Now You're Gone And I'm Here

Seems like just yesterday you lit up the world with your smile. You never really liked your smile but I did. Maybe it wasn't perfect but it was yours and I liked everything that was yours. Your smile, your face, the way you walked and the way you talked because only you did things the way that you did them and no matter where I look I can't seem to find it twice. But everyday I'm reminded of you by the songs I listen to that you gave a meaning to, the smell of your favorite food and when the rain falls on my roof because ever since you left it hasn't stopped raining. I can't seem to sleep at night. I even leave a light on just in case this is all a dream and you come home. And every year when I celebrate my birthday you won't be there to celebrate with me. And on your birthday there will be no celebration, just memories of you and a bunch of tears streaming down my face because I love you but now that love has no place to go. I question how many tears you cried by yourself and I wish I could've been there to wipe them all away because you were loved and you still are. People care about you, somebody always cared about you. We miss you everyday and there is nothing we can do about it. No superhero and no prayer in the world can bring you back. I know that everybody's got their reasons as to why they do the things they do, but you didn't have to do that. You didn't have to feel alone and face things by yourself, there is always an answer. Nobody is perfect, and it's not about being perfect, it's about being you but now I'll never get you back. The world will never get you back and it will never get to see another you, because that's how magical you were. 1 in over 7 billion. But now you're gone and I'm here. And I wish you were here with me because life is a beautiful thing and I wanted you to be alive to see it. Darkness doesn't last forever and eventually it will stop raining, even the rain that's been pouring since you left. And I will turn off the light again and sleep at night because it's not a bad life, just some bad times and right now losing you hurts but I will always carry you in my heart even though I'd rather walk by your side instead. I wish you could see these clouds pass by but I know you're on the other side of that rainbow. I miss you.
I guess I'll get to see you on the other side then.
I love you, don't forget that.
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[@JetpacksAudios]

I wrote this audio mainly for people who struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts. It's a letter written as if they were already gone, in hopes to stop somebody from ending it all. There is always someone who cares! You are loved and wanted here! Sending you all so much love

[@davidrobinson84]

I have a question?... I am struggling at home... I have happy days sometimes but I don't know if I can cope for much longer... I can't seek help as they have taken away my tech... So I can't find therapy... And I don't know what to do... I need advise... It would help a lot to have it I guess...

[@geminitwins5310]

Jetpack Jay I love you so much my heart has been shattered 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

[@JetpacksAudios]

David Robinson you were able to write this comment right? Google your nearest therapists and give them a call. otherwise look some up in a phone book. Talk to friends or other people you know and don't be afraid to ask them to help you find some help. i'd also suggest looking up self help videos on the side here on youtube as that has also helped me a lot on my journey. Stay strong, you will be alright ❤️🚀

[@kenwalker3374]

Thank you... also, do you think you would ever consider putting these on Spotify?

[@lemon3459]

Thank you 🙏

[@sandraestraume961]

No one understands how important somebody is until they're gone

[@funpartners4205]

True

[@jordanbrown1337]

So very important

[@jacquelinestewart3820]

So very and sadly true

[@Genesis-ld5do]

Amen

[@candicehulin9918]

Nailed it

[@froggygym7794]

When you're not even a minute in and your already crying

[@bar_ssim1970]

😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔🖤🖤💌

[@dabratmakayla._3646]

froggy gym fr tho😭

[@brooklynnelizabeth1135]

I was crying by 0:00 😭💔❤️

[@hyhgttgg]

Why people that we care about and love died why not people tht we hate it's so weird.......

[@sangwoos_basement5366]

Yeah,..

[@singedunicorn]

I lost my best friend while I was on the phone to her, during our phone call, I heard the cocking of a gun and then the shot followed. This audio is exactly what I would say to her if she could hear me

[@wiktoriac1174]

Omg... I'm so so sorry

[@macksanchez6215]

Reading this made me cry more😭 I'm sorry for your loss

[@giovannastleger1291]

im so sorry that happened to you.

[@beverlythompson6404]

My best friend and boyfriend killed themselves and it hurts soooooooooo much

[@ilostmykettle6060]

Baby..you must be scarred I’m so sorry

[@rickiejohnson8711]

“nobody realizes your purpose until you’re in a better place”.

[@markmarchand1012]

I'm a 55 year old grown man and this has me in tears. My son has thoughts of suicide and if I ever lost him, my world would be crushed. I just want to be able to make him comfortable and confident in his world.

