Pivoting is hard and this is how I REALLY feel.

[@VanessaLau]

Ngl, I have a vulnerability hangover from posting this video, but I hope that sharing my current struggles and learning lessons will help those of you who are also going through a pivot. Remember: Success is not linear. Let's all embrace being a student of life. We got this and I believe in us!!! 💪

[@sacredearthguardians]

Sending so much love sister!!!❤❤❤❤❤

[@sacredearthguardians]

I needed to hear this! I have been feeling this same fear, beliefs and resistance I have to just fully get back out there. Girl I needed you to share this story. More than you can freaking know! I have so much to offer but I am getting hard on myself because I have not been on social media for a while and this is the fuel I needed to give me the confidence to get out there and make things happen!! Because of your video I am going to go back out there to do my feminine empowerment work!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@e.b.ramirez2140]

Good morning, Vanessa. Be free to be human. Not every decision we make, is going to be our best decision. Keep in mind, unless it is a detrimental nightmare, they are, stepping stones. Sometimes you may not see the step, but you have to take that leap of faith. When you don't trust in yourself, trust in a higher power. Btw, you may feel like you've had some failures and set backs, consider this, you are light years ahead of 99.999% of us. Do not gauge your success from a few posts, it's ok to be normal sometimes. Take off the Wonder Woman outfit, and just put on a safe pair of jeans and a tee shirt, and juat be the Real Vanessa. Don't try to be all things to all people. May God bless you on your journey through this crazy thing called life.

[@SheenaSantos]

you know what Vanessa... I feel you.. thank you. I've been struggling with this kind of "feeling" and thinking already for years already... I've been suppressing this because I want to show the ideal model of who I should be to motivate others... it's always about others... I'm afraid to show what's real... i'm afraid of something. While you are sharing, I saw my self jotting down my own... and I realized, i think it's time that I share mine that i've been suppressing for many years... thank you and yes I believe in us.

[@harpreetbassiart]

sending love

[@nodarknostar]

Social media is changing. People are craving authenticity, relatability, and genuine connection. It's clear you're already embracing that and pivoting, so there's no doubt in my mind you'll do just fine. You provide value by simply showing up, so do whatever you want and your audience will either love it or hate it, and the ones will hate it will be weeded out and the ones who love it grow and stand right beside you. Those are the people you want to surround yourself with anyway. Life is short, do the things you want to do and don't worry about anything else.

[@theamberturner]

This.

[@tabithathewholistic]

Yes! There's definitely a significant shift.

[@ChandraSoulCoach]

💯 agree 😊

[@shannonlwood]

Thankfully people are shifting ❤

[@LizafromWhere]

Agree. And she is just growing up in the most public way ever. Clever. Timing is just right. So sick of the whole hyper YT phase. Now we are back to real.

[@mrmoeezali]

" I don't have anything to teach" is SO untrue! The only person holding you back is YOU! ALL your videos ever since you have come back have been BOMB value, actually better, more precise, more honest and more OPEN! We're always learning, and we're always learning again. Those who have stopped learning are the ones who have died inside and out!

[@JDuece2009]

She is so amazing!

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you for these encouraging words. I absolutely know that it's ME that's blocking my progress because I've put such high expectations on MYSELF. This is the first step of many. Thank you!

[@suemclachlan]

agree! Right now I'm looking up to you BECAUSE you're sharing like this and it's what I need, thanks Vanessa!

[@saundraboulware]

Exactly 💯!!!

[@ToniColemanBrown]

Yep! I agree. She’s keeping it 💯

[@MarkHarbert]

Vanessa, your vulnerability is your biggest asset by far. Making videos like this show people NOT just the glamorous side of entrepreneurship but the personal growth and struggles we all go through. Thanks for being such a genuine breath of fresh air.

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you so much. This was terrifying to post but comments like these have been the best validation that being true to myself is always going to be the best decision. Appreciate you!

[@iamrachaelhilliard]

Girl all this. I’ve been 100% going through this as well. Decided to shut down my “How To Business” and talk about books because that’s what I freaking love. No pressure, just fun and I feel like I can finally breathe again. Whew. Celebrating both of us babes!!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@JessentialLife]

I honestly love how this video is not overly edited. ❤❤❤

[@twonrichpo]

Exactly!

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you so much!

[@TheModernDating]

I love your insights here. And more importantly, the fact that you are so raw and vulnerable without all the crazy editing to keep people engaged. This rawnewss kept me engaged 10X more than the edits.

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you so much! I always wonder how "edited" a video should be and debated the "enoughness" of this video. Really appreciate this feedback and validation!

[@JasmineVine]

I second this. I think the editing does keep me focused more, but I feel like I'm pinging trying to keep up, but this style makes me feel relaxed, warm, and fuzzy. Vanessa, fr, allow yourself to just experiment for a while. Find what FEELS the best for you, and perhaps how you'd like others to feel from your content. It'll take a while to unpick your programming and figure this out, and your true supporters are here for you regardless.

[@TheXLAXLimpLungs]

She was side questing for a year and now as soon as she said she's not going to try and be a hero journey she actually started her hero's journey

[@VanessaLau]

This hit deep.

[@AmandaBuccifit]

BABE!!! This video!! Oh my goodness, so proud of you for sharing this. The leadership required here is fucking massive. And the story medicine is going to help so many people watching this video. QUEEN!

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you Amanda!!! I could not have posted this video without your encouragement, questions, and support in helping me feel courageous again. Your work has helped so many people, including me!!!

