One of the darkest times in my addiction. (Alcoholism)

[@aubreyplazasuncle]

4 months is huge

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you so much 🙏!!!

[@jeff67788]

Yes!!!

[@laraoneal7284]

@@Slayer-7373. Yes that is great. I know you will be successful at permanently staying sober. God bless you. You’re an intelligent self aware young man. Don’t count on anyone that drank with u as a friend. They’re not ur friend. They are DRINKING BUDDIES period.

[@richardselfridge2926]

I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. The 21st of June I will celebrate 19 years. You should be very proud, my friend because we are warriors. I read somewhere once that recovery doesn't unlock the gates of Heaven and let us in. It unlocks the gates of Hell and lets us out. My unsolicited advice is something that has gotten me through rough patches and it is simply this.NEVER, NEVER BECOME UNGRATEFUL. Once again be strong, be proud, remain grateful and humble🙏❤

[@Micru866]

Beautiful said, congratulations on your sobriety.

[@richardselfridge2926]

Thank you.❤🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

As micru said, super awesome advice my friend. Thank you so much 🙏🙏

[@amandaflaherty7528]

That is amazing, Richard!! And some sage advice there, too 😊

[@StacyNichole224]

This was interesting to hear i like hearing about other peoples stories. Not gonna lie I’ve been really stressing out about relapsing because I’m so depressed and stressed out and I’m trying to do things so distract myself till the feeling passes. Over 15 years of this crap for me and sometimes I’m just so tired of it. I usually don’t listen to other peoples stories Iike this because i don’t like to think about all the stuff I’ve had to go through to get where i am today but i think that’s maybe why i came across your channel. I think this was gods way of reminding me there are so many people out there that have gone through the same thing as me and that im not alone. I think a major problem for me is i moved 5 thousand miles away from where i grew up and i relapsed when i moved out here but have been sober for a year now but i don’t talk to anyone I’m a complete hermit which i do like it that way but sometimes it gets hard. I have complex PTSD and struggle with bipolar and i have a hard time leaving my house but I’ve always been like this. But coming across your channel brought me a sort of comfort and reminded me I’m not alone so thanks I appreciate it.

[@Slayer-7373]

This is exactly why I created this channel, comments like these show me why I’m doing this KZbin thing. I’m happy/glad these videos are helping you! We’ve gotta have each others back in this, I can relate to most of what you said. I’m gonna send a prayer your way, remember it’s one day at a time, 🙏

[@SquireNotesMusic]

You are not alone keep watching these videos and stay strong and sober it’s the best step to take for yourself and to heal your brain, the struggle is real…

[@amandaflaherty7528]

@SquireNotesMusic Stacy!! I'm so glad I read through these comments today. I'm sorry for what you're going through, but you are absolutely not alone. Most of us watching have lived parallel lives and/or had similar experiences. If you want friends and support, then you're in the right place. Big time congratulations on 1 year. You should be so proud of yourself. ❤️🙏❤️

[@StacyNichole224]

@@amandaflaherty7528 thanks so much that means a lot. All the nice comments here means a lot to me ❤️

[@amandaflaherty7528]

@StacyNichole224 of course, friend. I hope you have a great night. 💞

[@amandaflaherty7528]

I had a similar experience in that I lost a relationship of almost 10 years from my drinking. Both you and LD had mentioned that you had an almost Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde scenario going on with your personality, and I can totally relate. I behaved in ways that I could never imagine now, I was disrespectful in ways I can't presently imagine and I said come things that I'm so ashamed of. I received unnecessary injuries during my nightmare and I lived a life that's now so foreign to me. It was a complete and total nightmare. I'm so glad that we woke up from it. I am so proud of you for not only 4 months of sobriety, but for obtaining it by wanting it for yourself. If ever you find yourself struggling, take a look at your own testimonial, because it's so inspiring, friend!! We've got this! Keep walking that path! Thanks for keeping me company on mine!! 🙏💖

[@Slayer-7373]

Oh absolutely, I was definitely dr Jekyll mr Hyde. Polar opposites of each other. I did things said things when I was drinking that I’m beyond ashamed and embarrassed about, so I totally understand where you’re coming from. If you wouldn’t mind me asking how much sobriety do you have under your belt? If you don’t feel like saying I understand. Again I can’t say enough how awesome these comments are 🙏🙏 thank you so much.

