Check out my Nebula bonus video, where I review Bryan’s quite bad kids’ books! nebula.tv/videos/lilyalexandre-bryan-johnsons-bad-kids-books/
@jimj26833 ай бұрын
You seem like an even worse grifter than Bryan Johnson.
@Smitteys863 ай бұрын
I haven't kept up with your videos in months. Returning to them now with this one, and your writing continues to absolutely floor me. You just nail these huge, dramatic ideas with simple to follow yet wistfully poetic language. The phone call interlude-segue at 1:25 was so heartwarming. Thank you.
@blablagal943 ай бұрын
We're gonna need a part 2 of this video after watching The Substance
@_cloudface_3 ай бұрын
@@jimj2683😅 you obviously don't know Bryan then. I honestly haven't seen this content creator linking to a paid content site is so far different to a wannabe cult leader shilling overpriced olive oil, supplements, merchandise, food products and motivational seminars you're actually making a fool of yourself publicly with your comments 😅
@SulfurySmellАй бұрын
For the love of your sanity you need to find a different path of thought. I just breezed through your history and everything is so negative, if you look for the bad you will find it. The same goes for the reciprocal, also you have a very condescending frame of view which I just can't see as healthy. I don't mean this as an assault to your being but hopefully as enough of a shock to provoke some introspection as to why you are in such a seemingly painful state of being. Sitting in silence and solitude for 30mins every now and then may do you some good as it did for me.
@LunaRoseManor3 ай бұрын
Wait, so you're telling me this guy is obscenely wealthy, can't go outside during the day, obsesses about his own mortality and steals blood from people. Are you sure you haven't got him confused with count Dracula?
@minaverry3 ай бұрын
Personalitywise he's more like Colin Robison...
@Drozerix3 ай бұрын
@@LunaRoseManor >steals Interesting reframing.
@Gopnikawa2 ай бұрын
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@AndreaValentine-w4o13 күн бұрын
Best comment ever. Ty
@James-z6x3u13 күн бұрын
Ha! Love it.
@clellieirwin21553 ай бұрын
Former Mormon here. I'd like to reinforce what you said about the psychological toll of losing faith in the afterlife. Because Mormon's conception of the afterlife is philosophically similar to the life we live on earth (learning, changing, and growing), you never have to fear death. The moment you begin to doubt your beliefs is the first moment you have to grapple with death. It's a jarring experience to have, and at the same moment you're losing your community. Thanks for talking about it with empathy.
@Mosstrades3 ай бұрын
there really is such empathy in this video. not insecurity, not coddling - it feels just, like, compassionate but cleareyed. it's very special.
@cactus22603 ай бұрын
My father lost his mormon faith deep into his life. Sadly, he also had a near death experience shortly after duri g cover, so yeah, that's a difficult thing to deal with
@personzorz2 ай бұрын
The relationship between the Mormon sphere and the Transhumanist sphere is WEIRDLY close.
@VostokApollo2 ай бұрын
I was raised Catholic. It took me longer to come to grips with finality than my entire life beforehand, up to and including the day I was born and the day I finally started to think about death. The overwhelming, suffocating dread that I felt when I was ~15-16 years old couldn't possibly compare to what a former mormon missionary who left in his mid 20s must have gone through.
@eneyavorodecky2 ай бұрын
The afterlife, according to the Abrahamic religions, is stagnation. No change. Forever frozen. Forever stuck. I am not really sure what kind of mental gymnastics one has to make to convince themselves otherwise but if one believes in anything but the eternal stagnation, then whatever they believe, no longer has anything to do with any of the Abrahamic religions. To the point that it veers into open fanficitaion... sorry, different sects of these religions. One can veer into the very reasonable argument of "literally each of those religions are pure imagination and make-believe", which is objectively true but it is a bit jarring to me how little any of this is even discussed, yet alone acknowledged.
@moonlitsara3 ай бұрын
I hate that the whole “taking the blood of my son” thing is quite possibly the Least Weird Thing about this guy
@strangejune3 ай бұрын
the vampire comment seems more worryingly accurate now
@real_pattern3 ай бұрын
what's weird about an experimental therapy? he's experimenting, he didn't do it for teh lulz. when the data showed that it didn't work for him, he stopped.
@strangejune3 ай бұрын
@@real_pattern the word 'experimental' is doing some heavy lifting in this sentence for sure
@real_pattern3 ай бұрын
@@strangejune yes, experimenting is a core concept in what this dude's doing. do you happen to know a-priori which mechanisms may have which effects without experimenting? this is how empirical understanding progresses. the kneejerk response of 'ewwy yucky, omg he's so weird and different' and inferring from those pre-reflective vibes that there's something morally wrong here at all is cringe & low iq tribal bs.
@emilyeclipse7303 ай бұрын
@@real_pattern It's the whole "taking the blood of your son" thing that's weird
@onyx69043 ай бұрын
I don’t think he realizes that he’s literally going to be a cautionary tale of the hubris of trying to live forever, much like a classic folktale he does not take into account
@RyvreRandom3 ай бұрын
@@onyx6904 I'm not sure he actually thinks he'll live forever, he seems more interested living healthy as long as he can, which I don't think is an inherently bad desire.
@PhileasLiebmann3 ай бұрын
@@RyvreRandom No, he hs explicitly stated that he wants to continue to live forever. Like he admits that this isn't possible to achieve right now, so currently he is only attempting to live for as long as possible, but he is fully convinced that in the near future procedures will be available that truly reverse a body's age and allow someone to live in perpetuity. It's extremely nutty.
@petitpenoit59813 ай бұрын
@@RyvreRandomignoring your feelings at every turn is inherently bad, and will absolutely lead to overwhelming remorse at old age
@goldengolem46703 ай бұрын
@@RyvreRandom Does he seem healthy in any way to you?
@MuteCircle3 ай бұрын
I very much agree with your point albeit with the caveat that he's *literally* probably going to just die at a normal time
@hayward3253 ай бұрын
the end of this resonated with me so hard. i'm about to graduate with a degree in genetics. i could help people with cancer, with rare diseases, anything medical at all to be honest. but i know that there is no research i could undertake, no therapy i could design, nothing, that would save as many lives as just giving people clean water, something we could do at any time. i don't know what to do with that but bryan is exactly who i never want to help
@marcomoreno67483 ай бұрын
@hayward325 I have been getting more and more disillusioned with a certain sect of scientist in center circles. I was raised Pentecostal and became pretty heavily atheist/left. Still consider myself a leftist but the older I get, the more I realize- we could have had as close to a utopia as is possible, 1,000, 2,000, perhaps even 5,000 years ago. The problem isn't how dense our fertilizers are or theory on microbes, though those things certainly *facilitate* well-being and happiness. 99.99% of humanity's suffering comes from individuals disdain and cruelty to one another ):
@JC-jd1us3 ай бұрын
@@marcomoreno6748 I think its more deeper and systematic than that. There's every day people who help out each other, I've seen homeless people give each other the clothes on their back to each other, I've seen people who have more voulunteer and help out others bc they want to. It's just the greedy people who hoard resources and make money poisoning us (like fracking or corporate media where they pit people against each other). I really suggest getting in contact with your local community and helping out with what they need, you'll become more disillusioned with the system but you'll see the good in every day people.
@2degucitas3 ай бұрын
Start a business that digs wells in West Africa. They need it. I used to do development work there. A well CAN be dug fairly cheaply, but you must shore up the walls with cement. A village can shred hand pumps faster than you can fix them, so a side business of teaching local blacksmiths (that's a family clan people are born into) how to repair and sand cast parts is necessary. They can come up with junk metal to melt and cast, no problem. Trickier things to make are pulleys that don't wear so fast. They make their own 'buckets' out of old inner tubes and wire, so that's all set. They must be taught how to assemble a cast hand pump by properly tightening the 4 screws SLOWLY clockwise so not to crack the whole thing! A smart village car repairman will know about this from working on engine blocks. You don't even need to travel in country, they have cell phones. I saw a very clever pic of homemade wifi using a plastic water bottle and moped parts. They are very clever similarly to Cubans and can kludge and fix anything given enough time. They're hungry to learn. Please, give this a sincere thought.
@VultureSkins2 ай бұрын
@@2degucitas “They are very clever” is not a phrase we usually apply to people
@2degucitas2 ай бұрын
@@VultureSkins Why? Is it paternalistic? Yeah, my bad.
@ChrisLeeW003 ай бұрын
The Patrick Bateman morning routine, truly the sign of a healthy individual.
@saraknox16313 ай бұрын
Damn, he even LOOKS like Patrick Bateman
@lawliet69103 ай бұрын
@@ChrisLeeW00 Now lets see Paul Allen’s routine
@Adam-rf5xp3 ай бұрын
@@ChrisLeeW00 this, but unironically. Sign of high IQ + at least trying to lead a healthy, disciplined life Now compare vs. morning routines of sad, sick, depressed masses.
@pupyfan693 ай бұрын
@@Adam-rf5xpthose "low-iq" working masses are depressed because they're forced to live in the world your beloved supermen profited off the creation of.
@rickkroll3 ай бұрын
@@Adam-rf5xp Having a routine, sure that's healthy. Having an obsession with how you look and every single aspect of your health? Not healthy. Seems like you missed the point of the comment and joke 🤓 ☝🏽
@jasminv86533 ай бұрын
'brians relationship to science is not that of a scientist' is absolutely true. He does not want to find out how things work, he wants for the things he wishes for to become true.
