*It is not the light element alone that does the healing; the place where light and dark begin to touch is the most profound religious experience we can have in life.* Subscribe to newsletter: eternalisedofficial.com/subscribe Become a Patron (exclusive content): www.patreon.com/eternalised KZbin Member (exclusive content): kzbin.info/door/qos1tl0RntucGGtPXNxkkAjoin Official Merch: eternalised.creator-spring.com Donate a Coffee: ko-fi.com/eternalised Transcript and artwork gallery: eternalisedofficial.com/2022/04/25/owning-your-own-shadow Special thanks to my Patrons: Jay B, Evangelos Barakos, Lynne Benson, Jeanette, Mr X, Spirit Gun, Ramunas Cepaitis, Justin Raper, Ryon Brashear, Joanne Durkin, Kyle Schaffrick, Landon Bolts
@smurfo30002 жыл бұрын
thank you for the video it was very informing
@satnamo2 жыл бұрын
People’s names are the sweetest sound in any languages. Thus speaks the king metal Carnegie.
@corefrey2 жыл бұрын
Hello eternalised i admire your work, may i be allowed to translate your Videos into the german language... I really find your voice comforting to listen to and the topics you speak of to be of high value... If you do not wish a translation , i respect that and hope you a lot of luck on your journey my friend. with friendly regards Corefrey.
@eresseer61582 жыл бұрын
Thank you Eternalised! Might you do a follow on to this one, about what happens once one has reached paradox and proceeds toward revelation?
@uncannydeduction2 жыл бұрын
You videos are so facking good.
@Yojimbo7112 жыл бұрын
You don't find this video, it finds you. Great talk.
@XeLYoutube2 жыл бұрын
or youtube algorithm (for the joke hehe) but my joke found you.
@wanerromero97662 жыл бұрын
I agree haha. It found me, life is weird. This video is old buy why today?
@shawnmccuen69082 жыл бұрын
My wife just unleashed her shadow on me. Perfect timing 👌
@tarynmae68122 жыл бұрын
You’re not kidding!! I’m going through something right now that I’ve been searching for the answers for so long and all of a sudden everything has bigger fallen into my lap when I needed it more than ever
@eltomo4202 жыл бұрын
I can’t explain how true this is right noe
@B3njixp2 жыл бұрын
“its not perfection we must strive for but wholeness”💯
@XeLYoutube2 жыл бұрын
thats why i love my unfinished writing drawing music, i love it imperfect
@TAROTAI2 жыл бұрын
that's what 'wholeness' is Benji - it's a state of harmony, balance . . . perfection
@kanirichardson2 жыл бұрын
Divine balance not letting light nor darkness overpower the psyche
@blahblahblahykwii2 жыл бұрын
@@TAROTAI Wholeness also generously factors in our awareness, our efforts to change, our repentance, our forgiveness, our taking responsibility for our decisions. Where perfection focuses mainly on the destination, wholeness honours the entire journey.
@CyanBlackflower2 жыл бұрын
"...Not Perfection... ... but Wholeness..." Mmmm Hmmm. You got a moment? I've got a question for "U" & anyone else Too. Cool? Dope!Thanx. So, Umm Yeah, At a quick glance, the statement from which these two key points I extracted to focus upon, seem right enough. In fact, it appears to engender wisdom, profound advice. SHIT! I bet, with a bit of imagination, creative foresight, a lick of confirmation biased reflection and honest contemplation, I can see myself drumming up an entire philosophical system for a way of life... leading to nothing short of "Divinity." ~ Even... "Infinite Possibilities!!". . .♾☯ HOLY!!! SHI💩- WHAAO!! !!WHOOAAH HOLD IT! !! wait Wait! WAIT!! W8!!! - ~That is... (ONLY IF - I quickly made an assumption, or better still a presumption or two - and I, or anyone would have to - About definitions.) We like to ignore and or "glaze over" such obstacles, troubles, or confusion which naturally arise, anytime we encounter Ambiguity* - Speaking of infinite possibilities for those who are unfamiliar - *(This refers to something which can be interpreted in MANY ways, and hence HAS NO FIXED definition upon which there is a consensus or collective understanding and agreement.) Can You think of any other Ambiguous words or concepts?? 🌚 So, Here for example - To Benji - Since YOU used it in Your quote, I'm primarily asking You (and I'm not trying to jam anyone up, but seriously...) What ITAF!! Do You mean, or think is meant by "Wholeness"? I ask because, from MY perspective, When I seriously consider the whole sentence, and context in which it's used...Well I could get confused. UNLESS I re- read the sentence I wrote above starts: (ONLY IF ...)- So, I'm wondering - How can I NOT in reality - be whole, not just an 'ass whole', & not just "some" ass, butt The Actual SUM TOTAL -of All my constituent parts?AKA WHOLE?? ☯I mean, it's not like I'm dismembered. Not physically, and though mentally and emotionally I am divided, in the sense that how I FEEL about things can diametrically oppose what I THINK of them. Nevertheless, it's just me doing the feeling and thinking as a WHOLE. Hence I can talk to myself with 100% silent stillness, and understand before forming a single thought. Right? Damn Str8. The good news is, IF I was fractured, I might be bug shit kray-zee but- you're never alone with someone with a split or multiple personality. (that's a JOKE son...) 🌝 ~~ In fact I see myself perhaps even more than most, as being not just an individual but deeply interconnected, interwoven with the world at large through which I move... So whats Up with that? Don't even get me started on '"Perfection". I have a REAL show stopper response for the hapless wretch, who stumbles into asking Me if I believe in GOD. I have a Special response for that. Talk about ambiguity...leading to mountains of BULL - HOLY SHIT!!! I DO have definitionS for most Amb. concepts, as do we ALL. 🌚 My point here is that IF we are not synced in agreement with them, and are just presuming we're all on point with the same interpretations of HEAVY ambiguous words and ideas... (And I KNOW we are often REEEALY diverse) Than How the Fuck can we NOT just be spewing Bull Shit most of the time❓ 💩Not really knowing what we are TALKING About❓💣 Bigger mystery...WHY do I seem to be the ONLY Nut Job bringing This Up & Asking these Questions⁉❓ This addresses Clear communication, and when THAT is convoluted... WE and our ENTIRE civilization becomes Fractured...and will Crumble...⚠☢☣ 🌝 💥 So, Two Benji 4 sail? Ok. Just as an experiment, what if we took your quote, replacing "Wholeness" whatever THAT means, with "Self Mastery" ? That is what I do. You could even just say "Strive towards Self Mastery" For me it is always a work in progress, I am not perfect, nor claim to be a master, because I AIM at self improvement and mastery, by choice EVERY day at any opportunity, I fuck up, but try not to do it too much or too hard... and just keep on fucking... 🌗I'm good with Sunshine and Shadow because where there be one there is the other. And the Brighter the Sunshine the darker the Shadow will be. My ultimate goal/ destination is in FACT the Journey itself. It's a Choice I make every Day/Night. 🌓 ☯♻♾
@nellkellino-miller7673 Жыл бұрын
It’s crazy how often I meet people who get super uncomfortable when I talk about bad things I’ve done in the past. Or mistakes I’m currently making in my life. People are always happy to criticise, but rarely actually want to talk about how to be better.
@paolorocchi7151 Жыл бұрын
People forget how mighty Arthur broke Excalibur before earning the dignity to rule over Camelot
@afflixzockerz5383 Жыл бұрын
This is a problem i see in myself defintely. I like to problem solve, not solve problems
@Crabchann Жыл бұрын
This right here is what pisses me off the most, like hey I need help, quit talking shit, what exactly am i doing wrong, help.
@UrbanAlchemystic Жыл бұрын
I think it makes them guarded because they feel like you're going to do those bad things to them and why is it everybody else's responsibility to teach you how to be better when you already know better
@nellkellino-miller7673 Жыл бұрын
@@UrbanAlchemystic I consider it my responsibility to help a person understand what they're doing wrong if they upset me. Maybe they'll do better next time. Is that a bad thing?
@warrenbradford2597 Жыл бұрын
It is said that we are our own worst enemy, but we are also our best teacher. To own our shadow, we must inspire our own worst enemy to be our own best friend.
@mansoormannix1753 Жыл бұрын
True... The best way to get the best out of you is ability to fight your inner demons and allow your consciousness distinguish between the darkest and lighter side of self, then analyse which life do you want to choose.
@toooes6 ай бұрын
we’re still workshopping this slogan
@harryv67525 ай бұрын
💯 ♥️ 🔥 🤘
@warrenbradford25975 ай бұрын
@@mansoormannix1753 I agree to all your points. True.🙂
@agentlouis9309 Жыл бұрын
Becoming a person who knows their dark and light side allows you to be whole in a way, you have to accept the worst of yourself instead of fight to destroy it
@marymauceri59216 ай бұрын
Have you ever met someone who uses this philosophy to excuse themselves for being an abuser? I have
@july23rdchild6 ай бұрын
OOh EYE LOVE MYSELF
@harryv67525 ай бұрын
💯 ♥️ 🔥 🤘
@self-inflictedphilosophy2 жыл бұрын
When you integrate your shadow, you begin the psychological process of individuation. Depth, rootedness, and stability is born. You become more grounded, more secure in your skin, more independent in your moral judgments, more courageous and self-reliant. A kind of antifragility emerges out of paradox. The ability to transform a negative into a positive becomes manifest: such as transforming pain into power, wounds into wisdom, setbacks into steppingstones, tragedy into teacher, loss into laboratory, shadow work into soulcraft. Best of all: shadow integration gives you purpose, and having a purpose quells fear. You become capable of using fear as fuel for the fire of a fulfilling life. Before mastery, shadow work. After mastery, shadow work.
