Psychotherapist Reacts To Tool - The Grudge

[@BuzzaB77]

"transmutate these leaden grudges into gold" is one of the most eloquent ways of saying "learn and grow from these lessons" I have ever heard

[@Vesuvius081]

Very thoughful Reactions, please don’t give up on “Analyzing” Tool for Us…

[@Spudz76]

Saturn's return to the zodiac constellation it was in at your birth (comes back around) happens every 29.5 years and lasts about 2.5 years as it transits the width of the constellation, and is said to mark transitional points in ones life, first as youth into adulthood (age 29.5), second into maturity (age 59), and third into elderly (age 88.5) should you be lucky enough to make it three returns. Choose 1 or 10 is reference to the Kabbalah Tree of Life which has 10 (though sometimes 11) branches. Branch one is "crown" and branch ten is "kingdom", so this reference means to choose to remain selfish and retain the crown as emperor and dictator of your own reality, or to choose kingdom which would be including all others into a blended harmonious reality which requires forgiveness and benefit of the doubt and things like innocent until proven guilty, all based on the fact that your perspective could be wrong or at least socially unproductive and isolating. "Saturn Devouring His Son" is a painting by Spanish artist Francisco Goya and is the suspected second theme behind the child section, as Saturn was afraid of his son usurping him (a basal grudge) and chose to eat him to control that outcome, but spitting him out instead would therefore would be forgiveness and acceptance of what "is" and allowing whatever happens to be okay and the natural order of things. Turning lead into gold is alchemy and is allegedly impossible but that doesn't mean it's not worth the effort, and maybe when it comes to grudges switching from poisonous brain-damaging and cheap lead into inert and chemically reactionless and valuable gold actually is possible.

[@b055123]

He could be referring to the 7 step process of spiritual alchemy. The second step is dissolution which is basically taking the ashes we burn from the first step (calcination) in water. The fire of calcination is burning what doesn't serve us anymore and the second step of dissolution is submerging the ashes into water. Dissolution can be understood as the stage in which we free ourselves from our inauthentic and acquired sense of identity. In Jungian terms, it's dissolution of the ego.

[@viking_nor]

​@b055123 if so why 10?

[@b055123]

@@viking_nor why 10 what?

[@bonessasan]

@@Spudz76 I figured I couldn't be the only one who thought of Saturn Devouring his Son when listening to this song but haven't seen anyone else mention it before. I'll admit to being intimidated by trying to interpret the symbolism in Tool's songs, I'm probably too aware there are many things I don't know. Feels like bringing a Playskool hammer, screwdriver and saw to a real construction site.

[@allisauce]

@@viking_nor 1 and 10 are from numerology. Basically 1 means change/start new and 10 means stay the same/start over. So, to put this in the context of the song, Saturn's return is a time of judgement... you can choose 1 (to change) and be lifted to a higher level of consciousness, or choose 10 (to stay the same) and have Saturn send you back down to start over until the next time of judgement and you learn to change.

[@ronsoderstrom7967]

That scream... the deeply painful yet cathartic release, as long as the ego. Then, chaos and confusion until the smoke clears to find, once again, the unifying rhythm.

[@thegingermenace8593]

I'm your typical Tool fan! I've been to every concert, bought every album, and I love them today as much as I did when they put out "Opiate" when I was 16. I'm 47 now and Tool has been a huge part of my entire life! They have put out mind blowing content for so many years now! They are my absolute favorite and I want to hear intelligent reactions because this music is all brilliant! P. S. I'm also a huge Ren fan as much as Tool. He is the only artist that fills that "hole" that I fill with music the way Tool has for me. Please keep doing these kind of reactions! 😃❤

[@zacharywedel4202]

If you keep doing Tool, we will keep coming. This type of intellectual reaction is what we thrive off of. We, as in the Tool Army. Yes, I spoke in place of others, so my bad.

[@shannontreiber1070]

You spoke correctly for us all:)

[@nicknick2903]

If you want to hear a song about crucifying the ego, the song reflection off this same album means a lot to me.

