Never thought I would have to make this video

Thank you for all of the support. This is by no way a video saying I won't upload my regular content on my regular days. I just have to solve my living situation...
I love all of you very much, please stay safe and take care of yourself

[@darylshort2729]

You have 19,200+ people who love you right here. All my hopes and prayers are with you. You've got a bright, better future ahead! You'll see.

[@MichaelB2L]

Such a lovely comment. Bless you.

[@Hatredkeys1]

Agreed

[@ASMRChats]

Exactly 👏

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your kindness ❤️

[@gracejoy8854]

And if all those 19,200 people gave $1, she would have almost 20k to start over. Imagine how things can change overnight for one person. ❤

[@Laserpuppylord7215]

I got divorced at 33 and moved back home. No money or possessions but I knew that I had left the worst behind me. I spent the first two months healing. I painted a lot and always listened to your videos while I did it. Thank you for being a healing presence in my life. Take your time in getting back on your feet. I know everyone here will be waiting for you.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Im sorry to hear that you had to go through all of that, Im happy to know that Ive been able to help you in a very small way. Thank you for sharing your experiences and for the support, I appreciate you a lot ❤

[@TheVisualvictor]

What can we say? I hope everything goes better from now on, we will keep supporting you no matter what! Cheers and thanks for everything

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your support, your kindness and your generosity, it means the world to me thank you once again ❤️

[@lt8901]

It's so kind that you gave her money. I hope she did something special for herself with it and that you smile knowing you were the one that took her out for lunch or whatever it is that she did with it that day. Seriously the sweetest thing you could have done, and I love seeing humans support huamans like that. Good karma to you, sir! That is all.

[@TheVisualvictor]

@@lt8901 Thank you, I did it because it may help her moving out her things to her new home. Money isn't everything. I just like to help when I can and be thankful for the content she made for us these years.

[@DeathByWafflez]

This must be so tough, what you're going through. You seem like such a strong and wonderful person. I hope life sends many amazing things your way as you move through this. I think I speak for all of us when I say, we will be here to watch your videos whenever you feel it's right to come back, however long of a break you need. Much love to you!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for believing in me, my content and for your generosity ❤❤ I hope to be able soon to make my regular content, there might be a few shorter updates in between ❤

[@DeathByWafflez]

​@ErudwenASMR we'll be here :)

[@drhapi5308]

Oh what a beautiful rebirth this will be! I am excited for you! We will be here!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your generosity and for you believing in me ❤

[@questforchips]

Going back home and being around people who care for you will be quite refreshing! Change is good, especially when it gets you away from a very unfortunate situation. Wish you the best! Cheers

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your support ❤️

[@plumdutchess]

I agree!

[@mildlydevastated]

Much love to you. ❤

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity and support ❤❤

[@bonecastles]

You got this. New save file girl

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your generosity ❤❤❤

[@drummingman77]

Thanks!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity and your kind words in your previous comment, I really do appreciate it and you ❤️

[@sbs3000]

Thanks for all you do here on KZbin. I enjoy your content so much. I'm sorry you're going through all this, especially all at once. You've overcome a lot already and I believe you'll get past these troubles too. This Super Thanks isn't a lot but I hope it will help with your moving expenses, etc. I wish I could do more. Take care.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your caring words and for your generosity, I really do appreciate it and you a lot ❤️ Thank you for all your help!

[@sbs3000]

@@ErudwenASMR You're very welcome. :)

[@Invigilius78]

Best wishes!

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you once again ❤

[@jimjones8993]

Moving back to your mother's is a brave step toward healing. Find solace in small joys. Brighter days are ahead. You're beautiful and deserving of happiness. I love your Videos.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your support and caring words 🫶

[@jordana4910]

Sending you positive vibes 🙏

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your support and generosity ❤️

[@jordana4910]

@@ErudwenASMR Anytime 🙏

[@Felis42]

Thank you for sharing this. You're going through a really difficult time and I am truly sorry to hear that. I also really admire you for your strength and for being so open and vulnerable with us. I found your channel during a very difficult time of my life just after I left an abusive relationship, and your videos helped me a lot. I wish I could return the favor. Please accept this small contribution as my token of appreciation. I wish you the best in the future. Sending lots of hugs, love and support from Czech Republic. ❤

