Hitori no Tame no Lullaby - EXTENDED

[@denkoumasato]

1 million views?! Thank you everyone. I know I really don't do much with this channel but I still use it everyday and read your comments when I can. Remember: You're a wonderful person. You matter. Your feelings matter. I'm proud of you and I love you.

[@full_of_sadness]

Thx for it, gl

[@santiagogomezgomez1334]

I love you too

[@jakechan7375]

I love u too. Thanks Bro

[@thechosenone8332]

Thank you for uploading this beautiful song and bringing this community together.

[@nathanbroke8856]

Love you OP ❤️

[@joshuapowell3526]

"A drama has a progressive plot, an emotional climax and a resolution, but our lives aren't like that. All we get day after day, are a bunch of vague anxieties that are never really resolved."

[@amenonaka4402]

"youre not going home defeated right?!!"

[@isuzuke]

"I farted" - *Obama*

[@axelssantoso5667]

@@amenonaka4402 bruh u destroyed me with that line, got ptsds to that scene...

[@confederaterussian5945]

Hello everybody hikikomori in 2021 years..."Welcome to NHK" forever, that's always

[@benzohhhhh]

@@confederaterussian5945 man I am too but I’m ready to stop this shit, have you made it out the Nhk yet?

[@mw2forthewin]

i was living as a hikikomori for about 8 months in my dads spare room. college dropout. haunted by soul crushing anxiety and depression. then i came across welcome to the nhk and i was soo damn happy i found it. everything i was thinking and feeling summed up nicely in 20 some-odd episodes. i thought "man if i could show this to my dad maybe he'd understand, understand why I'm so afraid to leave the house. why i had that panic attack when we went out to dinner that i just held in and tried to hide from you, why my hands and arms furiously shake when i have to interact with someone i don't know. this constant feeling of being watched by everyone from every angle like theres no escaping it like they're all judging me like they're all looking down on me, Finally someone made a piece of art that could portray my feelings exactly how i was feeling them!" but i never did show him. instead i scheduled a doctors appointment, and got a few prescriptions filled out to help me. my hands and arms stopped shaking. i was able to secure a full time job in a warehouse so i wouldn't have to be around people, constantly feeling uncomfortable. ill probably try to start college again once i feel i can handle it too. Do i enjoy my life more now? not really. is everyday still boring as hell and seem to be a drag? yes. Do i still feel completely alone even when surround by my entire family? yes. would i rather just go back to that room at my dads and curl up in my bed for another 10 years? yes. but after my time spent there and after watching this anime i realized that my problems weren't going away. there wasn't a Misaki coming to help me through this as she pretends to be my therapist. i didn't have a Yamazaki to chat about anime and video games with or a Hitomi to reminisce about the days we spent together in high school. they were gone, moved away, getting on with their lives while i sat in my dads spare room on my computer day in and day out. i don't remember when or how exactly it started or how i even got to that point but i guess you could say I'm better now, at least by societys standards. I'm not really sure why I'm writing this here. probably because I'm faceless and anonymous on the internet but I've never told anyone this, how i truly feel that is, i guess. but anyway I'm moving forward now. which is all i can do. if you ever find yourself in this situation i hope you don't have to dope yourself up with prescriptions just to function through one day. i hope you can recover on your own, find something that makes you truly happy, and enjoy life. I'm still searching. will i ever find it? i don't know, maybe not is what i think. but if theres one thing i know for damn sure its that its not in that spare room at my dads. things will never change with me staying there. but i realized that thats just life, things won't just magically get better. all i can do is just live each day as i am, hoping they will, thats all i have. anyways this is obviously my favorite anime of all time and one of my favorite soundtracks. if you haven't seen it go give it a try. see what you think, its got some great dark comedy. if you're still reading then thanks for listening i guess. i might just end up deleting this after i post it but i think it was good for me to get all this out. (even if it is just a post under a anonymous profile)

[@joshuapowell3526]

Thank you for sharing [I could relate] and congrats.

[@Rverm9]

hmm, good luck to you .. hopefully you find your way.

[@blooperx5729]

dont ever delete this

[@kaded_]

Keep on keeping on my dude.

[@syther6768]

One day it will just be a memory until that day comes just keep at it man

[@richardface4504]

No dramatic deaths for us, lads. There's a reason that our anthem is lullaby.

[@masspwnagedGames]

you fuck. that's deep.

[@liam606]

soldier :)

[@theocean3364]

thats very much correct to be expressed in words

[@user-wm8cc5ym7y]

Yamazaki was one of the strongest characters in the show

[@anan5104]

"Guys" like us aren't allowed to have dramatic death

[@yellowsubmarine7294]

What helped me get through depression, failure and loneliness. 1. Stop getting attached to your expectations. In fact, don't even get attached to the very idea of your detachment from it. 2. Workout for atleast 45 mins a day, make sure you get your nutrients in order and keep a balanced diet. 3. If you're trying to take risks or are fearful about doing something, take a minute to breathe. Understand your fear, accept that it is affecting you and it affects many others, its nothing special. Then make calculated risks. 4. 1st step is the hardest. Once you get through the initial obstacles, it does become easier ahead. 5. Always be grateful for each day and every moment. Never take it for granted.

[@kimmanapil09]

WELCOME TO THE HNK 'S MESSAGE IN A NUTSHELL

[@crisnilo4370]

Thank you. It's been 3 years since I first read your comment, and I'm doing better.

[@MrEvilfliqpy]

Good points, glad I read this message. Thank you

[@bymexii5781]

After coming here for the last 6 years I have realized that this is a virtual support group, instead of sitting in a circle we come here every now and then to tell stories and get away from the NHK. Even if you are new or old just know that we understand and the only way is up my friend. Once you grasp rock bottom there is a light if you look up. I wont lie to you, life has eaten me. I have been close to giving up. I have been told that what I have experienced in my life I shouldn't be here anymore but I am. As long as you have the child in your head holding your hand through the pain you will make it. We will always be here when you come back. We love all of you, time to take a rest.

[@masspwnagedGames]

Hug.

[@weedvszombies4015]

Very wholesome

[@OliverHatched]

This is the teenie corner of KZbin where people are openly sad, and kind to each other. It's a wonderful place.

[@OliverHatched]

I attempted suicide two days before last Christmas, and I'm still trying to get better. It's never easy. I've been in and out of the hospital, on and off medications, going from therapist to therapist, you get the idea. I won't tell you what to do. I just hope you find inner peace and comfort soon. You need it. You deserve it. Stay safe.

[@OliverHatched]

A few times, usually lasting around six months to a year. Working gives me anxiety, and I often feel socially inept and avoid people. It seems like everyone else has no problems making and keeping friends, holding down a job, paying bills, going shopping, and everything else required these days to live a normal life. Being a person who can't emotionally handle basic tasks like these makes me feel incompetent.

[@OliverHatched]

A life alone isn't livable... Being isolated is insanely painful. I wish there was something I could do to help. I'm sure you've already tried therapy if you could. And seeing a therapist would just stir all that anxiety up. I'm sorry you're going through this.

[@denkoumasato]

"A life alone isn't livable" Totally agree, which is what makes it difficult for many, myself included. Hope you are getting at least a little better, sounds like you have tried therapy. My anxiety is preventing me from doing the same but hopefully some day I'll be able to overcome it. Up until recently being forced to go to work each day was the only reason/excuse I had to go outside and socialize. I'm one of those that likes to socialize but will never initiate or be the first. Then I got the ability to go completely work from home, which is nice, but does tend to get lonelier.

[@Redharvest10]

+Denkou Masato Sometimes I struggle with depression, I could be around a group of people and feel disconnected from all of them and the worst part is when I feel a huge build up of this feeling of love I have for others, for anyone and I just would want anyone to accept it but the people I've tried to give it too would always reject it and what's worse is that the weather would always get cold, extremely cold. I would eat in the cold, wake up cold and go to sleep cold day in and day out for what felt like months! All I wanted was a little warmth from anyone who I thought would accept it but the complete opposite happened! So I would give all my little acts of love to those who truly needed it, the homeless, because they are as hurt and isolated more than we are but they are the ones who will appreciate you the most. Why? Because you were the one who offered what others couldn't, to acknowledge that they are there asking for help with all their heart just like we do in a way.

[@ErenAurelius27]

I'm 23 now and I've been living like this for 3.5 years since I was 20. No job, boring and depressing life, no girlfriend, no friends, skinny, no skills whatsoever. I used to go to college, but I stopped when I was in my 4th semester because I experienced something that I only found out some time later that it was depression. Since then, my days have only been spent watching Anime, KZbin, playing social media, and all sorts of things on the Internet. The only time I stop playing on my cellphone or computer is when I sleep, and even then my sleep hours are chaotic, maybe I only sleep 4 hours a day. I use those things as distractions for my useless life. My daily food is only junk food, I rarely go out of the house. I just lock myself in my room every day. I tried to commit suicide several times but failed because I was afraid of the pain. I've tried many times to get up and change, but for some reason maybe because I'm weak so I always fail and that makes me always feel hopeless. But deep down in my heart, I don't want to live like this forever. Now I want to try again, I want to change completely. I want to start over from zero. Starting today, I promise to take action for my life.

[@koutanaka4820]

yaaaa, I Am 20 ( I have also wasted many year 3-4 maybe,Dude but we can't live like this,We will have to Change, Please Don't give Up This Time :) stay strong 🙏

[@furiifouru]

Keep going 💪

[@StrawberryFox56]

i wish you good luck. i used to be like that until i realized that i can actually take action.

[@koutanaka4820]

@@StrawberryFox56 yesss 💯

[@sukeban1337]

I don't know, at least, try your best, pal, don't have any regrets...

[@pmwest7977]

Listening this while having a dead end job and drinking beer alone. It's the little things

[@sunsetgradient]

me too man.