[@marmarsmandalas]

You’re in man! TOOL Army Forever!❤️🌀

[@adamglegg7202]

I've been going through this transformation for a couple of years now, I've made myself completely vulnerable and let go of so much and I can see a change - now I just have to get out of the shadows ❤

[@jimmymarcinonis5958]

Please please please do more Tool reactions. Your analysis is pure gold! Love it!

[@eviljeep]

This song was my GOAT for a decade 👌 Still in my top 5 🤟 Tool's amazing band! Tx 🖐️

[@cikame]

Glad you touched on the musical journey in this one, it's common for Tool songs to have rises and falls but here i feel it speaks specifically to the process of letting go (ha) of a grudge, all the way to the point where toward the end the quiet investigative motiff from the beginning returns leading to a slow build and an almighty scream, if it wasn't obvious enough Maynard starts chanting "let go" and the entire band goes completely off the rails, it makes you want to run and scream and cry and thrash and punch and kick, in other reactions i've seen people tear up at this moment because all the emotion the song has built up to this point is pushed out, and it's done with a couple guitars and some drums... it's amazing.

[@rexahdar4199]

I appreciate your expert analysis at several levels. Thank you.

[@MusicHealsHQ]

Glad you like them!

[@lisacolburn3393]

I scream with Maynard often. Tool is like a hug for ur soul

[@rosie-ella76]

you're fast becoming my favourite reaction channel! thank you ! found you through the Force that is ren !!😂 x

[@WoofHmmmmmmmm]

Fantastic reaction. Thank you.

[@MusicHealsHQ]

Glad you enjoyed it!

[@kava365]

What an insightful analysis...I've been a big fan of this band for quite e a long time now, and I really resonate with your interpretation of this song

[@earthscorcher]

Thank you for sharing more about the shadow work part of this interpretation. It was very helpful in why this song has always hit me so hard, but I never knew why. Going to have to work further into it.

[@amynicholecervantes3065]

This is one of my most favorite Tool songs. I think it articulates perfectly the connection between holding on to anger and the detrimental mental and physical ramifications of that. This is something I couldn't understand until I was nearly 40. I believe the anger I carried manifested itself in my addictions to mind altering substances.

[@attackofthequasars]

Thank you for your time and thoughtful and empathetic commentary. I love your Tool reactions.

[@MusicHealsHQ]

I appreciate that!

[@RosettaStoned462]

Yay! Get to watch a Tool reaction from you before going mountain biking with my husband; it's a great day!!! This song is still so good live after all these years. Tool freakin' Tool. Tool army forever!

[@Bruno-xz4xj]

Went through a hard time because of a divorce. Things were done and said, this song just expresses perfectly how i dealt with a lot of bagagge. Everybody just trying to be happy.

[@cainealexander-mccord2805]

Hey Doc, long time no see. Always worth the wait, tho. Thanks for the flashlight on the path.

[@benf1111]

Thank you for your comments. Actually needed to hear them just now.

[@MusicHealsHQ]

You're very welcome! ❤️😎🙏

[@bonessasan]

My theory is that one of the beauties of Tool and their songs is the layered meanings, whatever is accessible to the listener based on their particular development and capabilities, from surface level/easy all the way to very deep/esoteric. That means there's something there for everyone. Then there's the fact they're all highly skilled musicians. Their music tends to hit me viscerally, emotionally, and mentally. I don't have that reaction to many music artists. A week or two I was extremely angry at someone and I carried a grudge for a short while, which isn't like me. There can be more "power" in having a grudge, but I find it tends to be only destructive (and usually inwardly directed for me, which is the last thing I need!). I did think about this song during that time, reminding myself I shouldn't hold onto my anger and hurt feelings. To learn what I needed from the situation moving forward and to not let rage stay inside me longer than absolutely necessary, because it wasn't actually Me but the emotion taking over me. It came back in waves, but weaker each time until it was done. I'm very tired. Lol

[@Sunshiningme-jj9of]

@bonesasson I can really relate to having intense feelings like that and their after effects. It's exhausting to carry that much negativity. Grudges and anger are powerful emotions. They're strong, so strong that you can almost feel your body vibrate. I think it's that internal high stress level that wears me out. The strength of the emotion gives me an incredible amount of energy until it works itself out. And by then, nope. There's no energy left in me at all. 🙏✌️😃💜

[@nickegbg]

damn that end is so beastly

[@jakefromstatefarm1405]

The Tool well is very deep for your type of content, looking forward to more

[@Rovalowy]

I was waiting for another Tool reaction! Thank you!

