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[@jack_edwards]

YOU. ARE. GLOWING.

[@nysevicente2913]

Jack Edwards you stole my words

[@RubyGranger8]

Thank you so much for sharing this online Ibz -- I can imagine it took quite a lot of thought (even anxiety) but I also know that it is really going to help people who are going through blips themselves (because we all do!). I love the analogy of rebuilding yourself brick by brick, but also with the time and focus to reflect upon things which you do want to alter slightly. I hope everything just gets better from here :)

[@turquoisebaddie9885]

Queen

[@turquoisebaddie9885]

Queen of youtube

[@ekaterinaspiranova1173]

Matthew Lee can’t agree more

[@bethanyleigh9691]

Ruby Granger well said ruby 💕I hope this for him too xx

[@coolmonkey619]

I feel so bad for ruby

[@HollyGabrielle]

so proud of you ibz. and that is all that needs to be said ✨

[@IbzMo]

[@tanjina6876]

we stan prioritizing mental health

[@beigelover95]

2019 and beyond vibes!

[@motomotolikesyou1220]

Ibz:"my family found out" Me: *panics in desi*

[@KingTotoroOkumura]

Maeva Iyahcootee MOOD

[@sonalmishra4157]

Lol 😂

[@SelinaOzay]

Welcome back King! new hair who dis?

[@SelinaOzay]

Just found the time to sit down and watch this and all I can say is...u may not realise this but whatever you go through you inspire others. Whether you chose to intermit your degree or not, either decision is respectable and admirable. You've taken the time to heal and it's so brave of you to decide to go back to Cambridge AND GET THIS DEGREE!! I truly believe everything in life happens for a reason and your heart was meant to be broken for you to become the stronger and enlightened version of yourself that you are now...truly wish you the best Ibz and so excited that ur back❤️

[@saintetienne755]

Did you get that from Ab Fab?

[@Shuggy]

Ibz laughing at getting dumped is a mood. We out here living the same lives

[@aliyachugani8984]

I went through 6 months in 2018 like that. It was horrible but also the best. Because I worked on myself which let me love myself and ever since then I’ve been the happiest I’ve ever been. I love you Ibz. It can only get better love!!

[@tiffanyhuang1349]

what the actual legend behaviour

[@pia2904]

New hair, ah who dis? 😍😍

[@sunnyyyyyyyy01]

Omg Ibz you're glowingggg mA!!! and that hair wowww!!!! welcome back xxxxxx

[@RachelHeritage]

This is one of the most relatable videos I have ever watched. I've also recently been going through heartbreak, and am still in the process of getting through it. When the relationship fell apart I went through a terrible spiral of drinking, drama and everything to try and deal with it and ignore how I really felt. It's been just over a month now and I am doing a lot better and am stronger, but only because I am now starting to face and learn from what happened, and I still have more to do. That's something I've never experienced. Thank you for making this video, the openness and honesty is a great thing to put out to the world, good luck xxx

[@IbzMo]

sending love and solidarity. There is no time limit to heart break and no universal instructions on how to deal with it. But what is most important I have finally realised is our self love. Love yourself girl, coz you worth it!!!! x

[@robynbriggs29]

I got into Cambridge today and I just want to thank you and your voice for being the archer keeping my arrow straight on the path towards success !!!!

[@blahblah99196]

congrats girl

[@robynbriggs29]

Jane Doe thank you !

[@teasee2210]

What Course BTw congrats!!!

[@robynbriggs29]

teasee22 HSPS at Jesus! Thank you!!

[@robynbriggs29]

Ahmed Zia Hi and thank you!!! I go to a shitty northern non selective state school and have the least Oxbridge GCSEs ever (1A* 7As 1B and 1C) and I take sociology, philosophy and ethics and English lit. :)

[@nmm3032]

Your necklace is giving me £2 coin realness!!! Joking, love it!. For real tho, prioritising mental health is all that matters, even when you feel like everyone has expectations of you, you do you.