[@nessew7835]

Join our NHK discord if anyone wants, we help eachother out with our problems or just chat/talk with eachother. discord.gg/enE2Tb9

[@lukagg998]

hey your dead end job is important for so many people bro

[@alanbauer4529]

that's what im doing right now, thats the reason i appreciate your comment so much, is something like, you were watching me in front of my computer, drinking and listening to some kind of relaxing music. Greetings, i dont know you, but you are my friend.

[@Drek492]

@@alanbauer4529 We're all so alike, different times, different countries, different languages but the same problems, the same questions. Existence is truly haunting and beautiful at the same time.

[@greystripe_8362]

Its been 4 years since i watched this show. Many things have changed around me. My father passed away, moved into a new state, got into uni, last 1 year until i dropped out. so much has happened, yet ive still remained the fragile, unmoving, unmotivated same old scumbag with nothing better to do in his life than sit around on my computer screen all day long. and it kind of makes me mad. I have so many people who care about me who want me to succeed and only want happiness in my life, in truth i should be really happy right? why am i so unbelivably sad? Ive started working out this past few months. its made me feel slightly better about myself. ive tried talking to the people in the gym, even if i keep failing most of the time. ive been at rock bottom for so long, but ive started taking at least some steps... i hope it leads to somewhere. wishing the best to all of you. if even someone like me has started trying just a little bit, then there's hope. keep on hanging

[@letmeknowyourname6101]

Hope... Hope is a good thing.. Keep going, you are doing just fine.. All the best brother.

[@S.U7637]

Thx young lad, i'am 32 y'old , living 2 years hikikomori life after losing my job , now i'am going to work as waiter soon, wishing for all the best ✊

[@carlsjuniorbigburger]

@@S.U7637 I wish you the best of luck!

[@normalman6078]

This one hit too close to home.

[@Actraiser1]

A lot of NHK stuff got removed on KZbin :/ I'm glad to see this is still here.

[@denkoumasato]

+Actraiser1 We'll see for how long. Got a notice that because of KZbin Red some of their "partners" didn't give the consent for their stuff to be switched over, so this video was flagged and blocked in the U.S. I refuted the claim but it may end up getting removed still. Time will tell :(

[@daveed2589]

Fuck youtube red

[@daveed2589]

This'll probably stay because it's not the original version.

[@Tooopper]

+stalfos slayer What's KZbin red?

[@Tooopper]

Dog Man Well now. I'm sad....More for the reason that this doesn't surprise me whatsoever.

[@capito2638]

"If you've the courage to jump, you've the courage to live."

[@mrpndaman129]

"If you've the courage to jump, do it" (fixed it for ya)

[@punpunpunyama9271]

@@mrpndaman129 edgy

[@hido...]

TRUMPisTHE manWITHthePLANmaga2020 you should take your own advice

[@mrpndaman129]

@@hido... you first

[@JEEVES635]

@@mrpndaman129 sad child

[@YamiKage.]

That's it, it's over. Satou, Misaki, Yamazaki, over. They're all gone. No more Satou waking up or going to the park to smoke. No more Misaki watching Satou. No more Yamazaki playing games and listening to Pururin. Like no life after death their tail is over. This song only makes me realize it when the tune finally fades away.

[@pessimistkai5569]

:'( Like they never existed.

[@valerian670]

Im really crying,stop it please,im not joking please delete this comment..

[@aymeric9778]

Yeah but we should think about them and smile, not cry, that's what they would've wanted us to do. I hope we could enjoy the rest... (wrong english i guess)

[@IamMortui]

I can't get this comment out of my head...

[@CollinScoth]

Lol go and rewatch it already.

[@spaceyokai]

I watched this show recently and I realized how much I've become like sato, it was like putting a mirror to my face it shocked me to my core. watching this show made me want to throw up and I cried so much during this show seeing how real it would get. I'm also a college drop out and have been a hikikomori for almost 3 years now and watching this show has given me hope for guys like me I'm 21 so it's not too late for me. for a time I couldn't listen to this song or any the nhk ost without crying my eyes out but then realized the true meaning of this song and that its not a song of sadness but a song about melancholic hopefulness. I've already filled out and put in several resumes hoping to change my hikikomori ways good luck to anyone else out there and let's continue to fight our NHK!!!

[@mariegertrude119]

Hope your interviews are going well or that you landed a job!

[@wykeyMo]

when i was watching the anime some parts i was like ya thats me until after finishing it and thinking out it for a couple im just like sato, staying inside, thinking everyone is against me when i got outside, its all a conspiracy (watched it like a week ago)

[@suave605]

Did it go well?

[@djinn6720]

It' been some time but I am somewhat similar. Thinking of dropping out collage and doing something meaningful for me. I hope your life is going well.

[@fernandocardenas7623]

you are not alone!..

[@pauluspaul127]

i'm 24 now, watched welcome to the nhk 2 years ago, and now i'm here again. My case might be more similar to Yamazaki where i've got a family business to take care of, but that doesn't mean life isn't challenging. After i watched this for the first time i then graduated, get my degree and went back home to take care of it. But after 2 years i realized i'm not where i would like to be, and decided to go to the capital and find a new job there. And then i realized i still dont have enough skill to live on my own, and thus i'm holed up trying to improve my self, trying to get a place for myself in the city. Idk whether i'll ended up like Yamazaki where he failed and went back home or not, but i'm certainly not as young as he was and i felt tremendous pressure. Starting to get social anxieties in public places, taking meds, etc. I'm leaving this message for my future self who might have found his way in life and probably others who are also struggling in life. Hope we all make it out here to a better place, folks.

[@jairox7396]

I wish you good look

[@silverlake_101]

if you ever want to feel depressed just read comments on the Welcome to the NHK ost

[@TheAbush]

Jokes on you, was depressed long before I came here

[@TheAbush]

Haha, bet you feel stupid now

[@BrgArt]

actually make me feel a little bit better about myself. I take all these story more as a warning than anything else.

[@sadkritx6200]

@@BrgArt I also feel better rather than depressed after reading the comments. But rather than a warning they make me feel like I'm not alone in this, everyones got problems and they're fighting. That's what gives me a sort of relaxing feel .

[@josemallardask]

@@BrgArt Me too, i see this place as huge collective hug

[@robinsondote9034]

Con lo "rota" que estaba Misaki por dentro, era imposible que pudiera realmente "curar" a Sato. Y al final, no fue ni ella ni su amigo los que lo curaron. Fue sólo cuando él tomó la decisión de cambiar que pudo realmente hacerlo (aunque estuviera obligado a hacerlo, al final, fue él el que lo hizo). Así que no esperemos por una Misaki en nuestras vidas. Seamos nosotros mismos la razón y el motivo de los cambios que necesitamos hacer. Nunca es tarde para comenzar de nuevo. No nos comparemos con los otros. Enfoquémonos en nuestras metas y en lo que queremos alcanzar. Podemos lograrlo, y lo haremos. Si fallamos algunas veces, es natural. Pero recordemos que esos errores no definen quiénes somos ni qué podemos llegar a ser. Tenemos un gran potencial en nuestra vida. El futuro puede parecer abrumador, pero preocupémonos por lo que tenemos que hacer hoy. Cuando el mañana llegue, habrá tiempo suficiente para preocuparse de él. Pero lo importante son nuestras decisiones ahora. De todo corazón, sea quien sea que esté leyendo esto, quiero que confíes en ti. Tú puedes cambiar tu vida. ¡Aún puedes comenzar de nuevo!

[@nam1110]

gracias

[@yazuky1050]

me salieron unas lagrimas al leer tu comentario, gracias

[@サイモン-m2o]

Muchas gracias por el comentario :')

[@TheSillyBird]

Esto es lo más bonito que he leído últimamente... Desde que rompí mi con mi novia me he sentido tan destruído como Satou o Misaki. Pero esos momentos ya terminaron para mí, lo que necesito es volver a cambiar para lograr a ser una mejor versión de mi persona. ¡Gracias Extraño, por sacarme unas lágrimas! :")

[@endless_dream837]

Creo que es bueno pensar, al principio, que habrá alguien que te saque del abismo, es decir, seas hombre o seas mujer, en un principio es como una buena chance para generar el cambio. A lo que voy es que creo que varios, incluido yo, me sentí identificado con el prota e incluso con la necesidad de estar a lado de alguien, ya después de esperar a alguien, pero conforme va pasando el tiempo, vas aprendiendo cosas, vas conociendo gente, va saliendo gente de tu vida, y la situación va cambiando (para bien o para mal), ya después te das cuenta que ocurre eso que has dicho, pero sólo hasta experimentarlo. Creo que esa es la forma en que el anime te da a entender que las cosas están en un estado de constante cambio, de que no siempre vas a estar estancado, sino que de forma gradual vas a ir cambiando. Así como dices que Misaki estaba demasiado rota por dentro, Satou también lo estaba a su manera, y quizá si no se hubieran cruzado sus vidas, Satou seguiría de hikikomori por unos 8 años más o capaz se habría suicidado llegado un punto de crisis muy extremo, el punto es que si Misaki no lo buscaba, ella seguro se hubiera suicidado, y entonces, acá entra la situación de que nadie le iba solucionar la vida del otro, sino que la contrario, cada quien a su manera estaba buscando solucionar sus problemas (Satou saliendo de la rutina y haciéndose autosuficiente viendo las circunstancias) y Misaki tratando de darse cuenta que era útil para alguien, que en realidad y gracias a ella, Satou se dio cuenta que sólo de él dependía salir adelante, no de ella ni de nadie más, que aunque él ya llego un punto de casi, casi "No necesitarla", él le retribuyo, a su manera, haciéndole entrar en razón de que no era necesario llegar a esos extremos (de suicidarse) y que por ende, jodidos y todo, iban a salir adelante aunque fuera poco a poco, sin llegar a depender de nadie, siendo autosuficientes... Aunque bueno, por el momento y como amigos, iban a hacer lo que pudieran para seguir avanzando (lo mismo si hubieran seguido solos por su lado).

