Over 60 and living as a nomad in the UK. Dealing with my mental health is my daily routine

Follow a 64 year old nomad who has walked out on society. Mental health affects us all. I want to talk about it.
Travelling Lite

[@amyclarke6892]

I’m rooting for you. I love how independent you are! Xxx thanks for sharing.

[@Bobsbud100]

Keep on moving forward and doing what you want to do. Live large girl.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

That’s right , life is all about advancing and moving forward an aggregation of souls like pebbles in the river, rubbing up together to be made smooth. Just keep moving and that is living.

[@susanehlava3808]

You are amazing, keep going, you have achieved so much on your own. It’s not easy.l find you inspirational you only have yourself to rely on

[@karendivine6113]

You are amazing . I wish I had your strength to change my life .

[@Bobsbud100]

You will find it if you really want to and if it's meant to be. ✌

[@christineb-jbsbtb]

I enjoy watching your vlogs and will continue to watch the ads, its sad to hear that you had to endure mental abuse for those many years which should have been happier times instead. I bet its made you stronger in many ways though. Losing a pet during uncertain times and a business too would have been tough, I can't imagine what you went through. You're one inspiring lady though, a go getter, trying out new jobs, living life on the edge, never giving up and moving forward. I'm glad you found a way to reach out and voice your personal opinions and show your experiences online while receiving feedback either positive or negative, there seems to be limited help out there for anyone going through changes. Looking forward to hearing more about the history you started to share and your continued life experiences.

[@daveyboyprice6351]

you are so right girl life is for liveing like me i am 57 now full time van life now 8 years on just go for it blessing peace davey

[@Bobsbud100]

How easy is it to find parkups? I'm 52 and considering it.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

Aye Daveyboy but it’s part of your culture, so to you it is normal.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@Bobsbud100 Matty is right, in the long term as a permanent itinerant Nomad, I would not recommend it . Government is already clamping down . Local Authorities are focussed on receiving Council Tax. In Scotland a new rule had come out this year , whereby you can park up for 24 hours in the Car Parks at the cost of the Car Park. However you are forbidden to return for at least 72 hours/3 days, or else you incur a huge fine. So they are saying you have to have a Home Address in that. Wales 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿 and the West Country settled inhabitants are fed up with van lifers too, sometimes aggressively so in Wales. There are now so many van lifers it has become boring , monotonous and done to death on You Tube too. You get females almost declaring “Look at me living sparsely in my Berlingo with room for nothing and nobody else but my Yoga Mat ! And what if there is a major vehicle problem you have lost your home.

[@Bobsbud100]

@@Anita-gp1gv Good comment and thanks for the advice. I have a little van that I can do overnights in. I did here it was getting more difficult and I live in Devon and currently trying to get to my local beach can be ridiculous with all the campervans. ✌

[@carrierogers2797]

I’m 40 and struggling to get to grips with anxiety at the minute, it’s causing me to stay home unless absolutely necessary. I admire your strength, I need to get out and about more to forget my thoughts . I live in Wrexham, might try taking the train to Llandudno later in the week ☺️

[@jaynekittycat9252]

Llandudno is lovely Carrie. Keep strong.

[@dianneperry1741]

When I was in my late 30's I had awful anxiety and depression, but I had no reason to be. Now 20 years on I don't suffer from it thank god.

[@scotty634]

Anxiety is horrible but maybe start with little walks and build it up , I started walking till I was worn out and it was only till I got home and sat on the say we that I used to feel it leaving but I'm so sorry for you coz it's really frightening , when my mam died I got it so bad I was having panic attacks so bad , I couldn't eat sleep and I had to go into hospital for three weeks coz I went to 6 and a half stone . You will get there coz your strong !

[@carrierogers2797]

@@dianneperry1741 that gives me hope, Iv always had mild anxiety but since working in a care home through Covid it’s become ten times worse. Iv left the job 6 months ago but the anxiety hasn’t eased yet

[@carrierogers2797]

@@scotty634 thank you Lacey, it is horrible, I ended up in hospital with my first panic attack thinking I was dying, they really are debilitating

[@junehansen5220]

And you have an infectious wonderful sense of humour. Thanks for sharing your brave journey with us!

[@frankiebye]

I so wished you hadn't given up your flat. I understand losing your lovely Cassie knocked you for six but you gave her love and I'm sure a lovely life. I know I've commented on your videos and at times arguably probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm not a troll I'm just trying to be helpful. Sometimes we have to look at our own behaviour. I truly wish you contentment & happiness and I sincerely hope you find it. The situation regarding someone contacting your place of work : obviously anyone connected to the Internet can view your videos, even those who you work with. If you post to a public forum you're putting your life out there so be sensible about what you share

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@dianestevens2659 I agree I recall a person with MS looking for a miracle instant healing, and sympathetic people saying , you shall be fully healed soon , and dancing the night away in a red pair of shoes 👠. This was unhelpful, sometimes it’s hard to digest tough love, but we like to dish it out to others. Equally it’s unhelpful to give people false hope out of sympathy . Truth without love is harsh, love without truth is sympathy , love and truth is Ahimsa - Peace . As Ghandiji espoused - “Ghandijis Lufe in his own words.”