[@jalahisiconic]

i’m so sorry i hope things get better, stay strong for your family man.❤️

[@daborkdog]

Hey, I might be unstable myself, but I can talk to him Trust me, I know what I'm doing even though I'm young. Young people aren't idiots

[@daborkdog]

I know ways to get people to listen to my voice, to convince them to stay, and if that doesn't work I stay by their side so I can still be there for them

[@daborkdog]

I can tell you this; Do things with him Hug him Get him a therapist Get him things he finds fun Keep Him Happy

[@chosen1874]

🙏Mark for your son & you

[@lemgoth5073]

I wanna die. I'm too scared to die. I wish I could find a way to die without hurting anyone. I really wanna cry but my parents will hear, I don't like the comfort, I just wanna be alone. Anyone feel the same??.. Edit: AHH, I didn't expect to come back after 2 months and get so much love and support! I am doing much better now from Niro training. Thank you ALL so much! I wanna hug you all and just give you all the love and support you guys need too! I hope you guys are doing better! Also, have a great Christmas! xoxo.

[@daniel-qi3ww]

- The Chill Cucumbers - i feel for you

[@yunabee777]

Im*

[@daniel-qi3ww]

Mystic- Memories i’m*

[@-..mryanpj..-4530]

I have felt that way before and sometimes I still do ._.

[@jiji297]

a someone u r me omg

[@weetee9011]

😔my bestfriend is suicidal and shes attempted so many times i cant sleep at night bc one day it wont give her anymore chances

[@supergalaxybro4656]

Ik how it feels I am the suicidal person to all my friends

[@jasonreese48]

I'm the same!

[@whitneystanush4674]

SuperGalaxyBro same my friends always worry about me

[@whitneystanush4674]

Wee tee I hope your friend get better

[@supergalaxybro4656]

@J D honestly I was just going through a lot rn. And you just made my day. Thank you

[@kayleegammons6580]

Bro in crying in journalism I should really wait to get home to listen to this but these audios are so amazing I just couldn’t 🥺💔

[@JetpacksAudios]

Kaylee Gammons I'm sorry 🙈 really glad you like it though ❤️🚀

[@kmgaming4607]

It reminds me of my grandfather

[@margoreiner5919]

Reminds me of my sister

[@kathleenshaw8182]

0

[@rawdawgg_]

Bro

[@msfaye5182]

I just lost my older sister.... it’s really hard without her...

[@dianeharvey4214]

iam sorry lost my bady bother yes i find it the hearsest text me any time diann harvey god bless you

[@triplec3659]

I’m sorry. Can’t imagine. ❤❤❤

[@mohammadalqteshat9129]

Sorry, 😕🌹

[@winterfrost589]

How are you doing, friend?

[@mohammadalqteshat9129]

@@winterfrost589 Pretty well 😊

[@Lol-vy7ph]

She made me happy... She made me feel special.... She slowly made me get feelings for her... She found somebody... I confessed my feelings... We slowly drifted... Now we are strangers again.... 04/08/2020.... I miss you.... 💔🖤

[@marvelstories8720]

I understand you

[@gachacherriemasu-quie3183]

04/08/2020

[@melonyes7167]

When someone passes the same problems in our lives.

[@danapratt6845]

Yuuku Chan yeah and hell of alot more with this grief that will never end

[@izoraiza7169]

This got me remembering a classmate who shot himself and died last year... He died in his own room... He didn't seek help and no one knew that he was actually going to die that day... I just didn't really know him.. I sat in my room thinking of what I could have done to help him after hearing about his death... I used to see him in the hallways at school and my brother was his friend... No one knew what he was going through... If you're going through something that leads you to suicidal thoughts, cutting, or anything that leads to purposefully hurting yourself then please get help before it's too late...

[@BlisQuest]

If you dont mind me asking, was his name Alex? Something similar happened to me around the same time. Probably a coincidence but thought I'd ask

[@sammiesisland1487]

Thank you. Lately I've been starving myself, cause I'm not allowed to cut or burn myself anymore. But seeing this reminded me of this kid named Brian, who shot himself as well. I didn't know him, and it still affects me. It was a week before Christmas break. Thanks though, this really made me feel a little better. ❤❤❤

[@1986thinkgreen]

I'm too Scard to

[@1986thinkgreen]

@@sammiesisland1487 I starve myself

[@sammiesisland1487]

@@1986thinkgreen Well, it's ok, I hope you get better soon, and try to eat once and a while, even if it's one meal a day, or a small snack. ❤

[@dontworryaboutit3089]

“Everyday I’m reminded of you by the songs I listen to.. the smell of your favorite food” makes me think of my brother that passed away in March. Tomorrow is 6 months without him💔🥺

[@HaleyMcL.]

Sofia Rojas its been about a year now then. How are you doing? If you need someone to talk to, then I’m always here.

[@zoeydethorn6751]

Sofia Rojas it’s been a year now, how are you? i hope you’re doing good.. i know it is hard but you’re very strong and i am so glad that you made it to today, even if your brother didn’t im glad you did✊ please stay safe

[@dontworryaboutit3089]

zoey dethorn thank you so much 💛

[@dontworryaboutit3089]

Haley McLaughlin i’m doing good! and thank you 🤍

[@HaleyMcL.]