[@marquezrobinson7492]

When I read these comments and cried because of how open other human beings can be with each other even we are complete strangers . Its a beautiful thing to see , as for me im insure were my life will either ill end up like sato or find my own way im still kind of curious almost as if im watching an atlernate what if reality.

[@UnbiddenZed]

And it's all thanks to 1 anime song ^^

[@2ms2]

I think it's exactly because we are complete strangers that we can open up to others.

[@sharks2588]

Hope you’re doing well

[@erenjay1844]

Man where has the time gone? This takes me back to a much simpler time... Can i just go back to being a teenager sitting in my room watching anime please?

[@tomasznienajado3476]

There is no Misaki. There is no one willing to shoulder Your pain for no benefit of their own. Remember it. In order to get help you must PROVIDE help to others, with no certainty of response or success. It's not fair, nor is it just; but that is the way it is. No one cares about Your pain and hurt. All you can do is relieve others of their struggle and hope that they are smart enough to appreciate it. Never be a burden to those who love you , only be a relief. I know it sounds easy to write, and it's hard to do. But this is the only way of doing it. The only way. Welcome to NHK :) If it matters to You at all, i have your back :)

[@helios1087]

And even if there was. You won't stop being hikkikomori if you can't do it on your own. It's nice to be supported by people like Misaki or Yamazaki. But your life is your own, your problems can be fixed only by you. So you should help yourself, and support the others

[@autumnalfragrance5059]

There is a Misaki. and we all do. to quote another anon; " if you paid any heed to the message of NHK then you'd know we all have Misaki and she has already knocked " You watched this anime, meaning that she had knocked. Whats left is for you to decide to answer her.

[@raymcmahan5080]

This is the most honest and helpful comment in this thread. It's nice for everyone to commiserate with feeling miserable, but your advice actually gets to the heart of what works. Thank you for the realism.

[@elpretender1357]

@@raymcmahan5080 Indeed. I think the same. While I could just make a list of why I feel terrible, that effort would be better put to do a single act of kindness or love for someone in your life, someone physical who's not on the other side of the screen. I've found after so much time that the only thing that can separate you from lonelyness and low self-esteem is spending time with real people and make friends. It is hard, but it's worth it.

[@TheAbush]

Years pass but pain persists my friend, nothing changes. No Help Koming

[@feni007]

Going on 20 years now. I was only 17 when I started living Satou's life, but somehow it feels just like yesterday. Dad had moved down to Florida for work(I live in upper Michigan), and directly after that Grandma had died. Soon after that Grandpa moved down state to be with my aunt/uncles, leaving me alone in a ghost town. That continued for a few years before Dad came back for a bit and helped me move into an apartment in town, the very same one I'm still in. Things started out good but didn't last. I had an old 1980's truck to get me to college but once winter hit I couldn't get it to go past 1st gear, so it was impossible to climb the massive hill that led away from town to college and no buses ran that late so I ended up dropping out. I didn't have the money to fix the truck, and through some horrible twist of fate the apartment complex turned my truck into a tetris piece. Apparently the manager had been fighting with the other residents for years, telling them to stop parking in the back and just leaving them there during the winter, it was blocking the ploughs. She put out an ultimatum(still not sure if it was legal), move your vehicles by X date or they'll be towed and cubed, but you will be compensated. I of course learned of this when some cliche looking scrap dealer showed up at my door handing me 100 or 200$ for my truck he had recently destroyed. So there went the truck and the last time I've driven. My friend had lived with me for about 2 years after that. Let's call that my yamazaki time lol. I had alot of fun while he was here, but yeah that didn't last either. We both played FFXI and he met a girl on there, ended up moving out with her. Weirdly enough he lived very close to me for about a year with her but I only went over there a few times. Every couple of years he'll invite me out of nowhere to play some mmo and then we'll get absorbed for about a month or two then go our separate ways again for another 3-4 years. But yeah after he moved out things kind of just...froze. Years just continued to go by while nothing changed, and yet I'm gonna say something weird about it. I don't entirely regret it. Honestly now that I'm older and look back, my life wasn't THAT bad. I basically relaxed for 20 years. I have a home, heat, food, and very little stress compared to the average person. I got a little budgie back in 2010 that makes me very happy too. They're loving creatures if their cage is always open, he hangs out on me most of the day. Plus since 2015 I've been working on a story that is finally completed. I was stressed out for the first time since the 90's because I couldn't figure out how to get it out there. Word form doesn't cut it, this was designed as a visual novel after all but I can't afford the art. Webtoons idea met the same fate. I can't draw at all so doing it myself is out. Recently though I found a ray of light, I didn't realize just how far along game creation has come along. Making it into a game alone isn't viable, but as a show? With the exception of voices and body animation, the rest is perfectly doable solo, and in very good 4k quality. I'll have to figure out the 2 previous problems when I get there but as it is now, I'm happy in my relaxing life learning unreal engine striving towards my goal. There might only be a 1% success chance for all I know, but who cares? That's the beauty of this life, no one is breathing down my neck demanding a 100% return. Lastly I'd like to mention how funny it is when you compare your own values to the world outside after living my life. Living alone for 20 years makes you VERY different from everyone else, and I don't mean value wise(although that's different too). It's more like...disconnected? I watch political stuff from time to time when I want a laugh, because I feel like I'm watching "what's trending on Neptune". Hell I didn't even know Corona was a thing till the people at my local store were all wearing masks which obviously made me suspicious. Basically my life is playing games, watching anime, reading manga, playing with my bird, and making my show. I do get why most people would dread this kind of future, but personally if I had to redo my life I'd probably just do it all the same again. My day consisted of playing Genshin Impact for a few hours, watching a few games of a Dota 2 tournament, and learning some Unreal. Honestly, I'm pretty happy these days. Not having a woman hasn't mattered to me in MANY years.

[@DimaMitya2]

That sounds pretty good.. has the loneliness ever got to you? Have you ever been physiologically beaten by the thoughts of not being as good as you thought? Also how do you live like that without income? Sorry if it’s too many question..

[@feni007]

​@@DimaMitya2 Oh it's all good man I don't mind answering! And yeah the loneliness was pretty bad after my friend moved out. And then when we stopped playing ffxi/WoW I basically never talked to anyone for a long long time. He actually popped back up last week asking if I wanted to play shadowlands at some point lol, so we'll end up doing that sometime late 2021 I bet. Probably the lowest point was when my power got turned off because consumers energy screwed up. I'll mention more below but plenty of places will help on your power, but something happened...I can't remember what, but there was a point nobody could help. So my mom offered to pay for me. She asked consumers if she could write a check in and they said yeah just make sure his consumers acc# is on the check. Which she did while she was on the phone with me. They put the money in her account instead and we had no idea. Just suddenly one day I had no power and when we called them up they refused to acknowledge the mess up, so now I had the initial costs plus a MASSIVE fee needed to get the power turned back on that nobody had. I went like half a year without power rofl, just renting books at the library and using candles to read it was pretty sad when I think about it now. As for income I've never really had any. Only reason I even had a halfway decent pc was because my friend downstate would take me to super smash bros melee tournaments sometimes and I basically built it by winning tournaments on that and a few hand me downs. After my money from the college loans ran out I was on the verge of getting evicted but apparently for subsidized apartments if you make no income you can still stay there so long as you can show you're trying to get work. At least that's how it WAS, pretty sure it's not that way anymore. And for power there is plenty of people who will help you pay it, lots of helping organizations these days since everyone is broke. I got grandfathered into that super low rent before the changes, but then my dad moved in here after his marriage failed. He's been here for a few years, but he's always in his room or staying downstate because of doctors appointments so half the time I forget he even lives here. Unfortunately when he did move in though my rent went up, which was fine since he is paying it. But recently he said he wants to move out and go farther north and after looking into it you can't stay here on zero income anymore unless you were grandfathered in(which I lost that right), so I'm definitely stressed out trying to figure out what to do. I was actually having fun learning Unreal Engine and actually getting things done for the first time in my life. Even if I wanted to, getting a job is 100% not an option. People in large cities seem to think so long as you apply yourself there is something waiting for you, they've clearly never lived in smaller cities. Or maybe it's just where I'm from because initially after college I DID try getting work here, and I tried for years. One of the workers I've seen up there at the store for like all of the 20 years I been here finally told me one day(probably 10ish years ago) that there's really no meaning to trying to apply. It's not that he thinks I wouldn't do a good job, it's that in places like this people always hire through references. Someone always knows a family member or a friend who needs a job and that's who they grab, and I bet it's 10x worse now during the pandemic when everyone needs a job. I use to get money by making game accounts and selling them but an *unspecified location*(everyone knows where lol) completely dominated that market and basically shadow bans anyone trying to sell on safe-selling sites. As for psychologically beaten, not really. I'm not foolish though, I know that's just a quirk for me and almost everyone in my position would be unbelievably sad or beating themselves up. Honestly man I think it's just the way the world is setup, they drive it into you that if you don't own a yacht that means you failed. That's a huge exaggeration obviously but I just...idk man, when I think of how long human beings have been around, all the shit people went through just to survive and STILL going through right now(look at all the homeless people now during the pandemic), my life just doesn't seem that bad you know? Maybe I'm justifying it, but its worked for me so far. Aside from the worries of how I'll keep staying here after dad moves out, I still had a pretty good day even today. Sitting here waiting for Cyberpunk to release, working on my story, read some manga...oh that is when I do feel lonely. When I read a good story that has a romance that I actually find compelling. I said before that I haven't missed having a woman in years, and that's *mostly* true. I would happily get with someone I found interesting and accepted my uh...somewhat nihilistic point of view? I'm not really into nihilism and all that pessimism, but I really don't know what else to compare myself to. So for now I'll just continue working on unreal and through some miracle if I do end up producing my cinematic and it's a hit, I'll think about trying to find a lover then. I really don't see that happening though lol. But wow am I surprised at how fun it is creating worlds with unreal once you start to understand it a little. Although it was unbelievably difficult to get started with no prior knowledge. And thanks for asking Bread :). It is a bit sad when I think of how this is the first time anyones actually asked me about myself before, but it is what it is...isn't really any place for people like me. I tried looking for hikkimoris or shut-ins on discord but all I found was community's struggling with depression and that isn't somewhere I want to be.