@alexmendenhall54163 ай бұрын
"he wants for the things he wishes for to become true." so does literally every human on earth. Surley you're not implying that wishing for something to be true, and trying to make it true is wrong? And btw scientists aren't just absolutely curious mindless robots, go ask any scientist "whats your goal" and they'll tell you "to make the world a better place"
@tsawy63 ай бұрын
Like, some science is pure science but like. Nah dog the fellas working on the covid vaccine had a goal
@allanchon13613 ай бұрын
@@alexmendenhall5416 they're not making claims of right and wrong, just pointing out that he's not a scientist (which i agree). Scientists wish to illuminate the nature & processes of the world, engineers apply these insights to optimize and achieve some goal, and businessmen commodify these solutions for selfish gain. Brian seems far more obsessed with the goal and the aesthetics of science than the actual processes that make it possible, which plants him firmly in the business camp
@alexmendenhall54163 ай бұрын
@@allanchon1361 yes Bryan Johnson is doing what he does for selfish gain, I know, I just literally said that in my last comment. What I’m asking is that is it wrong for a person to selfishly want to live longer? Businessman or scientist. Also most scientists are not curiosity motivated, but profit motivated. We would never study anything if there was nothing gain from knowing anything.
@cloudyyybear3 ай бұрын
@@alexmendenhall5416 did you just not the read the original comment? What are u even talking about lol
@pinkopansy3 ай бұрын
"a worrying disinterest in the human experience" is a good way to sum up most of what I have issue with in the world
@dzrmgkva3 ай бұрын
@@broccoli-devit's building community, and that's most human thing we can do. It's important especially for me, queer person from country where being gay is illegal so non respectfully stfu
@Lurchkönig3 ай бұрын
@@broccoli-dev "Talking About the human experience isnt part of the human experience" - Broccoli-Dev
@KateeAngel3 ай бұрын
@@broccoli-dev another stupid fan of tech bro bs?
@elinope47453 ай бұрын
Blame millennial highly vocal and opinionated politicaly interested people. They turned social discussion into power wars. It shuts down open communication which in turn locks people into their own little bubbles. Free speech is required for free discussion which is required for authenticity which is required for interest in others.
@timrosswood42593 ай бұрын
@@broccoli-devWhen you can't come up with a rebuttal but you really wanna "own" people online
@smileyp45352 ай бұрын
It's very telling that the slogan is "don't die" instead of "stay alive" because the objective isn't to live and enjoy a long healthy and fulfilling life, but to simple "not die" at all costs
@neckpeck27383 ай бұрын
A weirdly waxy looking, scarred man with a surfer haircut trying to sell us a life without sunlight on your skin or surprise pizza parties as a utopian future would be a hilarious premise if it weren't so fucking cruel.
@J5L5M63 ай бұрын
Hahahaha, I got a mental image of a deranged Capitan Planet slapping pizza slices out of children's hands during a birthday party all the while mumbling about being immortal. My thanks to you.
@LenkaSaratoga27 күн бұрын
@@neckpeck2738 pizza….. american children, more than a half of them are overweight to obese.
@ollie47163 ай бұрын
guy who has never heard of literally any folk tale about seeking immortality: gee i cant believe no one has ever tried just not dying before!!!
@ataraxia74393 ай бұрын
I mean that seems like kind of a silly thing to base morals on. There’s lots of folks tales about ppl getting punished for questing authority figures or women trying to he independent but we wouldn’t consider those good reasons to see those things as bad.
@ollie47163 ай бұрын
@@ataraxia7439 oh for sure but my point was that he seems to think that trying to not die is just. something we've never tried before. like his logic doesn't make sense, he condemns how humans have always come up with stories to cope with death and conveniently ignores that a lot of those stories in folk tales revolve around ppl trying to cheat death and being punished, of like. alchemists. like bro has never heard of alchemy.
@real_pattern3 ай бұрын
@@ollie4716he doesn't think that, and we never did try 'not dying' this way. our age is quite different from the ages from when those folk tales originate.
@ariadnavontardium90953 ай бұрын
I can't believe someone didn't consider what folk tales had to say when trying to do something
@nekole3 ай бұрын
certified gilgamesh moment
@ItWasSaucerShaped3 ай бұрын
my dear god in heaven this man is the embodiment of missing out on life for the sake of living
@cronchyskull3 ай бұрын
In running from death, it consumes his every thought.
@monroe75323 ай бұрын
@@ItWasSaucerShaped I thought that too, if the only way to outlive the life expectancy is to stick to a struck regimen of constant exercise, fasting, and then only eating specific selected healthy foods with little taste with vitamins, then why live??
@Urduhkhan3 ай бұрын
Or maybe he's a smooth liar selling a product he doesn't consume. He probably smokes a bunch of weed when nobody is looking.
@inkajoo3 ай бұрын
My intuition says he feels deeply, despairingly cut off and alone and that his life once he dies will have been totally meaningless. All this measuring and reporting and worshipping immortality is his way of feeling connected, his assurance that he will be seen and remembered.
@windhammer12373 ай бұрын
@@monroe7532 There's much more to life than gorging on poisonous, highly processed "food".
@westonsmith31903 ай бұрын
My family left the Mormon church a few years ago in the fallout of my coming out. Once you brought up the fact that Bryan had left the church, everything slotted into place for me. I was impressed how well you were able to articulate what it feels like to leave Mormonism despite never having done it. All ex-mormons are in the pursuit of a replacement for the Heavenly Father they grew up with. When you've grown up in a religion that intense, you become unable to function unless you're worshipping something. Whatever is nearby at the time is what tends to fill the vacuum. For Bryan it's this wild goose chase in pursuit of eternal life. For my parents, it's psychedelics and capital A Atheism. For some of my friends, it's been far right conspiracies. I feel lucky that my queerness let me land in the social justice / leftist space like I did. Fantastic video, and congratulatuons on the engagement!
@LimeyLassen3 ай бұрын
I feel strangely fortunate that my autism made me disinterested in patriarchy, I kinda gave up tradition and social roles before I even left the church. Because of that I never felt particularly traumatized or boxed in by the way I was raised.
@Ttt-n1w3 ай бұрын
May I interest you in tulpamancy or wider plurality? Notice how those thought patterns behave... That's a big reason why I left. I had a better explanation than they did, and I'm too cynical to act solely on "trust me bro" or bandwagon fallacy vibes.
@Dong_Harvey3 ай бұрын
Now that you talk about it, psychedelics seem like they might be better than my trash obsession!
@gazingatsaturn3 ай бұрын
@Ttt-n1w goddamn i dont think ive heard the word tulpamancy in like a decade. thats a thing thats still kicking about?
@edienandy2 ай бұрын
I’ve been out for a long time now and I feel like at some point you stop needing whatever your initial replacement for the church was and you kinda level out
@markriosn7589Ай бұрын
This is going to end like a Greek tragedy, isn't it? The man who feared death so much he forgot to live.
@sopranophantomista3 ай бұрын
The things bro will do to avoid just going to therapy. I know it's awkward opening up to a complete stranger, but I promise you, many are there to help. I'm glad you're putting your health first, but some wounds need to be let in, sat down, and made aware of. You don't have to make friends with your demons, but you do have to have a conversation with them. E: on a separate note, congrats on getting engaged! That's so exciting, and may your years be filled with love and joy and success and laughter.
@beingmegucaissuffering.53263 ай бұрын
@sopranophantomista I feel like for a lot of rich people, having too much money is a bandaid that prevents actual introspection and personal growth.
@vincentm715021 күн бұрын
@@sopranophantomista so condescending lol
@SynGirl323 ай бұрын
I'd been researching Mormonism independantly when this video dropped, and it really hits the nail on just how "American" the religion feels to me. The weird mix of Calvinist asceticism, awkward culturally confused mythology and unrestrained grift-friendly capitalism represents the psyche that permeates a lot of American culture in a way only the greatest satirist could come up with. Very insightful video, I love your conclusion and it overall made me feel much more at peace with myself.
@sophdog25643 ай бұрын
Ooh if you're researching Mormonism you should definitely look into the time they tried to make a communist like compound. Lots of crazy history. The modern state of the Mormon church is plenty crazy on its own, but the history is even more bizarre
@cactus22603 ай бұрын
As a mexican with an ex mormon fanily, it is really creepily american, it has terrible vibes with the super white jesus and angels teaching native americans how to be good.
@mudkip_btw3 ай бұрын
@@cactus2260 i never heard about that last part, whaaat
@jonathanedwardgibson3 ай бұрын
My dad id mormon and I was exposed to it early and I’d describe it as the original Flying Saucer Cult, with Mason aftertaste.
@swans1843 ай бұрын
@@jonathanedwardgibson Yeah it's just lucky to be one of the first American cults, before people knew any better
@theeviljames3 ай бұрын
Bryan's whole deal really reminds me of deep depression: hating being alive but terrified of dying. In the past, when I've felt such feelings, the idea of joining a monastery or the Armed forces has seemed appealing because of the lack of decision making. Depression can make decision making impossible so having an "algorithm" tell you what to do could be appealing. However, by doing that you've stopped living (at least IMO) Really excellent video (congrats on the engagement :) )
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
I mean removing the cognitive load of mostly unimportant decisions is useful outside of depression too 😅 Many busy or stressed people create routines that basically achieves this, Bryan just took the time to design his more towards health than most.