[@dandelionwishes9842]

i think you can almost tell who found your work n contacted them by the video comments,hope you don't stop videoing,would really miss you,,take care & stay safe.,keep living in the moment and take steps little at a time to work on your goals, I see you as a courageous gogeter, don't be hard on yourself ;)

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 Grief , Dandelion & Burdoch is turning you into a stalking gaslighted and vengeful troll artist Mattie.

[@dandelionwishes9842]

No Mattie , i know,i wasn't talking about You,your comments to me are funny 😂

[@sandi.huskisson]

You really do inspire me , as I'm retired and also at a crossroads in my life, it's quite a different feeling completely, and I enjoy how you share your feelings and experiences, as it helps me process what I'm going through ...and I don't feel so alone!!! Yes, indeed, viewers should not get involved in your life , only if needed or asked .... Perhaps they were trying to "help" you, but unfortunately probably made it worse? Thanks for your insights and thoughts, I value them so much ❤️🇿🇦❤️

[@sandi.huskisson]

Hi Mattie, yes, I thought of that, more likely to be an ex colleague!!! Horrid how folk make trouble , internet isn't always a great thing !!!❤️🇿🇦❤️

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@sandi.huskisson You are right Sandi, too many people think the Internet and eg You Tube is a value free zone, but we really need to be more authentic and accountable. When Hagar and Ishmael were out on their own the said “Thou Oh Lord sees me” everything shall one day be truthful , transparent and come to light.

[@scotty634]

@@sandi.huskisson his Sandi do you know what I'm glad you get summit out of her channel coz your lovely !

[@sandi.huskisson]

@@scotty634 thank you for your kind comment, I think you are lovely too!!! ❤️🇿🇦❤️

[@scotty634]

@@sandi.huskisson ♥️

[@attbeach6927]

It's called setting boundaries.

[@EppingForest304]

As usual, I’m enjoying the comments section more than the vlog!

[@Anita-gp1gv]

And what motivates you on the comments then Epping Forest 🌳? Mind the tics when you nip between those dark trees 😜 . My bro in law lived in Epping.

[@youtuber.2630]

Keep your chin up and don't let any one get you down or your mental health, it's good advice forcing yourself to move forward.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

TL is becoming more self aware methinks , that she places a barrier around herself , emotionally for self protection.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 ✅

[@Csmith103]

I love watching your vlogs and I’m so glad you’re back! I completely understand not wanting to be stuck in one place. You would be good working with kids I just hope you find a job you can enjoy until you can retire.

[@sheilajoseph9953]

Bless you 🙏 I believe everything happens for us to learn and change. No matter what age we are we learn throughout life. Although you loved your flat and may wish you didn't give it up it obviously wasn't going to be your forever home. Don't give up experiencing life even as a nomad, somewhere along your journey you will find what makes you happy and gives you joy. Hope you find a job you love and happiness within yourself. Keep safe and thankyou for sharing your experience. ❤

[@margaretomahony7528]

Sometimes I life we blame other people for all our problems but in reality we need to take a closer look at ourselves nobody perfect🙉🤦

[@simonjenkins1290]

Trying to assist others - without expecting a return - is surely one of the most noble aspirations we can aim for. To do so whilst in the midst of your own mental health issues is especially powerful. Perhaps you might consider the written word as well as video? It's said we all have a book in us and that all stories are journeys; in that case your book would be particularly powerful: not because of a Hollywood ending (yet anyway) but because of authenticity, courage (quite frankly) and forbearance. Keep on, keeping on! Best, from a fellow MH traveller. Simon @SussexSimon

[@travellinglite]

That's a lovely comment, thanks Simon. I have years of journals but to sit down and write, I just don't have the patience, it takes me about 2 hours just to write a sentence as I write a lot of stuff back to front and then have to go back and re write, thank goodness for computers!! That's why I video my journey, it's something I can do and if it helps, even better. Take care.x

[@simonjenkins1533]

Yes it's difficult to sit down and "write something" speaking personally my mind wanders and I suddenly have a desire to do anything but write! Legacy from schooldays probably. But for many myself included, recording my thoughts (as you do on video) then transcribing just the odd line ( that may stand out for you)later gives a framework, in which it's surprisingly easy to add to. Before you know it you've got a paragraph, chapter...etc. Best to you! Sx @SussexSimon

[@kimbergin4392]

Nice too hear from you so soon. Can’t you go and stay with any of your children for a while? Until you get sorted x

[@jmiles860]

I look forward to seeing your vlogs .I would love to see you get a old campervan to live in and travel .