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so incredibly much for your generosity ❤❤ Im happy that you were able to get out of that situation, abusive relationships really changes you and makes you lose yourself.. please I wish for you to find yourself and be able to heal ❤❤❤

[@SirPickleworth]

Your videos have been a consistent comfort for me on difficult nights. I'm sure you will land on your feet, we're all rooting for you!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity ❤❤ Im glad Im able to help you in any small way possible ❤

[@Andre-vr1ul]

There is more to life than working endlessly for money; A quite, humble and happy life surrounded by nature is worth so much more. I learned the same lesson myself. God Bless you!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity and for your words of wisdom, thank you ❤❤

[@thunderdan4058]

I hope you find some happiness back home. It is much better to live where you are loved.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your generosity, I really appreciate it ❤ I do hope this will be the change I need in my life ❤

[@bobbyosullivan1390]

Wow there's no words to express how sorry and heartbroken I am for you, what you went through was sickening abhorrent and you deserve so much more. But just keep in there I know it's very hard but we all believe in you and love you. Hope this lil donation helps and remember that the darkest hour comes just before the dawn. Lots of love and hang in there ❤.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity and for your wonderful comment ❤❤❤ I appreciate you so much, thank you once again ❤

[@bobbyosullivan1390]

@@ErudwenASMR you're more than welcome ❤️

[@riddleoffeels4518]

Erudwen I just want to say thank you for the content you make and to show some small amount of support for your channel. On a personal note there isn’t anything to say that will make this time easier. Just know that finding an end to the cruel or false elements of your life is never a real loss just a new beginning as you find the things you truly need. May you find success in the things that bring you joy.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your generosity and your kindness ❤❤❤

[@NoElf84]

Take the time you need, and keep climbing, you will get out of this. Thanks for all you've done for us.

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you so very much for your kindness and for your generosity ❤❤

[@Keanu010jwz]

I hope you find the peace you deserve. We will always support you. Thank you ❤️

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your support and your generosity ❤❤

[@Bauerranger89]

Stay strong! ✊🏻We are all in bad situations in parts of our lives but there will be better times.😊

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your caring words and for your generosity ❤️❤️

[@Resolute89]

Starting over can be a blessing and 30 is not even going to be a problem. You can get through all of this.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you!

[@JNoonsie]

Best of luck to you 🙏🏻

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your generosity and kindness ❤❤

[@eicoo2]

Your positive outlook on this is inspiring. I'm sorry that you've been shouldering these sorrows but I hope this new chapter for you is filled with joy and self love. Take your time and don't feel beholden to us to create content, I look forward to seeing new videos from you when you're ready 🙂

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your understanding and your thoughtfulness, Ive been planning some more of my 'ordinary' content once I feel a bit more put together ❤️

[@creamothunder]

Your content helped me remain calm during my own struggles. Work is important but not at the expense of your health. The same goes for relationships. Return to those who love you and begin healing. Get back into your hobbies and that which gives you joy. We love you. All the best.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity and for your words of wisdom, I wish you all the best as well and I hope you are able to overcome your struggles ❤

[@JasonLee-op1yn]

I understand. I have a degenerative spinal condition that I've been dealing with for 13 years. It's always caused me agonizing pain but, in September of last year, I also suffered a major heart attack that also had an impact on my spinal condition. Since then, the pain is so severe that I've been virtually bedridden since. Along the way I've lost my career, fiance and most of my family. I have nothing here because my ex took everything she wanted when she left. All i do is lay here day after day with this phone. No car, no income. Thankfully, I have a surgery on June 6th that should allow me to start over. Keep your head up. It WILL work out in the end even though the journey will suck.

[@mintyCS]

damn man youre a hero straight up. Thank you for sharing your story, motivates me to move and im able bodied. Silly of me to give up.

[@deuceb8472]

All the best vibes to you for your surgery and recovery. 🙏

[@JasonLee-op1yn]

@@slugwoo Thank you.

[@jarlwhiterun7478]

We both have exes that are bad people. They have evil hearts, that is a fact.