@alexmendenhall54163 ай бұрын
another nerd trying to psycho analyze, ur not dr house bro.
@anzaia21643 ай бұрын
@@maddiekits "Health"
@tophatv29023 ай бұрын
@@anzaia2164 yes he sleeps and eats well and exercises. do you?
@Ttt-n1w3 ай бұрын
@@tophatv2902well put 🤣
@alexander_avila3 ай бұрын
Amazing video. And so cool you were able to find a strange and weird person to be the voice of Bryan Johnson.
@cronchyskull3 ай бұрын
I KNEW it was yoooouuuu!!!
@picahudsoniaunflocked54263 ай бұрын
The Voices are Good.
@Gopnikawa2 ай бұрын
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@EosFunk3 ай бұрын
As an eating disorder survivor, hearing his morning routine really reminds me of an ED mindset...
@rosalindcormier43842 ай бұрын
@@EosFunk Yeah I’m glad I’m not the only one who was thinking that
@Howdyasdo2 ай бұрын
Seriously checking and judging your body first thing in the morning is horrible
@29jgirl922 ай бұрын
The whole thing kinda does. This idea that you have to conquer your own body with its wants and needs as a way to get control over something in a world that is completly out of your control is so familiar!
@bananbanan65202 ай бұрын
Fortunately he doesn't have an eating disorder :)
@elvingearmasterirma72412 ай бұрын
@@bananbanan6520 Eating disorders are at their core defined by a well, disordered relationship with food and eating. He body checks. He obsessively weighs himself. He doesnt allow himself to eat anything outside of what he designated as "good". Its not healthy or normal to do that. Or feel contempt for yourself, past, present or future for eating things like doughnuts. Or pizza parties. The forms of disorders popular in media is mainly bulimia or anorexia. But a common form is orthorexia. And it tends to be overlooked because its a form of obsession with eating what is considered healthy foods. And often it looks like what that guy is doing. Another mistake people make is thinking you only form disordered eating patterns from body image issues. You can also form it due to overwhelming anxiety and stress from feeling like you have a lack of control. So your brain latches onto food and controlling that aspect of your life. An example of something like that... Oh lets say for example. An overwhelming fear of death.
@hannahwankier74593 ай бұрын
I’m an ex-Mormon therapist in Utah who helps people deconstruct and find their own meaning and belonging again after leaving the church and this video just made SO much click into place for me
@lily_lxndr3 ай бұрын
Wow, you're doing important work!! That's amazing
@hannahwankier74593 ай бұрын
@@lily_lxndr Thanks for saying so. It’s tough working as a therapist in this state, I’m currently on a maternity leave I may or may not come back from lol
@KH-zr6pt3 ай бұрын
I know this was a small part of the video but the amount of men that leave their s/os when they find out they have cancer is so incredibly disheartening... for him specifically, it seems like her having cancer made him have a singular negative feeling so he had to eliminate her from his life
@saraknox16313 ай бұрын
I don't think it's that this negative feeling was "singular," in the sense of it being his only negative feeling. I think her cancer diagnosis hit a fear so deep and overwhelming for him that he couldn't stand to be around her anymore.
@airplanes_aren.t_real3 ай бұрын
@@saraknox1631 that explains most of it but I don't get why he still tried to make her pay for his attorney fees
@zhl80093 ай бұрын
@@airplanes_aren.t_real The same reason any rich person extracts money from the poor or disenfranchised, I'd imagine. There's not really a whole lot of thought which has to go into that in particular.
@airplanes_aren.t_real3 ай бұрын
@@zhl8009 and what is the reason?
@WaltCronkite3 ай бұрын
@@airplanes_aren.t_real Power is nothing but the illusion of control. To pay legal fees is to acknowledge a system outside of your control.
@aqua-bery3 ай бұрын
He considers eating cookies and staying awake violent? Then im the most violent person ever.
@LimeyLassen3 ай бұрын
RULES OF NATURE 🍪💀🍪
@neomaredi59223 ай бұрын
You're a villain I tell you
@keroykk3 ай бұрын
@@aqua-bery when you will also turn 45 and you lose a couple hours of sleep, you'll see how this is violent.
@picahudsoniaunflocked54263 ай бұрын
@@LimeyLassen Thanks I'm going to hear that in my head for a week lol.
@nont184113 ай бұрын
You are such an evil person😅
@sadiegunderson85673 ай бұрын
I've been listening to your videos while playing minecraft (in peaceful mode) for a few years now. When I started watching this video, I felt this oddly serene feeling and realized it's because I've began so associate you with minecraft and all that it encompasses within my heart.
@btarczy50673 ай бұрын
At first I thought that your first sentence described all you have done for a few years and got worried. …)
@lily_lxndr3 ай бұрын
This is the sweetest thing ever
@interdimensional42883 ай бұрын
You can't drop something like "what heaven could be higher than watching the flowers bloom every spring" in a video essay and walk away
@davidklemen52643 ай бұрын
its insane how he looks so alive in the photos he showed. he looks human. he literally exerts the essence of humanity in his old photos. while the current talking him looks like a soulless husk. already dead.
@Shield-Theyden3 ай бұрын
I will never stop being irritated about millionaires who spend their fortunes making themselves miserable and drag us all along for the ride.
@thirdcoinedge3 ай бұрын
People say we're in a new Gilded Age, but at least Carnegie & Rockefeller conducted philanthropic endeavors. Can any of these new tech bro millionaires/billionaires say they helped to build a library? A university in their name? I think not.
@NovemberIGSnow3 ай бұрын
@@thirdcoinedge Billionaires now engage in "philanthropic altruism" which is when they establish charities with the goal of "doing the most good for the most people with the least money." And wow, it's so odd how every single time the charity figures out that the greatest good is investing in infinite money glitches so that the charity always exists. Oh, and the billionaire will use their charity to cheat on taxes, except it's perfectly legal for them to do it so redditors will "uhm actually" you when you call it what it is.
@josephdillon96983 ай бұрын
I think he first did this it made some kind of improvement or perceived improvement and now he’s seeing himself get better while the world sees him as getting worse but nothing can be said and him hear it. Like when your friend falls in love with a problem and everyone sees it but him. Or those people who become addicted to plastic surgery all they hear is the demons saying just do this one more thing it will all come together. They see no wrinkles everyone else sees a shiny plastic mask.
@Apjooz3 ай бұрын
Shut the hell up. You're not here because of millionaires.
@Apjooz3 ай бұрын
Shut up. You're not here because of millionaires.
@sophdog25643 ай бұрын
I don't even think this guy needs to get very deep into the humanities. He just needs to like... watch Wall•E
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
Watching wall-e just made me more into seeking immortality so I doubt that would be effective for him 😅
@KateeAngel3 ай бұрын
Learning more about natural sciences would also help. Most tech bros ignore real physical reality
@notarabbit17523 ай бұрын
he would just reinterpret anything he sees to fit into his ideology
@bunasdfghjkl3 ай бұрын
@@notarabbit1752 maybe, but also theres a chance something could click mentally for him, and it would trigger an actual “want” to change on his part :)
@lochiness.3 ай бұрын
Watch Soul instead? xD but yeah
@dianeattaway87333 ай бұрын
I had an uncle like that. Word salad and my family claimed he was highly intelligent. All I saw was a train wreck I needed to stay far away for my safety.
@alisonmercer59463 ай бұрын
Why does word salad draw so many people in?
@EzaleaGraves3 ай бұрын
In part, I think it's because the media portrays smart people as those who say things that don't make sense to average people. The smart people in media then end up being right, because they're smart That leads to people seeing lines of reasoning that they can't follow as being smart because they can't follow it.
@Necrophyllis.3 ай бұрын
@@alisonmercer5946 cause people are dumb lmao
@ishathakor3 ай бұрын
i have an uncle like that too lmao it's amazing how many people will just fall for word salad
@rainbowrotcod3 ай бұрын
it's insane how often I see people use the term word salad in this way instead of accurately in the real life medical context
@Geospasmic7 күн бұрын
Hates his humanity, but wants to continue living indefinitely, terrified of death but spends all his time thinking about it.
@madeline_alice3 ай бұрын
he reminds me of the desperate efforts i went through to repress my gender dysphoria. i earned graduate degrees and ran marathons, filling up my day with work, study, meditating and training runs. i didn’t know i was running away from myself until i stopped.
@bananbanan65202 ай бұрын
💀
@bananbanan65202 ай бұрын
Is he just supposed to rather waste time on youtube then
@hydrogenbomb7277Ай бұрын
@@bananbanan6520 wdym
@existenceispain2074Ай бұрын
I mean I don't think it is necessarily a really bad thing you do earn a lot this way, at that point even if you realize your "true self" the things you have done will always already become a part of you. It is also sometimes the necessary part of the process, as said there is no rebirth if there is no death, when everything seems hopeless whether it is reality hitting you or just noticing you are still alive you still have to move on. I had similar problem with something entirely different. I did a lot of things but I don't think I regret them eventually.