@andredelacerdasantos44392 жыл бұрын
When one begins to integrate their shadow, the flowers of the desert begin to bloom.
@andredelacerdasantos44392 жыл бұрын
@@muhamadfaisal623 Make a compromise to take your dreams seriously. For starters: no coffee 6 hours before you go to bed.
@self-inflictedphilosophy2 жыл бұрын
@Nas Kane It’s more of a “where to” than a “how to.” We must go to a place of personal responsibility, a place of honesty and authenticity. This place is the front door of the unconscious. The place we need to go to integrate our shadow. The threshold guardian of which is the cushiony veil of ignorance that has been cast over us to keep us safe in our comfort zone. It takes fierce courage to face our darkness. It takes ruthless questioning to get past the comfortable “answers” we’ve settled for. It takes tender vulnerability to get beyond the rigid invulnerability that we’ve erected to keep ourselves “safe.” It takes a good sense of humor to withstand the realization that we are the butt-end of a terrible cosmic joke. But nothing is more important than making the darkness conscious, especially when your goal is healthy integration, aspiration, wholeness, balance, self-actualization, antifragility or enlightenment.
@cleverviciouscircle2 жыл бұрын
@@self-inflictedphilosophy you put words then order to my mind, thank you. It seems I've been standing at the threshold for a while now, guess I should just step on through as the time of ignoring ones true self seems to be over. It's certainly terrifying and many selfish tears will be shed...... Here's to growing 🥂cheers!
@daisybluegroff2 жыл бұрын
Beautiful writing.
@user-dd5sn5vl5e2 жыл бұрын
'To deny darkness, is to deny half of one's self'.....wow👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽
@Brooklynbaby472 жыл бұрын
I had a mental breakdown during my freshmen year in college. Everything I believed about reality collapsed. Never thought I would see and experience such darkness . To some degree I did confront my shadow in that experience. Nothing was ever the same and my life took a crazy turn.
@jmoll1212 жыл бұрын
Literally fighting demons
@milemile48132 жыл бұрын
Not literally, no
@chelscolumbus2 жыл бұрын
Turn for the worse? Or better?
@Brooklynbaby472 жыл бұрын
@@chelscolumbus it felt for the worst when it happened . I’m beyond grateful now it definitely unlocked my suppressed emotions l kept as a teenager in my chaotic home and controlling religion I followed. It was the closest to a “silent hill “ type of experience not sure if you’re familiar with that video game.
@Brooklynbaby472 жыл бұрын
@@jmoll121 for real bro! it felt like silent hill at times . 😬😶🌫️
@DayVidsgaming Жыл бұрын
I was alone when I was 20. I had lost my adoptive mother (passed away) I was going to trade school to learn and decided to join the army. I had registered and had it all figured out. I had shown her family love. I had given my time to her daughter and brothers. Helping them out with everything. Moving, cleaning things their business. I had been told I no longer have a home. I was told to kick rocks. I had a blood brother who was at war at the time so he couldn’t help me. I was alone. I had a mental collapse at that moment. I had been a good kid, I helped everyone i had done so much good and my reward? Alone, the very people who I thought would have my back had abandoned me to my face. My own brother seemed to not be around for me. I got keys from a friend I made at the army while training. He gave me keys to an apartment that was abandoned. He had moved out and gave me the keys because he had 1 month on the lease and he whom joined the same time as me had the luck to leave in a week. I had to wait three months. I sat alone in the dark. I showered with cold water. I sat in complete darkness and slept on the floor. Noting no money no noting. I was a kid and I had never had guidance. I didn’t know how to go about life. I prayed to god I had meditated. Little ol me, the young bright eyed boy who thought everyone was family sitting alone in the dark. I was so mad so heart broken so (betrayed) that I cried, I hugged my knees together and I cried. A deep sad cry. No one came for me, no one came to help me. I was alone, no food nothing. I realized this world is evil this world is cruel. The people around you don’t matter when it comes to you* always put yourself first. I had learned that where ever I’ll go I’ll remember that I made it alone. I realized that you need darkness. You need to realize that smiling and agreeing to go with people that hate you can end in your death. That being agreeable and nice will lead you to lose things that are precious to you, like your time or your values. I taught myself to see people based on actions and to listen to my heart. Those that say they love you the most, those that say they’re your friends the most are verbally conditioning you. The true friends don’t say it the true family member doesn’t need to voice it. None the less I got myself out. How? I walked to a McDonald’s and talked to the manager. A manager who my friend knew. My friend had told me my situation. I had gotten a job a mile away from my dark room. I was so happy. I would get dressed in the dark. I’d look myself in the mirror and would tell myself, don’t worry you’ll do great. I smiled and flexed and showed my muscles and said hey I got grit and I got heart. I stood taller now that I had a job. I used my money to get a phone. I contacted some friends and I started to hang out with them. I went home at what ever time because I was homeless so it didn’t matter right? No, I went home at 10. I kept a focused mind. I had to work the next day I had responsibilities. I called and asked for food stamps and told them I was homeless and gave them a friends address for the food stamps. I had solved two problems within a week. I had one thing, someone that stood by my side. I never felt alone. God made it so that everything I touched it turned into gold. I had such luck. Everything went my way. My friends found out about me and one of them had a dad who was in the army. He was like what this kid is homeless, working 40 hours a week, has food stamps and he is alone? He told me to come stay with them until I left to the army. He would take me to work and pick me up and take me to training. My friend gave me his bed. He let me sleep on his bed. I hugged him and cried and everything I felt so grateful. I left to the army shortly after. I got on my feet and of course maintained contact with them. I left my food stamps card so they could buy what ever food they wanted. I learned a lot more through out my life. I learned that no matter how good of a person horrible things can still happen to you. I learned that good or bad has no face. The most beautiful and happy people can back stab you same with ugly people. In this life there is no discretion. You need to be selfish and plan things. Always look for options and what will put you in a situation that’s undesirable is lack of money. With money you’ll be able to do things. You’ll be valuable to people. I was given a house to sleep in and I had the utmost respect. That family is forever blessed. I love them forever. I’m thankful and grateful. Pray to god as well. Tell him your problems and ask him for help when you need it. I found money on the floor during those times. I also meditated and didn’t fap. As men we have the energy to ATTRACT but it comes with semen retention. People will want you to be around them and you will have energy to multi task. Deep down I wanted to hate everyone and become a criminal but I hugged myself and told myself that it’s not my fault. I had spread noting but love and eventually it will come my way. Karma is a thing and every now and than you’ll receive luck to such an extent that you go wow this worked out. There will also be moments where things go wrong where you will make mistakes and you’ll have to forgive yourself. I learned to love my shadow and I realized that you need both light and darkness in yourself in order to address a situation. Tell people no and leave those who fk you over. Slowly stop talking to people you realize don’t have your best interest. People will always tell you things but don’t listen to them. Most often than not people will spill lies from their mouth because it’s convenient to them at the time. Trust only yourself and make moves that will benefit yourself. Take a job that’s easy to do and easy to get too. Don’t share bank accounts with no one, Ever. Be smart about what you do.
@Cornflake50 Жыл бұрын
I really enjoyed reading your story, I went through really similar realisations as you when I was a kid. Thanks for sharing
@shirleyannex10 ай бұрын
I dont no you, but ive just read every word of your comment, and i feel an overwhelming sense of proudness for you, and i agree we need both light and darkness and we need to embrace both, i wish you luck and hope your doing well, much respect to you friend..,............❤ from northern Ireland
@555Ajurai9 ай бұрын
I don’t comment on much, but I really do appreciate you sharing ❤ I relate to this story a lot and it can be very hard to be so young doing everything alone. especially when everyone you thought would be there you feel has abandoned you.. very good advice aswell. I hope you have a great rest of your life 💯❤️
@heidi21669 ай бұрын
Your parents missed out. If you were my kid I'd be so proud. And I'd also feel content knowing that in my old age I have someone like you around to nurture me
@exoticminds32228 ай бұрын
Strong individual you are… keep going
@crskillz1 Жыл бұрын
My shadow is a rage of anger. For years I became what everyone wanted me to be. But after years of it I began to grow angry. And I finally blew up my life went down hill and I didn’t know how to balance or control or help it. I’m now I finally have been able to finally balance it. I’m aware of what made my shadow. I’m aware of what triggers my shadow. This video really explain everything great and I needed this.
@lisacampbell9601 Жыл бұрын
Yes, I get this. Shadow work lead me to study my natal chart and I found that I has Mars in the 12th house. Mars represents our anger and the 12th house represents the subconscious among other things. Basically, this equals repressed anger and anything repressed is the shadow.
@westlywest111116 күн бұрын
Great job!!!!
@janarcangel492 жыл бұрын
Basically, it's not killing the cringe within you but killing the part of you that cringes.
@Nojokeimhigh2 жыл бұрын
You missed the point. You're not killing any part of yourself at all. The thought of killing part of yourself sends you into a spiral of despair. You're healing and accepting all parts of who you are and finding things to feed the darker parts of your psyche without harming the lighter parts.