[@jeff67788]

Cool comment 👍.

[@amandaflaherty7528]

@Slayer-7373 i don't mind sharing! I wasn't keeping track, so I thought it was about 2 years, but it's been 1 year and 9 months for me. I had a few slip ups within that. (4, but who's counting? 😅) I immediately moved on every time, though, and didn't dwell on it. My heavy drinking career was 10 years, so I still feel like a toddler in all this. Haha it's been a crazy ride since then, but even my hardest day is 10x better than my easiest day drinking.

[@amandaflaherty7528]

@jeff67788 thanks Jeff, hope you're having a good day 😊

[@Slayer-7373]

@@amandaflaherty7528 wow, good for you!!! That is awesome 💪💪 that makes me proud, I know how hard this disease is. You’re so right as well, it’s hard to remember in the moment sometimes but life really is better out of that hellish cycle. It’s one day at a time. 🙏🙏 thanks again Amanda!

[@lukebrown7340]

What a great video I think I have mentioned to you before but you have a gift and I believe it's laws of attraction and that is a real thing You are living it you are a living testimony The Lord is speaking to you and you are going through this journey on HIS strength We are try to do it on our own strength and we always fail. Until we find a community that is healthy minded even if you're still struggling you're still trying to go the right direction It doesn't matter that's what this channel is about that's what this community is about online and in your real life Thank you Slayer! ✌🏻

[@Slayer-7373]

🙌🏻🙌🏻 epic, amazing comment brother. Thank you so much, this is 100% a community, we are all in this together. On this journey, on this quest. One day at a time. God bless man 🙏🙏💪💪

[@Redsnapper123]

Heavy man 🧍‍♂️. I am on my second day sober.

[@Slayer-7373]

Yes, also hey!! That’s awesome!! 2 days sober amazing, we all start somewhere. Please keep up the good work my friend!! Thank you!! 🙏

[@Jimlifts1]

Dude, you're killin it

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you my friend!! 🙏

[@CraigFox-lt6lt]

Very REAL..how it REALLY is as a DESTROYER!! The Clips were a good addition!! Your PASSION and CONVICTION bleed through with PERSUASIVE POWER and ARDOR!! WELL DONE!!!!!!.....YOU are a FORCE!!! ⛈️ l 🌩 🌪 🌀 🌪 😨 💪

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you so much brother 🙏💪🙌🏻!!!!

[@jeff8ball]

Thanks for your honesty. 4 years sober here. What has helped me get and stay sober was seeking help and then keeping connected to other alcoholics. We understand each other through our experiences. Many of our drinking stories are so similar, it showed me I'm not alone. My life now is peaceful, content, and has meaning. When I was drinking my life was out of control. I'm still finding who I am and coming to terms of why I drank. Peace 🌺

[@Slayer-7373]

Congratulations on 4 years my friend 🙏🙏

[@jeff67788]

Shout out to you slayer!!! You’re such a cool dude. Thanks for sharing these experiences and being awareness alcoholism! 🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

Much love brother 🙏

[@jeff67788]

Slayer wow man. I just finished the video and wanted to say this might be your best video yet. Hit home for me man. Thank you for these videos 👍

[@SquireNotesMusic]

Slayer you’re doing good now keep sharing and understand you are still maturing and just think about LD and the rest of us out here going through or went through the same stuff if not more, your brain will heal in due time. You are destined for great success I can see it a in you.

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you so much brother!!! I appreciate that more than you know. 🙏 also you’re so right, I need to keep LD and yourself in my mind whenever I think about going back to that poison. It would be fate eventually to have liver disease, you play by the fire you get burnt. LD has inspired me to stay sober he really has. Again thanks brother 🙏🙌🏻

[@jeff67788]

Exactly what this man said slayer!! You’re doing great things man! Keep it up!

[@archangel_josh]

Thanks for the flash back clips - your face is crazy! You look so much better now! It's almost like a different person. I was lucky that I didn't have the face bloat, but my wife did and you're right that you don't notice it until you get sober and the difference between her now and then, again, is like a different person.

