Preparing for Ketamine Infusion Therapy - The Journey of Healing & Dissociation

[@mycomindmoney3031]

My wife starts her 6 session ketamine treatment in 7 days. She’s suffered from anxiety, depression, and now autoimmune disease due to horrible childhood trauma that she never has been able to “spiritually” and physically heal from. Thank you for this video!

[@teamillumma5501]

We are so glad that she is beginning her healing journey! We wish you the best of luck! With Light- Team Illumma

[@AtortAerials]

And how did it work for her?

[@michaelmitchell8787]

Follow up^

[@bryantcofty2709]

I'm doing Better U in home/online but I appreciate this perspective. I don't expect or want it to be a majic bullet process.

[@elainereader9247]

Thank you! I completed six treatments. Each one was different but I experienced dissociation in all of them. The 6th infusion started out so beautifully……feeling free, engaged, filled with wonderment. Then all of sudden my visuals became black and dark and I became frightened. I didn’t have the courage to stick it out and called for my tech who stayed with me, calming me until I felt better. Later that day, i wondered if i was in the process of letting go and then became afraid. Anyway, most importantly Ketamine is a miracle drug that took me from the living dead to the world of the living. How blessed!

[@TyDomi]

I think you're right, you should have finished. During my 1st treatment I started going dark an started to freak but then forced myself to think good thoughts and the black turned to dark blue

[@hogheadv2]

Nicely explained. Most information is from the doctors perspective with how they see the progress in a numbers format. Your description give a lived experience version open to the infinite outcomes possible.

[@teamillumma5501]

I really appreciate your comment! - Team Illumma

[@c7eye]

It works. It worked for me. Amazing

[@starrkelleher6529]

Appreciate your sharing~ I am about to start my 4th treatment! Thank You🌷

[@leeboriack8054]

Thank you for your honesty about expectations and the client’s results are directly related to the work for a treatment before, during and after a treatment.

[@bryantcofty2709]

Very helpful insight and advise, thank you.

[@bryanstark324]

your therapeutic approach is very well grounded.

[@teamillumma5501]

Thank you for your comment! - Team Illumma

[@AtortAerials]

You did really beautiful good job and thank you….I start my 1st treatment tomorrow and this was nice and helpful to hear. 🙏🏾

[@DesertRose63]

I don't have private insurance. I have to rely on the VA for my health care. While my time in the marines I was sent to a squadron that did NOT want a "female" in their man;s marine corps. These men abused me verbally & physically for months after I reported for duty. My mental health was declining and sought out a civilian counselor on base which furthered my hellish work environment. There was 1 particular marine the reveled in tormenting me. When it came time for our unit to deploy to Iraq ... this marine whispered a death threat from behind me in my ear. I lost it. I KNEW that these men, who so hated me, were going to find a way to KILL me in Iraq. I had a full blown "nervous breakdown" and was put out of the service. It took me 29 years to apply for VA disability. I won my case at 100% permanent and total disability. For the past 2 years I've been working with a VA psychiatrist and a few therapists that didn't work out. I do not trust them! It's as if the therapists that can't make it in the civilian world of psychotherapy, because they have no bedside manner, or are completely condescending ... get guaranteed work through being hired by the VA. Since being discharged, I've been under psychiatric care for the past 30 years. We had private insurance up until about 5 years ago when my husband was laid off. I became resourceful in applying for patient assistance programs to obtain my most important expensive medications. Such as Viibryd, Lyrica, and my diabetic pen Bydureon Bcise. Thank God for patient assistance programs! I've been on dozens of different antidepressant ... which have not worked. I'm one of the antidepressant resistant patients. I suffer with MDD, PTSD, Agoraphobia and severe conversion disorder with anxiety driven (& pain) cognizant non-epileptic seizures. I have chronic suicidal ideation. I live in constant emotional and physical pain 24/7, 365 days a year. It's ALL I can do to keep living on this earth. I'm existing, not living. I wake up most days furious that I woke up ... and aren't dead instead. My life is a living hell ... even with a supportive husband (of 31 years) and daughter. I'm waiting to be approved to have a ketamine infusion done through the VA. But who knows how many years that red tape will take to unravel. I don't remember what it feels like to not be in pain. I've been so heartbroken every time something doesn't work ... I'm almost afraid of hoping for something to work ... after 30 years of relentless pain with nothing working. It started with depression and has morphed into a myriad of diseases ... to include losing my perfect teeth to 30 years of antidepressant dry mouth. I'm finally going to get implanted dentures through the VA. It's going to be amazing to be able to eat ... and smile again. I don't know how much a ketamine infusion is out of pocket. I'm certain it's more that I can afford. I just hate waiting on the VA to take months ... even years to approve this for me. Your clinic sounds wonderful! I wish I lived closer, but I'm in South Carolina. I hope it will work for me. The stats of it helping 50 to 80% of antidepressant resistant individuals is hopeful. I want ME back! The artist. I used to sing country music semi-professionally and actually opened for Billy Ray Cyrus a million years ago (lol). I had done over 30 plays and musicals by the time I got to college. I used to shower more than once a month. I owned 3 consecutive nail salons back in the 90's. I loved my job and my customers. I was good, if I say so myself. I had a waiting list of clients. I used to be a spotless housekeeper! I used to be an avid gardener. The list goes on. That person died when depression took over. My house looks like a hoarder lives here. But, I'm a "clean" hoarder. I guess that's something. I have to force myself to eat but you wouldn't know it by looking at me. Nothing brings me joy ... at least not for long. Minutes? ... hours. Never days. I can't bring myself to try and create anything, which just kills me! I want out of this hell that I've been trapped in for 3 decades! ... and is only getting worse as the years pass by. Please tell me this treatment is a beacon of hope? Cuz I don't know how much longer I can endure this existence.