@PocketdaemonАй бұрын
Me too, not the marathons HOLY SHIT respect to u, just wanna say you're not alone ❤
@emh.11783 ай бұрын
Im an exmormon, i mentally left the church before i was an adult and i had the go to therapy for years to unpack all the religious trauma and bs the church ground into me. Bryan has very clearly not done this work. "The natural man is an enemy to god" is a very commonly quoted mormon scripture, it basically means that you should never trust anything you want or feel or think because it is evil. Which is to say, i think you are spot on about his inferiority complex/inability to trust his base wants along with his fear of both life and death and how they stem from his former beliefs. Even his horrific misogyny can easily be traced back to the church, where women are treated like property. He may have left mormonism, but oh boy did the mormonism not leave him. I feel so bad for Lena
@nataschavisser5733 ай бұрын
He started deconstructing from religion but stopped the process halfway. He still thinks in terms of purity and sin, the separation of human beings from nature and the rest of the animal kingdom and he still seeks salvation: to achieve some kind of perfection and eternal life. It is kind of sad.
@darkstarr9843 ай бұрын
I wonder where I actually got my belief that humans are a part of the world, and therefore inseparable from other animals, and I don’t believe immortality is possible whatsoever except in extremely technical terms about some cnidarians. I can’t understand why people believe otherwise, it’s just a fact that many do and personally I think it’s completely wrong, just like how someone deeply convinced that humans are somehow higher or other than animals are thoroughly convinced I must be wrong.
@kleinergrashupfer17 күн бұрын
I still deal with christian guilt, I'm also an ex-Mormon. It's very complex. And look, I've also been in therapy for years. 😢
@magenta_blues3 ай бұрын
Deconstructing from a specific religion doesn't always mean deconstructing from magical thinking. Great video!
@firetarrasque46673 ай бұрын
Leaving a specific religion doesn’t even always mean leaving *that religion.*
@cursedcat646717 күн бұрын
@@firetarrasque4667yeah I see SOOOO many of what one would call “hardcore reddit atheists” that were once Christian or Muslim or one of the other ones. Left. But still hold their views about gay people or women.
@Edmonddantes1233 ай бұрын
The midlife crises of delusional tech bros are going to destroy humanity. Truly the worst timeline
@VostokApollo2 ай бұрын
Trump moves his head at exactly the right moment and gets his ear grazed by a bullet. We are spiraling down the worst timeline tree. If things start getting better, I wish you well because I'm convinced that I'm doomed to lose all my coin flips.
@Gopnikawa2 ай бұрын
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@smilleur3 ай бұрын
Whats actually crazy to me is i am maybe 16 years younger than this guy and I will probably continue living years after he dies, and I will remember all this posturing, all these beliefs he has, and everything he had hoped for in his life. And I will remember him for a bit, and I think I will be sad.
@bananbanan65202 ай бұрын
No you probably won't
@smilleur2 ай бұрын
@@bananbanan6520 maybe you're right
@elvingearmasterirma72412 ай бұрын
@@smilleur Yes and no. Even if he lives longer than you. You will have lived more than him. You will have made more friends, seen more places, seen the sun more. Enjoyed more food, tried new food. Tried new things. Have had new experiences that change you physically and mentally. And your goals are likely much more reachable than his. Longer doesnt always mean fulfilling, yknow?
@Owesomasaurus3 ай бұрын
> From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me. I craved the strength and certainty of steel. I aspired to the purity of the Blessed Machine. Your kind cling to your flesh, as though it will not decay and fail you. One day the crude biomass you call a temple will wither, and you will beg my kind to save you. But I am already saved, for the Machine is immortal…
@Killjoy_Mel3 ай бұрын
Steel. The relatively brittle alloy that is highly susceptible to corrosion. Between flesh and steel, steel would do well to not forget that it is forged and used in fleshy hands, and it is flesh that keeps steel from corroding and crumbling into rust. Compare biomass and steel, and steel in comparison is about as crude and simple as it gets. Steel doesn't heal. Without constant care and maintenance, steel just rots away.
@stm78103 ай бұрын
@@Killjoy_Mel Yeah, but explaining nanotechnology, smart plastics etc isn't as cool a speech. the real silly part is brain replacement with cirtuitry of any kind, computers barely survive a decade.
@xBINARYGODx3 ай бұрын
@@stm7810 the first parts of your post dont align with the rest - if they have advanced blah blah blah then you dont need to worry about the computer parts going bad because age - you woule bio-like processes to maintain them.
@stm78103 ай бұрын
@@xBINARYGODx a modern smart phone is more advanced than the Nokia 3310, doesn't make it last longer.
@stm78103 ай бұрын
@@xBINARYGODx Whilst you can replace some things with smart materials and all that, there's nothing that gets close to the brain in our technology, what could possibly be 3pb of storage, a xetaflop of processing power, regenerative and run off of 20watts of energy.
@strangejune3 ай бұрын
Lily just tricked me into watching a nearly 90-minute video about being human and honestly I'm happy she did.
@mooo_cow3 ай бұрын
such a queen
@the_fressno3 ай бұрын
One of my favorite human beings, my uncle, an artist just like me, passed away last night. Today was his funeral. I cannot comprehend how someone like this guy would Isolate himself from the shared experience of grief, especially the communal creation of the good and bad of the departed. I hope nobody close to him dies abruptly and if it happens I hope that he will find his humanity again.
@picahudsoniaunflocked54263 ай бұрын
I'm sorry for your loss & grateful for the time + emotion you shared with your uncle.
@_sophies3 ай бұрын
As a programmer it drives me fucking nuts that people treat technology like magic, and that it's in large part because capitalists see it as good marketing
@picahudsoniaunflocked54263 ай бұрын
@hasanmuttaqin4643 ай бұрын
computer science IS the closest technology get to magic
@Dong_Harvey3 ай бұрын
@@hasanmuttaqin464notably, computer science is not a product of capitalism. Instead, Capitalists desperately try to apply said 'magic' into a money sucking device.
@hasanmuttaqin4643 ай бұрын
@@Dong_Harvey true, but unlike everything else where they just pad up something, capitalist just love conputer science to an unhealthy degree, this result in the birth of many tech millionares, which in turn drag the progress backward
@viktoryawoolf3 ай бұрын
@@hasanmuttaqin464 the next thing closest to whatever is still not the thing it's closest to. Why even bother commenting like that?
@HannahFortalezza3 ай бұрын
The part about how he treated his fiancé Taryn Southern… holy shit what a vile man. To be so unbelievably cruel to your partner when they’re dealing with cancer… just why?!
@adityakhanna1133 ай бұрын
TARYN SOUTHERN??? I used to follow her a long time ago. This is crazy
@neomaredi59223 ай бұрын
Archetypal narcissist. That was the big tell, such an aggrandised self.
@kleinergrashupfer17 күн бұрын
And it's worth noting that he left his ex-wife when he left the church so he could live his ridiculous life in peace
@ashtoncorsetti12273 ай бұрын
Ex-Mormon here. Not surprised that Bryan was raised in the church. Even when I started disagreeing with its fundamentals, the fear of no longer believing in God and getting sent straight to "Outer Darkness," where I would no longer be able to see my family again, stuck with me. If you came to know the gospel either by being born into the church or hearing it from missionaries, but later chose to reject Christ's teachings, then there would be no hope for you. You had you're one shot. Only those who never got the chance to learn about and convert to the LDS faith will be able to do so after death, when they're visited by missionaries in purgatory. It's no wonder why people who grew up in the church, faced with this ultimatum, would be so afraid of dying. Fortunately, my family and some of my neighbors were pretty lax about the church's instructions. My parents drank coffee and tea regularly and indulged in blue humor. In other households, a Dr. Pepper was the most amount of caffeine that they'd allow teenagers to have, but seeing the butt of a cartoon character would cross the line. It did make leaving the church somewhat easier for me than I assume other people, but that didn't make the stigma of enjoying life's many pleasures any less palpable. Thank you for the video!
@Userinterfaceexperience3 ай бұрын
You might enjoy the Cults to Consciousness podcast
@thearchitect8133 ай бұрын
I'm only 20 minutes in so far, and already, as a trans person, I can't help but recognize something in this guy's bizarre relationship with his own body, some kind of disconnect that he has to have with his own sense of self in order to be okay with reducing himself to numbers and powders and weirdass nihilist bs. I don't think he's literally trans of course, I just think it's interesting the way cis men can jump through all these hoops to justify their own existence to themselves because for them it's just easier to deny their emotions than accept that something is deeply wrong (regardless of if that Wrong Thing is that he's an egg or if he's just depressed). Idk, all of this to justify this joke: maybe the next chemical he should try is estrogen?
@blakcnagisa013 ай бұрын
exactly what i thought, and if not estrogen, maybe change your style?
@andre-cmyk3 ай бұрын
@@thearchitect813 but like... totally tho. it reminds me of trixie and katya reacting to "how to be a cult leader" and commenting on how one of the cult leaders was fully doing gender play with his injectables and style requirements for the cult some cis men (speaking from experience) are terrified to recognize that there's something wrong with manhood
@cool_bug_facts3 ай бұрын
@@thearchitect813 "maybe the next chemical he should try is estrogen?" You're never gonna believe this but he literally is taking estrogen
@the_newt_nest3 ай бұрын
I thought he already used estrogen gel for his skin. Gives him that Tilda Swinton look, which is really the best thing about his appearance.