[@Slayer-7373]

I know right brother??? Looking back it’s terrifying. I really had no clue. One day I looked back and saw my face and my jaw dropped. It shows how damaging that alcohol really is to our bodies and minds. Thank you for the comment my friend 🙏🙏 I’m glad you and your wife are sober. It’s the better life 🙌🏻

[@Micru866]

Hey Slayer, 😳 that’s some shi$%! I’m so glad you were able to crawl your way out. I know all about betrayal of a loved one but will say this and I don’t mean any disrespect. Any person that hooks up with someone close to you is not a person that is worthy of you. I believe you weren’t a good person to her and get that but it doesn’t justify her behavior. There’s millions of people in the world and she didn’t have to do that. But anyways it’s wild to see you at 14 mimicking ☠️ use. This was a very good video I appreciate how honest you always are and I did get chocked up seeing your emotions. You’re stronger than before and just keep focus on today. When the time is right, you’ll find your person. ❤ I hope you have a great day!

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey micru!!! I know right?! It’s pretty terrifying looking back. Also you’re absolutely so correct on what you just said about my ex. Thank you, thank you for actually telling it how it is. I wasn’t a good bf that last year and a half but like I said I didn’t deserve this and she doesn’t deserve me I guess. It’s one day at a time, this is an emotional process my friend. I got this video idea from you 🖤🙏 so again thank you so much. Micru you’re an awesome person, glad you’re here on this journey with me! 🙏 and yes 14 and doing them crazy jokes lol hope you have a great day as well!!! 🙌🏻

[@jeff67788]

Amen, amen, amen!!!! Say that again micru. Slayer those people don’t care about you man, you deserve people who will love and understand you. Micru said it perfect, she didn’t have to get with a loved one. That’s just so messed up

[@Micru866]

@@Slayer-7373it’s definitely therapeutic and you’re spot on it’s a process. But know you’re worthy of love, we all are. Thank you again for your kind words as well they mean a lot. 💜 ❤️‍🩹

[@Micru866]

@@jeff67788it really is and low blow. But karma is a mutha!

[@realmenistries2904]

Good job on allowing yourself to be vulnerable and sharing those videos. Obviously, what happened with your ex hurt you and you're still dealing with that. But I believe good can come from these things if we allow God to come in. So keep working on yourself and getting healthier in every way, and God will send you the right woman.

[@Slayer-7373]

I really appreciate this comment brother, thank you. 🙏 and amen to that. 🙌🏻

[@jeromesmith1662]

Will you please give some of the lessons you learned from rehab. Some of the little skills that help with not drinking. Thanks Slayer.

[@Slayer-7373]

I am planning on making an entire rehab, detox and AA video soon brother! Many people have been asking me for one. I will discuss what I’ve learned from all 3. I think you will really like it man. Thanks for the comment my friend 🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

Oh also brother I do have a video uploaded called “15 things that have helped me stay sober” I’m not sure if you’ve seen that one or not, so if you have forgive me, but that is definitely worth a watch and might help ! 🙏

[@chancesvision3649]

Great videos man, 1 month sober

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you brother! I appreciate that man, also what?! Congratulations man!!! 1 month is huge. Keep doing what you’re doing because it’s working. Keep me updated brother 🙏

[@amandaflaherty7528]

Amazing job on 1 month!! I bet you're feeling all the benefits of quitting by now. First thing for me was regaining energy and my appetite 😊 wishing you the best!

[@gloriayoung392]

Agonizing spot on thanks for sharing✌🙏

[@Slayer-7373]

It’s the perfect word for that state of being, don’t wish it on my worst enemy. Thanks for your comment 🙏!

[@andreflavell3453]

she is on her 3 week at rehab bro . she finds it hard . but a update as i said i would. keep going my friend we all need you

[@Slayer-7373]

3 weeks is incredible man!!! Weeks turn to months!! Tell her she’s doing fantastic and to keep going!!! 🙏🙏 that is awesome, keep my updated my friend! I will keep uploading trust me ! 🙏

[@lukebrown7340]

You are doing an amazing job holding your tongue and not cussing so much 👌🏻✌🏻🙌🏻

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you for noticing !! 😂, I have been checking myself.

