No, I didn’t train my horses.

[@TheProjectEquestrian]

I hope this video doesn't come accross as a downer - not at all my intend. I'm just trying to share a reality of my life this past summer and some things and realizations that have helped. I hope someone feels less alone because of it❤

[@kellypetersen8204]

I love how God gave you a quote to hold onto for encouragement, he speaks to us if we listen. His Love is so great and surpasses all of the trials and joys that this life brings. Thanks for bringing this to me too, friend.

[@JoeLinux2000]

I feel you have changed a lot form your original videos where you were fully into "positive reinforcement." I started volunteering at a large rescue stable just south of Denver as the result of watching your and others' videos. The problem with owning horses is they require a tremendous amount of care. It's easy to understand how it would be easy to get down. I did meet Buck Branaman this summer, and got to talk to him a little bit. He's been able to make a good living from his horsemanship skills. He's been making a good living sitting on the back of a horse for the past 40 years, but it has required a lot of sacrifice, travel, and time away from his family.

[@kathyeller1621]

You put into words how I felt my summer went. Thank you.

[@molchmolchmolchmolch]

​@@TheProjectEquestrian Absolutely. I'll actually keep it as a reminder of how to consciously process similar regrets, thank you.

[@medievallassie]

This video is perfect!! I think we have all been in this very same place and you have come out on the right side of it...focus on the accomplishments you have made because those have honestly been huge. There is so much to look forward to BECAUSE of what you accomplished this summer!!! You have networked within the elite mustang community just by being so good at what you do here on KZbin. I literally click your videos first on my notifications list!! Be Proud of you are are because, despite your personal self doubts, WE see the kind, playful, hardworking, horse-loving woman that you are. I am so inspired by you!!

[@tracybrock1406]

Girl. Thanks. I'm an old horsewoman that needed to hear that. I lost a year. A lame horse, a wet year, missing shows, no riding, more rain & another lame horse. And was starting to feel like All I did was work, and had no enjoyment this year. Yet I needed to count my "did's". I did finally solve my grass/ track system issue. I did get to know my new horse. I did count my blessings that we weren't in the path of Helene. Some years are tougher than others. It tests us...daily. Thank you. I'm in good company.

[@deborahp9115]

Dear Britta, I appreciate your honesty and that you are still able to make videos. I understand the struggle. Thinking of winter is daunting too. I really hope you can find a larger property and more enjoyment in with your horses. You deserve it! ❤❤❤

[@koi---]

Same ❤️ love to quote After several rough years, things are looking up, even though i still feel a little stuck, life is moving forward & i know things will be better soon Ty for sharing

[@lindabrettl6233]

Wow how your video resonates with me. I feel like this every fall. I too am a lover of the sun and where I live fall is often cold, wet and cloudy. This year is especially hard. I got injured in a non horse accident and have been stuck at home unable to go out. Unable to see my horses or work with them. I just recently got a friend for my mare and had made plans to work with him and do lots of training. I had planned on trail riding all fall. But now it maybe spring before I can even get in the saddle. 😢 I miss my babies! Not seeing them is so hard.

[@daniellependock2554]

Don't miss Summer, it's just visiting Australia right now. We will give it back before you know it. 🧡 You can use your winter to prepare for the next summer where you can do some of the fun things you felt like you missed out on doing. Or you could be a bit of a mad lad and do some summer activities in the winter time and still have some small enjoyments in life. I'm sure your horses all live in the moment, maybe you can live in the moment with them, even if it is winter.

[@alisontabernor6332]

Oh Britta, I'm so sorry to hear that your feeling down! Sending you hugs. The horses have enjoyed down time with lots of your loving care! Just think how many videos you have produced and people have watched and enjoyed! All the jobs and visits you have done. You are an amazing woman! God loves you ❤️ 😊

[@blackdiamond7708]

❤🎉 Dear Britta, I'm nowhere near you in age, but I too must cry from time to time, go through the Kleenex, reflect a little more about the losses, the traumas, then get back to praising and thanking God. He is our source. He is the One we are preparing to meet ultimately, and all the rest is gravy... He's constantly there, waiting to hear from us. Trust me I know, cuz I've failed too many times to include Him first and foremost. In all our ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct our paths. He loves us, He was there first, and He's always waiting to hear more from us... just as any good Father would.. You've accomplished a lot Britta, and I don't think God wants you to be so hard on yourself. You bring your viewers joy, and that's a good thing. 🙂😘❤️🙏

[@debwebster6608]

More of us go through this than we know. We have to remember that we are not alone and it's OK. *hugs

[@ourgraceunfolds]

Your videos are inspiring. Gratitude for all you do. What makes you happy? Truly happy. Keep reaching to God that's what I'm doing. I don't have the answers I'm just feeling my way through. I love you. You've been blessed with the love The does surround you. Grace for yourself and others through tge process.