[@DimaMitya2]

@@feni007 Hey man, thanks for the reply! Personally I have a lot of insecurities, especially about my future and the point of life, I just see that the world is unfair and full of people whose sole motivation is to keep making the number on their bank account bigger no matter how absurdly large it is, while other are forced to eat chemicals and sacrifice basic needs like heat and electricity or even clean water or house or food.. I feel really far from everything.. No matter how hard I try, I fail. And there is nobody to blame except for me. I thought of living like a hiki, but it's not for me. Im not lucky so loopholes and shit like that won't work for me.. dam.. Your story however.. it touched me man. Just know that in no matter how much of a shitty place you are and even if you feel like your lying to yourself.. you're not alone. This may be a lie.. but it makes me feel better and so it might help you.. I Hope that unreal thing works out for you man. I'm personally not into love, but if that's what you want, then i wish you the best of luck in that man. Sorry if all of this may seem chaotic, but I just can't find the right words. Have a good holiday and I hope everything works out for you:)

[@dombr5653]

@@feni007 wow, you do sound like a writer! make sure to notify us here in the comment section when your project is complete, and where we can find it. sounds interesting.

[@EvilSapphireR]

I'll be that guy and say this lifestyle is only possible since you live in a first world country. In places like India you would be swiftly out on the streets. I kinda envy you to be honest.

[@jacobporter6764]

I have no where else to really talk about this but I've been living as a shut in pretty much for the past year and half I've been out of highschool due to just feeling lost in the world and not really seeing a purpose. Lost all contact with friends and slowly cut off my best friend from my life. It started when my mom who was bipolar started going through maniac episodes; as she has many times in my life. But this time I couldn't handle just losing a mom every few years so I cut her out of my life. The last thing I ever told my mom was to get her shit together. She passed away somewhere alone and overdosed. I don't know why I am sharing this but it feels good. Rest in piece mom, I love you and the good times were great I'm sorry you had to struggle with such an illness, and I wasnt there for you. I'm signing up for college and will have classes in a few months, hopefully I actually don't mess one thing up in my life and actually start moving forward again. I hope whoever reads this is doing much better and I wish everyone the best luck in life. 2 years Edit: Still in school, almost able to transfer; things got even harder life wise but I feel like I can finally say I'm moving up and it's getting easier. I always went back to these comments over the years to remind myself it's not all bad. What a weird journey we call life; hope those in these comments are able to find their peace too.

[@pessimistkai5569]

Good luck to you, Though I don't know you. Just want to say stray strong. When I hear your story, mine is totally different, I have a really loving parents, And I am just a pathetic hemophilic loser. All I have is guilt. You are amazing. Just stay well dude!

[@phquang5908]

Have faith, stranger, for tomorrow might not be as gloomy as yesterday. As a schizophreniac loser that I am, there is nothing I could say that could be considered "an advise" or "helpful". There has been nothing inside my mind but suicidal thoughts and the voices telling me to do so. But knowing that people like you exist, or at least over the internet, gives me strength. Thank you.

[@yuffiekisaragi2242]

You made your first move into the right decision. You changed something. Follow the path that makes you happy, i wish you all the luxk in the world

[@cjbreaklezz619]

Jacob Porter she will be in heaven were she belong fam god will take her to a better place☺☺☺☺

[@jacobporter6764]

I appreciate the kind thought, but with due respect to my mothers beliefs and mine, she's just dead.

[@contracorpse2017]

sometimes i wish i could meet you guys here in the comments irl. so we can sit around and like talk about life and what has us worried/stressed or sad.

[@SomeGuy-so3kk]

Neophyte Paladin ah what an event that'll be all the different faces and different backgrounds but one similar feeling... Kinda like that one arc in NHK...

[@binbo2428]

Neophyte Paladin it would be that suicide party from the anime

[@binbo2428]

Neophyte Paladin lol im jk but yeah it would be nice i wish that too

[@whatcouldpossiblygowrong6053]

We used to be friends. Its I, Yuki. I hope your discord is going well.

[@zyke5196]

Shit, I'm down.

[@swordofcoke]

My grandmother has lung cancer. She's got a month at most. It's all I think about. We all know there's no life after death, so we are seeing her every day. Making memories, y'know? I hate myself for not being there more. I should be a better person sometimes, but I just sit around instead. I just wanted to get it out, thanks for being there guys

[@NightCrydeFM]

Sorry to hear. How did it turn out?

[@patricklowe7998]

To me, this isn't necessarily a depressing song of remembering failures, but of life itself. A life's theme, per say. It definitely reminds me of the good and bad experiences, but that's the thing! It reminds me that life can and will be a mix between good times and bad. I honestly wish this song would play any time I'm going through a tough situation, as well as, if I ever forget myself. To bring me back to reality that is life.

[@SerotoninCrunch]

Stay up all night, and just as the sun comes up, listen to this song. I can't describe the feeling, it's almost like a calming but depressing feeling. The song feels like a conclusion to the night. I don't know why, but this is the one I always listen to, even if it makes me depressed.

[@afrosociety6396]

I think It's the feeling of being lonely. I feel the same way. Hang in there buddy

[@Zeetoois1]

+Dr. Pheel The word you're looking for is melancholy. And that's absolutely how it makes me feel as well. :)

[@kymox9945]

couldn't agree more, it definitely feels like the conclusion to my day.

[@blackdoom9129]

Another day ends, everything seems like it will be the same tomorrow, and again and again. totally agree

[@angelicookie15]

Dr. Pheel this song reminds me of that one soundtrack in spongebob where spongebob was shown walking in at sunset. i can remember the episode but it makes me feel nostalgic.

[@Cuunjmt]

You will make it. I'd be proud to call you my friend.

[@zanehudson3680]

Cuunjmt thank you friend

[@NightDweller]

I wish the same for all of us

[@UTO7]

I hope you make it too

[@feelingblue2]

Thank you

[@Aleewho890]

thanks you dod :) that really means a lot for me

[@jackw8338]

Some of these comments (especially the old ones) have me worried that some of these users may not be with us anymore.

[@hyvesbelaster112]

Listening to these songs makes me feel a lot of nostalgia for when I was younger and watched NHK. I was lost, lonely and depressed... Social anxiety holding me back to a Hikkikomori. This work taught me that life is hard and crap, but that the only way to change it is to face things. Today I feel more a bittersweet taste of happiness than sadness when I listen to NHK's songs. Today I'm an adult, I met the girl of my dreams, I'm studying to be a police officer, I'm making my own story! And I hope yours is good and happy too. Directly from Brazil.

[@abdousalem3079]

It doesn't matter how many friends one has. At the end of the day, we are all alone.

[@sundayattack7300]

It's about the journey, not the destination. R i g h t ?

[@stevenloo994]

RIGHT.

[@defaltch0ice60]

Fuck this...This is sad...

[@darktronics9901]

No one understands yourself more than yourself. No one will ever get to know your thoughts, your view, your life... more than yourself.

[@GrubworldLinearMusicChannel]

fucc you, now I got hit

[@misatokatsuragi9111]

Ive been a shut in for the last two years. I tried moving out at the age of 19. That lasted about 9 months before i was back in my parents house, ive been staying in my room ever since. Im 22 now and im afraid of the world. I havent given up completely, im still working on getting a remote job, i still have friends online, but my life feels like nothing. Today im going to go to a thrift store with a friend, i dont have any money to spend but just going out the house feels like an event to me. Im not giving up, I hope someday to be normal and live my life to the fullest.

[@Mick89481]

Can feel yaaa, am 19 and am hikikomori since 2019, i can understand how hard it is :) But am also trying, and i appreciate for trying to go out and face the world, you are still young. You will escape This Hikikomori phase. :)

[@xCodeh]

it's all a conspiracy

[@williammosley6327]

xConspiraceh love the videos man! Dope to see one of my favorite KZbinrs in the comment section of one of my favorite animes

[@ivorysillegal433]

xCodeh Dang bro! I would have never have guessed you watched this!

[@thecheeseblock9880]

that's what the government wants you to think

[@TrafalgarLawSamaLaw]

lol this stoner out here watchin the animes, keep up the content codeh!

[@pageninetynine7533]

satou consumes hallucinogens in NHK's novel

[@woosh2055]

Greatest anime of all time. I just can't get over it. It's such a masterpiece

In fact it's very overrated, you braindead piece of a normie.

[@msadids]

i agree. the best anime.

[@hunter.r.w]

Anonymous Anonymous dude that irony in your comment is ridiculous

[@LOSTGAM3R]

hello Lain bro

[@Jin88866]

Deepest anime for sure. it's one of my 3 favorite with haruhi suzumiya and cowboy bebop.

[@zbeyersd1]

I do trail work in the mountains and live out of a tent 20 days out of the month. I found a job that allows me the solitude I crave and helps me feel good about myself thru working with my body/mind. Around this time of year I find myself thinking back to those college days, senior year, in the city, fresh out of a two year relationship, afraid of the future because I didn't know what I was doing or where I was going. It was a cold winter. And I found this show and it resonated with me so much. Sometimes, when I am high enough on the mountain, I remember this song, and am lucky enough to have phone service to play it. It is just long enough for me to enjoy a cigarette, while the moon bathes the mountain side with it's light. Thank you.