Sofia Rojas that’s good! And you’re welcome! :)

[@WildWillow8]

I’m here, and she’s gone. If I had only told someone, if I had only listened to her, if only I had taken this all seriously, maybe, she would still be here till this day. I wish I could just wake up, from this horrible nightmare, so I could give her a big hug… 💔

[@Medusascig]

My best friend told me this... The bright smiles Hide the darkest secret The pretty eyes always cry the most tears And the prettiest skin always get cut She told me this after the day she died. She died on her birthday.And i wish she was here...

[@mansiverma558]

gawd i want to die. i wish i was there in place of your bff because she had someone who really cared

[@thekangaroo1880]

Maple -.- wait she told you after she died? Did she leave a note behind?

[@thekangaroo1880]

@@mansiverma558...

[@hyhgttgg]

Omg I cried while reading this oof if I were u I'm not strong enough to handle that feeling I'm sorry for ur lost....... be strong

[@thekangaroo1880]

Maple syrup...

[@jwonder5218]

I lost my wife of 10 years 3 months ago. Listening to this has me floored and crying so hard. Hearing this is making me thinking of all the things I wish I could say to her right now.

[@tinozwarg2602]

still heard your heart crying. Hear me, tears are cleaning your soul. There always be a heart to lose. Hopefully, its not your own.

[@puzzleduser]

Remindes me of the World Suicide Prevention Day that was Tuesday. I started watching you, when I was at my very lowest, when I was thinking about ending it all. When only that specific person could somehow put a real smile on my face sometimes. When I wouldn't leave my room for days, when I spent the whole holidays in bed because I couldn't bring myself to get up. Your videos made me think a little bit, in the beginning. And when I had a friend trying to help me, I watched you more often. Then, finally after two and a half years of feeling like shit and cutting and that stuff, I told my mom. She was really worried, although I told her it's not that big of a deal. Well, of course she worried, she's my mother. She took me to a psychologist and we had a few sessions, I had to do tests and stuff. In the end they found that I have some social problems, that are not at all my fault, I was born with it and never learned how to handle people, because we didn't know that I wasn't exactly like the others. The woman there told me it would be good, if I would go in therapy but she also said, that it maybe wouldn't help much, cause I don't talk. In the end I got support from my friend, the dear person mentioned earlier and my parents. And now.. after three years since it started, I can say that I feel good. I stopped cutting. Of course, I still have bad days and I still have problems, but that's just life. The time I realized I was happy again, I started crying. It was night and we were on a youth camp and in the kitchen and that stuff to clean some stuff. And I stood there, couldn't stop crying, because I was happy. So I guess, if you let people help you. You can see the light again. You can get out of whatever dark place you are in right now. You will see that life is worth it. Jay? That you for helping me seeing the light.

[@JetpacksAudios]

Jasmin PIR you just made me cry because i am so happy for you. You don't know how much this means to me! Thank you so mich for sharing this! Much love to you ❤️❤️❤️

[@puzzleduser]

@@JetpacksAudios ❤💙

[@patelniazuzia6716]

you made me cry

[@dadaoluwatimilehin990]

Thanks for this, Jay!

[@neva8980]

This is the perfect text to make an 1year without you for my horse that passend away.. I miss him so much. He was my everything..

[@abigaildoll1760]

I feel you. O'Henry was an American pony I rode when I was little. He died at 42. Still miss him, still want him, still love him. At least he lived a happy life. 😭😭😭

[@ObsidiansLegion]

My mom recently passed away due to cancer and I feel completely heart broken, I was there when it happened. I never felt this type of pain before I feel an intense void. My mom was a big part of my life.. I still find it hard accepting that I wont ever see her again, hear her, see her smile.. just nothing. To those talking about wanting to die on here, I understand in my own way because I've been there but remember that you're alive, you're healthy, there are people out there that love you. There's so many people out there that get sick with horrible sickness like my mom did that wish they could be in your health to live and not get their life cut short even children that die young due to sicknesses like cancer . Learn to appreciate life more and those around you, the ones who care for you, appreciate your health and last but not least, love yourself.

[@abigailrice9285]

This seriously made me sob. I personally don’t know anyone who committed suicide, but I do know SO many people who deal with mental illnesses. I’ve been depressed before, and I know that feeling. I understand. Thank you a million times. Seriously. I followed you after listing to your dbf audio in my recommended feed. I then listened to most of your audios and I followed you. Not one audio is slacked off dude. They all have a beautiful, beautiful meaning. Keep this up jay. You’re incredible ❤️🙏

[@FadezFEGamingEntertainment]

abigail rice you mean you’ve been sad? idk if you were depressed for like a day or two

[@abigailrice9285]

@@FadezFEGamingEntertainment No, it wasn't a day or two.