@johnk67573 ай бұрын
Not wanting your body to fall apart and die is not gender dysphoria. Although sure you could call all of this "gender affirming care", with the idea of youth and vitality being so tied up in masculinity
@thylacoleonkennedy73 ай бұрын
No offense to Bryan but I don't think it's working since he kinda looks like the guy who got bitten in a zombie film and doesn't want to tell anybody
@popejaimie3 ай бұрын
He looks like the androids in the Alien movies
@picahudsoniaunflocked54263 ай бұрын
@@popejaimie I can see him doing the Ash thing with the magazine.
@aromata13 ай бұрын
If you look at from when he started blueprint to current day there's a significant improvement especially in his face
@VultureSkins2 ай бұрын
@@aromata1 how long ago was that? (/gen)
@elvingearmasterirma72412 ай бұрын
@@aromata1 Is there though? Is there?? Because he went from looking like someone healthy for his age to like he had his skin replaced with wax. He looks like if I touch him at all, he will crumble on the spot.
@paultreitel26613 ай бұрын
As a computer science guy, I'm sorry about this guy. As a philosophy guy, I'm sorry _for_ this guy. The urge to optimize, to be efficient, to get parts of life down to exactly what's necessary is one that I feel as well. It shows up in my life in small ways all the time. But I know that it's not really a Healthy Thing. It's very useful but it's hard to turn off and there are a lot of things that just can't be optimized and even more that shouldn't. Johnson is that on steroids and I apologize on behalf of the CS guys. But what I find really interesting psychologically and philosophically about Johnson is how he talks about consciousness and choice. It's very revealing says he's trying to run his life like an algorithm so that waking up and doing his routine is autopilot. He doesn't want to think, and not just in the sense of transcending the profane. He doesn't want to think because living with his own thoughts is absolutely terrifying and doing anything to avoid those thoughts is necessary. I know because it's how I act when I am deeply depressed. How I'm living right now. Anything except living in the moment. Mormonism might have directed his life path but I suspect it's the terror of death that has shaped _how_ he does it. Making himself a lab rat? "Algorithmizing" his life, collecting all of these statistics, constantly checking them, removing the need to choose what to do? It's just tech-speak for doing the same thing I do. The algorithm is just rules to unthinkingly follow. Turning everything into numbers and data is just a way to live in a numerical abstraction rather than your own experience. And that's an awful way to live. I really do feel bad for him that he feels like he needs to live like this. It's not really living.
@ChristopherSadlowski3 ай бұрын
You may, or may not I don't know, appreciate this comment, but personally I'm really tired of tech people referring to biology in broad computer terms. No, DNA is not a "programmable code". The brain in no way "functions just like a computer". Stuff like that. Not only is it untrue it cheapens what biology actually is and does. "Input" and "stimuli" are not the same thing. Sure, you can build computer systems that are gross simulacra of biological systems, but that system isn't "alive", not anywhere close to it. And I'm of the belief it will never be. This type of thinking also leads to absolutely bizarre conclusions that we see emerging in almost all companies. Users aren't "people" anymore, with all the mess that comes with that, but rather "agents" that can be funneled through The Algorithm™️. When you reach that level of abstraction, that level of dehumanization, you get things like Facebook having no problem causing massive damage, because they're not "hurting people"...they're "herding agents" in the most brutally efficient ways to make money off them. It's all so gross.
@alisonmercer59463 ай бұрын
@@ChristopherSadlowskiit's laughable that they think they are gonna be able to live forever in a few years.
@ishathakor3 ай бұрын
yeah, i'm depressed too and his emphasis on automating his life and avoiding thinking and avoiding "evening brian" just screams inability to deal with his feelings. this guy needs therapy, not to run his life like this. if anything, his entire routine is making his life worse. feeling like a lab rat doesn't cure depression. it just pushes the depression further down the road for you to deal with later.
@johnk67573 ай бұрын
I feel like there's too much judgement going on here. There are lots of ways to live and you have no idea if he is fulfilled or not. Also, a lot of people believe there is peace in routine and removing choice. He has taken it to an incredible extreme but it IS his life after all. The idea being that you free up your cognitive energy for other things when you don't have to choose e.g. what to eat or wear. And I'm sure his mind is plenty busy with other things.. he's a billionaire
@calebbridges47483 ай бұрын
I find it funny how often folks that have delved into very logical or optimizing processes (mathematics, CS, often science) find a certain need to pull back from that tendency. I wonder if there's a similarity to a martial artist knowing peace or conflict avoidance. I have a lot of black and white thinking that studying maths helped me channel into a good outlet. It helped me not be that in my daily life by showing me where such thinking was more appropriate. Your comment got me thinking about how discipline can soften our views. Maybe as a philosophy guy you can understand or say what I'm getting at here better, but I appreciate reading your comment.
@occnie3 ай бұрын
death is not antagonistic to life, but rather a mechanism thereof-bryan's body "wants to become dirt", which is of course a continuation of the messy, complex, and evolving material condition of profane life. this is the source of bryan's aversion to death, which is that he hates Life, he hates pleasure, he hates his ex-fiancee, he probably hates his kids, and as such seeks an undeath, a death-outside-of-life, a total inertness, a Total Death like plastic, or like cancer. the death of actual living bodies is his greatest enemy for this reason; death forces us to be something else, death forces us to unpredictable nonreproductive futures, death forces us to keep being life beautiful video, thank you for committing to the project of life
@iosefka77743 ай бұрын
Actually, I think people are averse to death because it is deeply unfortunate to be dead. You do not need to mysticise this.
@stm78103 ай бұрын
This comment screams cope. if you like death so much nobody is stopping you from experiencing it. this guy sucks for being a millionaire who abuses people whilst reinforcing hierarchy. wanting to live is good actually.
@occnie3 ай бұрын
@@stm7810 nowhere did i say that death is _morally good_ (at least not without a context for it). i actually don't want to die anytime soon if i can help it. not particularly because i love being _alive_ (though I do) but because i love being _myself_ . i love my projects and ambitions and memories, which are the actual things death ends, in giving space to other possible projects/ambitions/memories. it's just that death of "a life" is not the same thing as the end of the conditions of life. bryan johnson is, yes, a millionaire who abuses people and reinforces hierarchy. but he also is a man who *Hates Life* as revealed by his _particular_ aversion to death. these two notions are unsurprisingly very intertwined and not mutually exclusive at all. lastly, as i mentioned, at least one person is stopping me from experiencing death and that person is me. you should consider if you mean what you say, that wanting to live is good, when you insinuate that i ought to kill myself. to which ethics of Life are you holding yourself to?
@stm78103 ай бұрын
@@occnie bodily autonomy is good which includes chosing how long you live and in what form. I wasn't encouraging or discouraging your choice to end it all since that's for you and only you to choose. eternal youth would be a pretty sweet deal in an anarchist world people chosing their lives. we're a plural sustem so want at least a few thousand years.
@occnie3 ай бұрын
@@stm7810 i hear what you're saying, i'm very familiar with the political value of "bodily autonomy" as a trans person. i have a couple points of complication that might be interesting to think along 1. i think the body is a far more contestable territory than we would like to admit. "only for me to choose" what happens to it-but then there are political demands at stake, right? if i am to take hormones, or to get an abortion, or a surgery, *somebody* has to provide these services for me. if i am to eat, there must be some other organism that i am willing to kill and consume, because i am heterotrophic. already upon being born the body is a contested space-and every moment you inhabit a space, or drink water, or eat something, is a moment that "autonomy" is *not granted* to others. the question of bodily autonomy also has odd standing for disability, as it implies in the "auto" a very individualistic approach to the powers and limits of the will-we especially see this hitch when it comes to the "autonomy" of people with intellectual disabilities... just in being alive we are in a broad contact with the world, constantly in encounter with other beings, and not always without violence, but moreover, not always without _vulnerability_ .... and again, this intersects in a funny way with the mind-there is no mind-body dualism, so the question is to what extent we can have "autonomy" over our own minds, what we view as violences, etc... there is no uncomplicated universality to bodily autonomy, without retreat into the least productive kind of utopianism. i'd even argue bodily autonomy is a sign that only has meaning in the negative sense of _body horror_ -access to abortion is _bodily autonomy_ only in the sense that lack of access to abortion is _body horror_ . 2. i think while the discussion of the "right" to bodily autonomy can be a very valuable tool, we have to understand "rights" themselves as attempts to essentialize what they actually are: Demands. when you or i say "i choose when i die" we actually make a political demand that that choice be ours, and all the powers of making it so be ours, regardless of the desires of others. which Bryan Johnson also makes as a demand-but then one wonders whose demands are unheard that provide him his healthcare, his wealth, his food... the ethics of the situation is less directly inscribed in the body itself, but more in the relational power dynamics and allegiances involved in the _project_ of living forever... instead of focusing on bodily autonomy as a positive universal, we could engage with Jasbir Puar's concept of "debility", which describes oppressive power structures that write limits of power into the body. examples might be war zones that produce bodies without limbs; my inability to acquire hormones at my own pace (why not at the grocery store!) because the state-medical complex _specifically disempowers me_ so; the immobility forced upon Palestinian subjects by the Israeli occupation. 3. maybe a bit more esoteric, but, following from my points in previous comments, i would argue that to alive forever is not quite to be *oneself* living forever-even if you manage to live for a thousand, two thousand, three thousand years, its entirely possible that your politics, desires, ambitions, identity, would all change, as would the field of the world upon which identities and projects are formed at all. at which point we wonder what the being living forever even _is_ -i might argue that the only constant would be the Human Shape of the body, or the imagining of the body as human at all. whether or not we value that depends on one's stance on humanism or anthropocentrism. i'm not going to keep writing essays in youtube comment sections (i do it _autonomously_ to help myself think along concepts, really!) but i recommend reading _Staying with the Trouble_ by Donna Haraway to counter humanist valuations of the body; _Brilliant Imperfections_ by Eli Clare, for a really interesting work in disability justice engaging critically with the concept of cure; Jaspir Puar's _The Right to Maim_ in which the concept of debility is really fleshed out; and _The Vegetarian_ by Han Kang, which is a short novel about a woman who wants to become more plantlike (i.e. autotrophic). my reading of johnson here is of course brief and rudimentary but draws from deleuzian understandings of thanatos and eros vs a fascist-paranoid death drive. cheers
@aeaiee73263 ай бұрын
wearing my "don't die" {t-shirt} to a mental hospital
@ResplendentTrash3 ай бұрын
This dude is trying to invent The Borg. He is literally just imagining The Borg.
