What a beautiful film. After being out 40+ years myself, one thing I've discovered is that we each have our own stories, challenges, and life. No one is responsible for our future other than each of us. People do what they can, when they can, and with whatever energy have.
@ramabaiapparao8801 Жыл бұрын
Ic that bold
@hbase51862 жыл бұрын
I can't thank you enough for fighting for our rights. I've only lost 2 years of not being able to be myself, and it's thanks to the progress you helped make. Every member of the lgbtq+ community, from every country, culture, language, and time period is family. Thank you for all that you've done
@ramabaiapparao8801 Жыл бұрын
Mmmmm good but better donot give up .Live long prosper
@jmannysantiago3 жыл бұрын
This is beautiful. THANK YOU to all our elders who have lived and thrived showing us that living authentically is the only good way to live. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
@Lylo-mj8ek2 жыл бұрын
Amen
@rianalauren3 жыл бұрын
It's an important video and even as I'm in it there's much I learned. Working where I did in 1969 I was fortunate to never have to 'COME OUT." My family was scattered and I lived my life the way I wanted never trying to please others. I thank all those who have made life easier for our younger generations. THANK YOU
@SB-iy9vn2 жыл бұрын
1969 ? sure that happen
@lillianward28102 жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story!
@lillianward28102 жыл бұрын
@@SB-iy9vn she’s literally in the video my guy. She explains her own story.
@positivequeenonpurpose7 ай бұрын
That's how it should be... Live your life the way you want... What you do in private is no one else's business... Everyone should have the right to privacy... So long all involved are adults and consenting... Why do I have to care... And I'm not gay.
@fob1xxl Жыл бұрын
A WONDERFUL Documentary. I came out to myself in 1969 when I was 23. I had a small group of gay friends. I was closeted to everyone else. My parents (old school Italian), my older sister by 2 1/2 years. In 1977, after years of being a gay young man, I met the love of my life. He was 25 and 6 years younger than myself. My parents accepted him although we never spoke of it. Once my sister realized I was in a gay relationship we became estranged. I haven't spoken to her since 1989 after my Dad passed away. In 2013 when it became legal, we were married in California. We were registered as Domestic Partners ever since the 80's. In 2017 he passed away. He was 66. I don't regret one year of my life. My 40 years with the love of my life was my happiest. Now at almost 78, I have friends I've known for decades that know who I am. The early days, were hidden. Entering clubs and bars through the back alley. Going to private parties. Playing the dual role because you needed to have a job. The young generation today is so lucky to be able to express their feelings so openly. I am truly so happy for them.
@valkyrie10668 ай бұрын
❤❤🫂🫂
@reneechristopher21218 ай бұрын
Such a beautiful story.❤❤😊😊
@mmeme58617 ай бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤❤
@cindyj55223 жыл бұрын
" I think I lost a lot of years not being myself." NO human being should EVER have to say that.
@chameleonrena3 жыл бұрын
Cindy, I know exactly how you feel.
@Alphacentauri8193 жыл бұрын
I’ve lost a lot of years not being myself...I’m still figuring out who I am, apart from all the conditioning, indoctrination. Even trying to conform to others standards I felt I wasn’t enough. A long, healing process of connecting to myself. I don’t have a single soul who really knows me.
@chameleonrena3 жыл бұрын
Cindy, I can't agree with you more.
@SB-iy9vn2 жыл бұрын
yet they do it does not better it gets worst
@lcedinolife90942 жыл бұрын
U dammmm right
@shanestuart-ramirez4293 жыл бұрын
Dearest everyone for you contributions. This has been emotional wake up call! I appreciate all that our family have contributed to the lost history of what has become the norm!