[@ketolorabaltimore1843]

This is life’s paradigm shift and I know it’s real. I lost my business of 20yrs in the pandemic . Business hurt comes with it, all businesses can fail and it’s ok and you’re ok, I luv your real true self. You got this. So let’s start over again together comfortably. What’s our 1st step in starting over??? Just jump in scared!

[@howme.school]

💛 Lovely comment

[@Abigail-Hollis]

Love this comment ❤

[@VanessaLau]

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your business and at the same time, can't help but congratulate you for how far you've come since then. It's a new chapter for the both of us it seems! Thank you for sharing your story.

[@simplyshonnea]

My FIL gave me a quote many many years ago, and it wasn't until I started trying my hand at KZbin that I understood what it meant. The quote was "you teach what you need to learn". You don't have to be an expert. Teach about what you're learning. And I think you're doing that in this video, and I personally am still getting game from this. Even if it's what not to do or what to do instead or whatever. Thanks for being vulnerable and showing up as not the expert. Even the minimal video edits!

[@VanessaLau]

"you teach what you need to learn". PHEEWWWWW.... wow. this really hit home. Thank you!

[@adventures.with.hamnah]

I'm literally at this place right now. Questioning why I started, because I no longer align with that anymore. Thank you for being vulnerable.

[@itsthytime]

This is so raw and relatable. I’m at that stage too and at times I feel like I’m living in the past and it’s hindering my future efforts

[@VanessaLau]

Living in the past is definitely something we do to protect ourselves when the future feels uncertain. I'm glad that you gained awareness around this!

[@missoni-lanza]

This kind of vulnerability is why I started following you in the first place. Thank you for being so transparent and sharing your journey. I’m actually going through a similar feeling in my business and it’s refreshing seeing people who are so successful have the same mindset blocks. Please keep sharing your journey, I definitely appreciate the entire journey, not just the highlights, to learn from. Thank you for being transparent and honest. 🖤

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you for your comment. It means a lot. Rooting for you too! This journey has it's ups and downs, and that's life! Let's both enjoy the ride and the be aware enough to capture the beautiful lessons along the way :)

[@LillithElaina]

THIS. This is what will take you to the next level. You ARE the bombest person, just because you're you. Not because you teach, not because you know things, not because of any one thing other than you're you. Thank you for showing us who you are and what you're going through in a real, raw way. Wear the pjs. Have your hair messy. If that's what YOU want to do, do it. Who gives af how others perceive it. You've already done so much of the "lets teach" that we're here with you, we hear you. Upload a blank video, upload a "here's what I like" video, do some testing, we'll still be here with you because you've already given. You're allowed to just be. Even if you didn't give, you're still allowed to be and do as you want. We're like your friends, as if we're having coffee with you and we're listening to the tea lol And yeah, it's hard, take the time and space you need, and we're still gonna be here when you get back (:

[@stevefrench5812]

This is why EVERY founder should join a peer group. I’m a founder, and I resonate DEEPLY with that opening phone call ❤❤

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you. Yes, I thought I wouldn't "need" coaching coming back. Ooof, coaching and even just talking to other founders can be so gamechanging to seeing a different perspective.

[@veronica_onyango]

@24:20 … The way you view Leila Hormozi is the same way I view you. I literally started this channel because of your content, posted and made the videos private because of imposter syndrome, but thanks to you being this open, I feel encouraged to resume making and posting videos however cringe they may seem, for MYSELF! - Funny, it's called YOU-Tube, not US-Tube, or WE-Tube. The behind the scenes, so raw. I used to beat myself up, but from watching your videos, seeing your journey, your authenticity, vulnerability makes you human and relatable. It's ok to be a student again. Thank you.

[@FoundMyBrave]

9:19 oh my gosh, that is exactly my problem too. This whole video is exactly what i needed to hear right now. Thank you so much for showing so much courage with your vulnerability. I know being vulnerable feels like a weakness, but honestly it makes me see you as an even more invincible rockstar than i first saw you as. Thank you again for posting this. ❤

[@ashleygarrett7926]

I love this version of you and your content! The last few videos were so over edited, it didn't feel like I was watching a real person. These talks about your experience ARE teaching something. Throw out the formula and just talk to us. You have so much valuable knowledge to share by just being you. The real you is wonderful!!

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you Ashley!! this means a lot, I do feel a shift. Creating videos feel a bit lighter nowadays! Thank you!!

[@billiexnewland]

I think you’re absolutely amazing Vanessa and I love all your videos, but I thought this one was so amazing in my mind just because I feel like I got the wrong version of you and it’s not that I don’t feel that way and your other videos but I feel like I got the side of you that’s authentically you! I relate to this and so many different ways from having taken time off social media and pivoting my own content where I just don’t even know who I am and I don’t know how to find my myself while also putting out content that people want because they’re not exactly the same person. Any regard I could go on but I really appreciate your vulnerability and hope to keep seeing more of it! You’ve encouraged me to start trying to show up as MYSELF ❤

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you so much for writing this. That means a lot. We definitely put our masks on and have a performative side to us when filming videos. It's actually quite difficult to NOT do that. I think it stems from feeling secure in what you're creating, not attaching yourself to the result as much (easier said than done!), and creating content for yourself vs. others. At least that's what I'm currently finding that's helping me feel more relaxed when filming. Congrats on your pivot and wishing you best of luck with it!!!

