Not Believing In Yourself-George

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of George, an addict on Skid Row.
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[@thelennybreauarchives5675]

Some folks would tell this guy to "just get over it" but the effect of a father's violence and constant undercutting criticism on a son during formative years is profound and traumatic and requires hard work with a professional to get past. The harm is vast and devastating. This guy has a lot of self awareness, sensitivity and intelligence. I hope he connects with the help he needs because he has a lot to give, as damaged as he may be.

[@Ichabod_Jericho]

Not sure if you’re a man, but men can always tell when another man was beaten by his father during formative years. The obsession with masculinity, solving their inter personal relationships with violence, overtly stubborn without a reason, constantly trying to impress their male peers with displays of “badassery., etc You can also tell when a man flat out had no father figure at all! Modern day dads need to wake up and realize what it is to be an example of what a healthy, happy, & successful human looks like.

[@DadBigE]

Amen.

[@bobv8219]

Wonderful perspective. Nicely said 👏💯🎯

[@NarrowRoad1000]

​@@BT-dl8kq abuse is abuse.

[@sonquatsch8585]

glad to read this

[@fatherjohn698]

I work for one of the biggest construction unions in Missouri during the summers to pay for college. I am surrounded by people who are very similar to George and others from this channel. People who have gone to jail for years, done drugs, and had hard pasts. Once these individual get employed by the union they often time turn their lives around, they just need a job that supports them. These people have a work ethic I've never seen before. They show up on time, work 12 hours a day 5-7 days a week, and end up making more money then people with college degrees, in some cases. If you can become drug free and are willing to learn there are several unions that would hire these people. God luck to you George and hope you find yourway. God Bless.

[@justkim9037]

I cannot love this comment enough! Thank you for the positive and hopeful information.

[@anamericanprayer1967]

Encouraging comment ❤ well written

[@Mark-gn5rw]

Why would u go to College if Your in a Union?? Jeez. Why gamble? Stay in Union. Lotta benefits/ and retirement too. A future. College is a gamble

[@fatherjohn698]

@@Mark-gn5rw I get this question a lot. Yes there are a lot of degrees that can be seen as gambles. A lot of things in life have risk; however, I am going into a super secure major. I’m getting my undergraduate degree in Cellular, Molecular, and Biomedical Biology. Immediately following the completion of my undergraduate program I will get my master in the same major, followed by my masters in epidemiology. My job security will be pretty air tight. And yes there are plenty of incredible benefits to working in the union. We need people doing union work more then ever. I just feel I was given the ability to do well in school, I enjoy what I do very much, and I think I’ll be able to give back to our society more if I’m educated. At the end of the day I always have an incredible back up career should things change. Plus my schooling is very affordable for me so I’m in little to no debt.

[@miketatum9321]

Be nice to yourself George. I am rooting for you, and I’m sure others are too.

[@NarrowRoad1000]

Absolutely. I want him to win at life.

[@DanielGonzalez-df2tm]

And for the people who feel like George too

[@GREENMAYNE]

My advice: stop using self-defeating mantras like “I can’t” “I’m unable” “I lost…” - you obviously are self-aware. You have more strength that you know- you’re talking about your feelings, your struggles- you know where you’re at. You survived until now- you aren’t completely strung out. For once, give yourself a chance and believe in what you’re capable of. You’re seemingly better off that most of the people on this show. I detect self-defeating depression: Have you tried bupropion/Wellbutrin? This poem did a lot for me regarding perspective in rehab: “I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost... I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I am in the same place. But, it isn't my fault. It still takes me a long time to get out. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in. It's a habit. My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately. walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it. I walk down another street.”

[@missbutter76]

I really, truly relate to his story and personal struggles with being humiliated and abused growing up. Thank you.

[@alphamaleswift7558]

Hey brother, don't set your expectations too high. Believe in YOURSELF, cuz you are a survivor and a success story. Make the next chapter in your life, your bitch. One small realistic step at a time. You are in control of your life. Don't fall back into your "safety net." Thank you for sharing your experiences. You are loved by many.