@SK-fb6il Жыл бұрын
thank you for fighting for the rights and freedom we have today ❤ i am so grateful
@ramabaiapparao8801 Жыл бұрын
Being grateful is not enough love unconditional
@casandrabarnes-oq9fy8 ай бұрын
You're welcome ❤
@barbkeen12213 жыл бұрын
OMG! It's Richard, one of my favorite Old Gay Guys!! ❤❤❤ Y'all need to check them out because those four gay guys are our people who came before us and blazed a trail for us! Thank you to all these lovely people and others whose stories didn't get told who were first and made it easier for us younger ones! ❤❤❤❤🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈😊😊❤❤❤❤
@truth22322 жыл бұрын
Ok devil
@christinebuckingham83692 жыл бұрын
Okay Troll
@jamberry80267 ай бұрын
@@truth2232 Eat 💩🥣🥄
@girlygirllocssoul2 жыл бұрын
Many blessings to the elders of the LGBTQ+ community. And thank you for sharing your stories, I totally lost it at the end… 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️
@kiak.matthews762 жыл бұрын
This brought tears to my eyes listening to their stories and feeling the overwhelming love for everyone who shared, whom I will probably never meet. I'm immensely grateful for their stories and saddened by the pain they endured, but I love that some of them have their happy ending, not just because they're with a partner, but because they ARE finally free to be their true selves to the world. Also, they are the history lesson we must never forget: we cannot legalise someone's love.
@jazzyboo1002 жыл бұрын
You guys have paved the way… We love you ❤
@scorpionoir49528 ай бұрын
seeing the elder lgbtq couples was so touching for me.
@marya38238 ай бұрын
Jesus is The Way, He loves you,
@fresh-eggs7 ай бұрын
@@marya3823I am a 53 year old lifelong Atheist.
@tamikalee44417 ай бұрын
There’s nothing touching about this mess……. You need to be praying for there soul🤦🏽♀️
@fresh-eggs7 ай бұрын
@@tamikalee4441 There's no credible evidence to show or support a God in existence anywhere in reality.
@scorpionoir49527 ай бұрын
@@tamikalee4441 To each his own maam. Oh and I'm agnostic so keep your religion to yourself because that bs means nothing to me.
@tomtaft98618 ай бұрын
Beautiful, brave, ballsy! Vulnerable and heartbreaking - navy job and the Rev being married at 14, never had a partner or lover but came out publicly .. Pearl coming out twice.. Years "lost" ThankYOU you marvelous magnificent warriors!! I'm 58 so a little behind you but still a beneficiary of your courage and fire.
@TerriCarroll8 ай бұрын
I am not a part of this community, but my heart really goes out to the people in this piece, because they gave up so much life, because they weren't accepted. Especially the man that said he never had a lover, or a partner. That is so sad! Prejudice and homophobia is so useless, just like racism. I had never even heard of the lavendar scare, I had to look that up. I'm glad that they finally were able to walk fully in who they are. And I really hope the younger generation of the LGBTQ+ community appreciates that people before them paved the way for them to be able to openly be their authentic selves today. Good for all of y'all!
@jwalt80192 жыл бұрын
Great documentary. And thank you elders for sharing yours stories. We stand on your shoulders.🙏🏾💜🌈 Not another second wasted.
@tt51673 жыл бұрын
Beautiful people with beautiful stories. We should all be so thankful for these pioneers and hope and push for more and more acceptance.
@paulanthonygarcia8 ай бұрын
This is a great documentary! I'm at my desk at work crying! Tears of happy!
@moo...imacow16379 ай бұрын
Thank you. Thank you so much. You've paved the way for us and we will never forget that and we will never let that go to waste. Thank you.
@izz41832 жыл бұрын
I'm crying right now because I'm 40 abd I've only been out for 5 years. I thought it was too late for me and I've never dated or had sex so I gave up on love but this set a fire in me. I'm going to find love so the next generation won't ever have to feel the way these beautiful souls and I felt growing up thinking love was not possible
@edwinhoff983 Жыл бұрын
❤
@johndoe-wv3nu11 ай бұрын
I met the man I've been with for the last 16 years at 40. You're young still.
@felicitybywater80128 ай бұрын
I hope you find a love as deep as my grandfather found in his true love ❤
@randywatts69698 ай бұрын
You will find the real thing when you least expect it
@cesarsmithdiaz58578 ай бұрын
Never give up❤️❤️❤️ someone is waiting for you around the corner 😊😊😊😊
@tomhaywood86192 жыл бұрын
I'm 63yrs old and perhaps a little younger than these beautiful humanbeings. However, I'm still part of their era and I can relate more with these inspiring people. Growing up in the 1960s and 1970s knowing I was gay was not only confusing but scary. As I look back at the down times and difficult times it has not only built strength within me but also gave me the endurance to be exactly what I was created to be!! Everyone growing up now that is feeling gay or different in someway just remember you are unique and it will all be ok just stand tall and be proud of yourselves!! its all going to be ok, I promise!!! God Bless you all in this great and enlightening video!!!
