Rediscovering Life's Purpose (Light in the Dark) Psych2Go's Stories

What is your purpose? Depression creeps up on you. It might be slow, at first, but when it hits you, it chokes you until you cannot breathe. Strange, really, how it felt like just moments ago I was fine, and now, I feel like I am drowning. But depression doesn’t always come slow. No, it can crash upon you like a wave when you’re least expecting it....
This video is part of our Psych2Go's stories series where we bring to you relatable stories to mental health to help you discover insights that could be useful in your journey. We believe that stories are powerful ways to relate, and solve a problem. If you support this ideology, you can check out our stories playlist here: • The Mind of a Narcissi...
Writer: Anjani
Voice Over: Amanda Silvera ( / amandasilvera )
Animator: Kiara Ledesma
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[@Psych2go]

Thanks for the support with this video. Can you guys help suggest a title that would resonate with more people? We feel this video could reach out to more people.

[@Butterflyknife9050]

I dont know where i would be without phych2go.. i am truly grateful for this channel.

[@unknown11215]

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[@A55a551n]

Same here

[@keiron.4612]

Probably to bed like me Lol

[@stms265]

Yep same here 😊

[@bratzxrose]

Same ❤

[@naektoneko2664]

I remember when depression first hit me.. I believe I knew the cause.. but until now I never realized it.. it was loneliness but that feeling of loneliness hit when my grandma passed away.. I went down a dark path for 7 years I drowned in the darkness. After absolute hell and absolute torture mentally I've finally been fighting back.. I've been correcting my path.. I went through so much pain so for all those struggling. It may take a very long time to be happy again but you WILL find the light. Just remember never give up ❤. Thank you everyone for listening.

[@kaylieghskorner9650]

Your awesome!!! Your so strong! You’ve gone through so much, but you still did it! And I want you to know I'm so proud of you!! ❤❤❤❤❤

[@Q-Playz1]

You go, whoever you are!

[@Psych2go]

Thank you for sharing your struggle with us. How did you move away from the "dark path" after being in it for 7 years?

[@naektoneko2664]

@@Psych2go well I hit rock bottom I was drinking and smoking and I was unmotivated. I thought "this was the end, I should just give up" but instead of giving up I did the opposite, I started pushing myself.. it started little by little I looked at people in the face instead of staring at the ground. Then I started doing what I love and cut my hair and shaved my beard. But the biggest inspiration was the people who cared about me. It's been a bumpy few months but I feel myself getting better. Seeing things differently and going on walks. The truth is that in order to get out of the dark you must find a source of light. Be it your friends, family, lover, or just doing what you enjoy most. Sometimes it's good to go to therapy and talk to someone because almost always what you talk about is strictly confidential. So that's my lesson, no matter how dark things are you can always find a light.

[@gentlenoob2576]

@@naektoneko2664when I hit rock button I had these 2 habits that controlled my life for 3 long years but when it finally got worse that’s when I realized that if I didn’t stop I would be ruined one of the habits still haunt me to this very day but logic is the only thing keeping me going

[@Zextranet]

This hits REAL HARD

[@FEESHYRBLX]

heya

[@feliciatran5667]

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[@unknown11215]

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[@lukasjetu9776]

yeah

[@Psych2go]

@Zextranet which part?

[@HardCodedGaming]

Thank you for highlighting how "bumpy" recovery can be. I know first-hand. It's tough enough seeking out help in the first place, but having that first big setback afterwards can be devastating. You risk going from thinking "I need help" to "I'm beyond help." But that's only true if you let it be. My love to everyone struggling right now. I wish I could help you all more directly, but I hope my solidarity is just a little comfort.

[@Psych2go]

Thank you for sharing your personal experience and for encouraging others through your comment. When did you decide that enough was enough and admit that you needed help?

[@alexlamia9946]

This is exactly how I’ve been feeling. It’s nice to know that I’m not alone.

[@kc5557]

Sending love and support to those going through a hard time! 🤗

[@Psych2go]

Aww that's very kind. We wish you the best as well! :)

[@kc5557]

@@Psych2go ohmygod you guys replied!! This is a dream come true 🥺. Keep doing all that you're doing! You're helping countless people!