[@kevinjohj]

Keep us updated!

[@tylenolwalrus]

Your content is great and you seem like a lovely, thoughtful person. I am sure many, many people feel the same and would be glad to support you on Patreon if they can. Speaking from experience, the fact that you are so open and ready to begin healing is a great first step. I wish you all the luck in the world in the future and hope this is just the start of something even greater for you!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so so very much for your generosity and for your caring words ❤❤ I hope I will heal from this and making even better content ❤

[@katiew4156]

Went through something similar, the isolating move for an underserving boyfriend, stayed because of inertia but very unhappy, job burnout. Glad you have a positive perspective on the move, for myself it turned out to be the best possible thing for me. You'll be so much happier & resilient being back with friends and family who love you. Well wishes, hoping this is a turning point for you too!

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you for your generosity and for letting me know im not alone with going through all of this ❤ Im glad to hear that it all turned out for the better for you, thank you for everything ❤❤

[@Arcane861]

So sorry to hear about your situation 😔 I can really sympathise with the loneliness having moved for work and being in a city on my own for 3 years, once Covid finally seemed to be ramping down I moved back to my home town to be near family and friends again. I hope it'll be a tonic for you as it was for myself! You'll grow from this and hopefully never look back! Best wishes are with you!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your generosity ❤❤ Im happy to hear that it all turned out in your favor, that it became the best taken path for you ❤ I hope it will turn out the same way for me as well ❤❤

[@stuandrews1618]

I've been following you since about 900 subscribers. You have a wonderful accent for ASMR, and your subjects are always something I enjoy. I wish you all the best, Erudwen, take care of yourself.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your continued support during my years on KZbin, and thank you as well for your generosity I greatly appreciate you ❤❤

[@lookgoodinred]

So much love and support to you ❤ this is the beginning of a new chapter, only up from here!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very very much for your generosity and your kindness ❤❤ I appreciate you and I hope to being healing soon ❤

[@jadenebacher9365]

Good luck! Your optimism in finding the good in all this is so inspiring and I can only hope for the best for you!! ❤️

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your generosity and for believing in me, I hope to begin healing soon from all of this ❤❤

[@ambie9900]

im sorry i can't donate more, but sending you so much love and support. you bring so many people comfort when we need it. you deserve all the happiness and peace in the world. please take care of yourself and take your time getting back on your feet, we're all here for you ❤

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your generosity and kindness it means so much to me ❤ I hope to find myself again soon ❤❤

[@annas4191]

💚hugs

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so so much for your generosity ❤❤

[@TCBilly12]

Went through a very similar situation some years ago. Applied for FMLA cause I was burned out at my job, my wife wanted a divorce a week into the leave. She said she couldn't be there for me anymore (also probably cheated on me but I stopped asking questions). Anyway, that ultimate feeling of loneliness and being completely lost is extremely painful and I am really sorry this is happening to you. My family picked me back up and dusted me off, and my life is 110x better now even got remarried a 3 years ago. However, I won't lie it's going to be rough for awhile, and it will all hit you out of nowhere again and again for years. It's one of those awful things I don't think you ever get over 100% it just gets a little easier with time. Good things are coming your way and wish you luck.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your generosity, your support and for you sharing your own experiences ❤ I do believe my partner also cheated in the end, whenever I asked I got laughed at so I just stopped asking as well. Im happy to hear that you moved on and found true love, a partner that will always be there for you ❤ Thank you for believing in me ❤

[@jamesnicolson866]

Wow I'm so shocked and so sad by your news. I'm glad to hear you are moving in with your mother. Being around loved ones is always the best support!