@Lylo-mj8ek2 жыл бұрын
Amen
@florairvan8305 Жыл бұрын
No One was created to be gay.
@tomhaywood8619 Жыл бұрын
God Bless You!!!
@grumpyoldlady_rants8 ай бұрын
My best friend’s brother was gay. He was fortunate that the family accepted him but I still remember hearing other boys at school calling the “f” word. This was in the late 60s.
@SpookMeows133 жыл бұрын
I'm so happy that they can now be themselves, who they were all along🖤 I am so, so happy for them all🖤 Thank you for paving the way and making it easier for us all to be who we are on the inside and to show it on the outside🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈
@kali67532 жыл бұрын
I felt the words, all that what you've said, but also, i'm so unbelievably proud of you.
@justinB-NYC Жыл бұрын
Love it!! 🖤🖤🖤. This could easily be a multi-part series.
@TheDevotionProject3 жыл бұрын
We love this project! Can't wait to see the exhibit! With our short film series, we tried to share that #LoveisLove, and we support every project that is about empowering #LGBTQ people and elders! Bravi!
@michelletiger3903 Жыл бұрын
What a thoughtful, intelligent, lovely film. Thank you. I will be sharing.
@Suri-o7w2 жыл бұрын
As a BLACK lesbian woman in America growing up in the 60s 70s 80s 90s and even the 2000s you had to keep your sexuality hidden you had to be discreet about your love interest you had to be on the low it just wasn't safe coming out back then when you are living in the toughest areas of the world BLACK parents weren't as eager to hear your coming out stories back then coming out meant you were willing to risk any and everything coming your way. You may have gotten beaten, you may have gotten disowned, you may have gotten thrown out into dangerous streets. When I came out to my mother years and years ago as very young twenty something I was screamed at hated and despised immediately and outcast shunned abandon and thrown out into the dangerous streets 😭🥵🤬😡 I had gone estranged from my beloved mom and immediate family for at least 20- 30- years by the time my beloved mom wanted to reconcile with me it was just a little to late I only had 2 weeks with her and it was only buy telephone ☎️ cause we lived in two different states mom passed away Approx two weeks later it was the saddest day of all my life the worst 😡 thing that could have ever happened to me it brings tears 😭 to my eyes 👁️ cause I was hated and despised for loving somebody who accepted me and was loving me wholeheartedly for everything that I was a gay black lesbian woman who wasn't ashamed to be me in this country that hated and despised me cause love is a blind thing ... it just doesn't see well...and you just never ever know who may interest you in this life I miss my mom immensely SORRY she never truly accepted me or my lifestyle it hurts sometimes reminiscing over my past cause I never really had closure would have been nice had only my mom apologized for hating and disowning me she left this evil world 🌍 without saying those three words" I AM SORRY really loved and adorn my BELOVED ❤️ mom😭😭😭😭 wholeheartedly
@lampkinmedia8 ай бұрын
We are the same age. I never came out to my parents even though I think mom kind of knew. I have always been somewhat discreet only shareing who I am with some people. A few family members know which means the rest of them know. I appreciated one of my nieces support when I told her and she said she always looked up to me That made me feel so good. I love her for that. Non judemental. I was happy to see actors in our community comming out recently. Wanda Sykes was one of the first. I am who I am. I appreciate this documentary so much I love women. I'm not ashamed to admit that. I must be my authentic self.Those who can't accept me for being me that's ok but I have people in my life who do and more importantly I accept me and love who I am.Love & Light
@jessicathomas227178 ай бұрын
You should never have to hide who you are😢
@Lylo-mj8ek2 жыл бұрын
I am 61 realized myself when I was 15. I met a woman who was my best friend we had a family 3 children lost one to SIDS. Together 24yrs she knew I was Bi she was called home at the age of 32. I have very precious friends that are "family"LBGT+ Thay all helped me with my 17yo and 10yo and I am still single but I had the best so it's just not fair to the rest. Be strong in who you are because you are loved and God don't make no mistakes ❤️. Peace
@moitaliaferro49948 ай бұрын
They deserve their FLOWERS...💐💐💐
@Selfishr8 ай бұрын
They sure do ❤❤❤❤💐
@nikicarrie40718 ай бұрын
Yes they do
@stevenpop2746 Жыл бұрын
This is a beautiful documentary 😢.I love the stories and the journeys shared ❤
@aishawf8 ай бұрын
This was AMAZING! As a human I could totally relate! I am so glad that these folk don't have to lie on their deathbed with the grief of never being and living who they always knew themselves to be ♥.
