opening up about my toxic relationship...

[@BurritosPancakes]

just would like to say that your eyes.....that eyeliner.... it's so pretty

[@Violet-qt4dc]

we were all thinking it, but no one commented it. Now you will get the likes

[@BurritosPancakes]

@@Violet-qt4dc hehe

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you

[@Violet-qt4dc]

Diana Tavarez We LOVE YOU!!!

[@afallenangel6110]

@@DianaTavarez we all love you and just know that you well be in a beautiful relationship. You truly deserve the best

[@dariap.4122]

I was in a toxic relationship. I was mentally abused. I was physically abused. I was sexually abused. Now I'm fighting for a restraining order . No matter what - we have to remember that we are NOT ALONE.

[@DianaTavarez]

Proud of you! I know how hard it is ❤️

[@dariap.4122]

@@DianaTavarez I hope you will find your happiness ❤️

[@eldunari0291]

Daria P. i hope you get that restraining order. wishing you safety, security, and happiness ❤️

[@dariap.4122]

@@eldunari0291 thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️

[@eldunari0291]

Daria P. of course! good luck!! ❤️

[@umnia4316]

It’s so sad to me that you keep saying “when I got hurt”.... HE hurt you! The language we use is so telling and victims of intimate partner violence always find a way to place part of the blame on themselves. You did the right thing by getting him in trouble and there was nothing wrong with you causing him to treat you the way he did. He’s an abuser, he would have mistreated even the most perfect girl.

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you :/

[@emirayee]

Your vulnerability is incredible. You’re AMAZING and got through this. Sending you so much love

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you

[@chrisoliveras5488]

@@DianaTavarez help rutten and Angie are being mean to me

[@LisaFevral]

men being angry at their partners for getting in trouble bc of the things those men did is always such an infuriating part of these situations, like you're angry you didn't get to do this without repercussions? dont want repercussions? then don't hurt people.

[@LisaFevral]

sorry for like live commenting, Its just such a permanent issue for so many girls :(

[@DianaTavarez]

@@LisaFevral don't be sorry! it sucks

[@LisaFevral]

@@DianaTavarez I'm really glad you're out of it, all girls always deserve better

[@LisaFevral]

also lovebombing is the number on reason for young girls being in relationships like that, plus the media normalizing it for us :(

[@katie-yk1es]

Lisa Fevral I had never heard the term before and now that I’m aware of it, I can apply it to so many past relationships.... you’re right the media normalizes it. I think I looked for it.

[@Axb2774]

I was about to say the same thing. Movies, tv shows, etc all make these dudes seem like the “perfect guy” and I think it makes girls vulnerable, but also it gives manipulators a means to prey on young naive girls who don’t know better

[@LisaFevral]

guys I wish this was more talked about everywhere because that would help so many girls see the signs before they get caught in this web of dependancy, when we are young the first compliment and other things like that really get us. I wanna make a video about this bc so many of my friends got sucked into this at the age of 18, me - at 14, I got lucky though bc of moving away

[@Axb2774]

Lisa Fevral sane here, I got it at 14 with a 16 year old so there was a lot of freedom I probably shouldn’t have had. It was the first “real” thing I experienced and it totally warped the way I perceived relationships until I was an adult. You’re right, It can be really damaging and should be normalized as a red flag!!

[@LisaFevral]

Allie yeah the guy I had to deal with was 18 when I was 14, and everyone around me normalized it... it’s also a problem of adults never addressing their own issues to then help younger people to not be in the same place. Also these age gaps are SO common in this mess. One of my friends stopped being friends with everyone bc of her boyfriend that she started dating as soon as she turned 18, and he was 28.

[@MildExplosion]

"When you're wearing rose colored glasses, all the red flags just look like flags." you're not dumb for falling for his game. It's normal to want love and trust in people, this guy just took advantage of that because he's a sociopath douchebag. So glad you're out of it and sharing your story 💕

[@DianaTavarez]

Wow thank you for this.. 🥺 💖

[@MildExplosion]

@@DianaTavarez 💕💕💕

[@peasandmashedpotatoes6246]

wanda knew what was up

[@hails97751]

It broke my heart when you said “When I got hurt” .. Diana, he hurt you. He laid his hands on you. This is not your fault. You deserve the world and more.

