on the way to a new normal

idk how i'm gonna do this but let's GIVE IT A GO ANYWAY happy vaedim! maybe it'll spark that bit of...something that is still missing from me
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[@oliverjames3835]

So, this is a super rambly story, but this video reminded me of it, and I thought I would share? I used to work in a little, independent coffee shop, and one of my favourite customer experiences was with an older man who had just come back home from a vacation in Spain. He was the only customer I had at the time, so I was talking through how I was making his drink, and he was asking me questions about my life, like what I did with my days and whether I was in school or not. He was perfectly kind and meant no harm, but school is a touchy subject with me. I'm 22 and I've been putting it off, all because it hasn't felt like 'the right time' to go and learn and immerse myself in theatre like I want to. And, because it's taken me so long, I've kind of devolved into this icky, shameful mindset? Like everyone is moving on and I'm stuck dealing with these bad feelings, so I spiral and can't actually bring myself to do something about it. And THEN I start to think that it's just me being lazy, so I end up in this vicious cycle of cluttered thoughts that won't go away. Obviously telling customers my kind of sad, very personal deep thoughts isn't really acceptable, my automatic response to questions about school is that it's a work in progress, but I'm just not able to commit yet because of these outlying things in my life. So, I reeled that answer off as usual, and I think because I wasn't having a great day I also mentioned to him that I wasn't very happy with the way things were going, and that I was struggling with some outside factors. Not in detail, but enough for him to pick up that I was having a difficult time. He smiled at me when I passed him is drink, looked me in the eye and said: "It's okay if it takes a while. It just means that you're going to change the world some day." That really struck a chord with me. I think about it every day while I work towards becoming a person that I can be proud of. I don't really know how to conclude this, but I thought it might be something warm that you'd like to read. I'm sending good thoughts your way, and leaving you with a The Adventure Zone quote that I ALSO think about every day, because OBVIOUSLY: "You're going to have to fight...and you're gonna win."

[@oliverjames3835]

I LOVED him. I wish he was a regular, I would have hit him up with some free coffee beans.

[@QueenCNow]

OMG! I am glad that you posted this comment, i totally need that. I think i going to remember sentence for a long time❤️ . "It's okay if it takes a while. It just means that you're going to change the world some day" Yaas Queen! 👑 Thank you for sharing that.

[@unframedminds8204]

Beautiful story. ❤️

[@AliceintheUnknownLand]

Love it! Thanks a lot!

[@johannarhaglund]

I too suffer from what my therapist & I have chosen to call “perfection anxiety” & what has helped me tremendously is the mantra “done is better than perfect”. It’s TERRIFYING, & DIFFICULT & I LITERALLY have to sit down & chant this under my breath as I’m writing a paper or working on a project, but over the last few years as I’ve been able to become an A student & even make the Deans List I’ve realized that I’ve started believing that I can do things even if they terrify me. Don’t get me wrong, they STILL terrify me, but now I can actually do them. Someday I hope that they won’t terrify me, but today is not that day. Today I celebrate the victory of being able to get through the project to completion. I hope that this is helpful & I wish you all the love & good vibes in the world on your journey to a new normal.

[@SourEggz]

Johanna Jordan I LOVE THAT “DONE IS BETTER THAN PERFECT” - I am going to have to adopt this mantra.

[@DanielAvila6]

I don't know if I suffer from anxiety or not, but sometimes sounds get too loud or the colours get to bright or too dark and my heart starts beating so fast that I feel like it's gonna jump out of my chest. And something that really helps me through those times is to close my eyes, count to 10 again and again, breath in and breath out. It might sound like I'm crazy or something but that actually helps me a lot.

[@kylajacobs6497]

Daniel Avila things like this have happened to me too. From the research I've done I think it's called sensory overload. It can trigger my anxiety as well.