[@fun1k]

Are you happy?

[@zbeyersd1]

Yeah, I think I am.

[@2ms2]

@@zbeyersd1 That's good

[@mightytaco123]

My friend is dying and I've come back to this beautiful song, and no amount of cigarettes can wash away my sadness. Stay away from drugs.

[@andrewcheng2852]

Time to mix drinks and change lives

[@bungflop6433]

Are you still fine mate?

[@chris7285]

Sometimes you just wanna be numb though...

[@iiZONAii]

I want to change, I want to get better, I want to interact with people and have a life. I just can't push myself to do it. I tried long ago and got a job as a first step and I thought that would help but it didn't and now I'm stuck going to a job for a couple hours coming home and jus rotting away. I always feel like everyone is staring at me and judging, I get nervous around my own family so I never visit them. I'm stuck in this hell that I don't want to be in but I'm too scared to do anything about it. I've thought about Sui. But I don't think I'd be able to go through with it anyways. My life will forever and always be controlled by my fears. Sorry, I just needed somewhere to write something and I'm comfortable here. I hope everybody else who is like me can push forward and succeed. Idk how much longer I can take this.

[@cmclsrnsee]

I can't give you a hug but I definitely would if I was there. Hopefully that means something. Some have it worse than others but every single human being knows what deep pain feels like. I'm sure you are a sweet and loving person so don't let yourself believe anything else. Tell the people in your life how you feel. Ask them for help. Help yourself as much as you can too by taking little baby steps to try and improve. I'm just a stranger but both of us know what it's like to suffer and that's already a bond. We are only human. Much love from Portugal and please, please don't give up.

[@Zeithri]

You made the classic mistake of thinking that work will solve your problems when the fact is that work is just an enabler to get money. That is all work is, unless you work with something that truly gives you meaning. You have a life, regardless of what you may think, a life does not involve involving yourself with other people and being hip and all that junk. Having a life involves being alive. Want to change? Start by confronting your fears. They are irrational - unless they involve obvious dangers like poisonous animals or high heights of course. Consider exactly what it is you want to accomplish, what you want to do, and do them. There is no golden path, no super help or knight in silver armor. There is only you who can defeat your own demons and move forward. By definition, only the coward is capable of the greatest of heroism.

[@LastExile123]

This hits way too close to home

[@iFreeAgent1337]

How are you holding up nowadays?

[@iiZONAii]

@@iFreeAgent1337 I'm doing and feeling the best i ever have in my entire life at the moment. When people say it gets better it really does but you can't wait around doing nothing, you have to take the first step and push through. Opening up to close family was my first step. I cried coming back here and seeing my past self in this comment and song. tears of joy.

[@Bluekar]

I think Welcome to the NHK is a stepping stone for me to become a better person for a better tomorrow. Every time I revisit this show it brings back the times where I was like Satou and a person like Misaki was just no where to be found. I will always appreciate this show for what it was and making me want to become better.

[@BrickShelterr]

NHK is literally My all time biggest emotional connection to really anything, Like I can feel my heart when I listen to this.

[@itismeanttobe]

idk if you'll read this but i agree i feel the same no anime ever did this to me

[@SlapStyleAnims]

Same

[@medln5357]

considering a real neet still uses the same youtube account and would probably respond, i hope you got it good now

[@BrickShelterr]

@@medln5357 Hikkimori For Life

[@khong991]

i wish i could gather every viewer suffering through some crippling form of anxiety and just have a big, genuine hug full of feels. we may not have the answers, but damnit we could be there for each other. if you dont get told this enough, then ill say it. You mean something to me, you're valuable, you're not alone, and I ABSOLUTELY love you. I don't care if you live in the middle east or in north dakota, if you're reading this then you're human as well and that is reason enough. To everyone suffering through internal conflicts, you're not alone; you'll always have a friend in me :).

[@rinshima527]

Not gonna lie, i finished the show not too long ago. And I've felt terrible ever since. It was an amazing show, but it definitely hit home. Seeing how sato was struggling, made me realize my current struggles. I'm unemployed, i never graduated highschool, my friend who was going to help me make money, decided it was best that i was on my own instead. I was so happy to hear that he would help me move to Japan, but as soon as he cut me off I've never felt worse.. So now I've got nothing. No hope in doing absolutely anything. But i hope anyone else who is feeling like this gets better. Please never depend on anyone.

[@MF-th9hs]

ye you cant trust friends for things that heavy, the only thing you can trust in this life is your parents(if they're good ofc)

[@arturocaro9849]

It's allright, i've gone through the same love you

[@Kirshar]

how are you doing now? :)

[@raymcmahan5080]

Did you ever dig yourself out of feeling like you couldn't do anything? What helped me was just starting by controlling small aspects of my life like starting to exercise by doing 5 min walks. It sounds stupidly simple, but that progressed into so many little things over the years that brought me so much further than the pit of depression I'd lived with. You always have the power to change your circumstances.

[@familiaandradeherederodelr2320]

I think I know you. D is that you? All of us are worried about you.

[@golligato791]

When stuck in loneliness more than 30 years, but too coward to suicide, I think some people arent meant to be happy, its not like you don't try, its just life is simply unfair

[@riddheshmahadye5374]

*"The struggle you are in today is developing a strength you need for tomorrow".*

[@tired2179]

spent the latter half of this year isolating myself from friends and family. (the majority of my time after the pandemic has been spent this way; sitting on my computer, playing games to avoid how I actually feel.) I've been lying to everyone, telling them about "all the school work I was doing". I told them I was doing fine. I even lied to myself. I forgot who I was. I lost sight of my goals. I spent each day in bed hoping that it would magically get better. I threw away a large opportunity I had for success. I had hope that I would wake up the next morning and the entire thing would have been one long, sad dream. But I know it will get better. Acceptance is the first step. I keep asking myself the same questions; where do I want to go? Who do I want to be? How do I stop feeling so sorry for myself? How do I earn back the trust of my friends and family? How can I grow up and face the responsibilities I have? Ive started on the path to getting my life back. One day we will all look back on these moments and be grateful that we kept going in spite of all the setbacks. Love you guys

[@salehshamoon913]

Was very heart warming to read this. Wishing you good luck✌️

[@jhlime]

I'm fucking 30 and I still find myself listening to this. Not a good sign.

[@edom5765]

I’m 18 and this is only getting started

[@luuis2522]

To be honest, depressed or not, its fucking great

[@TaniaC0009]

I don't think listening to this exactly means you're in a bad position; but if that's your interpretation I hope you get the effort to go through life Good luck ☀️

[@jhlime]

@@turtlebeachboy4747 Thanks for looking out! I actually just got a very very late diagnosis of ADHD, which honestly explains a lot of my fuckups in life. Now I'm getting medicated and things are going a little bit better. Hope you're doing good as well!

[@slothhq1929]

@@jhlime I shouldn’t be this happy for a stranger in the internet that I’ll never meet but something about reading your update made me very hopeful about life

[@kaded_]

So many years have passed and I still have nothing to show for it. How do you know when you've grown up? I don't even know what advice I'd give myself 5 years ago, I feel like the same person just more tired and jaded.

[@JoroJojoro]

Hang in there, friends...

[@Kongolippe]

+JoroJojoro y-you too

[@npcokay]

+JoroJojoro Yeah .. i will hang myself up ..

[@JoroJojoro]

***** Do you have a spare rope you could give me?

[@tristantobias7332]

+JoroJojoro no thats not good

[@bout古]

misaki will never call any of us existence is torment death is the only escape

[@AltairLync]

Have been repeating a year in uni, had enough spare time to reflect on my decisions that led me to this point and overall my attitude throughout my younger days. My parents, and sometimes even some of my classmates and friends (if I recall correctly) told me that I was too uninterested or indifferent regarding school and social things. I personally never found being withdrawn and detached too problematic. I mean, I only needed 1-2 people to talk to about my hobbies and interests. Those 1-2 people seem to change every few years, never hearing from them and them never hearing from me again. Real life wasn't all that interesting to me and I was a loner kid and a somewhat antisocial teen. Didn't have much trouble distracting myself, after all I was and still am an avid fan of anime/manga, video games etc. I can't say that I didn't have average/normal teen years to be frank - had a classmate with whom I shared interests and that went well. Had high school crushes like everyone else, confessed, got rejected and all that jazz. I also had a crush on a friend for a short time before letting that pass because it was not worth the trouble. Just an average teen life. Overall my detachment and indifference towards the real world kinda stopped me from reflecting back then about what I really wanted to do with my life, so I just picked a uni and a path in life I thought would make my parents happy. I wouldn't lie if I said that I don't have any interest in what I am doing right now in my life and whenever I start watching a show, reading something or play a game to escape the boredom I feel angry at myself. Some days I get an overwhelming feeling of dread when thinking about my future or about the point where I am right now. I am lucky enough that I have parents that say things along the lines of "You're still young don't stress yourself any more than you have to.". As good and reassuring as that sounds, I just never felt it being that comforting. I don't want to waste my youth on something that I will not enjoy doing even a little bit. Alas, life usually does not favor passion over pragmatism. I learned to just let destiny guide me and I'll see where it goes in the future. I was living kind of a NEET life with an empty semester due to passing the winter classes last year, so I'd be kinda used to it if I ever decide to drop out. It seemed comfy enough and taking everything into consideration I'd be the textbook example of a hikikomori, but I am aware the NEET lifestyle is not the way, it is a path of least resistance that prolongs the inevitable. I do not know what awaits me in life, where destiny will lead me, all I know is that I have to be smart about the moves I make and wait. All I want in the end is a comfortable average life.

[@AP-en5ve]

To live a peaceful life. To live each day, and sustain yourself through the years. Perhaps one day a great passion will seize you, then go for it! But for now you have all you need. Many people strive to have it, but you have it within your reach. I myself want it and not much more. To live a peaceful life.