@CarinaPrimaBallerina2 жыл бұрын
Thank you! That was a very inspiring and beautiful film! ❤
@brose069 Жыл бұрын
I whole heartedly completely LOVE AND APPRECIATE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤
@orfeassiozos15753 жыл бұрын
Thank you thank you thank you. Your stories are so important and I'm so grateful to you for sharing them. I keep learning so much as I navigate my way through my identity and personality and your stories are some of the most valuable things I learn. Sending love to you all 💕✨
@FujishimaAkiko8 ай бұрын
Reverend Kennedy's style is just glorious! She's like a beautiful mermaid! 💜
@valkyrie10668 ай бұрын
Doesn't she SHINE? Her light is mesmerizing. She is absolutely beautiful.
@FujishimaAkiko8 ай бұрын
@@valkyrie1066 💯🤎🖤💖
@TheCharlesWatterson8 ай бұрын
Mother as we called her received her crown. May she rest in peace, power, and all her labor.
@si45megamera8 ай бұрын
@@TheCharlesWattersonoh...
@Sunny256112 жыл бұрын
Beautiful love stories. Thank you so much for uploading this! 💕
@grumpyoldlady_rants8 ай бұрын
What a beautiful documentary. Beautiful yet bittersweet for all the years lost. Ray’s story in particular really tugged at my heart.
@ashleighsalinas85262 жыл бұрын
And I thought I was ballsy for being openly bisexual as a teen in the rural south circa early 2000s! Something so magnetic about both Rev Kennedy and Pearl. Beautiful strong women And watching the former serviceman partner comfort him when he spoke about DADT was so bittersweet.
@gayeldercircle4 жыл бұрын
Well done. Will be sharing on our social media network and beyond.
@sandrasherman92943 жыл бұрын
When I was in the Army in 86 it was illegal to be gay but there was so many of us. Investigators, cid as they were called would go to the gay bars to try to gather evidence to prosecute us.
@KenTurnerSings8 ай бұрын
Thank you for this piece. It really has made me face the fact of getting older as a gay man.
@edglebennett63128 ай бұрын
That was beautiful. I stand on these awesome shoulders. I wanna thank you all.🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿💐💐💐💐❤❤❤❤
@edglebennett63128 ай бұрын
I think God that I had the termity to be myself! I've never been in the closet.
@TaeThomas1985 Жыл бұрын
I wish I could like this a million times 💜
@Yolonder-jf1sn7 ай бұрын
It's absolutely beautiful to see how they have grown Old together and still glowing ❤❤❤❤ i feel sorry for the paul who has never had anyone in his Life
@missshannonsunshine Жыл бұрын
Thank you guys sooo much for this y’all don’t know
@Yesimjazz Жыл бұрын
I wish this documentary was longer no one should have to wait that long just to be themselves but that was easier said then done back in the times they came up in I cannot imagine myself in their position I probably would've been one those that would've offed myself if I had to hide who I really am from everyone pretending to be something I'm not would've been torture and I also have to say they all look so good 😍❤️
@donnasloane90318 ай бұрын
Can't people see how gentle and loving these people are?... Isn't that the most important thing for any of us in life?
@bouffezlegumes86112 жыл бұрын
Thank you for listening to generations that often seem discounted and forgotton
@WhereverAndAnywhere2 ай бұрын
I needed this. Thank u.
@Cantonesecubanalee3 жыл бұрын
thank you ladies for paving the way for all us newer gay women......
@mizfrenchtwist7 ай бұрын
hello ,this is so sad ..i'm so sorry people , had to go through this , stand in your truth . you don't owe it to anyone , to live a lie . THE MOST HIGHS BLESSINGS , to all of you . great share 😊😊😊, thank you , for sharing🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰..............