[@at0mic_kitty]

Daniel Avila you are not crazy

[@lisam.324]

your videos are so weirdly educational. Like, I feel the same way but I can never put it into words what it is I'm feeling and it's all weird and I don't feel good but I never know what emotion it is I'm going through and you always manage to put it in words. And I know that feeling in the chest and I do make my cup of tea being mindful, I do my make up mindfully and it does help. So I guess it's nice to have someone feeling the same way. It's always good not to feel alone So thanks

[@nimrodgirl1]

Hey Cheyenne, this video reminded me of a quote Tumblr introduced me to that really forced me to change my perspective on perfectionism and its associated procrastination and anxiety: Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly. I think the point is to enjoy doing things even if you're not so good at them - trying a new hobby, learning a new skill - the value is in doing the thing. But the post also talked about turning in assignments for partial credit. The perfectionist mindset wants us to only share work that is the best representation of ourselves and our abilities. Very quickly that blocks us from even starting the work if it has the potential to be less than perfect because we think it wouldn't be worth it. But that's not true. Bad work always has more value than no work. And hell, once you get started and put your less-than-perfect work out into the world...the world doesn't hold it to that impossible perfectionist standard in your head. Turns out your perception of "bad" was skewed AND you've given something of value for the world and for yourself. Sorry this is a long comment, but this really helped me and I wanted to share. It's a much kinder way of thinking than the usual motivational quotes I see. I'm really happy to see you back. Your videos are so gentle, meditative, and inspiring for me. I love your work. Keep on keepin' on! 😊 x

[@eleanorrutter6594]

I’m normally to shy to post, but we are here cheering you on! Be gentle and be kind, you are an inspiration and a joy to so many ❤️

[@yamsonthepan]

"if you wait until everything is ready, you'll never begin" ahahaha oh. my god. never expected to come across someone who could accurately describe what i've been feeling for such a long time (my normal, too), but you hang in there. listening to you and hearing how you're taking steps, one at a time, to make a new normal inspires me so much. i'll try too! i'll try to make a new normal for myself too. stay strong despite of your ups and downs.

[@SoftYellowMondays]

So glad to hear you're focusing on mindfullness! I live with a serve anxiety/panic disorder for the last fourteen years and boy oh boy do some days hit me like a ton of bricks! I love meditations because it keeps me grounded and present when my anxiety wants me to float away. But you will find peace, it's coming your way. Although it's easy to day dream of living somewhere green where time isn't a thing and you roll with the rise and fall of the sun and live peacefully, right now just where you are can be just as beautiful. it's all how you view it. sending you love and light, always! i'm on your team!

[@tasharulezd00d]

Oh Cheyenne, I relate to this so deeply. I love the differentiation between what currently is normal versus working toward a new normal. Every day is such a challenge but I know you're going to push through it and come out on the other side on top.

[@umnsas]

watching this video in 2020 and if only you knew how many things in common (if it is appropriate to say that talking about mental health) i found. actually, maybe a year ago i saved one of you notebook-related video, didn't watch it so decided to 'get to know you' by this video. all i wanted to say is thank you. last two or even three weeks were not the best and even not 'normal', and now i'm trying to 'recover', but still have those moments like you were talking about. and all those waves, feeling.. they are soo familiar, i just don't know hot to express what it makes me feel like. but i soooo happy i watched it whatsoever so thank you very very much!!

[@WallBouncingRocks]

these videos help me so much. i'm 21 and i graduated university so early and everyone in my life expected me to keep moving at that same speed and it just built up a ton of unrealistic expectations for myself that really fueled my anxiety. I found one of your videos that basically totally identified my problems and it was sooo refreshing and calming to know that other humans feel this exact same way and that i'm not totally alone! it's just really helpful when i'm in the thick of these negative times to know someone else is trying to push through just like me ❤️️ there's happy days ahead for us, i know it. we've just gotta keep going.

[@shayebytheshore]

Oh my god yes the "waiting until everything is perfect" thing? I've always had this mental image of what the perfect time to start all my projects would be. In 2016, I thought I'd get there in 2017. And then last year I thought it'd be this year. But no matter how hard I try, I can't get to that 'perfect moment'. So thank you so much for bringing this to my attention! Now that I know, I realise that I will never reach that mental image I had of the perfect moment, so I may as well start now. This is super motivating, and I am so so grateful!!

[@samiharwood9120]

Thank you so much for this video! I'm finding myself at a lost of motivation in my schooling. I'm going to school for Graphic Design and it's hard to do the projects when I have no motivation for them. I feel where you are coming from because I too feel stressed, scared, and lost. You inspire me to keep going and do the best that I can and I want to thank you for that❤❤❤

[@unframedminds8204]

Do you like Graphic Design? If yes, you might be un-motivated because you're putting too much pressure on yourself. Or because it takes a lot of work to become good at it and you weren't really expecting that. It can make you think that, since it doesn't come easy, you are not "talented enough" for it. The second reason you might be un-motivated is that you don't actually like Graphic Design. You'd rather be doing something else but, either you don't know what else, either the something-else is not something your family or friends would encourage you to pursue. Just my opinion. Graphic Design is a beautiful form of art. As long as you are willing to put in the effort and time, it can be such a fun way to express your creativity.

