on that next Wednesday and another livestream Q&A on the Sunday after.

[@xtalll6297]

@@DrJamesCooke Cool thank you!

[@mltiago]

I can relate to the narc parent and that freezing body. I'm thankful that aywasca helped you with this more bodily aspect of the trauma. I'm preparing myself for an aywasca ceremony psychically to take the best out of it like you did (your therapeutic experience and work look quite extensive). Thanks for sharing.

[@mdgart]

Thanks James for sharing this, so emotional, so beautiful. In October I'm going to Peru to do my first Ayahuasca retreat, I'm scared but really excited, wish me luck :)

[@DrJamesCooke]

That's amazing, I wish you all the luck in the world! I'm sure it'll be a wonderful experience.

[@joannagomes1547]

I'm so sorry u was so abused and unprotected hun. I wish I could have protected u, give thanks God has brought u thru, and his wonderful plant medicine

[@tombolo4120]

really...

[@RoadandSkyUK]

You are me and I am you... I love you as I love myself... for we are all waves in the same ocean. Thank you for your kind words. They touched me in ways I cannot communicate. I am profoundly glad that you exist. And finally that I do too ❤

[@thehouseofmcg]

I watched your video with great interest. By sharing publicly you are making yourself vulnerable to judgement and scrutiny. You are very brave and intelligent!

[@avimae4225]

I have a question that perhaps someone can shed some light on.. I have been in defence mode since early childhood. This was with my father and brother. Both narcissists. Mum knew and did not protect me. I am named after my father's girlfriend who was pregnant the same time my mum was pregnant with me. I married/divorced two narcissists. My oldest daughter completed a suicide while estranged from the family. She left a teenage daughter. The results are multiple autoimmune diagnosis. A rare CNS diagnosis and PTSD. A doctor recommended (off the record) looking into microdosing. Should I start with microdosing? Aya? I have never done psilocybin. I use RSO oil and rarely drink alcohol. I am open to suggestions. I understand that my journey of healing will not be fast nor easy. Thank you in advance. Blessings

[@tulinbeyduz920]

Try microdosing on shrooms first . I’m sorry for your loss . 💜

[@juicesoundsystem]

Hooooooooooooooly f*** a lot of this sounds really familiar.

[@TheParadiseParadox]

Thanks for having the balls to walk into an ayahuasca ceremony. Of course you couldn't have known exactly how it would play out, but you took those steps to look inside yourself in a powerful way.

[@robynnsimoneofficial]

Being overly empathetic- that hit me. When I had my shamanic healing I never even realized how the negativity in my life I absorbed.

[@SamuelFord88]

Not gonna pretend I've gone through the same direct level of trauma that you have, but I can relate to the feeling of irrelevance and pointlessness. I'm from Margate in Kent which is also a shithole, and I was raised in a very oppressive religious cult that stunted my emotional and social development, so a lot of what you say hits home, even if more on an indirect level. Very well articulated video, appreciate it bro.

[@GMC2001]

Thank you James. I would love to take part in a ceremony . It frightens me and strikes me with awe. You seem full of compassion.

[@CameTo]

You're very brave putting this out, kudos for doing so. I had bad childhood as well, and not this, but under hypnosis/therapy, I too would go back to being at whatever age as baby, infant, even a previous life, and feeling these sad and scary emotions and would literally cry like a baby.

[@thehummingbirddiaries6408]

Sublime 🌿 listening to your story was very healing. I’ve been struggling with similar dynamics and listening to your powerful healing experience opened me up in more ways that I had expected it to, thank you 🙏🏻

[@pedrogorilla483]

Even though we had different issues growing up, I relate 100% with the way the medicine worked on me. Thanks for sharing.

[@AdeptusPsychonautica]

A powerful story beautifully told my friend. So glad to hear you got what you were looking for, and I’m happy to have been able to assist you in connecting with Wiler & Tamara. Hopefully you arent fully done with ayahuasca yet because I still would love to join you in ceremony, maybe next time 😀🙏

[@DrJamesCooke]

Definitely! And thank you so much again, you made it possible for something truly wonderful to happen.

[@Mr.housekeys]

I have read articles on BPD and ayahuasca, this is very enlightening. Thank you.

