OUR IVF JOURNEY: episode three

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[@AustinAlexMcGee]

Thank you for being REAL with us and not just showing the highlights. As someone who’s gone through IVF 5 times, sometimes the hard truth is that it doesn’t work. We are constantly thinking and praying for you guys!!

[@jenellemonkey]

❤🫶🏼

[@taylordharrish]

I'm less than 2 minutes in BUT just wanted to send the reminder that you are so loved, so prayed for, and so rooted for through this whole journey. I've never wanted something so badly for complete strangers!!! We so appreciate your vulnerability and am obsessed with you in the least creepy way possible✨

[@danitzacas]

idk if you'll see this but I had to tell you the epiphany these episodes have given me. I'm currently in school to become an ultrasound tech but never really knew what I wanted to specialize in. Upon keeping up with your journey through these episodes, I realized I’m meant to work in a fertility clinic. nothing has ever been so apparent, and I can't wait to help future families like yours! sending you lots of love & baby dust 🩷 thank you jaci

[@jacimarie_]

😭♥️😭♥️ this is amazing. My fertility nurses and ultrasound techs have been angels, I’m so grateful for them

[@emilydoh2932]

Yes!!! I’m in school to be an embryologist and these episodes have truly solidified that this is what I’m meant to be doing. I wish you all the best!❤️

[@LITBeauty]

You documented your IVF journey SO well. This series has been so informative. While I’ve never been thru the IVF process, this really puts into perspective what women (& the men) go thru with IVF. Thank you for sharing this journey with us. Praying for you & Leif!

[@marieleouffre8571]

Hi girl! Just a quick message that I hope will help you in a way. So I'm an IVF baby, in France we also call them "bébé précieux" (Precious baby). After a terrible accident my mother was no longer able to have a baby "naturally" and so she began the IVF journey to have me. The first time it didn't work, the second time it didn't work, (which were both done in one of the best hospitals in Paris) the third time it also didn't work, it FINALLY worked at the fourth attempt. It took 4 whole years for the process to FINALLY work (maybe even more, I'm not sure). When I asked her about it she explained how this period of her life was stressing for her: the shots, the hospital visits, the different doctors. And you know what the funny part is ? When my parents decided to try again for my brother, they agreed on the fact that they would try only once this time. Guess what ? It worked on the first attempt for him 😂, even thought my mother was 34! This process is really weird gosh. Anyhow, You are so freaking strong, this is a very difficult process, and I'm praying for you to get this baby! You deserve it, I hope this little testimony reassured you in a way. Lov u, sending both of you a lot of love from France! ❤

[@melisaguevara1213]

Are fertility treatments covered in France?

[@marieleouffre8571]

@@melisaguevara1213 yes there are. There is always a percentage that the person has to pay but it's extremely small compared to what people pay in the US. Our health system is mostly free even for big procedures like this, we're very lucky

[@evelientx]

I literally feel nauseous I dont even want to imagine what its like to be in your shoes. But I KNOW and I FEEL that it WILL work out!!!! There's a future where you and Leif will be parents to the most wonderful child(ren). I just feel it ✨ love you Jaci and I really appreciate you being vulnerable online. 🩷 Edit: im now 9:38 at the point where you talk about how it feels for you to keep a positive mindset and you have every right to not feel positive and be disappointed

[@emmahaines4250]

no matter the outcome, us Valleygirls will always back you on this journey. proud of you for sharing this chapter

[@sabineweber5092]

The genuine heartbreak I am feeling right now…love you both so much you are so strong

[@RachelFisler-vm6fq]

Crying as I watch this video. I can relate to you so much. We had 5 failed iui’s before we did IVF. IVF is the hardest thing to go through and you feel so alone during the entire process. I remember having the conversation with my husband before IVF of what we would do if we couldn’t have kids. It’s heartbreaking. After a successful and long IVF journey we decided to start a nonprofit to help families and couples struggling with fertility because of how hard it is financially and emotionally. Sending all the prayers and good luck to you during this time!!! 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

[@ashleyr313]

It feels like every time I open Facebook it’s another friend’s pregnancy announcement and it can be painful to wonder why it can’t be me. My husband reminded me that a majority of people don’t post the struggles they go through along the way. I’m SO thankful you shared this 💜

[@cbpaddingtonbear2606]

Hey I don't have infertility (that I know of) but I had a miscarriage this year that was actually a tumor that could have turned into cancer (thankfully it didn't) and I wasn't allowed to try for 9 months. No one but me and my partner know this, so yes, even people who can get pregnant don't always share how the journey to get their family here was. I'm so sorry that you are going through this.