[@meekmeek93]

Really needed this. I’m still trying to find the spark to reignite myself and figure out what makes me feel happy, and I hope I can recover.

[@Psych2go]

Well, a good place to start may be to ask what made you feel happy before you started struggling. Was there anything that you enjoyed or made you feel happy before?

[@shockdojo4287]

Depression to me makes me feel like I just want to stay asleep but sad depressed. You just want to sleep to keep Dreaming and then you know you can’t do that and have to get up and start your day.

[@adrianaribeiro7609]

Psych2go is blessed with one of the most comforting and beautiful voices I've ever heard! Amanda Silvera is an incredible narrator! .It warms my heart every time I listen to one of your videos! And it's all so relatable! Thank you!

[@PearlPaisley]

This was really beautiful. Life is fragile and its not easy doing the best out of it. But we can try. And if we fail new chances and possibilities will come.

[@maddog6779]

You rarely understand the words spoken to you until it is time to use them. You will fail at some point but you will remember these sweet words, those nice days, the things you liked and how you felt and you will realize a lot about what makes YOU tick a long with what actually gives you happiness and purpose. Don't forget to listen to the words spoken every once and awhile.

[@rigger49er]

This was dope. Just sent this to my wife and daughter hope they let it sink in🙏🏽❤️

[@kevinjbakertribe]

The great thing is it shows that recovery is full of setbacks, and that is simply part of the process - it is all too easy to let the setbacks drag you back down, but knowing they are normal helps.

[@elsaqueen8872]

It’s a shiver to a spine that some strangers, someone we never ever gonna meet, know us better than the people around us. This unexplained emotion is hard. Thanks Psych2go, for speaking out loud.

[@SuperSpartan14]

To anybody reading this may the Lord bless you and keep you, may the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you, may the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace shalom.

[@leesalovely2782]

Thank you❤

[@XforXenon]

Hi Psych2go....❤ I wish to share to you that whatever you speak touches the bottom of my heart as i am perplexed and amazed at your stories being so simillar to mine. You provide me with unconditional motivation and love and i have a constant urge to share it with others too. Thank you for helping a man who loves to help others but often forgets to help himself. You made me realise i need to talk to myself more🥰✨

[@Psych2go]

Wow! Thank you so much for the kind words! We hope that you found the video encouraging and helpful :)

[@XforXenon]

@@Psych2go I sure did find it helpful... I even downloaded it😊🥰

[@GHOST.ART.C]

Ever feel like you got no one to talk to about this type of stuff but that one friend. ..This channel is my one friend

[@Reputation2656]

thank you so much !! this video really helped me .... I've been suffering from depression for the last few months and yes it comes crashing like a wave. I hate myself too much that even if it isn't my fault I punish myself I feel guilt, and remorse and feel like I am useless all the time that sometimes I can't control my emotions all these days I've locked away my emotions trying to act like everything is fine even when it's not and I don't have anyone to share this thing with cause all they say is "u are fine you are just overacting " and change the convo......it hurts DAMN bad!....I think it started when my friends were backbiting me and then had to listen to these really awful sentences from my parents and it all broke down when my grandma died......then I found your channel and it really helped me a lot trying to understand myself and heal myself .....I am not entirely healed yet but I am trying my hard to feel okay again... sorry if this is too long, but i am grateful that i found your channel.... THANK YOU Psych2Go!!

[@TheMissmicki]

...its nice to know that we as humans with these thoughts, these feelings are not abnormal, especially in an abnormal world. Life can be tricky. Control what you can.

[@battletwo367]

The feeling of despair and hopelessness can only be salvaged by winning and a strong resolve-

[@ronn0246]

That was so beautiful 😢😢😭 And I can relate - I always wanted things to go smoothly but they didn't. I had ups and downs. I developed a fear when I wanted to get better bc when everything seems fine again and then it crashes, you start losing hope. It's frustrating. But now I really am better and I don't think I'm gonna fall in that place again. I'm somehow sad but at the same time grateful for my miserable journey towards maturity. But I couldn't skip it 😅 - not in my family. I'm grateful that things fell into place.