[@conniehanses]

Love that, "Make your next chapter your Bitch!"... You're right!

[@sugarsore]

Easier said than done.

[@8se7en]

Make the next chapter in your life your bitch! Then cheat on that bitch, get another bitch pregnant, & then marry the third bitch just to get back with the first bitch, just because u feel like it!

[@tu41358]

@@sugarsore Exactly, there are people with undiscovered disorders, and I wish Mark could help them with the donations for therapy to be able to see what is the root of the problem, it is easy to say, be strong, but what about if your mind and body is not capable to do so? It is really sad when people expect them to feel encourage by an enthusiastic phrase when the brain chemistry is unable to do so, the psychiatry exists because of a reason don't people realize that??

[@isabelltecaxco-yd3lw]

Hello George I listened to you speak and hear a lot of self sabotage and I struggled with that nightmare myself many times. I remember saying the same words you said about why is this lady in love with me, I felt very unworthy as well. Because I said who would want to love me, I'm nothing special and through the decades I've dealt with self harm as well. The journey you are on is very difficult but one baby step at a time, really small steps because of what you've been through has been hell for you and still is... Your younger sister ran to God and she found a way to get back into life again. That tells me you are very capable of starting over and maybe you should or be willing to ask him for help, you have nothing to lose, just start by saying " Why not? Give God a chance to help you help yourself... I'm 62 now and I've struggled with addiction and depression most of my life, actually ALL my life. I never had children and two divorces. But I'm here, I'm lonely and isolated because all my friends are dead and all my brothers to and last year my oldest sister died last July 2022. I have only one sister left and she's 67, I know I've been around the block a few times and the beautiful thing is you have a great lady who does love you now. So what I'm trying to tell you is whatever you decide George "NEVER GIVE UP!!! Your prison is in your mind, remember battlefield of the mind is our greatest struggle. Sometimes we need to get out of the way of ourselves to make the first move. Go for it George, just go for it! Nothing to lose and everything to gain. God bless you brother and look up, because that's where your help is coming from. I'm watching you from Tucson Arizona.

[@tshiruh5]

I wish you all the best George. I believe most people watching this are rooting for you!

[@monkeypot7641]

..."i don't believe in myself at all..... .THEY beat that out of me"....now tell me Mark what can I say to such a devastating truth?????.....Just HEARTBREAKING😢😢

[@sethmonroe]

Tim Fletchers complex trauma videos addresses every aspect of this

[@argengama7548]

I relate to this, not that my situation is the same but I sometimes cant recognize my mom since she has squisofrenia.

[@sugarsore]

​@@argengama7548 schizophrenia*

[@argengama7548]

@@sugarsore thanks

[@ericlofstrand]

Some of the things this guy says show extreme introspection and great insight. Not too many people say "I'm going to be miserable if I stop doing drugs, or my girl might not like me off of drugs" All things that all of us think about in active addiction but rarely say. You have a good chance man im wishing you the best

[@leneo1731]

George, I really emphasise with you. What you're talking about is exactly how my life has been and still is. It's like I know things won't last so I just fuck it up myself. Waiting for it to happen is worse, so better to do it yourself. It's so sad when I'm thinking about it because I want the best for other people so why not for myself? It's weird and embarrassing to be like this. What you're saying about being alone is also so true. Keep those good friends in your life because friends are worth everything. I don't think anyone can be happy without friends. I don't trust no one. I'm so lucky to have my Ma in my life. But other than that, no one. No friends, nothing. I have my dog though and I love him more than he loves me ❤️ I hope you one day will find the key to getting out of this horrible circle of destroying your own life. It's a great thing that you're aware of it. You have great insight to your own issues. So do I. But grom there to do something is impossible. I really hope you'll succeed, you deserve it.

[@kvanon2801]

He has spoke what most addicts don't have the insight or balls to admit to themselves. He's intelligent and emotionally aware which makes this life so much more difficult to get out of.