[@corepuncher]

Excellent expert analysis and content!

[@MusicHealsHQ]

Much appreciated!

[@lokidecat]

You're definitely Captain James in the Tool Army at this point. Appreciate your review!

[@Nicci-the-coach]

I love hearing the deeper take on this song. To me, it’s one of the deepest ones they ever put out. Thank you for that educated insight!

[@EzraStrayer]

You Ara 100% on the button

[@PetrisFitness]

This guy is always the most descriptive about this greatness

[@shadowfox9713]

I really love your thoughts and insight on the matter. Would like to see your reaction/ opinion on "Stickfist" from Tool.

[@TB-sp9jy]

My long time and second love. Tool has helped me through many a struggle.

[@TEMPOSDJ]

Horus Luprecal and his fall. Hate is such a primal emotional backdrop for the music

[@jeremyhess7977]

Horus was a fool albeit a brilliant general. His father seems to have chosen poorly. Sanguinius should have been Warmaster, with The Lion and Dorn acting as co-regents. Anyways... back to Tool and some beneficial self-analysis.

[@bobbou]

I can’t say I expected a 30k reference when I started to scroll through the comments!

[@TEMPOSDJ]

@@bobbou it is so compxen in the end but at the seed it's very simple and those roots run deep and bloom such a wicked plant if we let it. ..we need but feed it.. simple

[@jenniferscott3527]

We welcome you into the Tool Army!

[@b1zk1t911]

You should do Lost Keys/Rosetta Stoned next. Insane story, incredible song

[@b1zk1t911]

@@chriswebb7822 yes

[@napalm750f2]

Daaamn I never thought I needed a therapist till now 🔥🔥🔥🔥 thank you sirr TOoL4Life 🫡

[@very_jenny]

Most reactors focus on the scream. The scream is unworldly, but why does it exist? That's what I find interesting. I love your thoughtful take on this song.

[@CHROME.FINDER]

the scream is supposed to be letting your grudges go, & giving into yourself, as it says in the last lines of the song “let go”

[@billpimentel-vm6cu]

You absolutely need to hear Descending from Tool. Absolutely mind blowing.

[@RosettaStoned462]

@@billpimentel-vm6cu agree i was thinking Invincible first though

[@lp6687]

Great analysis.

[@shannontreiber1070]

This is one of the best reactions to this song.

[@SMAC-wv5rw]

Just found you. Tool army is going to storm your channel!! Love your breakdowns and analysis. Would love to hear your thoughts on my 3 personal favorites. H., Pushit, and Parabol/Parabola

[@zaclovesschool2273]

Hearing the Primitive jungle, primitive part of the mind comment was great, after visiting Yucatan for a study abroad and listening to the Album there, I really started to view the whole album through a primal lens, the sounds evoke the heat and oppressive nature of the jungle, but also the beauty and diversity of life in them. I don't know how they captured that but it's a wonderfully comforting and discomforting experience simultaneously. Also the alchemical and esoteric references are always fun for me since I love exploring those. With choose one or ten, I think it could be referencing the Sefirot of the Tree of Life, where a person is extreme and feels the need to either choose 10 (malkuth, the earth, matter and the world, the kingdom of the earth) or 1 (Keter, the highest aspect of the Godhead, an eternally paradoxical unification of opposites that is the transcendent and immanent nature of the cosmos that we call God). Implying that when people are lost, they feel like they have to choose, but they miss all the steps between those two. OR it's just being at a 1 or a 10, constantly bipolar in attitude and energy.

[@pauldavis2535]

Once a Fan always a Fan

[@peterjohn85]

I watched a couple of your reactions to Tool (I'm a big fan). I like the way you analyse them lyrically, I wasn't expecting that. There's some other psychotherapist reacting to music vids there, but she just reacts to the music, so I don't care if she's a plumber or psychotherapist... You're likeable, all the best.

[@pauldavis2535]

Great reaction 😀

[@MusicHealsHQ]

Glad you enjoyed!

