PRODUCTIVE DAY! Getting things done! Cleaning, planning, organizing.

[@byrenny6305]

OMG I have to pause to write down the comment! I feel SO RELATED when you say you feel like you have to clean before you do work and end up doing nothing. I’ve been in this mental state for nearly a month and it totally drives me crazy. Thanks Rachel for sharing this!! It truly helps a lot! x ❤❤❤

[@johannafisher9881]

I relate to this SO much. I experience huge amounts of sensory overwhelm and anxiety if I am not in control of my environment, whether it be cleanliness, sound or smell (to the point where I refuse to let anyone else clean the house). I love your videos because watching you organise your life and space makes me feel so immensely calm! Thank you for being honest about your experience!

[@lindaholm9801]

Thank you for sharing what you've been experiencing. I enjoyed hearing you speak so naturally and articulately about it, and it was so good that the psychologist was able to validate you and give you come encouraging coping strategies. Wishing you a wonderful week ahead! 🥰💜

[@isnafatima-uq9uc]

This influencer is truly inspiring with their authentic approach to life and their willingness to share their experiences with their followers.

[@deliciouslyme6206]

I'm really glad that your psychologist knew exactly what you've been feeling and it has a name! Some how that always makes things feel more reassuring and it's from here , when we recognise the issue that we can do the work ❤. I hope he's given you useful exercises. Your flowers look amazing btw, and I LOVE your nails!

[@rachelleea]

Thank you so much. I love everything you just shared ❤ It's a very nice feeling to know why you feel the way you do ❤

[@deliciouslyme6206]

@@rachelleea ❤❤

[@rainbow616]

Yes, I love the nails too 🙂

[@elisekolic6649]

Thanks for sharing, it’s so nice to hear you open up about your challenges as well…it’s not easy! I’m sure so many can relate on some level. I myself have suffered, OCD, depression and anxiety throughout my life thankfully for short periods only and talking about it always helps. Xx Love your lists too- I’m a list-maker myself!

[@sarahmy]

I struggle with similar issues; I'm VERY affected by my physical environment. Sending lots of love to you, you're my favorite KZbinr and I enjoy your videos so much! 💗

[@sarahlou9168]

Hope you’re able to find your answers through therapy. In case you didn’t know, there is pure obsession ocd and also ocpd. Also sometimes with ocd the compulsion can on first look seem unrelated to the obsession or there may be a time delay between the two. Also, wondering if you’ve ever looked into autism or adhd. Both can manifest in ocd like traits through things like overstimulation, hyperfixation, needing things to be a certain way, strong emotional reactions or impulsive/unwanted behaviour that doesn’t always align with your true values. If you have both it can be a bit like a wrestling match ie. autism “I love being home and in my routine and having everything just right” adhd “screw the routine let’s totally change up our whole lives”. Absolutely not diagnosing you but I am late diagnosed with both (at different times) and it’s super common in creative people like yourself. Sounds silly but it wasn’t until the adhd algorithm on TikTok found me that I realised that despite close exposure to it, I really did not understand adhd in women and the way we develop coping mechanisms and shape our lives to compensate for having adhd. Many diagnostic tests don’t take this into account and many are not catered to audhd-ers (dual diagnosis). In my case it was missed or ruled out by professionals who should have really known better but there’s a lot of misinformation and stigma out there even amongst “experts”. Educating and advocating for myself was so important and it has ultimately been life changing. Wishing you all the best on your mental health journey wherever it leads 💖

[@NM-ug3rw]

Rachel THANK YOU FOR BEING REAL! 🙏💞

[@Printzandplanz]

Overwhelm gets me so much but especially in the colder months. I love watching your productivity videos!

[@yolzzworld]

I feel so heard, from what you said regarding your psychologist said. Now I know why when I start a job, I need to clean the desk inside out and the whole office before I can work. I’m so glad you were able to get some copping skills. ❤

[@mkirk1313]

Beautiful video. I loved this side of you being honest like this. Many ppl can relate and know that they are not alone. Thank you for sharing

[@traceybeaumont8535]

I totally relate about things needing to look a certain way. My husband likes things straight/tidy but I like to see things a certain way which I can’t always explain. With our home I have to check what the view looks like from the doorway or where you sit. I get really happy when it looks just right but can’t settle when it isn’t right.