[@taylornicolehayden]

I'm 2 minutes in and I'm in tears. My heart aches for you both. You are wrapped up in prayer and I am believing you will be holding your angel baby so so soon thank you for sharing this journey. You don’t have to, but you are and it’s helping / affecting SO many women and couples in your exact position. I can only imagine how encouraging it is to see / hear from someone and be understood. “nothing you go through is ever wasted”

[@loganalu]

You’re so loved. ❤ cried along with you. Thank you for being so candid.

[@Olivia-hx2in]

I just have a feeling that this next transfer worked and you’ll be announcing your pregnancy on new years 🫶🏼 manifesting!!! I am so proud of you both, and thank you for taking us in this journey. My heart goes out to you ❤️

[@gracebaker15]

I hope so!!

[@saramahmoodpm]

You were right!!!

[@larisas6803]

Jaci, I’m giving you the biggest virtual hug. We struggled with infertility for over two years, then got pregnant. We now have a 2.5 year old and a 6 month old. You fully believe you will get pregnant, and soon. Always praying for you and Leif. You guys are the best🤍

[@EmilyLena]

Hi Jaci 👋 I’m 4.5 years into my fertility journey and you are doing such a service by sharing your journey. I feel SO alone. Alone in my thoughts, feelings, phase of life and it’s so hard. I’m so sorry you have to go through this, but the fact that you are sharing it so candidly is so helpful to me and I’m sure others in the thick of things.

[@alisonprinzi5156]

You're so brave! Your community is so proud of you. The sacrifices you're making just show how amazing of a mom you already are ❤

[@dustylouthan]

You have every right to feel what you feel, your feelings are so valid. No matter whether you have it work in a month from then or a year from then. You’re not being dramatic for feeling your feelings! I cannot imagine what it must’ve felt like in the moment. You’re so incredibly strong for being vulnerable for sharing all of this with us. I’m rooting for you both & I am manifesting your success as much as I possibly can. You both are both so so deserving & I cannot wait to see you both be parents❤

[@taywo22]

When you said “I let myself go there” oh that shattered me because I get it. My husband and I had a miscarriage in 2022 and when I got a positive in august of this year I naively didn’t even let the idea that it would happen again in my head and then we miscarried again. Rooting so so hard for you both.

[@HannahFerguson-yw9nl]

ugh the beginning of the video really made my heart hurt. I was really expecting that positive test. Thanks for being so vulnerable and sharing your journey. Thinking of you and Leif.

[@isabellelund2319]

Thank you for being so real through this. Our first transfer failed and around the same time 2 of my friends told me they were pregnant… with their second babies. You articulate your feelings so well, I’m so so sorry you have to go through this too 😭 you’ve got this!

[@izzypoole5939]

Wow I am truly inspired by your braveness and vulnerability. Not just being vulnerable with us and sharing but with yourself and allowing yourself to get hopefully when you’re not used to allowing yourself to go there. I cried along with you and was truly gutted but I see a very bright horizon for you and Leif. ❤❤❤❤

[@amybuccanero6670]

I’ve never rooted harder for two strangers in my life. You guys are on my mind every day! ❤️

[@esthersophia7026]

truly truly rooting for you and leif on this journey and want to let you know how much your honesty is valued and seen 💗

[@VivaLaGlam5]

Ugh that opening scene… I cried with you guys. I’m so sorry. I pray your baby will come with this next transfer. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

[@shelbysecrest9509]

The amount of strength you guys have is unbelievable; letting complete strangers like most of us into something so vulnerable and letting us see glimpses is just an honor. Trusting that God blesses you guys with beautiful, healthy babies. Love watching all of your content, highs and lows❤️

[@berrynicexo]

You describe the feelings associated with infertility and failed transfers SO well. I’m rooting for you guys SO SO HARD ❤️

[@45lomac]

Thank you for being vulnerable and raw with us! As a single gal who is watching all her friends get married and start their families I feel some of that pain of being “stuck.” Praying that the change in meds and timing will be exactly what you need for this baby!