[@abigailrice9285]

@Cheyenne Shelton I am so sorry for your loss. It gets better and I know that shounds chiche but it does. Keep your head up.

[@FadezFEGamingEntertainment]

abigail rice holy shit u responded 9 months later u seem like a GOLD DIGGER!

[@abigailrice9285]

@@FadezFEGamingEntertainment Ah sorry i was off this account for awhile as you can see and no, im not that either lmaoooo

[@jencgold]

I want to hear your voice. I want us to laugh. I listen to our music. And giggle. I cannot believe you are dead. Too much loss. I can only pray we meet again. ❤️

[@jacquelinestewart3820]

Amen I know how you feel

[@GMSmith-qn7ed]

I miss my son Cody so much, I miss his smile, his love, his laughter, life just isnt the same without him,

[@bron5760]

Thank you, I was having suicidal thoughts and I came across this. It helps me understand what damage I would cause my friends and family. Thank you

[@krystynasmyth1891]

aww thats sad theres always other ways to work out problems. you should go talk to someone and talk to god, and find a new interest or hobby to respark the creativity in your soul, and bad times are for a reason or lesson to be learned seek out what it is

[@MOODFR]

“God gave life to your body, It’s up to you to give life to yourself.”

[@marlene5419]

"But now I'll never get you back" 😫🤞🤞😭😭😭

[@paulkirschbaum3184]

Walk with me

[@wiktoriac1174]

Omg some parts of these autio remainds me so much about my beloved sister. She die 2 year ago but it's still so so hard for me and I can't accept it. She was my best friend, like my mother, she knew everything about me... But now She's gone, and I'm here...

[@lutaki7324]

hang on there my man, theres still more people out there for you, people that is still with you or people that will be with you if you looking it hard inaf, please... please stay safe, theres happiness out there, we all just need to find it...

[@meganreeves6111]

@@lutaki7324 That's true

[@jaylatham6531]

@@lutaki7324 tsuki

[@geraldinegreene]

Lost my 2 friedsthis year.one tocancer 40 years frinds.1st anniverdary last week my 2 to sucide lost without them.this song says it all.Broken hearted

[@resilient4637]

6yrs later and...........

[@charcoalboi3068]

I lost the only person who made me feel loved, the only one who gave me a purpose to keep living. He promised not to do it, and I trusted him… I have no reason to be here, bc now I don’t feel needed in this world. I know he’d want me to continue on and make him proud but I don’t think I can do it anymore. Many people loved him but he didn’t realize it.. I wish he could see me now, I wish he was here with me so we could create memories, create special moments with each other.. I’ll always love him, he’ll always be in my heart.. I’ll see you one day again, I know it… (im sorry for anyone who has gone through losing a loved one)

[@davewang1709]

My husband Scott committed suicide 2 years ago. You described exactly what I want to say. I cried so hard when I listened to this video. Thank you for making this powerful video.

[@christopheralbert5468]

Im sorry about your husband, my condolences goes out to you, hopefully you're better now ? It's nice talking to people with similar experience likewise, I lost my late wife to a horrible car wreck four years ago it was a terrible experience for me, but I kept strong for my teenage daughter hoping for the best future for her, it'd be nice to talk to you more maybe have a great conversation, if you don't mind sending me your gmail address so I could reach out on you ?..

[@davewang1709]

@@christopheralbert5468 thank you for your comments. It has been very difficult time in the past 3 years. I think time will heal slowly. Here is my email is you want to connect. [e-mail]. Thanks. Dave

[@itsreallymewhitney]

My James did in here

[@andrewochs6832]

I just wanna say thank you for this!! I know it's meaning wasn't intended for me, but it really touched me from the opening of it!! My wife hated her scars on her face, but she was awesome!! I lost her on Feb 14, 2014, she passed away!! Now I am a single father to our only son!! Soon it will be her birthday, a week later our anniversary. So it hits on so many levels!!! Thank you

[@macksanchez6215]

My brother is my half brother. His moms family is still like family to me. His cousin killed himself. My brother shut himself off from everyone. He still hasn't been the same ever since. He was so full of life and energy before. Now, he still has life and energy, but it's not like it was before. When I came out to my brother, he accepted me. I always think that it's because he didn't want the same thing to happen to me. I know he loves me with all his heart, an I love him, but I kinda miss the old him. Nobody is the same after something like this happens. Know that you are loved. ❤️❤️

[@kaykayiscool3642]

Your brother is like me I'm definitely not the same goofy smiley 5 year old I was just before my dad walked out on me, like I just woke up one day and my mom told me I wasn't going to see him again..😥

[@SadGirlWalking]

i listen to this almost every day

[@ghost_boi8497]

This makes me think so much about my Grandad. He died in July. I miss him so much. Every word in this hit so close to home. It was almost as I wrote it. The last few words, they put me at ease. Thank you for being such an amazing and inspirational person. ❤️

[@ghost_boi8497]

Alex Gentry You don’t need to apologise. I don’t see why it’s your fault. ❤️

[@chiarabazzaro8899]

I lost my grandad too, some days ago. Me, my Family, are lost. I'm here.