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you for this.

[@hails97751]

Diana Tavarez ❤️❤️ anytime, Diana

[@brimo3384]

When you're in an abusive relationship you can develop those abusive tendencies as a form of protection. Forgive yourself for what you had to do to protect yourself. It's so powerful that you've reclaimed this experience as a lesson to those who need to hear it. So much love to you. ❤

[@jessdewhurst4996]

You’ve put this so well x

[@sashau8142]

I have NEVER thought about it like that. Thank you for saying that.

[@laurenhazlett6327]

This makes a lot of sense. I've never been jealous, abusive etc. In ANY relationship I've been in.. except one. The guy that was extremely abusive towards me. He would make me go to work with him and sit in his car while he worked, verbally assaulted me constantly, just completely broke me down. Luckily I've been in an incredibly healthy relationship with someone I consider my best friend for over 11 years now. I can't imagine ever dealing with something like that now.

[@laurenkelly8426]

“Learn from my mistakes” - no love, this is not your fault❤️ You never deserved to be abused and you are not alone. Sending you so much love and healing💕

[@DianaTavarez]

❤️❤️

[@dianneconrad8279]

Diana, I’ve been through the same thing yet stayed for 12 years and married for 7. Left 3 years ago and never looked back once I woke up and realized the abuse that was happening. Two great books that helped me heal and move on are “why does he do that?” And “psychopath free”. Thank you for sharing your story, it helps others know they are not alone and it’s healing for you to speak up.

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you for this!! sending you so much love ❤️

[@lucindagarcia5972]

so frustrating that we get treated like shit and it’s just an after thought to them. you deserve to be with someone who respects you and sees what a beautiful person you are, inside and out 💕

[@melaniemarana1937]

!!!!! I’m an after though to them. It’s killing me

[@sierrabozarthxo]

a relationship 100% can be a fairytale.. mine feels like one. boys who say love isn’t a fairytale are trash..

[@marinarasaucee8682]

Bro they literally turn you into the person they are... & then they criticize you for it

[@sashau8142]

Right! You created me! Why are you mad??

[@kay4329]

fuckin… this man

[@mythsologyyy]

I have a friend who is constantly complaining about the man she is with because he cheated, she doesn't trust him, he constantly gaslights her, and he doesn't ever take care for her feelings - he does things that he knows will bother her but it should be considered okay because he tells her beforehand. She genuinely seems miserable and then she always goes back to "oh i want to make it work" this has been happening for years. It's devastating to watch.

[@DianaTavarez]

Yes this sounds very familiar to what I was feeling 😔 I’m hoping she finds the strength to leave soon. Sending you both love 💕

[@PeachyopieKelly]

Oh Diana...I wish I could hug you through the screen. I think this is a very important thing you went through. I’ve been in several toxic “entanglements” hahaha (sorry couldn’t help it) and it turned me toxic too. When you are in a gaslighting manipulative partnership it screws up your whole reality. Things that would normally seem wrong to your morals will twist and turn in your head. I think thats why its so frustrating for people on the outside of the relationship to see this blatant trauma pan out. Don’t feel stupid for a second for not leaving sooner. When your heart and mind heal from this trauma you’ll learn sooooo much about yourself and your boundaries. Every mistake or bump in the road can turn into strength and knowledge for the future. Such an important video for young girl and boys to see. Always remember, a relationship isn’t there to make you happy, it’s to make you the best version of yourself and to share that happiness with whoever you are with! ☺️❤️

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you for this!!! ❤️❤️❤️ sending you hugs and so much love

[@celia5252]

I just started watching but ugh definitely relate to the insecurities and lack of experience, when I started dating at 22 I met a guy similar to this and I thought I was in heaven cause he love bombed me and my dumbass stayed way too long cause I thought the love bombing phase was his true self and I tried to get that time back so I stayed and exhausted myself emotionally and mentally and I’m glad you’re making this video cause young girls need to see the reality of some men and the ways they treat girls and trick you into staying and manipulating and all of the darker sides of dating

[@MusicallySpontaneous]

Don't blame yourself for "staying way too long". You were manipulated, and that doesn't make you dumb. The manipulator is at fault, not you.