[@isabellalacy9901]

Ahh Jaci!! I have been waiting for this!! I can’t wait to see how you evolve through this journey. You are being so strong and believing in the process. I am so proud of you! Thank you for sharing this and I can’t wait to see the next one! Ilysm and I hope you’re having an amazing day 💕

[@gabikoontz9105]

Sending you so much love Jaci!!!! You are so real for doing this, thank you for being so vulnerable ♥️♥️♥️ You are going to be the most amazing Mother ever, I can’t wait to watch the video when you are officially pregnant 🥹 Rooting for you so hard!!!

[@maryoforiattah]

cried along with you and in awe of you as you navigate some of the heaviest emotions many never experience ♥️ sending you both so much love and prayers on this second transfer and beyond

[@laurencarpenter7097]

I’m so happy I came across your videos. I relate to you so badly. Wanting something so much and you have absolutely no control over it, is frustrating. I’m embarking on a fertility journey myself. And your videos have helped me on what I could expect. Staying hopeful and just knowing it will happen is most important. I truly feel in my heart of hearts that this “IVF Journey” will turn into a pregnancy journey for you and your husband. Don’t give up hope, live in the moment (get excited!) even if it means it won’t work again, have realistic expectations, and most importantly know that it will happen. This is your journey, I’m so sorry it’s a hard one, but you’ll get what you desire in the end. I just know it.

[@livienicole]

girl you and leif are so strong 😭 thinking of you guys as you go through this, you’ve got so many people cheering you both on 🥹

[@Blue-dg8vb]

Thankyou for sharing your experience so openly with us. My husband and I had our first failed IUI a week before Christmas. The month prior I was over stimulated and our IUI cycle was cancelled. Watching this, hearing your thoughts resonated with me so much, and makes this challenging journey comforting to know I am not alone in this and neither are you. It’s the most physically, emotionally and mentally challenging journey. Those feelings of being “left behind” or not having the luxury of “planning” age gaps etc. are so difficult to comprehend. Sending so much love and all the positive vibes your way, I hope your little miracle isn’t too far away ❤

[@morganfecher]

Our stories are so similar. I related to every thought and feeling you shared. My IVF baby is 7 months old now. It’s all worth it. Don’t give up 💛

[@madelinelewisx]

I cried with you and I’m literally praying every day for you. I’m going to remain super hopeful for you guys ♥️

[@sarahigley19]

I feel this so hard. I also had three failed IUI’s and I also like to test early. I’ve realized it’s a defensive mechanism so that when I hear bad news, I have already accepted it beforehand. Thanks for documenting your journey. ❤

[@indiejoy9710]

I admire you so much for your transparency and strength through this whole process. Even more, I think it is so amazing that you are creating these videos to help future ivf patients and create discussion around ivf as it is often not represented. Through watching your videos, I have learned so much about ivf and through reading the comments I’m amazed by the way you’ve cultivated a community that can share their stories. You are so amazing and strong and I’m keeping you and Leif in my thoughts ❤

[@dariakov7]

crying along with you 🫶🏼 sending you so much love and praying for you

[@krystlerae74]

Thank you so much for sharing these beautifully vulnerable moments of your life and relationship. Know that your feelings are always valid. Someone is watching this and feeling not alone and I hope You feel the same. 💜

[@dakotam1915]

Go Jaci Go!!! So grateful to be able to follow along on this journey and sending you ALLLLL of the best energy for round #2

[@jordanstafford8447]

Jaci, thank you so much for the vulnerability. You are helping so many followers by sharing this journey. You’re SO strong and although I’m older than you, I look up to you in so many ways!