[@triciamoran4996]

Loved this video.... Mostly coz of your openness to being vulnerable !! I'm new to ur channel But I really like it. Hugs from Ireland !!

[@AlmaVidaHorseRanch]

Thank you for sharing this. Believe it or not but this will encourage a lot of people in a similar spot to keep on going 💖

[@makingitthrough190]

Thank you. You are already a very good story teller and I am not sure I have seen horses filmed so beautifully for a long time. This is the first video of yours that I have seen and it was very well done. My mental health is not always great. In June I caught a virus - probably covid, that had me out of commission for more than two months. The fatigue gave me time to rejuvenate my tired mind. The timing coincided with the start of a therapy that was new to me and just what I needed. Please keep filming and share whatever happens, it doesn’t have to be spectacular to be good. You have a skill in this regard that records the quiet times with such a fresh appeal.

[@soneykoch]

I know EXACTLY what you're going through. I'm right there with you. All work, and no time for my horses and pretty soon we're going to be covered in snow again. It's causing me to have a lot of down days. Guess we'll be like the farmers and say hopefully next year is a better one.

[@zandraengel4771]

Boy did this video hit home with me. Every year, everyone I know feels these same feelings. Its ok to greive what could have been. But careful, only do this for a second. Why a second? Cause in order to think you have failed, you have to compare yourself to an imaginary perfect version of yourself. Dark thoughts would have us condemned for not living up to perfection. Did you know that depression (which was dominant in my life) cant stay when we praise God? So as an old lady now I have learned to say out loud the truth if who i am in Christ. I know I need to hear it. You did this in your video. You found the secret of how to handle these thoughts. Your viewers see the real you. Your lovely and mature for your age. You spent a whole summer working towards the furture with your big girl pants. Congradulations! You marched forward. Im rooting for you. 😊

[@irishgirl4331]

You did accomplish many things. I have a feeling you are headed for great things with your on sight reporting of these Mustang contests. I think this is going to lead to something big for you in the future. Baby Steps. I have every confidence in you.🍀🇺🇸

[@Nancy-mi3xe]

I too have had to deal with loss this summer. My best friend, the best, closest, most trustworthy friend I've ever had, died unexpectedly and without us getting to say goodbye. I didn't find out for a month, even though prior to her death we'd talked every day.. I turned to your videos of Mustangs to help me, because horses always have. I don't have a horse, I don't live where I'd like to, or where I can afford to keep a horse,. So, your videos are one of my ways to feel connected to that world which I would love to be in. So, you can add to your amazingly long list of accomplishments, helping a fellow horse lover overcome the initial shock and pain. And the feeling of being lost and sad thats followed. That's big. Like a tiny Tikkun Olam.

[@themakersstation]

Glad I could help! Thank you for sharing what many of us are feeling, but can’t quite put our collective fingers on. I haven’t created anything for months and y’know what? It’s ok! My nets are twisted, tattered and I’m sloooowly mending them because soon, I’ll be ready to venture out to sea. May we all have brighter ventures in the days to come. Bright moon, warm sun, Britta. All is well.

[@cheridanangel7998]

I think time goes by so fast and life just hits us sometimes so you aren’t alone 🫶🏻

[@erinphillips6766]

This video was so relatable. Much of how I’ve felt recently (and I only swam once this summer…😫). For the past few years, I’ve worked really hard on starting a wild equine rescue and finally gained 501(c)3 status this year. Even with that huge accomplishment, I’ve felt discouraged a lot. I realized, like you said, that so much of what I’ve done has been work and I’m not really having much fun with my horses. Over the past month, I’ve been trying to “play” more with my horses and get back into other things I enjoy. I am also trying to continue reminding myself that God has everything in control!

[@shellystacey6538]

Looks like you actually got a lot accomplished!! Cheer up! This too shall pass ❤️🙏

[@stevebullard8662]

Young lady I liked the quote you read and just want to say things are happening in your life. We all have a few set backs in life but if everything happened as quick and fast as we would like them to. We wouldn't grow in life to understand the struggles, commitment, sacrifices and most of all patients. Trust me you've came very far and done very well with horses and your channel keep striving you got this.