[@dejectedveteran4485]

Stop being extra many addicts have said this or similar

[@perrysrawsoul]

Its really hard but be needs to grieve his childhood and let himself cry and cry how he was treated. Praying for George and anyone like him. I am dealing with childhood trauma and its so fucking difficult. Its helpful to pray to have the humility to feel the hurt inside and cry just how unloved we felt as children and the pain that was inflicted upon us. I am not a Christian but I but I am working on my faith to believe that God exists and that God does indeed love me unconditionally. I have been learning that we can ask for Gods love to heal our hearts. All we have to do is ask for Gods love to come into our hearts. Sometimes I say out loud "God, if you do exist, I pray that your love enters my soul and help me heal" and I keep repeating this phrase, over and over, if I am humble and sincere, at some point my heart opens and I can feel the love and it breaks my heart and allow myself to sob my heart out. I recommend to anyone who is struggling to give this experiment a go, keep praying and keep asking for Gods love, and if you don't believe in God, you can say 'if you exist, IF YOU EXIST, please let me know, please show me'. If nothing happens it doesn't mean that God doesn't love you or that God doesn't exist, it can mean we are not being sincere in the prayer. When this happens to me I pray 'Why don't I want to feel your love' and I keep repeating this phrase, then often times I feel that I have fears coming into my thoughts, and so I allow myself to feel my fears that block the feeling of love from God (or people), again this normally makes me cry. Men often have a hard time crying as we feel weak, I was taught to not cry, but I am learning that it is essential in order to release the suffering. A friend said to me the other, Perry, just keep praying everyday as much as you can.

[@TEM14411]

God absolutely loves you. Our Creator loves all of us. Once we accept that truth, we can truly begin to heal. All children need to feel safe and loved. Childhood trauma affects the subconscious mind and development. You sound like you are well on your way to freeing yourself from the spiritual bondage that abuse yokes on a child. Love yourself. Love the child you were that needed to know they were safe and loved. Peace and blessings to you.

[@scholageemusic9373]

Im a very blunt person so im going to be very blunt and respectful at the same time. I personally believe George is the total opposite of what he say he is and heres why. 1.He said did well in school but later stop doing well. (That shows he lost motivation not belief) 2. He quit drugs on and off(once again lost motivation) 3. He was working and doing well in prison more than outside(his motivation changed) So my conclusion is George is actually full of potential. My personal belief is that he has NOT found what he truly wants to do in society yet. He has not found his passion. However hes not in the right enviroments and people to find it. I believe traveling and going out in the world will help him found something that will inspire him. But if he stays in these environments that are not making it better, it can go bad. But George if you're reading just know brotha people are watching and listening to you. We dont want to see a update of something bad. Please do your best to get out of those bad environments and explore in anyway you possibly can! We hope you come back! God bless!

[@ATineo-jf6fi]

So handsome. Hoping he changes his environment. So much potential, it’s never too late G!

[@deanagianacakos2185]

Very handsome and built for work. The devil is such a liar. 🙏🏾

[@shawn-vx4wx]

Your not alone brother, im just like you, started at 10 also, im now 55 and starting all over,drop your friends find a church remember god believes in you, put god first and then focus on yourself and no ladies ti you fix yourself, follow a positive life and it will change over a short amount of time, God bless.

[@jamesdonald1942]

You have our support George. You are not alone. So many of us go through similar thoughts. I wish you only the best brother.

[@TheRougefish]

Take responsibility, make your own decisions, and keep your word. Thats how you believe in yourself, George. It doesnt come from elsewhere.

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Good Morning Everyone!👋😉or whatever time-a-day it is in your part of the world. Peace and Love from 6:10am Brooklyn NY🇺🇸 to you and wherever in the world🌍 you are, my SWU fam.