[@steffilane9280]

sending all the love and prayers your way! thank you for being vulnerable with us on this journey! there is no doubt in my mind - you will be the most amazing parents! 🤍

[@BaileyMire-oc6yu]

I’m so sorry. The feeling of being left behind by friends is so real and valid. It feels like you’re frozen in time and the world goes on. I’m praying so hard for next transfer🤍

[@mariahguevara7655]

Rooting you on so hard. Sharing your journey is incredibly brave. Sending so much love & hope for your future baby ❤

[@itskenziew]

You are so strong not only for experiencing this but also for sharing your journey with us. Sending you and Leif so much love and healing❤️

[@kayleemoore4425]

Praying daily for you and Leif and your future baby ♥️ the way you two love each other just shows how incredible you will be as parents. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, this whole process has been so eye opening to me. I LOVE YOU!!

[@charlottecampbell6113]

Jaci i have been a silent viewer for a while but i just want to say how inspiring it is to watch you and leif on this journey. You guys are so strong and positive and are going to become amazing parents one day!!!

[@westcoastnaturals01]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey! I’m starting ivf literally tomorrow and it’s overwhelming how many emotions I feel. If I’m being honest I’m expecting the next few months to be hell. Thank you for being real about how sad and difficult this journey is in reality.

[@Danikrywulak]

sending you so much love & light jaci thank you for being so vulnerable & sharing your journey 🤍 all the best in 2024!🤍

[@adorosemarie]

You are allowed to feel everything that you feel! Sending you so !such love and thank you for sharing this! It is so insightful💓💓💓💓

[@singingriddle]

gosh jaci, we are all just so proud of you and leif and your strength - your future kiddos are gonna watch this someday and know they are so LOVED by their mom and dad. xoxoxoxo

[@hellomynameisamazin1]

Jaci- thank you for opening up and sharing this process. It isn’t easy to be vulnerable, so just know you’re seen and loved. 🥺 I am so hopeful and praying for your second round of transfer.

[@laurenjaneanc]

Jaci I’m so proud of you for sharing this!! You’ve been so authentic and I’m so excited for your future transfer🤍 praying for you!!

[@gabriellewhite13]

I’m crying alongside you queen & I relate to so many of the emotions you’re sharing. Thank you for sharing your journey with us 🤍🫶🏻🥺

[@allisonkelly3922]

praying for you and Leif❤️ thank you for sharing this with us we are rooting for you guys throughout every day of the process

[@abbyferullo8513]

balling my eyes out i feel for you❤praying for all good things, you’re going to be the best mom one day and i know it. timing is everything and when it’s meant to be it will be, we love you so much jaci🥹🥹🥹

[@sarahgirard2314]

Thank you so much for sharing this. My hubby and I are about start IVF with the egg retrieval and I am struggling so much with what to feel, how hopeful to be, how much to prepare that it might not work… so many emotions. I appreciate you being real and raw and honest… I can fully relate to SO much of your journey - even friends being pregnant. I feel grateful to hear from someone in a similar situation because I don’t know anyone else going through IVF.

[@katenickel8178]

Hoping & praying for a successful outcome & peace throughout the process!! Thank you for being raw and authentic in sharing your journey with us🤍 you and Leif are so strong and you truly have a whole army of people supporting you from your close friends and family to lady & the valley girls! ❤️❤️❤️

[@LiviBurke]

Thank you for sharing this journey with us, even when it's hard. You are so loved and prayed for!

[@abbeyz9272]

So many prayers for you. You’re so strong thank you for being so vulnerable

[@cassielando1417]

I feel this hurt so deeply and personally. Thank you for being vulnerable to so many who have no insight into this process. It is so so brave. When doubt comes again, we are all here hoping for you, even when you can’t.

[@cassielando1417]

You have every right to be sad that your friends are pregnant and if you need to focus on other friendships for now that is 100% okay. You need to protect yourself 🩷

[@crazzysyd]

Going through ivf right now & doing our first transfer soon, thank you so much for being so vulnerable. Wishing the best for you 🩷🩷

[@alliewalbrown410]

Thank you for being so raw and real, and for sharing your journey. Sending all the positive thoughts for transfer #2 🤍

[@WrensHealthy]

My heart goes out to you ❤ I’ve gone through a similar journey with IVF, getting good results and then transfers failing for seemingly no reason- it’s so hard in the moment, but one day when you have your baby you’ll look back and see how strong it made you & how wonderful of a story you’ll get to tell your baby someday 💕 sending you lots of sticky vibes & love!!