[@ErudwenASMR]

I do hope to find myself once again, thank you for your kindness ❤️

[@porkmasmmo]

thank you for helping me to sleep for the past few months. its been hard, and it felt like you were the only person to help me through some dark times and sleepless nights. some of the hardest months of my life. but i've pulled through. i know you'll do the same

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your generosity and your support, Im happy that the content I create are able to help you in a small way ❤ Thank you for believing in me ❤

[@Akaos88]

😢🤗

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your love and generosity ❤❤

[@jake7808]

We love you Erudwen! Your content is so unique in its tone and content. I predict it will keep growing for years to come! Take care of yourself - you are adored by many people you have never met.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity and sorry for not being able to thank you earlier, its been a long trip back and forth to get all of my belongings back ❤️ I hope you are doing well, thank you once again so much for your support it means a lot to me ❤️

[@amberhansen3221]

I've been through this several times. I'm 44 and still am finding myself. Our Scandinavian side can be restless. We have a hard time settling. May blessings come your way and peace alongside them

[@sim9373]

It’s over for you lady. No man wants 44 year old 🐱

[@DONG-q8m]

​@@sim9373 unless they are in their 40s 4 year old

[@AloisBlackF]

Danke!

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you so very much ❤❤

[@BaronVonMutoh]

I'm really sorry about what you're dealing with. I hope you're able to get over your burn out situation soon. Sounds like the breakup was for the best given how you were being treated. If you open up any sort of patreon or equivalent please let us know. Your videos are incredible and we appreciate you 🫡

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your supportive comment I appreciate it a lot, I will update once I get myself together and figure out starting a Patreon ❤️

[@SHOman_86]

Something very similar happened to me last year. My partner left, I got passed over for a big promotion at work (eventually quit), and my mental health collapsed. Took me a full year to recover. You’ll get there, talking about it is a big step in the right direction 🙏

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for sharing your experiences, Im glad to hear that you did recover through all of your hardships! Your insight feels comforting during this time, thank you once again 🫶

[@kylemichel3006]

Being burnt out is one of the most deadly symptoms of today's society.... We live in a world where we have to adhere to the most ridiculous standards. when it comes to work, lovers, relationships, and life, it can ripple effect across everything. And on top of that an unrequited love? I feel for you. Take soloce in knowing that nothing lasts forever. this is a trail in your life, and as you say, life goes on. We live in a generation of loneliness, and to be honest, your videos have saved,. or help many people who have fallen into this same situation by the way you give your energy... Bless your heart, we will continue to support!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your thoughtful comment and for your support ❤️ Even tho Im not open about my profession or my personal life online I do feel like everything has become 'transactional', relationships.. work.. all of it. The concept of just being a bag of flesh always on the toes afraid of getting replaced gets tiresome, very fast. Once I pick myself up together, I will be able to share with you the things that I find joyful. Thank you once again ❤️

[@StayHungry41]

"You can't put a price on your sanity." I've said this to myself, several times. Sometimes the only solution is a fresh start ♥

[@ErudwenASMR]

❤❤

[@parisht89]

Just let me know where to sign up for a patreon! we would all love to help. Until then...

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your kindness and for your generosity, it means the world to me ❤

[@StellaMurano]

Thank you for sharing your story with us, I really hope things are going to pan out for you soon!! I keep my fingers crossed! Lots of love and support from Poland ❤ Good luck and please stay strong, there's always a rainbow hidden behind even the darkest of clouds ❤❤❤

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your kind words and for your generosity, it is very much appreciated ❤️ I will try my best to get over this soon ❤️❤️

[@butterparty]

"If you don't change course, you'll end up where you're headed." I went through something similar around 30. It's so difficult to lose your relationship, living arrangements and job simultaneously. But I promise you this is good news - you are right to be excited for the future. A few months after this happened to me and the dust had settled, I felt absolutely amazing. I was in control of my life again, and better understood my priorities for my happiness. The weight was off my shoulders. The rest from there flowed naturally. You got this girl. I'm sorry you have to go through it, but you will be born again on the other side as a better you. Big hugs from Australia. xo

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you, your comment is really inspiring to me and made me think in other ways about my current situation. Im happy to hear that you came out at the other end feeling amazing, I wish to have that feeling as well in a couple of months ❤❤

[@MrChristoph0r]

Depression is hard, and partners are challenging too. I will leave extra likes and comments to help the algorithm, and hope things only get better for you ❤

[@MTJMT]

You are a good dude

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much, I really do appreciate it and you ❤️

[@수지-k9r]

Fan va jobbigt, du förtjänar verkligen bättre! Du fick mig att börja samla på muminmuggar och den nya passionen gav mig lite extra glädje som jag behövde när jag var deprimerad. Jag kommer att be för dig!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Åh! ❤ Vad glad jag blir att höra att du också finner glädje i Mumin muggar, ta hand om dig jag uppskattar ditt stöd nå så oerhört ❤

[@debrafabac8776]

I don’t know about you but you have a natural gift to do ASMR Videos. You have more talent for this than people who have been doing it for years.