@msmaria5039Ай бұрын
So, he's trying to create the Star Trek future?
@Shiftyspace3 ай бұрын
“I believe in taking care of myself and a balanced diet and rigorous exercise routine. In the morning, if my face is a little puffy, I’ll put on an ice pack while doing stomach crunches. I can do 1,000 now. After I remove the ice pack, I use a deep pore cleanser lotion. In the shower I use a water-activated gel cleanser, then a honey almond body scrub, and on the face, an exfoliating gel scrub. Then I apply an herb-mint facial mask which I leave on for 10 minutes while I prepare the rest of my routine. I always use an after shave lotion with little or no alcohol, because alcohol dries your face out and makes you look older. Then moisturizer, then an anti-aging eye balm, followed by a final moisturizing protective lotion.” -Bryan Johnson … probably
@chameleonh3 ай бұрын
I wanted to ask if this isn't similar to American Psycho, then thought it might be, then realize it is, and damn what a true comparison. We are the hollow men We are the stuffed men Leaning together headpiece filled with straw. Alas! Our dried voices When we whisper together Are quiet and meaningless As wind in dry grass Or rat's feet over broken glass In our dry cellar
@MichieYeo10 күн бұрын
Exact thought I had watching his morning routine. I wonder if he compares business cards, too.
@Neptunia983 ай бұрын
I am really grateful for this video. Without getting too deep into it, because I want to be mindful about revealing his identity, I've gotten to know a man recently in a professional context who believes he's never going to die. He thinks that AI is going to save all of humanity from all of their problems, and stop death in its tracks, and he just needs to hold out for 5-10 more years. He's deep in the tech landscape and is surrounded by people who all believe this to be true. I've had hours and hours of conversation with him, and it's made me feel absolutely insane. It's so clear to me that he is deeply afraid of dying and unwilling to engage with it. He's a hardcore "atheist," but he's essentially developed a messiah figure (AGI) that's going to right humanity's wrongs and save him from suffering. It's baffling, and a bit scary. I'm grateful to see someone else go down the rabbit hole into this ideology so I can think about it all more clearly.
@nathanielsaxe30493 ай бұрын
I think it makes a lot of sense from a utilitarian perspective to try to defeat death with technology. it seems like people by and large don’t want to die, or want to go out on their own terms, and the acceptance of death, while a fundamental part of the human experience up to this point, is sort of a cultural coping mechanism to deal with the fact that we don’t have the means to extend a life as long as we want. That said, anybody in this day and age who is genuinely using that remote possibility of a technological escape from death as a way to avoid the hard process of accepting their own I feel sorry for. I don’t think it’s theoretically impossible to find and reverse mechanisms for aging, I just think there are so many of them and they are so deeply baked into biology we have no idea how to influence that we are nowhere close. I don’t think it’s impossible to create a human-like artificial intelligence, but I do think it’s basically impossible to take a flesh and blood human brain and simulate it with enough detail that it will effectively be a digital recreation of that person. the obstacle is the precision of measurement, not the difficulty of simulation (the digital brain can take as long as it wants to model the original human brain, and we’d just perceive at a different time scale)
@johnk67573 ай бұрын
Hmm. I am not entirely dissimilar to that person. I am an atheist and afraid of death (these seem like inescapable and obvious conclusions.. there's obviously no god and death is scary). I do think about "the singularity" a lot, but I try to be self-aware because I have read a lot of scifi and work in machine learning so obviously, these are things I'm going to be heavily biased towards. Even accounting for this I do think AI is the biggest existential threat to mankind. But I don't think it automatically happens the right way, and I don't think I am automatically saved if it happens. Though some small part of my brain hopes for it - only because it's the only plausible way I could be saved in a meaningful sense. It's more of a hail mary than the inevitable glorious future. But I don't think it's baffling, or scary. It's a kind of natural evolution of the extremely normal human tendency to magical thinking and seeking for greater meaning and life after death. I certainly don't think it's baffling or scary when my mom talks about jesus (even though the idea that the judeo christian god could be real is absurd to me). At the end of the day it very well might just be a nerd religion but.. can't we just have it?
@ohno63253 ай бұрын
@@johnk6757 agree
@Killjoy_Mel3 ай бұрын
@@johnk6757 Why is death scary? Every time you go to a dreamless sleep you briefly dip into something that death most likely feels like. What are you afraid of? The 'nothing'? And the philosopher Seneca asked: does your non-existence before your birth scare you? Do you remember any suffering? No, you don't. You don't feel any kind of way about it, even though you're aware of lives being lived before you were even there. Are you sad for missing out? Death is the same. You return to the perfectly neutral non-existence. Being dead won't hurt, and life around you will keep on going just like it did before you were born. Some fear is warranted, all biological matter tries to survive, but as a species who is capable of thinking abstractly about existence, when you truly think about life and death, then death really isn't any more scary than the act of being born or the act of living. 'Death is scary' you say. I ask again, does the time before your birth fill you with dread? Does dreamless sleep? You didn't know you were going to be born, and whilst sleeping, you don't know you're guaranteed to wake up. So what's so scary about death? You'll be gone, there won't be a 'you' to have to worry about missing out on the world.
@admiralfrancis84243 ай бұрын
@@Killjoy_Mel What an incredibly terrible argument. Death is the absence of experiences I want to enjoy. I want to enjoy as many experiences as possible, ergo I want to delay death as much as possible.
@chonkochonkaboo63523 ай бұрын
the moment where he was weighing himself reminded me so much of myself when ana was in the drivers seat. i hope he lives his life instead of missing out on it.
@ashcar69033 ай бұрын
1:24:24 okay I have so many comments on this vid but as a person that loves creating the photorealistic eyes, the beauty is also in the experience of drawing. It just feels good to make the thing. Like yeah I *could* add an interpretation, but I don't feel like I need to. The thing is already enough for me.
@duncanluciak55163 ай бұрын
Artistic expression should not have to rest on mastery. I'm not showing my paintings at a gallery, but they do the trick for a spot on the wall, and the doing is fun.
@EricaCalman3 ай бұрын
I'm not sure how a collection of businesses based on consumer electronics and internet commerce managed to label themselves as "tech" as if that represents even a large slice, let alone a majority of technological advancement.
@EzaleaGraves3 ай бұрын
"You should invest in biotech now because it's as smart as investing in microsoft in the 70s" Y'all. Get your analogy straight. Investing in a random biotech company would be like investing in a random "tech company" in the 70s. Even assuming it is going to be the next big thing, there's a good chance you ain't picking Microsoft 2
@willtubman6663 ай бұрын
Quality of life is always more important than length.
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
Been doing a routine similar to His and my quality of life has probably tripled soooooo I think he might have that down too 😅
@KateeAngel3 ай бұрын
@@maddiekits just eat healthy and exercise. Strange I didn't need a rich dude to tell me that to know that will improve my health
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
@@KateeAngel Sure that is a great idea for most people, but a more specialized regime is the only thing that has helped my chronic health conditions even though I was already doing the normal stuff :3
@Tribophopic2 ай бұрын
Tell my ex that HA!
@qrywtr3 ай бұрын
When ur bouta go to bed but lily dropped 45 seconds ago
@Runic1823 ай бұрын
That exact same thing happened to me
@Yogaismehh3 ай бұрын
@@qrywtr that’s exactly what happened to me
@amandacarter2913 ай бұрын
I watched several interviews with him and read the extensive content from his blueprint website. The comments from people on many videos featuring him are all very rich with praise, but I was just left disturbed by how out of touch he seemed to be with his own multifaceted mental illness. I saw a madman who was scared of the notion of death more than anyone I'd ever seen, driven by fear and anxiety, constantly searching for some elixir of life like a crazed person; intensely focused on trying to replicate his son's looks, odd posts of him boasting about how he's in the top x percentile of strength or youth similar to that of young boys, getting facials and treatments to look like some androgynous half man half woman half teen half old guy, hyper focused on isolating himself and getting rid of even the slightest "imperfection," clearly showing his unrest and inability to make peace with an imperfect world; he seemed absolutely unhinged. Him posing shirtless with his shirtless son all over his website left me feeling ick like he was a man refusing to give up youth gracefully, and in the midst of a mid life crisis except with a bunch of money and wacked out mind.
