P-Valley / "Now My Light is Gone" | Big Teak Kills Himself Scene

Series: P Valley
Season 2
Episode 6
American Drama TV Series
Created by Katori Hall
The series follows the lives of employees working at a strip club called "The Pynk" in the fictional city of Chucalissa, Mississippi

[@Bleekcastle]

When Teak explained his mom killing his siblings, everything made sense. No wonder he was crazy as fuck, wanting to fight all of the time. He experienced some real evil at a young age..

[@Shon9tilR]

So the 3 tears on his face was his siblings 😢

[@dashawnwhye5922]

@@Shon9tilRyeah that’s what the three tears mean 1 for his brother and his two sister killed by there mother in the house he was in teak got a way and hid in a closet until the noise stopped

[@Shon9tilR]

@@dashawnwhye5922 I can’t wait to see season 3.

[@sid2daknee]

When Teak said: "I'm just so tired." I felt that.

[@floliddell7910]

I felt it as well..story of my life....

[@proudblackwoman4824]

@@floliddell7910 Can i ask a question? I have never watched this show but I came here because someone referenced this show in a real life suicide that just happened. I was just curious.......Were these 2 men together in a relationship?

[@scottybaybee7920]

@@proudblackwoman4824 yes

[@imangelini]

@@proudblackwoman4824 There we’re together in jail but teak stayed in prison for 10 years and Murda got released so he moved on. Teak was finding it hard to get his life back and the fact that murda moved on with someone else was his tipping point.

[@latrelleedwards7492]

I had to come back two months later to revisit this episode. Just because the way they made it was brilliant. But I agree when Teak said "I'm so Tired" that hit the hardest.

[@ipleathetv6334]

When Murda screamed “I see it for you Nigga I see it” that just broke me down. He tried so hard to save his friend.

[@Franchise-p7g]

Mane facts!! Me and my brother was like I felt that!

[@ChrisSoSmooth99]

Facts

[@shawdiee91]

The fact Murda already knew sum was wrong and didn’t wanna leave shows a lot . This episode tore me up 😢

[@DDWest]

This is so much sadder because Big Teak believed in Lil Murda so much. The man had so much faith in him. They both could have gone far if Teak had been able to get some help. Mental health is so important. I love how you start out thinking the show is just about strippers, but you realize it tackles so many important issues along the way. Can't wait for season 3!

[@WapakalypseMan]

Suicide has been on my mind since I was 13. I always thought it wouldn't really be a big deal if I was gone, but this scene here put it into perspective for me of how traumatic it would be for others, and honestly, after watching this show I have no desire to do it anymore.

[@dominiquejones3805]

Nah u got people that love u

[@Somebody-Come-Look-At-This]

Same here. I’m glad you didn’t! We have more to do before we leave.

[@takarajackson1689]

Me too since 15 but I'm still here. I found a passion for music and activism . I'm glad you don't have to desire to do it no more . I hope find your passion and joy for something. Depression is serious illness. Suicide is not the answer to end your pain, love is.

[@officialmrtv4522]

@@takarajackson1689 Idek y and I luv u

[@XHxneyOppz]

Same, when I was 13, I was gonna off myself but I felt so guilty , and that voice was like u gotta think about the people who loves and that was a very few

[@shanoriya]

I was honestly crying with Teak in this scene. The flashback of his childhood is terrifying. His mom trying to kill him and his siblings🥺 Also mental illness can be hereditary which is likely what he was going through himself

[@shania991]

she didnt try she did he was the only one that survived that's what really broke him

[@Angel423angel]

This actually based on a true story the I believe mother got 116 years in prison

[@Shon9tilR]

What was wrong with her?