[@ajcrum3689]

omg yes that’s why i subscribe. she would be perfect for that .

[@jreverie7018]

Gosh I can relate to this so much. I really hope you're able to feel more at peace soon. I just turned 30 a few months ago. I have been burnt out for months, I couldn't afford to continue living in my home town , I was getting worse and worse by the day. I was diagnosed with burn out, generalised anxiety and the starting of depression. I just quit my job a few days ago, I borrowed money against my house to fund fixing it to rent, then I'm moving to a country I haven't even visited before to hopefully have a more peaceful life by nature. Like you say, it's never too late to change your path. As long as we are doing all we can to get things on the right track instead of being stuck in a negative spiralling pattern. Anyways, I'm rooting for you! You're not alone. 🤗

[@ErudwenASMR]

❤❤ I sincerely hope your move will be the change you need to heal and recover from your hardships and burnout, please take care of yourself you are a wonderful person. Thank you for your support ❤

[@jreverie7018]

@@ErudwenASMR Same to you Erudwen! Hang in there! : )

[@mrboogeymanasmr]

wishing you nothing but the best

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for your generosity and for your support ❤️!!

[@martinboldsen]

It's not much, but this comment is me sending you a ton of virtuel love, hugs and positive energy fra Denmark! It's ok to be sad and feeling down, but remember things will get better! Take you time if needed - your ASMR fans will be still be here. And thanks for all your videos.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your supportive comment, hopefully I will soon be back to making my 'ordinary' content once I get all my stuff shipped! ☺️

[@kcdangers]

From someone who started over again at 29, moved back in with their parents and reinvented myself, it gets good again. Thank you for being so vulnerable and authentic. You're a treasure!

[@ErudwenASMR]

❤❤ Im happy to hear that it will all work out in the end, thank you ❤

[@DOVAHKIIN1]

I'm very deeply sorry beautiful girl, remember you're a shield maiden and strength comes from your heritage. I too have great sorrow, my beautiful wonderful mom passed away 4-30-2024 at a specialty hospital from contracting multiple superbugs, she was on a ventilator. I miss her dearly. My Norse heart goes out to you and be strong.

[@db5158]

Så tråkigt att höra! Jag tror på dig och förhoppningsvis leder detta till något bra i slutändan, du är stark ❤️

[@ErudwenASMR]

Tack så mycket för ditt stöd, håller hoppet uppe att det kommer lösa sig ❤️

[@rsmpride8267]

Hey I just watched your video….and I just wanted to say that as alone as you feel…..I identify with your words. If I could help you from afar I would. Take care of yourself. There are many people who feel alone as well.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your comment, I do wish you also find support and people in your life who cherish you. You're an important person, I hope you take care as well ☺️

[@skewie88]

Kämpa, kämpa! Du har många Erudwen-ianer som älskar dina videos och den personlighet du uttrycker via dem. Det kan ta tid, men du kommer tillbaka från detta! ❤

[@ErudwenASMR]

Tusen tusen tack, för allt stöd av dig ❤❤ Jag hoppas jag kommer ta mig igenom detta och hitta mig själv igen på andra sidan ❤

[@asmrdork7107]

That truly sucks. Sorry this happened. But, from my position it sounds like you were in an abusive relationship. And it’s going to take hard work to handle the trauma but you can do it :)

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your insight, its been a lot but Im sure it will all be better from now on ❤️

[@DagSilgad]

Very real. It helps to talk, and it also could help others feel less alone if they are also going through mayhem. Thank you for sharing this with your community. You are a good soul.

