pregnancy complications, loss, birth & moving / why i was gone

[@ashes_to_asher]

i started watching you when i was 14 and depressed in my hometown, now i'm 22 and living away from home with a career and partner- your videos got me through all 8 of those years, i hope you realise the huge positive impact you have had on all of us, i am so grateful for you. i am genuinely so sorry all of this happened to you, you deserve nothing but the best in life ❤️

[@leahtaylor3036]

Pregnancy, child birth and postpartum can be so wildly traumatic and they aren’t talked about enough. Thank you for using your platform to share your experiences.

[@hedvigyllmark9555]

Thank you for taking the time and making a video about why you were gone, not that you had to, but thank you anyways❤️you are very brave and we love you, Jordi!

[@itslikelymakeup_]

thanks beautiful! it was actually really therapeutic ♥️

[@sarakyoutube]

Through out all the years I have watched you Jordi, I have always looked up to you. You are the best Mother, a fabulous artist, and a wonderful wife. Thank you for sharing such a powerful and personal story with us. I heard a saying once that when the storm comes, it usually happens in 3's. You have had such a wild adventure throughout these past years and have truly evolved into a warrior. My condolences are with you and your loved ones. I have a strong feeling your grandma was by your side holding your hand the entire time. She will forever protect you and your little ones, never missing a moment

[@ontrend7624]

In losing my mom I never realized how much hurt you get at every milestone, grief is a lifelong journey and just when you think you’re feeling better it rolls back in to remind you what you lost. Sometimes I walk beside my grief, sometimes it drags me by my hair. Anything you feel is right, there’s no wrong way to grieve. Sending you love and I wish you all the space and peace you need to heal ❤

[@krissydmckenzie]

I’m so sorry. This is so beautifully written. Sending you so much love. ❤

[@juliet-xf1gr]

The bowl next to the bed is so real. I understand. I had HG with during my pregnancy with my son. I have been watching you for so many years - since I was a teenage girl. You are my comfort you-tuber. Always.

[@justskellie]

You are the intricate flower grown from a sidewalk, everyone is in awe and fascinated by your beauty and strength. This space was severely lacking with you gone and I'm so greatful you are back. May this chapter be a wonderful one for you 💛

[@theamarie1012]

Holy SHIT am I in awe of you and your strength. I can only imagine how chaotic and stressful this life period has been for you, but you pushed through it all and came out the other end stronger than ever. I applaud you for that. Your grandma is looking down at you beaming with pride❤️

[@itslikelymakeup_]

thank you so much. means a lot to me!

[@marainaweyl7384]

missed your spirit, girl. thank you for sharing so openly about these hard things that have been traumatic for both you and your family. it's great to see you back and doing well

[@itslikelymakeup_]

thank you 🥹♥️♥️♥️

[@sofcarolq]

I hope you didn’t feel obligated to make this, you don’t owe us an explanation, we're just so happy to see you. I've been watching your videos since i was around 18 and I'm turning 26 in the next year. You have brought so much joy to my life and genuinely taught me so much and i am grateful every day for you choosing to share your talents and light with us 💕

[@ourdestruction6851]

i was following you since the age of fourteen i think, and now i'm twenty, and that fact makes me emotional for some reason haha i am also not an english speaker, so with your videos i kinda learned not only about makeup, but about english terminology for it as well, and i think that improved my english skills a lot why i'm saying this is because i wanted to thank you for your blog and content and sharing your life with your audience! i stuck with you for quite a long time and you're one of my favourite creators, so it feels amazing and important to learn about your life, and support you through your struggles, so thank you a lot for sharing your story! you are an amazing human being, jordi ❤️

[@virgitoledo544]

thank you for opening up to us, i’ve been following you for years! you’re so strong and i’m so proud of you for sharing your story with us

[@itslikelymakeup_]

aw thank you so much!

[@erikabiankha3466]

Omg Jordy, YES! I experienced that numbing with my first daughter during the c section. The epidural paralyzed you from the neck down basically. It was fkn CRAAAAZY‼️ I KNEW I was dying because I couldn’t not feel my lungs or heart. I literally couldn’t speak. I was just crying uncontrollably. And they wouldn’t let my husband stay in the room. OMGGGG when I tell you HORROR and TERROR‼️ plus they have that damn blue screen up so you can’t see anything either. All you can do is trust in whatever/whoever you believe to be a higher power of source for you.