[@dipmeingloss]

It's so heartbreaking when ppl fighting demons & they literally have you in a CHOKEHOLD & keep squeezing ... 🥺🥺💔 the whole conversation in the car leading up to big teak's final moment of him shooting himself affected me a whole week later i was fck'd up over this scene i cried instantly, RIP BT 🕊🦋

[@selenapurifoy4921]

remember God loves u and u can push through with him

[@lawrencelawrence8553]

"NIGGA I SEE IT FOR YOU!!!" Such a powerful and well delivered line for such a powerful scene. IDK how often someone who committed suicide had a friend or family member with them at the time but I would think a line like that would immediately make them change their mind like I thought with this scene. That's why I knew Lil Murda was gonna be a different person after this because of the despair he feels as one often would. "Did he not believe in me? Did he see me as the friend and brother I saw him as? Maybe if I would've kept in contact more often? Maybe if I would've asked him about his childhood before now?" Is all things that would haunt your mind forever

[@Staytuned_Bre]

Ku mí ói

[@Soulociraptr]

When Murda said, "I SEE IT FOR YOU, NIGGA, I SEE IT!" That shit broke me down. To have someone value your life more than you do, it's...telling. I've struggled with suicidal thoughts since 8th grade, and I've been in the ward for suicide watch. Those who haven't experienced these thoughts never fully realize the despair that people could be in. Then again, those who have experienced it never fully see the impact they have on the lives of those around them. It gets cloudy sometimes.

[@isoholic3985]

Hey how are you, you still hanging in there please say you are 🙏 ❤

[@OneKENDRA35]

I pray your doing better. Don't ever give up on living, because you really are here for a reason. ❤

[@KingBrahma-xw6mt]

Losing his mom his siblings and also losing lil murda to uncle Clifford he couldn’t handle losing nothing else close to him

[@Shon9tilR]

😢

[@elaineking2621]

Lord have mercy people are actually suffering like this for real.

[@selenapurifoy4921]

mental illness, childhood trauma unhealed wounds

[@simoneterry3220]

I see for you nigga I SEE IT!!! Tears man ...such good acting

[@dipmeingloss]

Phenomenal acting 🥺💔 ' i got goosebumps

[@dominiquejones3805]

So tired

[@makahifoley3032]

Love that freaking part definitely brought tears

[@shamekawalker9800]

This episode always trigger me. My husband took his own life in 2016. He was battling depression. The day before he died, he wrote his favorite bible verse down and placed it in his Bible.The next morning he got up for work just like any other morning, but that would be the last time I saw him alive. He took his own life later that day while I was at work. Worst day of my life Feb.08 2016. I'll never forget that phone call from his dad. With in the blink of an eye my life, my kids lives where shattered. I pray his soul is at peace. I will love him always.😢🕊️🙏🙏💔💔

[@arielchiv96]

I’m so sorry for your loss, I pray for your healing.

[@shamekawalker9800]

@@arielchiv96 thank you so much.♥️

[@lawrencelawrence8553]

I'm really not trying to be rude and you don't have to answer if you don't want to but may I ask exactly how he did it? Was it a similar fashion to this scene? I had a friend who committed suicide when he found his girlfriend committed suicide. Literally walked in on her body then walked to the roof and jumped off. We said at the time that we believe that if someone else was there with him then it could've been prevented but judging from this scene it might not always be the case as clearly Teak was suffering from severe depression to the point where he already decided that morning when he woke up that he was taking his own life before the day was done which is why he kept trying to get rid of Murda. That's why I ask because you said he left his favorite Bible verse as if he already decided that he was gonna take his life that day regardless due to depression even though he clearly has a loving wife and children. My condolences as well 🙏

[@shamekawalker9800]

@@lawrencelawrence8553 hello dear. I don't mind talking about it sometimes it helps me to actually talk about what happened. Similar to this scene. Gun shot to the head. I feel like he definitely decided the night before when he was writing his Bible verses down. I wish I could have been home at the time, maybe, just maybe I could've talked him out of it. But my mom always tell me it wasn't meant for me to be there. He walked in the house and told the kids he loved them and told them to tell me that he loved me and I was the best thing ever happened to him. They said he was crying, and he kissed our baby girl on the forehead and walked out the house. They knew something was wrong, they just didn't know what was about to happen. That day forever haunts me.