[@smartgamer214]

You have no idea how much I needed to hear this today. I have also been stuck in the same cycle for years. Summer comes around and I get so excited to work with my horses. I tell all my friend "this is definitely the year I'm going to REALLY start working with them and get them riding" then I blink and summer is gone and I still haven't done anything with them. I get so caught up in just trying to survive the day that I let weeks go by without accomplishing any of my goals. Everything I end up actually doing is just to keep them alive and comfortable and I never get any training done. I get so down on myself for being "lazy" and not making any progress. Thank you for posting this video and reminding me that I'm not alone and other people also struggle with achieving their goals. Thank you ❤️❤️

[@margaretmayekar8761]

Sometime back I saw a video or read something, and that person said that instead of ‘to-do’ lists, at the end of every day they wrote a ‘ta-da!’ list of everything they did that day. You accomplished a lot this summer, but because it wasn’t what you planned or maybe wanted to do, you think you haven’t done anything. To myself and everyone I know, this year flew by in a blur. The goal book I should have filled out in January is still empty and whoosh!, it’s already October! But we don’t need to wait until New Years, or any other milestone day to set a goal or take a step forward. We can start any day, and we only do the best we can. Thank you for sharing your journey.

[@stardust949]

Put this on your "did" list----KICK ASS VIDEOS!!! lol! I loved this beautiful video. It's contemplative, a review, and with awesome shots of the bees in Autumn flowers as well as the beautiful leaf colors against blue skies. I love checking in with your channel, because you're about the same age as my son and daughter-in-law who live in Barre. They both began new jobs at the beginning of the summer, and they've felt overwhelmed at times with all the new training, information, and learning new business skills they've had to do. Not what they went to school for either, these jobs. We only get to see them once or twice a year. Money is tight, travel is expensive, and the world's kind of nuts right now. I ask God daily "What is TODAY about?" Well, mostly it's been about "Maintain Stability" in whatever form that takes. JUST doing that is actually a huge victory. To have the basics covered, to live simply and honestly---these in and of themselves are noble. I think your horses are very lucky. God Bless.

[@spacepuppie]

Thank you for this video. I really need to hear this. I do love that saying about fishermen. It makes a lot of sense. I'm sorry you've gone through a hard patch, but this really hit home for me. I've been going through similar issues in my own life. This past year somehow got away from me. But yes, this really helped so much. Thank you

[@WildLilyHorsemanship]

I love that you are looking at all the positives! Depression is horrendous to deal with, and feeling a bunch of guilt on top of it absolutely sucks. I’m really sorry you’ve been struggling so much, but you’ve totally got this! Our ponies are sticking around for us, just hanging out until we’re ready.

[@judymaddox5477]

This summer went by so fast. I don't know where it went. You are not alone in your struggles. Lean on GOD and he will pull you through. Prayers for a brighter day!

[@janelmc17]

Don’t feel bad hon the entire world‘s going through what you’re going through. It’s a global transition. It’s going to be better very soon. You’ll be back to fun & things again❤

[@nepheshr290]

I feel the same way often. I stopped having goals with my horses other than to just spend time with them and it has helped.

[@Mustangsinfinity]

I'll keep you in my prayers. All people have those times, but it will get better. All the things that you did will make it better! You made some awesome videos, that can help more people help more Mustangs! On top of that, sometimes horses can just use a break! I know I've had times like this, and even if it's not specific training progress, just the time feeding them and hanging out increased our bond and trust and helped with training getting back into it. This is a wonderful video, and thank you for posting it!

[@Mustangsinfinity]

Also, a did-list is a wonderful idea! And I saw that exact quote this morning! Thank you again for sharing!

[@meredithvaughan5946]

The year never turns out how you expect it to- I started this year with a bank balance of +20K, and now I'm down to 2. Next year will be better, always!

[@sharplyopinion8ted249]

Prepping for anything takes more time then we admit. In my job I daily spend sometimes the whole day prepping if not 2 days, to come in and put a coat of paint or two up in one day then spend another day removing the prep work and putting pieces back in original spots. I know it takes all that to do the job but the real kicker is when someone who doesn't know asks what you did all week. All this to say you and only you really know what you acomplished. Without the prepping the finish ian't worth looking at. ME, I look at all the hay you stored and just looking at it exhausts me, so YES you have done lots. Sure they may be small things but as a whole they are huge. Stay safe. Stay sane. Stay STRONG!