[@calebharris4764]

Crazy enough. I'm dealing with this kind of up and down situation for real right now. Some of these videos I find at the right time. Thank you for this !

[@RasmusBerggren-uo6uu]

The type of weathers can actually effect how you feel or the environment. Sometimes it helps to just see how plants and other creatures can survive in a environment that is almost impossible to survive. It makes me feel that if something can survive in so hostile environments then I can get out of my bad habits.

[@Skoopyghost]

I get winter depression. Icelandic summers are bright, but the winters are dark. If that's what you deal with.

[@MyBlueAngel]

Psych2go has been a true blessing in my life. The last few years have been very hard. Just when i think noone understands and im truly alone i get a notification from psych2go. I smile and feel hope as i press play. I always come away feeling seen and less alone. Thanks so much to everyone at psych2go. Much love.💞😇💞

[@Zasz799]

You earned many hugs for this, it's a pity i found this clip only 10 months after you shared. For weeks, months, some of us are simply drifting away, when the "flash" in the dark happens. And this is not even the begin of the journey, it's more of a sign, a sign that for a brief moment hits your head and says "claim your life". Then it can disappear in a matter of hours. Most of us are digging their way out of that burial ground -that is depression or other heavily impairing mental issue- in a randomly manner, nobody knows how far has gone. But if you succeed, it happens (my humble experience) fast, like a burst. It's not like before, everybody changes, and who struggle with this kind of war need to adapt and accept a lot more than others. Still digging and waiting for a second "rebirth"

[@monikagin]

Thanks for the soothing video. For anyone struggling to make ends meet and suffering in any way, healing starts with little sparks of hope, faith & belief in themselves. I feel sympathy for the parents too. Parents parent the way they were parented. Most are unaware & unwilling to see the problem as the problem, instead of blaming the person as the problem. We can't change others. Let us be the best parents we wanted.

[@TheLovelybbe]

Thats exactly how I feel I had a mental breakdown at work but I'm trying taking one step at a time what may seem silly to other it's a big achievement to you my big step was going into the garden even though it was only for 10 minutes

[@Psych2go]

What does the garden represent for you? Is it the physical act of going into the garden that you consider big achievement? Or is there something within the garden (such as a plant) that you tend to?

[@TheLovelybbe]

@Psych2go Tending to my pumpkins but most importantly trying to be out in the sun I've spent my days when I'm not at work locked In my food and only eating at night when everyone is asleep maybe tomorrow I'll go back out for 20 minutes or maybe an hour

[@paeonyxi]

Thank you for making these videos, for me i feel like numb for years now, most people don't know because out there i'm smiling and stuff but back home things hit me hard in the feels sometimes, especially since a part of me is forever missing, it only comes out to a few people now sadly; now i'm more fearless then before and sometimes this scares me 😕

[@dilminithakshila4582]

Thank you. This is how I feel exactly . I understand now I should take a step forward in my life.

[@PichuGamerFNF]

Why, WHY is this video so relatable. I feel like the greatest person in the world. But then now I feel like crap. And then when I saw this video I cried, because it was literally the most change I have experienced in my life. Just because of one video is the best thing that I could experience to learn, that I’m not alone. And I just love this video, shared it with all my friends and they were all related to this, I feel at ease when I watch Psych2Go and this is easily my favorite video this channel is a blessing, and shows me why I am like this. And everything this channel has produced makes me warm and happy and I love it. Keep doing the great work guys! 😊

[@trinsit]

I have depression as well. It is every day, but when I started yoga traditional practices from Isha Foundation, the cycles have gone down to almost stopping. I love your videos. Hope you feel better.

[@Rick74280]

Thank you. I really mean it. Videos like this one make me feel like life's not that heavy after all, or at least it doesn't have to be so all the time.

[@MattMagnani]

I saved this video when it was uploaded but haven't watched since. Doing some organization on my playlists today I suddenly met it. I tried to watch and... It was the exactly video for the situation I'm rn. I could hold back the tears from halfway through the video.