[@tinashort9098]

I haven’t even watched yet but I just needed to tell you that I missed you so so much when you were gone. I’ve never been happier to see someone return to KZbin!!! I actually worried about you!! That may sound silly to some because obviously we don’t know each other personally but I’ve been here so long I feel like you’re one of my kids!!! I just wanna hug you sweet girl. I want you to know that my first precious little granddaughter was stillborn at 28 weeks. The grief was stifling for many years. The next baby was miscarried at 12 weeks. At that time I had just lost my Mom so I didn’t grieve for that Angel the way I did our baby girl, Kaylea. My Mom was dying from brain cancer when she passed away. I lost my Mom and 2 grand babies within about 7 months. My daughter was absolutely miserable with every pregnancy. It’s 100% fine to feel it and say it. We are not all cut out to have perfect pregnancy, birth or post partum. My grand baby would be 19 had she lived. I still think of her often and I’ll always remember holding her, kissing her and rocking her. Sending you all the love and hugs ❤

[@itslikelymakeup_]

it doesn’t sound silly to me at all! your support never goes unnoticed & i feel so lucky to have you here. thank you so much extra mama 🥹♥️

[@tinashort9098]

@@itslikelymakeup_I added a little bit to the comment and I’m happy to be your extra mama❤❤❤❤❤

[@kelseychapman1174]

I lost my dad two days ago after a month-long back-and-forth similar to what you described, and it is absolute hell. I live 600 miles away so I’ve been living out of a suitcase since 9/9. I never got to have children while he was here and it has been my biggest regret so far. This video was so cathartic to watch - thank you for being open to posting something so personal.

[@samantha_c_123]

I am pregnant with my first child. Thank you so much for opening up and sharing your story with us. It means so much.

[@Hannah-nh5qj]

You are not alone. I had a traumatic pregnancy in 2020 during the covid lockdowns, with non-stop puking and other complications. It genuinely felt so isolating for me, but I hear so much of myself in your story too. Please know you’re not alone. 🖤 Good things are waiting, and time gives us room for our grief.

[@sarahallegra6239]

Omg, you poor thing! I just want to give you the biggest hug. That is SO MUCH to go through. I’m glad you survived and are still here with us, brightening our days! Love you, Jordi!! ❤❤❤

[@sarahthedinochick]

My mother had Gestational diabetes when having me and struggled endlessly with it. Can understand how overwhelming and serious it can be. Definitely something that needs to be talked about more and sending all my love to you. ❤

[@GabrinaB]

I had hyperemesis my entire pregnancy, had to use a reglan pump from 7wks all the way through to my C-section at 39wks. Even with that it was still awful... it slowed down the puking to like 4/5x a day, compared to 15x, but still was a nightmare with the complications that came with that much vomiting and previa. I hated every day I was pregnant, but so excited and happy to be pregnant. Thankfully I felt instantly better after the C-section, and had full range of movement that next morning... I'm so sorry for your complications. I get where you're coming from, it's such a mindfuck seeing all the happy, energized, pregnant women online, and you just feel down on your self bc you're not able to do all that stuff and take care of yourself, even though being that sick is totally out of your control. Lots of love 💕 you're not alone in this experience!! Thank you for sharing this 🙏

[@irais6154]

I really appreciate the vulnerability you share with us today. I have been a fan for YEARS and I really did miss you. You were/are such comfort for me. Im so sorry to hear that you had a tough pregnancy and the injustices you were experiencing. You are such a beautiful person, so genuine and authentic and Baby Casper is lucky to have you as his mommy. I am so so glad you are back and I am too excited for all your content. Love youuuu ❤

[@Emilyy306]

Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I'm so sorry about your pregnancy complications. I literally gasped at the audacity of your landlord. I'm so happy you for you and your family (Luke in the back asleep on the couch, aww what an amazing father.) Thank you for coming back to KZbin too. I missed your videos and I was like "Yay!" to see you came back. xoxo

[@sammoore3307]

I dearly appreciate your vulnerability and honesty, we missed you. 💛

[@terrisyoutube1726]

Oh my Lord Jordi, I am so grateful for you and your strength and perseverance, your world was spin, flipped, and literally turned inside out and you , and your family overcame everything. I'm sorry that your grandma passed, but I know she is smiling down from heaven. I thank Luke and your support chain for being there and giving. You love.