@mel-yn8oe Жыл бұрын
found this off of tik tok and i absolutely love it!!
@marilyngentle27778 ай бұрын
Made me cry so much love in this video - so touching
@awoFalase Жыл бұрын
This was amazing!
@kilnaleck3 жыл бұрын
Aw they are so good, so strong, so beautiful. I love it.
@XheGoLong137 ай бұрын
My heart has caught breath watching this. Thank yall. ❤
@dinick782 жыл бұрын
What an awesome video. I constantly be telling my LGBTQ people that freedom is not free. These are our amazing heroes and for whom I am deeply thankful because I have been bully as well. But thanks to that, I learn that gods doesn;t exist and I FREE from religion and PROUD ATHEIST. I had the honor and pleasure to meet some of these heroes who I LOVE.
@raquelgarvin83917 ай бұрын
GOD DOES EXIST!!!!! SO SORRY FOR YOU!!!!
@azyurentertainment14967 ай бұрын
This is the absolute SWEETEST!!!
@yajairatorres8552 Жыл бұрын
I loved this so much. They are so beautiful and brave. We them everything! Thank you ❤🏳🌈
@jazzyflorida37577 ай бұрын
❤ 🌈 Love our community seniors/elders, thank you for everything you have done to make it easier for the next generation ❤❤ 🌈 “we see you, we hear you, we appreciate you, we need you….”
@Juice46787 ай бұрын
No need to hate anyone i pray for everyone that they find the love of jesus christ i cant throw stones at anyone im trying to save my own soul i need to sweep around my own front door
@suitcasesal Жыл бұрын
This was beautiful and heartbreaking all at once.
@alvarovaldovinos68368 ай бұрын
❤ what an amazing contribution
@adrianagovea84603 жыл бұрын
Ohh this made me tear up. Thank you
@maryrichardson6029 Жыл бұрын
I knew early very early. Came from a very toxic family. Married early to get away from toxic family. Married forty years. Now I'm a widow..
@Zebsnyc3 жыл бұрын
God bless them 🙏🏽❤️🌈
@godschild24322 жыл бұрын
God doesn’t bless sin
@emiloguechoons90302 жыл бұрын
@@godschild2432 Yeah keep voting for a serial adulterer (breaking one of the 10 commandments, not to mention love thy neighbour) while pretending that your anti-gay crusade exists for religious reasons even when the Bible doesn't mention gay people once, be honest, we make you uncomfortable because sometimes you see someone of the same sex and think they're kinda cute, what a sad life you must live, peace
@LordMazzello2 жыл бұрын
God hates the wicked. Read the Bible. Sodomites are evil, wicked creatures.
@emiloguechoons90302 жыл бұрын
@@LordMazzello "Sodomites"? Aka people who have anal sex, you know that the overwhelming majority of people who have anal sex are STRAIGHT, yes? I'm gay and I don't do anal sex, but I know plenty of straight people who do, stop pretending that your hatred of gay people is religious in nature when the bible clearly has a much bigger issue with straight people by your own logic
@freddenker95372 жыл бұрын
@@godschild2432 God doesn’t exist !!!!!!
@handiable7 ай бұрын
I celebrate these heroes because they fought the early battles of discrimination and bigotry. Thanks for your good fight, persistence and determination coming from a black trans woman. 💖
@williamcamilli43447 ай бұрын
At the age of 52 i can see that living my truth as a black lesbian i am thankful i came out....at birth lol. My mama said she knew with my first breath lol god bless them.
@brittneybrisbin7443 жыл бұрын
This is absolutely beautiful. Thank you to these brave souls and many others who paved the way💕.
@Mr247star6 ай бұрын
This is beautiful ❤️
@thatokgobe14037 ай бұрын
This is beautiful 👌🏾♥️
@phillipleboa52512 жыл бұрын
LOVE TO ALL !!!!
@TheBeverly78 ай бұрын
Pearl is a true sweetheart. ❤
@lindajackson23828 ай бұрын
A friend of mine is a senior and lesbian. She just came only a few years ago. Good for all of them in this vidro!!
@Michelle-c9c7 ай бұрын
Thank You. 😊
@jeep197 ай бұрын
Just enthralled by their stories.