[@JulietteTLin]

Randomly stumbled upon this old video of yours while procrastinating editing my own videos and i didn't know that this was going to resonate with me in my current situation. i often put things off and wonder why i am so lazy even though i want to do things, but i know that i just get caught up in anxiety and the fear of not being able to do things perfectly, so this was really nice to hear.

[@patireads]

I feel you girl. Actually I feel exactly like you when I’m anxious ( which is pretty much all the time), my heart starts to feel like is diminishing in size and everything seem so crowded inside my chest region. And it feels like this pressure keeps all my heart area very small. It’s as you’ve said, you have to learn how to cope with the conditions you have and meditation and being in the moment has helped me a lot. I loves your video, and I hope you’re having a lovely day or night. ☺️

[@jennhello2522]

I'm in terrible mental state and I can't ever express this to anyone. Therefore, hearing you talk about your struggles and the way you feel, while having them resonate with mine, just helps me be a little kinder with myself when trying to be a productive human being. Thank you so much 💗

[@emmaf8264]

i appreciate this video so much. hug. your vulnerability is comforting... not that i need other people’s pain to feel better, but more that i hear you and feel a little understood. rooting for you, girl ✊ and you look so beautiful- the way your hair curls is lovely 😊 peace w you x

[@tbhstudying]

i adore you so much and you deserve the stars and the skies and everything beautiful in this world. thank you for sharing this with us and thank you for being vulnerable enough to film and edit and upload and share this bc that takes a lot of guts that idk if i would ever have. i love you to the moon and back, chey!! i’ll eternally be here to cheer you on! ♡

[@sophiamorgan2439]

I just... I just can't when it comes to you. Your videos are so beautiful, even when you are not feeling beautiful. You wade through the muddy waters of your mind and I can't tell you quite how inspiring that is. And comforting. It's comforting to know that I am not crazy and you are not crazy. We're just struggling being human. Sending lots of good vibes

[@at0mic_kitty]

I totally feel you on the wanting to feel better before doing anything - whenever I get depressed I just don't do anything because I want to enjoy it and be happy when I'm doing it. It's hard sis 😔❤️😘

[@aqilahhhhhh]

i find it very amusing that this video set back in 2018 but it fits ever so perfectly now with covid and all... i found Chey on Instagram as I'm having a small embroidery business started. i've graduated from my university about 6 months ago during the pandemic.. and i'm working on my small business ever since. and honestly it has been really hard for me because my environment has been pushing me into applying for more stable jobs and what not (which i am planning to do). and i have a really bad anxiety for the whole week into thinking am i really gonna make this through while pushing myself into finishing everyday tasks (eventhough i only got to tick one off).. im now taking a break from Instagram and found your KZbin channel! and this video resonates with me.. and i wanna say thank you. for making me feel better. for making me think that hey it's okay to have all this negative feelings! its normal! and yes we will get through it x

[@Ggoldwyn]

So familiar to me. Sometimes I'm super determined and productive, but sometimes I'm having weeks and months like this. I've figured out a lot that helps me and I think some day I may make a blog about it. On a different note, your channel is from my favorites for bullet journaling and I think now that I'm moving towards more bullet journaling I may end up being influenced by your style. Keep pushing through, it's so worth it!

[@flutterbykissez]

You hit the nail on the head my dear...... Am working on mindfulness myself. We have to keep moving forward..... WE WILL GET THRU IT ....... and make our way to the next part of life! Thank you so much for sharing! ♡

[@boldwithfire]

I truly resonate so much with you and your battle for the new normal. We’ll get there, it is within our reach. I just have to remind myself to live in the moment, because all we really have is right now. Love and light, you’re an inspiration.