[@elanajoverofinejewelry4164]

I have always loved your videos and our chats. I feel so seen and heard through your story as so many similar things happened to us, not the same but just similar hard things. The anxiety and stress and pain of those moments while people around you don’t understand or expect you to just be happy while pregnant. I had horrible pregnancies and they were similarly so hard, and complications and stresses and such. I’m so happy to see you back. On a side note, my three year old son came while while I was watching this and said “oh wow she’s beautiful what’s her name?” He’s a sweet boy. You are so beautiful inside and out and I am thrilled to see your content again. Thank you for sharing

[@amandas2791]

Poor thing you really struggled, proud of you for making it through and grateful you are back ❤

[@bethanyoleary9378]

Oh bless your heart I’ve been watching you for years have missed you! I’m bawling my eyes out for you I tried for years and finally got my daughter last year dont give up❤

[@jenniferasif9883]

Jesus Jordi I’m so sorry. That is a crazy amount of terrible things happening. I’m glad you had your family to help you through. Thank you for sharing your story. We missed you but I’m so glad you took care of your health first. I’m so sorry about your grandmother.

[@indiannamoon7171]

My c-section was also awful, I feel so lucky that my daughter and I survived and now she’s thriving ❤ you are so brave for sharing your story, thank you so much Jordi. I wish only peace and happiness for you & your family xo

[@sarahwithstars]

Thank you for sharing. People would have struggled with the loss alone, the fires alone, pregnancy alone; i cant believe how hard it rained on you at such a vulnerable time. 😢 sending you and your family all the love xxx

[@HFXmermaid]

I am so sorry to hear you've gone through this all. I appreciate how it can be validating to share and it certainly helps others too. I have infertility, and when I finally got pregnant in 2021 I was miserable as well because my pregnancy was horrific. All day sickness, all pregnancy. Metal taste in my mouth 24/7 all 9 months. Eclampsia (not even pre, we just jumped right to it). Gestational diabetes. So now I was taking all these meds for diabetes and high blood pressure. I was doing 12 blood tests a day. The diabetes clinic was awful to me. Basically fat shamed me and put the fear of God into me that if I didn't lose the weight postpartum I would get type 2, like all the weight. I managed to avoid insulin with metformin and diet. (I also wanted to make lots of pregnancy content. So I feel that) I was so depressed. I gained an extreme amount of weight despite the throwing up. I ended up hospitalized for the end of my pregnancy and then an emergency c-section. (Canada too). My c section was painful and pressure too. I also had blood pressure jumping high and low which made me throw up. They literally forgot to give me a blood transfusion and sent me home quite literally with half the blood in my body and dying. I lost all my milk from the blood loss. Had to spend even more time in the hospital on transfusions. The diabetes lasted for another 3 months. The eclampsia didn't go away and lasted for 6 months as post-partum eclampsia. Baby couldn't eat even with a bottle and I had to fight so hard to get help. Turned out he had a severe tongue and lip tie and we had to fight to get it fixed. I really wanted to breastfeed so I worked crazy hard to get my milk back using a SNS and combo feeding. It was so hard but eventually we did it! While I was going through all this, some people I believed were friends totally betrayed me in the most toxic way and stole some things from me. So basically what I am saying here is, I TOTALLY FEEL YOU. I appreciate your makeup videos. I appreciate you sharing your story, it helps me feel less alone too. You are a queen and you survived this, I am so proud of you. My lil guys i2 now and thriving. My body still hasn't bounced back.