[@icystark5087]

Never clicked on a video so fast

[@iam3.14yearsold6]

I dropped out of college literally a few days ago bc i realised i need to do what I WANT to do. i wanted to make my mum and dad proud by doing a levels but the stress, the suicidal thoughts ect. was NOT worth it because i know what i want to do and i don’t need a levels to do that. Yeah, i’m kinda scared but i realise that you have to do what you love and take time for yourself. My point is, you have to prioritise your mind and make shit happen. You’re not the only one who is going through this kind of stuff where you loose yourself and feel defeated. It’s important to make the necessary changes to improve yourself. This is really brave of you Ibz.

[@ysamendoza2821]

What do you want to do ?

[@iam3.14yearsold6]

www.Ysa.co.uk i want to work with horses, training and exercising them!

[@shu7878]

Hey Ibz, I'm kinda the opposite of you! I'm from Malaysia and I'm currently studying in the UK haha If you do continue to stay in Malaysia I highly recommend you to check out some of the islands like Penang (where I'm from) , Redang or Perhentians. Loads of beautiful beaches and yummy food! Hope you enough your time in my country.. I know I miss it from here! Studying at top universities and being in final year we all seem to have an impression that we have to have our lives at 100% all the times and that's not the case! I hope you really recuperate and take care of yourself and discover healthy recovery/processing methods for yourself. xxx

[@dishaborse9078]

OUR KING IS BACK AND WE STAN!! ❤️❤️

[@zmzino9872]

Chill🤣

[@eniola5088]

He said "how dare i tell someone that i love them and i can't love myself". THAT WAS POWERFUL😭😙!!!

[@abc23123]

Yh Cz u should love yourself before u love others.

[@maimunamay6198]

The king of seasoning is back!!! We missed you!!!

[@oreo1018]

Did you use tumeric powder on your hair?

[@IbzMo]

I hate u 😂

[@preetscloset4116]

Hahahaha haldi. 😂😂😂

[@stressed3553]

grab that haldi bro and dash it everywhere

[@sunnyyyyyyyy01]

😂😂😂😂

[@user23678-n]

I feel like everyone (including myself) fell in love in 2018 and ultimately got slapped in the face by it... we out here single and ready to mingle in 2019 pls ✌🏽

[@CBoxAlmighty]

Lol more like single and ready to REVISE

[@kourtneykindle661]

Ibz, I'm so happy you're able to share this much with us. We love you so much. I know that you will smash this year!!! xxx

[@SophieIsTheBest100]

3 days ago I found out that my boyfriend had cheated on me with one of my best friends and has been sleeping with her constantly for 2 months. I am beyond hurt and feel like I've suddenly lost everything when life was going so well. Thank you for the Jenga example I'm going to slowly start rebuilding myself xx

[@ayezafaisal4247]

OMG I acc love the hair 😭😭😍😍😍😍 THE WHOLE LOOK IS BANGING IBZ

[@chaotic_m1nd288]

I remember meeting you back in October in Oxford... you slayed the event and made it amazing, even through all the hardship you went through. I could see that there was something wrong when i made eye contact with you, but you were not letting it affect your performance that day

[@lottiecooke3800]

I can’t thank you enough for making this. I have been at rock bottom for a long time and I think I’m finally ready to work through it. Thank you Ibz, from the bottom of my heart. I wish you all the love in the world this year xxx

[@BLESSINGMARIEE]

Love the jenga analogy. Glad to hear that you’re doing better. Hope Malaysia was good ❤️

[@beigelover95]

Ibz this is our year ❤️ 2019 is all about self-love. theres no way we can love others properly or feel their love if we don't have that for ourselves xx True love is coming!!! but first we must heal

[@jen-wk1bc]

oh ibz, i cant wait to watch this! i’ve been binge watching ur old vids and hoping everything’s okay and that u know how much we all love u. you’re amazing.

[@sahedahmed5674]

Malaysia looks sooo good. I want to go!