[@celia5252]

K A I know :/ but once u get out of that rose colored glasses phase you get angry at yourself for what you’ve put up with and the lack of control you had while it happened

[@doubtyea]

@@celia5252 thats your self worth screaming (prolly w a hint or a lot of shame; direct the anger at the people who took advantage of you). necessary step.

[@LisaFevral]

your hair looks so good omg

[@DianaTavarez]

thanks bb

[@Kikibunny123]

😭😭😭😭😭 “I hope he finds someone he doesn’t want to hurt” 😭😭😭

[@dancingbears539]

😢 but she needs to know it’s not about him wanting to hurt her specifically, he’s someone who hurts people, there’s no perfect girl who he wouldn’t hurt

[@gracec1118]

You should be so proud of yourself for overcoming this and recognising the toxicity of the situation. You may feel like you should have noticed from the start but that's so much easier said than done and it takes so much strength to realise when you're being manipulated and getting out of it. I know that you will find someone who will treat you like the queen you are and I'm so happy that you are learning to love yourself now because that shit's hard! You're beautiful inside and out, so funny and so caring and opening up about this is so brave and selfless for all the people you are going to help! xxxxx

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you, this means so much! ❤️

[@AriLuvsThat]

When you said “it’s so exhausting just wanting someone to love you back and then just don’t.” It hit me too hard

[@almagarcia8842]

My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost three years. Let me tell you, it felt like magic the first night we connected. Even now he still does things that make me feel like a queen. I’m so sorry you were gaslighted into feeling that you can’t have that fairytale BECAUSE YOU DO DESERVE IT

[@DianaTavarez]

🥺❤️

[@Violet-qt4dc]

you are so powerful. Anyone who can’t see that is in denial!!! I love you forever D!

[@DianaTavarez]

love you!

[@AngePrank97]

I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. I'm so sorry this happened to you, I hope you can work through the trauma. Just letting you know that you are such a beam of light and your personality is a treasure.

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you bb ❤️

[@cl2090]

Wait... did we date the same guy? our experience is oddly too similar .

[@DianaTavarez]

I definitely would not be surprised

[@n.g.6903]

I'm from Germany but I expierienced the same thing and I also have a friend that gone through this. We call them the "originals". They treat you like shit but you want them so badly 🙃

[@intrigue8664]

They're narcissistic they manipulate the same way

[@n.g.6903]

@@intrigue8664 probably all in the same group chat because they're all sooo similar

[@maddiethegladiator]

D, my ex and I broke up years ago, and I am still healing from those wounds. I’m in therapy, and even though I’m 100% over him, you’re never truly “over” the trauma. I’m with you, I wasn’t the best girlfriend, so sometimes I feel like I deserved it. But I didn’t, and neither did you. Keep doing the hard work. We’re here for you.

[@AbbyTheMusical]

You poor sweet girl. I just want to give you the biggest hug. So glad you’re out of that dangerous place now.

[@rachellimpert3748]

You should look into the book “Women Who Love Too Much.” It really accurately describes that feeling of wanting to be the “ride or die” girl, and where that feeling comes from

[@bri33123]

I love you Diana and I’m so glad you got out of that relationship. You deserve everything you want in this world

[@bri33123]

Sending so much love your way

[@DianaTavarez]

love you 💖

[@whatifeelqualia1257]

I’m in tears. You are so brave for opening up to us. And i can’t thank you enough for making me (and probably many others) realize the red flags that were right in front of me all along. I love you soooo much 💕

[@DianaTavarez]

I love you so much!!!

[@youwishyouknewhuh]

You expressing yourself and being able to turn this into a lesson is already therapy! We love you and every step is important to healing. Take your time and i hope you will get the love you try to give to the people you love.