@nataliawalicht99273 ай бұрын
"removing me from myself is the best thing i ever done" is so heartbreaking
@OldLadyMapleSeed3 ай бұрын
Saw that clown when the video started and my cave girl brain went “omg Lily girl what HAPPENED to you?” I think I need to go to bed. Great video, glad you haven’t turned into a ghostly self-loathing, blue-light emanating right-angled ghoul.
@a.lferry61853 ай бұрын
Bryan has so clearly never even tried to engage with anything other than generating or accumulating capital. Like surely if you were going to live forever you would want to take some pottery classes or like learn to knit or something. Instead he wants to spend eternity doing bizarre masochistic routines and trials that help nobody but himself and to me that seems fucking miserable. It's being alive without living. It's cowardly. *Also side note, if I were in 'After Life' the memory I would chose to take with me is the time my friend and I took our dogs to the local creek after a major flood when we were both 9 or 10 without telling either of our parents and trying to cross it to go exploring on the other bank. Except my friend let go of her crusty little white dog about half way across and had to recuse him but in the process lost her shoe and so we spent 45 minutes trying to rescue her shoe from a fast-moving flooded creek because she refused to walk back home without it. And then once we finally found her shoe and headed back to our respective houses, my mum spotted us in front of the local milk bar and bailed us both up because she thought we'd gone missing/been kidnapped because we hadn't told anyone where we were going or for how long and had been about to call the police (this was around 2011/2012 and most 9-10 year olds didn't have phones - certainly not anyone I knew did). I have no clue why this memory in particular is the one I would want to carry around forever but it is.
@lily_lxndr3 ай бұрын
Amazing choice of memory! And I think it would make a great movie, which helps
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
He actually does spend a decent amount of time on other hobbies, his longevity stuff is just his 'new work' in a way.
@nondescriptname3 ай бұрын
I would definitely sum up my reaction to this man's existence and choices as disgust, particularly in his treatment of Lena. The demand for legal fees after already having successfully destroyed her life is perhaps one of the most callous actions I have ever had described to me. There is a derangement here which falls outside my capacity for description. To hold in contempt all joy and compassion; to waste monumental discipline in a petty effort to shill supplements. I can hardly imagine a more pointless existence. That, perhaps, is the problem: he has to survive because it is all that he has. The body must continue because there is nothing inside of it.
@swagathachristie52423 ай бұрын
I dunno, it feels kind of in character for him, at least to me. I’ve definitely heard of similar threats made during divorces or nasty mergers but I don’t think I’ve seen someone go thru with it. It speaks to the level of self hatred i guess. Since bullying comes from self hatred and bigotry being externalized, it makes sense that a man who so obviously is obsessed with running from himself and his inadequacies would absolutely obliterate people in their way and laugh about it. (I also never considered that those people who are that cruel to wring a human being dry and laugh at their earnest trust probably think of their own bodies the same way they treated mine. Small comfort at least)
@nondescriptname3 ай бұрын
@@swagathachristie5242 I don't find it confusing. I was only remarking on how utterly contemptible an existence it is. Usually even in horrible people I can discover some redeeming quality: a deep curiosity, an odd passion, a spark of the human spirit. In this man there is simply nothing to latch onto. He has placed himself firmly beyond the ability to be connected with in any meaningful sense. He got his wish; I can no longer see him as a person.
@werewolfwebsite3 ай бұрын
the stuff he eats for breakfast looks like what my friend had to give her guinea pig when she (the guinea pig) got too old and her teeth too worn down to properly chew normal guinea pig food.
@WhichDoctor13 ай бұрын
"From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me. I craved the strength and certainty of steel. I aspired to the purity of the Blessed Machine."
@smily17173 ай бұрын
i really resonated with feeling like people like johnson are stealing my, our lives. so many tragedies in the world could be reversed but money is spent on stupid tech start ups. also im sorry about the fires last year, that was awful.
@airplanes_aren.t_real3 ай бұрын
I'm often reminded of a scene in chainsaw man(spoilers) where the president of the united states makes a deal with the gun devil for him to kill makima in exchange for 1 year of every American, the idea that millions of people had their lives cut short by the same man that claimed he would protect them only for him to use that trust to further his own gains at their loss is horrifying
@bananbanan65202 ай бұрын
Are you actually stupid?
@sammieslaterjr.89823 ай бұрын
The 40 seconds from 1:20:10 on describes my episodes where I "want to die" the most so accurately it's insane. It's not about wanting to die, it's about wanting something that isn't *this* so much that your mind just can't take it and you just... fall and detach. "A desire for life so extreme and overcome by a fear of loss that it locks itself away"' is probably the best way I've ever heard this be articulated.
@syn0101103 ай бұрын
oh look AI bros fundamentally misunderstanding what neural nets and machine learning is and can do lmao
@therealOXOC3 ай бұрын
explain
@reptileassassin76603 ай бұрын
I feel ya. As someone who works with the stuff it drives me insane seeing tech bros conflate science fiction with reality.
@reptileassassin76603 ай бұрын
@@therealOXOC machine learning (in its current most popular form) pumps out results based on the dataset it is trained on. It can’t miraculously manifest immortality. Machine learning is a scalpel. It can do something specific inhumanly well, but the second you try to make it do something it isn’t trained on, it falls apart. Machine learning is great for robotics, manufacturing, data processing and retrieval, etc. Not so good for creative solutions.
@neyte73133 ай бұрын
@@therealOXOC neural nets are mathematical functions that process the training dataset and return the closest answer to your input based on previous outputs. It cannot accomplish anything brand new
@therealOXOC3 ай бұрын
@@neyte7313 lol sounds like most humans
@grayventras12353 ай бұрын
A chillingly accurate and amazing breakdown of how Mormon beliefs feed into what this guy is doing - even some things I didn't think of while hearing people talk about him, and I was raised a Provo-born Mormon. Great work as always ~
@AaronMartinColbyАй бұрын
Congrats!
@anthysis70593 ай бұрын
god thank you for explaining what's up with this guy because i've seen people talk about Bryan online for a while but i've been too frightened of him to further investigate
@nanothrill71713 ай бұрын
i've always thought he looked like a Wayland-Yutani replicant. I totally buy that it's intentional.
@mortis36533 ай бұрын
I grew up Mormon and “capitalism as religion” sorta perfectly describes the church
@patrickday42063 ай бұрын
Yeah
@this.is.spencer3 ай бұрын
I grew up mormon and left in my early 20s (7+ years ago) after having done the mission, the temple marriage, going to BYU (I actually graduated after leaving while pretending to still believe. It was awkward being there, but tuition is super cheap for members). A few months after leaving the whole "I don't know what my life's purpose is and also death is terrifying" thing came crashing in on me. I was completely paralyzed by existential dread. Every night I couldn't fall asleep because I was terrified to be alone with my thoughts, so instead I would just watch TV until I passed out. This went on for weeks I was really having a time of it until eventually I moved on past it. Later I would find different strategies and philosophies to help me accept death and cope with the knowledge. All this to say, I understand the deep-seated fear that fills in the gap where belief in eternal life has gone away, it can be crippling. That said I've also seen a lot of people work though it and of all of them, this guy found the least (emotionally) healthy way to cope.
@elejelly39863 ай бұрын
I just wanted to comment that beyond the high quality writing this video essay has, I just deeply love this last montage of you walking through a park. It's something I've done before, as a way to capture the essential magic of just ... existing and feeling the world. But those videos takes storage and I thought nobody would be interested by such trivial content. Seeing you doing this is comforting. It is proof that the love of existence and the acute knowledge that it is ephemeral, gone in a fleeting moment you already can't remember the details of, is universal. I also want to thank you for the truly humanist video you brought on this pale blue dot, and wish you a nice day.
@ajplays-gamesandmusic45683 ай бұрын
I honestly hope BJ lives to 200, and a reporter asks him if it was all worth it, and he comes to the conclusion that it was not worth all he went through to live that long.
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
His routine isn't actually very time consuming, if anything he might just regret the testing part at worst
@timrosswood42593 ай бұрын
@@broccoli-dev Bryan hurt people, he's a nasty creature and so are you for excusing and defending him.
@tophatv29023 ай бұрын
@@maddiekits Yeah like who cares that this guys eats sleeps and exercises well? This whole video is just cope
@patrickday42063 ай бұрын
Blow jobs to 200 ehh
@tophatv29023 ай бұрын
@@patrickday4206 LMAO
@taylregene3 ай бұрын
The "ozempic-like intervention" he's talking about for opening minds exists. Psychedelics lol
@lily_lxndr3 ай бұрын
oh yeah, there's a very good chance that's what he's talking about. he has a tattoo of the 5-MeO-DMT molecule LOL
@lily_lxndr3 ай бұрын
unfortunately it didn't help
@taylregene3 ай бұрын
@@lily_lxndr 💀no amount of psychedelics can fix tech bro brainrot
@duncanluciak55163 ай бұрын
Unfortunately, they're working to eliminate the possibility of a bad trip -no need to confront one's shadow self (Evening Brian)
@yeetme39403 ай бұрын
@@duncanluciak5516😂
@lilalulaberry3 ай бұрын
MORMONISM JUMPSCARE LMFAO NO WAY I CANT ESCAPE IT
@Necrophyllis.3 ай бұрын
I get church of Mormon ads on half my KZbin videos these days lol
@amla22632 ай бұрын
@@Necrophyllis. I get the Scientology piano class grifter ads all the time, but no LDS so far
@emblarovardotter2 ай бұрын
When I was deeply depressed and psychotic I too thought I had no human needs and needed nothing but to follow a strict inhuman routine. (But I'm poor so I was institutionalized (and it helped, I'm better now))
@dannymarie3 ай бұрын
The way I, an ex mormon with no prior context, clocked this man as mormon is magical
@nobody42483 ай бұрын
"Instead of hiding in a shell Why make your life a living hell? So do the toast, gulp down the cup And drink to bones that turn to dust" -No One Lives Forever by Oingo Boingo
@jasminv86533 ай бұрын
16:49 he may have left the church but the church certainly didn't leave him. still in search of god in a pretty fucked up way.