[@billiexnewland]

@@VanessaLau same to you Vanessa! thank you! ❤

[@TheCareerUpgrade]

I’m only half way through the video but had to stop and write this because you just said, “I feel I always have to teach something in order for my content to be worth posting or sharing,” and then you talked about it needing concrete actions for us to take. And I just want to say, no you don’t and no, it doesn’t. These videos, and you’ve done a few of these over the years, are incredibly valuable and insightful just as they are. Very few business owners that are at the success level you are at, shares THIS openly and unfiltered about what it really takes and what it’s really like. But you do. And you always have. Thank you for everything you do. 💕

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you so much for the encouragement, validation, support, and love. Appreciate you. Thank you for seeing me!

[@ap19840]

Girl…. I LOVEEEEE your authenticity!!! Pleaseeee give yourself grace! You are amazing and you have helped myself and so many others. ❤

[@troyserson]

Oh my god, Vanessa, I love love LOVE this content format - I feel like I’m listening to a voice note from one of my friends right now, but one who understands business/marketing/entrepreneurship. Welcome back!

[@michaelbaxter2423]

I never write comments, but im really feeling compelled as I can really relate. I know woo woo, but I think your having a spiritual ego death - and I feel the minute you let go of the old Vanessa, you will have an ahh ha moment. When you are in alignment with your purpose, it clicks, and maybe the past was just an experience to know what works, but just a different topic that’s more aligned. Honestly, I never watched for your CTA’s, I watched because you explained it simply, easy to implement and because you are relatable. There is value in that, just being you. When you hear the inner critic, tell yourself you are loved, protected, and what’s the worst that can happen? Everything happens for you, not to you! Maybe try shadow work, to see what is causing the root trauma -and release it. I can totally relate after I lost my business years ago, it's hard to pick yourself back up! Just this video will help people, by being vulnerable and telling your truth, and being you! YOU GOT THIS!

[@VanessaLau]

This is validating. I really am experiencing an ego death for sure. I love this reminder of knowing I am protected and nothing terribly bad is going to happen. I do have support behind the scenes and am doing that shadow work. Thank you so much for sharing your experience and perspective, it has even more weight knowing you lost your business back then. It truly shows your wisdom on this topic. THANK YOU MICHAEL!

[@UnixGuy]

Totally understand what you're going through. I found your content at a low point in my life in 2020. If you ever want to talk please reach out. You got this.

[@rikehm3735]

"It is the constant repetition of small things - not the sensational performance of a few - that transforms life."

[@VanessaLau]

PHEWWWW this hit DEEP.

[@StyleNina]

This is so real and so raw. Such a personal conversation. Thank you. You’re helping yourself and others with this more than you know. 🙏🏾❤️✨.

[@paulinesmartlife6018]

Thank you for sharing Vanessa. Please don’t give up., we wants to see more of your work x

[@BeBeHu]

I think we love your authenticity more than what you teach~ I watched through the whole 30 min videos! Love you Vanessa!!~ You don't need to pretend to be a "Hero", just be you!

[@KarenMarieBeyond]

This is healing because it frees ME from feeling like I need to show up in life the way everyone else expects me to, instead of how I actually WANT to show up. Therefore, I've pivoted on my channel at least 3 times. Not anymore. Not today. ✊

[@TheHealthyHur]

This is one of my first times commenting on KZbin - but I had to say, this is your best video yet. Extremely relatable and just changed my entire mindset while I go through this same struggle

[@tatermytots487]

Vanessa i feel like im growing with you because i started watching last year and i grew my instagram a lot (thanks btw), now i've stopped posting because im more tapped into my spiritual needs and emotions. Metrics mean nothing if you're not fufilled. Now I'm commenting because I think a lot of us are feeling the same, people are waking up and trying to take their masks off. Awakening. I'm also here in my journal finding out what I have to offer and not go for the $$$ all the time while fulfilling my emotional needs and purpose. Btw the way your couch looks in the video looks like you have angel wings. I literally am journaling right now and I feel like this video is giving me so much insight about myself. You got this too Venesa, I received your energy and sending you love!

[@nikimartimianaki688]

THIS IS SO ME. I TOOK 3 MNTHS OFF AND CAME BACK TO IG BUT I DONT FEEL LIKE IT

[@lilygotabunchofflowers]

​@@nikimartimianaki688omg samee

[@EllieDashwood]

As someone who also had to pivot their content to save their physical and mental health and is still recovering and trying to heal from that, I get you. 💕 You are not alone in this.

[@AnchorMoments]

Grace....definitely give yourself grace! You got this! Sharing your process of growth is great! Thank you!

[@SherifaNakalema]

Please check what you really want. Don't worry about expectations by others. Thanks for sharing ❤

[@pianoly]

Vanessa, you're awesome and you make me feel less alone as a young female entrepreneur. Keep going, you will find the right path! Thanks for being REAL. 🙌

[@altinaoutdoor]

Watching this video makes it so easy to see that “success” is a mirage. I used to think that owning a house would give me financial security, but now I own 5 and worry more than ever. It’s a constant battle!

[@talye]

Yes it’s an illusion. We all have to unlearn societies lessons and come back to self to rediscover the truth!! I closed my business down a month ago and I’m the most happiest I’ve ever been in 3 years. I’m at home baking and being present with my family and that brings me so much joy. I’ve realised I don’t need a lot of money. I just need enough because joy is revolution needed in order to dismantle the current system. And joy is free.

[@Minksbyv]

Omg I needed to see this, Vanessa thank you for posting this. I relating to everything you said front to back.