[@wesleyalan9179]

Eyes, my man! It's Saturday and I gotta work 12 hours today😭 But it's gonna be a beautiful day and don't let ANYONE tell you any different, brother! Let's get it done!❤💪Stay strong,brother... and stay safe out there!🙌

[@lisawright9409]

It’s 8.30pm in North Queensland Australia! ❤❤❤🌈 Hello! Another amazing story

[@RealmCenter40]

6:34 AM Detroit, MI ✌️

[@Linda-in9ns]

Good morning in Philly! 👍😊

[@ruthadelbai7388]

To U as well..My eyes went deaf...this is ur sis from PALAU 🇵🇼 saying hi to U my fam's out there ✌️

[@amandabrown8454]

Wish you best George! I KNOW you can get through this and be happy, I hope you end up reading these comments, alot of people are rooting for you❤😊

[@mesomeone8684]

Try doing volunteer work helping others, could potentially lead to full time work and other opportunities. You can do this, you're strong and you know that. Be confident and tell yourself that you're worth it. Even if you don't believe it. Others can see your worth, you should too. Edit: This comment isn't just for George, it's for all of us. If there's something you want to accomplish in your life. Do it, at the very least try. If you don't think you're good enough, you ARE. You're just as worthy as anyone else. Know you're worth. Love yourself. Be safe y'all.

[@fabiannespeck3303]

U can never get over it... all u can do is learn SELF LOVE AND SELF RESPECT. I had a traumatic childhood. And I am now a 37 year old mum to four and loving life again. YOU GOT THIS DEAR SOUL 🎉 🎉

[@jacobwiggers1973]

Hey George, there are employers who hire ex-cons, you just have to keep on looking. Maybe more luck in manual labor type jobs; retail probably wouldn’t feel comfortable hiring you. I used to work at a pallet refurbishing place with several ex-cons, for example. Then when you land a job, even if it’s crappy, hold onto it for a couple years; that’s how to build a résumé-future employers will want to see some stability. Sounds like drugs may be getting in the way more than you admit; I suggest you take a hard look at that. But other than that, your honesty is good and that helps move you forward. I believe in you.

[@Linda-in9ns]

George you can do this. Take care and good luck. Sorry what happened to you when you were young and your mother. 😔

[@heimbiggysmallz]

You can tell he’s intelligent. If he keeps grinding hard he will make it

[@RealmCenter40]

Same age as me, both at the tail end of Gen X. It’s been a wild ride so far.

[@GenuinelyCurious120]

What a cruel lie. Grinding don't mean shit unless you meet the right people. Upward failure is the way forward in this God forsaken country.

[@heimbiggysmallz]

@@RealmCenter40 I’m sure it has, I’m a recovered 20 yr old who lived that live from a young age, I can’t imagine being in it for as many years as y’all 🫡

[@anamericanprayer1967]

Mark, you interview young men so well. I can feel your connection to them as you engage. Thanks for giving all a platform. Hard sometimes to watch.

[@isakknutar1895]

The self consciousness of this man in admirable.

[@XiiXiByNikki]

Each Day Is A Chance To Rewrite Your Story And Start Over... You Have To Stop Wondering And Decide That You're Going To Find A Better Way To Live Your Life... It's All On You!

[@fleetsma5119]

Sad. I wish his younger sister would reach out to help. He is so worth it!

[@ow3wells]

Don’t depend on anyone, like they say, don’t look back and live everyday as if it’s your last day💜

[@sharrose7594]

Prayers for George, mark and all on swu

[@northernking4787]

As someone who can relate I'm rooting for ya brother!! God bless you

[@superplesu]

It's frightening how much this hits home. Was abused by my mother and 2 step brothers growing up. Ended up with a 12 year weed habit and really bad self esteem. Running and sports helped me, maybe it will help you as well, I wish it would. You can do this brother, just separate from the toxic relationships with your family and keep grinding.

[@snowman1185-v]

Stay positive and keep praying. Your time will come. You've been out 8 years. You got this. :)

[@kelangnation66]

Damn i can relate so much to what he's saying The sabotaging, the not believing people actually love you, not believing in oneself .. We got this George please keep going and try to never give up on yourself!