[@lucacerullo3468]

You know It has been a good anime when in the comments there are no joke about it

[@pptemplar5840]

Woke up in a cold sweat and started crying like a B at 1am today. Feels kind of nostalgic. This show helped me see what I was becoming and what I didn't want to be.

[@fun1k]

I have left several comments on this video throughout the years. Seeing them reminds me of my growth and passage of time, what happened. It's been almost a year now since I met my first girlfriend. My mother died. Life is changing, but I want to stay young, enjoy what I couldn't before due to depression and having no control over my life. But time flies. I am stressed, but I've got support. I adore my little niece. I've been going to therapy for a while. I take meds to not fall into states of despair. There are many things that keep me going. Objectively, my life is now probably the best it's ever been, though I keep wanting and longing and feeling bad. But that is a part of life, and it always passes. I wish I was able to help a lot of you, because I've been there. I know exactly how you are feeling. I am sorry that I don't know how to help, for me it was just luck I guess. Also being kind and honest. And a lot of suffering that molded me earlier, without which I think I would be a worse person.

[@fun1k]

It will be two years with my girlfriend. I objectively have nothing major to complain about, but I still feel the feel sometimes. Therapy helped me so much. Also a few girls before by girlfriend who helped me in some way, hurt me in others. These days I have less time, but I hope my energy will come back gradually. Anxiety is a bitch, and I've got almost no funds to go out and see friends. I feel like I'm somehow colder now, though more confident. Maybe it's just how overwhelming things have been. I should watch NHK again. I still know there are so many unhappy guys. I wish I could guide someone and help them. I still want to enjoy life.

[@fun1k]

I'm getting married in two days. My grandma died last Friday. Life is going on. Guys, don't give up your life. It will not be ideal, but things don't have to be ideal to enjoy them.

[@restitutor7875]

Every once in a while I come here just to listen to this beautiful piece of art and read the comments. Probably the best place to ever exist on KZbin. And to all those who are reading this: stand strong. I'm with you. Everyone here is with you. Wish you all the best

[@markkuflewicz2881]

Happy new years guys :(

[@denkoumasato]

Alan Chillwater Happy New Year's Alan. Here's to a blank slate full of new possibilities

[@BrgArt]

Happy new year 2019 my lad, it's not exactly the time but I'm sure I won't remember this comment in a week so here you go.

[@eternalmortis2411]

@@kirakuma83 2020

[@T--------]

@@eternalmortis2411 2021 :)

[@andrewryan3625]

I am 20 years old almost 21, i wish almost every night to wake up in the past when my life wasn’t as bad as it is today. i didn’t make any effort at anything when I really was young, now i am paying the price for being lazy.

[@santiagogomezgomez1334]

Estas muy joven Caros yo como tu tengo 21 y aunque la he regado se que aun hay tiempo solo somos dos jovenes adultos buscando un lugar donde reposar la conciencia, animo que no tenemos 40

[@sunsetgradient]

keep on fighting bro, im not gonna say something misleading like "it gets better". but dont give up, you are young enough that you can change.

[@OnionMotu]

How's it goin

[@Lagspikee]

My life might feel wasted, but at least I got to experience this.

[@ficklepanda8319]

This pandemic just made it impossible to get out of this rut... not like I was really trying in the first place

[@z7n9j]

hang in there dude

[@ratonfunao9567]

Same

[@xenuzarkeee]

Always come back here whenever I feel stressed out at work. Watched this anime series wat back in college and damn now that I’m an employed adult it hits hard. Yeah I earn but I gotta bills to pay. It feels like a neverending loop and sometime I feel like everything that I do will become useless in the future. People will forget me anyways when I’m dead

[@leopardskinpillboxhat]

I feel like no matter how many people I hang out with or talk to in a day, once I'm left alone with only my thoughts, I'll always feel this gut wrenching fear-driven anxiety based on loneliness that makes me wanna throw up. I can't remember the last time I genuinely had a good, open-minded, and trustworthy friend to vent and talk to that would genuinely will the best in me. And at the same time, it's not like I probably would open up even if I had the opportunity to. In many regards I shouldn't feel lonely. I have tons of family, friends, a pet, a coach, teachers, counselors, therapists. And likewise, I'm probably not the only one feeling this way, so by definition I shouldn't be. But somedays it honestly feels so hopeless and pointless. I feel like deep down no matter what I do, I'll always feel like I'll have no one to truly talk to, or want to talk to. I don't think I'll ever off myself just cause I'm curious of what life has to offer, but if now (at a relatively "good" state in my life) is a precursor to the future, then life seems pretty fucking awful.

[@RevvieStarlight]

This comment is going to serve as a reminder for every time I click on this video in the future. I want myself to remember that even if things aren’t good now, life is at a low point. I don’t know what would have to happen to continuously come back here. However, I want you, myself, the reader. Who ever sees this, I want you to know that things really do get better. It sounds corny but remember, when you’re at your lowest; you can only go up from there.

[@pessimistkai5569]

Hi, I existed. ( I mean in your life while you are seeing your comment box, I will be continue existing otherwise :p)

[@VunderkIDA]

Hey, I feel you and hug you guys

[@emeraldkun9166]

It's nice that at least we have other people to know of our existence,even for a little while,people knew we existed..

[@Gandeloft]

[@pessimistkai5569]

hugs to everyone. You all are most innocent souls that this world doesn't deserve. One advice :- Stay Strong!

[@dangerheart2578]

I exist too

[@hiimgabenewell9320]

I just finished it. I feel like re-watching it.. What a beautiful, heart-warmin thing to have in this world.. I felt very safe while watching it, as if someone was near me the whole time and telling me that everything is going to be alright. I shall never forget it.

[@frantiseks.6495]

I go to therapy. I take medication which seems to save me from falling in pits of despair that could break me for days. I don't have a job. I don't have a partner. My mother died not even a month ago. Despite all that, I still live. I don't know if it's just a sense of responsibility to others or if I got better, even if I don't see much hope at the moment. I got back to watching this anime because it is comforting, I suppose. I used to relate heavily to Satou; I dropped out of uni, I "wasted" years doing nothing very productive, or at least that is what is seemed to me, I have had problems with anxiety and social interaction. I want to get better so very bad. I want to be happy with myself. It seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Yet I've made progress. It's just painful and slow. Please, if you feel down or are having dark thoughts, seek help. If it's bad at the moment, distract yourself or even go to sleep. It will pass.

[@Rithmy]

" It seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Yet I've made progress. It's just painful and slow." Thats a thought i often had. Looking back, pain was a signal for progress and my darkest times were when the pain turned into nothigness.

[@joji4160]

I hope ur doing better now

[@fun1k]

@@joji4160 Thank you. I am. I've got my first girlfriend now at 29. It's still tough, but I live.

[@frantiseks.6495]

​I am doing better. I'm getting married in September. I have a new job. Anxieties and unhappiness sometime resurface, but I remind myself I have it good. Maybe I should get back on medication. But I count my blessings. Please, guys, don't give up. ​@@joji4160

[@CannonHD]

I will miss this anime truly. I'm glad I was able to watch something that came out years ago. Although I may not fully have yet to get into a "hikkimori" state, watching this anime for sure helped me realize that I was slowly entering it. Here I am 3 semester in my community college. It is currently about the become the finals and here I find myself wondering "Does this all even matter." Lately I just been spending my days working and going to school because "I have to." I have an idea what I want to be but no idea how to get there. Soon I probably would of found myself getting no where spending my free time playing video games and watching anime instead of focusing on whats important. I may just get back into Screenplay writing and hope that one day someone can take a look at what I make and turn it to something big. I should revise that half-assed essay I wrote and truly put some effort into it because It does matter. I write this with tears coming down my eyes. I blame the music, I recently just finished watching this anime and for the past few hours all I been doing was analyzing it and thinking about what I just watched, no, what I just experienced at a very deep level. Normally I would wish for a season 2, but honestly.... This was perfect enough. I may not have a female or a childhood friend to comfort me when things get rough. But I still have people that I can count on no matter what happens. And I will make sure I will not let that person go. For those that read what I had to say about this anime. Thanks for taking the time to read my thoughts. I have much more to say about this anime but I rather not write a novel down here in a small comment section. Good day, fight on, and live strong!

[@Zeithri]

" _It is currently about the become the finals and here I find myself wondering "Does this all even matter."_ " - No, it doesn't matter, because someone with life experience who actually done the stuff you study will always go first. School is a pointless waste of time and the American system of studying like crazed madmen is just insane. What is important in life is what you deem important. There are mo guidelines for what is important other than that. Aside from the time you have. To quote a good quote " _Time is a companion that goes with you on your journey, reminding you to cherish every moment, because they'll never come again._ "

[@imnobodybye236]

Bro I stand the sentence for the need of s2 and maybe an update?