[@nadiahDono]

Yeah you should! we have so many good foods and places here! But yeah, you might need to bare the hot sunny weather

[@rc27td]

omfg this was Actually my 3rd year experience....... except we didn’t break up like in once piece..... it was a long thing over months and my academic life and mental health just fell FLAT. first love, first heartbreak. jheeeeeze i feel u “i dealt with it, how i do... by being weird. and annoying” LMAO me. hope you are feeling better ibz, you will. time is the healer, and honest, supportive friends who love you without judgement- keep them close. love to you xoxo

[@erzan]

Ibz you have inspired me to aim academically so high that even in my 'failure' I will have achieved so much. *Thank you.* 🙏

[@than.c998]

Hate is just another way of holding on, I’m so glad you reached the conclusion you did and did what you did to get better. Heartbreak is a completely different type of pain and it really changes you as a person but going through it makes you grateful for everything you do have, I’m so happy for you!!

[@freyahext6277]

IBZ! I can’t tell you how much I needed this video right now. I’m not usually a person to comment but you have shown me things do get better. I have just been dumped a few days ago (completely unexpected) and have been struggling on how to cope with it and how I’m going to deal with uni because my anxious thoughts have taken over. It was my first proper relationship and like you I fell in love. Thank you for being my light in this dark place right now, hopefully my attitude will change like yours!

[@shmesaalrawahi3492]

Could you please make a vid on how you bounced back? And the advice you wouldve given yourself

[@lucyroebuck8500]

Someone Special lol what do you think this was??? (No offence)

[@katemaire7917]

the universe will never give you something it does not think you are capable of overcoming/handling it❤️ Coming from someone who’s spent years grieving losses, going through heartbreaks & major stress from all areas of life, your inner strength will shine through even if unexpected! keep going!!🌟🌟🌟

[@leahx827]

That Ibz only got into his first proper relationship in his 3rd year of uni when he looks like THAT makes me feel a lot better about myself :)

[@tee6029]

You can never lose your personality. ❤ The whole video was beautiful 😭 The ending tho 😂

[@crystalsnow7096]

Hey ibz you're probably not going to see this comment but I'm so happy for you...I salute you for concentrating on yourself and bettering yourself mentally and spiritually.Honestly I found it strange how people would go uni make it look so easy and graduate...but I knew in actual fact it's not and seeing now that it's not all straightforward and it's ok to not be the best makes me feel at ease.Any mistakes or failures or little things that might not be how you planned is how superheroes like you learn to fly.Keep up the hard work and just be you!Oh and Idk if this helps but BTS have a a whole series of albums dedicated to loving yourself called love yourself.Yes it's in Korean but there are key lyrics in English.There are 2 songs I think are great in terms of the message they convey-'IDOL' and 'Love myself '...they helped me build confidence in loving myself and they might help you idk.You can give them a listen if you want.The lyrics touch my heart.Anyway soz this is long,Have fun and love yourself.Take care-From Nav💜😊👍🌸💜

[@myawelch1669]

When this video popped into my notifications, I was shookth to the max. Screamed and praise the lord that my boy Ibz is back!!

[@indirects868]

You seem so at peace Ibz, I’m really happy for you 💛

[@Electravibe123]

So glad you’re back you’re like the only youtuber I can relate to 😊

[@IbzMo]

always here for you

[@kaliyahbower2752]

Look at the glow and the happiness, iconic.

[@lauraharper6391]

This video got me so emotional, i had a massive meltdown last year and it took me a whole 12 months to see the light again. love you so much ibz, keeping it real as always xx

[@EseKanayo]

Watching this video has been so healing for me. I have an exam tomorrow and I’ve never felt more unprepared. Thanks for being open with us Ibz! 😭💖

[@catherinemulcaster9408]

Ibz, thank you. Thank you for sharing your experience. I admire how you took a break and now you're coming back better than ever. You're such an inspiration and I just want to let you know that, you've helped me through a lot of dark days. Thank you Ibz.

[@67DrWatson]

Liiissstttteeenn!! I legit thought someone loaded up a fake Ibz Mo vid bruv because I couldn't believe what my eyes were telling me. Kudos to you for highlighting mental health and treating the issue with honesty. You don't know how seeing this vid will affect people who feel they have no voice and they see Ibz Mo going through something. It will allow them to have hope and see a light at the end of a dark tunnel and that makes you a great person. You are bringing your seasoning to humanity and that's something to be proud of.