[@deebknyc0985]

George I can relate to you alot....I suffer from depression...I hope you find your way....Im looking for my light at the end of the tunnel 🙏+

[@gotmanners5877]

George his story is the same as mine one hundred i was told by therapist told me i need to respect myself its difficult when your a Abuse survivor sexual and physical im 56 and still on my own i love what you do i hope George is ok and as found the inner strength i understand his situation.

[@grantmatthews1955]

Never hear you ask so many questions, Matt. Hit a nerve? It hit me. Thank you

[@venetia6296]

Great portrait Mr. Mark

[@Aceshooting]

Two things jump out at me listening to this man. 1. If people who committed crime and did their time are considered reformed and rehabilitated by the law and apparently Society. Yet Society still doesn’t accept people. They don’t want them in their neighborhoods or working in their businesses. While he may now be a law abiding citizen, he’s now set up to struggle perpetually for the rest of his life with low wage jobs. You think most people could believe in themselves in that situation? This man has no hope. 2. If he is mentally, physically, and spiritually better while incarcerated but then it turns to shit on the outside, what the fuck is going on outside that causes him to see being incarcerated better? Inside he was told what to do, when to do it, when to eat, sleep and shower. But the outside where he’s free to decide what he does with his time, he struggles. I think it’s more telling of how the outside is fucked up rather than the inside. I’m not saying he’s institutionalized because he’s been free and struggling for 8-9 years. I’m saying his situation is poverty. Unless he’s self employed he ain’t going to be making enough to support himself. That is the root cause for a lot of these guys I bet.

[@wrongspell6619]

It's as if they want people to go to prison....

[@lizwaa100]

what a darling of a man ❤

[@howwife1508]

Loving these new uploads

[@joaocolaco1498]

All the best, George. I'm rooting for you from Portugal 💪 The mere fact that you feel bad for not delivering what you consider enough makes you better than so many people out there. Keep strong!

[@saul_Good]

Preach....I have a life totally flipped from his story but swear to God I feel what he saying as if he knew what goes on in my head. Definitely in my prayers. Very intelligent articulate man

[@FrenchTwist]

Springfield isn't the town I grew up,, Not the best environment anymore, So sorry for your mistakes and solo life

[@somewhereoutthere1808]

It is interesting how childhood trauma breaks some people; abuser lives rent free in their minds (life sentence). Yet others use the abuse to drive them to success; take the power back. Self employment (skilling up) may be his best option. Instead of indulging in drugs, which he doesn't really seem that invested in, investing his time, blood, sweat and tears into something he enjoys doing seems a better road. Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right. (Henry Ford)

[@Midtown95060]

It is never to late to start over.

[@Jah-Marii]

George you're going to get through this, Pray and keep persevering!

[@MissSweetieShortie]

The title really got my attention

[@Chloeisthebesttt]

George you are good guy. Believe in yourself. Love yourself. God and therapy will bring the right people in your life. Don’t give up. Break through will come brother

[@familylifescienceeducation5227]

His insight is so aweome. 🎉

[@Oliviabuu]

This individual makes me think so much of myself so freaking much especially when he was talking about how you expect things out for himself and why does he keep sabotaging himself I'm in the same position as hell right now just like him I don't believe what other people tell me about myself I only listen to myself but if he could see this I want to know you deserve happiness just as much as anybody else you're a good person with a good heart you may have made some bad choices in life but hey we all do and we can't let that define us I know it's easier said than done I can't even do it myself but we have to love ourselves and I just want him to know that he's got someone that will probably never meet but he's got someone rooting for him no matter what❤❤

[@sylviasanpedro8013]

You are strong, I believe in you! Believe in yourself!