[@aayushichaubey3415]

I am actually going through something similar. This video was very helpful as it made me realise my journey isn't going to be smooth and expecting it to be so would only delay it. Upload more like these. ❤

[@Sovietcountry]

I understand how after a long time doing normal things are just amazing to feel and makes us more happy and that depression is not just sadness and that most people think that it’s just sadness and this channel actually helped me go trough hard times and I wish I would’ve seen this channel when I had depression it really took a small amount of time before I knew that I had it I just knew it everything… just my grandma passed away my dad died in a car accident my mother didn’t understand too I had no more friends I just didn’t know how that happed nothing felt good anymore so I just stayed in bed and the only thing I did other than staying in bed was destroying the spider webs in my room near my bed so thank you for reading this comment so have a really happy day and thank you again for being here 😊

[@Un_dyn]

Hey Psych2Go, I know you have already made a video about Bottling up your emotions, but lately I've felt that when i want to express and sort of emotions at times they almost don't come out or they come out almost 'half-heartedly' and i feel like I haven't been enjoying life the way I'd thought that I had originally thought too. Maybe there are some things on 'signs your emotional bottle is choked'? If it isn't possible, its ok, i just prefer to watch videos like yours to be able to identify things about myself and this could help others.

[@AymanPsychology]

that exactly what happened to me a few months ago and now I can say a small steps of actions take me from the valley of depression and that happened gradually 🌹

[@missandi1971]

Thanks for reminding me that I am not alone and not incapable.

[@Greycatuk]

Your honesty is everything, for the good and the bad parts. Thankyou so much x

[@RezChick1]

When I feel I can't keep going, always come back for knowledge on why I feel this way thank you for constant uploads watching videos understanding puts me at ease knowing I'm not alone thank you.

[@Hiratjea]

This made me so emotional. The fact I have to wait untill the new year to even get a psychologist is really upsetting. Idk how I’m gonna get through it but this gave me hope. I don’t enjoy the things I used to as much anymore. It’s like I just have a void inside of me nothing can fill anymore. I always feel like there is something wrong with me, I always ask myself why I just can’t be normal and just be happy. But I’m just constantly uncomfortable. Constantly sad. I hope I can one day achieve that happiness. Fill that void again.

[@destinyphaenomen8046]

Life is good.. sometimes. But there are times who I feel .. lonely. I mean I have good friends, friends who always here for me but .. I miss the connection to other or new people. But I connect with new people I feel so.. I don’t know, so unsecure, scared to make a connection. So I run away, even if I don’t want to. Maybe I think they will not like me anyways. Or maybe I’m a bad influence, because of my negative thoughts. I don’t know, I wish I don’t have that kind of feeling. Maybe I put so much pressure because of that.. instead of just living my life.

[@geemail369]

I found the flatness and indifference erperienced towards everyday life itself whilst constantly facing setbacks to be the hardest part to conquer, since it was leaving me with no rational or emotional drive to push for anything, unsure wether it was just habit or genuine willpower that kept me going. Made it through an recovered though - sticking to a plan and taking good care of the basics. 🌱

[@Imoenn]

Been on recovery over a year now, all because I allowed toxicity in my life for years (my family) not being told I'm not enough, the opposite but their actions told a very different story. I sadly don't have "my own place" I have to rent and I have a very nasty room mate that's jealous of me having "Time off." It's worth it though. I don't have a family (I never did tbh) and when I read my old diary of how I was with them, I'm very proud of myself for getting where I am now, even if it sometimes feels like I've done nothing.

[@yiravarga]

I just don’t see or understand how there can be beauty in the healing process. I can in things, and interests, and so on. I’m in the months (or years) long process of just doing what I enjoy, and taking in every moment of peace I can. This whole video describes my life for the past two years. It is simple to understand and convey depression in general. It is extremely difficult to convey the intensity, the extent, the lengths of time, and just how deep and serious it really can be. I hope more people will understand that depression can be as extreme as wiping you out all day everyday for even decades.