[@absolutelynot5447]

Got rejected from Cambridge...needed this vid...thankyou!

[@beenishkhan2254]

you’re such an inspiration! you have no idea how much i needed to hear this. i love and respect you so much you have no idea. thank you so much for sharing this. so glad to have to back boo ❤️❤️

[@kukadoodles]

Love, love, love to you Ibz x Can't imagine how hard it's been to be a role model and a superhero to so many and go through something like this. Super happy to see you rebuilding and re-embracing your life ❤️wishing you nothing but joy! x also, because it's me, this made me think of a poem about loving yourself after love: 'Love After Love' - Derek Walcott The time will come when, with elation, you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror, and each will smile at the other's welcome, and say, sit here. Eat. You will love again the stranger who was your self. Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows you by heart. Take down the love letters from the bookshelf, the photographs, the desperate notes, peel your own image from the mirror. Sit. Feast on your life.

[@adamasartislife2943]

This is amazing and thanks for sharing it. I had this blip last year and I never really understood what it was. I was so detached from school that I would attend classes but the entire term felt like I was never in school. Teachers didn't understand and neither did my mom because I didn't know how to explain it. But I got help from outside, people I admired that I never thought I would ever speak to. I got amazing advice, and most importantly, I started to understand myself more - connect, to see my worth, to heal and forgive myself from past mistakes. It has honestly been amazing and I'm still working and healing, but I'm so happy that I can look at myself and be happy and I can make myself, my center stage. ❤❤❤ Thank so much for sharing this❤

[@ShannonNath]

WOW! I cannot help but just relate to everything you have said. Getting dumped in Year 12 honestly killed me, I cried for literally weeks, months even... And i can so relate to what you're saying about not being able to do anything. Thankyou so much for posting this, it has made me even more in love with your channel! Sending so much love x

[@bushra2179]

I think what you've shown here is so amazing. Not everyone can go through what you have, internalize those thoughts and feelings, sort through them, and come out a better person. This is real growth. I'm happy for you

[@LucyCrisp]

Honestly I give you so so much credit for doing this video! We are already proud of you and it’s amazing to see how far you’ve come and how successful you’ve become so far! I give you the full respect for taking a break as well since we all need one at some point in our lives. Good luck for the rest of your final year! I’m so proud! ❤️

[@Aurora-wb2wc]

So grateful for your honesty & willingness to share this with us. I feel like the impact of heartbreak is not talked about enough! It honestly really killed me when I went through it and it took me YEARS (yep, years) and I’m STILL trying to battle my way through it. I’m so happy to see you blossoming! Please don’t let the pressure of being a role model get to you Ibz bc prioritising your mental health is definitely above all. Love you and keep shining king !! (With your beautiful new hair x x )

[@supitschar]

Ibz !! So proud of you! I feel like a lot of people (me included) needed to hear this, thank you xx

[@094Abi]

You have shown immense strength sharing all of this with us. I’m so glad that you’ve taken time for yourself to evaluate and reflect. Keeping working on yourself - you seem to be in a better place. We here for all of this....and you will snatch that Cambridge degree💕 !! You are still an inspiration to all of us xx

[@omolea]

I have never watched a KZbin video that has moved me as much as this one. Thank you Ibz Mo

[@rahmahmohamed1598]

IBZ MO IS BACKKK!! And that hair colour looks soo good on you❤❤

[@Annada30]

having been in a very similar position before, i know how hard this is to talk about. especially with so much grace & maturity. and to such a big audience. it's a huge deal just to gather the strength to bother working on and not just let go of yourself! so so proud of you, Ibz- we love you for the king you are!