[@VictoriaWrites]

Vanessa if there's one thing I want you to always remember, it's this: no matter the path you choose to take and no matter what happens there are a lot of us wishing you well, always rooting for you and will be your forever fan. I've been a subscriber since 2020 and I'll remain here till you decide to leave. Thank you for always sharing this raw vulnerable content, it's helping people feel encourage to keep pushing forward. Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️❤️

[@VanessaLau]

This means so much to me. Thank you so much for your continuous support. 4 years of rooting me on is no joke. I appreciate you sticking around through the different seasons I've gone through. Sending YOU lots of love as well!

[@faelanatlife]

Thank you for being brave enough to post this. I'm just getting started on my journey, but I feel many of the same fears that you have. You're not alone.

[@medium_marykathleen]

All versions of us on our journeys integrate. You don’t need to totally abandon your past identity unless you want to, Vanessa. You can integrate her (and her style) into the current version of you if you choose. You can film whatever you want, however you want, and be whoever you want. The right people will find you and the wrong people will fall away. It’s also okay to be the old you some days and this you today and a different you other days. Sometimes it can help to shift looking at change and growth like a thing of beauty instead of being negative doscomfort.

[@VanessaLau]

YES! Totally agree with this. I realize the truer I can be to myself in the moment, is the only way I can attract a true community of people who like me for me, not who I'm pretending to be. Thank you for sharing your meaningful comment.

[@marysaad4743]

Girl I love you. I basically had the same experience (on a much smaller scale) and I took a year off to heal & pivot. 2024 I’m back, and everything you said in this video is BANG ON how I feel. You’re inspiring me to be vulnerable, authentic online (especially as a health & fitness coach who’s not looking her best) and follow my intuition more. Business is hard, and being completely logical & analytical without leaning into your emotions, your gut feelings and psyche is actually UNNATURAL, especially as a woman. We have superpowers that can actually help us conduct business better! The statement “your business is a reflection of yourself” holds so so true, so the more you lean into yourself & personal development without rushing the journey, the better off your business will be in the long run. Because it is authentic. It has longevity. You’ll never fail at being yourself, and running an aligned business. So your future success is far more likely when acting & living in alignment with your new, unexplored self. What worked before won’t work now. What you’re doing currently is going to serve your future self, as hard as it feels in the moment. Something I tell myself often…I’m literally creating a brand new path, and my default settings (my past successes & processes) are no longer serving me. Keep sharing this. The world of business & entrepreneurship is getting overwhelming & stale…everyone’s trying to be Hormozi and we can see right through it. We need to bring back the human heartbeat in a robotic, greedy industry. And you’re doing something no one else is right now…being REAL about business. Bless you girl ❤

[@dominiquemullally5387]

Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable but girl, the universe is speaking through you to me. You have just articulated all the things I've been feeling but didn't know where there. After having a successful business, I shut it down 2 years ago due to burnout as well. I'm now retraining and undertaking study in a brand new industry and I've just realised I'm still attached to my old identity and scared to show up as a result! So I absolutely relate to EVERYTHING you've just shared! We see you, appreciate you. I believe the only right way, is to be yourself and be true to yourself, whatever that looks like ❤

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you and congratulations for choosing your peace over everything else. That’s a powerful thing to do. Starting over can feel so overwhelming and what I’ve learned from even posting this video is that the little steps matter most. We got this!! Baby steps will lead to giant transformation before we both know it!

[@annastayziaa]

Vanessa, this too shall pass ♥️ keep going. Don’t give up on you 🥰

[@homesteadingforbeginners]

I wish I could give you a hug. I can hear heart. This difficult time is what will help you learn to trust yourself. As we age, we go through these valleys to grow us. I think the student mindset is a great place to be. You’ll figure it out. Just treat yourself like you would your best friend. Give yourself room to grow and forgive yourself for mistakes you think you made.

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you so much. Yes, the moment I learned I'm simply just a student again and it's okay to share my lessons as a student... everything shifted for me. Pressure lifted from my shoulders.

[@giftedora]

The last line...forgiving my self for mistakes I think I made!

[@MsDoryLinda]

7:33 WORD FOR WORD EVERYTHING I've been feeling this past year!! I also add pressure to myself that as a psychologist I SHOULD know how to deal with the mental and emotional barriers I'm facing. Your video is now encouraging me to do a video, I hope you won't mind me referencing you. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably your experience. It helps me know I'm not alone.

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you. Wishing you the best on your journey of self discovery and courage. You are absolutely not alone. We are our worst enemies sometimes!

[@FabiolaPriceMakeup]

i have to say thank you for this video. I'm a content Creator full time for the past 2 years and i literally had the exact same breakdown last week. and i feel crazy and people arround me made me feel crazy as well, but this make me feel understood SOO MUCH IN SO MANY WAYS . it just confirmed that as a creator and someone who's always online its ok and not crazy to feel like this I have to say feeling gulty of taking a break, i burn out 2 years ago and pivot my career and still can't get that energy i had before my burn out back and its ok! the speed is not important, it's the journey! and sometimes i have to remind myself that as well.

[@VanessaLau]

I think I have a lil breakdown here and there always when I'm about to have my period. Sometimes it's not just the cycle of life... but the cycle of being a woman LOL. So many rollercoasters and feeling all the feels. Totally feel you on how speed is not important. Sometimes we feel rushed constantly because of how fast paced social media can be. Appreciate you and rooting for you on this journey.

[@tereziaridzonova]

@@VanessaLauOMG this is so true! Thank you for saying that!