[@ghost_boi8497]

Chiara Bazzaro It’s really hard. I know. But I also know that you can get through it. I did. You’re not alone. It’s hard, yes, but he wouldn’t want you to be sad, would he? It’s incredibly difficult, especially if you were very close to him like I was with mine. But I know that you’re strong, I know that you can get through the tough times ahead. Just remember that it’s ok to cry. I know you can do it. Sending you love. x

[@abigaildoll1760]

"And on your birthday, there will be no celebration. Only tears streaming down my face" " I miss you everyday." Those words hit close to home because I miss Cameron Boyce a lot. I just wish he could come back But, he's gone and I'm here feeling heartbroken and grief. But now, he comes into this world in raindrops. I want to go outside when it rains, just so I can feel his soul on me and him wipe away my tears.

[@calebwillow8134]

I lost my grandpa who was by my side whenever I needed him didn't matter what time or what he was doing always answer the phone he was a truck driver since he was a little kid got married at 17 my grandma was 16 both stayed together no matter how times seemed entirely rough hard then also enjoying all the good times until June 6th 2019 at 10:30pm ever since that night I've been lost right now I'd do anything just for 5 minutes quickly letting him know how much as one his grandchildren saying love you thank you for all you done for teaching me taking care of me etc

[@devinkline2543]

My first time hearing this... The tears are flowing. Miss ya brother.

[@awakeandaware7795]

Beautiful. On the day this posted to KZbin, my daughter would have been 43 years old. Instead, she is forever 31. I miss her.

[@Kiratsu94]

This audio remind me of my Grandmother. Its been 8 years when she passed away and I still miss her like hella lot. She help me grow and also she teach me to love your family and friends becauce one day you gonna need them to help you. 😢💙

[@kellyscot7880]

Hello Dear, how is things going with you ?

[@jade.s4441]

I keep comming back to this video/audio because it really helps me forget my suicidal thoughts, and.. I thank you for that Jay.

[@morgangunn7005]

I lost my best friend to suicide 2 years ago and this audio is so perfect ❤️💔

[@D.R.L2]

They are still with you ❤

[@YeSnakeCZ]

I lost my friend yesterday due suicide also. Be strong girl 💔

[@jazmin5798]

my grandpa lit up the world wit his beautiful smile , he told me to not cry bc he wouldn’t want me to be sad but i love him n miss him the most.😔❤️

[@fob1xxl]

This August 4th it will be 4 years that I lost the love of my life . For 40 years we were one. All of this still holds true. I miss you so much. Every day it seems like rain, at least through my eyes. I know you are happier now than the last few weeks of your life . Eventually we will be together again. I believe in eternity. I believe in you. 💙

[@clover2321]

"It way not have been perfect, but it was you"

[@kenwalker3374]

McKenzie McDonald, you will forever be missed. We love you! You left us too early...we were all supposed to go to each other’s weddings...❤️ we love you Why didn’t I wait till I was home to listen!😭😭😭 I’m crying in geometry

[@alexanderyurrr7129]

I’m so sorry for your lost 😔😔😔😢

[@shannonbanta1577]

I feel your pain

[@adamharlow5306]

😭😭😭I'm I'm so sorry

[@wendychoolwe5017]

😭😭😭Mainza. i miss

[@vatanakuch665]

Full meaning, her voice......make me cry:)) "Nobody's perfect and it's about being perfect"

[@aetheticsoul9789]

Everytime I hear this i think of my mom,I lost her on November 19 in 2019 and it still kills me inside,she was more of a mom than the person who gave birth to me and i miss her more than anyone I have ever met

[@someguyontheinternet2170]

I lost mine November 30 2018 and I miss her every day I whoud like to say my dad was there for me but that scumbag was never there for me I recently went to my friends birthday party it was so close to were mum lived the local shops were busy but it felt ghost like without her I know how you feel it will get better I know it will just trust me ok

[@lauraann3141]

This hits deep of my days when I was struggling with PTSD and so many attempted suicide times the last time I was in the floor I was saved and found the Lord again and I thank God everyday that he saved me !! There is a better way not saying it isn't still a struggle but I know there's people that listen people that care and I'm glad I didn't put my children through that pain because they already just lost their sister ( my daughter) and their fathers I would have truly broken them more!! I pray for anyone and I let all my friends?and everyone know I'm always there if they need me or anyone to talk too !! suicide doesn't have to be the way !!