[@sarastilleke]

Thank you for sharing this vulnerable area of your life with us. I also do the same thing, it’s difficult to relax and focus unless I finish my cleaning “ritual” first!

[@inkstainedlips]

Thanks for sharing what you're going through, I can relate to needing my environment to be a certain way and getting frustrated by loud or just unwanted noise, especially if I'm trying to work.

[@aritaapereira]

Oh, Rachel, it all makes sense now! It is so interesting! I eally feel all that. Things has to be geometrically organized and the color coordination makes me so much calm!

[@rainbow616]

Hey Rachel, it's very brave and good that you're sharing this. I think you're a perfectionist (like me). I've been following you for a while now and have been noticing this already. On one hand it's nice and motivating to watch but at some point it always gives me a hyper feeling and then I have to switch off the video. It gets too much. I hope your therapist can help you to overcome this. I will be starting a new form of therapy soon. I hope this time it will really help because I had therapy twice before (after my divorce) but it didn't do anything for me. Good luck on your journey! Much love. 🍀💚🤗☀️

[@LelliAmi]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have ADHD and struggle a lot with perfectionism. Because of the emotional dysregulation that comes with my ADHD, I get SO frustrated when things aren't *just so*. I'm constantly late for things because my outfit, makeup, etc. isn't how I want it, and I've always put off doing assignments because I worry I won't execute them perfectly. I also do what my husband and I call "procrasti-cleaning"/ "pro-clean-stinating" because I literally can't focus until the the physical clutter is reckoned with. Knowing that others deal with the same thing really makes me feel better.

[@rachelleea]

Thanks so much for sharing. We talked about ADHD and plan to run through that the next time I speak with them. I've been wondering about it but all the people who make stuff about it on Tik Tok throw me off. They make it seems so silly and it's not for the people who have it

[@franniehaha]

Girlll, I relate so much. Even if I buy something new for my home, I can't even take it out of the bag or box until I've cleaned the entire house.

[@hrtsaregonnaroll]

I was recently diagnosed with OCD, but not because of cleanliness/patterns, etc. Mine is because of overwhelm/ control issues. Some of the things you were saying I really related to (even just the noise issue when you were frustrated). Paired with anxiety and depression, it’s quite a load. Mental health can be difficult to navigate- im glad it’s something you are focusing on!

[@rachelleea]

I'm glad you were able to get a diagnosis 💛 it's quite a load for sure. How have you been going with handling the feelings?

[@hrtsaregonnaroll]

@@rachelleea I think learning and accepting that I have this was a big one- it made me feel not so “crazy”. I can also step back and think through those thoughts much easier. Example: if I can’t tackle an entire project and successfully complete it at once, then I think, why even start. But- once I started breaking that task down into smaller, manageable bite size pieces, it’s not so overwhelming. Thinking of how to set myself up for success as I can handle it, not as others do, has really helped me feel more in control.

[@rachelleea]

that makes so much sense. People sometimes suggest doing things and I just think - but I can't, it wont work like that - so it makes so much sense to do things that work for you even if it doesn't make sense to others or isn't the way other people do it

[@hrtsaregonnaroll]

@@rachelleea Yes! Sometimes when I’m doing something big like cleaning my entire kitchen, I have to give myself 5 minutes to sit on my couch every little bit and just breathe/clear my mind because its overwhelming. It sounds silly- it’s washing dishes- but, to me I need that time to come back to center.

[@rachelleea]

@@hrtsaregonnaroll that's so interesting isn't it. As long as the process works, that's all that matters 😊

[@themomlifeco]

Put a pretty bow around the vase and you won’t see the green band! Lovely

[@rachelleea]

That's a great idea, thank you 💕💕

[@NickyPr891]

It always helps to throw 2 to 3 towels into the washer when washing shoes

[@rachelleea]

Good idea, thank you 😊

[@molk7447]

I actually relate to a lot of those experiences and I’m actually autistic. I’m not trying to push any labels or anything like that, but a strong urge to do things the “right” way can sometimes come from that. I’m very messy in general but when it comes to anything I consider “art” (outfits, photos, poetry, displays, poses) I am such a perfectionist, to a point where it brings a lot of discomfort if I can’t get it perfect. That’s all I wanted to say, hope you’re having a good day.

