Postpartum Depression/Rage/Depletion | My experience & how I'm coping

[@allanahhickey556]

Also would love an update on how you are going now with everything and what else you have learnt that has worked for you ❤

[@allanahhickey556]

Such an important topic and one I wish people spoke about more. I am one year postpartum with my first baby and because I didn’t hear anyone talking about it, I thought I was just a crap mum and there was something wrong with me, I suffered for over 6 months before seeking help. I completely understand this rage, which is so strange when you aren’t usually an angry person ❤

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

You are definitely not alone lovely! It's hard when you feel as though you have to keep putting everyone else first, but prioritising self care and space whenever possible is really the only way to reduce rage episodes. I'm still not perfect and absolutely have moments, but I've become more aware of the stress building up and learning to step back and ask for help or space whenever this happens. I'm also very fortunate that I have friends with similar age kids who you can have an honest conversation with. The fact that you care means you are not a crap mum, I'm sure you're doing the best you can. Sending you love, be kind to yourself 💕

[@elserinaa]

Words can not express how grateful I am to have come across this video. I’m suffering with the same thing and before seeing this video I felt so alone and so scared. I was so afraid of myself because I know I love my kids but couldn’t understand why I had so much anger built inside. I’m going to see a professional as soon as I can. thank you so much, I wish you so much health and happiness ❤

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

I’m so sorry you’re going through such a hard time but happy you found some comfort knowing you’re not alone in this video 🫶🏼 Sending you love & strength, be kind to yourself x

[@justjessica7744]

I feel this 1000%. I have two under 5. It’s so extremely hard everyday. All day. 7am-8pm. Thank you for this.

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

So sorry for the delayed reply, I’ve been having trouble with notifications. I hope you’re getting the support you need & coping ok ❤

[@vanessalorenzo2880]

I’m crying as I type this. Thank you so much for opening up about this. I have been doing similar things to/ around my daughter. I love her more than life and I promised that I would be better than my mother and parents and I just feel like a failure. I feel like I’m drowning. Her father is great with stepping in when I can’t control myself but I need further help. Thank you for making me feel “normal” instead of feeling like the absolute worst mother in the world. Going to start therapy again. Thank you.

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

So sorry for the delayed reply, I’ve been having trouble with notifications. I’m sorry to hear you’ve been going through something similar but so happy this video helped you in some way 🙏🏻 It takes a lot of self care & awareness every day to prevent overstimulation/overwhelm. I hope you’re getting the support & alone time that you need ❤

[@beccacain9489]

Thank you for sharing. I'm dealing with this right now and I'm inspired by your bravery to share this online. Thank you🥰

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

So sorry for the delayed reply, I’ve been having trouble with notifications. I hope you’re getting the support you need, making time for a lot of self care & coping ok ❤ Sending big love 🫶🏼

[@BanxMichael]

Thank you thank you thank you!!!! I have been feeling so low and down on myself. My husband I’m sure thinks I’m crazy, and this just validated me. The way your explained that was spot on. I appreciate the talk and the tips. Thank you!!!!

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

So sorry for the delayed reply, I’ve been having trouble with notifications. I’m so happy you found this video helpful in some ways. I still have to be very aware of my emotions & understanding when I’m possibly getting overstimulated & overwhelmed before it gets out of hand. There’s no fix, a lot of self care & hard work every day. Sending love & strength ❤

[@iwantit29]

Hey Michelle, firstly, how wonderfully brave and strong you are to share your story. I'm sorry you are going through this and agree we should be talking about these topics more to empower ourselves with the knowledge and understanding that we are not alone, not one little bit. Secondly, I'm a true believer in not just talking about the good times, how great it is to be a parent and kids are great!! We make this made up world where anything less than perfect and we are the ones to blame. It's terribly hard and stressful and playing this role of 'everything is fine and I don't want to cause a fuss' only leads to one unhappy mummy. Thank you for sharing and I wish you all the best on your journey in motherhood. I'm sending lots of love to you and your kidlets and your family 💜❤️💜

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Hi Carly 👋🏻 How nice to see your name pop up here! Thanks so much for watching & your support on this topic ❤️ I hope you & your beautiful family are all well xxx

[@brookiejai]

Thank you so so much for this video 😭❤️

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Thanks so much for watching ❤️ I hope you found it helpful in some way x

[@mama-ru8kn]

Thank you for sharing this, I’m trying so hard

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

So sorry for the delayed reply, I’ve been having trouble with notifications. I hope you’re finding time for you & have the support you need to be the best mum you can ❤ sending love 💕

[@stefwoods6202]

Thank you for bravely sharing your story! I'm sorry you're experiencing this, but glad you're getting the help you deserve.