[@rivers.6792]

I lost my girlfriend to suicide yesterday. I don’t think I’ve ever cried this much but holy shot I miss her

[@anjelcastro8743]

Hope you feel better now

[@nicky5669]

Thank you for this. More people need to see that. Love u

[@heaandrews5902]

I watched this and cried so much...

[@yourmum7792]

Hea Andrews same

[@johnkochasecarnahan1365]

I love this so much

[@cokerzioneziokwu1906]

After 2 years, this still give me chills, reminds me of the times that I had so much suicidal thoughts, I just, this was one of the videos that helped me think about the pain I'll leave for the people behind and i just couldn't do it, those times sitting at the edge of the terrace thinking of jumping down, it's hard fighting depression alone and I'm just grateful i didn't let it win, you inspire a lot of people Jay, Keep going

[@user-rh9qw5qf9p]

It breaks my heart thinking about my friend who killed herself. Please stay, please don't hurt the people around you like that. It may seem hopeless but as long as you breath it's going to be okay - I promise. Please don't go, people care. There is a hole you leave in the heart of your loved ones and it'll never fully heal. They won't just move on, they won't just continue living. Leaving someone like that will forever leave scars. Please get help if possible, please keep fighting - I know it's hard. I believe in you, I believe in every fighting soul I believe you can do it. I'm not saying it's easy, I just wish you can be happy some day and look back to this moment and be thankful that you stayed alive Stay safe wherever you are and whoever you are. You matter

[@srishakthi4393]

😊

[@user-rh9qw5qf9p]

@MARY GREEN thank you💕

[@hyhgttgg]

I'm so so sorry for ur lost..........😔😭🥺🥺

[@emm-fv8fs]

These audios are amazing. They really go deep in my soul

[@petrajanosikova5269]

😭😭😭 I can't stop crying .... Why ?

[@toastyfluffer2984]

I’m glad I found these audios, it proves to me how much my friends care. How much my family cares. Even people I haven’t seen in forever, care. They don’t want me to leave. Because if I do, they’d leave to. I don’t want to take such a precious gift from them that is life. Sending love to everyone who struggles, but don’t leave us. We love you. Stay, please. ❤️ “Life is precious, and so are you.”

[@IceJessie]

I miss you mom. Its been 6 months since you left us. I've been so alone since you left and I don't know what I'm doing without you.

[@mj-je7el]

Im so sorry 😪❤🙏 I have to leave my son soon and thinking he will feel as you...so hartbroken 💔😪🙏

[@amberblakely1527]

Hey jay, it’s been a long time since I listened to your audios, and I see that you got a following and more attention.. I’m so proud of you, I have learned from your audios and I’m still struggling but these videos helped me through tuff times. Thank you so much.

[@JetpacksAudios]

A m b e r B l a k e l y thank you Amber 🙏🏼 I'm just happy to help! Sending you so much love, stay strong ❤️🚀

[@lilbuggy24]

This made me think for hours, and I put it on loop. The first day of school for me, I got tripped over by 2 girls, and I bruised my cheek. I was devastated, and I never wanted to leave my room. After that, it got worse every year, from 2nd grade to 6th grade. I'm going into 7th grade this year, and I might not see the teachers who mostly cared about me. I'm going to miss them a lot, and my friends are going to 7th with me also. I was so depressed in 4th grade, to this year, I felt slightly better. I went to my dads house on the 26th in 2019, and I overheard my dad's girlfriend talking to my brother and sister (my parents divorced) and I heard the words I wasn't able to hear, because I was still 11 years old. The words she said we're "Your father's cancer is getting worse, and at this rate, he won't be able to live more than 6 months." I.. completely **BROKE.** It felt like a tsunami of tears coming out of my eyes, trying to drown me out. I was crying for such a long time, I couldn't get my mind off it. My brother held me for hours, and he only cried for a few minutes. My sister, she was in shock. She wasn't crying, she just stared at the carpet in the room as I was crying. I eventually fell asleep at 2 AM, and I was so tired. He's had cancer 3 times before, and he fought those 3. He's not doing.. good.... I guess you can say.. It's just life.. Right..? I call my dad every single day, after school, and on weekends, I talk to him for hours. This time, he didn't pick up.. I'm scared, Jay.. I don't know what to do.. It's going to be so hard to let him go.. I know he'll be safe, though.. atleast.... I hope he will.. I really miss him.. It's like, I'll never see him again.. I hope I do.. I really hope you take your time to read this.. I'd appreciate it. From one of your biggest fans, Lil' Buggy. *Aka, Mary*

[@jomanaabdelrazik1939]

do wanna talk about it? or be friends?