[@ПавелБузыкин-п1ж]

It's tool therapy

[@BuzzaB77]

that 25 second scream shows letting go of the grudge is certainly not easy, in fact its often painful. that's why it's easier to lay still in the blame.

[@44coma]

Facts

[@brianbruno2882]

Love it

[@tutzilla28]

Tool has been playing chess since the Undertow album whilst most other bands have been checkers!

[@benf1111]

"Gotta get an accountant..."😂😂😂😂

[@RegisChapman]

I have always connected this song with an Indian myth called "The Greatness Of Saturn" (Robert Svoboda has a great book on this therapeutic myth) but I know he had read a book that talks about this to some degree but not the book I mentioned. Still, there are a lot of connections there.

[@ted1976hailspiralout]

🤘🏻🌀

[@clairash2004]

Present

[@aaronlarson7028al]

In order to evolve we must die to the Ego 🙏 we are forever and we will always be ego and mind are simply tools not temples to worship at🤘🤘🤘

[@rickd7373]

Great job Corporal! Please check out Tool - Invincible, off their latest album.

[@cyberdemon1702]

Descending! Not as much lyrics to analyze but it’s a ride worth taking! Sort of more laidback Tool and a more conventional structure, if a 13 minute songs has a conventional structure.

[@andyboulais8754]

Please do tools “sober” it’s a very good song!

[@737Parkie]

Whenever I hear this I wonder who has the grudge he’s singing about. He obviously has strong feelings about it. 😬 Nice analysis.

[@TraditionalHippie]

Moar TooL

[@bastiantrabert1948]

DOC DO THIRD EYE PLEASE!!!!

[@Larsern]

Love your reactions and thoughts. Would love to see your reaction to: AURORA - Through The Eyes Of a Child (Live at Nidarosdomen)!

[@Christopher50now]

Do the whole Undertow album.

[@mendronesg]

this song is in 5/8 but the feel changes makes us bug out and lose the beat 😂

[@uraharagaming86]

HI CAN U DO THE PATIENT BY SAME ALBUM I LOVE THAT SONG

[@77Samuel75]

Saturn orbits the sun approximately every 10,000 days. It's a reference to how long Maynards mother was ill. Some of the members of her congregation shunned her, and claimed her illness was brought about by sin. The Scarlett Letter is a mark given to sinners. Those who receive it are shunned. The Cornerstone is a symbol\principal used in many religions, especially Christianity. It usually refers to the foundation in which one's Faith is built upon. Take away the Cornerstone and a person's Faith will crumble. When we hold on to a grudge, it's like a stone weighing us down, and we are often ignorant to the damage it causes to ourselves and others. We can either keep holding on to it and sink, or let it go and rise above it. Maynard wrote several songs, in which he expressed his anger and frustration over what happened to his mom (Judith Marie). However, he finally came to terms with it resulting in a beautiful two-part song dedicated to her memory. (Wings for Marie & Wings for Marie 2\10,000 days)

[@alpo6668]

This was written before her death. 10,000 can’t be relevant.

[@77Samuel75]

@@alpo6668 I didn't say it was written after her death. The Grudge was written in 2001. Maynard's mom passed away in 2003. I don't see how you think, just because it was written 2 years prior to her death, it is irrelevant.

[@alpo6668]

@@77Samuel75 because he would not have known it was around 10,000 days before she died. But whatever you feel it interprets to, that’s fine. That is the beauty of Tool.

[@77Samuel75]

@@alpo6668 Two years prior is only 730 days and she died after being ill a little under 27 years (approx. 9,800 days). However, I agree that one of the things that make Tool so great is Maynard's lyrics, which hold many different meanings, and can be interpreted in many different ways. We may disagree about its meaning, but I think it's obvious that we both share in our appreciation of the song, and our love of Tool's music. In the end that's really all that matters.

[@moonooze6171]

Not every song is about his mom.

[@maxgallagher2535]

next one "THE POT" or "JAMBI"

[@MusicHealsHQ]

😎

[@erikpeterson70]

If your jim morris, does that mean your son is Jim Morrison? Sorry, i had to

[@rukysgream]

Check out "Stan" by Eminem if you wanna hear something about an obsessed fan with an unhealthy parasocial relationship with their favorite artist.