[@jeff67788]

I noticed this as well!! Good job slayer! 🙏

[@i-love-an-alcoholic]

This was a very powerful video. I hope that you and other people who talk about the harsh and ugly reality of alcohol addiction gain more visibility and reach as many people as possible. The truth needs to get out there.

[@Slayer-7373]

Absolutely, that’s why I started this whole channel, to get this message out to as many as possible and to spread awareness about alcohol. So many people grow up not knowing the truth about alcohol, even I did and I was surrounded by alcoholics. I never truly knew how bad it could get till I was in that disaster myself. Also now talking to so many people and seeing how many this disease affects it’s just insane. Thank you so much for your comment, I always appreciate seeing you in the comments my friend 🙏🙏

[@i-love-an-alcoholic]

@@Slayer-7373 I'm happy to hear that ☺️. I feel like (as a former addict) it's my duty to help others, even though all I can offer is words

[@GraceAn3]

But like the Phoenix, you are rising from the ashes.

[@Slayer-7373]

🙌🏻🙌🏻

[@CMoore8539]

Liked and shared out.❤ Great Video Slayer!!

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you!! 🙏

[@kathrynminnick8986]

I hope you can overcome your regret about your ex. Seems like that regret still eats at you. On one level, life is about letting things go and being open to new things coming to replace what’s gone. As long as you stay sober, I’m sure many good new things and people will fill your life.

[@jeff67788]

I sent slayer a message on instagram telling him this. I can see the pain in his eyes is still there. Being an older guy i feel real bad for him. It’s like you said being sober opens up new opportunities. He seems like a good guy he will find someone

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you so much 🙏, I’m definitely still healing. I think the regret does still get to me some, it gets better each day that I stay sober. I think everything will work out as long as I do the right thing. 🖤 thank you for the comment 🙌🏻

[@onlyme7308]

Sobering up is so agonising. I have so much fear about how that felt, it spurs me to carry on my journey. I sobered up 29th Dec 2017 and I never ever want to feel that sketchy, jumpy, sweaty, palpitations, paranoia, hideous dreams, crap sleep, restlessness, spiders in the carpets, feeling of impending doom, evil being present feeling ever again. 🙏🏽. Thanks for sharing. It’s invaluable.

[@Slayer-7373]

@@onlyme7308 you’re 100% right. Keep going strong my friend.

[@Phishyification]

the dreams are the worst, hard for me to tell the line between reality and nightmare in early detox

[@Slayer-7373]

@@Phishyification absolute hell!

[@HCookingMiles]

Thank you so much for your transparency and honesty, these videos really help me out. Congrats on 4 months man you are killing it. Coming up on 10 months for myself this month, much love❤❤

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you so much, comments like these help me just as much as the videos help you. It makes me extremely happy to see these videos are helping others 🖤🙏 also congratulations on 10 months!!!!! That is absolutely amazing! I can’t wait to have 10 months under my belt, almost a year!!! That’s awesome. One day at a time! 🙏

[@amandaflaherty7528]

Amazing job with 10 months!! 🎉🎊🎉

[@evanp6987]

You mentioned still healing from the emotional turmoil of what happened with your ex. I just wanted to acknowledge that healing becomes much easier when you're not in the bottle. Physically, mentally, emotionally. Alcohol just keeps us in arrested development. Congrats on 4 months and keep it up.

[@Slayer-7373]

Great point and advice brother, I really appreciate that. You are so right as well, I feel for the first time in years I’m actually facing my emotions and demons, it’s been hard but very therapeutic 🙏

[@skadude113]

You made a great point when you said you didnt realize just how bad it was until you were sober and looking back. I've done the same... overweight, unhealthy, looked so tired all the time, so argumentative... It's really crazy how for some, and me, it can go from drinking with friends and having fun, to drinking bottles of liquor in your room alone, then wake up and drink more into the day making excuses like its the weekend or things like that. When my ex girlfriend and I broke up we remained very close and when she went to the hospital for drinking, showing symptoms of sepsis, I went to visit, I remember trying my hardest to be strong and give her support but by the time I went downstairs where they have that dimly lit quiet room, I cried by myself. I knew that not only was I worried for her but myself as well, that I was headed there if I didn't stop either. It took a few tries to gain traction and those withdrawal symptoms were some of the scariest nights of my life but I am on the other side of that dark tunnel and there is not a single reason I'd go back. Thank you for sharing your story and continuing to offer your advice, congratulations on your sobriety and heres to many more years!