[@whatever_2280]

I been a supporter since my middle school years and now I’m in my third year of college, your channel been always a comfort watch. I appreciate your willingness to give us an update even though I never felt neglected toward your disappearance as a viewer. Always put yourself and family first, never feel like you have to force yourself to post ❣️ will always watch your videos no matter what ( I’m never on KZbin anymore but I have my favs notification bell on lol )

[@Wdiftd]

I started watching you when I was 15ish now I’m 23 and it’s insane how much of a change you have made in my life. You’re part of the reason why I got so obsessed with clowns (I adopted 4 clown babies from random thrift stores and yard sales) and also what inspired me to be myself. The first makeup tutorial of yours I ever followed was the clown makeup one. My ex then bought me your clown blush for Christmas of 2019. I still have it and cherish it. I just want to say I’m so proud of you and who you have become. I don’t comment too frequently due to anxiety but I love how open and transparent you try to be. Wether on your instagrams or here on KZbin. And please never feel like you owe your fans an explanation for anything, we’re all humans going through extremely different and difficult times so always feel the need to just step back, breathe, and do your own thing. I love and appreciate all that you are Jordi. I wish you and your family nothing but good 🖤🖤🖤

[@genesisansbro4936]

I love my babies, but pregnancy and having children have been the hardest experiences I’ve had in my life. Between postpartum depression and not being able to be the best person that I could be for my kids and my husband… it’s not for everyone

[@breakfasttacos4550]

Oh Jordi, I'm so sorry you experienced this :( Thank you for sharing- I've had friends that had some pretty traumatic birth stories and I know this will help people feel les alone.

[@Disaster3nby]

My heart is with you, Jordi. I can’t even imagine going through all that stress during pregnancy and after birth :( so glad u, Casper and Luke are all okay ❤ you’re so strong and inspirational to everyone watching

[@itslikelymakeup_]

thank you so much! ♥️

[@kyliebell8625]

When you disappeared I always figured life just happened but I always hoped you’d be back. I know you didn’t have to share this with us and on a lot of levels it took bravery to do. Thank you. The past three months of my life have been so difficult. I had the same issue constantly throwing up being put on zofran… telling myself I couldn’t do this and that I was not capable. Sadly, I made the worst mistake of my life about 9 weeks in and got rid of the baby. I look back at how if I was just strong enough it would have gotten better … I would have felt human. I lost a part of my soul when I went through with abortion… I just wish I had someone to tell me I could do it but I felt so alone. It was traumatizing and I wish they would tell you what exactly is going to happen. I know it’s not exactly your story but being through all of that gives me more empathy and gratitude for your experiences and you sharing them with us. I’m happy you’re back💞

[@lyndsycarson8302]

It’s so awesome that you made this because so many woman shame them selves. I felt ashamed for a long time for needing to be induced both pregnancies both 3 and 4 weeks over due dates. Both my pregnancies were horrendous and both my deliveries were life and death for myself and the second time was an emergency c-section for me and the baby and i had preeclampsia so bad i did have a doctor tell me if i hadn’t come in i would’ve died, gotta love straight up doctors, i love blunt doctors because i have adhd and I need to be told and not have to follow a pussy foot explanation. My birth dad never met his grandchildren, I couldn’t make it to my grandmas funeral, but my children got to spend time with their cousins during my grandfathers funeral and they are nearly the same age so that was the beauty and peace everyone needed at the time.

[@raequintana434]

I am so sorry you were treated like this. I am studying as an EMT, and I hear so many frustrating elements to your treatment. I am so glad you and baby are okay now. ❤❤

[@babybat5276]

Wow mothers go through so much pain y’all deserve everything 🥺💕

[@biancajingles2690]

Your resilience is outstanding! To go through so much in such a short time is incredibly difficult on anyone. My mom always said she would never get a C-section again after me and my twin brother’s birth. My heart goes out to you and am sending lots of healing, relaxing energy your way ❤️ very grateful to see you back on here Jordi 😊

[@Sanosarah]

You are a god damn hero. Glad to see you back, and I hope you have nothing but smooth sailing from here.