[@katy1550]

Hi Rachel, I love your videos especially your honest and authentic kind. I'm also very obsessed with having everything clean, tidy and organized which ist crucial for me to be able to tackle all the other stuff and parts of my life. Btw. your nails are beautiful. Have a great week! Warm regards from Berlin/Germany 💕

[@rachelleea]

Thank you so much!! Hope you have a lovely week 💛🧡💛

[@robertaworrall6863]

I loved hearing how you function! Thanks for sharing! ❤

[@Dermatillomaniac]

Thank you for sharing your struggles. Our brains like patterns and consistency and will find a way to create it if it doesn't exist. Glad you're talking with soneone about it and hope the strategies have been helping!

[@aretipan3489]

Oh yes this “ I will clean up EVERYTHING and then do work ! It just never ends and you end up feeling bad about yourself as if you did nothing all day long.I mostly experienced this as perfectionism and the only way to get out of this trap was to just let things go if I can clean or do work for just ten minutes let it be.Better done than perfect,because perfect doesn’t exist.I too can function the best way possible in a colour coordinated space and a neat space but after sooo many years that I was anxious because my space wasn’t neat all the time, i started cleaning little by little , however I could, I tried some things to relax before cleaning eg reading lighting candles playing music,so that I enjoyed the process more!I need this kind of space to function better but now instead of letting my not so tidy home to decide if I will be anxious, I do some stuff little by little so that I can have the situation in my own hands!Hope that helps ❤️❤️❤️so glad that you now know how to make your next space super suitable for you❤️The no1 rule I have is that I always try to do things according to the way that my brain works😁

[@norapelamo5079]

Rachel; just wash the tennis shoes in a normal one hour cycle. Power paste or white toothpaste is great for a pre hand wash. Open the laces a bit more and you are good to go. You got this!

[@rachelleea]

Thanks so much, that's good to know for next time 😊

[@allyjoyce]

Absolutely loving how many videos you’re uploading lately! Have a lovely day 💕

[@rachelleea]

aw thank you, I'm trying for every 4th day but its been 6 this week 😬 will try to make it in 4 days this week 😊💛

[@ayyaz.4864]

I am SO obsessive when it comes to my space too, I'm glad to know this is a real phenomenon and not just my perfectionism or aesthetic preferences :') I know I'm late to this video, but I'd love it if you did a follow-up video sharing what some of the coping mechanisms your therapist recommended and even ones you've built over time are? I think that could help a lot of people! Since I don't own a place I fee like I can't really do much to change anything structurally!

[@maximescheepers2169]

It's okay to express ALL sides of yourself. Only once we accept our good with our bad can we begin to change what we need to. I can relate to this and the pressure you put on yourself to be "perfect". I found that this hinders one from being present in a moment and truly having gratitude for what you DO get right and the things you DO achieve. Dig deeper, it might also be that you are subconsciously comparing yourself to others, which is a dangerous and pointless game to play. Overall, have compassion on yourself and step away when you feel like the negativity is about to take over your entire day. 💗

[@funnyanimalsrepublic7308]

Hey Rachel ❤ Keep it up on dealing with your anxiety, I think knowing the triggers is the halfway of to the treatment. I wish one day you can talk us through your finances and your sources of income, your financial dreams etc

[@A.J...]

Such an amazing productive day !!! 😃👏 Have a great week !!! 👍

[@rachelleea]

Thank you! You too!