[@Slayer-7373]

Congratulations on your sobriety my friend, thank you for sharing your story. God bless you, like you said many more years to come!

[@mattsniper362]

You are a very clever and articulate guy with a lot of potential. I know so many alcoholics who are. I wish you all the best. Please dont let booze drag you down. If you cant keep it to the occsional binge on a friday or saturday once a month then its not worth it.

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey thank you Matt. I appreciate that brother, I’ve gotta be done once and for all. 🙏

[@mattsniper362]

@ Yeah me too man. I’ve managed to tone down the benders and keep it to a twice a week. But even if not everyday, everytime I drink I get blasted, I get cocaine and ketamine and stay up all night. It’s horrible. I’m getting liver pains and my mental health has tanked. You don’t even need to drink everyday for this to be a problem. I’m joining you on this journey Slayer. Let’s do this together please.

[@Kristen10-22]

Thanks Slay for the warning

[@MonaYY_Rig]

Slayer. Congrats on 4 months sober. Do you know how huge that is? 🎉. Listen to the song by Queensryche called The needle Lies 💟‼️ hugs, Mona

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you so much!!! It’s gigantic!! 2 more months will make half a year!! I will check that song out as well! 🙏 thanks again.

[@deleriumslayer4931]

Thanks for the videos brother! Im 35 y.o and 6 months strong 💪.

[@Slayer-7373]

That’s what’s fkin up brother!!!! Congratulations on 6 months!!! That is huge!!! Also, I like the name ;). One day at a time my friend 💪💯

[@Plan-C]

Don't wish to speak out of turn but it sounds to me that with friends like that you don't need enemies. You don't need people who kick you when you are down. Focus on healing.

[@Slayer-7373]

You are so right. 🙏

[@OBCDisBAD]

Dude you are not alone. GF left me also due to drinking. These low points are such wake up calls. We can recover.

[@Slayer-7373]

🙏🖤

[@lauramangan3441]

4 months is huge! I cant even go more than 4 days! Im hoping to be like you! Keep it up! 💯

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey it’s okay, I was like that for many years. I couldn’t go longer than 2-3 days before I’d be right back at it. You saying you hope to have 4 months one day means your mind is in the right place. It starts with realizing you have a problem. I wish you nothing but the best in your journey!!! Please keep me updated!! You have a place here! 💯🙏🏻

[@della3793]

With your honest stories, you are a great motivational help speaker.

[@Slayer-7373]

Awe thank you della, that’s awesome of you to say. 🙏

[@petergriffin680]

People often talk about their girlfriends or boyfriends leaving them because of their drinking, but I never had that problem. I usually drink because im lonely and the alcohol takes that lonely feeling away for a short while.

[@Slayer-7373]

I understand that brother. 🙏

[@DanealLamb]

I also used alcohol because of loneliness. I am sober a year,realize alcohol is not my friend,but a enemy trying to destroy me. Feel so much better,lost 30 lbs. Sleep better,clear mind. Thanking God for my sobriety.

[@bat3072]

If your girlfriend leaves you because of an alcohol problem, you check into rehab and she still won’t talk to you, she left for another compelling reason as well. Perhaps anger management or something along those lines?

[@Slayer-7373]

She left because she fell in love with another dude, a dude I know very well. That’s why she won’t talk to me anymore 🤷🏻‍♂️

[@robinsmith4958]

Excellent on 4 months!!!! Keep going!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉❤

[@Slayer-7373]

2 months now robin, I had a slip unfortunately but I’m back pushing strong. Much love 🙏

[@robinsmith4958]

@@Slayer-7373 It’s okay, just keep going. You still have those 4 months and now you have 2 more!

[@Slayer-7373]

@@robinsmith4958 🙏🖤 will do. Thank you

[@travisclymer4481]

Staying sober day after day, year after year is unbearable sooner or later. Since I got back on the Methadone clinic, my anxiety is managed and I don’t drink/use anymore. It’s worth the sacrifice to be on clinic.