[@Sammy_Dodger]

Be kind to yourself and smile 😊 as you said, we have to keep moving forwards.

[@madge216]

I think it is clear from all the hateful comments previously posted who contacted your place of work. You have to feel sorry for that person, they clearly have no life and have nothing to do with their time. I was worried for you as you have shared that you do have some mental health issues, don’t we all at some point in our lives? I’m glad that you are aware of the trolls and addresses them in this video, keep on treating them with the contempt they deserve, it drives them mad that you don’t respond!

[@Anita-gp1gv]

Well you are all wrong and accusative ! My daughter suffers similarly to TL , each time she gets a new job via Agency , she lives the job but invariably the Agency work dries up. The difference is she has people there for her to support her. We don’t drivel on and make groundless accusations , that would hold her back, in the last job she had. TL was doing a Security job, and so, there has to be Clearance when you are working with the Public in a job like that. None of us know the Real history or intricacies of each other. I didn’t know I was living next door to a murderer either. I had no idea until things fell into place. When we worked with Asylum Seekers we had to have “Enhanced Clearance”. I don’t know the exact past details of TL ,s life because it’s not my business. But I can assess the trauma she suffered as a child , because it’s tangible. So before you all gang up and poke a finger at Mattie, first throw stones at your own Conservatory.

[@alisonbongo3287]

It’s the vile troll Mattie I’d put money on it. What a sad individual!

[@scotty634]

So if you have a life and plenty to do what YOU doing on here eh ? durrr ..

[@scotty634]

@@alisonbongo3287 if you had any brain you should know that she never ever said her place of work , never so how the he'll would he know that , you want to think about what your saying making yourself out to be this lovely person sticking your neck out for TL and then coming out with that crap ! I don't believe for one minute you really give a shit for TL you just have a need in you to be thought of as this great person sticking your neck out for this women and then you come out with that , just proves how lovely you are mind doesn't it !

[@nr1785]

@@mattiemclean9882 you can give it but you can’t take it. Typical of the run of the mill coward.

[@travellinglite]

If I don't reply or heart your answers I'm really sorry. Sometimes there are so many. I will try to do the first few on each video, but don't take it personally, each comment you make may well help someone else. I know some of you reply to other's (is that right grammar?) comments, and that's great as long as your not trolling them. Troll me, help others, read the comments and let's build a better community of misfits lol.

[@travellinglite]

@@mattiemclean9882 That's OK Mattie. Everyone has to have somewhere to vent I suppose. There's constructive criticism and then there's down right ignorance. I just avoid the ignorant.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 my husband is an Essex lad too ! You always know when he is tired because his Essex drawl comes out.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 This is all alien to me and after my time, I used to listen to my big brothers records “The House of the Rising Sun “ and Sonny and Cher etc , but my music is Country & Western, Blue Grass and Irish ☘️ (Daniel O Donnell ) your type is too abstract for me alas. So I have no idea what Patrick is on about , but his stalking is a bit disconcerting.

[@helengregor8589]

@@Patrick-jy1ms was it " electric tears "?

[@helengregor8589]

@@mattiemclean9882 electric tears ?

[@dawndexter9779]

Stay strong , you are very much a inspiration. I love your vlogs, more please.

[@pamelabuhr4542]

Mattie criticizing her for working, being independent, wanting to pay her own way is being a j---. She does not want to live in public housing. She has a work ethic.

[@pamelabuhr4542]

She found out you were living in her neighborhood that is why she moved. Wake up she does not want to be in public housing. She wants to work & have her own place. Whatever it is a car, camper, apt or tiny house. Sounds like she has worked her whole life & just wants to work part time & travel.

[@AymeeDonovan]

@@pamelabuhr4542 she lived up north nowhere near London your mistaken .

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 Touché !

[@wendycarter5973]

We’ll I think your doing amazing 🤩 x

[@pamelabuhr4542]

You can delete what you want. This vlog is yours. Delete the trolls. They never give positive remarks or good advice.

[@junehansen5220]

The way you are able to analyze and rationalize your life does not sound mixed up or confused to me! You have a way beyond average grip on reality! You are heading for something positive..I can’t wait..

[@scotty634]

Yes your right so how come she claiming depression then if shes the things you claim , that does not therefore come under the category of depression !

[@lindafirth1562]

I've listened carefully to your plans and aspirations and wish you well, but I'm not convinced you have really thought through what you need to do. So, if I'm not convinced, then my thinking is that other people will not be either and this will no doubt impact on your ability to succeed eg to obtain the longer term permanent job you are looking for. Please, make sure you know exactly what you want and why you want it, in the very short term, the next 2 to 3 years and the next 10 to 20 years - only then it will it sound convincing. Talk it over 100 times with anybody is the best way to get it right. Good luck.