[@shyamlynn243]

This guy seems pretty intelligent. Maybe a long term (year or more) good rehab place could be what's needed to get him on his feet and open up new opportunities in time. Sounds like he wants a new life and is mature enough to know what to do and what not to do. Guys like this get clean long term can really advocate and help others in a powerful way. Keep trying George, good luck brother, you're worth it for real.

[@joelyons8238]

Sending Prayers to you George. Don't blame others for where you are in life. Look at yourself & by doing that you will see that you want & can change. But we need to take responsibility for the things we do. Remember this verse in the Bible. 👇 John 10:10 THE THIEF COMES NOT BY BUT TO STEAL, & TO KILL, & TO DESTROY: JESUS CHRIST HAS COME TO GIVE US LIFE, & GIVES US LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY. Amen. Seek the Lord God Jesus Christ George. God bless you.

[@pointpleasant6708]

George should do personal shopping for people; set up his own business. But he must be honest and responsible. But his ability to talk about his life and experiences is remarkable.

[@Akiak7]

bro is right on the cusp of changing things around - you've got everything in front of you dude, deal with things as they are and find a way forward. it exists. change is scary, it's not supposed to feel good. the transition period will hurt more than anything else, but on the other side is what you want. there's no other way. you can do it, you're a human. change is natural to us. if you don't get in the way of it, with substances or otherwise, you can and will change.

[@baghodler508]

You have to keep trying, you can't think that everything you try or want to do is going to fail. Sooner or later you will get through and make something nice for yourself.

[@RichardOrchard-ih2rx]

I am as close to being this guy as one could possibly be without actually being him. And Mark used to know the best girl I ever had, who was also a photographer, back in Chicago around 2005-8 era, who I lost for the same reasons this guy loses great girls...

[@brandiclick7621]

George, great interview!!

[@michaeladiwu6730]

You're really doing a tremendous, tremendous job helping these beautiful people. 😢😢 God bless you truly. Are you on Instagram?

[@crystalkarel9221]

Ok but can talk about the previous video “man born w 2 🍆” omg I was dying laughing, huevo loco 🤣

[@timeloopanomaly4581]

George, you look very nice and young for your age! You display great intelligence and charisma! All the best to you man

[@fourfurrypotatoes]

You need to love yourself before you can have a successful relationship.

[@tishkerrville8942]

Wow ...I had the same kind of abhorrent parents. If it had not been for my grandparents, I wouldn't be here. 😔

[@km2766]

Its true, confidence is elusive when you dont have a good image of an adult... father was nothing to show for, drinking and no job, finally died swollen and yellow, mom did everything except "socialize" us...even doing my job im still scared. I was the "good one" never acted out, made my average or better way through school but i was just keeping my head down and was lonely and constantly think about "self deletion" since i was 10 or even sooner. I did everything im.supposed to but im still nervous. Feels like the booze will finally get me as hangovers are worse and worse. It can be exhausting to keep up the face, and i know this dude has it worse then me, ironically being scared of everything probably kept me out of the "bad crowds" but its exhausting being scared once you wake up

[@wrestlingcommunity]

17:18 alcohol is the demise of most families, relationships, dreams

[@shondelbryant936]

Thank you for sharing. It's ok to put yourself first. God bless you and your family.

[@reginarichards7001]

A lot of people on this channel are very self aware, like George here. It's interesting..... but I can relate to that, which is one of the reasons I like watching Soft Underbelly. I definitely do relate to a lot of the things I hear these broken and dysfunctional people talk about in their lives. God help us all.

[@gurdialsinghbal]

Listen man, I don't know if you're gonna read this and I can't say too much here but I hear you Brother. I would like to speak to you man, I'm a guy from UK England. I'm almost certain your stepdad was never a Christian. even though he became a pastor. People don't understand we can't actually choose to be Chrisrian. We have to be born again by God, it's the only faith that claims something supernatural has to happen. You know the fact that you don't believe in yourself isn't bad if it's in the right context. The world tells us we can do and become what we want if we only believe. That's not true, life happens. What we can do is humbly cry to the One True God Christ Jesus from our heart and He will come and change the scenario.