[@Slayer-7373]

That’s awesome man 🙌, maybe w33d could be a good alternative to booze? What do you think. Many people do this I’m kind of in the middle with it.

[@Thagy1973]

You are looking so much better compared to those old videos man! I dont even know you irl but Im proud of you man....keep it up bro you are doing awesome!!

[@Slayer-7373]

Thank you brother I appreciate that man, one day at a time. 🙏

[@PWRDOUBLEB]

Im trying to get sober ive been feeling like im dieing eceey day then I drink puke sleep and do it all over again day after day i want my life back

[@laraoneal7284]

OMG so much all at one time. I’ve had foot injuries but nothing like u experienced. That is horrific. I’m so sorry you went thru that. Ur certainly finding out who ur friends ARE NOT. How is ur foot doing now❓. No surgery I hope.

[@ryanhumphrey5821]

Thanks for posting! Alcohol sucks.

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey thank you Ryan!!! Also yes it does suck!!! It’s the worse!!

[@SavingSoulsMinistries]

we have such similar testimonies bro. but it was a long time best friend who tried to hook up with my ex over a disagreement. my ex and i were'nt even talking at the time but she called me up and let me know whats up. i dated her for 8 years. she was with me through thick and thin until i suggested we try celibacy for a bit and see how it goes. she was gone within a month and i never saw her again. all while i just started reading the bible working as a public adjuster in South FL going door to door in the hood. my DOC at this time was delsym cough syrup. i never was a bad drinker until 27 years old and all this happened when i was 24 tho! God has a funny way of getting rid of the people who dont love you with that Agape all encompassing love

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey brother, you should send me an email [e-mail]. I wouldn’t mind talking to you since our stories are similar. Someone to relate to, 🙏god bless

[@ShadesOClarity]

Checking out some of your older videos. My latest one has some explicit descriptions of my most awful drunk experience. You did have a big 'ole moon face. I kind of had the same thing happen with my ex-girl. I heard she was calling my folks all drunk. Meanwhile, I was in detox wondering what was going on the outside. You talk about the most hopeless, helpless and lonely feeling. It sucks. Our phones were taken away. We couldn't even call anyone until we had been there four days. We had no TVs in the detox unit.

[@Mr.character.shuaib2]

I’ve been on and off with alcohol but on June 19 4 days ago relapsed and I’m already up to 10 drinks a day almost. What do I do nobody believes I’m an alcoholic

[@Slayer-7373]

You do whatever it takes brother, if you need medical detox I would go to be safe. If you can do it at home cool but then maybe start going to AA, goto counseling, write a journal on your addiction. Show people that you are serious about being an alcoholic. I honestly find it crazy when people don’t believe us when we tell them point blank that we are alcoholics. Sometimes they really have to see to believe. Please be safe, alcohol leads nowhere but pain and emptiness. Possibly even death, reclaim your life back again you’ve done it before which means you have it inside you brother. Keep me updated please 🙏🙏

[@Mr.character.shuaib2]

@@Slayer-7373 I’ll keep you updated I’ve been involved with several drugs including fentanyl a few times. Alcohol kicked me back because I have no money and it’s everywhere so why not steal and that’s just lead up to this so I’m real scared to tell my mom that I’m stealing but at this point I’m just scared of hallucinating from all the alcohol usage.

[@whocares4464]

Man i want to get back into the restaurant business because i love it, I'm good at it and the money is pretty good but the amount of alcohol and drug abuse in that industry is insane!!!

[@whocares4464]

Man alcohol withdrawal is horrible man. I never seen stuff coming off of alcohol but the tremors, sweats, stomach aches and not being able to sleep was what hit me the hardest

[@Slayer-7373]

@@whocares4464 it’s absolutely awful.

[@Slayer-7373]

That’s what I’ve heard, it’s full of alcoholics and drug addicts. So just be careful!!