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you ❤

[@Cavirex]

Dear Erudwen, you have been in my sleep schedule for a while and your videos have helped with my anxiety. I'm sorry that you had to go through this. Just know that time heals all wounds and that your community will support you. Wish you a great recovery!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much ❤

[@albertloewe]

Sorry to hear what you are going through. Hope this community can provide you with much love and support. Your videos are among my favourites and really help me to relax and sleep at night.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you ❤️

[@B0lld]

Very few people can be honest in the face of adversity, but you are one of the honest and courageous ones, Erudwen. I'm truly sorry for what you've been through. From what I know of you from your videos, you are a respectful, kind, and compassionate person. I wish I could truly be friends with such a good person like you. Besides writing here, I really wish I could be there for you and support you. As they say in the movie Rocky, 'It's not about how hard you can hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.' Nothing can hit harder than life itself, and our task is to face this blow like a champion. I'm sure that a strong and brave person like you won't be crushed by this blow. You mentioned in the video that you are alone, but you referred to your family and friends as 'old.' I wonder if it's not possible for you to receive support from them? For parents, their children's health is more important than anything else. Maybe you could live with them until you get back on your feet? There will always be ups and downs in life, but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, Erudwen, and I'm sure you'll overcome this. When you need support, we are here for you, please don't forget to inform us. P.S: English is not my native language if i wrote something wrong please forgive me.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so very much for your caring and supportive comment, Im really grateful to have your thought on the matter. When I moved together with my now ex, I left my family and a couple of few friendships over 13 hours away for a person who I thought wanted a life together with me. Currently Im blessed to be able to move in with my mother while I try to find a new place to call home, it's a lot at the same time but I will manage. Thank you once again 🫶

[@Sandlund93]

9 to 5 and happiness is a very hard combo to pull off for most, if not all people. I actually had no idea you had this channel on top of a 9 to 5, no wonder you're exhausted. I don't think the current model will last, I think UBI is the future. But that might not be the heaven we are all looking for, either.

[@Damza59]

stay positive, look forward to the future, time will solve everything. thanks for your content erudwen

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your support 🫶

[@m0o0oeh]

A change is as good as a rest. I'm so happy that you're able to make positive changes and make a difference for you.

[@keldin9303]

I've watched a lot of your videos and I'm a fan. I was sad to hear about your health issues back when you told us. I'm sad to hear about what you are going through now. I got a house with some woods. If you can make to Virginia I got you boo :)

[@ErudwenASMR]

❤️ Thank you for being so caring, sounds like you are living in a wonderful place!

[@keldin9303]

Yeah, its a decent place. Someone here would be able to do youtube full-time. No crap jobs. I would insist on it so we get that content.

[@jbd4365]

1. Pretty 2. Great accent 3. Clearly well raised Perfect for ASMR. This is the first time I've seen your channel but I think if you put out more videos where it's just whisper ASMR they'd do well, especially the more gentle visual/repetitive kind but I can see a lot of your viewers like your normal talking style ASMR too. Doing it in other languages is especially nice because I have no idea what you're saying so my mind isn't naturally trying to follow along and can just relax. You've got that adorable nurturing and gentle ASMR vibe and I think maybe the solution to all of this is continuing to grow your channel and end up being able to make more than any of your jobs. I think this is a blessing in disguise. He showed his true character, you get to go back and be with your family, and you have a good foundation for a successful YT channel. I wish you luck and I do hope you start a patreon.

[@corytuzzo]

Sending lots of love 💜💙 get some deserved rest. I too like to get out in nature when I feel overwhelmed. I hope you find your happiness again :)

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much, I greatly appreciate your support ❤️❤️

[@commandeur2766]

I'm sorry you are going through this, but you are not alone. Actually all of my family and friends have been completely burnt out for the last couple weeks. I just went through a breakup myself as well. Thank you for being here for all of us.