[@TheMirandalorian]

Never let yourself get comfortable! Always be learning something! I realized when i was burnt out that a lot of it was boredom of the same old grind. I started to add little things, and learn about even the smallest thing that i could add to my routine, and it brought back a sense of curiosity and excitement back into what i thought i was falling out of love with! We all desire deep down to expand, learn, and grow! Students of life unite!

[@angcello6549]

Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic. 💕

[@JessentialLife]

❤👏🏻

[@PursueWhatMatters]

Vanessa. Love this video! Love your authenticity. You are a trailblazer! You are on the right path, keep going. What you are feeling is not a conflict of direction, it is a conflict of clarity. There is an inner wisdom you feel within you that knows the "old business" was not "it". Trust that! The problem is all your "references" for success are based on that old business. Your journey forward is to build new "references" for your new business. These look like small experiences (or wins) that convince your nervous system your new vision is supported and will be successful. A part of you CANNOT do this (that is the self-doubting part), but another part of you CAN (that is the part that had the courage to go on this journey). Trust that part of you that is courageous notice when she shows up! Keep going Vanessa. Don't let social media numbers or money be your primary references for success (those were the metrics for the old business). Your new references are stories of changed lives (to include your own). Whoa! This so much more meaningful! The previous business was a stepping stone to this new vision (thank it for how it served you) but its job is done. Keep moving forward.

[@VanessaLau]

TOTALLY! I really need to purge my algo and find some new inspiration that's more aligned with the path I'm currently on. I really love the "alter ego" theme where there's one side of me that has self doubt, and another version of me that wants to be my best self. Really appreciate your support on finding meaning in all of this.

[@PerryPictures]

I do a lot of looking back and envying my old self too. I think there are mental and emotional injuries that do weaken us, and we think it’s so silly to let stuff like that slow us down but it’s not silly, and it deserves its space because it’s not going away until we give it the space it needs and attention it needs to be processed and healed, even when it seems so unfair to give our precious time to undoing damage.

[@VanessaLau]

I really appreciate this comment. Sometimes it can feel silly to worry about these things but I love how you’ve given the perspective that those things deserve space because it allows us to move forward. Beautiful.

[@MontelleBee]

I’m lost for words. I related to every single word. Thank you for being vulnerable Vanessa, we see you 🫶🏾

[@IkaneishaJenkins]

It is so crazy how I seem to go through a lot of the same things around the same time as you lol I took a year off of everything as well. My businesses don't make as much as yours did obviously but I truly understand and still admire you! I am having a hard time getting back into the swing of things and creating content, especially KZbin. In the past, I was like you, a f-ing badass! Like I did the same thing you did, look back at past content on IG and YT and I was on the up and up! I was getting the exact sponsors, speaking engagements, IG engagement and sales that I had been dreaming and I let depression and overwhelm make me crash down! I have been watching you since you first went viral so YEARS and YEARS! Don't give up, do whatever you need to to heal mentally and something that I continue to tell myself: BE GENTLE WITH YOURSELF! I am going to take my own advice lol Love you!

[@PolymerClayTutor]

This video really speaks to me about how I am feeling about our business, the content we make, being a forever student (which we call a New Leaf), documenting how it is going, not always being the expert/hero, feeling scared, not knowing how to change... it's like you been inside my head as we are going forward with a relaunch. (My husband and I stepped away from KZbin over 4 years ago to rebuild our membership business while still keeping it going and are struggling getting finished and coming back into the fold with our new membership site.) Even the Rick Rubin book quotes. (Which I have been going through almost every week on my LIVE FB Broadcasts since the beginning of the year.) Honestly it's like you've been watching my content and listening to my husband and I's conversations in my studio, that you're in the car with us on the way to visit our children, and there in my head while I sit on the deck and I talk to myself. It's kind of spooky actually. Like Rick talks about in the book... Being Aware, Tuning into what resonates and truly connecting to it. Thank you for sharing your journey.

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you! His book is so underrated. More people need their hands on it. Completely unlocked a whole new version of me that feels excited to create and express again. Wishing you and your husband all the best on your journey of rebuilding your membership site. You got this too.

[@MomentsWithMarissa]

You do not understand how much this video is validating, relatable, and encouraging. Seriously. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable.

[@AbbyDiamondX]

Vanessa, this was AMAZING. I love your videos so much. This and the "Why I quit" video have been my two favorites but honestly I just freaking love all of them. Thank you Vanessa. Please keep going. Your quirks and radical honesty make you so relatable that it gives me goose bumps because I resonate so much with your journey. You are an artist, brave enough to show her work in public. Every time I see a new video from you pop up, I immediately stop whatever I'm doing and watch it captively.

[@elisetreiber6814]

I just wanted to tell you that I watched your most recent videos. Listening to you share your experience helps me immensely in my own current life situation. I couldn't find information about how I felt and I only encountered content that pushed me to move forward without worrying about my mental health. You are doing something incredible!!!

[@IamCynDoll]

You are giving me life I’m so glad your back. I’m in this exact place I needed this so much! Thank you! Please do whatever you want, you make a video about your toes guess who’s watching!!! Thank you!!!!!