[@katherinedeleon4153]

I’m struggling very badly today. I need words of hope

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey Katherine I’m so sorry you’re struggling, PLEASE know you’re not alone!!! I know all so well how you feel right now, I’m struggling too I know how it feels but guess what? We will push through the struggle and over come it and become stronger individuals for it. You are worth more than that substance, it’s a trap!!! It will not bring you happiness it’s a short high for a super long low. God has your back, lord help Katherine please lord. She’s struggling, that demon is on her back and she needs your help lord, I ask in Jesus name you renounce any unholy thoughts and you allow Katherine to overcome her struggles and pain. In Jesus name, amen. Remember that substance is poison and GARBAGE and you are awesome and special. Only one of you, keep your head up you got this. I believe in you, believe in yourself. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌 Keep me updated please!!

[@Dummy257]

A thought that came to me watching this : alcohol is entropy.

[@Slayer-7373]

Interesting, I’ll check it out my friend.

[@donc.123]

_Hope these vlogs help you and the people who see them. You may save a life you'll never know about._

[@Slayer-7373]

This is an awesome comment, they 100% help me brother and I hope so man I really do. That was the whole point I made this channel, to spread awareness about alcoholism and addiction and hopefully save lives. It really is one day at a time, thanks for the comment brother 🙏

[@jdion79]

Sheesh... looks like you got stung by a bee. That puffy face clip was wild.

[@Slayer-7373]

@@jdion79 yea man it was BAD!!! Looked like I stuck my face in a bee nest…… that’s booze for you though when you abuse it…. Not good at all.

[@laraoneal7284]

You dodged a bullet by her leaving you. It’s better to learn this now than marrying her & than finding out who she really is.

[@Slayer-7373]

Thanks Lara 🖤🙌

[@dexterfisher8481]

How did Dirk die?

[@Slayer-7373]

Morphine toxicity, I only say that because it’s public record now.

[@dexterfisher8481]

Wow damn, Od? I thought he was going clean,..

[@cute7g467]

Did you quit cold turkey?

[@Slayer-7373]

Went to a detox center, cold turkey is just too dangerous. At least for the amount that I was drinking. 🙏 thanks for the comment!

[@cute7g467]

@@Slayer-7373 what where you drinking??? I do appreciate your videos you are helping people !

[@Slayer-7373]

@@cute7g467 I was drinking southern comfort 100 proof, nasty stuff 🤢. But it got you drunk. Also thank you so much 🙏

[@cute7g467]

@@Slayer-7373 I’m gonna watch your videos when I’m tempted to get drunk

[@cute7g467]

@@Slayer-7373 thank you !

[@Kristen10-22]

I knew I was the one out of us 2 girls cousins to get cancer. 6 out of 7 cousins are addicts/alcoholics

[@Kristen10-22]

Slay can I ask without being too nosy your family structure as you grew up? Any traumatic event that you suffered? I think u know my story… Little bit of narcissism, corporal punishment & the like.

[@Slayer-7373]

Thanks for the comments Kristen!! Also yes, I plan to make a video on just that actually, because it’s a really deep and emotional conversation. 🙏🖤

[@Kristen10-22]

@@Slayer-7373 no rush !! 50 yrs later I’m still walking around being constantly triggered over things that happened decades ago. Over time I’d like to tell you they’ve lessened (after 13yrs of trauma therapy) However for me my inner child still reacts. If anyone has ever made you out to feel less than you are NOT! You’ve been fearfully & wonderfully made! ♥️

[@Kristen10-22]

@@Slayer-7373 I wouldn’t touch that pole or digging up those emotions until u have some more time under your belt. In the video the first clip did someone in your life “show u” or where did u learn that?

[@Slayer-7373]

@@Kristen10-22 I actually thought this, I’m going to be putting that subject to rest for a while. 🖤 thanks Kristen!

[@Kristen10-22]

@@Slayer-7373 I think that’s a really wise decision. Like u told me stay in the second. I’m trying to. Proud of ya bud

[@laraoneal7284]

REJECTION IS GOD’s PROTECTION.

[@Slayer-7373]

🖤🖤🙏🙏

[@laraoneal7284]

What was ur childhood like??

[@Slayer-7373]

I need to make an entire video on this 🙏🙏

[@stepha3003]

Hi friend, I felt so sad for you in the clip with you wandering around aimlessly -- I know you will kick ethanol in the nuts!! 💪💪

[@Slayer-7373]

Hey my friend!!! Thank you 🙏, it is sad looking back. Also yes I will continue to kick this thing in its a%#!!!!! Your guys comments have really helped.