[@jzulli]

I can see there is much pain in your life. I just wanted to say that I read your post and I feel for you. You are in my prayers. God bless.

[@ellagnoix2276]

My 18 y.o.daughter started her first IV infusion almost 2 months ago. It was a major game changer. Her suicidal ideation literally stopped the day of the infusion. We pay out of pocket and it is worth every dollar. Fortunately for her, she took to it so well that she only needs to go in every other week. Don't give up hope.

[@moongoddess8568]

Please hang in there. You are important. We all are. There’s always hope. I recommend studying the law of attraction. It is helping me out of my dark hole from chronic pain issues. There is a documentary on Netflix called “the secret“. I listen to it repeatedly in the background. Give it a chance.. Prayers up for you. 🙏🏼

[@teamillumma5501]

Thank you for sharing your story! You have been through so much and your strength to continue on is inspiring. There is a beacon of hope! And I hope you continue to fight to find that light that is within you. You are worth it (: With Light- Team Illumma

[@marilynjones5749]

I can’t understand how these so called service men can be so vicious and violent towards female soldiers. That female soldier gave up just as much to be trained and be part of the team. They should have been rooting you on for having the balls to sign 🆙. The fact that these a-holes have daughters, sisters, nieces and mothers and still abuse and almost always rape women in service is despicable. I’m sorry you had to endure this with those jerks. Please tell your story and shed a light on this atrocity. You are NOT a man if you can’t treat women respectfully.

[@Hamigal]

I am in TMS treatment now. I'm very hopeful.

[@shecat1964]

There are not enough people out there telling their experiences with this drug. Its all clinical. People like me needed to know what its like. And i know mine may be diff from others, but i could really have used that help the 3 day of panic i had before. I had my first time yesterday for pain. I do not know to say if i liked it or not. But it was not like all the vids i have seen where they put you in a relaxing calm setting. I was in a hard hospital bed next to someone else and hospital staff kept walking by. wheeling things by. And the nurse and Dr kept talking as though no one was there. They stood at the end of my bed and he showed pictures of the new baby he just had and who the baby looked like. I congratulated him, but not impressed they would chose to stand right there. It seemed to take forever to to do anything but make me a bit sleepy. Then i got this sensation you get if you have ever had anesthetic, You fight to stay awake you know you are going under but still there. That is what it seemed like. Yet did not get to the point of going the rest of the way to sleep. But when it kicked in it seemed so sudden. At a few points i started to panic, I do not know if it was from being distracted. I could not seem to feel myself breathing. Then it felt like my arms had been switched to the op side. I could feel my right arm on the left in my head. It felt like some how my body had been twisted or melted into to opposite sides. But as soon as i moved them they were fine. Towards the end i felt like i was just a head laying on an uncomfortable pillow. My body was gone. I had no sense of it at all until i moved. I remember they asked me my pain level at some point. I said what pain i have no body. I Am not sure how this is used for depression, and maybe because there were so many distraction i did not get a chance to focus on my own thoughts.. When i left i was still woozy for hours felt like those morns when your younger and you still feel drunk when you wake up. and a very mild headache. I Came home and basically slept the day away and the night.

[@michaelsmith2733]

It works great for surgery, they could be amptating you arm and you would feel great.

[@Revelator2025]

Wow that clinic sounds awful. I would have felt the same way, annoyed and somewhat disrespected while I was in a vulnerable sensitive state of consciousness. My clinic in San Diego was the complete opposite of your experience. Not only was the environment very comfortable but the kindness from the staff and doctor put me at ease and I think that can make or break the whole experience. It took several infusions and a couple of weeks to really feel the antidepressant relief. Each infusion was different and I processed/integrated a lot of buried issues which I have found life-changing. Progressive therapeutic integration. It’s a process. Find a new doctor and ketamine clinic. Best of luck.

[@teamillumma5501]

I'm so sorry to hear that this was your experience. We believe this happens when ketamine is administered by people who have never experienced the medication. We genuinely believe in holding space and creating an empathetic container that providers need to have gone through the therapy themselves. The space is also vital for people to heal. Your nervous system will not allow you to relax unless you feel safe. So meeting the team and feeling the energy of the space before receiving treatment is a MUST! Again, my heart hurts knowing this was your experience and the experience of many. When appropriately given, this can be a life-changing treatment, and many feel that it is one of the most spiritually impactful experiences of their lives.