[@Tbgoes123]

This channel is so relatable… Love the channel…

[@zsejtak47monika94]

girl...i feel like i wanna be your friend....i think we are the same...i lived literally the same how you told us in this video....and its...so touching in heart to me

[@bharathym]

When you were talking about how listening to your therapists voice is calming and relaxing that’s how we feel when we listen to yours :). It’s very relaxing :D❤

[@crow3370]

I've been in the dark for years it took me almost 30 years to Ahmet it and it was very hard even now it's still dark i have a very dark mind set and it gets very dark very fast

[@Sefiiin]

I’ve been dealing with depression for almost 20 years now, and I’m only 31 years old. I live in a third world country where mental health is not taken seriously. Most of my life, I feel like I’m useless and full of drama. The past few weeks have been really hard for me, and the relapsing depression is creeping on me. Listening to this makes me feel seen. I am crying my eyes out. I really wanne be healthy mentally again. I know I am not alone.

[@reyrb6011]

Feeling alone in a "depression going into the healing phase" is the most miserable experience especially when u try to get help but people actually just make u feel lonelier because they can't understand what the situation is and you don't understand urself so u can't well explain it to them and u just pretend that they are actually helping because u dont wanna invalidate their help efforts and it makes u feel the loneliest.

[@Dseated]

Thank you for your perspective!

[@Yukiyusitzmeh]

YAY Iove these types of videos :D keep up the good work! ♡

[@NocturnisNight]

Keep up the good work Psych2Go! I love your content!

[@oatybiscuits6129]

Even when im rly happy... ...Its nice to feel sadness every once in a while!

[@piegirl8263]

I really needed this I've been having a pretty bad relapse.

[@JaydenVera-cj5pu]

Sorry for late comment. You did your best animation. Keep it up. More subscribers to come. 😊

[@katiesanders96]

I don’t have depression to the same level, but I cried throughout the whole video anyway because it’s so relatable

[@SnorProductions]

Thanks for helping me! I’m currently being helped by my friend just because of u.. ❤❤❤

[@chair2045]

This is a beautiful video, thank you

[@hayal4300]

That's the thing i needed most rn

[@SigynRegn]

This is pretty nice scenario tbh. I can't quit my job, which I hate. My husband can't provide for two. So it's impossible for me to do this nice time consuming recovery...

[@clairdelune9341]

I had no words after this video 📹 😢 the struggle is real 🌱💚 thank you @psych2go for everything and I hope everyone is happy and well 🎉

[@pilothyper]

I’m… lost for words on how whole-hearted the psych2go team is… okay- allow me to comprehend… they literally, deviated from their usual style of videos, made up 13 MINUTES OF STORY, VOICEOVER’D IT, ANIMATED IT, DID THE RESEARCH… At this point, anyone who says that psych2go should not exist, really has not thought that opinion through man…

[@Psych2go]

❤️❤️ Thank you so much for the kind words! Did you enjoy the new story format? Any feedback you can provide for us? :)

[@pilothyper]

@@Psych2go I enjoyed it very much, it very nicely provided an accurate view of how such situations look like, and it is very inspiring to start doing something against depression with the depiction of the character getting better. Honestly, I severely struggle to find anything bad about this video.

[@RMdmcy-NamShaForever]

Nice to meet y'all😁💙👋 Time travelled here...😂✌️

[@Mari_da_Fairy]

This was actually 8 months ago?-

[@LordWitherRatio]

Nice bug.

[@simplysparedxx25]

Wtf time traveler

[@RMdmcy-NamShaForever]

😂🤣 Guys we can find unlisted videos in their channel's playlists... When it becomes public, meaning they release it, we can view comments made on these videos when it was kept unlisted That's how my comment is 8 months ago in this video😆 not any big magic trick🤭 if you have any experience with uploading videos in KZbin, you'll understand this

[@Mari_da_Fairy]

@@RMdmcy-NamShaForever oh-

[@user-cn3qd3us4z]

Thank you for the videos

[@cookiecookie2010]

The process of recovering is very buetifull and it makes cry every time

[@nubreed1980]

This is exactly me these days. The whole clip.