[@user-he9rp5xb3h]

you're so strong. don't blame yourself for any part of what you went through. much love ❤️❤️

[@courtneys.7113]

Diana, you are so fucking brave. I so so appreciate you for making this video. it's awful in this world that us girls go through these things so often. just based off of you, and the people i've known, the people in these comments, hell, based on my own experiences with emotional and physical abuse, i have so much love and respect for women. we go through so much and still find the strength to get up in the morning and further, find the strength to love despite the pain we so often go through when we do open our hearts. that's why our solidarity and willingness to share our stories is so important. so many of these stories start out as "i didn't realize that what he was doing was wrong" and can spiral into a horrible and scary situation without us even noticing until it's too late. in my case, and a lot of other's cases, we genuinely feel so much love for them that we're willing to stay and endure the pain. i used to be the type that lowkey judged people in abusive relationships just because it seemed so obvious that they should leave until i found myself in one. and i'll never forget how i had this one friend who i would talk to whenever something happened in that relationship and every time she would say it was a bad relationship and that i should break up with him. i was always so embarrassed to talk to her about our issues half because something would happen like every few days and half because i felt like an idiot complaining about him so much but continuing to stay with him. i think that friendship and her willingness to listen every time i wanted to talk about it was such a big part of how i ended up being able to leave him. and because of that experience i try to speak out about the abuses i've suffered and always be there for the people who might be that position. one of the worst things about being in an abusive relationship is feeling alone in your suffering and people like you sharing your story ultimately helps girls currently in that position and girls like me who have been there in the past and feel ashamed or embarrassed or whatever. so, again, thank you so much for this video and i love you with all of my heart

[@DianaTavarez]

wow THIS thank you so much ❤️ sending you so much love and hugs

[@anditspaganpoetry]

The best you've ever looked! My story is not the same, but it is similar. Knowing that things were going on behind my back for years. Feeling guilty when I'd bring it up. You're very brave for talking about this. I really felt 18:08. I was always told that I was being too sensitive - a year and a half later, I can see that I had the patience of a Saint. I'm glad I'm out of that relationship, but it definitely still haunts me. And same as you, I'm so sure that he thinks that he did nothing wrong. Thanks for being my KZbin friend, D. Love from South Korea.

[@DianaTavarez]

Sending you so much love!! Thank you for watching 💖🥺

[@Musicdevil45]

diana..you are so so amazing and i wish i would've seen this video a year ago when i was in the worst part of my toxic relationship. my situation was totally different but all the tactics were the same. im still damaged by it now and it affects my current relationships which is heartbreaking and so so hard to work through. thank you for sharing, i know it's hard but this is real stuff and you are so so valid and strong.

[@DianaTavarez]

Love you so much ❤️❤️❤️

[@jennab.9872]

This. So many girls need this. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this with us. You’re even stronger than I already thought you were. ❤️

[@DianaTavarez]

❤️

[@Bye-son]

You ARE NOT dumb. You are NOT a clown. Not at all. You were in a trauma bond with someone who it sounds, was mentally unstable. You are incredibly strong to open up about this on social media. I don’t know you at all, but I’m glad you came out on the other side. I have gone through a similar relationship with a narcissist. It’s so hard to get out, it feels like you’re in a hole with this person, it’s cause they want you there. You are an angel, and with time you will feel better. I promise.

[@xiopaovid1215]

I'm so sorry you went through this Diana, I'm glad you're sharing your story, it'll help so many people. You're so strong to have been able to get through this. We love you Queen!💜

[@laurielmaoo]

the eyeliner is such a look 🥰🥰

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you!

[@sharonkim4873]

It’s not embarrassing Diana - you loved someone and asked for safety, comfort, honesty, and respect and he deeply wronged you and insulted the very integrity and dignity of you as a human. I’m so glad you are out of that situation and that you know he was the one in the wrong and your feelings are valid. I hope you can heal and keep hanging in there

[@KaradactylGrace]

Hi friend, thank you so so so much for making this video. I am 3 years out of a 5 year toxic relationship and am still healing from it. Thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone ❤️

[@DianaTavarez]

so happy you were able to get out ❤️

[@MissRandomComment]

Coming back to this after the roommate reunited video from Mikaela. I'm rooting for you girl. You have amazing energy and I'm sure you're going to be one fierce, strong lady when you find your power.