[@sublock_]

Thank you for letting us know why you were gone, you didn’t need too especially when they are such personal issues and sorry you had to go through such a rough time over these years. I have watched you for years and knew when you weren’t uploading something was going on but never thought you had so much to deal with. Just know you are amazing and can take on everything that is thrown at you. You content always makes me happy and has been helpful for an array of things I’ve been trying whether it be makeup or something else creative. Thank you for being you Jordi❤❤❤

[@Pfpfpfpfpf2020]

I'm really grateful to have gotten to watch you for the past few years. Even when you were gone your videos were a great source of comfort to me. Thank you ❤ Edit: I miss my grandmother too. Edit: it infuriates me how little they educate or seem to care about the feelings of pregnant women. Makes me want to scream.

[@talknerdy2me926]

Girl. I’ve been through it. Not the way you did, obviously I’m not a mother, and personally I’m not sure if I’m even gonna be a wife one day. But what I mean is; I know what that’s like. At one point it was like life was just piling shit on me to see how far I could go til I broke. Somehow I didn’t. And you didn’t either. ❤ Personally I feel like those of us that have so much intense emotions in us, just are basically magnets for that kind of stuff to happen to. And I hope I don’t offend you or anything, but it sounds like god loves you very much. Your son is healthy and happy. You went through hell and back and are still being your authentic beautiful creative self. I know it’s awful to lose someone you love. My grandma told me when I was young “The greatest gift god can give you is to take you” And the way you talked about how cool she was you know she was welcomed in with warm open arms. You can’t see her but she’s always with you. ❤ I appreciate Your creativity and your your chill vibe. I always want to take out my brushes when I’m done with a video ☺️ You are inspiring. You are brave. You are beautiful. You are kind. You are strong. Thank you being you ❤ Much love

[@jeswick1483]

Hearing your story triggered so many traumatic memories of my c-section birth experience with my second child (my son is 8 now) - my 1st baby was a dream… and then w/#2…. I had a horrible doctor and a horrible experience, a similar gestational diabetes ordeal to yours and a hideous operation and aftermath, being treated like a piece of meat. I’m so sorry you went though all of that, and I firmly believe that we get taken advantage of because when you’re giving birth you feel so incredibly vulnerable and you are at such a disadvantaged place in the power dynamic between doctor/hospital and patient … but we get through it and raise our kids… and wonder how we made it! ❤

[@emilys9976]

Jordi, thank you so much for this. Genuinely have missed you so so so much and I'm so happy you're back

[@morbidkittenz]

You sweet angel I am so so sorry that for anyone outside of a hard pregnancy is horrible. And your pregnancy journey alone I am so so sorry. Sending you so much love and so many hugs

[@hattie143]

Thank you for letting us know your story Jordi, I had to grab many a tissue. I lost my Grandad this year, it is so devastating and grief is such a rollercoaster to navigate, so proud of you for sharing

[@OkayOkayCoolCool]

I only found you when you returned to posting but I wanted to commend you on your resiliency and strength during such a stressful, terrifying, and tumultuous time in your life. Thank you for sharing your story and having courage to talk about some of the hardest times in your life. I hope you are finding some peace and happiness these days. I really enjoy your content because of your artistry and talent but also your storytelling and your perspective. I was really moved by your story and your experience even though I’m not a mother myself. Thank you for being you! ❤

[@Valerie-ik4qb]

I started to follow you in 2017, and I’m so thankful you’re still around! You inspire me to continue to be youthful & authentic as a mother. Sending you major hugs after everything the Universe has thrown at you! My goodness. We love you dude ♥️♥️♥️

[@michellekyang]

I hope you sued your landlord and got some smoneyyyy to help your situation. Shame on them. And you persevered through so much in such timing! Bless u and your family. I hope the recovery gets better. I hope your trauma and grieving heals as much as it can. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your struggles. You’re doing great 💕💕 Don’t give up.

[@spongetingley]

omg you poor sweet soul.. that is too much for anyone to go through... you are an absolute BEAST, there isn't anything you and your precious family can't get through!! i am so glad you're back and doing better. many blessings to you all

[@Samantha-gc5jw]

Jordi, I love you so much. You have no idea how much you help me. I lost my mom last year too early, then experienced 3 more losses in the same year. My mental health has spiralled completely. I love listening to your videos and it always makes me feel so comforted. I wish you the best always

[@Samantha-gc5jw]

My mom was 49 and I am 30... I am completely gutted. I do not want kids now knowing she isnt here anymore. I am in therapy once a week, I started going to the gym 2 weeks ago. and I quit drinking.