[@RayChanPT]

Thank you for sharing this Vanessa, I really resonate with this. Being a fitness coach means that I want to be teaching my craft and when content doesn’t do well it just makes me feel like I am not good enough or getting imposter syndrome. This has helped me more than you ever know

[@StationeryDumpling]

Seriously, this is now my favorite video on KZbin. I’ve never heard any other creator get this raw and deep, and it really resonated with me. I found so much value in this video, and I think it could be argued that it’s just as valuable if not more than your other “teaching” content. This one teaches us to forgive ourselves and that it’s ok to explore and be human. If we’re not being human, then at the end of the day, what really is the point? Even if you don’t end your videos with a lesson of some sort, the right people will find you because you being human is inspiring enough. ❤

[@MillieAdrian]

Vanessa, I’ve never related to a person or a video more. Like EVERYTHING you said…same! Lolol I’m also in the process of discovering how to break out of my “formula”. Educational content feels safe but it 100% feels like it’s what’s holding me back. I’m literally reading The Creative Act and highlight THE SAME thing you pointed out. You’re doing amazing! We’re here for the ride, no matter what you create🥰 I hear you. I see you. I feel you. You’re not alone. If you EVER want to get a zoom coffee or hangout/talk to someone who gets it, would be happy to hang out🫶🏼

[@VanessaLau]

Aww yes! Let’s! I actually had a lil zoom date with Katie Steckly a couple weeks ago and we talked about how cool it would be if we all met :) DM me and let’s make it happen!!

[@DraVoz]

This is wonderful! I admire you so much and as a creator I feel sometimes lonely. Walking with you through your process makes me feel less alone. Thank you ❤keep going we will celebrate with you when you get to the other side. I do not think this process will ever end and I love how honest you are about that.

[@jackiethelifecoach]

I just had a breakdown this weekend - hearing yours in the beginning of the video was comforting since you are someone I have looked up to before even starting my business. It's proof that we all have these moments and it's actually a strong sign of growth. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing that

[@vivianxfong]

Vanessa thank you for this! I am in the exact same boat as you, reading the same book too and found myself nodding in agreement with so many things you've so beautifully expressed. How refreshing to know I'm not alone in this season of life, trying to find my way, pivoting, learning and growing. I never comment on videos normally but it's the vulnerability and authenticity that I love. Create for you and the rest will follow❤

[@jmprofessor]

Hello, Vanessa! Your content helped me a lot when I was starting my channel, and I feel so grateful for that. I still see the same Vanessa but with a healthier mindset. And I enjoy your new videos as much as I enjoyed the older ones, though they make me feel more relaxed and a bit less productive haha, but that’s a good thing! 😄

[@ITkFunde]

Hi Vanessa, I needed this as a fellow KZbinr, I can feel your Zen mode of seeing life and that is teaching me so much. Takeaway for me is... - Being my authentic self - Making videos that I want to make - Pivot is not quick and easy but certainly doable with courage - Real art open up conversations not close it By the way you looked adorable in that pink hoodie ❤️ Loads of hugs and wishes... Someone rightly said...Be the Light you want to see in this world Thanks Anshul

[@shaaini254]

I have to say, this really feel like you are authentic... tbh i was not much of fan for your previous types of content, coz it was strategic and not humanistic.. (being strategic would have also helped lot of people), and this type of authentic videos are what people are craving for right now. I feel like you are in the right direction. Also there is a spark in you, don't lose that vanessa!

[@deannabthecpa]

I have to come back and say that the timing of this video is scarily timely!! Literally, yesterday afternoon I went on a walk looking for content to listen to but almost threw my phone because constantly hearing people tell me how “to do” something is EXHAUSTING! I literally said to myself yesterday that I’m tired of ppl telling how to do something and I need to hear content allowing space for me to just be!! Then this video came… I thank God for this the timing and I thank you for sharing. I all of a sudden got a burst of energy to get back to creating content again around this very same thing

[@VanessaLau]

I feel this so much. I also avoid watching those type of videos nowadays, which made me think about my own content. If I don’t like watching this shit, then why am I creating it? Whew. Looks like we both are looking for a new type of inspiration as we navigate showing up as our authentic selves.

[@catzheng]

It's interesting how the algorithm brought me to your channel today for the first time because I'm someone who probably wouldn't have watched any of your "old" content simply because I'm not interested in business tips and strategy stuff... but your new stuff like this combined with your background resonates a lot. I'm going through a big career change myself and it's this kind of transparency around the realities of pivoting or just LIFE in general that helps me feel like things are going to be okay, despite all the self-doubt and looking backward at the six-figure software job I left behind. Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity :) I'm sure this has been said before but I would totally listen to you talk on a podcast about random life things or experiences. Just an idea.

[@elleodyn]

Your honesty and realness is what people need to hear - as someone who has run my own business for 14 years...the up and downs are real, the learning can be raw, choosing self-responsbililty is huge and so beautifully game-changing, it's an intense personal growth journey often for sure. (I'm almost 50 and am still learning so much and f-ing things up - still happens sometimes). The joy though of creating from my heart and running my own businesses for so long is pretty kick-ass. Way to go you!! Businesses will have 1000 + "chances" to begin again - this is how it works and it's freakin' beautiful. We learn to trust ourselves as we move forward - "mistakes" or not... :)

[@paperpliers]

I don’t know you before you posted your ‘explanation’ video. And I love the content you created before you had a sabbatical, it’s very helpful for what I needed today. But I also love the vulnerability of who you are right now. I went through with that and still am going through with it - losing my identity running a business, not knowing who I am, trying to follow what others have done (scaling up) then finding out that it’s not for me at all - as a person. I can relate to all levels. So please, keep doing things for you. Because there are people who can relate, and if they don’t, would still enjoy listening from a complex human being - which is what we all are. Please remember humans are complex, we can have different and polarizing values, feelings, decisions. Everyone is like that, even if they don’t know it. So whoever said that ‘this is not the real you’ is someone who doesn’t understand that yet. KZbinrs are humans, and they are complex and unique just like everyone else. You can be who TF you want to be, Vanessa. ❤

[@massappea1]

You are doing exactly what works. This is the beginning of what you are suppose to do and this journey of self-discovery being shared will help and teach more people you have ever had. HERO… Wouldn’t everyone want to be one to somebody? From one student to another, I am thankful for this real ass video! One Love!