[@TheDarkermanzz]

It's kind of crazy that the person who relaxes us, fails to be able to relax herself. I wish we could do the same for you Erudwen! Take care, I wish you best of luck and a lot of happiness in the future :)

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you ❤❤

[@Astra_Lapa]

Wow I'm so sorry that you had to endure that. I know what it's like feeling worthless. And I want you to know it is okay ppl are never gonna be perfect but there is no doubt in my mind that you will make a smooth recovery. Mental health is so important. When I went thru a year of abuse I turned to Your soft spoken ASMR videos and your absolutely beautiful accent helped me to sleep Everytime I tune in to your videos. You are an absolutely precious woman. He did not deserve a person as heavenly as you are. Look at all the ppl you have helped in this comment section (me included)😊. We are all here for you. You rock. You will climb right back on top sometimes we fall in that dark hole but we climb right back to the top. This nxt chapter in your life will be better than ever. I promise you your journey forward will be nothing but bright🤗🌟we all believe in you and love you. Thank you so much for you wonderfully crafted content💗

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you for believing in me, and thank you for all the support ❤❤ I hope you are able to recover from the abuse you experienced.. please take care of yourself ❤

[@DaughterofTheKing960]

I just happened to come across this just now. I am SOOOOO SORRY for what you are going through!!! What a SWEET, PRECIOUS, BEAUTIFUL SOUL YOU ARE!!! I pray God will bring you through all of this stuff and HEAL YOUR HEART AND YOUR LIFE VERY SOON!!! BLESS YOU BEAUTIFUL!!!!👑🙏🙏🙏👸 ❤️❤️❤️

[@peterbrown6340]

You are amazing. Everything including grief and loss in life is a lesson. You are learning those lessons. You will thrive. Believe in yourself and love yourself. The universe will give you what you need when you need it so long as you give to it and live your best life for your true self! We love you. Now love yourself. Love your content!

[@1kvall]

You deserve better and better will come, take ur time to self heal and keep ur mind busy and surround yourself with the ones who do love you. 🤞🏽

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your support, I appreciate it a lot 🫶

[@cdwizzerd]

yeah, life can throw you some wild curve balls in your late 20s. Im still reeling from my own, & am in the middle of doing an emergency house move amongst many other stressful & hard things. i just want to say, these things can take time & effort, but as long as you embrace change & try to stay strong you can always pull through, or at least thats what i tell myself 🤞😎

[@ernestoguevara0708]

Espero puedas entender mi mensaje, ya que mi ingles no es tan fluido pero: Eres una guerrera, y creeme que nunca estará mal que llores o te desahogues por algo que te está haciendo daño, es natural y es saludable... Te lo dice alguien que lo ha perdido todo una vez y ha tenido que empezar de nuevo, tu puedes... Que nada ni nadie en este mundo te detenga y recuerda que tienes a todos tus seguidores en KZbin o cualquier red social que tengas, que te vamos a apoyar con lindos mensajes o en lo que se pueda... Muchas bendiciones 🙏🏼❤️

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience and words of encouragement ❤ I used google translate to translate your comment, thank you for your kindness it means a lot ❤

[@Moon_Eir]

Oh hunny! You are not alone. You have whole spirit team on the other side who are guiding you. Toxic things are being removed so you can find your way back on your TRUE MISSION!!! It’s all falling apart because you are about to embark on BIGGER things!!! All this will pass! I PROMISE! ❤

[@buhgingy]

You've got this, no rush. We're patient :)

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you 🫶

[@jardelholub9409]

Some words of encouragement from some random dude from Brazil: I am really sorry, and seems to be a really unfortunate situation. I believe your way of thinking and outlook on things is the correct one. It's never worth to give any more of ourselves to people who do not care about us. Now its time to sit, think, connect with the people you care (and care for you). Take care of yourself. I found your channel few weeks ago, and your content and voice is one of the few that can trully sooth my mind and calm my anxiety. I really hope you can keep creating content, if that is what you desire. Thank you, and i wish you the best, and proper heal for your mind, heart and soul.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your thoughtful comment and encouragement, I really do appreciate it ❤️

[@NeverHadFun]

Hold hope. These things are tough, but for the best of both parties. Make sure to prioritize your mental health and do things that you enjoy and that make you happy. We will be here, you just do you. : )

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your support ☺️

[@SuzanneMccormick-w4h]

Thank you for your post. Know this ,y BEAUTIFUL friend, you are worthy of an amazing life and life partner. Learn from this experience and use it to find your strength. I too have been where you are but I climbed that dark and lonely hill and came out stronger, smarter and with a boatload of integrity and you will too. I’m praying for you and we love you. Stay strong and hopeful because you got this. 😘🙏👍

[@pablopinto1729]

You are not alone! Just distracted, blinded by so much weight to carry, and It's not worth it.