[@patcoolway]

finally, listening to someone from the 413 has been very empowering for me. Thank you for telling your story!

[@anjacatrineolsen9231]

You'll get there George. We're rooting for you. You are so much more than the sum of your past ❤

[@delmainernest]

Never give up on anything. Because without hope there is no life.If you have hope you have something if you have no hope you got nothing

[@drkdrumz]

Dude has a kind heart, wants to do better. Wishing him well.

[@thenicolemartinez]

Disassociation caused by trauma is most likely why he did not feel it when he was stabbed. Teach him how to be in connection to himself and he will believe in himself.

[@florag8358]

Maybe George has ptsd. I have ptsd from similar adverse childhood, family/sibling violence and ptsd is a very complex and difficult and disgusting condition to live with.. there's not really enough help for people with this condition .. Go easy George.

[@baublesanddolls]

I think you're right. He seems depressed and his thinking is very negative. If only he could see a good therapist and change his mindset. Changing his thinking would do wonders and give him some motivation which is clearly lacking.

[@danieldigiuseppe7912]

Is there really any help for this? It seems like mental health treatment is like 50 percent bullshit.

[@Kevin-ii7gy]

Hey bro! Springfield mass representing . I’m from EAST FOREST PARK

[@KaraHirdman]

He should be a peer support specialist… he could be a good teacher and leader. I can see that in him.

[@baublesanddolls]

He can't help anyone until he helps himself. He's full of negativity, probably due to depression. I'm sure that's why he couldn't keep his job because depression makes you lazy. He needs help and a different outlook. I'm hearing nothing but excuses and negative statements coming from him. With the right help and a positive mindset, he could do anything. He seems to be very healthy.

[@jamestopham7744]

George you deserve all the good things, your life matters

[@alphacloud1225]

George if u read this I would highly encourage to seek out treatment for cptsd specifically emdr therapy . U could benefit a lot from this

[@edwardjones2202]

I can't understand hitting kids, never mind making a weird sadistic theatre out of by getting them to get the belt. It's so sad that so many kids lose the parent lottery. It's like they're born in a lion's den and there's nothing anyone can do about

[@sethmonroe]

Tim Fletchers complex trauma videos covers every aspect of this dudes situation. Every aspect

[@davidbanner9344]

Its so obvious that you have what it takes to get through this, you do have emourmous strength. God has a plan A- Z for all of us, just keep pushing and it will all be revealed to you. You have so much to give, and God will make i5 happen for you. Just keep being you and God will intervene and give you the life that is right for you. God Bless You Brother!!!🙏🙏🙏

[@AndresRoldan102]

This guy has a warm soul. A lot of his symptoms resemble those with borderline personality disorder. The sabotaging relationships, self hatred, low self worth. Addiction, etc.. hope he gets the help he needs

[@sugarsore]

I relate with so much of what he said. I don't love myself. Deep down, I feel I am a bad person and not worthy of love. I don't have many healthy relationships. Being molested by my dad seems to have permanently altered my life.

[@TEM14411]

Sending you love. The best thing I ever did was choose to love myself. I accepted that my father loved me despite his choices. I believe we are passing down trauma through repressed sexual abuse. Any adult harming a child has some deep seated childhood exposure to sex. Your worth is not attached to what your father did to you. Peace and blessings

[@sugarsore]

@@TEM14411 Thank you for your thoughtful response.

[@TEM14411]

@@sugarsore 😘🥰

[@amber76OH]

What a good soul 🖤🤍. Much love to ya, brotha.

[@jillseiffertt2946]

I love your wish for him at the end! Bless you for that!

[@401robdog]

“What drugs are you using currently? “ “ currently I’m using crystal meth, fentanyl, weed, drinking..a little bit of everything. But I try not to over due it because I gotta stay level headed”

[@terrytownsend5583]

What’s your point

[@oiBashyy]

he probably limits the amounts, what he said was not wrong

[@oiBashyy]

6:33

[@401robdog]

@@terrytownsend5583 he is clearly delusional, claiming he’s not reliant on drugs and that drug’s are not the issue. That he’s “level headed” while on drugs. Drugs are 100% the issue and have probably been for majority of his life.