@janarcangel492 жыл бұрын
@@Nojokeimhigh Hmm so accepting the part of you tha cringes is also part of growth.
@janarcangel492 жыл бұрын
@CEO of Unpopular Opinions Everyone will go through in some form of failure one way or another. Personally for me, Schadenfreude is fun to watch but seeing someone learning from that experience, even better.
@Walizen2 жыл бұрын
Ha!
@huwballbot39782 жыл бұрын
I envy ur guys cuz u guys have lots of time to think about senses ,non senses , right and wrong
@VanillaButtercreamFrosting4 ай бұрын
When you look around at the state of the world now, you can see how the collective shadow has completely taken over, rearing its head as evil taking over, chaos, conflict, because we’ve lived our lives mostly thinking about ourselves and doing all kinds of things to avoid the bad stuff. The way to heal and balance the world is for every single one of us to acknowledge what we’ve done to contribute to the mess and begin to heal ourselves and each other through balance.
@erickluviano9812 жыл бұрын
When I was a teen, I went through a very traumatic event that had me depressed for months. I was never really the person who got support from anyone: parents or friends. They all kind of ignored my feelings and I felt abandoned. And at the very lowest point I just randomly changed. I wasn’t shy. I was assertive, I was confident. I stopped caring about what I had valued and just started acting as if whatever I did didn’t matter so why bother trying to be “good”? It just kept growing and growing til it wasn’t assertiveness…it was aggression. It wasn’t confidence it was arrogance and I lost myself and couldn’t know what sprouted this change…it took somebody I loved very much who had died to pull me back onto the right track. Then I learned about the shadow and some of Jung. And it made me cry when I realized I understood why I changed. I had taken too much way past the breaking point and when I snapped , when the part of me that was “good” became too weak the other half just erupted out. Like it took the lights’ place. I’m kind of obsessed with Jungs work now and plan on reading his biggest works. I think it’s something we all should do,…read a little of Jung. I don’t understand why Freud is like the face of psychology in highschool textbook and not Jung…
@928kkkk55 ай бұрын
Bro literally same, but I could not figure out what tf happened at that time In my life until I read your comment. Ty for sharing
@kailola827 Жыл бұрын
''One has to honor ones shadow for it is one integral part of one self, but one must not push it onto someone else.''
@st4ypo5itive2 жыл бұрын
I am autistic (formerly known Asperger’s), we use masking as a tool to get through social interactions with reduced stress. This made me realize that the mask must not be to portray a specific part of my persona but simply has to follow the goals I have, where ever they will take me.
@witchcraftandlizardry2 жыл бұрын
Same
@DankMemer420132 жыл бұрын
Same
@LUVRG1RL2 жыл бұрын
same
@rotcehlobo83112 жыл бұрын
Same
@Boriqua762 жыл бұрын
Same
@kimlarso2 жыл бұрын
“Projection is always easier than Assimilation!”
@satnamo2 жыл бұрын
Thinking is harder than judging.
@GeneralJiggle2 жыл бұрын
Perception isnt always Perceiving, it's Experiencing something others shouldn't have to ever Endure
@choosecarefully4082 жыл бұрын
Another aspect of human nature that everyone has & ignores. Assimilation is for _others._ Everyone projects expectations of assimilation to _their beliefs_ onto everyone else. Me, I've always been like the gut who appears out of nowhere & uncredited (oh, the irony) at 1.09:00 of kzbin.info/www/bejne/jqGsoHqdlst5qac. I think expectations are possibly The most Useless Thing yet most humans carry them around all the time as if they're armor. I _think_ that the reason may be that this is an extension of how Western Europeans warped Christian philosophy into an infantile "it's Always Right when We Do It" fantasy that everyone now seems stuck in, trying to justify. Abandoning one's religion is tough, so abandoning that philosophy now feels like standing against God Himself. So how does one _face_ knowing one's politicians are corrupt? Well, if one was taught that merely being Christian means everything is okay, then nothing. But How does Christian philosophy reconcile with allowing evil? Badly. So, mental anguish from inexcusable contradiction = emotional harm.
@choosecarefully4082 жыл бұрын
@OnceTheyNamedMEiWasn't Evil _actions,_ evil on toast, evil spirits... come *on,* the word is like feminism, ask 5 people what they think it means & you'll be lucky to get only ten answers. There are *people,* & they have nature, instincts, self-interest & temptations galore. Is it evil to _accept_ this? Is it evil to *deny or allow* it? Are you talking about some disembodied evil or the practical kind?
@sandrajunghall97252 жыл бұрын
Butt, when "assimilation" would be stupid... Do what is not stupid and allow the manipulative perpetrators to call it "projection" if it makes their disingenuous asses feel better about their own darknesses that they lie to deny, and use only to achieve their own desires and wishes. Do NOT "assimilate" when the price demanded is everything you have earned. That which is truly given is done so without duress and fraud on the part of the receiving party. The profit of theft is loot, not a gift.
@huerell2 жыл бұрын
I started to own my dark side a few months ago when I realized it’s more important to be who you are vs who you think you should be. I’m a great guy but I am also not great in many ways.
@matthew91422 жыл бұрын
We're not perfect, you can still be a great guy overall without having to "embrace this shadow side". Jesus loves you bro❤️& can change your life in ways you couldn't imagine. If you need further clarity look up New age to Jesus testimonys about shadow work
@Qwinpin2 жыл бұрын
@@matthew9142 what's all this shadow business? It sounds demonic.
@substun3sinfinit3list3n Жыл бұрын
Foreal
@emeraldlafave6727 Жыл бұрын
When you accept your dark side the less powerful that part of you will become, leading to more happiness. Gain understanding as to why you feel the cringe within you. Ask yourself if there’s any positive ways you can intergrade your dark feelings of hate, anger, fear, repulsion for good. It’s all energy and it needs to be balanced out. Once you realize and truly accept where your shadow stems from you can heal and transform. Ego wants you to deny the trait or habits that we truly have that are within us but negative. But the more you fight the shadow the more hostile it becomes, because your at war with yourself. Always realize the unconscious is stronger than the ego.
@triocha233 Жыл бұрын
@@emeraldlafave6727 you can release it with Jiu Jitsu & Wrestling 😅
@rikta8192 Жыл бұрын
I found this video through a random recommended scrolling and added it to my watch later playlist, and however many days later I was laying in bed, just after taking melatonin, and played the audio to this video as I laid down to fall asleep. This reverberated into a night, a moment, unlike anything I have ever experienced. Sleep was hard, but my dreams were hitting even harder and the bridge between sleep and consciousness did not seem to exist. Sleep paralysis would chain in-between my dreams processing the video my brain was just blessed with, and, ironically, sleep paralysis leads to fearful shadows created by your mind out of the shock of being paralyzed, awake, but still in a dream state. The symbolism of this experience has created such an eye opening expression of reality that it has truly awakened a part of me. The paralysis is self-stagnation, and being awake, still in a dream is the state of consciousness you are in when you are scared of your shadow. And, like I said before, this sleep paralysis was chaining, repeating in a seemingly unending cycle. So much so, that I started to understand that it was only sleep paralysis, and eventually, I started being able to control the shadows I was creating. I was amazed by the phenomenon of sleep paralysis. If the lucidity of sleep paralysis and control of the shadow can disarm its horror, I wonder what lucidity in being awake can do with the dread of existence. It has been a couple of weeks since this experience, but this video and the massive shadow it has cast into my life has been in the forefront of my mind and has allowed me to see how beautiful grey is. As @Yojin Bo's top comment says "You don't find this video, it finds you." , these words could not have expressed my experience more clearer, this video has found me; It has found me through helping me find myself. And if anyone finds the end of this essay, I hope you have taken away from this video a similarly enlightening experience.
@DianaRodriguez-f7c27 күн бұрын
Sleep paralysis is demonic. Stay away from all those channels of energy, those are actually demonic entities. Here is my testimony. First and foremost, from own experience stay away from all those concepts of energy, karma, law of attraction and reincarnation I used to follow those and almost commit suicide. Those are lies, I was saved by the only true living God Jesus Christ who warns us about tribulations and that passed many when he came in human form. Matthew 11:28-29-28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. It was the best choice of my life. My family abandoned me and as I said I almost took my life because I just didn't find life fair or worth living. I was an atheist. Now I know the truth, not only that I know it, but we have a true living God that you can feel and see his miracles every single day. Believe it or not, we have an Enemy and his name is Satan, people that chose evil over good, have allowed him to be the one in charge. Start somewhere, I started with the Series Chosen and watching movies such as the Gospel of John and Matthew, there is Hope I promise you. I leave you with this passage that very well describes our savior. Isaiah 9:6 New International Version 6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. The Messiah was prophesized before his coming and many people do not believe him. So, you are not alone. He even said, because he already saw the beginning and the end. John 15:18 “If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first. He is coming again for his church (the believers and truth seekers) make sure that you are one of them. Our redemption is coming soon on the Rapture. If you want to start following leaders, I highly recommend these channels. Isaiah Saldivar, and if you want to see how demons operate, watch Daniel Adams supernatural life with his deliverance ministry what demons say about Jesus Christ, also the Apostle Katheryn Krick all of these by the power of Jesus Christ. He himself cast out many demons and because of the authority he gave to his disciples he did it as well, those are the real enemy. Last but not least if you have the TUBI app, it is free, one of the movies I do not stop watching is Jesus of Nazareth 1977. I promise you won' regret any of these sources. God bless in Jesus Name. Love you and you are not alone!