[@karmenlewis1951]

My best friend committed suicide the same way in 2021, I miss him so much. I feel you on this. May your husband rest in peace. ❤️

[@ShakeinaLee-fv2tz]

This was so sad !! I wish his character would have gotten help you could tell they loved each other they just never admitted it rip big teak💔

[@BlackBusyBody]

Mental illness really has to be addressed in our community. We can’t continue to sweep it. It’s exhausting. I know exactly how he feels

[@lillawbreaka9370]

I'm to weak for this 🌎.

[@moodforever]

@@lillawbreaka9370we all are but we have to keep going to see ourselves strong 🫶🏾

[@FlawedGreatness]

He deserved an Emmy for this scene for this role 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨🔥🔥🔥🥹🥹🥹🥹

[@queenarthur1152]

Depression is so fucking hard

[@arabiamcmahan5778]

I felt this scene. As someone who has contemplated suicide many times I felt this. If it weren't for my son I would be a distant memory

[@kingLuu816]

Nigga only reason why you not dead is because you're scared to do it... You're scared of death if you've "contemplated suicide many times" and still havent done it. It ain't your son thats stopping you if you had that many times... N its a good thing you're scared you should be afraid of death

[@sodayumsouthern]

Stay up. Keep pushing fam. 🙏🏿

[@armaniransom9296]

I do everyday

[@arabiamcmahan5778]

@@armaniransom9296 your life has value❤

[@top-icalmovement1483]

Stay strong, life is precious 🙏🙌

[@UnderThaSun]

This scene hits home for me in so many different ways 🥺😢

[@foreverkc8164]

I haven't seen this episode since it aired. This scene was too much and both did excellent

[@Dual971]

When LM realised BT really loved him, it was too late.

[@drestathagangsta8880]

I think it was the other way around. Teak ultimately decided to end it all when he felt Murda had moved on without him. Once he realized Murda had more love for him than he thought, his inner demons had already taken over.

[@daniellechenault3025]

I’ felt teak on this . 💯 the things I put myself through.. I did it to myself.

[@smoovlatino]

That was the most Denzel-esque “I see it for you!”

[@imangelini]

Big Teak didn’t deserve to be in a world that had nothing for him. Fly high BT🕊

[@FLSouthBoyz]

Its fake

[@GHOST91141]

@@FLSouthBoyz 😂

[@Shon9tilR]

@@FLSouthBoyzBut many can relate to him.

[@moodforever]

😩 you explained this perfectly ! Mood

[@astronomical1913]

Lil murda.. that guy is really one hell of an actor, after P Valley runs its course, I see homie on the big screen

[@dominiquejones3805]

Murda was n his corner just couldn't love him the way he wanted. Plus feeling the world has passed u by, dude dint know how 2 use a debit card. Small things

[@imangelini]

definitely you’re right! I think his past and the new world was tough dealing with. But realising the ONLY man you have EVER loved as moved on aswell I think was the tipping point.

[@Shon9tilR]

Why did he go to jail and for how long? I miss that part.

[@candaceholden9681]

They played this part. I felt the pain😢🤧

[@ashleyjennings7944]

What especially kills me is the fact that Lil Murda gave Teak back his gun earlier in the episode. 😞

[@dominiquejones3805]

He had it, Murda wasn't gonna kick Teak off he tour

[@brownsugar8353]

Same thing I said😭

[@imangelini]

Teak was gonna kill himself regardless if Murda gave him back the gun. I’d like to say that Teak and murda would’ve gotten back together if teak stayed alive but he already saw how in love murda was with cliff so he would’ve died regardless

[@ashleyjennings7944]

@@imangelini that is an amazing point and I think you're 100% right. I'd like to believe that he already made his mind up after hearing about Uncle Clifford.