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Thanks so much for watching & for your kind words ❤️

[@MayorMccheese-zb2wu]

I opened up to my husband this morning that I’m struggling and I think I’m experiencing symptoms of post partum…something I definitely know there is anger and rage I still can’t talk about the thoughts that run through my head

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Please reach out to someone & don’t feel ashamed. Talk to your doctor about subsidised psychology appointments or your local community health centre. Don’t let it go on for too long… you deserve to be happy & supported to give your baby the best of you possible. Sending so much love 🫶🏼

[@MayorMccheese-zb2wu]

@@michellegeyerbeauty thank you I have and I’ve been prescribed a low dose of sertraline so we’ll shall see how this goes

[@lalaskii7814]

Thank you for talking about this!!

[@AngelissimaASMR]

Oh Michelle, I support you so much and have dealt with PPD and PPR before as well. You talking about this online is such a help for me because unfortunately I have no friends as they all left during the hard times I've gone through with my children and husband. My family is very unsupportive and is unwilling to help or understand me being ungrateful. If they ever offer to help it's on their terms. I just feel completely alone all the time for 8 years now. I know in a couple years things will be easier in some ways like the sleep deprivation. I hope to make friends again one day too. Thank you for sharing your story. Praying for you and wishing you better days ✨💕

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

So sorry for the delayed reply, I’ve been having trouble with notifications. Sending you love & strength & hope you’ve managed to find a support network to help you ❤

[@princesstyra23]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m feeling burnt out at the moment. I have twin boys who are 19 months old and feel like I have lost control of my life. I have no time to wash my hair, no time to go to the shops, no time for anything really. No matter how much I can plan the day down to the minute to get out the door on time to get to work on time it rarely goes to plan with the boys as children don’t work to a schedule like that, they have their own plans to throw a spanner in the works. I love them more than anything but after 19 months of giving them my all I feel like my cup is empty. My whole pregnancy my life was put on hold and I gave them my all then as well as I had hyperemesis gravidarum. It was a physical and mental roller coaster to have our little miracles as I have endometriosis and had a miscarriage before them. Thank you again for sharing. You are doing a great job.

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Oh mumma twins is a whole other story & I’m sure you’re giving them everything you’ve got every day. It’s hard to keep going when it feels like Groundhog Day/night & at times you feel so trapped in your own life! We all know things will get easier but it’s hard to stay positive when you’re in the middle of the storm. I hope you have some support around you or someone you can talk to. Sending you big love ❤️

[@princesstyra23]

@@michellegeyerbeauty thank you. My husband is a great Dad but I think his cup is empty too. Life has just been so busy. We wanted children so bad and love them more than words can explain so it’s hard feeling exhausted. I guess 19 months of sleep deprivation takes it’s toll.

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

@@princesstyra23 Absolutely, sleep deprivation takes more of a toll than people realise! I have a very supportive partner too but the 2 kids have definitely taken almost all time away from our relationship. Sometimes we feel more like room mates 😂 Be kind to yourself lovely & hoping rest & sleep come your way soon 🥰

[@Dana-mb1hd]

THANK You Michelle. I just came across your channel and I’m grateful.

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Thanks for watching I’m so happy you found it helpful ❤️

[@Dana-mb1hd]

@@michellegeyerbeauty I can very much relate to you! I love being a mama but I never knew how hard emotionally on me it would be! Thanks again you have helped me feel like I’m not alone💜

[@lizzieb301]

Thank you for sharing ❤️

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Thanks for watching ❤️

[@coffeecotton]

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[@Sam-le4gl]

Thank you so much for sharing. I see this video is almost a year old and hope that things are going better. I have a 7 year old and 4 month old. With the age difference, I had forgotten how difficult postpartum can be. The lack of sleep is real and it’s crazy how that compounded with postpartum hormones can cause all sorts of extreme emotions. I really appreciate all of your tips. I can relate to so much of this.

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Thanks so much for your kind words, it’s definitely a difficult time & can be such a different experience for everyone 🤍

[@TheHawkinsNest]

Thank you for sharing ❤

[@michellegeyerbeauty]

Thanks for watching, I hope you are coping ok ❤️