[@Cattysnap]

What you described about the tight, anxious feeling in your chest and your paralyzing anxiety was incredibly familiar to me. Because you mentioned having an interest in self development books, I wanted to suggest looking up Pete Walker, since his writing has helped me out a ton recently. It does tend to be more along the lines of stuff to do with addressing trauma, which may seem intimidating, but I still suspect the section on his website to do with the inner critic and perfectionism could be helpful for you. In general he has a lot of insight about the ways in which our tendencies to avoid and distract from negative emotions tend to prolong and exacerbate them, and there's a lot of very compassionate advice and resources there for how to go about building up a healthy relationship with emotions. So yeah, that's my rec.

[@Clarisse_soulspell]

Watching you going through this just made me realized that i think i've been having anxiety for the last 10 years without acknowledging it... without knowing what it was. I've always thought i just had trouble breathing and weird thoughts. Thank you ! I'm reading 'The Art of Stopping Time' by Pedram Shojai at the moment, and it's excellent to be mindful, it's daily practices/challenges, you can either read the whole thing or do one day at a time, there are 100 days of tricks to be more gentle with ourself, i found it great, maybe it would help?

[@lostcauseromantic471]

Breathing. Writing. And changing perspective. Those are the things that worked for me. I wrote about my experiences in a removed point of view. And wrote until I felt empty. And positive affirmations and gratitude are what helped me change my thought patterns. I think altering my thought pattern was possibly the single most important thing that I did. You can do this. You’re an awesome sprout. Take each day at one time. Hope this helped.

[@amandadavispomeroy]

Glad you’re working on mindfulness! My husband went through a long bought of debilitating anxiety for the better part of 2 years. Mindfulness & DBT made a *huge* difference. We call it “feelings class” bc he’s learning how to manage intense feelings in a way that is healthy. I know you didn’t ask for advice (or at least not this far into the video), but I highly recommend DBT. Nevertheless, you’re doing amazing!

[@adriannadaniels2964]

This really resonated with me. I was talking to my fiance today about my anxiety disorder. I told him that it's always there and there's not really anything I can do to stop it. But, I have techniques to dull it and tune it out which is exactly what you are talking about. It is nice to hear that I am not alone.

[@ForagingGardener]

this is the only video that has actually helped me. thank you. so. much.

[@martabujdoso291]

Thank you very much, this was exactly what I needed right now! I'm in the last year of university and currently working on my thesis. The deadline is getting closer and closer, but since I'm having one of those really gloomy periods of my life, I just keep putting it off, no matter how much I love my chosen topic. You inspire me to stop being so hard on myself and just do things one step at a time. And I couldn't possibly tell you how thankful I am for this! ❤️

[@lindseymushall4154]

Oh my dear Cheyenne, I know this feeling all too well. I really liked what you said about not waiting until everything is perfect to start. I really struggle with that. I have this sign I made that reads Remember Why You Started. It helps me remember the feelings and reasons I had when I started drawing and painting in the first place, it's something I need to constantly remind myself of. Just wanted to say thanks for being so open and vulnerable in your videos, they are so helpful

[@lizzylizzy744]

Never feel so much related. Thanks for sharing. It helps me to think about a text a dutch singer sings, translated its like: fear is but for a moment, regret is forever. And that’s so true! Hold on, better days will come (with a little help of somebody...)

[@WiseSkies144]

I have to accept that there's nothing I can do to help you directly - much as I would love to! Even if I was standing in front of you, all I could do is hold you and tell you it's all going to be alright. But your life is your own reality and that comes from you're own thoughts- what we think is everything! But I want you to know it really does get better! I'm sending you lots of love and positive vibes across the miles. Mike dooley has a great phrase. He says " Thoughts become things so think the good ones"! In this example it's your experience but same thing. Cheyenne, you are in my good thoughts. Big hug sweetie xx

[@jentlejd]

I go through this very often. I run, journal and do yoga to help. Lists help to not forget things. I also give myself a day of laziness. I've learned to let go. I feel the more controlling of my environment, the higher my anxiety is. I've had to learn to let go.

[@sarabowen1D]

girl I feel ya!!! I'm doing real good now though & sending good vibes your way. your videos make me feel so calm & reflective ❤️. luv from the netherlands xxx

[@natasharedmane]

I'm so glad I found your channel! I'm going through a very similar situation, I relate so much to this feeling and it's so tiring. I didn't watch your other videos yet, I'm a little scared that it might worse my thought spiral (I'm caught up on it right now and can't get out), but I really want to watch them. I made my first video talking about how shitty things are and how I want to change things too (I'm assuming you've made this decision too, I'll find out as soon as I watch the other videos). I spent 2 months making it because I'm caught in the thought spirals of "it'll be shit, why bother". I don't even know why I'm telling you this, I guess it helps me cope. Anyway, I've subscribed and I hope you'll get better.