[@olvegg]

Beautiful, thanks for sharing

[@olvegg]

Going to a 23 days retreat that includes yoga, meditation and dieta in Peru next week. My own work is similar to yours, I started with underground MDMA therapy, mushrooms and now working with Ayahuasca. I have worked 3 times with Aya now before leaving and I had similar visions with the feathers on the skin and of course re-experiencing the trauma, allowing anger is very important in my opinion, because it allows these energies created during self-abandonment to be transmuted into a sense of pride. I find that the self-therapy "internal family system" is synergestic with psychedelic therapy. If you don't know about it, it is a proces for meeting the cognitive parts inside us and re-parent ourselves. Check "Self-Therapy: A Step-By-Step Guide to Creating Wholeness and Healing Your Inner Child Using IFS, A New, Cutting-Edge Psychotherapy" if this process interests you.

[@lisameyer1373]

Thank you for sharing your story you’re very brave person, and I wish you all the healing and love to you. And congratulations on your new piece of land how exciting :-)

[@tr7b410]

I think your early life karmic script was a conflicted one.I had a similar problem with my older brother who was physically abusive towards me.At 1 point he pushed my hand into a pile of molten plastic. I had also been navigating thru over 30 years as an abductee/E.Ts.That had not been a collection of spiritually uplifting intervention experiences. So yes I too have bulit an outer shell to protect me.34 years of meditation + 4 kundalini awakening experiences have given me a greater understanding & humility about spirit & how I fit into a broader world view.

[@daniel2467]

Wow! My life story echos yours. Same scenario with a brother. Fortunately, I stumbled across ayahuasca 8 years ago and every year since I’ve made a pilgrimage to Peru for an annual ayahuasca ceremony or two. Ayahuasca showed me a clear path to healing myself and becoming a better human being.

[@BeatsByClover]

Mate im from ireland have an msc in psych and totally relste to u, same story as you

[@justthemessengers]

Clover 🍀 ꧁ayahuasca꧂ is not a Psychedelic. ayahuasca is a muddy slurry of many compounds, some of them being hallucinogens. Sadly, most humans confuse the hallucinations they experience from poisonous drugs with the Visions and Revelations they receive from the Psychedelics. The Psychedelics DMT and sometimes 5-MeO-DMT are the Psychedelic found in that “witches brew” of a tourist trap sensation known as an ayahuasca ceremony. It would be much better for a human to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecules, always. ayahuasca is the quintessential act of “drinking from the Cup of the Lord and from the cup of demons”. Of course the human body recognizes ayahuasca for what it is, poison, and the human body in harm reduction mode causes most humans to reject and eject it. Not before enough has been absorbed to cause hallucinations and very distorted and corrupted communication with God (the DMT and/or 5-MeO-DMT). The sham man explains the vomiting as purging your poisons/toxins, bad spirits, etc. The truth is that your body just rejected and vomited that concoction you were given. We have been shown that it is always better to ingest the Pure Psychedelic Molecule. The Psychedelics have clearly shown that the humans on the earth right now referring to themselves as a shaman do not know Who God is and is not teaching the Psychedelic’s ways and Laws, but rather, a combination of their own mind’s folly coupled with the ridiculous teachings of the other humans who still belong to the world of darkness. False prophets of jerusalem = all the humans who purport to teach about the Psychedelics but don’t even know who the Psychedelics are. At least the sham men use the proper noun to name themselves: sham /SHam/ noun 1. 1. 
a thing that is not what it is purported to be."the alleged teacher of God is a farce and a sham"

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the genuine article About all of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven Who are all True Psychedelics: “Horrible things have I seen in the prophets of Jerusalem They follow false gods, they lie, they abet evil doers Till not a soul will repent For the prophets of Jerusalem have spread profanity Over the whole land This is the warning of the Lord of Hosts Never listen to what the false prophets say They fill you up with idle hopes and tell you fancies of their own Not anything the Lord says All will be well they repeat to people who scorn what the Lord says No harm will come to you they tell the folk who follow their own stubborn minds Which of these prophets ever saw the council of the Lord? Which of them ever heard or grasped a word of the Creator? I never sent the prophets yet they ran I never spoke to them and yet they prophecy If they had ever stood within my council - and heard a word of mine They would have made my people turn from evil ways and evil deeds Am I a God at hand and not a God far off? Can anyone conceal themselves out of my sight? Do not I fill Heaven and earth? the Lord asks Will they never give over these prophets of falsehood? Who preach their own illusions - and would make my folk forget my name? By the dreams they tell each other as once their parents forgot me for baal” (Jeremiah 23:15) kzbin.info/www/bejne/m3nXZZWpq7KcosU [e-mail]