[@laurenkelly8426]

I really just can’t believe how much I relate to this. Thank you so much for sharing your story despite how traumatic it can be. It’s so important to put more information out there informing young viewers on the red flags and signs of a toxic, abusive relationship. Videos like this are what helped me get out of mine, so thank you. 💞

[@DianaTavarez]

Sending you so much love ❤️❤️❤️

[@nominom4450]

I feel sad knowing that we've been through similar stuff (at least from what I'm seeing rn) but I'm happy that slowly but surely we are getting better. Love u lots D! You deserve the world and nothing less!! 💖

[@DianaTavarez]

we've got each other!! love u

[@Mapismile]

Nothing that happened was your fault, when we have no experience with love we are vulnerable to manipulation. I like to think that this type of experience brings with it personal growth, and the knowledge that we deserve a love that makes us feel safe, happy and that we are not difficult to love. I hope you can heal and overcome this difficult episode in your life, Diana, this does not define you as a person. You are precious and very valuable, and you will see that the universe will reward you with the right person at the right time. I send you a big hug and I hope your life is always full of love 💛🌻🍃🌞

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you 🥺🌸❤️

[@hooveringt.1834]

You’re GLOWING

[@katie-yk1es]

It's good to recognize where you didn't have boundaries but also to know that isn't an excuse for the way other people treat you. I'm sorry this happened and it seems to be an experience that's universal :(

[@paytonwauhob9621]

Using your platform to open up this discussion means so much to me. My grandmothers, mother, and my sister have all had to go through similar relationships and suffer in silence for so long. You're helping them gain a voice. Thank you for your bravery and kindness Diana.

[@DianaTavarez]

❤️❤️❤️

[@kait490]

I ended my 5 year toxic abusive relationship a few months ago and was having a rough night...I needed this video

[@beep3250]

It sucks so much that you had to go through this and I can’t imagine how hard that was. And I can’t imagine how hard it had to be to share this, but thank you for doing so. I hope you know how much you’re worth and loved by your supporters. Stay strong! 💛💛

[@LB-gw8gt]

I can relate to this so much. The shame after trying to get “revenge” or be even. It breaks down your self esteem, the hiding it from friends, the abuse, all of it. It hurts so much. I’m so happy you’re safe now. Keep your head up, you’re not alone. ❤️✨

[@DianaTavarez]

It hurts so much to think about! But thank you for being here and listening 💖

[@emmm87]

I relate to this on an extreme level. I was abused by my first love as well, verbally, emotionally, and then s*xually assaulted. I am still dealing with the effects almost four years later. I have PTSD, abandonment issues, and commitment issues after the relationship. I don’t think I’ll ever get over it. And I feel you, sometimes I miss him too, even after everything. And I still minimize my abuse and trauma. He was 19 while I was 16 and I ended up being broken up the final time over text, and waited a year for him to come back. And was diagnosed with PTSD a year later when panic attacks and deep depression came back when I dated someone a year after him. Please don’t minimize what happened to you. Your feelings are valid. Your abuse was real. You, yourself are valid.

[@DianaTavarez]

I’m so sorry this happened 😔 you’re so strong and I appreciate you being here. Thank you for listening to my story ❤️

[@FastHandAndy]

Seeing you cry hurts my heart 😭 you're amazing and wonderful.

[@marigoldsunflower]

I love that you still want him to be happy despite everything that happened. Forgiveness and praying for your enemy are something I struggle with and I'm really proud of you for having that ability

[@belikereepicheep]

I love reading the comments on Diana's videos, such a positive community!

[@HadesTheSixth]

it sucks listening to this because i felt like this in my first relationship too, and hearing you say 'i'm not complaining--' just makes me feel like hugging you :(

[@fshomarlen]

you and M are literally the last people i want to see cry / feel any hurt. You are such a brave little bean for being able to talk about this with everyone. I just wanna hug you, Diana! he definitely sounds like guys my friends have dated and it makes me so sick that they think they can get away it and continue the pattern.

[@trishatorres8103]

Im so happy you got out. I saw this so much growing up with my mom and sister and now brother. I never understood it. Listening to your story gives me a little glimpse into what they're thinking. You're a good person and deserve the best. Love you girl ❤❤

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you for listening ❤️

[@why7242]

I’m so sorry that this happened to you as a person who’s gone though a toxic relationship via a parent and I feel this on a different level and I’m so sorry you did nothing wrong involving the abuse.