[@annikawhitemarsh552]

sending you and leif so much love. I can’t imagine how painful this experience has been for you guys. you’re amazing your body is so strong going through all of this!

[@818marina]

Cried along with you, Jaci 🫶🏼 so inspired and proud of your bravery for sharing this with us. We’re all sending love and prayers to you and Leif. Your sweet baby is coming, I know it 🤍✨

[@carinaconnecting]

sending you guys so much love!! crossing my fingers so hard for this next transfer 🤞🏼

[@kdhandley_]

Oh, Jaci. Sending all my love to both of you with tears in my eyes. How incredibly brave and strong you both are!!!

[@mariahcaldwell_]

thank you for being so vulnerable and real ❤️ sending you guys all my love.

[@dominicapadilla4710]

My heart aches💔 I feel like you guys are my friends and I’ve been praying and routing for you guys through this whole process. I will continue to be hopeful and keep you in my prayer! Sending sooo much love!❤️ Thank you for being so vulnerable. I know that this will help so many 🫶

[@swttay]

Oh Jaci my heart was breaking for you and Leif watching this episode. I too was shocked when you took the test. I knew IVF was difficult but had no idea the intricacies until you began sharing. Thank you for being so vulnerable and letting us tag along on the journey. The shots, the medication, the emotional and mental tolls on you and Leif. I wholeheartedly hope for the day your dreams come true. Sending so much love 🤞🏼🥹🤍

[@clairealise]

I cried with you at the beginning. Thank you for sharing your journey. Sending hugs and prayers your and Leif’s way ❤

[@emilyandcoast9832]

Thank you for being so vulnerable. I have so many dear friends who have walked this journey and my heart breaks for you. One of my friends started a podcast called As A Mother that is about the journey to motherhood for those who find themselves fighting to do so. It’s really real, and really really good - and even as a friend who hasn’t walked this road there has been so much I have learned in how to walk well with people through IVF and just fertility struggles as a whole. Would highly recommend if you think that’s something that would be helpful 💜 Genuinely praying for you and your family as you walk into this new year and next chapter. xx

[@mckinleywright8288]

Jaci, you and Leif are so brave. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this, it’s heartbreaking and beautiful to watch you go through this together . I’ve not experienced this in particular, but have experienced a pregnancy loss that was devastating. I know you and Leif will be the best parents when your time comes, and I hope that it’s soon ❤ so much love to you both and your future little one

[@user-tx2vj3hm4b]

Thank you for sharing this journey! You are so strong! You are helping so many couples by sharing your experience. Praying that your next transfer is successful!

[@alyssastacks3353]

Ahhhhh!! I went to check if you had uploaded and you literally just did! All the best to you guys. ❤

[@bethanydickerson5646]

Hi Jaci!! I’ve watched your videos for so many years now, and I feel like you are my friend! I have been crying with you during these videos and hope you know you aren’t alone! Your feelings are so valid, and I admire you so much for sharing them with us and being vulnerable. Sending you so much love!!! I hope you find the strength to continue fighting, we are all rooting for you! 🫶🏻

[@katelynsedivy]

Jaci, your tears are not alone. Your pain isn't just on your shoulders. We are all here for you, even with being in all different life stages. Thank you for being so vulnerable. As a young college student and seeing you go through different life stages over the years, you have helped me realize that everything we go through in life has been shared by someone else - emotions, thoughts, and all. Thank you for being yourself.

[@jaelynrae8836]

Thank you for sharing your journey ❤ Praying for you guys!!!

[@nataliek.8076]

crying with you guys… you’ve been in my thoughts! keep your peace & boundaries throughout this process. yall are so so strong!

[@anapp61]

sending you all the love and strength 🫶🏻 i cant imagine what you're going through 🥺

[@JazVictoria]

Thank you for being so brave and vulnerable! My 1st transfer ended in a chemical but my 2nd transfer resulted in my now 19 month old daughter. I’ve seen a lot of success the 2nd time around. I would suggest changing your protocol/meds. I believe that’s what worked for me bc I’m now pregnant with my 2nd baby using the same exact protocol! There’s hope!!!