[@sophh1585]

Btw you literally look great in any outfit! Thanks for sharing your experiences and your genuine frustrations. It's really interesting and helpful for people who experience the same thing. X

[@fraubib1380]

You are just the cutest 😍 I love your content and I just love your vibe and style and honesty. I know exactly how you feel, i have the same thing, need to clean first and all... Sending a big hug 🫂

[@Hey.its.amber127]

Thank you for sharing. I relate so much to your experience but didn’t have words for it. I’m currently looking for a therapist so I think it will help to be able to put words to the things I’m feeling. But anyway thank you again for sharing and I love your videos so much ❤

[@nicolahaertel2468]

The video is very interesting! One question that pops up is: how is it possible to switch places and travel so much if your sourrounding is so important for your well-being? I heard that your new place (some day) will be very thoughtful furnitured etc but doesn‘t the in-between-time stress you out, on the contrary? I‘m just genuinely interested how you master it because not many people share potential inner conflicts. A big thank you for your content!!

[@rachelleea]

no that's the other weird thing, I love how free I feel. I love change and moving around. It's also something I wanted to challenge myself with, see if I am able to ease those feelings by throwing myself in the deep end and being forced to get comfortable with my surroundings being out of my control. But for 80% of the time I'm content with wherever I am, the other 20% is when these feelings come out.

[@Shayla03]

Thank you for sharing your struggles. I'm glad you have some answers. I am the same and I always wondered why I LIVE in my dining room. It's always guest ready! I can't do anything anywhere else without cleaning.. even baseboards!

[@rachelleea]

Funny you say baseboards, that’s exactly what I’ve been cleaning lately 😆 it’s a feel good clean I swear haha

[@erniewornie]

My comment got lost so here goes again.. I hear you compeletely Rachel, I am exactly this way. I obsessively clean even when I am staying in hotels. And if the tiniest of things does not go as I planned it, my entire day will be ruined. Sometimes I wish I am more easy going but I just cant.. i have been told I am rigid and cynical and that sometimes sucks honestly.. but you are not alone, I hear you and I relate *hugs*❤

[@rachelleea]

aw thanks for sharing. Sometimes it can be really annoying when it stops things from running smoothly

[@thunderstorm204]

❤ appreciate you sharing your experiences! You must feel so relieving knowing more about yourself. Also I knew your outfit would look dope with ponytail and big gold earrings 😊 have a wonderful week

[@marieortiz158]

Hey girl! Omg i know that feeling! I cannot work in an unorganized space either and then I don't work. I can't concentrate or relax or even watch Netflix. I'm so glad someone else is like this! I feel like nothing is not good enough and I keep moving things. Whew! Yeah that Dyson pisses me off-- $500 and I can't travel with it? No thanks! Now Country Road....no girl.😁😁😁 Marie❤❤❤

[@rachelleea]

I don't understand how they can make such a pricey product but not make it travel compatible. It makes no sense haha 💛💛

[@TiffGilleland1]

I love this video! Thank you so much for sharing what you're going through. Even though I don't share the same things you go through, I still connected with it as I've dealt with perfectionism and anxiety in the past (and still deal with it) and I could see some similarities especially around the grainy footage and the noise frustrations.

[@rachelleea]

Thanks for sharing, it's so nice to hear others share their experience. It's nice to know you can go through it together ❤

[@refinedsimplicity8420]

I’d like to suggest an additional thought on your need to clean and organize so much. As introverts, we are definitely much more sensitive to our environment and when we are overstimulated or stressed, we seek control by focusing on things around us. Obviously with your life being in flux these days, it totally makes sense why you are feeling this way. Hoping you are feeling more comfortable very soon.

[@marjross1940]

I love that you showed a bit of Melbourne city at the end ❤

[@rachelleea]

I really want to get out and show more but I'm at home most of the time haha

[@rootedreinvention]

Hey Rachel, have you spoken with your psychologist about developmental conditions like ADHD and ASD? I have OCD and ASD and so I dont know which parts of me are caused by what, but in case it's not come up, ASD can present very different in females to the "stereotype". Also, in the UK we call OCD obsessions without compulsions "Pure O" if they are impacting life dramatically.

[@ThereseDavidson]

Could you talk a little about how to prioritize tasks against each other 😍

[@HANANEC]

Hi, i know i'm not a therapist but maybe you can try to do a 5 minutes breathing coherance every morning (there's some video on youtube) that helped me with my "Not right" problem. I love the Lego Flowers 💐💐💐💐💐

[@sparklejohnsom2568]

I can totally relate. I thought I was going crazy. Great Video.