[@dinacox1971]

I think that you need to consider more healing before you are in a position to care for children. It is not my intention to be harsh but rather I think that you could be very well served by finding someone that was a safe and stable sounding board for you. Is it possible to go to social services and find a counselor? You need someone to talk to that has your best interest at heart. Someone with insight. It could be so good for you as you chart your path forward.

[@louisehyden4802]

I agree with you 💯 she's not ready . But wasn't sure in what capacity she was thinking ?

[@Bobsbud100]

It's not that easy to get help and there are waiting lists of upto 2 years.

[@dinacox1971]

@@Bobsbud100 I am so sorry to hear that. As an American, I must have an unrealistic perception of your health care system. The fact that you enjoy universal health care which we so desperately need clearly does not have all of the advantages that I thought. I wonder if she could join a group? I would think that might help with the isolation and could be a big improvement over some of the less than helpful friendships she has been having.

[@naelyneurkopfen9741]

@@dinacox1971 Universal health care is the last thing we need! You can't get in when you need to, they decide if you're worthy of the treatments and their costs and they're not as advanced as we are here. It's a miserable, overrun system on the verge of collapse.

[@minkgin3370]

@@dianestevens2659 ….I think that’s the last thing she wants or needs. She’s already said she doesn’t want a ‘live-in’ job, it would interfere with her independence.

[@sarahjane8949]

We all can make mistakes and wrong choices so don’t beat yourself up about it and move on and enjoy your life 💖💜🌹

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 No she didn’t Mattie. How would you like it if you had lived in your Country for 11 years with your parents, a totally different culture to the UK. A wisdom that does not emphasise and place value on only Academic achievement . Then you were uprooted from your life without negotiation and sent to an alien Country where much of it was superficial, emphasising twee Grace and manners having to watch all your P,s & Q,s being on edge. This was alienation for a child of 11, too much transition for all children to cope with. “Give me the child until he/she is seven and I will give you the man “ - Jesuit Priest .

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 Yes I know but even the last 12 months is in effect the product of her life.

[@scotty634]

@@Patrick-jy1ms do you really think Mattie and me were him then he would pick a ridiculous name like mine eh ?

[@AymeeDonovan]

@@Anita-gp1gv What 😳🧐 She lived a privileged life growing up far more so than most in this country. Moving countries as a child isn't a reason to behave like she does , qe can't just blame our childhood on the way we act as Adults , we must own our past and not use it as a reason to keep making terrible life choices. Your really picking at straws now ffs.

[@scotty634]

@@Patrick-jy1ms ooh Patrick stop I'm going all gooey , that's the nicest thing you've ever said to me !

[@natashabarnes4496]

I found your video really helpful.

[@lindyosborne4732]

ha ha yes you are and yes I do ! Keep on keeping on x

[@pamelabuhr4542]

I think I know why Mattie is so hostile to TL. He made a remark about how she lived in the Waltham Forest & she gave up her apartment in public housing. Which seems to upset him. Because he thinks she got in right away & did not have to go on a waiting list. She is over sixty so maybe that is why she got in sooner. She no doubt had to be on a waiting list for older people. To quote Mattie he said, It made his blood boil because, she walked away. It is none of your business. She can do what is best for her.

[@scotty634]

Eeh listen to miss marple !

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@scotty634 Aye Lacey, I recall sitting on a Panel, when folks were trying to get their kids in highly valued schools 🏫, and there was one in short skirts, emphasised she was public school educated, and that her little ‘Johnny’ was such a sensitive chap she didn’t want him going to a school that was predominantly working class. The Panel of three were supposed to vote according to the leading of an obnoxious guy, who had just tried to prevent siblings being in a school together , but two of us over ruled him. And the sibling was awarded a place. Then Mr Obnoxious ruled the her ‘little Johnny’ should go to the middle class West End, school and not the equi distant working class school. We ruled against Mr Obnoxious decision and ruled that he should. Go to the working class school. Afterwards we were told we wouldn’t be needed any more to sit on the Panel 😜 so we are talking Class Distinction and Prejudice. I noted Patrick’s sarcastic remark on Mattie weight. If Patrick doesn’t watch it I will come and sit on him and then he will know what’s him. Making Fattist remarks. I bet he is one of those that does to women on Public Transport .

[@scotty634]

@@Anita-gp1gv right on there sister , love it !

[@pamelabuhr4542]

No, you are not her Mother or the police this is her story she is just telling her story to reach out to others in the same situation & she likes showing places she has traveled or lived. Because she is telling her story to us does not mean it is our business to interfere That means you do not have the right to jerk her around. Their is no crime. You are not giving any good advice. You are making fun of her & being rude. Get a life. Get out of your parent's house. Get a job.