[@madfitzsaez]

I dont have answers, struggling with a lot of the same things, continue being transparent, I think you'll take comfort in knowing so many others feel the way you do, you have such a passion to help others that I think knowing how NOT alone you are, you will push to find answers for others and that will blend into your own habits. You got this.

[@decrescendo423]

Thank you for always being so real and opening up such a tender part to us!

[@morganlee4423]

I have a lot of anxiety and I feel you. I’ve definitely experienced everything you talked about. I’ve been taking medication and it helps with my OCD and my anxiety.

[@gabbynicole4851]

you're absolutely amazing. i believe in you and everything that you do every day. i know you will get through this, just keep fighting !

[@mayicka11]

Omg you put perfectly on words what I feel like when I have anxiety

[@eyraluna]

Yaaaaay, I think the same way it helped me a lot to think like this "do it with what you have" and that's how I started 3 years ago with my venture, in my room and I'm going little by little. I'm still in my room but I keep trying and believing, I love that you talk about mental health, it's so important. thanks chey!!!! I'm catching up on vlogs because I met you ago and I always like to catch up, mania. Greetings from another artist from Spain💌🐞

[@valentinabunnell1862]

Omg when you described the feeling in your chest I literally said SAME out loud, it's so nice to hear someone else feels the same way I do wow

[@Charikleia147]

I relate to everything you are going through right now, and I wanted to just let you know that you are not alone, you are awesome, and these videos help more than just you. :)

[@myhdify]

i've had this thing where your chest gets tight and its hard to breath since i was like 4/5 years old and it's something i never really understood why and i've knew anyone else who has it. usually i don't feel fear, just really lonely. i'm thankful that you share your feelings, it's good to know that i'm not alone. i wish you the best, always.

[@briarchambliss]

I'm glad there's someone else who relates to that anxiety tight pain thing in your chest you get. I'm happy you're getting things back on track chey 💕

[@lochtessmonsterxoxo]

I'm having an anxiety relapse, too. I went to urgent care because of it yesterday, which I'd never done before, and it reminded me how real it is that this is an actual thing my brain does, not my spirit. It isn't ME. I can be gentle with myself and take care of myself, instead of blaming myself. I'm asking for deep peace for the both of us. ALSO, I know you like podcasts and one I've really been grateful for lately is The Next Right Thing. It's around 12 minutes of the wonderful and warm Emily P. Freeman reminding you to be gentle with yourself, to listen to the kind and truthful voices, to be brave as well as wise, all in the realm of making choices big and small. It's sometimes from a Christian perspective, always very grace-filled. It helps calm me down sometimes

[@sageffect3747]

You're so lovely. :(((( anyways I feel ya!! I have always been of that mindset that I have to wait til its right, then it will be perfect...so I forced myself to start journaling again two days before Feb, and have been pretty consistent ever since. Last week I forced myself to write, and finished a fic in two days that was like, over my 5,000 word goal. And then today I forced myself to art, and I've been messing around with paints and watercolours and AHHH IT FEELS SO GOOD but yea, always scared. I'm literally scared and anxious from the moment I drift awake to the moment I drift asleep. Its horrible, but I'm slowly, trying, and not always perfectly being more kind to myself. I wish you luck with your commissions, and I'm gonna head back to my paintings and pray I have the courage to job hunt tomorrow ajsfhsjdfds

[@creamsoda9334]

For the past year or so I've been working on myself, and the motto I have chosen is, every step is a step forward. One is always more than zero. One page is more than zero, one minute is more than zero, one pushup is more than zero... It's great to see you continue to move forward, great to see you around again in general!

[@alisiafedrighi3287]

I'm italian, so my english isn't good, sorry, but I have to tell you that this video helps me A LOT, because I always feel alone with my feelings, and while you're talking in this video i feel so close to you, I just want to thank you for sharing your experience, you make me feel less alone, and I'm so much more motivated to face my fears. Hug ^_^

[@atrisha5179]

Its true, the most important thing to do is to stay mindful. Because sometimes the future and the past haunts me so much that i stop living and doing what I need to do.