[@aneesa4753]

It’s so amazing to see you glow after your downfalllll!!! You look amazing you know, after hard times you blossom. And that’s what’s happened with you. Thank you for sharing this. You inspire us all... don’t forget that you’re amazing and don’t let anyone else tell you different💁🏻‍♀️ enjoy yourself love x

[@Inayahinam]

I’ve never related to a video so much and have someone else’s experience mirror mine so much. All I wanted to do was give him a hug Love you Ibz ❤️

[@ellen9788]

I feel this, and I'm so so sorry. I went through a breakup a few weeks ago but there's something else that makes me relate to you. A year ago, a friend (who I had really deep feelings for) ghosted me after saying that they'd be there for me. We'd got into Cambridge together, two of three in our year from our massive school, and I was going through so much/being manipulated and was suffering from PTSD among other things - so they ditched me at the worst possible time. I never really processed my feelings for them because I can't come out to my parents and religious community, so I hated myself and tried during A Levels to bury myself in work. I'd built up this facade of this strong, hyper-competent student who always helped others and pushed forward no matter what, but that reputation crashed around me once people back home realized how mentally ill I am. A lot of difficult problems down the line mean that I'm intermitting this year, and I need time to reconcile how people see me with who I am. I'm happy for my friend, who is engaged and loves their fiancee very deeply, and I'm happy for my ex now. But I need to build myself back up and not use crushes/relationships as a salve for the problems in my life. I wish you all the best, and you're being really strong.

[@bluecometzola773]

welcome back! honestly when you share your ups and downs online that's what makes you an inspiration, to me at least. I have so many goals that i aspire to be and the tone of this video makes me feel like you're a lot more real and well, that kinda validates your online persona.

[@lilacspringkitty]

So great to see that you're prioritising self care Ibz! Without it we can't be the best versions of ourselves! Big hugs to you, 2019 is the year of graduation and more greatness💞

[@pwincezzetz]

SIR, YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTE LEGEND!!! I genuinely think you are a blessing to the Cambridge community. You are genuinely wonderful!

[@devineyre5545]

so happy for you ibz!! just watched your 'education saved my life' video and we shared so many experiences, was shook when i saw that you uploaded, hope good things come to you Ibz

[@jonathanlematourinan3214]

You still have the love of your suscribers always. That's more than most of the people could get. Keep going! You deserve always the best!

[@amym976]

haha i was like this for a couple YEARS after a bunch of life ruining crap! its so key for your personal development to have this time to connect to yourself and reflect...lays the foundation for who your stronger future self is gonna be , wouldn't change that period for the world

[@lizziemojibade3237]

A quote that I just love love lovee is 'When we focus on *getting* love from one special person we will suffer. When we focus instead on *giving* love and being open to receiving love in all its forms, love is what we will feel.' and I apply it not just to romantic love but within all my friendships and connections and family. Love you Ibz x

[@teaforthetiller.]

This is inspiring, Ibz. I really resonated with the building yourself back up analogy. I really needed this video rn in the midst of college applications. Keep doing what you’re doing, you are amazing!

[@zulaikha6668]

This was such a roller-coaster. Its so good to see a guy talking about mental health and emotions, definitely need more of this

[@GaGaObession]

I admire you so much for sharing your story, it’s so refreshing to see someone coming out being so raw & honest! It teaches me to be kinder to myself and somehow mentally power on through! My first year as a graduate in work was mentally draining and I didn’t love myself, I was so harsh on myself! InshAllah with time we become to love ourselves and improve ourselves - we got this 🤞🏼

[@reece5634]

I feel you, bro, I feel you. You’re such an inspiration and keep being an inspiration. This is our year, whoop whoop

[@luciehulin4270]

Ibz man I can’t relate with you any more at the moment. I know exactly what you’re talking about and you don’t even need to say any more my friend because I know exactly what you’re going through. I think I’m at the same position I’ve just maybe come out the end of this mental blip - I took a few weeks off and went to the doctors because my mental health was really bad and now I’m myself again which I’m so happy to say because I never thought I would be myself again. I realise now that in fact this blip was probably the start of a journey of acceptance that I now realise I couldn’t expect to carry out with someone else. Respect Ibz, I’ve never related anymore to a video

[@morenikea3554]

Ahhhhhh ibz, you have been sincerely missed & and im grateful for you sharing this experience because it’s encouraging to know that we’re not alone when we have these feelings.