[@CannonHD]

​@@imnobodybye236 Maaaan, reading this sure does take me back. Thanks for bringing me back to this and being curious of my status. Since this was pre-covid and all it's fair to say that a lots changed since then but mostly for the better. Covid pretty much gave me an excuse to not continue college, though I got my 2 year degree for transfer, I don't plan on continuing my education despite the world returning to normal. Even so, I do feel I'm currently at my best mentally and emotionally now. Thankfully I did not go into a hikkimori lifestyle. I was able to keep up with friends, rekindled a few others, and even made a good amount of new dependable ones. It's been nice being able to go out, and see the world instead of staying indoors all the time. Sure I may had been comfortable indoors all the time. But irl interactions was definintely much needed. My dreams have not been crushed yet, but I do feel them becoming more distant as time goes on and I get older. Lately, and probably for the past 3 years or so, I just been focusing on work and my health. I'm just staying content with life not letting myself see myself as less than what "I" think I am. Which is funny since reading this comment from yeaars ago feels like opening up a little time capsule. I kinda remember how it was feeling so far behind my generation at the time. Just for a bit of context, yesterday I went out to eat dinner with my childhood friend (whom I had a huge crush on in elementary) and her husband. I've never fallen that deeply in love with anyone else so to sit there with them. Completely unfazed, congradulating them for starting there next chapter. The me from 5 years ago would've had insanely mixed feelings. But the me now is genuinely happy for her. And I wish the best for her and her husband. I've changed for sure. But somehow I managed to keep the qualities that allow me stay true to who I am. And I think that's something to be proud of. I wasn't able to see where I would be 5 years from then and even now I still don't have that ability. But I'm glad the me from back then pressed on through the tiring times. Though they are still tiring, it's not all too bad. Maybe that was the lesson of this anime all along now that I am a full fledged adult. A bit melancholy in a sense, but I guess that's just what life's all about. I should really watch this anime again. I'm sure I will see a lot more differences than similarities this time around. I got Dr. K (HealthyGamerGG) to thank for this new outward thinking of life and socieity. His videos have really helped me understand myself and what I want out of life. As for the me 5 years from now who returns to this video... I just hope your passion hasn't burnt out entirely. And that if you do succeed. Thank you for never letting our dreams die. For now, I will keep pressing forward. I'm sure great things are coming. We just got to make it happen. And that goes for everyone else to. For some it may be difficult to realize this, but we truely are in control of our lives. Don't worry about the others, think what you can do. And instead of worrying about what you didn't do. Think about what you could do better today. And just keep applying that. My motto in life currently is "What can I do now," "What can I do better?" It's not good to worry about the future. Nor should we stress about the past. It's about what you do now that really counts. Just remember that future me and the kind users who took their time to read my thoughts again. Thanks again for bringing me back here @imnobodybye236 It was nice to reconcile with this series and my past. I hope you a great and prosperous life.

[@creep2539]

@@CannonHD I'm glad Dr. K's AOE healing has affected you as well. He's a great help to me too! ^-^

[@chancethrash]

glad to see people still listening to this

[@DerpyExpress]

true

[@rome0r]

Remember listening this song while walking alone in the warm summer evening/night

[@npcokay]

winter is coming. Low vitamin d3 depression incoming too. !

[@rome0r]

Funny how everything changed only in 1 year, life is strange

[@Hahehyhu]

You're right, bro.

[@dennysmith2483]

@@rome0r how's it going now?

[@rome0r]

@@dennysmith2483 5 years ago I was alone and walking in the forest listening to this song. In 5 years I got to study, finished my studies and found a girlfriend and we moved together. Anything can happen and I consider myself lucky. I'll never forget the times listening to this song alone.

[@alenabethke4748]

when i first watched welcome to the nhk! i was a freshman in high school. i was 14. i thought that everything was fine, but it was the beginning of the really bad stuff for me. i switched schools when i was 15 and it hit me hard. i would eat lunch alone and lie to my parents that i had friends. i tried joining clubs, but that didn't work. i remember breaking down in the bathroom stalls at school, or how i cried after i gave a class presentation because my face was so red and my voice was shaking. i felt like everybody was staring at me. i did go to therapist for a couple of months when i was 16, but stopped because i didn't want to be a burden. i trusted a stranger more than the people around me. when i was 17, i did find a couple of friends, but some of them let me down. now i'm 18 and in college. i take online classes so i'm always home and i never go out. i do feel like sato sometimes, because i don't have any friends, just memories. my social anxiety doesn't help much, but i have gotten kind of better, i guess (like, if i have to make a phone call, i write down what to say so i will be more confident when i make the call). i just know that things aren't always going to be this way forever, and that it's worth waking up in the morning so i can do what i have to do, and hopefully everything will be OK in the end.

[@jesusbrandonnogueragarcia3849]

How is everything?

[@peacefulmind.exmuslim]

Man Work is a pain in the ass lately. I am paying for a house my Mom bought. I dont even live in it and I wasnt asked for it. I am not earning much but 80% of my earnings go for nothing. I am using the same phone since 2014. I feel so exhausted from work its not funny anymore. I wish I could just sit in my room and do nothing for some days. It sounds paradox since I used to live like him from 2017 to 2019. It was depressing and sad but also careless but not free. You guys will understand this better. Love you all.. keep grinding my friends

[@windy1267]

NEET life is nice but in the end, it's the same as working for Mr. Goldstien.. both depressing and filled with regret.

[@yana_2_6_0]

This is probably the saddest song I know... Every time I listen to this I feel like crying dude

[@yana_2_6_0]

1337 King True

[@gin4580]

On the other hand Illmatic is the shit tho, I love Nas

[@heathbell5712]

Listen to "Nagisa." That shit will have you in a puddle of tears.

[@aqueousbob]

Everything just seems to be falling apart. The more I try to move on, the more it crumbles.. it never gets better.

[@LastExile123]

If only I could go back and start again... I'd know what to do. But now it's too late.

[@abdullahwasif4623]

Its never too late to start, you may not be able to finish but you would have at least tried Hope this helps

[@heathbell5712]

How do you know you would know what to do if you started over again? What if you desired to start back over _after_ you started over?

[@MrKarlmaster]

It's never too late mate , keep going :)

[@shadowkillz9606]

@@heathbell5712 Then you would desire to start back yet again, over and over until you reach the perfect timeline. OR until you gave up and realised that this is just good enough...

[@user-yi5mt2df5q]

I never want to go back. I don't want to go through everything again. That would suck.

[@Axis2142]

Why is depressing music so beautiful. Makes me feel like there's some romanticism or greatness in being depressed and alone, when in reality it's really not that great of a thing at all. I guess perhaps the humanization and connection you feel towards the feelings invoked by the music, conveyed by the artist, make you feel not so alone, knowing that there's others out there who know similar pain.

[@Matt-vx1mz]

Well that was unexpected, excellent analyisis.

[@ProwersEdits]

You explained something I didn’t even know about myself so perfectly

[@Axis2142]

@@ProwersEdits I hope you are well.

[@lafontt4233]

I just finished the anime and I was fascinated by the anime's music. The comments touched me. Different geographies and nations but the same feelings and sadness

[@andresmarcano3726]

is like this, when the anime overs theres a empty in your soul, thats means that satou, misaki , the senpai, yamazaki all of they are gone, like a dream and you woke up, very similar like life and death, at the end theres only empty, and abism covering your entire soul, making you feel meanless, this is the song of the defeat the defeat of yourself trying to be happy, this is reality in a song

[@chillbraah684]

dayyum thats soo deep,... so true

[@pessimistkai5569]

same feels! :'(

[@trevorfranks69]

Where do you see yourself in five years? I don't know man, I'm just trying to make it to Friday.

[@fog5504]

Listening to this makes me wonder why I'm bothering anymore. Even if I get a job, all that awaits me is spending day after day stuck in a job I dislike just to pay the bills. Can one ever truly be happy or do people who "get through" this just get to a point of neutrality? Every year there's a sliver of hope that something will change for the better but it just seems to continuously get worse. How long will this go on? I'm so tired...

[@zachknight7052]

Fog I don't know if this will be any help but what I did was found another person I enjoyed spending time with. Life is incredibly long but also incredibly short and finding someone to spend it with has made it a lot better.

[@fog5504]

I wish I knew how to find those people...I feel like everyone who's even remotely similar to me must be in exactly the same situation I'm in so is it even possible to find them? Even if I could find someone, my lack of sociability would just let me down. Appreciate the response though.

[@fog5504]

Glad to know I'm not the only one.

[@Windcutter_Flora]

The key is to find a job in a field you love doing. I've been switching around my classes from meteorology to biology to chemistry to geology over the past year, trying to find something that I can envision me spending the rest of my life in. Though, it can be tricky. College is very expensive, and you only have a small window to choose what you want to do with the rest of your life, plus after a year I haven't figured it out, so... yeah, it's tough.

[@fog5504]

I suppose so. Hopefully all of us can find the job that suits us best. Good luck to you.

[@v_i_z_i_o]

Just finished the show in New Years and god it hit different.I'm just lost in life I regret my past , always nervous in the present , and scared for the future but NHK really showed me that life doesn't have to be 100% good but just make it worth it.

[@LabMember-lq1ul]

Same. I also finished on Jan 1

[@plantdaddy7738]

hope life is better

[@lachiebosman8511]

this anime was very ahead of its time and the emotional connection i had to it is why i love it so much

[@engdark1]

I watched this anime at 16 for the first time. Even back then I thought I looked a lot like Satou and that I would end up like him. Years passed, I looked more and more like him but I didn't drop off school. I thought maybe the only remaining difference between us was that I was still in school. Since lockdown I also became a hiki, lived alone and didn't talk with anyone anymore except phone calls from family. I am just like him now and I must keep lying because I don't do what I have to do, I am terribly lazy. I lie all the time and pretend to be someone I am not until people find out the truth. I am forced to be someone hard worker, reliable, intelligent, dynamic and passionate about my studies and working area. I am none of those. I just wanted to avoid working because I thought I would live a hell, being fired from every job I would find since I am a failure that's why I did studies. This is what will happen eventually. I wish I didn't exist and sometimes to commit a suicide but then I remember: no dramatic death for us plus I mustn't bother people with my death, something I retained from this anime.

[@optimisticyuyu]

i hope everything will be good for you soon. did you try therapy?

[@engdark1]

@@optimisticyuyu I did, a few times. I think about trying another therapist I have hope it will work. I am maybe not sick though and just a stupid awkward lazy person which would explain why no therapy worked until then.

[@optimisticyuyu]

@@engdark1 you are not stupid, awkward or lazy! sometimes its hard to find the right therapist. its good to hear that you have hope. i wish all the best for you.

[@engdark1]

@@optimisticyuyu thank you, I hope you are right

[@optimisticyuyu]

@ChickenFrog everything can change to the better!

