NIKI DEMAR - BEFORE & AFTER (Official Lyric Video)

STREAM MY EP 'RUINED MY LIFE' independent.ff...
people change
but sometimes I wonder if i'm the one to blame
watched you fall out of love
tried to get us back
back to what we had
look at old photos of us
then to now, something went wrong
can’t hold on when you’re dead and gone
like a lightswitch you turned on and off
CHORUS
we went from - lovebombs to breadcrumbs
we went from - so good to so numb
how did we - go wrong? and how come?
heaven then disaster
we went from - no fights to gaslights
we went from - empathize to taking sides
how did we- fall apart? and break hearts?
heaven then disaster
our before and after
now you're sad
you took me for granted, All of the things you had
now It’s a little to late
so many chances missed
and opportunities to fix this shit
so I had to walk away
then to now, something went wrong
couldn't hold on you’ve been dead and gone
like a light switch I turned on and off
CHORUS
we went from - lovebombs to breadcrumbs
we went from - so good to so numb
how did we - go wrong? and how come?
heaven then disaster
we went from - no fights to gaslights
we went from - empathize to taking sides
how did we- fall apart? and break hearts?
heaven then disaster
our before and after
Bridge:
then to now, something went wrong
couldn’t hold on, you were dead and gone
but I still have withdrawals
then to now something went wrong
like a light switch you just stayed off
you put your walls
and after it all…..
after it all
CHORUS
we went from - lovebombs to breadcrumbs
we went from - so good to so numb
how did we - go wrong? and how come?
heaven then disaster
we went from - no fights to gaslights
we went from - empathize to taking sides
how did we- fall apart? and break hearts?
heaven then disaster
our before and after

[@OhKarlz]

I wanted the tea when shit happened. Needless to say, you delivered in one of the most artistic ways! This new EP is perfection.

[@missjennpenn]

This sounds like something you'd hear on the radio- crazy clean and good production, catchy lyrics.. such a great song, Niki! I'm so shocked at the progress you're making, your music keeps getting better and better 🥳🥳🥳

[@ChantelCordeiro]

I know they both have different types of music bt I wish Gabi could use the same idk producer or music ppl. Not that she's not good I love her bt Nikki's definitely sounds a lot better an real.

[@calliea9064]

First of all proud of Nate for allowing her to use his photos

[@LindseyRaelle]

Girl the visuals with the songs is so perfect. So raw and honest. Iloveit

[@babyannie4196]

:( I wish Nate finds the healing and light in a relationship that you seem to have found.

[@siarohra4746]

did they break up?

[@Cupofkreb]

@@siarohra4746obviously lol yes

[@xmissdaytona]

@@siarohra4746literally Niki has been posting in the past about breaking up with Nate lmao 🤦🏽‍♀️

[@nicoler1835]

I can't imagine he is okay with you using his pictures and putting your whole past relationship with him out there.

[@madisonmoar]

true but they were HER pictures too & it was also HER relationship as well, she can do whatever

[@caliegirl931]

lol it’s her relationship to😂 she can tell her story if she wants

[@graceelmu]

The whole relationship is already out there…

[@palesaayabukwadunjana2460]

I'm sure she asked, but if not you're right

[@tiffanyroseangeles34]

@@madisonmoaryes i fall in the middle

[@maryrosefridey]

Niki is SUCH A DAMN GOOD SONG WRITER !!!!!!!! always nailing it with the lyrics

[@Anthony.Marinelli]

This song is incredible! Thank you NIKI for your gift of music

[@D.R.1000]

From the vocals, to the beats, to the visuals!! I have LITERAL CHILLS!

[@KatArriaza]

I love how I can understand the story with the creative lyrics and visuals 🥺❤️

[@bettymay7979]

All this time i thought she fell out of love but it was him all along daaamn ngl it was obvious on social media

[@suzievargas841]

Niki your vocals keep getting better and better ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@Kuromichi08]

Genuinely just curious, why do you take pics of yourself crying/being sad?

[@karmenwildheart]

It can make you feel better actually. I know from my personal experience. Or, it could be because she'll look at them later, and see how far she has come now that she's better. Also can relate.

[@CamillexAngelique]

Niki you are such an amazing artist, I have been a subscriber since the beginning of time and just seeing your growth as a person and artist has been insane. Being in my mid to last 20's you give me so much hope that we are always evolving and it's never over even when we feel like it is. Whether its in a relationship, friendships, or careers. I am incredibly proud of you. Keep releasing these amazing tracks, and putting yourself first and loving and taking care of you. You have really prioritized you for the past 2 years, and it shows in the best way. I love you so much girl

[@karmenwildheart]

This is beautiful Niki! I love the song and how full of emotions it is, how you aren't afraid to show yourself crying, being sad etc.. I'm so proud of you! I really hope you are doing much better!❤️ I love you! 🤍

[@Parrawwwwrsha]

This is my favourite song right now, thank you Niki ❤️

[@admirabelle]

THIS IS SO FIRE IM PISSED ITS NOT A RADIO HIT ALREADY! MAKE IT VIRALLL 👏🏼 👏🏼 👏🏼

[@janellerod4865]

THE VISUALS YOU FEEL THE FEELS, SLAYEDDD HARDDD🔥🔥!