[@Samantha-gc5jw]

and I can relate about being diagnosed

[@ceraanne04]

That sounds so so scary. I’m sorry you had such a difficult time after your first two pregnancies being a dream. You’re so incredibly strong, you and dad! I love you and Casper is so so precious. I’m proud of you jordi❤

[@jennykiss2235]

I can't believe it's been two years! I'm sorry that happened!

[@KatarinaRahnik]

Wow, how incredibly strong you are. I know grandma has something in store for you in heaven to make all of the heartache worth it 🤍 Sending all my love your way!

[@laurenpower2519]

You're a braver woman than I. Having kids is not even a thought in my life plan because I would not be able to cope with that and also wouldn't want to put myself through that. People are taught that pregnancy and motherhood is this beautiful thing but as much as it can be, it can also be extremely traumatic. So proud of you and baby.❤

[@steffiew6935]

So sorry this happened, but so thankful for you and that you, baby, and all the family are doing good. I went through a similarly tough time last year - extremely unwell, lost my job because I was so unwell, was broken up with and lost all my friends, then my grandma passed away and I couldn’t fly home for the funeral. When it rains it really pours. Love you mama j ❤

[@JadaDesiree]

Oh Jordi, I wish I could hug you right now! I’m so proud of you for making it through that really tough time. I admire your openness, honesty, and strength🩵

[@itslikelymakeup_]

aw you are just the loveliest. i really appreciate you 🥹 100% accept a hug!

[@shannonbrister743]

I've watched you for so long, so many years and in so glad you're back. Im sorry for everything you went through but thanks for being back, love you

[@Dehsonae]

Love you Jordi! I'm sorry you went through just traumatic experiences! I'm so glad to see you again, healthy and as beautiful as ever! Xoxox

[@itslikelymakeup_]

thank you so much! the feeling is mutual. you are SO talented & beautiful ♥️

[@LilyIan]

WOW. Just wow. I can’t believe how much you went through in that time. You must be the strongest fucking person ever coming out of all that. I’m like having a panic attack for you right now - after hearing that whole story. I can’t believe you had to pack up your whole house after having baby… the most insanely horrible cherry on top after EVERYTHING. I hope the universe gives you a big break. My son just turned 2 a few days ago 🤍 to think we were going through pregnancy side by side. Anyway, I love you girl! Thanks for sharing. I truly missed you so it did mean a lot to hear where you were because I was thinking about ya 🫶 sending so much love! xoxo

[@meredithquinn]

I don’t really have any words for this. Just that you’re pretty much the strongest mother ever. You’re incredible. I’m so sorry for this whole experience that you went through.

[@cassidybrewer]

Damn girl. I remember when I saw your first video years ago of your son doing your voiceover and I’ve followed your journey ever since. I had a difficult pregnancy with my son as well after losing twins to miscarriage. Pregnancy is already such a vulnerable state, even when things aren’t hitting the fan. We missed you, but I understand that’s a lot for anyone to go through, let alone while pregnant! Oof 😢 I’m just so glad everyone is okay. Take care of yourself, mama! ❤

[@Kanelkakan]

FUARK! Horrible, horrible times. We like you, and we appreciate what you do here A LOT. I hear that times have been REALLY rough for you and hope for that light, easy and sunny coming your way. 💓✊

[@jessicascherer6770]

Thank you for sharing this with us. You are so strong and such a kind human being. Regardless of the hiatus, we love and support you always

[@mishmazy]

Okay this is crazy !! I was thinking of you last night. Honestly, it has been a long while since a since I saw your videos but you randomly popped in my head and then popped up on my KZbin feed.