@tn4828 Жыл бұрын
I have recently found my behavior to be almost bipolar. I used to think the concept of the shadow was unreasonable, but I am convinced that it is true. In my romantic relationship, I strived to be a good partner - and I think my shadow is manifesting due to my repressed feelings (I have said sorry many times when I did not mean it, and admitted to things that were untrue to keep the peace). I have also struggled to be assertive. I tried to embrace my shadow, but I became out of control and was frustrated and hurtful. Now, I must find balance. This video was truly thought-provoking, and one that is the beginning of my research into this concept!
@camsullivan8073 Жыл бұрын
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@smoothsolja404 Жыл бұрын
@jacksonaxesonsaxson he’s probably having a war within his mind and all he simply did was project his bona fide shadow.
@yasiercurtis5342 Жыл бұрын
Wow that's awesome dude, but did I ask?
@maddlepaddle420 Жыл бұрын
@@yasiercurtis5342 god your probably really weird in real life
@mercury6284 Жыл бұрын
It is great that you are pushing to change your life in a positive direction and hopefully embark on a new journey that will lead you to find inner peace. I wish you good luck ❤️ 🤞
@AvoidingHumanSociety Жыл бұрын
My journey has started earlier this year. To become completely independent from all and to only rely on myself. I have always been in relationships, it’s always been 50/50 but when it falls apart it’s hard to pick yourself up. I am done with this process. I left toxicity and moved to a new state penniless. It’s taken me about 6 months but I am finally about to get a car here and from there real independence will finally be achieved. I will no longer worry about others but only myself, this sounds selfish and it is. I have spent my entire life building up others and leaving myself broken. It’s time for me, it’s time for myself to be repaired and be alone.
@wenseager5474 Жыл бұрын
wising you all the best, in your path to healing
@JohnDoe-pd2lh Жыл бұрын
It doesn't sound selfish, but necessary and well deserved. Focus on yourself, without guilt. Nice name and pfp btw.
@Coundsofjudah Жыл бұрын
So Proud Of You ❤️🩹
@ACowIsHuge Жыл бұрын
Im exaclty at the same point in my life Except the breakup. Im not even scared like i thought i would be. Its totally different and iam truly happy for the first time after a Decade long Depression. First time in my life that im Not scared of the future. Instead i cant wait to See what happens next now.
@chanellaugustine7341 Жыл бұрын
I am in this same journey 😊
@juanromero71892 жыл бұрын
This video is a great birthday present! And it explains a recent experience I had. I'm 51 years old. I've been doing inner work for about two years, and for the past few months I'd been feeling something that I describe as "fear to be alive". Is like been naked with no weapons in a jungle full of predators. On a Sunday night I felt these fears hugely amplified. I thought I would collapse. But I just seated with the fear and observe it with curiosity and no judgment. After an hour the fear disappeared and only left physical pain all over my chest. I went to sleep and the next day I woke up feeling absolute freedom and blissful. I was fully in the present moment. The Kingdom of God opened to me for the first time. My mind was so quiet, almost non existent. Everything looked so pristine. I was in a constant awe, full of enthusiasm and energy. Every interaction with the world was a celebration! It is the Gloden World described here in the video!! I stayed in it for about 4 days. It was the most powerful yet ordinary experience in my life. I had a feeling this wasn't new for me, and it dated back to an early childhood. I felt it was something natural to every human (it felt remarkably ordinary). This video resonates so much with my experience and makes me understand it in a much deeper way!! Thank you from the deepest part of my heart!!❤️
@spiralali2 жыл бұрын
Wow~ That's an amazing experience, thank you for sharing it. How did you sit with your fear on Sunday evening? Was it a meditation, a quiet time that you just allowed to happen? I'm happy for you to have experienced bliss and freedom, that's a beautiful state to find yourself in.
@Lucy20862 жыл бұрын
Ive done this by recognizing this fear or uncomfortable feeling as a comparison to a child needing to throw a temper tantrum. I sit quietly w my eyes closed and I see it and ask for more and really feel it w a sense of curiosity...letting it play it self out. The more uncomfortable the more I welcome it and eventually embrace it. I say eventually as there must be time for observation or allowing a good dose of uncomfortable. Like letting a kicking child on the floor tire themselves out before you speak or sit w them. This works for me🙏💜💚 Beautiful video!
@juanromero71892 жыл бұрын
@@spiralali what I learned that day is what we call negative emotions become stronger if we avoid them. Yes it was like a meditation. Don't judge, don't put any labels to the emotion. Just observe and be curious. I recommend you to read the poem "The Guest House" by the sufi mystic Rumi.
@jakeoswald80172 жыл бұрын
Sounds like you’re experiencing panic and might be developing panic disorder
@masonharkness64372 жыл бұрын
Glad to hear you came to terms with it, although im younger I had a similar experience myself not long ago. My mind and spirit was in a dark place for too long, the constant negative thoughts and feeling became physically taxing and I came home from work one day and just snapped and did some shit I’m not proud of and it made me realize I have to change this isn’t a healthy way to live. I entered such a weird state I swear I could feel the electricity in my brain from whatever was happening. Later on that night I decided to sit and meditate and at some point I went into a out of body experience and once I touched back to reality, I had the exact same feeling of awe and every interaction with the world was a celebration or gift. It was a beautiful feeling/moment
@parkerswaxmuseum37462 жыл бұрын
Ive never thought about this until a mushroom trip where i experienced an ego death. I was in my late 20's and unwittingly understanding my subcontious's darker aspects, were the only time ive experienced true meaning of a 'mathmatical spiritualism'. A Fractal universe where everything was ONE. It opened my mind to how people could be religious, and evil in the same heart.
@floweuphoria694202 жыл бұрын
Same. It feels weird to just reply with that but you said it very well. I kind of wish I would’ve KNOWN that, actual having knowlege, the last 10 years because it would’ve helped me understand how a healthy ego is not necessarily a dead one
@Moonscentedhunter2 жыл бұрын
Yea I had an ego death with acid. It’s crazy when you try to put together microorganisms and the universe together. When you’re trying to grasp the reality of everything. It’s overwhelming at first but the more you learn about it the easier it gets.
@christopherowens62942 жыл бұрын
Me to. 'Salvia' what more can I say. And when you know. You know and I do. A very bright n colourful wise old woman once wisperd to me. Who YOU and I and WE are, and what EVERYTING else is and to be. In a lost land in some late distance some space or time or dream. I seen that. I am the dreamer, dreaming the dream. So the creator of my reality. So Who am I or we to judge...? When the all is mind and the universe is just mental. Much love. 😜
@TreyHallRH32 жыл бұрын
Awesome experience. And to be fair, religion in general IS evil
@CBT57772 жыл бұрын
Try DMT. I've smoked it seven times. I stared into the abyss. I saw the nothing. It scared the crap out of me. Mushrooms were crazy too. I once ate half a Ball jar of them and lets just say I'll never do that again!
@ElectraTechna55 Жыл бұрын
I'm glad I found this video. This week I took a deep dive into my childhood and found stories and poems about my 'shadow'. I had no name for it. But I knew it's existence was to mock me because it called me weak and pathetic. My therapist asked me why I think it no longer comes to taunt me. I said it's because I finally stopped fighting it. I accepted the lessons it was trying to teach me and that it's there for a purpose only I know. I've took the week to embrace it and nurture it
@jasonroland Жыл бұрын
I've watched and read many interpreters of Jung. I have to say the narrator of this video was able to make several points I hadn't grasped. I understood it before clearly ,and I now understand why I was ..
@luisborges2048 Жыл бұрын
I've said this less than 4 times in my whole life, but I'll say it now. This video is life changing. I am stoked to go into more reflection about this in myself. Thank you.
@JohnBrown722so Жыл бұрын
The US has a borg liar
@HumbleUMedia2 жыл бұрын
Beautiful work as always 🔥 “I must have a dark side if I am to be WHOLE.” - JUNG
@satnamo2 жыл бұрын
Inside the heart of man is a battlefield between angels and devils.
@jackparrow29542 жыл бұрын
The multiple states of being
@roninnovastar13212 жыл бұрын
Just because he was an Eminent Psychologist dosent mean that everything he thought about or believed is true. Some men admire other mens minds, because they dont have a mind of there own.
@goldstein104932 жыл бұрын
I often fantasize hurting some people. Is that a dark side?
@roninnovastar13212 жыл бұрын
@@goldstein10493 Take a pill.
@hutch28112 жыл бұрын
I’ve recently started to explore my subconscious. And after one day, I’ve already had direct encounters with it, it’s absolutely surreal. It’s a genre of evil that does not exist in the external world. To me, it has the energy of a thousand suns, it’s the most supernatural entity I can think of. Which is why conquering it is so important, you gain all of that power whilst understanding it
@jaspermarukka2 жыл бұрын
I know what u mean but i have this feeling when i get in extreme anger and lose myself
@hutch281110 ай бұрын
@@jaspermarukkayour external anger still does not compare to inner anger
@mindykonicki71092 жыл бұрын
My husband and I had a deep conversation earlier today on the lines of this video without even knowing or coming across this. You can take it deep when you connect to your deep inner spiritual being. I often feel and think deep and thankful for my husband to fully connect and understand. God is amazing as God brought my husband and I together. We both had to overcome our fear and listen to his instructions to be together over a prayer from me. When my brain would tell me something different I heard a voice that told me different. I listen to the voice
@liamthomson6785 Жыл бұрын
I love hearing this, it's so amazing when you connect with someone on a deep level and are able to have such fruitful discussions. Ik I don't matter but as a stranger; I implore you to try to appreciate the people and connections you have. Connecting spiritually with anyone is so special and often taken for granted.