[@imangelini]

@@ashleyjennings7944 fr! But I find comfort in knowing that if Murda didn’t love Teak then he wouldn’t have love cliff

[@makayla783]

This is equally frustrating and heartbreaking. You can say EVERYTHING right. Everything that they are supposed to tell them. How you are you going to be there with them. How they are not alone. How you see a future for them. You can say all of that, and it still won’t be enough to keep them here. If someone truly wants to leave, they will. No matter what it is you say. The actors did an amazing job. I’m happy that the writers chose to not show the actual event or his body afterwards. It was brutal enough without it.

[@krisp817]

I watched this scene with my daughter who at the time had the same thoughts and almost did it but I caught her shortly after she wrote her note ! She said after seeing what it do to family and friends, she really felt the Devastation in everyone from this episode! We both cried together and she Apologized 100 times, if she made us feel a fraction of that pain ! Was a bridge I think we needed to cross

[@felisha209]

that's amazing

[@dominiquejones3805]

Murda wasn't kicking Teak off the tour smh I SEE IT

[@BrendaHagins]

Okay ysll remember when murfer was telling uncle cliff how him snd big teak linked up He Stated He Had Payed A Officer To Push Him In A Closet And It Was What It Was Right Allot You Was Blind To The Fact He Raped Big Teak In Prison In To They Both Fell InLove Go Back Rewatch 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅

[@brownsugar8353]

Y’all when I tell y’all I just started this show and finished this episode last night and was in tears!!😭 This is a great show and I can’t believe I been missing out! The acting is phenomenal! 😍

[@dominiquejones3805]

My boy called me minutes b4 he hung himself from his son bunk bed. I couldn't answer bcuz I was at work by the time I took my lunchbreak my ex was callin me sayin she saw post that he passed.

[@MOBROOKS]

Damn. I’m sorry to hear that.

[@naseemeast600]

Sorry to hear dat

[@myckalaross8973]

I’m so very sorry for your loss I’ll definitely be praying for you ❤️

[@codilortan2493]

Condolences hope God can comfort your heart!

[@dominiquejones3805]

@@codilortan2493 Thank u so much, I still check on his widow & son

[@aneshaelizabeth]

This scene made me feel bad because in the episode when Teak found out about Clifford I said to myself “oh now he’s gonna off himself”. The signs were there, but I didn’t think that it would actually be written in. It was tastefully done and I’m glad they didn’t show the actually act of Teak taking his own life. My heart sank when Teak said “my light is gone”. I know that feeling all to well.

[@sashafierce471]

Teak I fckin LUVVV you ❤️❤️❤️

[@sweetestgrl91]

Facts boo 💔💔💔😢🙏💪👑

[@BeastIncarnate83]

As a person who suffers from bipolar disorder and depression I felt this so much this made my heart hurt

[@BigBlanco16]

When he said “there ain’t no more light” .. it hit home. My light was burned out for years until god sent me one and now 4 years later my baby boy is the biggest reason why I shine. I say this to say please hold on if you’re going through anything, your time is coming. You have a purpose and when it’s your time you will sleep knowing you never gave up ❤️

[@shanoriya]

GIVE THIS MAN A FUCKING EMMY!!!

[@kingbrahma5005]

I love how he didn’t leave him even when Teak told him to that’s hurtful to see ya friend die in front of you and you can’t do nothing about it

[@saadiqthegreat1]

Lil murda was with him to the end 😭

[@Cedricknowledge]

Deep….This show is deep. I ain’t even watched an episode. Awards and Kudos to the writers and actors.

[@tajj1351]

His mind was already made up..😮😢

[@Melanated_Introvert-sm9ok]

I felt Teak, fighting to stay afloat mentally gets exhausting. If it wasn’t for my daughter I would’ve checked out years ago.

[@zacharylavender1568]

What a powerful, well acted scene!

[@shania991]

I get people make the gay jokes or whatever but this made me so sad so many black men out here wanting to go from the dark to the light mental health really ain't no joke sometimes just being a man ain't enough people get to they breaking points and teak couldn't do it no more them memories that pain was way to heavy for his heart I wanted him to put that gun down so bad I've watched my big brother be depressed rather this a show or not black men deserve to grow old

[@34tcollins]

When he said “there ain’t no more light” I felt that real bad!!