[@sasukecooper]

yeeeeess!! you're doing this!! hoping for a video on 17th march BECAUSE THAT'S MY BIRTHDAY oh i love march so much

[@r-evolve]

Thank you for these little talks. I'm not sure if they're meant for you or us as your audience (lol) but I feel like they're just for me. I feel you're saying everything I want to tell myself, but it's helpful to hear it from someone else :)

[@kylajacobs6497]

I have never related to anything so much

[@nastja3294]

!!

[@thislovelylife23]

You got this! Even if you broke down after the video, it's nice to see you fighting each day to feel better!

[@katiedavies4847]

I relate to this so much and just your thoughts have helped me so thank you ❤️

[@PsychologyandChillwMichi]

Great job with your artwork! It's awesome people are paying you to do artwork, you deserve it! You are a beautiful, strong human being and the fact you are getting anxiety only proves that further - The universe (or God, whichever you believe) only supplies you with challenges it thinks you can handle! You can handle whatever life throws at you because it will never throw to much!

[@catiestilinski]

the lighting is so good!!!

[@lionesskathyok4557]

shit idk why it helps, but seeing how you also struggle with things like this on a daily basis helps so much - because sometimes it’s so hard to do the smallest things and you feel uncapable and wonder why it’s so easy for some other people. but you talk about it in a great way and make me feel hopeful so thank you?? so much?.

[@SarahSwanni]

Omg I'm like you. Can't do anything when I have anxiety and I DO NOTHING, cause I want everything I do to be perfect.... But I can't, no one can...

[@mckinley172]

This video is right what I needed right now, thank you :)

[@panda839578567659610]

heckity hack this is actually the kind of stuff i needed to hear at this exact moment in time so like im very happy u made this thank u sm

[@TheBopper16]

Needed this reminder today 💛

[@LeafLaneStudio]

Hey lovely, I soooo relate! Especially with the whole ‘everything’s got to be just so’ in order to work thing. I’m also working on that! Sending you heaps of love from over the pond (I’m in the U.K.) xxxx

[@asparkofcolor]

“I can only drink so much tea” is so relatable omg

[@pahamabg5312]

I wish you the best of luck Cheyenne

[@GiovannaVictoriaMakeup]

for some reason this video made me feel a bit anxious :((( but nonetheless thank you for sharing and opening up chey! thank you for inspiring me to create and try to better myself ❤️

[@nikolettsipos1387]

Oh, girl. I've just found your channel yesterday and gosh we should be friends. I have anxiety and I usually feel like fdsbdjksfbdksf (exactly like that.). Once again, I decided I will find my new normal, I've started therapy with a new psychologist and I got into bullet journaling. And I found your lovely channel. This will be perfect.

[@taz1165]

You know what Chey, you are doing okay. You are alive, well and amazing. Don’t forget that x

[@september9005]

I relate to this so much right now as a 26 year old who feels more angsty and existential than 10 years ago. keep at it x

[@misaandcoart]

I also suffer from mental illness and you inspire me to push through the terrible space I find myself in right now and make things happen. 💕

[@RACHA]

So excited for vedim :) Thank you for making this. One day at a time

[@bekee]

anxiety can stem from gut health (or unhealth, rather). when i was going through severe panic attacks, the only thing that would help was making myself burp. i'm not a doctor, but you may want to look into various elimination diets to see if there's anything preventing healthy gut flora. tbh, drinking a half bottle of kombucha a day basically cured me.

[@fannyberg5869]

wow i didn’t expect that word in swedish haha. but very nice and honest video, i think you’re very brave to post things like this

[@mariellyszetino4376]

another video 😱 you’re lovely💛

[@Modrinkscoffee]

My dearest Cheyenne! This is my secret for you: therapy ❤️ I love meditation and mindfulness, I love decluttering and self development, but with a disorder it can only bring you so far. It can really help you, but what counts, I think, is to understand what is really going on with yourself, where your fear comes from, and why you are under such pressure all the time, pressure, that scares you like hell and that comes from yourself. Not allowing oneself to be just good or just okay or even bad. I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder since all my life. And finally I think I can see a new normal. It's still a long way to go but duh, nevertheless, there is a visible way to go laid down in front of me and no more fishing in the darkness for some magical way out and there is someone to reach for me now in case I don't see the way anymore. It really means all the difference not to do all of this alone anymore. I would love to talk to you about it, because well, I feel you and I like you and I want to share my not so secret secret with you :). Because I believe in it and I just know those thoughts and wishes you're having. I care. I really do and I think of you. You are amazing. And there is a way, I promise ❤️

[@WhaleTank]

You're doing it!! WooHoo. You get it girl!!! We will catch you if you fall, don't be scared!