[@corupted643]

damn also it felt like gours went by resding that

[@justajinx3]

❤🫂

[@ThomasRWilliams1]

Outstanding and beautiful. I am not surprised. Really special Jay.

[@justinlarochelle4100]

My Jen!! It hasn't stopped raining!!

[@useurheadsformorethanahatrack]

WOW. EXACTLY THE WORDS. 5 YEARS THIS YEAR! I MISS MY BEST FRIEND!

[@tasharichard5947]

Geez, I started crying hearing this. All the feelings and thoughts I held in for my sweet friend Logan, came streaming out of me with your words. As if you knew what I was feeling and we have never met. Thank you for doing this recording. I miss Logan so much it hurts and he is gone. So many unspoken words, disconnected, and I just want one more hug. One more moment. Anyways, thanks again.

[@kellyscot7880]

Hello Tasha, how is things going with you ?

[@quesneltilini8470]

Thankyou for this I needed this so many of my friends and family are gone and I'm here and sometimes I feel alone but now I feel my love so thank you for everything

[@JetpacksAudios]

Quesnel Tilini you're never alone! We're all with you in spirit. Stay strong ❤️🚀

[@quesneltilini8470]

@@JetpacksAudios thank you for everything 😊♥️

[@itsjenn.4660]

This is beautiful. Glad it was in my recommended. 🖤

[@jaychris401]

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[@Vennie06]

This made me cry so so hard bc I just lost my sweet grandpa, I will keep him in my heart forever, I love u grandpa.❤️🥺

[@johnbogenschutz4338]

My Niece died on May 12 2018 of a Heroin Overdose. This video is so real for me . I watch it and I cry often. Anyone suffering from addiction watch this and get some help. Don't let your family watch this and cry like I do. There is help out there . You can get clean. Thank you for making this video. God Bless.

[@holleehenle9012]

Oh god. I got chills through my whole body! I’m balling my eyes out. I feel paralyzed like I can’t move until it’s done. So good though!

[@michellecox379]

They don't want to die.. they just want the pain to stop. Unfortunately dying stops the pain for them and ignite the pain in those they keft behind.

[@xinakiko3445]

This is Incredibly beautiful! omg I'm shedding tears, like when remisince about that one person who meant everything to you. You remembered the lil things that matter never let them go. Cause they are still thete

[@juanvargas-mu2wm]

Thank you this was beautiful I needed it thank you

[@anabolic09]

Theres so many things I wish. If she had watched this,listened to these words maybe she'd still be here. And I blame myself. I blame myself for everything...I cried hard listening to this because word for word this is what's in my heart and this is what I feel. If only she was here.

[@Froocy-]

"And on your birthday there will be no celebration" My birthday is never celebrated so nothing would change.

[@thomasinasutherland6587]

Dang...

[@totallydreamer9793]

Mine too then

[@jaychris401]

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[@romee8149]

My bestfriend died a month ago ;s

[@hrt4snc]

Be strong💜

[@bavuliin1763]

Rest in Peace for your friend, i know that feeling 🖤 Just be strong and try to help other people, you will remember them to the end of your life. BE STRONG are the best words for this situation 🖤😢.

[@aeond6897]

My your friend Rest In Peace. I have nothing more than to say I know...I know it hurts I know the pain. Sorry if I’m being a bother I’m just not okay.

[@jiji297]

Romee Post I am so sorry🥺❤️

[@vanessanaglovska5471]

R.i.p that must be really hard I lost a friend and I can’t even imagine them like completely not being there💖stay safe

[@shmik17]

I'm so touched by this It's the realest thing I've ever heard I've honestly never cried over somthing like this but this one is the one that got me

[@melissastamper9447]

God bless you Viking to Anna from him above.

[@creativitylive]

That's great, a little sad😔...thanks😌

[@justagirl8543]

So amazing ♥️

[@JetpacksAudios]

JUST A GIRL thank you 🙏🏼

[@michaelam2975]

Thank you for everything you're doing Jay. You're loved and appreciated. ❤️🚀

[@JetpacksAudios]

hazzas boo thank you kind soul 🙏🏼❤️

[@MsLpslover223]

Hearing this reminds me of my best friend he passed away July 10th 2019 from a drug overdose he struggled with depression and a lot of stuff and we where friends for over 6 years I miss him so fucking much

[@69LadyJay]

this popped up after finding out a beloved took his life after spending several days together, doing my best to bring him out of his funk. I thought he was ok but his sister just called saying he was gone & had a video of us joking around on loop. TY for sharing. Blessings.

[@SeelenTaucher]

Thank you so much my dear angel. This is also deep and inspiring to fight for friendships and those you love, don't struggle with your minds or your heart, cause struggeling with death is harder. Thank you so much my dear.