[@Oblander]

I think this is the best single scene of television I’ve ever come across….it stops you dead in your tracks every time. Both fellas were superb here

[@antdagawd68]

Outstanding acting literally jaw dropping acting💯

[@M0STD0P3SOCIETY]

I lost my best friend just like this man. I cried watching this shit

[@smartkidslose]

I cried 😢

[@JungleKittie5280]

The look Teak gave Lil Murda a second before he shot himself, gets me everytime😔😔

[@summerdowlig]

Sad he was in so much pain.

[@cian2898]

This was one of the saddest most relatable moments 💔😩 I’m so… idek

[@rlprimus06]

This scene should have won awards

[@shanoriya]

“I’m right here baby boy…. I ain’t going no fucking where” he really stayed with him through the last moment so that he didn’t have to die alone. I can’t imagine what it’s like someone when you pull the trigger on themselves like that

[@TJ-100]

I put a gun to my head once, I heard my brother voice in my head & I stopped. “I’m just so tired”, yeah bruh that sht was 100%

[@TheMuziqKid]

I’m 1000% sure Lil Murda tried to take that piece from Teak 😢

[@3clowns469]

You gotta fight. An fight an fight. I was lucky to have a supportive family

[@byHexted]

Thats some good acting! I bought that “I’m so tired”

[@cocolokoflacco]

it's literally doesn't stop. everyday of stressful b.s is exhausting. I feel no matter how strong a person is, everyone has a breaking point.

[@KelliElaine]

RIP Big Teak. I wish you could have stuck around a little longer. I really enjoyed you as an actor and best friend to Lil Murda. I truly wish your storyline could have grown. Big Up's to a great actor!

[@cocorich5872]

That's right Murda Speak life into Big Teak!😭

[@228_Great]

I never could sit down and get into watching the show and I’m from the Sipp still live here but this scene popped up in my recommendations and it’s by no coincidence had a major breakdown yesterday been tryna stay strong these past few months heavy seem like these past few years been my lowest but I’ve been dealing with depression since a kid🙏🏾

[@cia531]

I pray you get through this

[@janitajohnson6499]

Wow she really used this p valley scene to put in her suicidal letter man shits real a whole successful black beautiful queen is gone in real life shts real y’all “like MurdA did tink

[@bigbuzin555]

Who?

[@cocorich5872]

600 Breezy girlfriend killed herself and referenced Lm And BT scene in her suicide letter

[@mariacosta4126]

Powerful! 🔥🔥🔥

[@buddahstar8]

Powerful scene

[@derrickalexander9710]

DAMN IT TEAK!!!

[@felixmartin9156]

Great acting

[@kadeembilal3047]

We all have demons that we must confront and defeat. Suicide is one of things that can occur when we choose not to confront those demons and it’s to late.

[@nianza4099]

When he called him “Thad”

[@RaldieYoung]

That’s how you know that shit just got real

[@Shon9tilR]

His real name?

[@shakebake3846]

I’ve been in his shoes since I was 5 years old. Out of all the time I’ve been on this earth if you add the number of days where I didn’t contemplate offing myself it’ll be 1 year 2 maximum. I’m 32 now and I tell myself things to make me not do it but I’m afraid of the day when I have no more hope.

[@joycewashington413]

This really deep l feel him

[@bodypositiveimage]

Jesus fix it 3:03

[@cambreezythecolorman0716]

Teak was doing was sick and crazy for what he did

[@Shon9tilR]

What did he do?

[@33mathias33]

Why is this full scene with captions not available?? Such a powerful scene...👎

[@cinnamon2263]

I'm not understanding.... spoil if you haven't watch the next episodes....