[@siobhanscott5648]

This is me right now

[@sergeomiller4267]

This is me all my life

[@marcellkiss2050]

I feel like this every day every time i get my hope back i fail get guilty lose all self worth lose it and get it back sometimes but i don't know why i'm feeling this way it's like im not supposed to it's like i'm supposed to feel happy

[@neonpulse49]

Thanks for this video.

[@-.Hannah.-]

I have depression and my friend does too I'm worried for her and I don't care about my health I care about hers more than mine.

[@whatpach8145]

But I can't explain myself: I don't have the depression; I have the motivation to continue doing my hobby; I still have the motivation to continue my path. But still: feel embarrassed for little things that we can say as common; blame myself for everything; can't find a way to stop doing everything with less hate to my mother (even when she has changed). That is why I can't explain how my logic works

[@d-padqueen1103]

I totally get this. Especially when my sister came out with "depression isn't real, it's just a way for people to make excuses to be lazy." Ironic she got depression some 20 years later and got hostile with everything I suggested...

[@thehappiness2741]

Thank you so much for your support may God bless you ❤

[@CarmineKar98K]

It's something awful when the only place you find peace is when you sleep, it's even worse when you feel like you don't want to wake.

[@KittyxEva]

Depression can trigger if you're to lonely or if ur introverted..And if ur introverted its sad..Being bothereded by people.

[@anamago7760]

Thank you for making this video I really needed it ❤

[@Psych2go]

Thank you for the kind words! Did you enjoy the story?

[@anamago7760]

​@@Psych2go Yes I sort of related to the story!

[@niasiamack9333]

Fantastic video ⭐

[@GalaxyWeeb423]

I wish my mom would understand mental health. She calls me lazy when I don't have the motivation to get out of bed or do anything. I have Anxiety, depression, adhd and probably more undiagnosed things. I just don't know what to do she doesn't understand, I want to be able to have a therapist or someone to talk to but how do I do that I'm only 15. I'm struggling in school. I can't control my emotions and find my self crying for no apparent reason. I just want to be normal again!

[@VigyatBorayara]

I can relate to this single video so muchhh rn😭

[@Sila_Elizabeth2468]

True I can't fell how I fell...

[@MrJesikakipashki]

"Just DO things again!" WoW, thanks.

[@amydungan6134]

I definitely relate to this..

[@cooldigirl26]

Thank you

[@user-ck1xh4dt8n]

Interesting how Psy is just living, as if he owns the house and in it food and water that never ends. Convenient to be a cartoon.

[@nayananja3328]

I don't how but I feel like it's my story right now but I didn't discover my light back. Life is hard 🥺🥺

[@hopedunkel2298]

I call my depression 'the fog'' . Thank God for my prozac.

[@weirdwillowtree4087]

Bro why does this have so many time travelers

[@Hunts-so1jb]

I wanna change get over my issues and fix my mental health but I’ve got no idea where to start came to the realization that I have childhood trauma and my whole development, identity, and personality got screwed up in the process, pushed so many people away ruined so many chances for myself and continue to self sabotage and not even sure who I am anymore or if my toxicity is permanent and no one will ever really want me around again sorry to pity rant but I needed to toss this out for my own sake

[@shortbuscaptain]

I’m doing my best but it’s never, ever good enough. Nothing will help because I’ve tried.

[@Reputation2656]

I really hope you find your way through taking small steps and finally find peace,love and happiness🙏Don't loose hope

[@proggornashibatorh]

it's funny how i watched lots of Psych2go videos, but never felt "THIS IS ME" thing...

[@dannydanny9875]

I love every single word.

[@botropsletsplay3305]

Oh I know this feeling.. but im not depressed. atleast I think so ;)

[@unknown11215]

Me 2

[@gourisikandar6398]

It's looking like a narration of my life page by page.

[@lacelacey115]

thank you

[@repukas5359]

This is so real...

[@TheAmandafosho]

You described me. All of it.

[@muppetfan77show26]

Good story 😊