[@teamillumma5501]

I'm so happy to hear your found a clinic that cares for you in this way!

[@AtortAerials]

I totally agree! I would love to personally document my journey with someone like this for treatment costs. It’s a win/win for many.

[@attheranch4876]

This is very helpful, thank you!! Saved

[@HEROHCR2YT]

I've had 3 different 4 hour treatments and I desperately need this help preparing and what I should do mental health wise after my next one one 4-11-22. Thank you 💙

[@teamillumma5501]

Integration after an infusion is super important to solidify the perspective changes ketamine can offer you! We partner with an awesome coaching program called Being True to You: beingtruetoyou.com/

[@janetcook6584]

Desert Rose, I began my medical workup Monday to start my Ketamine therapy. You and I have somethings in common. I will let you know.

[@teamillumma5501]

We hope you have a wonderful experience!

[@RachelsSweetie]

I've been referred to ketamine treatment but mushrooms are so much more accessible. I'll consider ketamine as a backup.

[@april1zer]

@Sandrabill252Hello Is this a website or email address? Thank you

[@carolannpacificadam1944]

What happens when you start this treatment and have to stop after so many sessions due to cost or something? What does the brain do? Does this drug alter the chemistry we all have for the better and is it short term or what is the timing of the effect. I'm so willing to try this treatment I've burned through the SSRI train . I have dx mdpsn ptsdc I think this would really help.

[@teamillumma5501]

Thank you for your comment; I'm sorry I just now saw it. Unlike SSRI and other mental health medication, ketamine doesn't alter your neurotransmitters, and it actually has a very short half-life, the time a drug stays in your system. Because of this, there is no negative impact if you need to stop or pause treatment. Ketamine allows your brain to heal itself, and the reason the effect lasts long-term because it is helping you to actually deal with the root cause of your anxiety, depression, PTSD, or another mental health issue. It doesn't work alone; it needs to be paired with integration like coaching or therapy. This is vital to the effects lasting long term. Otherwise, the positive effects can fade over time as we fall back into our unhealthy patterns and behaviors.

[@heatsingh2205]

Hello how can I connect with you I am having ketamine infusion at start they are very scary but as I transcend into abliss I jusy focus on what emotions I am gettting along with a good organ music playing different songs. Most of the time I get anxiety of feeling lost and not in control and I try to put that fear on a imagined leaf and let it flow down the stream

[@teamillumma5501]

Thank you for your comment! I apologize that it was only seen now. Did you get to start your ketamine therapy?

[@c7eye]

🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@jonstonelake5813]

I am four treatments in. Im hoping for some change soon.

[@Lexieeeeeeeeeee]

I just my finished 4th and haven’t felt much change. Did your change ever come?

[@jonstonelake5813]

Not much change at all, hang in there

[@JaysonT1]

She's pretty

[@nicklausboeckner8269]

It’s also over 5000 dollars in many clinics for a “starting package”, with a continuous maintenance fee of 1600 a month. Ketamine, like opioids, will create addiction for those that cannot afford infusion costs, and turn to street level drugs to satiate the desire to heal.

[@michaelsmith2733]

Bumber, so a fix for the rich?

[@teamillumma5501]

You right access is an issue we need to work on as an industry. Our infusion package are far less than that. We offer discounts and financing for those that need it. We are also setting up a non-profit this year which will allow us to support even more people in need. Ketamine when given in a clinic environment has not been shown to create addiction and we do everything in our power to support clients to actually work through their trauma so that they do not need ketamine or other medication long-term.

[@nicklausboeckner8269]

@@teamillumma5501, your information regarding Ketamine "not causing addiction" in a clinical setting is primarily false. Remember addiction is generally not related to psychopharmacological interactions with the central nervous system but more related to behavioural changes; for example -> you are re-jigging a drug categorized as a dissociative analgesic; formulated to be a replacement for the past practice of using barbituates as sedative protocols for medical procedures, without analyzing what the human participant will do after treatment is completed or they run out of the financial means to continue. Just like opioids prescribed for pain, you are prescribing a medication to ease psychological suffering, which in itself creates drug-seeking behaviours based on both operant and classical conditioning for your patients. To say they will not seek street-level Ketamine as an alternative is ridiculous, and no matter how good your intentions are, you cannot control this type of behaviour. Physicians should be highly cautious with treatment that has an effect size on average of .28 (which in research isn't even worth pursuing). My two cents as a premed student with some background in neuroscience and addictions, I can link your research papers that have empirically shown the arguments to which I am referring. As a side note, my university has stopped all prospects of researching Ketamine (a decision that came from a panel of Psychologists and Neuroscientists) due to the possibility of destructive outcomes for our patients.

[@boosqueezy2418]

i begin micro dosing next week

[@coodi_16]

WOW YOU NEVER TALKED ABOUT YOUR PAIENTS STORIES HOW IT HELP THEM BUT JUST TALKED ABOUT THIS BAD ,, I DONT UNDERSTAND. NOT HELPFUL AS MUCH.

[@johnnyblaze522]

Smoke marijuana 💨💨💨💨💨