[@lisaraye6241]

My mother left an abusive relationship after 30 years. My sister left an abusive relationship after seven. I almost found myself in one a year ago. I am constantly reminded, it is better to leave than to stay. Recognize the signs. There is a lot of healing ahead of you, but you have braved through the worst part of the storm. Sending you light and love. Thank you for using your platform to speak your truth. Thank you💜

[@DianaTavarez]

sending you and your fam so much love

[@lisaraye6241]

@@DianaTavarez thank you so much, same for you💕

[@angela2sena]

Lets roll. I just wanna talk to him, thats it.

[@livkoopai5621]

Hahaha! Ill bring a taser 😂

[@mckennathorup6076]

ughh D, I love you! I know making this video could not have been easy, but it's so amazing that you did. It's hard to see things clearly when you're in the thick of it, but your mature comments and thoughts could help so many women feel less alone and figure things out for themselves. sending all the hugs--you are stronger for all of it

[@DianaTavarez]

I love you, thank you ✨

[@sandracruz7900]

GIRL .. I just ended a 3.5 year relationship and I just want to say to you .. woman to woman.. You are beautiful! You are loved! And you are valued!

[@baby-xr1hy]

i feel as though i probably shouldn’t be relating to her story this much. i’m so sorry for what she went through she’s so strong tho and i hope to be like her

[@DianaTavarez]

Sending you love and support ❤️

[@hannah-km4by]

It makes me so happy to see how you've been able to do a 180 from hiding with him to talking about him truthfully on your channel. So inspirational and admirable

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you so much

[@imissuguys]

When you’re with a toxic person it like turns you into a toxic person too and that is the worst feeling when your feelings get so twisted up that you’re saying things and doing things that you would never normally do and you don’t even recognize yourself

[@xocakepop]

I just wanna say that you look so healthy and beautiful in this and I can definitely tell just by your glow that you are in a much better place even from just a month or so ago. Super happy to see your growth and I am always rooting for you, sis. Lots of love 💖

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you so much bb! This means a lot I’m trying every day to be better 💕

[@shinkukirai]

I relate to this a lot. I was single for ten years, and started dating someone that I gave my entire heart to, and then he proceeded to treat me worse than I have ever been treated in my life. his eyes would go dead when he made me cry; it was awful. looks like you’re healing, I believe in you!

[@elieonyt]

D, i hope you find an amazing guy who will treat you with kindness and respect you deserve! he is out there somewhere, you are an amazing person who went through a trauma and it doesn't define you! (also if he's blackmailing you, that's called revenge porn and it's illegal so sue his ass)

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you💖💖💖

[@luvillamil1]

we love you D! please don't be ashamed about believing him and giving him second chances, these people will manipulate and gaslight you until you basically lose your sense of self and of reality. Hope you continue to heal and shine ❤️

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you ❤️

[@newernewestnew]

remember y’all, if a person does it once, they are bound to do it again.

[@dilaozen5267]

Nobody deserves to go through this. Still i dont want you to feel sad about it. At least you have a platform to tell what happened to you. Now thanks to you me and more people like me will be able to see the red flags that we wouldnt able to see. I love you so much Diana 🦄✨💙

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you 💕💕

[@wheresanthony6228]

I cant express how proud I am of you to come out with your Story. Its truly horrifiyng how some people just shamelesly abuse several other people for their own good. Just know that youre in a better place now. Ly

[@DianaTavarez]

Love you, thank you

[@jasmineseaman853]

i went through a similar situation, i was very very young. 13-17 and he basically ruined my life during those years. i am now aware of how these people work and i know how to protect myself. i’ve got a long way to go but i’m so much more happy now ! if anyone is going through the same thing , you can get help ! don’t feel like this is forever, because it’s not.

[@DianaTavarez]

I'm glad you were able to get away! sending you love

[@jasmineseaman853]

Diana Tavarez love u girl xxx

[@chauhoran]

I‘m on my way home now so I have to watch it later but from the title I know this is a sensitive topic but thank you a lot for opening up to us ♡ we‘re always here for you!

[@crystalmarie0311]

Came here after watching Mikaelas video and I am so sorry that you experienced this. It's incredible to know that you were able to get yourself out of that relationship and are able to talk about it now. I'm so glad that you are now surrounded by love and a safe space to continue your path of healing. I wish you love and light moving forward hun!✨💕

[@kaitlyn8347]

diana i know this video is old but i just want to say i am so incredibly sorry this happened to you. i hope that moving to LA and moving in with mikaela brings u so much joy and light ❤️❤️ you deserve to be loved and will be loved the way you deserve, i promise !!