[@angelaandreos9169]

Britta, you accomplished a lot this summer. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re only one person! 👏😊👏😊

[@topazzsky]

It's okay Britta(Hug)... you are human. Love yourself enough to know you are worth it. You've done more than you know, even though you feel you didn't do everything you wanted to. You're being harder on yourself than you have to be. Your horses know they're LOVED! Your a wonderful horse mom! You've been looking for a home for your family and them!!! That's a big deal! You will get there! Fall riding is lovely too. Sit in nature, look at your babies, and breathe! See the sights, smell the air, and know you still have so much time to do things. There's nothing wrong with what you did, and what you didn't get done. Somedays I have to say to myself: "Just for now"... I will... etc... That just for now statement allows me to handle one thing at a time and give myself the space when I'm depressed. I have seasonal depression as well, and fall hit me hard also... If you need a fellow struggling person to tell you, "It's alright", "You'll be alright"... here I am. Theres always someone lower than you... I for example had to give up my precious horses unwillingly... at least you still have yours. You can still pick up the brushes and groom them, still hug them on your worst days... I long for that, qnd regret so much that lead me to lose mine. I live through you sometimes to get through my day. It's okay and you're going to be alright. ❤

[@daciefusjones8128]

I bought my first horse when I was fifteen and now at seventy three I can tell you the amount of work never ends but you just enjoy it cause you have something to give you back more than what you put into it. my last two horses l had for twenty five years and the last four I didn't ride them, but I was there for them until they were both gone. that was five years ago and I wish I had some corrals and feeders to clean.

[@MegF142857]

This makes me a bit sad. I'm at that point with 2 old horses & getting older myself. I don't ride anymore, but I do enjoy having my horses. All the work taking care of them is good exercise & also good mentally. I fear them or myself getting a health issue, so really try to enjoy each moment. Today I was washing only a part of each & clipping just a section, as I just can't get the energy to do them all anymore. I used to do both horses in one afternoon. Now I'm doing in sections.over several days.

[@blessedfire365xgf]

Today is your first day! Enjoy your moment 😌 hugs

[@tashasylvia3313]

Life is like a long hike. Some days it’s sunny, flat easy walkin. Other days it’s rainy, muddy or cold. But we slog thru and find the dry land again eventually. And the sun will come out again and the trail will level out❤

[@CatzDolz]

YAY!!! FALL!!! Things I didnt do: * Follow through with my PAID FOR online guitar lessons. * Paint the living room. * Fill my PAID FOR storage unit with all the CLUTTER I still believe I need. *Failing to reconnect with family and friends, who, in the past, ran to my aid and comfort, when I was in desperate need. * DO THE DAMN DISHES!!! DID DO: cook for and care for my 100% disabled sister and her 50 cats. Coffees on....Now, WHERE are those CHARLIE BROWN DVD's?

[@MegF142857]

I was going to learn to juggle. LOL!

[@elamanvetta1685]

Imagine all the things that had to happen to make that message show up on your screen at the very moment you needed it and opened your laptop. Summer is short where you live, so I understand your frustration. Here in Texas, there are very few days where we can't do things outside.

[@janetrodriguez914]

I think you accomplished more than you think. Rewatch this video and you’ll see that for yourself. When we expect too much of ourselves we can get overwhelmed. That can lead to feelings of depression. Take a break, realign your priorities and let God carry you. God bless you.

[@sharonhopper7272]

You have accomplished a lot...look at all you have done. Working , riding horses takes time. So let me encourage you to set aside an hr to ride....😊

[@tashasylvia3313]

❤hang in their girl❤ totally understand how you feel. We had forest fires all summer and couldn’t do anything outside. Missed a whole summer of swimming, riding or just wandering up a creek. Sigh 😔

[@marybabler788]

Try not to look at the stuff you've lost but what's ahead in the future and that's what you have control of. You can't control your past. You can control the future. You've got a beautiful future ahead so there was some days that were bad You're a very smart lady and if you look at all the stuff you accomplished this summer there's a lot in itself. Like I said, the past is the past. It's what you do with the future that makes the person you are. You'll do it. You're an amazing person❤❤❤❤ just remember all those horses that you have rescued and saved so far and these guys that you have now. They'll be ready when you are

[@ljensen9364]

Vermont summers are so so short, they fly by in the blink of an eye. It makes it so easy to feel like we missed it ( I’m in vermont too). It’s perfectly fine to be where and feel what you do. Be gentle with yourself.

[@Marque_Eq]

I feel you. It’s gonna be ok, we are here for you.

[@DeniseKalan-fn7bq]

❤you are not the only one who goes through this. Try to look at the good stuff you have. I think you are doing good things. Try to keep your spirits up. The funny thing is that you are sad about summer being over. I, on the other hand, am looking forward to fall. I live in AL. And it has been so hot it is all I can do to make it through the day. Try to embrace all the seasons for what they give. Hang in there. You are very special. Thank you for the quote you posted as it meant so much to me. ❤

[@charlene-zw]

My heart horse died in April . ( colic 😔 ) I too lost my summer . I understand. I know for all of us… the sun will eventually shine again 🥹🐴

[@docerikson2141]

You lost nothing, you know why? You learned... a lot. With that you gained knowledge, but most importantly: as you process this, you gained knowledge. Keep it up, both of you, (he and his businesses), and keep going. Life's lessons can stink sometimes, but find the roses, and cherish them. Grow where you're planted...love your channel.