[@NoName-uz1rx]

And now with coronavirus, people complain that they must stay at home. When me i'm doing it for years lol

[@diabolofraise59]

Welcome to loneliness world! Have a seat.

[@MeatyThigh]

Healthy

[@Djboyrimo]

Been doing it for 18 years chief

[@angeloma4666]

Been doin it for whole life ah..

[@kanzsbt9240]

Same

[@regulus7721]

Every time i feel sad and depressed i come right to this video and start reading the whole comments section. It's like that meme of multiple feels guy hugging each other :(

[@ManishKumar-xx7ny]

This year will be different. Finally!

[@Gabriel9912345]

This show is so underrated

[@Cyberbullyanism]

Next generations should commemorate anime osts as the soothing light of this generation. i kinda feel sad that these great soundtracks could become forgotten by the time. i hope people don't let them die.

[@id_avalon3451]

i was a hikikomori for 10 years roughly.. still feel anxious around people and i still feel suicidal. Dunno why i keep going but sometimes there is good moments..i chase those

[@ohhnice1820]

you got this bud, just keep on moving

[@LastGenRichtofenn]

oh man 10 years is crazy. I don't even know how u can still go on. I've been going on for about 4 years and get suicidal thoughts every month. Got really close to doing it multiple times, one time very recently in fact.

[@Kreamations]

I hope you smile today, guys. I don't know from experience what a lot of you are going through right now but I can respect and acknowledge it. Smile, it really helps. Keep your head up and I'll always have you guys in the back of my head as friends and family. Take care!

[@musiclover943]

i think this is the only comment section in youtube where id be ashamed of saying some troll shit. actually this and other nhk ni youkoso videos

[@Ahakartune]

musiclover943 I feel you brotha lol

[@shadowkillz9606]

There're many others that I've seen, but of course, comment sections like these are nothing but an atom in a vast universe of hate and hostilities.

[@OtakuTiki]

Watched it when I was about 16 and nearly exactly like the MC. Watched it again at 28. Boy did this show hit different with all the life I've experienced since I was 16.

[@Noctis-uv8gv]

i knew i will be here again

[@darko5293]

same after 2years

[@ratonfunao9567]

same

[@belenvargas8940]

so ... 6 years later huh?... is anyone still around? Hope y'all figured everything out. I've been there, in fact, I still am here, but everyone faded away... the 2nd time watching the anime, but the only thing that changed is the date... everything else is the same as 4 years ago I haven't even realized that there's a virus around... I haven't been out of my room to even notice, I'm not even sure when was the last time I cleaned all of this mess, I'm so used to live like a cockroach, I had even accepted the fact that I am one. I gave up trying a long time ago, I'm not signing the contract but hope you do, the best of luck for you all. Hope you have a great life...

[@Martin-jo9hv]

This is the worst part when you get used to it.

[@tokonon1414]

I don't know why I listen to this every time I'm all sad. I don't know if it makes it better or worse.

[@sumwon5509]

For me it doesn't make it better or worse... It just helps me accept whatever happened/is happening... And gives me the sense that as long as live there's a chance things will get better. That's why it's bittersweet... Cuz it helps me accept that everything sucks and realize that everything can get better.

[@imnobodybye236]

@@sumwon5509 well said

[@elliottbyrum1570]

i'm not a shut-in yet (mainly because i'm 18 and still living with my parents) but i'm heading way down that road. depression and bpd rule me, and i can hardly get up in the morning. going to work and school is an internal ordeal and even when i talk to friends and family i constantly worry if i'm saying the right things, and often find myself just apeing whatever they say instead. i don't think i could ever get married or even live with a roommate because of my anxiety. the only future i can really see for myself is one where i work from home, live alone, and only go outside to take out the trash or go grocery shopping. even then, i wouldn't talk to anyone. i can't train myself to love myself or be comfortable around people, no matter how hard i try. i'm probably going to die alone. whatever. it doesn't matter, anyway.

[@Brewing5torm]

I'm stuck in mandatory service. So I can't even avoid others when I want to, I'm forced to take it all at once. I'm even older, my wish to migrate and achieve my dream job as a concept artists drifts further and further, and further. Sometimes I feel that urge towards ending it for good. I don't know anymore, if life is actually worth living.

[@vincentvalentine1877]

Mae Byrum I'm pretty much like you (even in age) except I dropped out from studies, I get nervous even around people from my family, everytime I have to socially interact or go out to do something that requires it, it's hell.

[@Kekeshane-2]

welcome to the the nhk is an underrated anime, i wish there were more like it

[@johnmackenzie3871]

Watching this 15 minutes before one of the most important job interviews in my life just hits different.

[@superiordeftrex4196]

so what happened?

[@imnobodybye236]

Update

[@TheDoomer666]

🎉 looks like we've got a new hikikomori

[@johnmackenzie3871]

@@superiordeftrex4196 It did not work out unfortunately. Although I wasn't technically a NEET, and went to university, most of my daily life was still exactly like Sato's and I did not make a single friend or acquaintance in university. I would skip out on most classes, not socialize at all, and just do the bare minimum to pass every course, spending the rest of my days at home in my room. Now it's been several months that I've been applying for jobs and have gone back to my hikikomori routine, being depressed and holed up in my room as I read through rejection emails and get ghosted by employers. But I haven't given up, I will get an engineering job and move on with my life like Sato has. There will be no Misaki to guide me out of this, just my own perseverance. Good luck to all, and I hope we all make it.

[@Walamo]

never gets old

[@batouranger2553]

I finished the show recently and can't let go of it. It feels like I lost some good friends. Now I'm reading the manga and listening to this music...

[@arguy_4420]

same here but with the novel. Unfortunately (or fortunately maybe? idk how i feel so far) i relate to Sato even more in this due to his drug problems

[@Simulated1992]

PSA: to anyone who's saying or implying anything along the lines of suicide, at least know this: NO ONE in the anime would've chose that route. You've related yourselves to the anime this far--now try to truly accept its message: you. will. make. it.

[@via4456]

its been 4 years think you might be a little late

[@EggBastion]

_"Sometimes you gotta strike when the iron's_ *_stone cold!"_* - My favourite losers on the internet. But seriously, If'n there's a person you're thinking about helping, - _yourself even_ - then it ain't too late yet.

[@fun1k]

The message of the anime helped when I was afraid of the future - find work, survive. I found a stable work (though little paying) and I am gathering courage to take little steps to improve my life. I do think of suicide, because of romantic loneliness, but I am fortunately too cowardly to do something like that; it's selfish, and I put others first.

[@kimmanapil09]

am glad there are some people in this world have the same loneliness and anxiety in life. I hope your message and many other that openly expressed their selves in this comment section have great life ahead (or just make it for the day.) and keep helping others for those in need or just give advice in some random video "EVEN THE SMALLEST THINGS MAKES A DIFFERENCE...". remember *that*

[@inexmisaki874]

Oh fuck off will you.

[@PoyoUws]

Being a young hikikomori is horrible, I'm wasting the "best years of my life" doing nothing

[@birbhay]

me too man going to be an adult in just a few months already and i feel like not much has happened, oh well i’ll just live my 20s like they’re my teenage years i guess

[@bevvvy1374]

I'm 22 and wasted the past 6 years of my life being a NEET :)

[@slothhq1929]

@@bevvvy1374 it’s ok bro. Just start your character today. I’m 22 too btw

[@itismeanttobe]

hey are u still here?

[@PoyoUws]

@@itismeanttobe yes I am and life has changed for the better , thanks for asking

[@FinlayFosterReviews]

I have no idea why this song always makes me so sad, it's just such a beautiful portrayal of the feeling of being alone. All the scenes in the show with this song instantly became ten times more powerful! Brilliant tune for a brilliant show :)

[@AngeloSantos-pc2hw]

its so hard to make friends when you aren't normal like everyone else. this song is all i have

[@SlapStyleAnims]

I know how it feels. I wish I were normal. This song perfectly describes the melancholy I feel

[@scorch5770]

@@SlapStyleAnims what doesnt make you normal? - ive got a couple things of my own so dont feel shy about opening up to me

[@SlapStyleAnims]

⁠​⁠@@scorch5770I’ve always been socially awkward, oblivious anytime I do something weird or outside social norms around others. I’m not very good at conversations. It’s terrifying being around others because I always feel like I’m being judged and like others can tell something is off with me. I also have had a history of very obsessive, unusual interests, which others found odd so they distanced themselves from me. I’m also at odds with lots of cultural norms like hookups, luxury brands, clout chasing, social media, I just don’t really like any of it, which also makes others distance from me cause I can’t relate to any of it.

[@medln5357]

​@@SlapStyleAnimswish we could be friends cause that sounds just like me ha

[@cheeksniffer]

​@@SlapStyleAnims I can relate... I actually don't really know how to make a conversation with anyone and It felt like I was being left out every time I tried to socialise with them

[@lrgmnfbhqdky3o553]

17, autistic, friendless, passionless, basically dont get out of my room and just a sense of desolation from everybody else. Tryied to change my mindset to live a better lifestyle in hope of things to get better. But it was meaningless, things didn't get better, people suck, and all the time i was just wanted to stay in my room wasting time in the net, it was fun. Now that im back to my room for good, it j feels meaningless, as if im wasting my life away. 😆 Think im gonna regret my life no matter what Kinda wish i found someone which a mind as dirty as mine, that would make me happy, but its just a delusion, im fucked beyond this worlddddd

[@Tit0Matic]

This is what loneliness sounds like :(

[@adhishkhanal7821]

Hello after 5 years.. hope you are doing well

[@3am628]

@@adhishkhanal7821 👀

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I disagree. Loneliness is absolute, impenetrable silence, a silence so deeply rooted and solid that no song can dispel. That's the real shit that makes you kill your fucking self.