[@Salvievelynn]

This the problem 😢

[@thematriarchy2075]

Morning George, Mark and Lauren. ❤

[@Gram72534]

Hi M, have a great weekend my friend!!!!!!!

[@thematriarchy2075]

​@@Gram72534 Thank you G, you too!

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Hey Matriarchy!👋😎 Good Afternoon to ya.

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 Hi Eyes, same to you🖐🏼

[@countdankula420_]

Problem is!… He buried himself so deeep that the darkness keeps him from seeing that the ropes and hooks to reach stabilization are right in his hands.

[@BOLLOCKS1968]

We all need a helping hand every once in a while to get us back on our feet ... I hope he finds what he is looking for ✌❤

[@ontime7482]

Good luck brother, keep ur head up! 👊🏼

[@abtradeboss]

Lots of excuses here. Saying he is judged by the past but the fact is that he is on drugs right now and still cant fully accept the drug addiction. It's not a mood stabilizer when you steal and get paid in drugs and then trying to flip it but end up consuming all of it. Acceptance is the first step to self improvement.

[@mmmmlllljohn]

I hope George gets off drugs … he should know where he is going if he looks around. He thinks he can control the drugs but they will kill him. I hope he gets into a rehab and get some help. He has what AA calls “stinkin thinkin’ … he is feeling hopeless and depressed. He will never win at life as a drug addict. One step at a time, George. He is good looking, intelligent, he has trade skills but he can’t see the forest for the trees. His sobriety should be priority #1. Addicts make excuses. You are much better than you know, George. May God bless you. Love from Canada ❤️🇨🇦

[@Dillonmac96]

U don’t have to believe in urself at all to change you just have to copy and fake it until it becomes routine… saying you don’t believe urself is an excuse to be lazy and to enable ur foolish behavior because ur afraid of failure… ur not not believing in urself ur just afraid of how hard it is or afraid to fail… if ur willing to put urself out there like this u can get better.. ur just embracing the lifestyle u know and not getting sick of it

[@mesomeone8684]

I wish the prison system offered guidance for finding jobs as felons when they get out. Otherwise they just end up repeating bad behavior because society throws them to the side. Sad.

[@ericlofstrand]

Without divulging too much of my own story, I had something similar and I just persisted with an uncertain goal in mind but kept forcing myself up daily and kept doing the same thing over and over. Also...FORCE yourself to go back to college and lean heavily on it. Sometimes jobs don't reciprocate what you're putting into it, college is the perfect place to get back what you put in. Don't even think about it bro, just disassociate from all your feelings for 2 years and you'll be somewhere you want to be real quick. Or Don't listen to me at all and see where you're at in 2 years

[@David-eu1ms]

If anyone has a fighting chance to transform himself it's this guy, the drugs are really easy to quit once he has something better to do.

[@eddiediggs]

Aye yo it's really hard to try to even believe that there is even a light that exists when you've lived ur whole life in dark but when it's there we meditatly turn out the light I know cus I go thru it myself keep ur head up my boi

[@waterairindustry342]

Perhaps a stupid question but why can't the gov. do better and offer folks that get out of jail some kind of job and shelter? Something like a WPA. There are so many things that need to be done in the US. To just dump folks out on the street after a lengthy jail term is madness. I suspect it costs the gov. much more with recidivism rates and policing than it would cost to run some type of works/housing program. Plus, lots of work would get done. And bigger plus, you give folks a chance at a future, some self-respect, hope, and diminish suffering. Perhaps I"m naive but for people like George, it would be a huge support. Good luck, friend. I don't have your life story or station in life but I have no doubt that if we had changed places at birth, I would be you and you would be me. We're all products of our environments. Some of us lucky, some of us unlucky.