[@KeepinitrealwithKelz]

Wow. You spoke so many things I haven’t been able to put words too, I found you on your pivoting videos and whew the way I relate to every single thing you say!!! I’m just so grateful I found this video today. Keep posting please! we need you!!!

[@livingmypurpose74]

I have been there as far as past trauma in business or your career, in my case, and that 2nd chance we get with our trauma and self-blame looming in the background. Give it time but please keep reminding yourself that this is a new time, a new you and you ARE enough. We ALL have regrets and learn through life, that past business wasn't you. You need something that is YOU. I love this video and the YOU that has come back to the channel. It is a raw, honest, relatable, vulnerable you, and we ALL need some of this right now online because this IS all of us right now or at some point in our lives and we can 100% relate. We are ALL a little broken, hurt and have past traumas and regrets. Take this slow, you will get your business back but one that is healthy. And now you have the wisdom to do it better. Go SLOW, you can do this, and you will find each day, week, and month that you're more at peace and forgiving of regrets or mistakes you feel you made. This mask you mentioned you still felt in this video is how I felt & why I completely got rid of my channel and videos & created everything new until I was ready to create raw, honest videos that are ME. I work full time as a nurse & have not started to record new ones yet but your latest videos, the most recent ones on "creating content we are comfortable with" and creating "HOW I" videos instead of "HOW TO" videos and wording it in your own words versus using exact Chatgpt wording....AND not doing videos on what you don't like because then this will be the content expected of you by your followers! WOW what an eye opener. THIS really resonated with me! It helped me realize what I was doing wrong and why it was so hard to not feel pressure or be myself, feel like I had to be perfect and YES this is draining and depressing if done this way, I now didnt' want to create anything although I have SO MUCH to share and teach. Thank you so much for this raw video! It is expect to feel vulnerable after making it but it was the best thing you could do!

[@VickyLashenko]

I relate to your story and feelings so much. I built an online business years ago and took time off to have more children and now I’m coming back years later with intense feelings about myself and just so many crazy feelings. You’re amazing Vanessa! I’m so glad I found you!

[@IamPriyankaSoni]

It takes so much strength to be so vulnerable when you constantly fear the opinion of others, including how people would judge you on social media. Not gonna lie, I'm going through some very similar challanges in my personal life. You opening up is probably the most courageous decision you've taken. It's soothed my pain a lot. I'm sure it's helped many like me. Thank you for being honest about your crisis. It's not easy, for anyone. But I appreciate your boldness about opening up. ❤ Love your content. Whether you do teach, or you don't. Your authenticity is magnetic.

[@LivTarot]

This broke my heart. I’ve been watching you since you first started. Thank you for being so vulnerable. I can completely relate to your feelings. I’m trying to pivot in my business and it’s terrifying. You’ve got this! I know you do. Your journey is inspiring me. ❤

[@VanessaLau]

Thank you for feeling and seeing me. Surprisingly posting this video and seeing the response has given me a very hopefully and positive outlook on what’s ahead. This was my scary baby step and I hope you’ll be taking your first step too with your pivot. You got this as well. WE got this!!

[@LivTarot]

@@VanessaLau Thank you for responding. I'm excited to see where this journey takes you as a content creator.

[@TheMirandalorian]

Yes! Find your joy, and make the content YOU want to see ❤

[@ayngelina]

This is exactly why I subscribed to your channel after I saw your first video back. The vulnerability and willingness to be raw is so refreshing.

[@RhinoJulie]

This is exactly the content I was looking for and couldn't find. So, just a few weeks ago I created my own channel to share my highs and lows, the real-real of entrepreneurship. But now, I have you! Love, love love this type of content.

[@emilyannbostin]

This video was incredibly valuable to me. I also took a year off from my business and am in the “come back” phase. I don’t feel like I have anyone in my life who relates and there’s so much wrapped up in it. You helped give language to the things I am feeling - the lack of self trust, the uncertainty, the paralysis, the pressure, the imposter syndrome. I actually just discovered your channel - videos about the inner world of entrepreneurship are few and far between. I appreciate you sharing so authentically. 🧡

[@newenglandfineliving]

So much of what you are saying IS resonating, including doing so much effortlessly as a business owner. It now seems forced or I forget what I did and how I did it ( I blamed age and my ADHD LOL). Maybe we were on auto pilot and just allowed our natural abilities to take over and now we are overthink it. I at least know that I'M overthinking it. I was ready to take some time off from KZbin and my work, but while listening along with your other viewers, I reminded myself that my past was a rehearsal for my future. I am going to work on things I liked in the past and then "pivot" sometimes backwards and sometimes forward, like a dance, and get to where I want to go. I will just have to let people know I might step on some toes since will be a bit awkward at first. PS: You have inspired me today and thank you for sharing. I will most likely be sharing your word pivot as it pertains to getting back on track and sharing with my followers vs using just the word manifesting.