[@stepha3003]

@@Slayer-7373 so glad we all can help each other! Thank you for being vulnerable and putting yourself out there -- you've no idea how much you are helping us out here, too!! Sending love and hope your way this weekend and beyond, we are all rooting for you!! I'm not sure what my journey is still, it's been a daily habit, though not a ton of wine but enough to start causing problems with my social life, so that was a wakeup call!

[@Slayer-7373]

@@stepha3003 🙏🖤y’all is why I do this. We are all on our own journeys, you will figure it out. This channel has done wonders for me and it makes me extremely happy to see it’s doing good for others too.

[@stepha3003]

@@Slayer-7373 thank you so much!!! I realized how much it truly started affecting my mental & physical health -- it truly is a poison and does not belong in the human body! Thinking of you, you got this!!! 💓🐛🦋

[@Slayer-7373]

@@stepha3003 spot on about the poison comment, thanks so much. Take care 🙏

[@josephmenna3985]

Bro my face got swollen too. And my abdomen

[@Slayer-7373]

Yes swollen everything!!

[@DATONEGAMER25]

Damn dude you looked like a different person.

[@Slayer-7373]

Ikr…….. scary looking back. 😳, alcohol is so damaging to our bodies.

[@DATONEGAMER25]

@@Slayer-7373 For real. There is not one benefit from drinking. It’s good for cleaning wounds but that’s about it.

[@nickmcdonald4888]

can confirm, the restaurant industry is a shitshow when it comes to substance abuse.

[@Slayer-7373]

Yes brother it definitely is!!

[@richardkerr6091]

The illness progresses over time body and mind when will power becomes nonexistent to control The delusion is for those who think they can still control it.

[@Slayer-7373]

Absolutely Richard, great way to put it.

[@richardkerr6091]

@@Slayer-7373 I arrived in this country 1987 from Uk my journey began in 1989 in A.A. when I learned the facts about myself, it just made sense. First step is about the body the second step it’s about the mind and the third step. It’s about the spirit treat the spirit then the mine will follow and the body will heal one day at a time.

[@Slayer-7373]

@@richardkerr6091 that’s pretty beautiful my friend, I have a lot of viewers from the UK which is awesome!!!

[@richardkerr6091]

@@Slayer-7373 I was born in Belfast. I grew up in a war lost my family when I was young. I was used as a child 2015. I told part of that story to channel 4 you can look it up. I am a survivor of the most crimes that were committedto me, my pass is become my acid to help others so will yours

[@40ozbeerbellydude]

At 22:32 i felt this fr..

[@Slayer-7373]

@@40ozbeerbellydude 🙏

[@philparisi9175]

You seem to blame her but not the other guy?

[@Slayer-7373]

Trust me I actually blame the other guy more than her. Knew him a lot longer than I knew her. Sorry for coming off that way! 😬

[@laraoneal7284]

Congratulations on ur time sober for now. In ur childhood you were set up for addiction. It kills me how ur parents/family take no responsibility for how they raised you.

[@baldersn4474]

Why do Yanks have silly nicknames ? 😂

[@Slayer-7373]

You’re right, my new nick name is “baldersn” from now on. 🙏

[@jeff67788]

Y’all crack me up 😂

[@Slayer-7373]

All in good fun lol, gotta learn to laugh.

[@baldersn4474]

@@Slayer-7373 I was , I was laughing at your nickname, ' Slayer..' 🤣 Well done on the 4 months sober though...Us that your gamer tag or something? I don't know I'm too old tbh...lol

[@Slayer-7373]

@@baldersn4474 it actually was my old gamer tag 😂, back in the halo days. You guessed right, nice. Also thank you brother, I appreciate that 💯

[@laraoneal7284]

You saw those things modeled for you. You had terrible role models it looks like. I’m sorry that u were exposed to adverse experiences.

[@Slayer-7373]

🙏🙏

[@PWRDOUBLEB]

Im trying to get sober ive been feeling like im dieing eceey day then I drink puke sleep and do it all over again day after day i want my life back