[@kathrynrebecca7233]

This is so interesting to learn about IVF firsthand. I’ve had friends do it and had no idea what exactly is involved. Thank you so much for sharing and praying for peace and strength for you and Lief. Much love to you both.

[@joiwood423]

Jaci do not beat yourself up for believing it would work. You had all the reason to be excited and hopeful! I am praying for yall so much during the season ❤

[@madelynbella]

So heartbroken for you guys. Sending you and Leif so so much love. Been a valley girl for over a year now and you bring so much joy into my life, I just know good things are coming for you. Been praying and hoping for you guys. Love you Jaci! You are so strong and I admire your courage and vulnerability so much. ❤️❤️❤️

[@Megl347]

Rooting for you guys so hard! Good things are coming 💓

[@briannanbarker02]

sending so much love, you’re so strong and i hope you and leif know how loved and supported you both are!

[@mariannekhoury5189]

Thank you for sharing your journey with us❤️ Sending you so so much love jaci🤍🤍🤍

[@mackenzieputnal6413]

Heartbroken for you. My husband and I lost our first pregnancy earlier this year and the grief is really difficult. As painful as it is, thank you for sharing your story and making us feel less alone. 🌈👼

[@jacimarie_]

I’m so sorry 💔❤️‍🩹 thank you for your support xo

[@giuliannabarahonarodriguez6936]

My hearts goes to you both. You are truly inspiring to still have the strength to share this in relatively real time. Lots of rainbow dust for you guys!

[@annagardiner8351]

Your transparency and honesty is admirable. You deserve this and you should not have to suffer in silence. I’m rooting so hard for both of you in this journey. ❤❤

[@morganstevenson3836]

Jaci, so heartbroken for y’all but I have so much peace and hope for you and Leif. You will be the most INCREDIBLE mom. I will continue to pray for you!!! Sending all the light and love 🫶

[@amandalyndorner]

Sending you and Leif so much love during this time!!

[@alexismerritt5726]

Watching this brings back so many memories of where I was last year and has me tearing up. Sending ❤ to you all.

[@1313aves]

Sitting here crying because I know that pain so much, that disappointment and hurt. I see so many comments of people sharing their success and while it can bring hope it is also can be a stark reminder of the success you haven't had . I've been TTC for 3 years, similar age to you and have severe stage 4 endometriosis. I had two surgeries and a chemical pregnancy in September, the first time ever seeing a positive only for it to quickly disappear. Infertility is a unique type of grief, one that only someone else can understand if they too were in the trenches. I am so so sorry this IVF cycle didn't work. People think IVF is a guarantee for pregnancy and have no idea how psychological and emotionally challenging it can be, mostly when the result isn't what you hoped. I don't have much encouragement as I am still sitting in the trenches but I see you, I know that pain and I'm sorry. I hope you get a miracle in your arms.

[@sarahkolk7530]

Really appreciate your vulnerability in this whole process. Thank you for continuing to share & sending y’all soooo much love ❤️

[@rachmlamb]

I really felt in my gut this video was going to share good news. 😢 I’m so sorry, but I see the strength in you and your positivity and confidence really does make a difference in this process even though it’s hard and you are obviously so valid to feel disappointed and sad. I truly feel like your baby is coming soon and that this process will work for you guys. Sending you so much love, I have thought about you every day since you put out these videos ❤🥹

[@lexamarie8483]

Just so incredibly proud of you, thank you for being so real with us❤️‍🩹💓🫶🏼

[@paulinas7733]

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Sending you and Leif so much love ❤❤

[@MarinaKprodan]

Im so sorry you are going thru this Jaci. :( I’ve been thru something similar where all my friends were getting pregnant and I was not and totally know the feeling you mentioned if I knew I’ll have kids I’d be relaxed and I now have two kids! When it will happen for you it will be so special!! Blessings to your journey and hope this next transfer is your miracle baby!! ❤️🙏🏼