[@RemyRemyBooBoo]

20:51 "You can't place your happiness in someone else, you have to have that on your own and the rest will follow." I felt that. Love you Diana ❤️

[@Kaktusfresse123]

You once said you wanted to blush your nose but it would make it appear bigger and that's why you don't do it. Your nose got a little red while you cried and it looked very sweet. And it didn't make your nose look bigger so go for it if you want❤️

[@zmffpdjj]

ilysm for this. even tho i havent been and wont be in a relationship anytime soon, this really opened my eyes n made me realize that relationships arent all cliche fairytale wattpad shit. youre literally teaching me alot in life more than my mom

[@justakarefreekiwi659]

Watching this hurts my heart so so so bad. You deserve the world, nobody should be treated that way. Thank you for sharing something so personal with us, your healing helps us heal too

[@MackenzieNoelle]

You are absolutely not at fault for your insecure attachment style or anyyyy of it! I’ve learned this hard way through many relationships where I blamed myself for all of the failures and dysfunction. I thought I was being clingy and difficult, but really I just wasn’t being validated and cared for in the way that I needed. Anyway, thank you for sharing your story! You seem like such a genuine and kind person and I know this video is kind of oldish but I can’t wait to catch up on all your content :) ❤️

[@kaylayoung6274]

The raw, vulnerable videos you're putting out this year have been incredible. This year is transformative, and seeing another woman accept and experience the reflection and the growth and every emotion that comes with it... incredible. Nothing but love and support for you 👏

[@DianaTavarez]

This means so much ❤️❤️❤️😭 thank you

[@charismasavingthrow]

you’re so brave for sharing your story. i went through something very similar and the guy still tries to make out i was lying about the abuse but you know it’s true and the further you get away from it the more you realise the abuse was real. sending lots of love x

[@marissal2421]

I’m so so sorry you went thru that. Thank you for being so brave and sharing. I’m so happy to hear that you got a restraining order on him. You deserve love!!!

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you!!

[@hannahdickerson3167]

I’m so sorry Diana :( my parent’s relationship was almost the exact same and it messed me up. I know you must be doing so much better and I’m so glad you’re living with Mikaela again!! You are so beautiful and amazing ❤️ I love you so much!!

[@irenicxs3554]

you’re so strong. i admire you so much for your bravery, vulnerability, and willingness to open up about your relationship. i’m really hoping that you’re feeling even a little bit better now. we love you diana!!!

[@sammiecornwell4499]

To Diana and everyone reading this: know you're loved, and your value doesn't depend on that instance or that person's perceptions on you. You're amazing, even when they say you're not or when you don't believe it.

[@Lina-fq5hd]

Thank you so much for sharing your story Diana. I've been in such a similar situation and sometimes it feels like I'm the only one or that no one understands and it's just so comforting to know I'm not alone. Like, even if you know you're not the only one it still feels like that sometimes, but seeing your video and hearing it directly from someone like this is so powerful. Thank you so much, you gave me hope and strength for the future

[@DianaTavarez]

love you ❤️❤️❤️

[@IvanovaJay]

You are stronger than you know. It is not your fault you went through this, it is not your fault he hurt you. I hope you heal and receive all the happiness and love in the world

[@ldeethkelt]

I really hope you dont internalise anything that happened. You seem so kind and giving and you shouldn't be made to feel that wanting to put a lot into a relationship makes you "clingy" or "annoying". Anyone would be lucky to have you in their life and you didn't deserve any of this. No need to apologise :)

[@katanabandet4706]

Diana! You are not an embarrassment. And you should not be embarrassed by this. It is so heartbreaking to hear this. But it is NOT EMBARRASSING. People are twister. And you are so caring and it is so hard to get out of a dark hole like that. No one thinks differently of you. And I just wanted to say we love you. And hope you are doing well queen♥️

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you ❤️

[@marijebooks]

It breaks my heart to watch this, read the comments, and realize how frequently this happens. I think this should be a crime, but yet it's still a moral thing. On the other side, it helps me to know that I am not the only one who has experienced something like this and that we can get through this together! Don't worry, don't blame yourself just realize that we all got your back, because girls are so strong and you are one to prove! Love ❤️

[@strawberryshortbitxh]

Every bit of this made so much sense to me. I jumped on the opportunity when someone asked me out because I had this feeling I was disgusting, why had it taken 18 years for this to happen. I tried to force myself to think this person was the one when in reality I didn’t like them. They were nice but I wasn’t interested like they were. Thank you for letting me know this is something that is ok, especially for someone so beautiful!! I am believing that it’s worth the wait and the tears.