[@Marinaglam2024]

Who ever is reading this your amazing and goodbye

[@Ejolf]

U 2 ❤️

[@allysonpradhan2900]

I m literally crying because u talk my heart out,things I landed up crying more wen I tried to write them down!

[@jaychris401]

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[@merelhogeloon6532]

i lost almost all of my friends, i made a few new onces, real onces but i only have 3 old good friends remained from the days back. i lost half of my family, i mostly don't know them tho. but i knew some of them. i loved those i lost my feelings, myself. luckly i have one person to talk to, but that is an online best friend. i wish i could see her in real life.

[@merelhogeloon6532]

i lost her, i lost them all. i did 4 attempts. it's one year later. but i'm still fighting. i wont stop. It's Not Over Yet.

[@snowwhitef]

When I pass however I do I want my kids to live the best lives and they have and I feel comfortable that they feel that 😊

[@georgemelvin588]

Smiles, hi there 🌺 😊

[@The_Ducks_luck]

I listen to this on a daily, before I go to sleep.

[@winterackerley7605]

Is crying so hard to make your head hurt normal 😭😖😭😖😭😖😭😖🥺

[@daniel-qi3ww]

TheSlimetastic Ackerley yes. i’m used to it by now...

[@marcogrobler272]

This made my eyes full of tears...it reminds me of my uncle who shot himself in front of me💔when people asks me how I'm doing I always say I'm fine but its hurts deep I know he is gone and nothing can bring him back 💔😓

[@abrilisme6822]

I lost my dad 5 years ago and for ages no one told me how he died. I found out on my own only last year that he committed suicide and no one wanted to tell me because they thought I was too young to understand. The worst feeling is that I never got to say good bye and he left notes for each of my siblings except me. It hurts to think about and it makes me feel like he never loved me but I loved him so much that I try to just remember all the happy times we had so that I don't get sad. No one ever talk about his death in my family and when they do, it's always quick and it feels like they don't care. I know my dad wasn't the best person but even still, I feel bad because he's being neglected even after his death. If I could say anything to him, i would say that I'm sorry I never called him and I'm sorry that I moved so far away. But I would also ask, why did you leave me behind? And why didn't you at least say goodbye?

[@jesri6109]

God Bless you so much ❤️ 🙏

[@freddiegomez3221]

WOMEN SOMETIMES MEN SHUT THEMSELVES OUT OF LIFE NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY LOVE.. YOU WERE LOVED MORE THEN YOU COULD EVER UNDERSTAND...LOVED MORE THEN YOU COULD EVER UNDERSTAND.... SILENCE IS SO SPECIAL IN SO MANY WAYS...I LOVE MY KIDS MORE THEN ANYTHING..BUT I CANNOT SPEAK TO THEM TO EXPLAIN MY OWN DEMISE....IM JUST DONE WITH MYSELF...DONE..SO SO SORRY TRULY SORRY..😂❤❤U

[@freddiegomez3221]

I love you kids... DONE SO DONE SO DONE....TIRED....

[@marionstuart7441]

I lost my brother 2023 I can’t handle this pain but for him I’m trying , I no your far happier up there I wish you never had that electric scooter 🛴 his death was an accident but he had mental health issues he fought as he knew he was loved so much , yet I wish I could have you back even for 5 min , my heart is shattered 😢one day I’ll see ya again my brotherly son .i miss you so damn much

[@orlaaherne159]

Goose bumps . Amazing ❤️❤️❤️

[@tinyone1253]

This reminds me of my ex his walk his look his everything how does the best chapter of your life end so abruptly with no good bye.we loose ourselves when we lose the one we love

[@area1725]

This is so sad . It hurts so much even when I can't relate .

[@faitheybug1284]

My friend died in a car wreck 2 months ago and I'm missing her more and more and everyone says stay strong time will heal everything just deal with your emotions but it seems like it gets harder and harder to think and talk about to the point where I feel numb and I feel wrong talking about it with my other friends because I dont want them to get upset

[@denisedorazio5424]

So sad, and beautiful at the same time. Hits home for me. Thank you for sharing this

[@nikithashree5314]

"And every year when i celebrate my birthday you won't be there and every year on your birthday there won't be any celebration" - 😭 HITS ME HARD

[@ashhh_okumura]

I lost my older brother to suicide on November 9th of 2019 I miss him so much...

[@nurhani6301]

I love you too 😞❤️

[@marie-annechoquette9975]

miss you daddy....

[@ambrociogarcia3969]

Miss you more than words could ever Express love u always 4 now forever 118733

[@tinalewis4411]

I listen everyday. I am thankful for you.

[@herbertcurrier7579]

I miss my son who overdosed 3 1/2 years ago. It’s hard being here with him gone.