@elidrissii Жыл бұрын
Beautiful.
@Cuspofrevolution7 ай бұрын
Ownership of yourself is my ultimate goal...not career, not money or owning stuff but just a better relationship and understanding of myself and hopefully inturn make me better in relationships i have. Its hard to contribute anything to another when you feel depleted in yourself and always deflecting. Love this insight and desire to grow outside of the expectations of society
@luischeddar8323 Жыл бұрын
I truely believe in spiritual guidence, everything happens for a reason and whatnot. This video was recommended to me around 10 times before I finally clicked on it. I don't regret it. I no longer feel guilt for having my bad moods or desires. I understand now why you cannot find light if there is no darkness, and what that even means. This was an amazing talk, and i now have something to research!
@DianaRodriguez-f7c27 күн бұрын
This is my testimony, I hope it helps. First and foremost, from own experience stay away from all those concepts of energy, karma, law of attraction and reincarnation I used to follow those and almost commit suicide. Those are lies, I was saved by the only true living God Jesus Christ who warns us about tribulations and that passed many when he came in human form. Matthew 11:28-29-28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. It was the best choice of my life. My family abandoned me and as I said I almost took my life because I just didn't find life fair or worth living. I was an atheist. Now I know the truth, not only that I know it, but we have a true living God that you can feel and see his miracles every single day. Believe it or not, we have an Enemy and his name is Satan, people that chose evil over good, have allowed him to be the one in charge. Start somewhere, I started with the Series Chosen and watching movies such as the Gospel of John and Matthew, there is Hope I promise you. I leave you with this passage that very well describes our savior. Isaiah 9:6 New International Version 6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. The Messiah was prophesized before his coming and many people do not believe him. So, you are not alone. He even said, because he already saw the beginning and the end. John 15:18 “If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first. He is coming again for his church (the believers and truth seekers) make sure that you are one of them. Our redemption is coming soon on the Rapture. If you want to start following leaders, I highly recommend these channels. Isaiah Saldivar, and if you want to see how demons operate, watch Daniel Adams supernatural life with his deliverance ministry what demons say about Jesus Christ, also the Apostle Katheryn Krick all of these by the power of Jesus Christ. He himself cast out many demons and because of the authority he gave to his disciples he did it as well, those are the real enemy. Last but not least if you have the TUBI app, it is free, one of the movies I do not stop watching is Jesus of Nazareth 1977. I promise you won' regret any of these sources. God bless in Jesus Name. Love you and you are not alone!
@Izzy-v2f2 жыл бұрын
Relaxing videos at the same time it makes me wonder so much about life
@satnamo2 жыл бұрын
Life is functionality to Chan because life is as time moves.
@Edgar-zd4hv Жыл бұрын
I never heard of the "shadow self" until 2 days ago, and now it's everywhere. Crazy how before I heard this, I felt like I was dismissing a part of me that I didn't exactly feel comfortable ridding myself of. I felt like I lost a vastness available to me. Now I begin my journey, to see if I can salvage something from this darkness in me.
@DanteGabriel-lx9bq Жыл бұрын
I find value in life into the philosophy of stoicims, so this is really brillant to me. The value of the world isn't in materialism, since it does not exist has much as the inner world. "For all we know, reality is our nervous activitiy, for what we know we're a brain into space."
@odrikronnin-gamer6579 Жыл бұрын
videos like this are the backbone of the internet, always keeping my interests under a healthy amount.
@MikeHunt-tc8uy8 ай бұрын
the cords that your videos strike within me cause major self realizations deeper then anything ive ever bared witness too
@emeraldlafave6727 Жыл бұрын
I’m going to be personal as an example of how I’m still learning to own my dark and how it’s transforming my life. A trait that’s negative that I have that I fight is extreme possessiveness when in relationships. Im very very jealous. My ego wants me to deny the fact im jealous and justify why how I feel is ok. Rather then face the fact that I’m a jealous person when in love but to a toxic point. Nobody wants to admit that they’re too controlling or possessive or hypocritical. And I’m all of those things when I love someone. It took me a while to really realize the true source of why I feel intensely jealous over important people in my life. It stems from being neglected as a child, my foster care experiences, being in girls homes. You never truly feel cared about most of the time. And it grew into me clinging on and being codependent. But I never would’ve been able to realize that about myself if I didn’t accept and confront the fact that I am indeed jealous. Jealousy is rooted in my shadow and when i look deeper into why I feel that feeling I’m able to handle the situation. But when I deny it it just makes me crazier. That’s one of the many bad traits I have. I use this to transform my behaviors. For example, if I feel jealous. Instead of allowing it to eat me up and I act badly or manipulate my partner, I ask myself why I feel this way. Usually it’s just lack of assurance, I’m a person that needs to be told and reassured a lot due to my past. So if days go by and I don’t feel much affection from my partner I’ll assume things. When in reality i grew up with lack of love so now I feel dependent on hearing someone assure me they won’t leave, cheat way more than the average person. I can use my lack of love experiences to love somebody in the ways I needed. You can also use the same tactic for envy. Everyone feels it. So don’t deny it. When somebody gets something that I’ve been wanting and the inner shadow wants me to get angry or upset or feel bad things toward the person getting what I want. I stop myself and I ask. Why do you feel this way? Me personally, my envy comes out when I feel that I work or am deserving of something and somebody else who is less deserving gets or has what I want easily when I have to struggle very hard. I’ll stop and ask myself why do I feel envious? Now that I know I feel envious consciously I can evaluate. I’ll start to remind myself that I don’t truly know the persons life. And just because they have something or get something doesn’t mean that I can’t achieve it for myself. I assure myself that I am also worthy of the things I desire but only when the time is right and to remember that everyone has seasons of happiness success and brokenness. I alert myself that being envious is a sign of low self esteem and I ask myself what part of me feels attacked that I feel envious over somebody else’s success? Even tho I do not sufffer from low self esteem. I am not as envious as I am jealous, but I do feel envy when i feel like things aren’t fair. I literally use the situation and by the time it’s over I’m not even envious anymore and I’m able to be at peace with somebody else getting something I desire. And I use it as motivation and power by using that as a way to confirm that what I want whether it’s a job money a partner, a body goal etc exists! Just because it doesn’t exist in my life fully yet doesn’t mean I should feel bad. Be happy that the things you want and desire exist even if it’s not for you. You have the power to make and be whoever you want to be.
@a10abdallah9 ай бұрын
Your comment brings me to the conclusion that I have been doing shadow work and did not even realise. I too am quite jealous and it is down to lack of reassurance and further, emotional neglect. I am proud of myself.
@cc.99-b5v8 ай бұрын
Thank You! This was extremely helpful in me understanding the traits I do or not not possess, this way I can process better which is theirs and which is my own ❤14:45
@tionblack7 ай бұрын
cringe
@DianaRodriguez-f7c27 күн бұрын
The answer to your problems is the Way, the Truth and the Life. The Living Christ. Here is my testimony, I hope it helps. First and foremost, from own experience stay away from all those concepts of energy, karma, law of attraction and reincarnation I used to follow those and almost commit suicide. Those are lies, I was saved by the only true living God Jesus Christ who warns us about tribulations and that passed many when he came in human form. Matthew 11:28-29-28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. It was the best choice of my life. My family abandoned me and as I said I almost took my life because I just didn't find life fair or worth living. I was an atheist. Now I know the truth, not only that I know it, but we have a true living God that you can feel and see his miracles every single day. Believe it or not, we have an Enemy and his name is Satan, people that chose evil over good, have allowed him to be the one in charge. Start somewhere, I started with the Series Chosen and watching movies such as the Gospel of John and Matthew, there is Hope I promise you. I leave you with this passage that very well describes our savior. Isaiah 9:6 New International Version 6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. The Messiah was prophesized before his coming and many people do not believe him. So, you are not alone. He even said, because he already saw the beginning and the end. John 15:18 “If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first. He is coming again for his church (the believers and truth seekers) make sure that you are one of them. Our redemption is coming soon on the Rapture. If you want to start following leaders, I highly recommend these channels. Isaiah Saldivar, and if you want to see how demons operate, watch Daniel Adams supernatural life with his deliverance ministry what demons say about Jesus Christ, also the Apostle Katheryn Krick all of these by the power of Jesus Christ. He himself cast out many demons and because of the authority he gave to his disciples he did it as well, those are the real enemy. Last but not least if you have the TUBI app, it is free, one of the movies I do not stop watching is Jesus of Nazareth 1977. I promise you won' regret any of these sources. God bless in Jesus Name. Love you and you are not alone!
@BradyReese Жыл бұрын
Had a traumatic experience a few years ago, it sent me into chaos internally.. it was my life fall experience that either victory or death was the outcome. I wrote down the extreme emotions in a journal as many times as I could. No boundaries on thoughts and feelings. Writing them down and destroying them to no return was an amazing therapy. I love your content. Thank you
@jenmdawg3 ай бұрын
I love that this has over 2 million views.