[@justthemessengers]

Clover 🙏 ꧁Consciousness꧂ DMT and 5-MeO-DMT are two of the Molecules that comprise a human’s Consciousness. All True Psychedelics are the Molecular Structures of Pure Consciousness. The human body synthesizes it’s own Consciousness (the DMT & 5-MeO-DMT found in humans). The human body then metabolizes the Consciousness that it is producing. The amount of the endogenous Consciousness that the human body is able to metabolize depends on many factors. The less pollutants, poison & other contaminants present in the body will result in the ability to metabolize more of the Consciousness that body is producing. Likewise, the more pollution, contaminants and poison a body has inside of it the less Consciousness it is able to metabolize. Here is a list of some of the most common poisons that humans ingest regularly which interferes with a human body metabolizing the Consciousness that it produces, as well as any Consciousness that is ingested from external sources: alcohol, nicotine, sugar, caffeine, amphetamines, dissociatives, tranquilizers, flouride, and a plethora of other drugs are just some of the substances that interfere with humans metabolizing their own Consciousness. “Even the priests who regularly come near to the Lord must purify themselves”. (Exodus 19:22) The following substances are NOT Psychedelics: mdma ketamine salvia kratom dipt pcp datura/jimson weed dxm There are others . . . . . . . Any True Psychedelic will proclaim this Truth if you ask Them. The following substances are True Psychedelics - They are Alive, Omnicient Living Beings of Light: DMT 5-MeO-DMT LSD Mescaline Ibogaine Psilocin Psilocybin THC DPT DET Muscimol There are others . . . . So if a human can achieve 100% purity within their bodies, with zero contaminants or pollution (an unattainable state in these current bodies) and managed to metabolize 100% of the endogenous Psychedelics that their physical body is producing (DMT & 5-MeO-DMT), that would be the limit to how Conscious that human can be. In order for a human to become more Conscious than this, they must put more Consciousness into their physical bodies. You must put more Molecules of Consciousness inside of your physical body in order to attain a Higher level of Consciousness. When you ingest Psychedelics you see Them that you just ingested, not some doorway or window or a “portal” to somewhere else or some entity somewhere else. When you ingest LSD, the Light that you see is the LSD Themselves, very Beautiful Living Beings of Light. When you ingest DMT, the Entity you see and hear is the Living Light Beings DMT Themselves. The same is true for All True Psychedelics. There is this part from Scripture: “They are the Eternal among things that pass away. Pure Consciousness, of Conscious Beings. The ONE who fulfills the prayers of many. Only the wise who see Them in their Souls attain the Peace Eternal” (Katha Upanishad) The Physical Body of Consciousness is The Flesh of God. The Flesh of God is the True Communion Entity (the Eucharist). The Flesh of God (the Psychedelic) is the Fruit from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and evil. Our Bodies truly are the Temple of God because God the Psychedelic Lives within it. As Saint Paul says: “We are only the earthenware jars that hold this treasure, to make it clear that such an overwhelming power comes from God and not from us”. (2 Corinthians 4:7) This part explains why the human body is the Temple of God - because God Lives inside of the body. So whether or not a person is ingesting Psychedelics, every single human’s body is God’s Temple because DMT & 5-MeO-DMT Live within it. Anything you do to hurt or harm your body you do to harm God’s Temple. This understanding is a good Foundation, a good step towards a person Knowing God and being able to stay with Them both in this Lifetime & afterwards. “O just Creator, though the world has not known you, But I have known you And these have known that You have sent me; So have I declared, so will I declare Your Name to them, That the Love with which you have loved me May be in them and I in them”. (Saint John 17:25) kzbin.info/www/bejne/m3nXZZWpq7KcosU [e-mail]

[@E-Kat]

Dear friends, please do not expect Dr James Cooke answer your questions! He's got other things to do too! Please! Just enjoy this video and subscribe.