[@scotty634]

@@mattiemclean9882 yawn yawn YAWN I bet she's had that written down and practised it three times before she wrote it ha ha

[@dianneperry1741]

I think you need friends, and maybe joining a Meetups Group. I'm in Meetups, and have done things that cost little or no money.

[@pamelabuhr4542]

I admire you. You never give up & have a good outlook on life. I hope you find a fulltime year around job. Take care & God Bless.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 🤣😂🤣✅

[@Anita-gp1gv]

When I read a persons comment I always predict Mattie witty repost and I am usually right

[@pamelabuhr4542]

Anita, Mattie is not witty. Mean is a better word. Maybe she should get her life together because she sounds like she does not like her life when she is insulting someone with depression. If Mattie is a teacher God help the poor children. If she is a teacher she should know not to bully others. Especially someone with depression. Her remarks are meant to put her down not help her.

[@scotty634]

@@pamelabuhr4542 Mattie is a man for God's sake how many times have you got to be told !

[@pamelabuhr4542]

@@scotty634 are you sure

[@MissOrchid12]

I'm confused, how do you know someone contacted your work? Did you leave or were you asked to leave? Seems v unlikely.

[@louisehyden4802]

Good question 🤔

[@louisehyden4802]

@@mattiemclean9882 I've watched them all from the beginning Like you . The flat , the car , the tent , the travel Inn and the house share . The people , the job's , the leaving , the car crash and tbh I still don't get it .Lol 😆 🤣 😂 I feel we're on a Loop now 😅 😂

[@scotty634]

EXCACTLY

[@Anita-gp1gv]

I can understand TL thinking somebody contacted her work, but, the facts are if you are working in Security there are discreet background checks that takes some time to unearth. People and police are expected to be more thorough now. Police have been so lax in the past , at Whorlton Castle , Darlington Disturbed and autistic young people were abused all ways . Insufficient background checks were conducted. We have lived here nearly 20 years, and I told two of the people taken to Court for abusing, almost 20 years prior, you cannot have a job working with people because you are too Great a threat . Gathering conkers and literally threw all of them at husbands head whilst gardening. Police were inept and let these people slip through the Enhanced Clearance net . But this had become so frequent that now Police have to change to accord with law. So now less people are able to slip through the Security net.

[@juliehandley5003]

Good luck babe xx

[@Yvonneb_]

Great video. Always love your videos. I'm gonna have to go back because I think whilst I have not been well I have missed a couple. Xx

[@travellinglite]

Hi Yvonne, sorry you haven't been well. You probably haven't missed too many videos as I didn't do a lot whilst I was employed. Probably get a few now I'm unemployed, lol. Take care

[@johnb5352]

@@travellinglite A lot of people screw their lives up,or have them screwed up for them.No ones perfect & everyone has their own way of getting through the days.You’ve got some guts to put your own life out there ,for us all to see & give our own views on.

[@louisehyden4802]

Well I wasn't expecting this so soon . Wouldn't you have been better using your free bus pass ? You could have had a nice day out without getting wet .take care .

[@Anita-gp1gv]

Assume nothing, has TL even got a free bus pass ? Or, some people prefer trains 🚊. I am just glad she is getting out and about.

[@jmiles860]

Maybe it was someone where you were working as they can watch your vlogs to .🤔

[@Anita-gp1gv]

I just thought this guy being off work for a long time was iffy tbh. And sometimes people can appear to be Prince Charming whilst stabbing you in the back.

[@thepickledpixie9052]

I think she should be assessed for ASD. Women often present differently from men and slip through the net, it was very much considered a male condition back in the day. She appears to have some difficulties with social situations, the workplace, communication and seems to have been most content living alone with her dog and moving on, doing her own thing when things get tough. Neurodiverse people are more likely to suffer from mental health issues than neurotypicals, I think this would be worth enquiring about.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

TL is a unique worthy individual, to turn her into a Freudian experiment is offensive really. Besides which she probably rejects Freudian labels and prefers the Jungian Theory. “We do not comprehend the world 🌎 by our thoughts and theories, but by our feelings too “ Jung. But more especially TL,s philosophy accords with Ghandijis Satyagraha in the Quest for Truth thus Ahimsa - Inner Peace ✌️.

[@thepickledpixie9052]

@@Anita-gp1gv of course she's a unique and worthy individual. She may or may not be on the spectrum but to imply that neurodiverse people are some kind of Freudian experiment is bizarre. We are valid. Roughly 1 in 60 are neurodiverse.