@deastover8982 жыл бұрын
I hope that this video reaches all far and wide. So many, such as me, are struggling to find what is the next step and what is not being done right. This truly is the first step to collective consciousness 💖
@nickandrews22552 жыл бұрын
Still gathering the elixir, when I have it I will be passing it on to the next people
@jesserichards55822 жыл бұрын
Crazy how things like this come to you when you need it the most. Thank you very much for this! It has definitely lifted my spirits❤️❤️❤️
@spiritualtruth777 Жыл бұрын
I have never been more blessed to have stumbled upon this channel. Thank you for creating and sharing. I'm 26 years old and this video along with the psychology of the wounded healer just saved me 25 years of searching.
@williamconroy176 Жыл бұрын
Some of the most profound content on the internet. Thank you for uploading and helping to supplement my growth as a human and the growth of my spirit.
@stinkleaf Жыл бұрын
This explains what’s happening on the global level how our culture. Projection of shadow.
@jimmyfisher25012 жыл бұрын
Whoever is reading this large sum of money is coming to you, all that you need is with you . Trust yourself and follow your intuition.
@inheavenandinhell Жыл бұрын
Hah.
@umangwav2 жыл бұрын
It always starts with confronting death and death anxiety. We are thrust into it willingly or unwillingly and then in time we shall find.
@Burning_Babylon2 жыл бұрын
Psychedelics in very very high doses will give you a simulation of a NDE . It's the highest level. But if you reach the omega point you will know what God knows. For a moment. But in our blindness we don't grasp the concept of time in these lower dimensions. That moment was infinite and in a way longer than all of our lives combined. Yet I'm here now. It's a quantum truth where we exist in parallel dimensions. We get confused and call it parallel universes. Sorta true but just true because it's very difficult to understand w your third eye closed. Infinite divinity of eternal infinity. I did a 300hr sharpie drawing called on KZbin "omega point rico1art" sacred geometry like you can't imagine . P.s I call the shadow "the Blindspot" you can penetrate it but it can't be erased in these dimensions. You can rise above it for limited time. W discipline it gets easier. That's what monkey are doing w there lives. Once you rise above it. The extremely complicated geometric shape of your light body changes. That's how your blindspots reset after epiphanies. You effect the higher dimensions enough to be put into another level of paradigm shift. The shift is the shape of reality and your actual light body. I only know this because I hd a real psychedelic NDE Sept 29, 1999 Everyone sees it in there end but the biggest blessing is to know this when you are becoming a man. The difficult part is truly having "knowledge" but watching ppl around you suffering hopelessly when you know you could expose them to freedom enlightenment. It's very much like the story of the men in the caves that couldn't be convinced they were prisoners of there mind. Like the matrix 1 concept. Interestingly enough came out right about the same time as the experiencey
@somewhataboveaverageguy90532 жыл бұрын
@@jbeauty4150 went through a hard time 2 years back with the same conflict. The answer ? Is within you. Go find it
@passchallenge2 жыл бұрын
@@jbeauty4150 fear of death is only to be defeated in the process of becoming our true selves(we will never be whole, its a journey notva destination) ,that means striving for our potential both mentally and physically, showing our weaknesses and strengths. Loving our very own fate.
@passchallenge2 жыл бұрын
@@jbeauty4150 Just imagine death as before you were born, did you suffer? NO , feel like you're missing out? NO, no reason to be scared of the inevitable, death only scares me because ha haven't scratched the surface of becoming the person i want to be
@flodging2 жыл бұрын
@@passchallenge wow
@JuanRodriguez-gj5zk2 жыл бұрын
You are not what happened to you but you are who you decide to become
@cryism77982 жыл бұрын
an additional point i’ve never seen mentioned is that when you do balance this shadow and practice doing so it gives some kind of air that people pick up on. in the same way you said people are more likely to see your shadow first, when you have grown to know and accept your shadow people seem to think you don’t have one at all because you’re just “chill” when in reality you’ve gained a clarity in sense of self
@Renould2010 Жыл бұрын
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@DepthDiveBB2 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much for covering Robert A Johnson and this book in particular. This is where I started my journey into Jungian/Depth/Archetypal psychology, and his work feeds my soul whereas most of Jung's writing feeds my intellect. Johnson speaks the language of the soul. I greatly appreciate your time, efforts, and channel, and share widely. Thank you for doing your part to equip others to heal themselves, and thus the world.
@danamarie7825 Жыл бұрын
I'll look into this writer to see if his explainations make more sense to me.
@shovelhead17052 жыл бұрын
I went through this process in rehab. It's what vegvisir is, it's the heroes journey and it is hard it is daily work but the key to being happy almost all the time. I'm so glad I listened to this
@poigmhahon2 жыл бұрын
I'm struggling with my own madness, happiness is through the eyes of the beholder. "happy" has many interpretations and all of them subjective. I am most definitely not "happy" but completely grateful for this moment....I'm not attempting to judge you...I'm attempting to elucidate my experience. I feel like time doesn't matter....and by extension, the shadow doesn't matter.
@007lutherking2 жыл бұрын
Did they teach you the heros journey? Can you elaborate? What exactly is heros journey and why?
@shovelhead17052 жыл бұрын
@@007lutherking yes they did teach us the hero's journey. I was trying to explain it in a KZbin comment but I found on this same KZbin channel there is a good explanation I just listened to it.
@007lutherking2 жыл бұрын
@@shovelhead1705 good to hear.
@andredelacerdasantos44392 жыл бұрын
The hero's journey is basically a cycle of transformation. One begins at the top at home, when the call to adventure takes him or her away to an unkown territory, where dangers lurk. When you reach the bottom of the circle, the hero dies but is brought back by a blessing from a maidden or wise old man. Then, the hero must make his way back home where he can bring the knowledge of how to transform lead into gold, or the philosopher's stone, to his people. Think of it like going on a hike: you leave your home to visit some landmark in nature, like say, a waterfall, where you submerge yourself in the cold water to come out having experienced a psychological death and is invigorated, but after reemerging, you still have to go all the way back. I believe that the hero's journey is relevant for us humans exactly because of this pilgrimage nature of human beings, who must always be walking somewhere and then come back.
@mikeyloveshousemusic2 жыл бұрын
Thank you for this video. I go through phases of impulsive, dangerous, self destructive behaviour and I was frustrated for lacking the discipline to control myself. This video explained what is possibly the root cause of this behaviour.
@rubenmurga17352 жыл бұрын
I just saved this video to watch later but you just described me. I too suffer from the same self sabotage. I will watch this later when I can focus on it.
@marigoldcobbina3877 Жыл бұрын
@@rubenmurga1735I’d advise you address it soon. My self sabotage face broke my psychie. It was hell but my shadow did what it had to do for me to face it and hug it and see from that perspective
@JacobD-u2nАй бұрын
As a result of watching this video I purchased Robert A Johnson's book " Own your own shadow" and halfway through reading it I had a direct experience that lasted for about a week where I was living in harmony with my shadow. It was the most freeing experience I've ever had with myself. It changed the way I saw everything. It reoriented and enriched my understanding of the world and all those around me. Life felt like a deeply poetic mandorla. My shadow and My persona felt nsync like two roommates sharing a dwelling where the currency of our shared space & time was an act of continuously acknowledgment & acceptance.
@dc2x278 Жыл бұрын
KZbin sent me here & shifted my moods. Own up to your dark side & love it. It’s a greater change when you feel what you’re experiencing
@Archie3vanz2 жыл бұрын
Your contributions are invaluable. I’m so glad this kind of content is on KZbin. You are saving lives brother.
@paktahn2 жыл бұрын
as someone who grew up with anger issues to the point that i scared many of my family it was only when i embraced the darkness within that i was able to become stable and not lash out at anything in sight i realized that the more i tried to deny and hold back the rage the less control i had i consider myself very fortunate that i come to this enlightenment all on my own and before it destroyed my life as looking back now i see i was on a path of either self destruction or or imprisonment this video speaks truth i know from first hand experience
@jaspermarukka2 жыл бұрын
Do you mean like just accept the anger?
@paktahn2 жыл бұрын
@@jaspermarukka yeah but not just accept it to understand what causes it and then learn to not let it control you it is a lot easier said than done im now 44 years old and still have a bad temper but i dont let the anger control me
@jaspermarukka2 жыл бұрын
@@paktahn sometimes the anger isnt anger... its another Emotion but we feel anger. We have to think Hey exactly we are upset als communicate it then I think
@luna.1409 Жыл бұрын
I got the same problem... Did you go to therapy / psychiatry ? Or did you do it on your own ?
@eresseer61582 жыл бұрын
Excellent. Thank you. After a trauamtic life event last year I have been going through this process - doing the shadow work, embracing paradox. It has been truly hellish at times, I have often felt despair, but there is much here that I feel encouraged by.
@sludgerat4442 жыл бұрын
Same. The clarity gained after actively analyzing our traumas/shadow is such a wonderful fruit to bear.
@matthew91422 жыл бұрын
@@sludgerat444 the best fruit to bear is that of the Holy Spirit. This whole shadow work is not as good as they say it is. Look up New Age to Jesus testimonys
@Nica-Ra-Wata2 жыл бұрын
All us one You are everywhere EVERYBODY We are one Your experience is only a learning experience. Relax
@padlockeussy10 ай бұрын
Buddhism summarizes the whole concept in their portrayal of monks meeting demons with compassion and understanding instead of forcible expulsion like exorcisms. By showing the compassion and understanding to the demons they overcome them by bringing balance to the demon’s energies and helping the demon to find peace and enlightenment as much as they seek to help those suffering at the demon’s hands.