[@user-lo7gz2nr7l]

so proud of being a fan for years 💗💗💗💗💗

[@serenavioletglow]

Awwww 😭 ❤️ i love this. So creative and also very expressive. I support you on the journey! Its good that you take some time to self reflect and process stuff in this kind of way.

[@eternalflame3323]

I like it, super catchy, I can see this being played on the radio or even in a movie.

[@princessmh13]

I love it!!!! Why does this reminds me of those Miley and Nick edits I use to watch

[@rmannayr2129]

THE VISUALS ARE PERFECT!

[@ericaann2097]

I actually liked Nate….this video makes me sad

[@s-_-ali9370]

WOW Niki!! i usually don't comment .. BUT TO THIS!! i wish the song didn't end 😭😭 you keep going up and up stronger and fighting every storm and struggle in your way 🤍 and GROW! so proud of you thank you for sharing this amazing art with us 💐🩵 luv from Saudi Arabia

[@brianacadestin5271]

I love the song it’s really good and the lyrics are really creative I hope u ok niki hope u get someone new and of course Nate too

[@fabs34]

People actually take photos of them self crying? And actually keep them?

[@gillibean]

the storytelling in this is amazing ! absolutely love this track 🎧🖤

[@amberaiko442]

The lyric are awesome but who takes that many pictures of themselves crying? I’ve cried but I never thought to pull a camera out or phone out to take a picture of myself. I’ve heard of people crying and sending to friends but I find it kinda confusing.

[@graybirdynamnam]

Isn't it supposed to be Heaven thEn disaster?

[@MrsMuffin11]

Yes. The grammar drives me crazy

[@Momo-ru6sm]

Hey niki, its Maureen (Moe from DD) I feel continuously humbled and proud of you. Ive know you since you were a freshman and I was a junior. You are so incredibly talented and ive loved watching you and grow on very similarly times paths in life. Youre amaxing, never ever change😊❤

[@joemikhael2]

Girl your songs and lyrics keep on becoming better and better keep going

[@impatientcaller8530]

It's then not than...

[@impatientcaller8530]

Heaven then Disaster

[@vixi112]

Woow i am genuinely surprised. This song is so good.

[@rmannayr2129]

THANK YOU NIKI!

[@Dontuweep]

This is one of my favorite songs off the EP! I’m so proud of you bb 🥺🫶🏼

[@haleypharis317]

I absolutely love this song 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

[@rmannayr2129]

THIS SONG IS INCREDIBLE!

[@madisonrose1893]

in tears, in awe. great music, Niki. we love you so so much!

[@itslaila1826]

Just listened to the full album through and I’m still obsessed with pregame but amnesia is my new favorite I admire your creativity

[@andreawest2194]

I absolutely loved this song, thank you again Niki for a great song

[@skylarharley]

I know the recent music from Niki & Gabi is about their fragile breakups but wow... their recent songs are so good and well made Much love

[@greenlee3235]

I love how real and raw it is

[@ChantelCordeiro]

I love this. Looking at all the pics had me in tears. It's a fresh wound it all hurts. After a couple years your all gonna look back an say wow, how could I be happy again or find someone so much better. Time heals all wounds. Luv u Nikki and I wish u nothing bt happiness an a healed heart ❤ . After breakups we always question what we did wrong bt it's nothing. We can't control how someone else feels or thinks. Nobody knows the future bt God.

[@amberkandiraver]

The song is great!! But I think you need to stop plastering Nate everywhere, especially if you aren’t going to tell your fans what happened and continue to paint him as the bad guy. Also, it’s really unfair to your current partner, even if she says she is ok with it.

[@justineduerre]

This EP is so great ! I love you as a youtuber and I think I love you even more (if it is even possible) as an artist !

[@rmannayr2129]

OMG NIKI'S VOICE!

[@Ari-cn2dj]

Ugh, so relatable - too relatable. It takes so much strength to hide the dark sides of our relationships - and even more fortitude to expose them. Thanks for being so brave and for empowering others to realize and release the toxicity. You're amazing.

[@annastanwood9110]

Damn this is absolutely amazing and I'm happy that you are showing this very relatable music. Love you Niki, I'm proud of you 💕

[@enns5366]

THIS video is perfection. Love the song to Niki killed it as per usual

[@CedeJacobs]

the talent u possess is unreal. so proud of u! keep grinding, it’s paying off 🫶🏽

[@wcai3421]

this sounds like those catchy disney songs in the 2000s i loooooove it

[@sarahjaouabi]

this song is good!!! im so proud of you niki🤍 i love you so so so much

[@chunkychocolatechip1441]

It’s never just one persons fault. Takes two.