[@ErudwenASMR]

❤️

[@zaineofdoom]

So sorry to hear about your situation. I can only imagine the chaos you must be feeling at the moment. I sincerely hope you will recover swiftly from this mess and achieve your dreams. Best wishes from Denmark!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your understanding ❤

[@Kaddahn]

Take your time, break ups can be really really tough, even more when you are already in a fragile state. Enjoy the sun and things that make you laugh. Avoid melancholic music and old photos. Be yourself, and heal, we will wait for you no matter the time o/

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you so much ❤️

[@connoramen9804]

Hope you know you’ve got support from San Antonio, Texas! Praying for you and hope you use this time of simplifying everything and purging people to get back to what you love again!

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you so much ❤❤

[@connoramen9804]

@@ErudwenASMR if you’re ever in Texas, reach out and I’ll show you around!

[@jasonfishell6638]

I found out Friday, after 48 years...that my entirely family lied to me that my father is not my father. I am the bastard son of a rapist. You are a beautiful soul and that can't be destroyed, no matter how others try to break you down. Take care of yourself and prayers to you to heal. You can always reach out to me and the others you have helped. Your videos kick ass and we will be here for you always.

[@ErudwenASMR]

Im so sorry that you're going through these horrific events, you are not a reflection of the indecent nor should it be yours to carry. I sincerely hope you are able to find some kind of way of moving on and finding inner peace. Thank you for your support, I greatly appreciate you ❤️

[@jasonfishell6638]

@@ErudwenASMR That's so kind of you. And I have found that inner peace quite quickly. Thank you again for the soothing videos.

[@ver2cal2010]

He sounds like a loser. You’re going to be back home with friends and family who love and support you. I can’t wait to see what’s in store for you.

[@ErudwenASMR]

I appreciate you ❤️

[@br6mn3ja]

I hope you feel better soon❤

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you so very much for your care and generosity ❤❤

[@smoothmovez]

You are a very talented, sweet, and beautiful woman. Just another chapter in life! Much love and best wishes for you!

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your caring words 🫶

[@kristinaldridge1712]

I married and moved to another country just to be alone and have to start over again alone. That was many years ago. I know how hard it is. You always have you and you can always turn to yourself when you love yourself. All you need is to love yourself and trust yourself.

[@kylestyle5693]

I think you have one of the most amazing voices I ever heard. I am so grateful for all the wonderful videos you made so far. Take your time healing. ❤

[@ErudwenASMR]

Thank you for your support and feedback ❤

[@Yeseniav09]

You are a beautiful talented woman that deserves so much more! Take this as a lesson and put this motivation to good use! We will be patiently waiting for you to come back. Take as much time as you need and please be easy on yourself.

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you ❤

[@KatyBunz]

I left an engagement and moved back home age 32 - was the best thing I ever did ❤ take the time you need to recover xx

[@ErudwenASMR]

❤️❤️ Im happy that you made the right choice for yourself, I think this will be the best for me as well!

[@dazzaboy04]

I've never seen your channel before, first time ever. Got half way through and had to pause it to come here and tell you just how much I feel for you and the circumstances you find yourself in. There's an old saying: one door closes....another door opens. Find that open door. Leave the closed door behind and step on through. I hope you and your heart mend together 🖤

[@barbiehannibal]

Sending my best wishes your way! Do what feels right for you to get out of a toxic and life-draining situation! ❤ Much love from the U.S

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you ❤

[@michaelcontreras3668]

Your in my prayers my dear friend God bless you always💙🙏🙏

[@paulgioia9730]

You have helped me get through burnout and depression with your amazing channel. You have THE best asmr voice Ive ever heard and if you decided to go full time with a channel, I would become a member and a patron. Sending love and strength from South Africa.

[@ErudwenASMR]

thank you so very much for your kindness and for believing in me ❤ im happy ive been able to help you out a little bit ❤