[@lesleyhubble2976]

@@Anita-gp1gv interesting I’ve never studied Freud or any of the new age people on mental health

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@lesleyhubble2976 Well the weirdo Clement Freud grandson of Freud (Portugal) allegedly , Child Abuser and friends of Democrats especially John and Tony Podesta 🍕🌭 🇺🇸 , and the Mc Canns , who met up with the Podestas and HRC and Democrats whilst Fundraising to ‘Find our Maddie’ . So he was a product of Frued being his grandson. Now strangely enough Frued loved analysing everybody else, yet he himself refused to be analysed as Psychology and Psychiatry was expanding.

[@lesleyhubble2976]

@@Anita-gp1gv wow I didn’t know that either, certainly vile people. Hide behind there so called intelligence and power. What a bunch of bastards

[@jacquinorris3021]

Thank you. You have done so much to help me with my mental health issues over the last 12 months. I have had days where I would watch and rewatch your videos as you inspired me to move out of my own deep dark months of hiding behind a closed door and taking some risks, be it just being able to walk past other people. You’ve been my lifeline by following your travels and your good and bad days. You have so much courage. I’m sorry that just a few spoiled it for the rest of us when you decided not to go along with your mental health community. I’d have been happy to sign up. I’m just so saddened that anyone would go as far as stalking you and finding out where you work. That’s nobody’s business and I think it’s such a low act of someone who needs to really understand the consequences, but then again people like that don’t care about anyone but themselves. Thank you again for sharing so much of your life with us who care about you xxx

[@travellinglite]

I'm so glad to hear this. Remember you have immense mental strength if can do these things and you should be proud of yourself for realising your struggles and dealing with them. It's so easy to close down and think no one is there for you, but as a community we are here for each other. Keep going. xx

[@stephenransley9377]

go girl god bless

[@dominic2923]

Great vidio 👍 godbless💚

[@Truth1561]

I think a live in job - even if for a short time- would make so much sense. I think holding out for something outside your present realistic Sphere is harming you because you are being rigid about what you will and won't do. You are also going in circles giving stuff away etc.

[@juliawigger9796]

Sweetie. May I suggest you call MIND. They help people who like you are in such a delemia it's effecting your mental health and decisions. Bless.

[@lindabiggs3905]

Think you need doctors help, meant kindly,,,

[@lesleyhubble2976]

If you could afford a van you could travel the U.K. and do seasonal work, that might be better for your health and happiness otherwise you can stagnate living in someone else’s house

[@KimmyWood]

A lot of live in care jobs are on a rota 2 weeks on 2 weeks off....not so bad. Money is good but you gotta get trained! Good luck. I think you will be great in social care

[@markharrison5120]

Join a care agency you’ll find places applicable to you

[@joetrp-3553]

Jesus Christ is our saviour, Give your life to him and you will be saved. God bless you all

[@AymeeDonovan]

How do you think you will cope with working with vulnerable children when you found working at a security guard unbearable ?! Even though it was a good job for you. You never think rationally at all , working with vulnerable children would require you to be stable and very tough emotionally. Which you aren't. Your not thinking straight and you need to apply for PIP for your mental health and take care of that as a priority before trying to help vulnerable children !

[@Bobsbud100]

It's not that simple to just work with vunerable children. You would need qualifications.

[@AymeeDonovan]

@@Bobsbud100 she seems to think it is... but she isnt rational she needs to sort her mental health out but she won't she just sabotages shit all the time and fucks stuff up for other people. Like the last job.

[@AymeeDonovan]

@@mattiemclean9882 thanks mate your comments are spot on also. How does she not see that she's the problem not others . X

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@Bobsbud100 yes you are right , you need Special Clearance , to work with anybody who is vulnerable…yet pervy police are in the news constantly, just go to PAP - Police Abusing Powers - scarey , our children need protecting but they aren’t a lot of the time.

[@scotty634]

@@AymeeDonovan nice one aymee

[@Bobsbud100]

People who get involved in other people's lives have got to be the saddest people on the planet. They must be full of bitterness and lead such empty lives.

[@danandsarah2026]

@@mattiemclean9882 why watch then ?

[@scotty634]

But that's what your doing now , you have come on to this channel yet your comments are to Mattie and not her so therefore your getting involved in matties life , exactly what your criticising him for doing !

[@Bobsbud100]

@@mattiemclean9882 Stop watching and if people give her money it's upto them.

[@Bobsbud100]

@@scotty634 That is the most ridiculous statement 🙄 if you had any sort of brain all Mattie does is moan, complain, try to pick this ladies comments apart which is just hateful and not good to always be so hateful. There are thousands of KZbin channels why don't you go and watch something that makes you happy 🤷

[@Bobsbud100]

@@mattiemclean9882 All that told them and me are that you both have formed a opinion of someone and are just here to spill hatred and negativity. Is this because she gave up her council flat and you can't get one?? It seem kind of personal because you are always writing vile reactions to everything she does. Just remember this lady is 64 and alone so stop it as it can have an extremely detrimental affect on her MH & physical health.