[@cecemoon8651]

If she tours just know im front row singing n crying ny heart out

[@kr_ystal08]

Love your music!you are doing great niki!!!🌟💖💖💖

[@bethanyreneeo]

Such a good song! Can see you singing this at a slower pace as well 🥺 so relatable 😭

[@keslinegoudou4432]

This is the song I was looking for. My heart is so broken right now… 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️

[@tyasewpal1872]

Honestly, I was never ever fond of your music till now. Damn this song is really good.

[@starringsadie777]

niki this is literally the best song you've ever written im in full blown tears rn this song makes me feel so much 🥺

[@kimayamawananehewa8371]

Woah niki...this song is SO GOOD

[@brundhaaa]

THIS IS SO GOOOD NIKI OMG

[@pickingrandepetals]

i’m so proud of you Niki!

[@jesscscca]

is it meant to be heaven THAN disaster or was that just a mistake lol

[@Lulu-hq8mx]

I’m literally going through this right now 😢. Sometimes the best thing we can do is to let go

[@__grz]

I love this SO much, I wish the lyrics said “then” tho my brain can’t stop seeing the mistake 😭

[@GL-uh3pg]

niki???? this is too good😭😭

[@Tdbam]

The song is great, but in general I never understand why people take pictures of themselves crying.

[@melissag0448]

To play victim imo “Look I’m crying feel bad for me”

[@fancywithme]

It’s therapeutic, you don’t idealise the past because you also get to see the low moments as well. I get that posting it online isn’t something most would like to do but it makes sense I think. Also wanting empathy from people anyway is human.

[@saralynnlaponzina6409]

Is he okay with these photos of him 🧐

[@_tayymorgann]

I can relate to this on so many levels 🫠

[@jenniec3251]

I mean honestly i could see shy he would fall out of love. You changed. It isn't a bad thing though but people that know who they are and ehat they want im life shouldn't be with someone who is still experimenting with their sexuality and life. You would kiss girls and god knows what else. That just wasn't him. You still finding yourself. Which is ok but can't expect him to be waiting around until you figure out what you want.

[@lanijay8782]

Not a phase she pan sexual

[@jenniec3251]

@@lanijay8782 never said it was a phase. Nate didn't have to deal with that though which imo that's why they broke up

[@astrabula329]

Exactly!

[@justme1106]

Right? This is what im thinking as well. She was and is still a mess. Figuring her life out (nothing wrong with this) but don’t expect people to deal with it. Specially all that she would do or talk about like kissing rachel or being into girls.

[@peekapower1817]

Rewatching a lot of Niki’s videos, something I’d love to hear more about is belief. Could you do a video on your beliefs and balancing that with such a busy life? 💗💗💗

[@naiomylourido2208]

My favorite lines are "I turned on & off" and "so good to so numb" really felt that... Great song Niki

[@ukau706]

Relatable. This is so good

[@ariannejacmic]

This song is SO INCREDIBLE Niki!!!!

[@AnimalWall]

Best song ive heard this year 😭😭

[@NicoleJhaziel]

niki!!! I love this songgggg. ❤❤❤

[@tinam6792]

This is so beautiful

[@seriouslyskylartv6789]

Niki consistent with the good music

[@amandasfam1839]

I love it!! I feel bad that its you your singing about. But it's truth and raw. It's coming straight from the heart!! 🔥 ❌⭕

[@ashleysoto2200]

love seeing you evolve 😍

[@psychedelicPixie]

Slayyy Niki🔥💕 love this so much!

[@Vanilacupcakes365]

aww this is so beautiful but so sad 🥺🤧💗💗

[@theawkwardnesstvkaraterzano]

Your music gets better and better. So proud

[@jeremybickerstaff1563]

I love this song. It's so deep! And very catchy! I'm obsessed with your music! And your whole vibe!! 💋😍💗

[@jadenalessandraaa]

Niki I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE it so much 😭

[@femalehokagee]

This song is actually really good

[@emmajane4131]

This is definitely your best song yet!

[@vivexdos8186]

WOW, THIS IS AWESOME!!!! HOPE YOU HEAL SOON BOO

[@malaysiabrown6245]

Honestly love this, proud of u

[@makethatchange7305]

im in love with this song, very relatable.

[@AllisonandGarret]

Omg I have been waiting for this song

[@samanthahallrozee]

When’s there gonna be shows for London/ UK because I need to hear these songs live!!! Never disappointed with the songs that you write and release 🖤🖤🖤

[@aliyahslife284]

Love this NIKI💜

[@lindseylevy7035]

I have never related to a song more in my entire life 😢

[@michys6life]

😭🖤 this i love both songs

[@chaitralighodke1618]

Listening on loop

[@ThatsKami]

The lyrics are so good Niki 💕

[@dancegirls5390]

I love an needed this song ❤️best yet

[@Taylor-ue8yd]

This is how I felt when I left my 3yr relationship almost a year ago But now I have the love of my life that treats me perfectly