@BrokenBrain1009 ай бұрын
Thank you for this. I study Buddhism and frequent many Monasteries in SoCal but never made this connection. I will study this aspect now.
@BrentlyObjectivity2 жыл бұрын
Combining the YING ...YANG...☯️ And breaking out The Scales for ideal Balance...😚
@cjpapasito Жыл бұрын
Great video. There is an inherent paradox in the idea that you can “own” your shadow. Isn’t this the ego wanting control over the unconscious?
@MFLimited Жыл бұрын
Good question
@originaldaughterofabyayala6678 Жыл бұрын
It is, you don’t have to own it. You need to become one with it. Without darkness there’s no light.
@Alex-qb9eo Жыл бұрын
I think he mean “owning” it as accepting it. Understanding that it will always be there and work with it. Ofc not to be a bad person but to listen the lessons the shadow shows.
@JessAnonymous Жыл бұрын
This video is insanely amazing. I even got emo a bit because im questioning my beliefs and it really is hard!!! Im gonna watch this over and over
@leeannschaffer14332 жыл бұрын
You are - as always - stunning. I have been working with this book for over a year now. The rewards are ineffable. --but I can not stress enough that you only get out of it what you put in. It is time consuming and very hard work. I often think with deepest gratitude that I have the pure luxury of time because I'm retired, while also being driven by so many life struggles; using the red pill/blue pill idea from the film, The Matrix... and the philosophy presented in the Star Wars series, "Do or do not. There is no try." I'm keeping my shoulder to the wheel. Johnson's other books are great as well, but this one is almost like an owner's manual for human-ness/humanity.
@moiraann54545 ай бұрын
When you ask those questions that are just one step away from being too “personal”, you get see who they are, and why they’re the way they are. You get to watch people recount history and become their own student. Im a sucker for invoking a story teller in the people I talk to. And I get the same thrill from listening to these video essays~
@kennyshortcake999 Жыл бұрын
Outstanding work 🎉 … KS 🏴
@tabithaann262 жыл бұрын
Thank you for introducing me to Jung during the pandemic, at the time when I most needed to hear of his work. You have changed my life for the better, as I am sure you have for many others. Namaste
@satnamo2 жыл бұрын
Amen!
@JuanRodriguez-gj5zk2 жыл бұрын
Plandemic
@XeLYoutube2 жыл бұрын
@jimmybeans11752 жыл бұрын
The background music is perfect.
@FLawLesSTaStE2 жыл бұрын
How should I acknowledge paradox in this context, I am confused.
@уронить Жыл бұрын
I like to think of every human as a lens, all blurred slightly different, through which the light of God can shine. But since all of us are blurred and smudged, it’s is only when all of our lights combine that we can see the true picture of God.
@smileyface59082 жыл бұрын
I’ve just found your podcast on apple. I’m so grateful, I love your show, it really resonates with me. I just don’t want to use KZbin anymore. I feel like if I’m listening to a podcast I’m still getting things done, rather than being on my butt watching KZbin. I really appreciate your take on Jung/the shadow in this vid. I’ve been learning about it for a few years but there was gold in your video I’d never thought about before. There was more than one time in the video I had to rewind and listen again so I could really let it sink in. Thank you.
@victoriawilliams27862 жыл бұрын
I have been THERE and it took weeks to stop being angry. I've spent the time ever since working on myself. I carry some of THAT PLACE within me, since 2015. Thank-you for putting what I've been doing into words.
@unjogratistheforbiddenmonkeygo2 жыл бұрын
This is the most important video I've seen in a long time, thanks for the great work and wisdom, as well as pleasant and fulfilling art!
@brotherdaryll13998 ай бұрын
It never ceases to amaze me of how the Universe will present that which is needed, at the proper time.
@ATeaNTea Жыл бұрын
Well that explains Lebum and Robert Earl DL thanks for the video
@nicholasbrown3161 Жыл бұрын
Ego is the enemy -Ryan Holiday Great book, for any readers out here :)
@Morrosoy28 Жыл бұрын
Its VERY important to know - yes explore and integrate your shadow self - but don't become it - understand it and understand where it came from and connect the dots in your own family group - have sympathy and empathy and see and feel where it came from and then be helpful in your family group while being discrete - the universe will let you play this role if you can be mature enough to help unrable the past and the generations of trauma and drama you inherited - its breaking curses and you have to bare the weight silently while responsibly guiding your family group. WHAT IT'S NOT -- IS BECOMING THE SHADOW! it will be tempting and you will only manifest your family lines' problems head-on. BE CAREFUL AND WORK THIS WHEN YOU ARE READY -- ITS A LIFE TIME RESPONSIBILITY to dissipate your bloodlines problems -- but once you are mature enough as a person it wont be impossible, but instead a journey for your WHOLE blood line to free itself - a big responsibility that will free your people.
@flippingparrots6859 Жыл бұрын
I really love this channel! The images chosen, the voice THE CONTENT! Fantastic 🎉
@vanzrealm Жыл бұрын
One of the BEST videos on YT
@lucila54662 жыл бұрын
❤🔥This might be the single most relevant video on YT. I'm in awe of your wisdom.🖤 (also fascinating imagery)
@curiouslyunruffled2 жыл бұрын
This topic is very close to my heart. I'd never categorically read about "the shadow" but I always instinctively knew it existed and walked alongside me. I could probably notice early on bc I'm a lone wolf by choice, a lover of solitude. As I've grown older, I've accepted it with open arms and let it become an integral part of my life. It's been one of the most gratifying experiences. Even my NN in Scorpio makes way more sense when I connect the dots with the shadow side bc in the end, what we desperately need to sustain ourselves over time is emotional security. Thank you for this insightful video essay, I absolutely loved watching and learning more. Keep going! ✨
@carlapinheiro35422 жыл бұрын
Indeed!! Thank you for sharing 🙏
@curiouslyunruffled2 жыл бұрын
@@carlapinheiro3542 You're welcome, Carla! :)
@dad43782 жыл бұрын
Hey Priya. Nicely said. Quick question, are you indian?:)
@johnathanmandrake72402 жыл бұрын
The lord reigns over all, even astrology. Principalities are principalities reguardless of their name given to by man.
@bamxire88452 жыл бұрын
'A one sided goodness that has not vitality or life' Wow this is deep very deep. So many people including myself are willing to relegate ourselves to a lower level because of ego. We must embrace our shadow. And embrace life!
@Burning_Babylon2 жыл бұрын
Psychedelics in very very high doses will give you a simulation of a NDE . It's the highest level. But if you reach the omega point you will know what God knows. For a moment. But in our blindness we don't grasp the concept of time in these lower dimensions. That moment was infinite and in a way longer than all of our lives combined. Yet I'm here now. It's a quantum truth where we exist in parallel dimensions. We get confused and call it parallel universes. Sorta true but just true because it's very difficult to understand w your third eye closed. Infinite divinity of eternal infinity. I did a 300hr sharpie drawing called on KZbin "omega point rico1art" sacred geometry like you can't imagine . P.s I call the shadow "the Blindspot" you can penetrate it but it can't be erased in these dimensions. You can rise above it for limited time. W discipline it gets easier. That's what monkey are doing w there lives. Once you rise above it. The extremely complicated geometric shape of your light body changes. That's how your blindspots reset after epiphanies. You effect the higher dimensions enough to be put into another level of paradigm shift. The shift is the shape of reality and your actual light body. I only know this because I hd a real psychedelic NDE Sept 29, 1999 Everyone sees it in there end but the biggest blessing is to know this when you are becoming a man. The difficult part is truly having "knowledge" but watching ppl around you suffering hopelessly when you know you could expose them to freedom enlightenment. It's very much like the story of the men in the caves that couldn't be convinced they were prisoners of there mind. Like the matrix 1 concept. Interestingly enough came out right about the same time as the experience
@bamxire88452 жыл бұрын
@@Burning_Babylon Wonderful comment that deserves far more thumbs up. Thank you for that golden nugget of wisdom my friend :) I have had dissolution of ego during my trips on Salvia divanorum like literal break through's where I came into contact with Angelic beings that were and always have been present on this earth. One break through I was a spec of light travelling through space past galaxies, stars, worm holes and even beings huge life forms and everything in between. Those 5 minutes make you feel like this life this physical plane was all a big lie for something much bigger and meaningful like it was all a test¬ ! I agree psychedelics have much to teach and we have much to learn from.
@Burning_Babylon2 жыл бұрын
@@bamxire8845 I saw angels. They look like cherubs
@bamxire88452 жыл бұрын
@@Burning_Babylon Truly is a humbling experience, I hope you got serenity from it :)
@Burning_Babylon2 жыл бұрын
@@bamxire8845 it messed me up bad but in a good way. I came from a genetic line of monsters. So for me to be straitened out from demon spawn was like a exorcism. It had many bad effects in the short term because I was she'll shocked. You can get PTSD if you go all the way w tripping. It saved my life but also caused me to lose every family member and childhood friend. But what you really realize they were illusions. There's a lot of shit that isn't pretty when you take almost all the chains off that are dragging you. But you will make people uncomfortable existing outside of being full of shit. Most ppl are very hollow. And it bothers them that your smile is a actual smile
@IceColdProfessional10 ай бұрын
I listen to this entire Playlist while I sleep so the information is solidified in my subconscious.