[@lucydollinger5673]

thank you for sharing your story. your feelings are valid and none of that was your fault. no one deserves to go through that. we love you. ✨❤️

[@cellieASMR]

you are a light! it's been a year and you're so bright and beautiful and strong. i know you know none of this was your fault when he laid his hands on you. you went into it to love and to be loved, he did not, he wanted to control and benefit. you are radiating light, we all could see in this video and now it spreads and thrives in everything you do. thank you for choosing yourself, it gives you and all of us the chance and privilege to love you.

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you so much lovely 🥺❤️

[@margaretcochran1626]

Thank you for this video. Can relate so much I was like literally obsessed w this guy and I was like I don't understand why for so many years until I realized the psychological damage he did to make me like that. Toxic

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you for listening 💕

[@phe7156]

thank you so much, Diana, for opening up... it's so weird because it's been like 4 years now since my toxic relationship but having to stay home in iso has brought up all these memories I hadn't thought about in so long. i realised not being able to leave the house because of covid has triggered my feelings I had back in 2016 when it felt unsafe to leave the house because of my abuser. i never even knew the term love bomb but it is perfect in summing up the way he just turned the dial to 100 on all that! i know I acted out really badly and did things that hurt him too, but I want to remind everyone that when you're being manipulated, hurt or abused, you cannot act with a rational mind. your ability to see things clearly has been taken away from you. the situations have been warped, and then so it makes sense that your reactions are warped too. i like that frog analogy, where if you put a frog in boiling water, it will jump out immediately. but, if you put a frog in cold water but slowly turn up the heat, it will boil to death. so many abusers use this technique, of pushing the boundaries so that their bad behaviour slowly gets normalised. they make claims like 'i am the only one who could ever love you for you,' after you have responded badly to their bad behaviour. they trick you into thinking you're the fucked up one so that they can keep you trying to prove yourself to them. it's a horrible cycle and there's a real reason it takes hold... one the flip side, I found true love after dating the person I talked about above. a lot of that experience of dating again, in the beginning, was me being so shocked when they just showed basic human respect lol. we ended up breaking up because they had to move countries, but we still talk every week and I consider them one of my best friends. look for partners that if you took away the romantic relationship, you still have a best friend in them. Diana, thank you for sharing your story. you put into words so many of my feelings at a time I really needed to hear it. even though I feel 'healed', it doesn't mean I don't still live with ptsd and seeing you open up like that has really spoken to a part of my soul that is just overflowing with gratitude and love for the incredible, strong, loving person you are. we are all in recovery together, we are all on this path of healing together. it doesn't matter which stage of healing you are at, but know that you can make it to a place of peace that once seemed like it was never meant for you. the reality is, you deserve the same love and kindness you show to others. it's hard, but I always told myself that I would not mourn the love I still had to give to that person. instead, I would pour it unconditionally into myself. i hope you can do the same too

[@DianaTavarez]

Thank you so much for this 😔❤️ everything you said hit so hard. Proud of you for all you’ve been through and continuing the healing process. Love u

[@Rose_Lily_]

You are so strong. Thank you for opening up about this 💕 We're here for you! *hugs*

[@DianaTavarez]

*hugs* ❤️❤️❤️

[@ItsaCrazyCatlady]

I was also in a toxic relationship for a long time. It breaks my heart to see you still feeling bad and ashamed for how you acted bc even though no one is perfect, HE is the one that made you feel like you were too much when it's just simply being human and having normal emotional needs. Also I remember feeling so attached even after realizing the abuse, but trust me, there will be a day when you look back at this and also forgive yourself for going through this. I wish u so much (self)love

[@DianaTavarez]

thank you so much ❤️