[@julesvall4913]

You’re back 🥲💕 we missed you

[@nonamenojane]

Oh honey, you don't need to explain but I appreciate your willingness to be vulnerable and share. You were one of the first makeup teachers I had and I still do my eyebrows the way I learned from you literally every day. I got so excited to see you back!!! I've enjoyed the makeup videos. I have to admit I do like knowing what's up, but you never owe your audience or subscribers vulnerability. I'm so glad you're okay and I'm so sorry for the grief and pain you've experienced. Big huge love.

[@aliciab.r8018]

Thank u very much for this Jordi (here is a fan from south Spain, Hi! 🙋🏻‍♀️) because women have been told the same kind of stories about pregnancy since forever, all cute and lovely, and these other experiences are there too, a lot actually, so I think is super important some one tell us about it, I really appreciate it ❤

[@cyvi4402]

You are truly an incredible and strong person. I've been a fan of you for many years. I appreciate how much you care for your fans and the incredible effort you bring to everything you create. Thank you for this video, and I wish you nothing but love and healing.

[@nickycole9047]

You're incredibly strong! I admire your vulnerability to share the bad times, as well as the good.

[@alixandriaeliseabt2070]

i’ve been watching you for so long i feel like i personally know you. i remember watching you announce likely makeup and was so excited and proud of you. you’re such a wonderful human being and i’m so so glad that everything ended up working out. i’m so sorry life tried you like that. sending all the love.

[@jelliecat]

sending you so much love, jordi. thank you for your vulnerability and just being you. 🩷

[@cinnamonlehto4292]

You poor baby. I’m so sorry all of that happened to you. That’s just too much all at the same time. But you got through it and you have a lovely new son and you look healthy and beautiful. I hope you continue to feel better as more time passes. You deserve to be happy! (and I hope your landlords get a taste of their own medicine in the future, sorry not sorry) ❤❤

[@susanjayner7073]

Thank you for sharing your story 💕. I'm so sorry about your grandma and that all of those sad and scary things happened at once. So glad to see a happy, healthy baby💕. Your videos most definitely help other to not feel so alone. 🥰

[@nikkig.6137]

tbh idk if im ready just yet myself to watch this due to similar issues, but im so grateful that youre willing to share your story im not there yet,but with a simple title,i feel less alone

[@elizabethrose7868]

I’m sending you so much love.

[@itslikelymakeup_]

thank you! ♥️

[@baldovinosm1]

I am so happy to see you and the family thriving - that’s so amazing. I just gave birth to my baby boy two weeks ago. He passed at 31 weeks and I had to vaginally deliver him. There’s still no reason why. He was an IVF baby, full of hope and sunshine, and in an instant he was gone. Life is so precious.

[@aj32769]

I am so sorry

[@chynakingston5895]

Been following you since 2017 and I am so honoured to have followed along your journey in good and bad times❤️ Thank you for taking the time to share your experiences with us (your subscribers) and we will continue to support you and your lil family as long as we can❤️ Sending all the love and light❤️

[@alexb.618]

Jordi thank you for sharing this with us. I had a baby last year and that was extremely hard and I felt sooo alone for a lot of it and also had to have a c-section which was very hard to cope with when I wanted to have a natural birth. I spent a lot of time rewatching your old videos and recreating looks just to make myself feel human again, so thank you and know I love you and appreciate your presence ❤

[@rose_quartz_loveandlight]

thank you so much for sharing your story, this helps so many women and is so selfless for you to talk about, sending you so much love and healing ❤

[@heavenli444]

thank you for sharing your story it gives strength to so many people! sending you so much peace and happiness 🤍🤍

[@itslikelymakeup_]

♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@klaudiamikulska3121]

I have been here since I was 16. I am now 21 and was so happy when I saw your post notification again, watching your videos is so soothing and feels like I am having a chat with my big sister

[@SarahPaceSings]

I’ve been following you for about 4 years. I’m so happy to see you. Your family does not deserve everything that was thrown at you, I’m so sorry for all of that trauma.