@BernieSanderss Жыл бұрын
It’s been 3 years no human interaction rarely leave my house going a bit insane but also learning a lot about the spiritual world and finding myself,
@dannywhite99752 жыл бұрын
2 any1 who's reading this comment: Whatever u r going through don't fight there's no need 2 do it fighting drain yr positive nrg there4 keep calm cuz u r not alone we r all spiritually connected. Deep in yr soul there's a powerful truth so get focused on yrself do meditation take yr time do what u love enjoy d present without any attachments 4 d outcome thus u'll be free by any kind of delusion. Let pursue of perfection down it only makes u miserable chasing it thus u allow yrself improve little by little that's d way 2 get better. Be safe be kind n' take care ⭐❤
@matthew91422 жыл бұрын
Jesus Can help with all that❤️ you spoke of a powerful "Truth" Jesus said "I am the Way, the Truth & the Life" give Jesus a try & see your life change for the better. I was into new age where u only focus on urself & what not. Spoiler alert it's not good. Look up New age to Jesus testimonys
@Diomedes_XXII2 жыл бұрын
This is actually terrifying(for me, personally). I very much appreciate this video for here speaks wisdom... while attempting to reconcile this within myself, is where the terror lies.
@alexisaguirrevideos Жыл бұрын
Checking in on you. Have you revisited this video? Are you still scared?
@nenirouvelliv2 жыл бұрын
Despite never having heard the term before, especially in relation to Jung, I've often thought about the concept of the "Golden World", certain rare and fleeting experiences and moments in life have an "golden aura" to them. They are not usually some great celebrations or significant events in any official sense, but moments when a more pristine reality unexpectedly leaks its golden light into our reality. This of course can be seen as an inner experience where the gray veil of mundanity covering our mind and senses is momentarily pulled aside. Yet to some extent I feel that it is or can be more than just an inner reality for the observer. Perhaps when enough individuals embrace the path to beauty they can at least briefly bring such elevated existence into reality. I would consider concepts like Elysium or Arcadia as representations of such Golden World entering into existence. By no means I would equate it to Heaven though, it is not a morally perfect reality, but a more richer, beautiful and mysterious fever dream with shadows and deep imperfections.
@bamxire88452 жыл бұрын
Indeed.
@Colin-wn1ik2 жыл бұрын
I think this happens more often in places where drugs are used. It's as if the "Golden light" comes out from within us, because many worries and things to be responsible of are put aside in that moment.
@nenirouvelliv2 жыл бұрын
@@Colin-wn1ik I would I agree that in some situations drugs or psychedelics can pave the way for such realizations about the world. I think also natural occurrences where the ego takes the back seat for a reason or another can induce this as well. In that sense it's preferable if drugs are not involved to keep a more clear and contemplative mind. But I agree that there needs to be a moment of calm within the inner storm, so we can see the world in its raw beauty. I've personally identified this "force" with Jung's interpretation of Abraxas, though I'm not actually sure if he would have equated it with seeing the world and Nature as it is.
@Colin-wn1ik2 жыл бұрын
@@nenirouvelliv The ego taking a backseat is a good way to put it, and yes preferably that state would be reached without drugs. I just think being in this "golden state" takes alot of energy, and can only be reached when you spare energy (put the ego aside (less stuff to think about)). Given that worries and responsibilities in life suck alot of energy, it would be an explanation for why this "golden light" doesn't come out so often. I also think people could get addicted to this "golden light", if its reached by having no worries and responsibilities it's no wonder that there are so many alcoholists for example.
@Colin-wn1ik2 жыл бұрын
@@jbeauty4150 for me a bit too. Recently i've been drinking and going out a bit more often, I really noticed this feeling in myself and others. What amazes me is the vibe it creates. Every single person drunk and with no worries, it's like the "Life is hard" thought is put aside, which makes the "golden light" from within us come out
@MrSoskiKrota Жыл бұрын
Own it, you have it! Claim it!
@realme-pw2lc Жыл бұрын
somebody has been feeding this video in my feed for so long now.
@TAROTAI Жыл бұрын
Loving someone and being loved . . . is the most important 'experience in a lifetime'
@Bunny-nq4nk2 жыл бұрын
"Where would I be without you" beautiful
@satnamo2 жыл бұрын
I would be here and now without you.
@cynthiaheatly5562 Жыл бұрын
Wow! Thank you for helping me to finally understand about the shadow, my shadow. I’m sure 4 yrs of psychotherapy helped me with the process. As Yojin Bo said ‘this video found me’ 🙏
@adrianlewis72392 жыл бұрын
Externalised is becoming one of the most important cultural influences in my life. I have also recognised a crossover between Zen Buddhism and Jung, and this is another confirmation.
@XeLYoutube2 жыл бұрын
i thought the same in this video, about the zen buddhism and similar observation of ego (ramana maharshi)
@luksbarao Жыл бұрын
The best video I have saw in mt life. Yesterday I fall for my shadow, embodied it gracefully. And I feel so much better. Thank you, we, the Human race needs you
@уронить Жыл бұрын
I think this video is appropriate in understanding the significance of religion. In the Bible it says that when God created the entire universe he looked at it and declared it to be good. Not the good parts of the world, or just the light, just the angels and not the demons. He beheld ALL his creation and declared it to be good.
@jj93912 жыл бұрын
Thank U so much. This is precious. The synchronicity of this words finding me today is too hard to describe. My shadow overcame me exactly 24 hours ago, wasn’t possible for me to be stronger than the shadow. I feel broken by the episode because is almost one year I’m trying to heal a huge trauma embracing forgiveness, love, let it go… I suffered and struggled trying to be able to forgive, I thought I was finally on the right path. No… my shadow was solicited, arrived, it was so powerful… Just now, after your video, I am able to understand many many things about my life. At the moment I’m scared and feel fragile, but I know that if You arrived to me is because my Guardian Angels know You would bring light and clarity. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
@richgreen34592 жыл бұрын
You done it again man, thank you.
@Magik13692 жыл бұрын
An excellent video. I own all of Robert Johnson's books. The shadow is not a permanent part of the Self. The shadow is where we are wounded and contains our repressed instincts, emotions, feelings, and the inferior side of our personality. Once one has integrated the shadow by first facing it, accepting it, and owning it, one breaks through and the Light of the Self begins to comes forefront of the being. The shadow is for the most part purged and integrated. It is a painful and laborious process that takes decades. There is nothing evil about the shadow. I think Jung was wrong on this point. I don't believe Jung reached enlightenment but he traveled quite far. Evil is a dualistic illusion and has no ontological reality. Evil is the degree to which one is not aligned with the Self, which is the evolving Soul or Psychic Being. It is a spark of the Divine and is purely good...in fact it is beyond good and evil altogether.
@JohnBrown722so Жыл бұрын
Majick is witchcraft. Ur a liar
@andreybogoslowsky Жыл бұрын
immortality happens here and now it’s a perpetual journey. I started at age 14 and I will continue until I will depart from this planet in the abyss. And then I will materialize again somewhere else billions of light-years away from here maybe few billion years in the future or maybe in the past and it doesn’t really matter. I really enjoy the journey today I’ve volunteered at the church for two hours we distributed food to 200 people I feel I have achieved something special today and tomorrow I will do it again at a different church.
@eliaselbs3163 Жыл бұрын
Wow im astonished being in depth or selfexplorstion this opens the ubderstanding at is so to say the inscription to the experiences ocurre , ocurring simultaneously and further more for those inner works to come🙏🏻 Fantastic in a way and again great synchronicities :))
@BlackHoleAstrology2 жыл бұрын
It's odd because I keep having shadow-work echoed back to me everywhere and I suppose that I cannot deny it any more. Admittedly, in my 20s, I was a complete pushover and just doormat, empathic type. I would think of boundaries and saying "no" as unhelpful, in spite of how it was only damaging me. A lot of my shadow seems to possess traits and qualities that I truly need.
@kodykoolrocks2 жыл бұрын
i can relate. i had a realization that i was pretty much a "doormat" as you described and had this inner voice telling me how there's a version of me that i hide from. some see him and i want to be him but im too scared to become that person, too scared of falling short. so in response i don't become him and continue being walked on until im ready to become that
@matthew91422 жыл бұрын
Hey your loved❤️ this whole shadow work & ego talk is not what you need. Jesus can set you free & make you a new creation. Ofc you don't have to be a pushover in life, stand firm & do great. U don't have to "embrace ur shadow side" to simply say no.
@matthew91422 жыл бұрын
@@kodykoolrocks u don't have to tho. Ever seen the movie "Me, Myself & Erine? (Jim Carrey) anyways hes a pushover who eventually breaks & does whatever he wants. U don't have to be that person. U don't have to be a pushover but u can still be a great person overall. This whole shadow talk & ego thing is not what u need trust trust. Jesus Christ can set you free from all that❤️Your loved
@emeraldlafave6727 Жыл бұрын
ME TOO!
@nappa3550 Жыл бұрын
Indeed. I found something I had lost in it. After finding it, I've felt more invigorated and most importantly, whole. I still have problems, but I don't feel like I'm weighed down (mentally and physically). It has helped me become more intelligent too.