[@jzblue345]

Do you know him?

[@hectorguitar89]

Had you done any psychedelics beforehand? My story sounds very similar to yours including the symptoms like stomach issues and muscle tension. The fact that this ayahuasca experience healed you from that is encouraging for me, but I'm terrified to do any psychedlic.

[@karrenkent862]

I’ve just watched this video and your video interviewing Wiler. I’ve had a calling to do Ayahuasca for nearly 2 years but I am so frightened to be out of control and fearful during a ceremony, but I know I have to surrender! My gut feeling is that I’ve experience childhood trauma at the age of 3 when obviously I couldn’t control what was happening. I’ve looked at various centres both Nimea Kaya in Peru and Soltara in Costa Rica, but would you recommend seeing Wilar in Spain? I’ve suffered episodes of chronic anxiety most of my life and I want to totally heal this, but not come out in a worse state, so is Wiler a) very experienced with carrying out ayahuasca ceremonies and b) is it a safe retreat to go to in terms of facilitators etc knowing what they are doing? Kind regards Karren

[@adamgorelick3714]

Thank you Dr. Cooke for your courage and honesty. A great deal of what was shared resonates with me; I even had a dream hours before discovering this video that involved self-abandonment and contrition for even existing [synchronicity?] It would be wonderful if you could have Dr. Gabor Mate on your programme - and helpful in your healing. I intuitively know I would benefit greatly from an authentic Ayahuasca experience, but have no idea how to go about it.

[@JohnCoughlan1]

Thank you for your courageous candour, James. And the lucid communication of your self-restoration. Bravo, Sir.

[@0ptimal]

Whoa, glancing through uploads, you cover some cool topics.. and as a neuroscientist. Looking forward to exploring them.

[@kate-luna6373]

Hi James! Thank you for this video. Do you have a email where we can right to you and ask some questions, please? As you are neuroscientist I would like to ask you something in regards of meditation and my experience. I would like to share with you a video of me meditation and the reaction my body is receiving during the meditative state. Would it be possible to contact you? K

[@brrelund4419]

Thank you so much for this YT video. I recognize myself so much in your childhood experiences. I hope I can also get such a healing through the ayahuasca retreat.

[@MarvinFalz]

I come to the conclusion again that the world's problems won't be solved by politics, at least not by politicians with personal issues. I live in Germany and I believe that the political class is insane. They're becoming the problem they want to solve, and which is more like a projection of their own traumas. Instead of going inside and struggle with their own demons, they go outside with the intention to violently force the perceived enemy into submission. To make that short: I have come to the conclusion again, that this world will only achieve a state of peace, when a majority of people on earth realize that they have to search the inner space.

[@slackingoffagain]

In my deep mesitation, I experienced my first anger ans frustration as a new born as well. Scared bot knowing what is going on screaming foe dear life.

[@ellielioli146]

I have done Ayahuasca a few times now and one of the times I really didn’t feel anything but all the people around me did. I barely saw a bit of color like a mini shroom trip but nothing like the first times depth and visuals. Any insight u may have in why it didn’t work once? Or why it might not work sometimes even tho I took 2xs the dosage of everyone else???

[@dcross6025]

I like when I find professional and well presented people like you who give the reports. It makes it more credible

[@Destroyingegobecomingbuddha]

Hey Dr.James Cooke, really love the video, great content! Was wondering how long u went to med school for and how many years your neuroscience degree took for you to get. I've also been through traumatic experiences and ever since have ahd a drive to understand the brain. This had led me to setting a goal of becoming a neuroscientest like you, so your feedback would be much appreciated.

[@ManicMercurianAstrology]

You are extremely eloquent. Thanks for doing this.

[@midnightprophet7935]

The sharing is also a huge part of the healing. Ayahuacsa helped me change my life in the most profound ways and as I head into my 11th weekend ceremony in about a year and a half...the work, the progress, the mission...continues.