[@SimplyMel]

Done is better than perfect! 😘

[@ascl24]

I have the Shark and I love it!! Half the price and I got it off Amazon Canada :) Also love how it refreshes my 4 day old hair ❤

[@rachelleea]

oh thats awesome, so good to know. Thank you

[@4eburawka18]

I can totally relate to that but more in work-related circumstances (your environment is your work too so it looks similar to me). Very beneficial for my employers but extremely draining for myself. :-( And with your videos, we too tend to see only the bright 'perfect' side, not those GBs you trashed. This would be not only multiple account of work but also a very disappointing feeling on its own. I totally share that. Hopefully you'll recharge and feel better soon!

[@as0205_]

I have the same urge to clean and have everything be “perfect” or “my way” because if it isnt the way i want it or if its not clean i feel like i cant start my work

[@nina_allegra]

I feel the same way about my space. I can‘t relax or do work if it‘s not freshly cleaned 🙃 Would you mind sharing the tips that you learned?

[@ceciliamendez5146]

It sounds like OCPD. Sending you hugs. Anxiety related feelings are very difficult.

[@rachelleea]

Thank you 🧡💛 I dont think its OCPD. A lot of the symptoms of that are not things I have. The feelings I have are usually to do with my space and sometimes my work and I'm able to not become obsessed with it. I can move through the feelings and shift my focus when I need to

[@ThereseDavidson]

I see myself in what you explain. I have called it perfectionism

[@divinelyaligned5980]

What nail polish are you wearing, it’s nice, is it the dip powder or gel polish?

[@s_v_777]

Love the flowers!!! And where is the vase from? ❤

[@rachelleea]

Kmart 😊 its super cute, I forgot to link it, will do that now

[@narutosd8178]

love it and so cute dress😘

[@rvassallo1671]

Hi beautiful, thank you so much for being authentic and real and sharing how you have been feeling. I wanted to tell you that no one is perfect, we all have our own insecurities and anxieties that we deal with. I also suffer with allot of fear and anxiety that sometimes cripples me and keeps me stuck. I'm trying to heal and work on myself. I have been following you for several years and have always enjoyed your content and style. I love the way you do you hair as well, you make it look so easy but I struggle with using hot tools on my hair. Can I ask you before KZbin what did you do for work? What was your profession?

[@rachelleea]

Hi, thank you 🧡 Before KZbin I worked in retail, clothing retail in particular 😊

[@cadyperry]

If you’re comfortable with it you should keep us updated on skills that work for you that improve the “not just right” experiences! :)

[@user-xd6du9of2t]

I know it sounds strange but it could be colour and too much visual clutter making the area look and feel messy overwhelming the brain eg dead leaves on flowers, stickers on appliances, too many clashing patterns. The Lego flowers are cool. What editing program do u use for tictok reels please?

[@rachelleea]

Thats true, that might be it. I use final cut pro, only because thats what I use for my youtube videos and Im used to it. I should try do it in the app but its so hard haha

[@nada-24]

Amazingggg 🤩😍😻 but I think it would be better if this routine was voiceover instead of background music and talking to us as a vlog 🤗❤️😘😚

[@sadiasvlogss]

Omg i have the same exact issue. In fact mine is probably worse it hinders my every day life to the point i cannot breath it get to be so anxious and anxiety ridden and i end up sleeping sound colors noise all of it i make be such a horrible mother the mom guilt i feel like im always screaming at my kids when they r just being kids. Sometimes i just have to leave the space. I thought i had some major problems i mean at least i know im not the only one

[@kaylangford3031]

Is it worth doing a dry run of the filming you do so that you can iron out the faults you see before you film the content for uploading? Might be a way of dealing with the frustration if you know your first film isn't the one you're going to post. The next may be the one however because you've had a chance to practice it and check out anything you want to change. Bit like filming an actual film, take one etc? 🎬

[@liztownsend9825]

Your nails!!!!!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍 Please please show what you used 🙏

[@rachelleea]

Hi, Thank you 💕 In this video at the end I do a bit of a tutorial. This colour is the unicorn one I show there :) kzbin.info/www/bejne/nHnJnqqApteYfNE

[@rachelleea]