[@johnboy4067]

I don't know your full story and certainly not judging, but why give your housing association flat up as that's your security? I really hope you find what your looking for

[@ChrisLJM8760]

I'm curious how you feel you're able to care for children when its taking you all your time to care for yourself? You say you don't want to do live in or this, that or the other, but you're then saying you need to find a job, you can't be that needy if you can pick and choose or even do voluntary work - and who the crocodile hat is Keith???? I see a pattern here, Zack annoyed you and now Keith, really? When you put yourself out there on social media, be it KZbin or whatever, you're going to get someone who will know your whereabouts or at least its the risk one takes when one decides to broadcast their life - whilst I don't condone it, its the nature of the beast - if you want to have a community you must take the rough with the smooth - it won't always be roses around the door, there'll be pitfalls too - but you seem to have it all worked out so I guess that's the main thing.

[@minkgin3370]

I got the impression Keith was a bloke who lived in the flats & shared the kitchen. I also get the impression she doesn’t really like mixing with people, only on her own terms. I would have done things differently - like asking the female manager who had been kind to her, why she thought people there were turning against her - what had she done wrong & could she fix it, rather than just walk out of a job she enjoyed, but hey, we aren’t living her life & there must be a reason she didn’t want to carry on working there which I wouldn’t dream of interfering with. The fact she doesn’t ask for help & prefers to work things out by herself tells me she’s living HER life. Just because the rest of us like security doesn’t mean it’s for everyone. Yes, there has to come a time when she can’t live like this, but at the moment she feels she can, so I think Let her get on with it.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@minkgin3370 Oh and here’s me responding thinking Keith is the drop dead gorgeous guy, who took off at the first whiff 💩 of Shtf 😜.

[@travellinglite]

So in answer to a few comments. No I'm not making cash from my videos, I did at the start because of the great support, everyone watched the ads, so I really appreciate that, It's the only way I will make money here as I haven't set up any clubs, and honestly I'm happy with that. If you want to support watch some ads, but it's ok. I think it's become a bit of a mission for me now, seeing how many people are struggling.

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@mattiemclean9882 I don’t think anybody did , it’s the nature of the job to undergo Clearance and it takes a long time.

[@blethersy9206]

I think you’d find more people would watch the ads if you sorted out a more consistent sound level. I had to turn the volume up to max to hear you but then an ad started that was so loud if hurt my ears, so I skipped it as soon as I could.

[@travellinglite]

@@blethersy9206 Yes. I am sorry I really need to get a decent video phone. It's on my wish list. If anyone has any good mobile phones that you would recommend to buy, that doesn't cost the earth please let me know.

[@scotty634]

@@Anita-gp1gv yep your right but mind when I found out the lengths Patrick had went to find out about Mattie I was a bit surprised so I think if it was anyone at all it would have been Patrick trying to cause trouble for others .If he was able to find out all that maybe he could find out where she worked dunno really !

[@Anita-gp1gv]

@@scotty634 “Elementary my Dear Watson “ !

[@markaudley-thewles5920]

Bless you . You do go on a bit though. Plenty of us are in your situation.

[@scotty634]

She certainly does !

[@Anita-gp1gv]

Well it is her Vlog after all said and done.

[@elkierose6228]

What about rescue centres!...

[@gardenroom65]

A lot of us are having to downgrade in our older age.

[@scotty634]

Yes I agree I myself have a little stone cottage , I love it but if I had to downsize any more it would have to be a cat flap I think ...ha ha ha

[@jenniferhayhurst2312]

Try revitalise it’s at Southport

[@pam164]

Why don't you get a job in retail? Part time you will get help? I do that and its ok

[@ritavarley4395]

A lot of sick comments on here, some people have sad lives. But hopefully good and bad comments all add to TLs revenue so more fool you!!

[@Danno1983]

Y dont u get a Van or Camper ud b free

[@kazlee9213]

How about taking responsibility for your life and all you've done instead of blaming others, you bring a lot of your issues on yourself , if you don't like what people are saying then don't put your life on here

[@scotty634]

Too right kaz

[@jaynekittycat9252]

My advice to you TL, is to find a stable home in an area you like and STICK THERE. You can't be doing this lifestyle for much longer. Your not getting any younger. This lifestyle would be no good for anyone's mental health. Flitting from place to place. Please sort yourself out. Where are your relatives, you never mention your parents. Are they still alive. It just saddens me that you never mention family. It just feels a very odd situation your living. One symptom of depression, and take advice from me who has diagnosed depression, is that you become quite negative in your 🤔 thinking. While I was watching your video I felt that your mind is all over the place. You came across a bit paranoid which can be a symptom of depression. No one on this forum knows where you worked as you never gave us any company name. You keep mentioning your mental health, what are your problems. Are you depressed, do you have anxiety, can you enlighten us, then maybe we can help you. Believe me TL, a lot of people on here have had heartbrake. I lost my mother in 1981, My Father in 1996, then my beloved Sister in 1997. My beautiful Cat was euthanized last week, having had him as a stray since 2015. I'm heartbroken, but you have to crack on. No one is ganging up on you on here, but you do confuse a lot of people. Your not stable in your thinking. Being constantly on your own can't be good for you. Please sort your self out and take advice.