[@sofiaaurora6723]

welcome back beautiful. Im so sorry you had to go through all of that, but i'm so happy youre doing better! sending hugs from sweden

[@melissadean2248]

Hey beautiful Jordi! Holy when it rains... huh?! Jesus im sorry and so grateful for your coming back! I said this in my last 2 comments but... Thank you for fighting through all your pain to bring me/us FREE content and sharing your amazing gifts! I really appreciate you! Also I had Placentia previa and had to have 2 c-sections because of it and after 19 hours of labor they decided to do a c-section and the 2nd one was just planned but i also was DEVASTATED about not having a natural birth! And my sister had the experience of feeling like she couldn't breathe cause of the epidural. And I also got evicted with my newborn!😒... so very similar experiences. But thats where it ends! Im so sorry for your loss but you can rest assured that you and your children have your own personal guardian in heaven! And her and your dad are absolutely together and they are feeling no pain! Please take solace in that! God bless you Jordi, you and your family are lovely! And i know you don't know me from Adam! But if you ever need a friend or someone to just listen 👂 im always here!🤭🤷🏽‍♀️ Thanks for your transparency and for being you! Many blessings and much love 😘🙏🏼🫶🏾

[@saigethelibra]

i have watched you for years and it feels so comforting to see you uploading again. i am so sorry about all the trauma you have dealt with over the last few years. as someone who feels 10000x closer to my grandma vs my mom i immediately cried when you talking about your grandma, mine passed away in 2017 and it still feels like it happened yesterday. let yourself feels those emotions whenever they arise, it is still so hard but it definitely gets a bit easier. sending you so much love ♥︎

[@lmikos6124]

I've watched you since day 1. I love you. I'm glad you're back and feeling better.

[@adele4172]

I've been following your pregnancy journey this entire time online and I am so glad to see you back on KZbin

[@ShroomsandBrooms]

I hope you understand how incredible you are! I’m over here stressing and this it is your story. I really wish for you to get nothing but amazing, perfect moments from now on. You’re amazing and I am so so glad you’re all better now💖! Much love

[@babberdale]

Lemony Snicket couldn’t have written a series of more unfortunate events but I am so so happy to hear it all had a happy ending. Much love and RESPECT Queen

[@Mdw2424]

I’ve been a subscriber for approx 6yrs. Thanks for sharing! 💕I’m so glad you’re back, Jordi.

[@itslikelymakeup_]

thank you so much! i appreciate you

[@jessireadsthings]

saying i'm proud of a stranger sounds so weird, but i'm so proud of you! i've been following you since before you even had a youtube channel and seeing how resilient you are is so incredible 🤍🤍

[@missdillinger]

Jeez Louise, Jordi! No one should have to be messed around with that much to know how strong they are. Wishing you and your family healing and peace and joy.

[@jazzynovela]

I have been a subscriber since the beginning and have always loved your content, I missed you while you were gone and am happy you are back. Thank you for sharing this journey with us and for being so vulnerable. ❤❤ I always appreciate that you are so open about your life and experiences.

[@woolnotwheat]

you probably aren't checking comments on this anymore but it did take a few sittings to get thru this video, having lost my dad and my grandmother close together, awhile ago but something i didn't really grieve properly at the time. and i wanted to let you know, you changed my life. I wouldn't know about EDS without you and that diagnosis has been incredibly important in understanding my pain and body reactions and why it affects everything i do. i don't know how much your doctors took that part of your body into account when planning this, but the medical trauma of being ignored and treated inconsiderately, is so widespread and yet just as shocking and painful every time. i'm happy you took the time to process these events before sharing and i'm happy your family is healthy.

[@itslikelymakeup_]

your comment means a lot to me. i am so sorry for your losses. it sounds like we have a lot in common in the worst way! but you’re not alone ♥️

[@tammystiletto]

I’m so sorry for what you’re going through but I’m thankful there is some happiness in there too ❤

[@lauraneilson9122]

Thank you so much for sharing - I had a very similar pregnancy / birth experience (in the same hospital as you too) and it honestly feels so good to have someone put all of my similar emotions and experiences into words and just be able to know that I wasn’t alone in those feelings. I had to grieve what I thought my entire experience was going to be like and I still feel like I’m dealing with some of that grief now, and just know that you are not alone and your feelings are so incredibly valid. Thank you again for sharing and being so vulnerable! Sending so much love and peace your way.