Sorry that may not have made sense. I did green in that video but near the beginning I unboxed 3 colours and this week I now have the unicorn one

[@liztownsend9825]

Thank you so much ... I think I may just be obsessed with these nails 😍

[@AshleyJade18]

I'm similar BUT in my own house... If i get visitors (which i love) and they use my bathroom, i feel like that bathroom is soooo dirty for days afterwards.. even though, i KNOW that my visitors aren't feral people and the bathroom isn't that bad. 🤷‍♀

[@rainbow616]

Cute white dress. I know that kind of fabric, annoying. Wrinkles so fast. I have a top like that. I was missing a necklace with this dress. 🤗

[@tiffanyyoung661]

Have you heard about pure O? I think it's OCD without the compulsions

[@sonakubikova434]

I washed my white air max in washine machine 3-4 times for 2 hours and they look like new

[@rachelleea]

Oh yay love to know it took that many times. Once dry mine looked better but i think i'll wash them more regularly 💛🧡💛

[@reneewalker7517]

OOooo Pretty nails!!

[@kazianika4897]

Are you in Melbourne at the moment?

[@Probablytracy]

Same…. and not OCD.

[@kdyke2]

I have the same thing happing right now and I just hate it

[@evelynhurtado1061]

Right brain baddies ❤❤❤

[@rainbow616]

It's exhausting to be like that. I know. ❤

[@ji7635]

If you get so frustrated about a video that is not perfect, I think it is time to stop with it. It's just Tiktok. It shouldn't be that important. Tiktok is not important in life.

[@rachelleea]

It’s my job so it is important. But it’s also not that simple which is why I talked to my psychologist about it. It’s not simple frustration unfortunately

[@graceland6331]

Maybe think about getting an editor if you don't have one already. Try not to be so critical of yourself. You are highly competent and beautiful.

[@rachelleea]

Thank you, I have tried editors before but I didn't like it. I enjoy the work myself, its just sometimes these feelings will come in and make it difficult. It's not all the time, just sometimes. I wouldnt say Im critical of myself, I've learnt to be real gentle with myself. I'm just very critical at the things around me but thank you so much ❤❤❤

[@carolinej113]

Pink paste and a scrub mommy will get your shoes nice and white!

[@rachelleea]

I love those products 🙌🏼🙌🏼 thanks for sharing

[@susanmorris5520]

I do hope that the Psychologist is gonna be able to help you with the OCD that you have been dealing with. I really don’t understand why he/she isn’t calling it OCD cause you have all the issues of that illness. If I may ask, why can’t people just admit it and call it for what it is? I have a friend who is the same as you and yes, he is definitely OCD. Well, if it isn’t that then it is definitely some kind of compulsive disorder. Just accept yourself, your situations and things whether dirty or unorganized as they all are. All of us humans are perfect and never will be. Hugs love and blessings to you. Sue M🥰👍🏻❤️🙏❌⭕️

[@rachelleea]

I don’t have the compulsions which is why it isn’t ocd. I feel the discomfort someone with ocd does but I don’t have the compulsions to “fix” things. I can move through the feelings without doing anything 😊

[@twigityful]

Can these irritants be due to the new way of life ur living right now? But you are Being courageous to be out of your comfort zone

[@rachelleea]

They’ve always been there, they’re just heightened from not having my own space 😊

[@rainbow616]

Btw, I don't have the thing with the cleaning..

[@vickyjanoska8029]

In my opinion, if you don't work from home, you won't need a therapist . Trust me! Take it easy, girl! You look great ! Enjoy the life ! 🌍 Best wishes from south Europe!!!🌈🌞🌹

[@rachelleea]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts but my therapist and I talk about more than just work. I think it's very important to have one to work through all different areas of your life. Even if I worked from somewhere else I would still have these feelings and need to work on it 💛💛 Hope you have a great week

[@valerieohara3649]

Thank you for this

[@valerieohara3649]

It's so not weird

[@carlos_790]

Did you make time to read God's word and seeking Him? After all He is the Creator of everything beautiful, don't you think?

[@selenacasper5691]

Why are gel nails soooo thick.?! They look like balls on peoples fingers