[@darnellwhitehead6860]

I don't even watch this s*** but this scene right here nigga this shit ryte here👏👏👏👏👏

[@paulettethorne8452]

This scene stuck with me

[@9wardslugga]

Were they In a sexual relationship?

[@shavonmulan1826]

Yes

[@yungkidd8080]

It don’t make me gay for liking this show do it?

[@crystalsherman8896]

Big Teak's suicide broke my heart. I was his character had more time on the show

[@kaiocrap6965]

RIP Teak man 😢😢

[@jadianderson3775]

RIP. Big. Teak

[@2krspy]

Man I tell you I feel this now. I just want to end it all I’m so tired.

[@pipsterr__]

Don't do it! You're amazing and deserve to be here on earth ❤️

[@tammypearson1574]

Please dnt do it you are here for a reason it’s ppl who love love talk to someone do something that makes u happy something u enjoy

[@Roger88faction]

Prolly best thing to say is you out this game, Go on vacation and enjoy your life, this was a bummer

[@shiayahevans3288]

I had dream like that by myself at home I had same idea

[@cwilson6948]

What song was he singing about when he was in the hole

[@yungpaijo]

Swear I thought about killing myself plenty of times I just don't feel strong enough to do it .😔 Life is hard as we all fighting our silent battles

[@Craig-pm2kc]

Why did he kill himself

[@gr6gh]

This is sad but for those in the comments talking about they contemplated it. Please keep that with yourself and your loved ones. KZbin shouldn’t even know that about ya, kinda looks like attention seeking stuff. I work in mental hospitals all my Life and the people who voice suicide or talk about it are usually attention seekers. Those who really want to do it will never share their plans because they actually wanna get thro their plan. They might leave a note and most of time They come off really normal or happy the day they plan to do it which is scary asf because it’s unsuspecting. They way this dude killed himself was impulsive but he wasn’t seeking attention as much as wanting to be alone and get thro his plan alone.

[@bmore-kambon]

I been at this point so many times in my fuckin life 😢 but my momz was always there to make me think twice or lower the pistol or not put 5 grams of fentanyl in my veins but now she gone and ai nobody to stop me

[@lopholaluzipo3333]

This is some deep shit The song just makes it worse

[@ZeldaMan]

as someone who's lived with depression someone who's never been able to talk because everytime I do its considered negative or attention grabbing I feel like nobody has ever cared and I don't think I'll be around much longer because of it eating me and turns to anger makes me hate myself more and more everytime and I started watching this show idk why but it started getting serious and so realistic I started legit getting deep in it and this scene hurt me more than anything ive ever watched in my entire life because I know it sucks to be tired of being tired and I felt so bad for Lil murda but at the same time know exactly where big t was coming from regardless of someone sitting next to him crying telling him they see the light for him 💔

[@Shon9tilR]

Please talk to someone. Find a few people you’re close to and who you can trust. Everything will be ok. Take it one day at a time.

[@billthreehundred7897]

I c it 4 nigga I c it. Shit was real

[@leonrose1649]

He mean from the dark to the evening darker

[@stevenhill4700]

most powerful scene of whole series

[@DystortdSacrifice]

This Gonna be the last thing I post

[@Lakiesha33]

I wonder why he did he kill himself that's one thing I didn't understand?????

[@Dual971]

He was fighting his demons and his only light that was LM moved on with someone else.

[@theoblack4592]

Sadly it’s a common thing for people that are locked up for so long and get out and having to red adjust. Imagine your old life being gone after doing time and not feeling like you’re able to re adapt. All those memories lost in a wondering river. This scene really emphasizes the necessity of mental health being focused on specifically for ex convicts.

[@krazykaye8843]

Do you not watch the show?

[@dominiquejones3805]

@@theoblack4592 didn't know how 2 use a debit card, the world moved on

[@DaygoKid94]

He was a quitter

[@Simplykiebby]

You would have thought something possessed the way I was carrying on crying when I watched this. Edit: I’ve been in Teaks position. I was so close too. Had my best friend not called me? I wouldn’t be here