[@sidilicious11]

You’re young and have lots of opportunity ahead of you. And beautiful horses to play with. A summer off is fine. I think your “did” list is a wonderful idea. Thanks for sharing.

[@MargaretKolosky]

A teacher once told me that a lesson was just a lesson, preparing the way for what more needs to be done. you did not go to school to just pass the course you went for the posibility for more. this is why you do what you do. trust in the process, you did get something done even if it was not fun but it was necessary as a set up to the fun you will have in the future, plan for more fun not just the work life will feel better for it.

[@JTG_Performance_friesians]

This video is so raw And real and I think we can all relate to you .i completely validate your feelings and send you so much love and healing .from the uk xx be kind to yourself ,i get the sense You are very tough on yourself xx

[@mustangdressage]

This is relatable! Thanks for sharing and being vulnerable.

[@keithsimpson2697]

This world puts so much emphasis on 'achievement' we have been indoctrinated into thinking if we haven't done something amazing this day week month year we have failed. It's no longer valued to just work on the day to day and not try and do it all. I love the did list. And so far as the horses are concerned they don't mind they haven't been 'worked with' they are happy and content and in the moment. Being horses. Safe and cared for by you.

[@janelmc17]

I like to include your horses grazing outside and pictures of you working.🎉🎉🎉😊

[@janelmc17]

You are wise beyond your years.

[@debrabish1494]

Don't be hard on yourself-now I am older and have only worked to keep the horses but I have started many many horses-I just want to be around the horses-I have a new killpen rescue and she has gained and grown and may be pregnant and I am just now haltering and showing her the rope-everything is ok

[@DianaOwen-h7m]

You are very precious! ❤

[@teresareynolds4295]

This was the first year I didn't can anything. We sold the tiller last year and went with container garden. Okra, peppers, and tomatoes did well enough to provide for meals. Squash and eggplant did not.

[@solarangel3691]

Oh, the rough and smooth of this life we live hey!? The best thing I ever learned was to be kind to yourself. Treat yourself as well as you treat others, it's hard and I still find it difficult to uphold but it really does work. Us humans are a true mystery on this planet. Be more horse I say 😂

[@catherineniew7457]

You seem to have bounced back after grieving your loss of summer fun. Having multiple horses has got to be a little of work for you. You do need some fun time besides your trips of filming events outside of your home life. Heed that last verse and trust in God and get on with what you can do every day. Have gratitude for what you have and you can keep dreaming of great things to come! Take care of yourself first!!❤️

[@catherineniew7457]

Not little of work, but ‘a lot of hard work’ .. sorry.

[@kathleenmcginley4827]

Yes, we have turned the page into October, but isn't it one of the best seasons to ride? You have a truck & trailer and probably parks or places to ride. Breath in the scents and be amazed at the display of color. Enjoy the heck out of your equine companions, bonding on trail rides. It may just be the gift you need to plow on in the ordinary.

[@GlendaFoxhlove-n9f]

If I could I would have any of your horses if you thought it would be good for the horse/ you I love all horses but I enjoy all your videos and watch them when I can

[@TheProjectEquestrian]

Thank you 💙💙

[@reebs2316]

girl think of what success meant to your ancestors! just having enough hay stored for the winter would have been a success for them! capitalism has convinced us that if we're not constantly improving than we are a failure - which is simply not true. we are here to exist and enjoy this earth, not to be stuck in a cycle of constant improvement

[@MegF142857]

And when Spring rolls around... do another similar video? That's just life. Get used to it. I'm an old lady, so pardon my cynicism.

[@artemisXsidecross]

Welcome to being a full fledged adult where solving problems is the occupation. Our pre-frontal cortex of our brain is fully not formed until our mid twenties or later and this is portion of our brain is used to solve problems with the executive and administrative functions. It is a work of art to use it; experience is an ally and the work is always in process. ☮

[@Nancy-mi3xe]

A saying I found useful from Wm. Least Heat Moon: "We are our attentions." When I was depressed this helped me. It means change what you're focused on. You have so much beauty and life around you, good health, a home with horses in the country, a wonderful husband, etc. I think that's what this video was about. Focus on what you love, not what you haven't got or done, and hire help if it'll free you to enjoy life for yourself. And be silly, life's too short. We never get all we want or get done all we think we should, that's life. But you've got so much more than many, many people.