[@user-df3ms9gk2i]

‘Love this love that’ Relatable omggg I’ve never been in a relationship and I’m so jealous of people in one

[@biba8415]

I went through this at exactly the same time. Sometimes you have to lose yourself to progress. We've got this 💓

[@noorsaba3857]

Love the new hair colour ❤️

[@hannaheli9310]

this is the realest video, you need to love yourself before giving love to anybody else

[@ceceanang5664]

He's living his best life!!

[@Emzjellybeanz]

Whoever dumped you it’s their loss. Also wow so you’re stylish this video

[@ZaynabAslam786]

You’re amazing. This video has really helped me reevaluate how to cope with my depression and has given me some hope that I will get better

[@beccawilliams1062]

im so proud of you ibz, you deserve this clarity and i pray it remains or if it doesn't as life wavers you will always make your way back, i love you so much 💕

[@rayanzia9011]

Wait WHEN you get into ur masters does that mean the channel continues (🎉🎉🎉🎉)

[@theprocrastinatinggent8461]

The King is back! So glad you've come out the other side so much stronger!

[@gillianl8932]

Glad you're enjoying Malaysia! Remember to hydrate cause this Malaysian weather ain't playing especially since it's nearing the Chinese New Year season.

[@maryamaseeker6248]

IBZ IS MY ABSOLUTE INSPIRATION AND I KNOW WE ARE OUR OWN INSPIRATION AND EVERYTHING. BUT LIKE IBZ IS A BLOODY HERO AND I DONT KNOW WHAT ITS GONNA BE LIKE WHEN HE QUITS BUT WHEREVER LIFE TAKES HIM, I HOPE HE IS ALWAYS SORROUNDED WITH CONTENT AND NEVER FORGET THAT HE IS LOVED MORE THAN HE CAN EVER IMAGINE. I JUST WISH I KNEW IBZ IN REAL LIFE. HOW WONDERFUL WOULD IT BE TO HAVE A FRIEND LIKE HIM.

[@HouteNyloc]

I'm so happy for you, Ibz =) The fact that you had one huge negative and learnt how to turn it into a positive by doing what you do best is very inspiring and motivating. You know what you're doing when you make mistakes you don't regret.

[@vickie7848]

I needed this. Thank you, Ibz, and I'm so glad you're returning back to your own self

[@emily-qe3yu]

MALALA! No fucking way. Ur literally incredible Ibz 💓🥰

[@nim_19]

So so so happy you’re feeling good about yourself. I hope this feeling stays with you and that you only get better ❤️❤️

[@IluvMJandBrunoMars]

i can relate to this so much. People thinking you're bulletproof and you're not, it's hard to deal with

[@judithallen4395]

In A you were missed by your family..friends you Tube friends and the whole world.. But In A life is a learning curve.. You lived a little and learnt a lot. Now you are healed within you... You will grow and be a better person. Every good wish for 2019... Welcomed back with love...😍❤

[@judithallen4395]

Ibz you have shared a lot. It's good to take time out and reflect... U mantra of life's lessons... Write your book soon.. Look after YOU....😁❤

[@hueyenooi5174]

Ibz, thank you so much for sharing this 💓💓 and so happy for you that you have pulled through - wish the same for others who are going through these dark patches in life.

[@reemahussain1850]

Ibz me and my sister watch you a lot and we could tell you that were struggling both academically and life problems, it is completely normal to fall at times but you have come a long way for anyone to take that away from you no matter how much you love them. This may be your first love but certainly not your last.

[@kemi7689]

Don’t worry about that, you are such a lovely, smart, gorgeous, exciting and fun human, you will have many loves. First one feels like a dagger 🗡 in your heart ❣ but it will pass, “ better to love and loss than none. Avoid users, opportunists in your lovers and also narcissists aka narcs. And You be good. Welcome back.

[@karenkambona3836]

I’ve been watching a lot of your videos and you’re truly an inspiration. Thank you for the realness as well as truthfulness. 💓

[@stefanysoh557]

My country ❤️ makes me SO happy that you’re here!