[@fleetingpetunias]

I'm running hella late for my class right now and we're supposed to get our mid-term results today, add that to the week I've ended up having, my anxiety has returned more vicious than ever. This morning I was a nervous wreck and when I noticed you had uploaded a video, I thought to myself 'man I should really watch it before I leave' because you always help calm me down. And oh boy am I glad I did that because now I feel a little less scared to go out into the world (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

[@mariandreepelayo4570]

Ánimo eres una chica genial y tú puedes hacer lo que más te inspira

[@osiyoevfarms7161]

Mindful Transformation - my phrase for 2018

[@SarahBurn7]

You're such and inspiration

[@lizludchak580]

Hang in there Cheyenne, many of us are on this ride with you too.

[@nataliamatiasalmanzar6362]

Hi Cheyenne! I know what you feel, I feel it almost everyday. My advice is that you don't have to control everything, you don't have to work that hard in your feelings and your anxiety. Once they come try praying to God, tell him how you feel, and what you feel. I am pretty sure after that you are going to feel much better. ❤

[@mollymumford2850]

du är fantastisk.

[@notjustalyssa]

I'm not sure if you've read them already but I highly recommend picking up The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer and Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert! Absolute soul-full reads

[@senordoctorprofesorpatrici9866]

"Our dreams will break the boundaries of our fears." - Brandon Flowers, "Crossfire"

[@user-zi4xg8oh1y]

you're doing great. we'll get through this together

[@constancemangione1055]

Meditation is a powerful tool. Coping skills take time. Find a scent that soothes you and start to use it in a diffuser or mix with pure almond oil to rub into your pressure points. Young folks have it much harder than we did growing up. The constant "change" of everything surrounding you, has placed huge stress on your generation. Security is weakened, money is tight and pressures to perform are at their highest. Mindfulness and meditation to become one with yourself. Continue to share, there are many who understand what you are going through and many you can touch to help them on their path, knowing the struggle is real.

[@megolson9888]

If you have and iPhone, the Calm app is absolute GOLD. It has a meditation timer and what's called a breathing bubble. It helps you regulate your breathing. *hugs**hugs* You can do this hon. I'm rooting for you.

[@alessm2206]

It is also on Androids too!

[@awesameow]

Hi cheyanne! Yoga helps me a lot. Mindful movement and deep breathing. We are very similar. I experience anxiety often. I am gonna link you my favorite meditation. ❤

[@awesameow]

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[@m.winterwood5817]

i am reading One Small Step Can Change Your Life: The Kaizen Way and 8 Minute Meditation and its slowly getting me out of my depression. Meditation especially. I didnt do 8 minutes but made it to 3 minutes so far

[@onepandella5702]

One thing i recommend is meditation. Lately ive been bad with keeping up with it 🎉 but it really does add a sense of calmess to my life. I recommend headspace if you wanna try it out :) stay strong lovely 💕

[@queenme6086]

hi how are you I just finished my coffee and set with coffee and KZbin so click to your video hope you feel well right now, so when you talk about bad winter same and you feel like you losing your self with bad time but god save you with little things right? like sunlight a good video with honest

[@TSW168]

Have you thought about the Kaizen method? I heard about it in "the art of manliness podcast" they have a good episode: THE KAIZEN METHOD- GET 1% BETTER EVERYDAY

[@eliseb8396]

Not related but you give me really strong Dodie Clark vibes You're so sweet and stuff, ilu

[@amandalyndorner]

I would love nothing more than to sit in a coffee shop with you for hours and just talk.

[@cheyennebarton]

modestmermaid careful what you wish for, i really truly do not shut up sometimes lolol

[@amandalyndorner]

cheyenne barton I’m a good listener ♥️

[@nastja3294]

❤️

[@jessicalewellen3345]

These signs and symptoms sound more like ADD or ADHD than anything else. ADHD looks like anxiety, depression, and obsessive compulsive thinking in women. That need for perfection before you can start a project, inability to concentrate on the project at hand, and ruminating on the negative are all common signs.

[@oyuna68]

You're so beautiful!!!