@donaldwarriner16408 ай бұрын
Listening to their testimonials brings tears to my eyes. Similar story here at 68 in some ways and feeling so intense about people living their authentic lives.
@donellefeltham2 жыл бұрын
This is so sad, these people are beautiful people and listening to their story’s is heartbreaking. The very same thing are happening to the elderly here in Australia. A lot of Seniors are being turned away from Care Homes simply because they are Gay. I’ve been watching quite a few story’s about how Elderly Gay people are having to hide the fact that they are Gay, just so they can get into a care home. Too my way of thinking it’s disgusting that just because you are Gay. I have my beautiful Niece and God Child, who just happens to be be Gay. I could not be more proud of her, she has a beautiful 19 year old Son who is studying nursing at Uni, she has a beautiful wife who also has a 12 year old son and she’s a Radiologist. They with their 2 boys have made a wonderful life as a family for themselves and isn’t that what matters in the end. Your sexual preferences only make up a small part of your life and whether your Gay, Straight or somewhere in between, doesn’t mean a thing we all have the same colour blood and we all want to live happily and if it just so happens you were born to Gay well then so be it. People can be very cruel and I think it wouldn’t hurt for them to take a look in their own backyard’s, they just might learn something. 🎼❤️🇦🇺❤️🇺🇸💐
@laurab79482 жыл бұрын
That was beautiful. I want to hug each and every one of you for sharing your stories! Happy Pride 🌈
@ritawade8 ай бұрын
The family I grew up in was very religious. I was a twenty something when I I learned my older brother was gay. He lived most of his life struggling with his sexuality. It was so sad to watch. To be “safe” he married and had a son. None of them were happy. It hurt to watch him hate himself because he believed he was a sinner. 😢😢😢😢😢😢
@ittarp11 ай бұрын
Que hermoso, me embargó la emoción desde el primer al último segundo....❤❤❤❤
@AnadiaDK Жыл бұрын
We've always been here. They may burn books and try to deny us, but we will always be here.
@pminner17 ай бұрын
I don't think "lost years" is a good way to say what I think they trying to say. All years living are opportunities to learn who you are, and you journey of discovery is just that, ... Your journey of discovery.
@cyrellroberson96987 ай бұрын
Love this
@maieshazarin41972 жыл бұрын
Crying in my office
@sharonsmith43287 ай бұрын
I pray that lord touches ur heart have a bless day 😊
@joesony5196 Жыл бұрын
grand respect à toutes ces remarquables personnes qui portent leur témoignage à propos de leur orientation sexuelle,ce qu'elles ont vécu pour ce faire valoir leurs droits ...Mon coeur saigne quand je pense à d'autres gay,lesbiennes ..qui sont morts et enterrés avec leur secret sans jamais oser le dévoiler publiquement ,je suis vraiment peiné .Thank you so much Watermark Retirement C...for this emotional testimony .
@DTFABULOUS8 ай бұрын
The Saddest experience is loving someone so much yet can't come together.
@martinbirdwell7986 Жыл бұрын
When I told my mother I was gay she thought I had a mental problem and needed to be cured with shock treatment but thankfully that never happened
@mizzmezz3 жыл бұрын
Crying so hard. So many years wasted because of hatred.
@lieaking35447 ай бұрын
BLESS YOU ALL ❤❤🎉🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🏳️🌈🤩🙏🔥 for coming out and just living your life being yourself ... as back in your Days things were harder back then than what it is now 😘😘xx
@olavwilhelm68438 ай бұрын
beautiful!!!!!
@jlfrench36678 ай бұрын
Only if people showed this much love and respect to God and His divine Word and law.
@SunnyEscapes0311 Жыл бұрын
Beautiful.
@mauic38848 ай бұрын
Inspirational 👏🏽
@phillipalfalla6306 Жыл бұрын
They are remarkable persons ❤️
@gdeec8 ай бұрын
Bullied throughout my childhood, I was never allowed to be myself, even though everyone called me gay.
@angelagunn79868 ай бұрын
Hoping that things are improving for you. It's a rough start but it doesn't have to be the whole story of you
@gdeec8 ай бұрын
@@angelagunn7986 Thanks a bunch. Moved on with self esteem and confidence issues but made it out on top. Wore the vest and wrote the books. After books I realised how badly I was treated.