[@Made_With_Ren]

This video summed up everything I've been feeling but couldn't quite articulate. Recently I stopped doing anything with my fashion retail brand and even the mention of designing/sewing anything to sell causes a physical response where I can feel my body rejecting the idea. 10+ years of grinding and pushing and DIY-ing everything thinking I would have this amazing story of how I built a huge brand from the ground up only to realize that I have absolutely no desire for it... whatsoever. Since I made the big pause I've been working on websites and digital marketing for other small brands as a way to get by. Monetizing these other skills have been more fulfilling but I found myself wanting to follow the established formulas for success in that domain. But I'm realizing I don't like a lot of the things recommended. Figuring it out but I'm so happy that you're openly sharing your own journey

[@thetuanson]

Same😊

[@evelienbijldoelgerichtecoa2775]

100% relatable, so grateful how you're being open about this! Thank you so much, you're the best!

[@sportybeth]

It’s totally ok for you to just show up and live through the process even when you don’t know what’s going on and it’s also really refreshing and valuable to just see because a lot of us struggle with these things you’re talking about. You don’t need to have the answers, you don’t need to be the teacher. Being you is enough.

[@AnneClay]

Thanks Vanessa. I actually think I’m going to have to have a heart to heart with my people because I’m experiencing all these same things. I’m tired too and I totally get it. Thank you for modeling authenticity and I never tire of hearing about the struggle. It makes the rest of us content creators not feel so alone.

[@NIA-gz2xv]

Thank you, Vanessa. Being afraid of being seen as “inconsistent” is exactly what holds me back for a long time. I get human finds comfort in seeing consistency, and I get a lot of people expect a familiar face (content creator) to remain consistent in their attitude, things they said, etc. but how can we ever be “consistent” when we are ever evolving? Maturity changes, thoughts change, beliefs change. It’s really encouraging to see you stepping out of yourself, and sharing your process of finding your truth. I love seeing content like this, because it’s your own unique experience and journey. There’s a lot of wisdom in it. Unlike knowledge that everyone can teach once they acquire it, your wisdom acquired by you through living life is something only you can teach.

[@TheMirandalorian]

You always have something to teach! Sharing your life experiences teaches every single person watching about perspective and different ways of thinking about things! It sounds like you're feeling the urge to grow spiritually and discover more about yourself, but parts of you is scared of the unknown! Trusting yourself will come with time ❤

[@KellyRossouw]

I feel like im in exactly the same spot right now. You sharing your experience helps me to learn a way to try navigate my own content. Your content doesn't have to be in an educational format to help people learn things. This was raw and incredibly valuable to me. Thank you and I hope you continue to try find your feet, you deserve it 🌷

[@justjuliajay]

Hey Vanessa! Just wanted to applaud you for being so vulnerable, authentic and honest in this day and age where people encourage authenticity but shoot people down when they dare to be. Just wanted to let you know that you have a bunch of people behind you who support and love you for who you are! We're here for your vibe!✨

[@nah6730]

This video embodies the strain of social media. I am literally right there with you. Growing up I used to make video skits for fun, just to show the neighbors, come together, and laugh. When instagram first came around I posted those fun moments and posted just for entertainment. Now it feels like we have to post to prove something or earn something. As someone who literally grew up creating video for fun, I often feel this pressure that me of all people should be succeeding in this content climate because of my love for video. But the the truth is, I don’t even want to post anymore for the reasons you mentioned. It’s all so vulnerable and every video feels like it needs a formula now. To add to the pressure, now we have bots attacking creators in the comments simply for living. Truly, thank you for posting this video because you articulated what I often feel and struggle to explain.

[@philhsc]

Burnout takes time to recover from. You’re going to surprise yourself. Excellence over success, every day. You got this.

[@vampirequeenofficial]

I really appreciate how honest and vulnerable you are with your audience. I watch your videos for the “human” aspect of business. That’s what I take away from these. You’re brave and awesome ❤

[@melaniegriesemer]

I can sooo relate to that feeling of getting the ick from your old algorithm/social media feeds and the content that used to inspire you doesn’t anymore. I unfollowed/unsubscribed to so many people like that. It’s something to constantly curate! Seeing the eclipse last week made me reflect even more about getting into true alignment.

[@VanessaLau]

Totally. My explore feed on Instagram hasn't been inspiring me at all! This is why I'm often on TikTok (not creating, just consuming) because it feels so much more fun, real, original.

[@monikaavalos1620]

Vanessa, you are amazing for sharing this! And I whole heartedly support you and hear you. I have a sign on my desk that says “if it doesn’t serve you, change it.” We are not here to live our life catering to others, we are here to create, connect and feel alive. I’m so glad your allowing yourself to spend time in this space!

[@PattiMaciasec]

This is the real come back video❤‍🩹 I applaud you and hug you from a distance🫂

[@natashabirddelort]

This hit home. I’m like sooo amazed by your courage to be transparent. I love you for this. You cannot go wrong. We’re here for you. The real ones

[@lisbethgrahamco]

The timing of this video is perfect because im currently realizing that I need to create content for me as well. You should turn this into a podcast because i watched this with ear buds on while washing dishes. It was such a blessing to watch this ❤❤❤

[@LuanaOnMaui]

I love this rawness and openness and vulnerability. This is where it’s at with so many people these days. So relatable. Thank you for being real. ❤

[@PortiaLeonard]

Oh my gosh! I just had an aha moment! Hearing you @ 9:45 talking about feeling like you need to always be teaching something, unlocked my own block! I've been feeling pressure to always lead with information and 'provide value'. But funny thing is, authenticity IS valuable...it's not as obvious but it's more impactful and relatable! Thank you for sharing! 💖💖