[@scotty634]

Arrr jayne my dear I'm so sorry for your losses you've been having a horrible time of it , so sorry pet... I truly am ! Your a lovely lady .

[@AymeeDonovan]

Sorry for your losses , they really are heartbreaking to lose people you love. I believe they are watching over us from the next world and guide us in life. I've suffered many utterly heartbreaking losses but you can't just abandon life and go live in the car because your dog passed on. That's not how real world works and TL will always struggle if she doesn't change , she won't get anywhere bumping around places I'm not sure how she even is getting jobs without references as she ups and leaves so many jobs she really needs to go on benefits and get counselling to sort her issues out .

[@AymeeDonovan]

@@mattiemclean9882 the carrying the ashes around is quite weird to do.

[@jaynekittycat9252]

@@AymeeDonovan Absolutely spot on Aymee. ❤

[@jaynekittycat9252]

@@mattiemclean9882 Hi Mattie, thank you for those kind words. It's still raw. I know you were not insensitive about the dog. TL, didn't mind living among Drug addicts. ( I no I wouldn't) , but left her flat when her Cassie died. I would not leave my place because my pet died. I love my place, couldn't wish for better neighbours. You have to crack on Mattie. It's hard. I have my moments where I cry. But time heals doesn't it. I think a lot of people on here just want her to get her act together, but I don't think she will change.

[@margaretomahony7528]

You must be getting cash from your utube channel enjoyx

[@CORRIGEEN71]

Your biggest failure is not owning your own home

[@nr1785]

So all of us that don’t own homes are failures? Hardly.

[@elkierose6228]

You should get ☔.umbrella.

[@Stringbean421]

Don't flatter yourself luv. I don't think anyone here on KZbin would take valuable time out of their lives to do what you claim.

[@scotty634]

Excactly stringbean

[@AymeeDonovan]

@@mattiemclean9882 I know you wouldn't and the other people who banter with you know that also. It's just the overly sensitive snowflakes and fanatics here that think otherwise. X

[@AymeeDonovan]

@@mattiemclean9882 WTF...no I didn't Know he was searching about you online.... what a deranged man he is. That is very weird.. yet he pokes the finger at you and assumes you would call her work ! What a crazy person I know you would never call her work, I dont think anyone did . Your a musican that's awesome sorry to hear Patrick stalked that info out just assume he's jealous. Hopefully he leaves you alone now x

[@scotty634]

@@mattiemclean9882 are you ok mate

[@scotty634]

@@mattiemclean9882 right if your that worried and I know you are first check your bank if your really worried , change your password I know you are going to get angry with me but I don't think that anyone on here would go to that lengths not even Patrick. anxiety latches on to something and your brain goes with it , it heightens it ..if someone did do summit then they would be caught if you think it was easy for Patrick to find out all that info then it's as easy as the police to do the same if he or anybody else were to risk doing that then there fools ..ring the bank I nearly got scammed and they were great they just change a Your details and put a flag on the account so any activity they jump on it quick they don't want this happening more than you and remember you are actually covered for fraud ..my mate got 20 grand taken out but the refunded it the next day coz it's there duty to keep your money safe . Do you think if Patrick was going to do that he wouldn't have told you about knowing this stuff he would have just done it , he isn't going to put himself in that position they would find him straight away . Your all right Mattie it's just the anxiety it tricks you .

[@anngibson8944]

This lady has issues now it's Keith ffs!!!! And she wants to care for children???? Deluded and quite frankly dangerous with her ideas/accusations !!!!!

[@scotty634]

Ha ha ha ha Ann your a scream !

[@scotty634]

@@HIOP0 eeh ha ha ha she's never trusted those weetabix , there just summit about them ...

[@seansmith445]

Maybe stop giving away your locations and keep it more vague.

[@travellinglite]

I could but I have such great followers and I think it's because of the honesty of my story. So I will keep my next proper job off limits to it's location but at the moment if people live near the jobs I go to for flex, and know that location it doesn't really bother me too much, unless I get a stalker and then it all gets shut down.😁

[@seansmith445]

@@travellinglite That would be a shame.