@duncanluciak55163 ай бұрын
I've got a friend who claims to be free from the Catholic Church, but now it's all about Bitcoin.
@InvasionAnimation3 ай бұрын
lol If ai gets that smart, what makes billionaires think it will care about us. Do we care about every single ant? The best an ant can hope for is a human to not see them as a pest and or be put in an ant farm with no foraging, building, or entertainment. We can expect the same.
@stm78103 ай бұрын
as a vegan, yes I do care about all the ants, I'd love for them to be happy. billionaires though, don't care for them. more ants would be happy if they got to eat billionaires.
@snusnu393 ай бұрын
@@stm7810 Do you care about the microbes you kill when you use soap?
@somekindofdude11302 ай бұрын
He calls it an algorithm cause it is an algorithm. It wasn't always a tech term, it was meant to describe a set of instructions in hierarchical order. I cannot imagine anything more like an algorithm than the blue print protocol
@VultureSkins2 ай бұрын
She literally says that IN the video
@balaclavabob0012 күн бұрын
That guy isn't going to live any longer than most people but it to him it's sure going to feel like it ...
@kerycktotebag81643 ай бұрын
Lily's description of being pushed out of everyday life leading to a kind of avoidance, stemming from an immense will to live thwarted by deep sense of loss... ... it actually syncs up really well w/ a theory of melancholic depression that says it's a deep creativity where you (i might say im included in this 'you' as a disabled, autistic, multiply queer person) sense a loss so all-encompassing that all your creativity goes towards creative ways to mourn something that can't ever be fully mourned. I think that might be where I'm headed, but i wonder if there's a way to accept "Shit Life Syndrome" without blaming myself for it :( At least I'm not Bryan.
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
He seems pretty happy and genuine in person, he just has a over curated media image like many people in this class do tbh
@subrosian7443 ай бұрын
@@kerycktotebag8164 what theory is this? :O
@liamannegarner80833 ай бұрын
Queer, autistic, and multiply disabled, plus "spent my teenage years trying to cure my lingering christian trauma with an unverifiably optimistic faith in science to solve this fallen world." This whole thing made me feel seen - all my art is traumatic in ways I'm just now uncovering.
@jasminv86533 ай бұрын
The level of ortorexia this guy has reached is honestly one that feels impossible. But he's rich enough to do anything to himself, and mormon enough that his closest will not be intervening.
@xuan54693 ай бұрын
OMG this is exactly what i was thinking. this is orthorexia on absolutely epic proportions
@Kindertautenleider3 ай бұрын
he looks pre-aged
@kristinapratt89832 ай бұрын
One critique - they call such rules for decision making in medical clinical practice "algorithms". They have "algorithms" for how to go about treating specific conditions based on the patient's risk and other factors. It seems more like he's using that language to appear more legitimate in terms of medical lingo than comparing himself to a computer algorithm.
@mitchellsteindlerАй бұрын
@kristinapratt8983 no, that would counteract a single iota of judgement from this group, so it can't be correct.
@astrobat57582 ай бұрын
22:13 he doesn’t realize that “die eventually” is the ACTUAL most played game, right??? More people have died than people who haven’t???
@ItWasSaucerShaped3 ай бұрын
'imagine if you'd invested in microsoft' 'okay. imagine if you'd invested in commodore, since there was no reason at the time to prefer one company over the other'
@neckpeck27383 ай бұрын
The amount of (self-)contempt he seems to have for himself at the mere thought of eating a cookie... All this talk of utilitarianism, becoming superhuman and seeking enlightenment is a pretty translucent justification for a severe eating disorder.
@lyndonwesthaven66233 ай бұрын
My indirect pop culture exposure to Brian Johnson as the weird tech bro vampire didn't prepare me for how melancholy this deep dive was going to make me feel. Not because I feel intensely sorry for him so much as he just seems like the most extreme version of these bits of denial and fear and self loathing that pretty much everybody carries around, you know? He has all these resources, and that just gave him infinite leeway to cater to the destructive parts of himself
@Mosstrades3 ай бұрын
i mean this facetiously but. what actually happened is that unlike most of us, he had infinite money, so he could choose to double down and simply reify ocd into a career. it's *buckwild.*
@bodycornflower3 ай бұрын
i didnt expect this essay to get so.. existential. It's one of your best videos already imo
@vlogbrothers3 ай бұрын
1:24:49 why did this make me cry?!
@lily_lxndr3 ай бұрын
it was my plan all along 😈
@lily_lxndr3 ай бұрын
I have to say I’ve been a fan since I was 13, this has kind of made my week! (Can I ask if this is Hank, John, or Dave?)
@gizatsby3 ай бұрын
@@lily_lxndr Some part of me figured you're probably a nerdfighter. This crossover is really nice to see
@Cheshirekat.3 ай бұрын
this was the best video on this guy. the numerous axioms you bring up are rock solid and somehow also blatantly, beautifully human.
@portugeese_man_o_war3 ай бұрын
The virgin don't die fan vs the chad live enjoyer
@mikubrot3 ай бұрын
I don't think that these people get that a long life that isn't fun or interesting just isnt appealing to a lot of people. I'm here for a good time, not a long time, yknow?
@maddiekits3 ай бұрын
He doesn't actually spend that much time on his routine tbh, its kinda exaggerated, plenry of time to still do fun stuff 😊
@rodrigo76023 ай бұрын
24:00, he would say otherwise
@alexmendenhall54163 ай бұрын
such a retarded mindset
@fa-q-62262 ай бұрын
@@mikubrot people will say this and then avoid dying or going to the doctor instead of accepting death the first time they got a flu
@TheSeptet5 күн бұрын
@@fa-q-6226 oh shut up. "Death is inevitable." "Yet you don't lie down and die after a paper cut. Curious..."
@michaelstevenson50443 ай бұрын
As someone who actually knows how tech works, I feel that it's insane for tech to be viewed as anything above a tool, and for art and humanities to be so belittled
@KateeAngel3 ай бұрын
The worst of all they belittle human mind as a whole and worship computers and AI. That is why there are some tech bros obsessed with uploading themselves into a computer or think that AI will save us from everything. While actual neurobiology shows that animal (including human) brains work very differently from computers. And they totally ignore much of natural sciences and physical reality, hence belief in things like technological singularity, which is based on an idea of endless exponential growth of computing technology
@Killjoy_Mel3 ай бұрын
Precisely. Tech is a tool for philosophy. Tech and science are applied philosophy, without humanities, tech and science alone serve no meaning, no purpose, it's just machinery. I wish people in science and techs would not dismiss humanities so readily, as humanities are the foundation of why we go above and beyond in the first place. Foundation, language, commentary, and the end goal. Tech is just the tool to get there, so there's no reason for such resentment between the disciplines. It's like thinking that the mind and the body are separate. They are not. There is no mind without the body, and the body without the mind is just a sack of flesh.
@MS-wh7ec3 ай бұрын
This was the best video I have watched in a really really long time. Hugely moving.
@StreetSpirit1353 ай бұрын
One time i was getting to know a guy and i asked him about his favorite something, i don't remember if it was food or music, he said "i'm against having favorites, i don't attach myself like that" That's the type of guy i think he was
@mudkip_btw3 ай бұрын
I have to deal with the occasional tech junkie for my PhD work but this guy is on another level😭😭😭
@ollie47163 ай бұрын
bryan johnson's belief that a gen intelligence AI would immediately try to make humans live forever is honestly hilarious to me. putting aside all the biases that humans program into AI, a true singularity or actual general artificial intelligence would probably see humans as the source of most of the problems happening on earth, and turn us all into manure, or scrap our bodies for the iron in our blood. can't remember if it was david chalmers or bertrand russel who argued that future AI would be more likely to do this, it's been a few years since i wrote abt it for philosophy, but just. tech bros take literally any humanities 101 course challenge: impossible mode.
@stm78103 ай бұрын
you contain less iron in your whole body than 1 screw, billionaires cause harm not all humans and if people like Tesla Einstein and Kropotkin are an indication a better understanding of the world comes with compassion, with Tesla being Vegan.
@dhooth3 ай бұрын
hearing this guy's day to day life brings me back to my ocd episodes
@ceres8002 ай бұрын
I’ve been waiting for somebody to do a video essay on Bryan for a while - and to say you knocked it out of the park would be an understatement. It made me reflect on life: even if there is nothing after this and everything is forgotten about who we are one day. It all matters. It matters because I love my friends, I love my family and all of the mundane things that come with living. This is what makes life so beautiful. Thank you for the reminder.