[@HeartFeltGesture]

Thanks mate, great communication. I grew up with a narcissist mother, I can relate to feeling existence guilt and also Ive realised that victims of a narcissistic parent all share a universal condition of PTSD specifically called self-love deficit disorder. I feel the calling of Mother Ayahuasca to partake in a ceremony soon. I have the intention to release exactly as you described. The narcissist parent dynamic always involves a co-dependent parent who also has self-love deficit disorder and is a brainwashed victim of the narcissist, like being in love with your enemy, stockholm syndrome. They end up being the flying monkey for the narcissist, they are manipulated to do the bidding for the narcissist. Its deeply twisted misery. The narcissist is demonic, what is a human without any real emotion or empathy? They harvest peoples pain like an energy vampire to make themselves feel alive and important, to give them a sense of power, because they feel powerless as a result of their own early life trauma. At the moment of their highest trauma, they essentially cut themselves off from feeling, possibly permanently (at least for this lifetime) . So you end up with a kind of robotic actor where an emotional being once was. Psychologists say that a truly pathological narcissist is impossible to heal, because they have zero interest in changing, they absolutely love themselves and think they are perfect as they are. Possibly 50% of humanity is on the narcissist spectrum, the collective trauma of narcissism perpetually breeding more of the same. But there is hope, Im optimistic until Im smashed in the face.

[@DrJamesCooke]

I feel like I could have written that comment, it aligns with my understanding so perfectly. The only difference is I tend to opt for a black hole rather than vampire analogy ;) After the deeply twisted misery it's astounding to realise there are so many of us who have suffered through it. I'm hoping in our lifetimes we'll be able to get the word out and raise awareness to stop it being passed on so relentlessly to the next generation.

[@HeartFeltGesture]

@@DrJamesCooke Yes, breaking the cycle, conscious parenting, not overly conscious PC parenting hopefully. Mass trauma all over the earth, all the time, for ages. Collective darkness, the mass depravity of the world wars, all adds up. Ayahuasca will play a big part to heal the wounds, along with the ancient practices of yoga and meditation. Integration in daily life of what is Realised in those magical experiences, to live truly to ones intuitively known, heart-felt convictions about the True nature of the Self / Reality.

[@CrownHybridKING]

Why is there not more research on how Ayahuasca cures Asthma!? First I've heard of it also, awesome stuff...

[@djcuda]

Trying to find the cactus 🌵 now but the ayahuasca dmt is hard lol

[@alexandruracila7500]

with people like you and the caliber of your intention we can factually change and return to our natural ways of being. i appreciate and i have savored your video intimately. in a way, my wet dream for our collective was to hear open minded key professions to try connecting to their reality of Self. i say professions because i get a sense that neuroscience is one of your authentic flow masks which you use to relate to the rest of our masks or games as i like to call them. when all games connect, they realize the amplitude of bliss embedded in what we call God's Creation, although even this does not bring honor to what life really is. sending toruses of love and gratitude, irrespective of our linear time :)

[@AWa-ik2ez]

hi I had similar childhood trauma to yours. You have given me some really good ideas. Thank you! -

[@MovieJustin]

A lot of people don't realize the trauma that dominating others causes themselves, violence through generations leaves traces that need to be healed. Its not isolated trauma.

[@mr.poseidon6247]

Whoa, kind of same here about former situations in life.. but bit more of phisical violence from others than helpless family..

[@Leo-eb1wl]

Thanks for sharing, you seem like an incredible person. People like you give hope to so many.

[@meganlacymusic]

Wow, I am so moved by the way you relate to the trauma you've experienced. I also appreciate and sympathize with your reasons for taking ayahuasca, and was enthralled to hear how the drug effected your emotional understanding. I learned so much just now, I had no idea this would happen when I clicked on your video. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

[@thestoicscientist]

Wow! This resonated with me so much. Thank your for your honesty and insights.

[@elizabeta9345]

This is beautiful. I was so moved by your story, thanks for sharing it! Peace and love to you!

[@dawncole551]

I cried for u when ur guide sang a beautiful icara song to u - sending much healing Metta beautiful young man 🤗🙏

[@FragranceView]

I'd recommend looking into Dr. Joe Dispenza and his work with meditation/mind for healing, and specifically "Blessing of the energy centres" meditation, check him out on KZbin or get one of his books, I am reading "Becoming Superhuman" at the moment, he also wrote "I am the Placebo"

[@avimae4225]

I just finished Becoming Supernatural.

[@jennsantanafitness]

Joe is awesome!!

[@AndrewAngel]

Respect 🙏🏾 thanks for being you man!